Before I start I want to preface that this is a genuine post and I'm struggling to find guidanceI repped for many years because of thisI feel strongly about being good to others. I think it is important to make others happy at all costs. It is how I was raised, to think of others and disregard myself. I know this doesn't really match with how others see things, but in my point of view, it's a moral imperative to limit harm and bring joy, and morally bankrupt and self-centered to consider one's self and own feelings as a priority. As a result, since a majority of the population hates transgender people, (and when I was very young I thought the same of gay people but I think most people now live and let live with them) thus it is a moral obligation for my self as a transgender person to commit suicide, after repping until my parents die for their sake. I struggled back and forth for years with this. Among other things, it helped keep me in the closet for a very long time. But it always sticks in the back of my mind as an "ultimate truth" and that what I am doing trying to live my life is completely immoral, arguably cruel. It's starting to become a recurring, major thought sequence again after a few years of transitioning and managing to find some little happiness, and now I want to rep and look into exit bags despite things going relatively well, abusive relationship aside. Is there a way to end this guilt, or go through with the obligation? I need freedom from this torture one way or another.
>>41506808The flaw in your plan to endlessly suffer to ease the burden on others is that everybody can tell you're suffering and it's making them uncomfortable. You can't live your life like that, and if everyone strove to then the world would be a deeply sad and empty place. Just transition.
>>41506808Trans people are other people too. We need your help.
normally i would just be a terrible person and tell you to kys but i actually relate to this thread a bit so ill be genuineanon/nette, please be selfish, you are too good a person. its ok not to do this, i know thisll sound hollow but genuinely, you do not deserve this at all. just because people think this way (and doesnt even mean you bring them any harm) should not concern you to this level. go to therapy please, talk to a hotline, do not to through with this. please
>>41506808Hey OP this >>41506913 anon is right. I had those exact same feelings and very similar situation. I ended up transitioning. I’m still numb but atleast I don’t feel a deep empty void of nothingness inside me anymore. Please just transition and be my friend. I’ll be here for you. I know it’s hard. That feeling will go away the more you talk about it and work on your safety and being able to transition. It’s ok to not be ok.
>>41506808Nona, go read this VNhttps://nyaa.si/view/1325411Just trust me on this one. Sit down with it, and read it, entirely. You will see what I mean once you're done.
I've been trying to figure out my identity for years by now and every step I take in doing so only uncovers that I completely and utterly lack one.There's no desires, no beliefs, no sociability, no preferences, no sexuality, no gender, no sense of self. All I am is just a collection of happenstances, and the meek attempt at reducing harm towards others.I recognize the person in the mirror, but he's just as much a stranger to me as everybody else is. The world feels stagnant, disjointed, and nothing that ever happens actually feels like it has any substance.There's still hope that I'm just missing something which will make the world make sense, but it all just feels like a deluded pipedream. I hope at least that some people can relate to this, and are able to feel seen and commiserate.
>>41507576>To be trans to me implies a sense of identity, one which I do not possess, nor was ever able to form. I feel misshapen, malformed and repugnantYes, I remember being 14 and first encountering trans people and my first thought was not "Oh, this is what I am" it was "Huh, could I be like this?" There was no recognition in it, just the idea of experimentation, of hoping I found a box I could fit inside that would make me feel like a person. But I think now that im old I realise no amount of experimentation or exploration will make me feel full.
I trooned. The void is still there. It doesn't fix it. It was a worthwhile troubleshoot. The funny thing is I'm so lacking in identity that being years deep into HRT and having an altered body doesn't perturb me. I'm exactly as dissociated but my form is different. I don't think I'd detrans at this point i have almost no preference either way. There are pros to having an estrogen dominant system and pros to a testosterone dominant one. Anyway I wish I had tips about the void but I can't help you there. I tried writing a list of stuff I used to enjoy and upon introspection found every single one of them was a response to some sort of neglect in order to fill a void. So it's all just like the negative space of where some kind of care should have been.
