Boyboobs editionLast time >>35453252QOTT: do you own the meme shark or any other plushies? If so how many?
>>35479892wow bmg really is ded
>>35479892No longer a boy modern but this threads topic reminds me of my highschool bully announcing that I had boy titties to my entire physics class. I thought they weren't visible.
>>35479892I wish I had more plushiess! ;_; I have my childhood panda plushie a discord wumpus plushie, a tiger plushie, and two preforce bee plushies. To the tech people who know what that is.I hope I can find a partner who buys me plushies
>>35479892rest in peace bmg. today a cashier didnt recognize my id card, so a small victory i guess
Whyyyyy am i here>>35479892>QOTT: do you own the meme shark or any other plushies? If so how many?Yes i own the meme shark! Never been into plushies but i bought it for the memes and I've actually grown to like him:)) i also have a squshmallow that called to me in the store and a mini that i rescued in Spain as a memento of my ffs trip. He hangs out with the plants above my closet
>>35479892i did buy into the blahaj meme but i have two other plushies that are Jill and Dana from VA-11-Hall-A. Would like more but don't have the money or space to get more right now
>>35481541>VA-11 Hall-Abased af, one of the most comfy games I ever played
>>35479892We're still trying this?>QOTTI have like 13 plushies, all of them except for the shark are from my childhood
>>35481519ahhh i love him>>35481541ooo those are nice. i loved Va11Halla, sequel never ;_;>>35479892I do not own the meme shark. a cis friend of mine actually made me go to ikea with her to buy it wayyyy back before it became a trans thing, but its cute. i instead own a bazillion plushies. i have a ton of fumos, pokemon plushies, and some ones i got on vacation like Nessie and a shiba inu squishmallow. they all sit on my sofa for comfy tv cuddles >>35481382;_; >>35481748attempt 4 in the past 4 days lol
>>35481771Yeah I know, I even made one bmg myself but like the gen is dead af and I think we might have to just try again in a couple months
>>35481793yeah i dont get what killed it. random bitterhons or whatever but it was active just a week ago. guess its a curve who knows.
>>35481856Oh yeah I have no fucking idea what did it either. A while ago we even managed to hit the bump limit in one day >random bitterhonsIdk if they're so random
>>35481891yeahhh, i mean its just the two. i know there's now a discord so maybe people just are hanging out there, but it's nice to have a little general thread.
>>35481541>VA-11-Hall-A<33333That is my airplane game ^^anytime i fly somewhere i have to bust out the switch and mix up some drinks~>>35481771>shiba inu squishmallowNeedPic?>>35481793I don't think it will ever return to its former glory It's a bummer but probably for the better
>>35481923Yeah honestly I wish they'd leave bmg and never return but that's not gonna happenPersonally I prefer a general rather than a discord server, because of the anonymity it feels much comfier>>35481939I just wish it wasn't dead, I'm okay with it not being super active but it's sad to see it die before it reaches even a 100 replies
>>35481985Discord sucks assChatting vs posting, etc>sad to see it die before it reaches even a 100 repliesBe the ((bump)) you wish to see in the world
>>35481939Pic!
>>35482009Yeah I hate discord>Be the ((bump)) you wish to see in the worldI always try to artificially keep bmg alive unless I'm asleep
>>35481985I like a general more. I think discord is a little too intimate and gets a little too hugboxxy. but agreed with just bumping the thread- and if you havent added /bmg/ to be at the top of your 4chan filters do that too! >>35481939>I don't think it will ever return to its former glory. It's a bummer but probably for the betterwhere do boymoders on /tttt/ hangout these days then? like /mmg/ gets bump limit bc of pure sobbing, and /mtfg/ gets bump limit out of cattiness, but comfy generals get 85 posts and page 9'd. so sad.
>>35479892i recently got a piercing and the piercer clocked me and asked if i went by a different name after seeing my ID... i suspect him of being a trans man bc i live in the deep south and cis men probably would not have asked me such a thing but idk, im even more scared to go outside now D:>QOTTi owned a little shark but then i got worried it was going to be lonely when i wasn't with it so i got a big shark to accompany it. other than them i have a couple squishmallows ^_^
>>35482054I never joined the bmg discord, I just meant discord servers in general. I hate talking in them>and if you havent added /bmg/ to be at the top of your 4chan filters do that too!I mainly browse 4chan on mobile ngl I have no idea how to do that
>>35482107if you go to the catalogue or the first page there should be a button for filters. just add /bmg/ to the list and then click the button for top. then bmg will always be at the top of your catalogue >>35482061>i recently got a piercing and the piercer clocked me and asked if i went by a different name after seeing my ID... i suspect him of being a trans man i've had this happen to me before too. same thing. trans dude piercing me and he made some joke about needles, which was referencing his hrt, that totally went over my head and then he explained it and i was like hahaha...