Man it feels good to just be a basic monkey-man and not some mentally ill intellectual.
>>41507910Keep that energy going anon. It's a better way to be
>>41503259>it's impossible to understand conceptsskill issue lol
troons will insist that they are LITERALLY WOMEN despite looking like scrawny male nerds with chad jaws and receding hairlines. meanwhile, pooners will proudly identify as afab xx lesbians who are nothing like those icky cis men. gender ideology is pure AGP male narcissism and you can clearly see the gender difference on display.
>>41507857>pooner>"labels don't matter", as opposed to the troons who say "I am literally a woman"aren't you just, like... proving my point?>>41507864that's because they aren't AGP like TIMs are.
>>41507687Fpbp, OP is a (proverbial and literal) fag and should lurk moar before poasting again
>>41507864No this isnt true, one of the most hardcore binary trans medicalists I know is ftm
>>41507661idk I'm trans and really really bad at driving so it's probably not that
>>41507661Everyone are women. Go look at videos of tribes. They all act like faggots. That's the natural state of humanity. Modern males are not real people, they are homunculi who were created to die in wars and purchase axe bodywash and gaming computers.
trans WOMEN do u have autism and adhd
i have adhd but i have not been diagnosed with autism
i have autism but i have not been diagnosed with adhd
St4t couple where both see each other as basically a guy friend they can fuck.Realistically this can only happen between a gigapasser ftm and a tomboy mtf.Truly think about it. Mtfs are hot because they’re women with autism and personality. Ftms are hot because they’re a guy you can fuck. They would go so well together
>>41507799Please jerk off before making a new thread like this
we are allowed one per board
>>41507458QA WON
>>41507446i'm improving board morale bitch
>>41507458No shit >>41507468Fucking hang yourself on a door knob
>>41507440thats more of a board with a lot of tranny posters
so yah
It's only worth transitioning if you actually end up with a straight husband.
>troon out>pass, fuck year>get bf>he attempts to troon out on me after i move in with him>nope.jpgIt's not worth it, sisters.
>>41507976Meeting troons turns GAMPs into AGAMPs.
>>41506483>HRT 5years>Laser/electrolysis>FFS>BA>OrchiWifed by heterosexual cisgender husband.
>>41506483my husband is bi but ya pretty much. i transitioned in 2014 and we started dating in 2018. being able to date men that aren’t gay is one perk of trooning out.
We all heard of the "gay face" but who else can instantly recognize a chaser by his face? I think the bug like eyes give it away.
theres this chaser that bartends at my local bar and i would lowk let him. like i know its not a good idea but he could make me feel like a woman in a capacity that girls just cant
>>41506167Isn't that diaper baby Sam Hyde
>>41506167Usul ?
>>41506176are you joking??
Do i look like a chaser ?
MtF, transitioned ~15 years ago.Basically haven't been on 4chan in 8~ years.* Still have my wiener* only date cis women* seldom interact with trans womenAsk me anything.(sorry I missed replies from last thread, I was asleep)
>>41504483No need to apologize.I knew I needed to transition because I was quite aware that avoiding transition, out of fear of mistake, or just general fear, was slowly killing me. So whatever I thought the outcome was, I just had to do it.I don't really think repressing works well for anyone.I encourage you to read some of my other posts, like >>41503616My bit of wisdom is that the moment I took antiandrogens, regardless of how well I passed or what my outcome might be, my brain stopped screaming at my body, in a way, about the hormones pulsing in my body. And estrogen only helped me fall into the fold of being myself.It reminds me of Jim Sinclair saying, "Far be it from me to say God made a mistake. I don't think God made a mistake with me. I like who I am."Your journey is hard, but I believe in you, and I believe you can get to a point, regardless of external validation and stresses, although community is important, where you can feel the same as Jim.Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>41507422For a while I used to think I liked men. It's kind of funny about the AGP/HSTS thing. Because I actually started out thinking I liked men railing me, but really I just liked that they enjoyed having me cross dress for them, and I didn't realize that *that* was the part that felt very validating and nice.