>>35482154How the fuck did I never notice that
>>35482154Thank you Naoto
>>35482218np np
>>35479892>qottI have a Blåhaj, Hello Kitty, microwave sheep, california sheep, scrat, pidgeon, seal, and a giant bear. :3I definitely need more plushies, but I don't have that much space in my dorm.I also bought a Blåhaj for my transfem friend, and she collapsed from joy overstimulation. It was really sweet, and Blåhaj helped her with nightmares for a while.-------------I wanted to ask /bmg/ if you were ever bullied?I was bullied throughout all middle school, mostly non-physically, and I didn't have any friends, and after that, in high school, I had friends, but it was an all boys classroom.I'm in uni now, and I feel really stunted in my social capabilities. Like last semester, I hung out every day with this awesome girl, but we almost never talked. She's introverted, so she didn't mind and just liked not being alone in classes, but I'm sad that I wasn't able to talk with her about anything else than school stuff.~ pre-hrt boymoder>>35482154Can I ask what piercings did you get? ^-^
>>35482343>Can I ask what piercings did you get? ^-^I have a helix and two lobes in my left ear, and two lobes in my right ear. I want to get another helix in the left, an industrial in the right, 1x more lobe in each, eyebrow, and nipples eventually too. I'm waiting til I get something new to replace out the stud and ball I have at the moment since I have precious stones in gold from my first piercings and it kind of clashes with the more fake looking stones. Might get pearls or some other pretty stone + gold combo. >I wanted to ask /bmg/ if you were ever bullied?I was harassed all throughout middle school, for looking girlish at 11-12 and then not growing into my body so I gained weight while not getting taller. I'd have people throw things at me and often attach gay slurs to that violence. It was really brutal, I spent most of my existence from 11-13 in fear from bullies and in discomfort from puberty. It made me repress a lot of awful feelings about being attracted to guys and not feeling comfortable being male, and that's why it took me so long to break out of that dissociation of myself from my body and my life. >I also bought a Blåhaj for my transfem friend, and she collapsed from joy overstimulation. It was really sweet, and Blåhaj helped her with nightmares for a while.awww that's so sweet :')
>>35479892yes! i have two Blåhaj and i love them both very much. one is smolhaj and the other is large.>>35482343>I wanted to ask /bmg/ if you were ever bullied?yes. i was relentlessly bullied pretty much my entire school career. in elementary and middle school, i was a noticeably larger kid, and so i was a natural target for verbal harassment. my stature and weight prevented anything physical though. i lost a lot of weight moving into high school. i also didn’t grow as fast or as significantly as the other boys. the verbal abuse changed its nature but was still venomous. i was no longer large enough to defend myself. lots happened, sorry for the vent post, i get carried away sometimes.are you the shoelace poster? if so you have a very distinct writing style.
>>35482431>are you the shoelace poster? if so you have a very distinct writing styleyep, it's probably a language thing, English is my second language, and I also use both languages regularly, which results in a poor vocabulary for both of them. :c>>35482419>piercings I have no idea what most of that means, but they sound like they're really cool xdEyebrow piercings look pretty, and the nipple piercings scare me, probably doesn't cause injuries very often, but it still sounds scary.>bullyingI can relate to your childhood experiences..I was chubby, and I dissociated from my body to the point that I didn't recognise myself in the mirror.I repressed everything, and it all came crawling back right when I finished high school.---------I stayed up way too long writing, deleting and rewriting this. Goodnight anonettes <3
>>35479892naoto my belovedsorry for intruding i just adore hert. ftm
>>35482864i guess we’re all in the school trauma club then. good night anonette, i’m probably gonna sleep as well.>>35482878BASED NAOTO ENJOYER???
>>35482864Helix is on your upper ear, lobes are your earlobes, and an industrial is basically a metal barbell that goes from one side of your upper ear to the other. It's super cool and punk looking. I love them. :) >I repressed everything, and it all came crawling back right when I finished high school.I didn't get a chance to really explore a lot of this gender stuff until I was really isolated in the years leading up to COVID. I used to go out with a lesbian friend of mine and we'd talk lgbt stuff but a lot of it was me trauma dumping about my body, gender, and sexuality that I had held in for years and years. She later moved back home to LA and she was the first person I ever came out to both for my sexuality and my gender. Sadly we've fallen out of contact since she's so far away. Since starting HRT though, I stopped disassociating which I'm going to take as a good sign. Anyway, have a goodnight shoelace! Sweet dreams. <3>>35482912Ahh everyone's going to sleep while I'm stuck here trying to burn thru my thesis and getting sidetracked by ntohing.Night night! >>35482878I love her too. She and Kanji are the absolute best parts of P4, and she's just so cool.
>>35482912>girl who dresses as a boy and wants to be seen by all as a boywow she is literally me :'}>>35482981i like kanji, he's who i want to bet. ftm
>>35483244he's such a sweetheart. i'm a sucker for him.