>>41501782>only date cis womenWhy? Trans women belong to straight cis men.
>>41507522how did you realise that you weren't into men, like did you stop being aroused by male bodies, or did never like them visisually and were just into the validation and attention men gave you?
>>41507353Latestage male puberty is a myth. I started at 21. No brow ridge, no wide chin, no square jaw, no wide shoulders, no wide rib cage, no hairline loss.
If trans women are women then so are these.
i wish i tried one of these before srs it seems really fun desu
>>41506499yessss you know the waypenis on penis but DAMP
>>41506815what is DAMP
>>41505613Yes, but only if it was washed in estrogen.
>>41505653Why did you get scared? Is it because they were talking about it in a really rough way that stripped the act of sex of any reference to passion and emotion? Were they just kinda barbarians abt it?
Me? I only date trans women and gay men because they're easier to get along with and more fun to be around than legacy women
>>41507940its easy to manipulate both but trans women at least have fun hobbies
>>41507890>Me?no one fucking asked tho
first time I considered dating men I was just like>wait, you can do that? I'm gonna do that.
You're a virgin and it shows. Legacy women are the easiest to "get along with" in the short term because there is a well worn path to follow, everyone knows their role. Trans women can easily go into meltdown mode so good luck getting anything to go for more than a couple of days.In the long run (if you can even get something with an MTF to last more than a couple of weeks) things start to even out because that's when cis woman gaslighting begins, that's when all the saved up ammo she has observed from those little things she let slip but tucked away for later comes for its payback. With trans women there's that stuff plus a lot of self-directed gaslighting so you've got two different pressures trying to derail everything.So getting anything with a woman to last for the long run is a herculean task, but because of the sunk cost fallacy you're more likely to "make it work" with a cis woman, if that's what you want.
>>41507998fag
Trans people are getting assassinated by authorities and this is being ruled as "suicide". COINTELPRO 2.0 has launched.
Hey anons, I made this graph to illustrate how submissive/dominant and goofy/sexy a few different accents sound. Can you help me fill it out and maybe move a few things around?
>>41507868? I thought they were pretty universally considered hot. Slavic accents in general are all pretty hot.
British accents are fucking disgusting.
>>41507883maybe some decades ago when they were good at chess and showed up in James Bond and stuff, now at least in my country the accent is associated with being stupid/poor, it'd be like saying you find indian accents sexy
>>41507772there's way too many bonglander accents, which one did you base this on?
>>41507958Indian accents can be sexy if you aren't racist. Half the world is brown in some capacity, I plan to move to brazil if things get too dire in all of the cracker countries. And so I have learned to find it charming.
>be me>met up with friend, my partner, and other friend>friend's friend joins>looks at me the entire night as if I'm a piece of meat, snaps some pictures of me without asking trying to hide it (wtf), and clearly comes onto me>fast forward today>meet up with same group again except no friend's friend>friend tells me his friend found me very hot>friend asks me if I'm in an open relationship Chaserbros pls
>>41503765Not the pictures c'mon. Why didn't you all break his legs as soon as you saw him doing that? The fuck are you all foinh?
>>41507299Fr lol>>41507501They're non-confrontational and friend whose friend it is didn't noticeAnd i just dissociate and submit because that's me yay
>>41503765>>41507293Nigga kys, cheating bitch ass hoe
>>41507730>been in a loving relationship with the same person for 7y>cheating???
The crazy thing about the instant creepy pictures and propositions and shit is that he's probably doing it because its worked for him in the past. Are tranners really that easy? I'd feel like such a fucking scumbag doing that to a tranner and I'm not even someone who believes in gender politics/science at all, just basic human decency. t. chaser
Just raped a couple of trannies today. Also just learnt one of my previous victims hanged himself. AMA
Now I understand how macrophages feel.
>>41506145WHats your dick like?
>>41506145are you indian? jeets are unusually willing to have sex with troons. they're just prone to killing them afterwards to cover up loose ends
are you brown\