Late night bump
>>35479892>qottI have like a dozen or so plushies, including mr sharkie. I got the 3 beans of the sui sisters from the arknights mobile game, an amagi plushie from azur lane, pou from my pet alien, a bunch of food-based plushies, and a giant 4 ft tall bowling pin I won from one of those amusement park stands years ago in my hs trip to wonderland. also a bunch at my parents house that my sister stole from me :S>>35482343>I wanted to ask /bmg/ if you were ever bullied?not really no. I hit my growth spurt in middle school and towered over everyone and combined with me having learned taekwondo no one dared bully me. I was also super nice and polite to everyone so no one really had beef with me-x-did anyone else get more paranoid the deeper into boymoding you got? I'm almost 6mths HRT and I just wear baggy hoodie/sweater/sweatshirt + jeans or cargos and usually a baseball cap, sometimes some accessories and I feel like people are staring at me more...is it the long hair or piercings? it's really messing with my head
>>35482015Shibe!Cuuyte<3>>35484111>feel like people are staring at me moreYou probably look androgynous and uncanny, it confuses and intrigues people bc they can't tell what you areI got way more stares as a boymoder than i ever have honmoding, both before and after ffs
HELLO? YES IM LOOKING FOR A BOYMODER GIRLFRIEND, IM A COOL FUNNY GUY, I JUST WANT A BOYMODER GF PLS
>>35484111i definitely get more people staring; also at 6months. i’ve had people either switch from miss to sir or just out right ask what gender i am. >>35484405yessss he’s so squishy too perfect for sofa cuddles with anime. speaking of FFS, i remembered my state forces insurance to cover it as medically necessary for GD so i may pay nothing for it. Gonna wait til appx 20 months HRT though, but that makes me so excited, even if going under the knife is scary.
>>35479892what is up fuckers i have been unbanned so sorry ab missing the last 3 threads hope they were funnQOTT1: I have so many plushies you dont even know. Pokemon ones mainly but i do have the shark.
>>35482343yeah i was bullied as a kid for crying too much and hanging with the girls, rhus why i stopped high school not rlly tho.>>35482878we love nao. based nao stan. >>35484111eh. im probably less paranoid now but yeah im hyperaware of ppl stating and not managing to gender mei dont think the death of bmg is bc those fuckerz are sad. idk. like maybe its cause its a cozy space
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>>35479892I'm gonna visit my friends in Finland over the summer and we might go swimming so I think I'll have to get a swimsuit
i want to guymode while having suspiciously nice natural nails but my cuticles keep peeling>>35479892one plushy. its 20 years old
charlotte killed this gen its so over
>>35487028your trip
>>35487040it was mildly funny 2-3 years ago
i am so sick of waking up early to do work. just two more weeks to go
eating two cans of bean stew straight from the pot
>>35484988> i was bullied as a kid for crying too muchoh i used to get made fun of for crying at sleepovers or birthday parties as a kid. i'd get separation anxiety bad and then i'd break down and have to go home. probably why i had trouble with friends in elementary school lol
>>35487290Just like me xd
>>35479892>qottI don’t own the shark but I have around 30 pokemon plushies
>>35487618Same! Started with my small tiny mini 2007 glaceon plushie
>>35487696it’s mostly a bunch of sitting cuties from back when they were cheaper. strangely I don’t have any eeveelutions in the collection. I want to get a jolteon but it’s never in stock on the official site
>>35487618kinda weird question, but of the ‘mons you have plushies of, which is your favourite/top 5 favourites?
>>35487788not that anon, but i have like 15 pokemon plushies and i'd have to say my favorite is Mega Mawile. Mawile is my favorite pokemon and has been since I was a kid playing Pokemon Ruby. when I would feel really down I'd hug Mawile and cry into the pillow and i'd usually feel safer and better.
>>35487788my top 5 in no particular order would have to be my husian arcanine, aipom, yellow tatsugiri, jirachi, and tangrowth plushies. aipom was a gift from my brother the start of my collection
>boymoder repper mtf>If i shave my face boomers accidently see me as a girl>feels kinda good but I'll never transition so its just fun and games
>>35487757They don't ship to Ireland so most of my stuff is jp imports or stuff I got when abroad desu...I've got a mega charizard x from when gen 6 was new but i wanted ampharos instead bc that's probably my fav mega.>>35487820I used to use mega mawile all the time in online games lol trick room team and stuff.>>35487877What the hell is a boymoder repper? Like no hrt? Or just living as a guy
>>35487957just repper then sorry not familliar with the terminologyno hrt
>>35487877>>35487976take the pills girliepop. Repping does you no good. >>35487957Mega Mawile was cracked. I don't play competitive though, but megas returning is exciting.
>>35487976well you're still a boymoder I guess because you're trans whether you take hrt or not
>>35487994meh the return of megas is gonna be cucked by the legends games being single player focused.They were unironically the best gimmick and GF has forsaken us and instead give us this new Pokemon inflation porn slop.At least Meowscarada is hot.
>>35487994girliepop is cute...>>35487996maybe...
>>35488010What's stopping you from taking hrt anyways? For the record I'm not really opposed or in favour of you repressing or hrt I'm just interested in your mindset and whether your decision is what suits you best I suppose.
>>35488010I'm serious when I say repping does you no good, just wastes your time. If you know you're trans, then it's better to bite the bullet. As someone who repped for 3+ years of thinking and pondering and panicking with decision paralysis, I could've been way further down the line. >>35488003I'd assume they make it into the next mainline game though no? I dont really care though the last 2 pokemon games have been not my taste.
>>35488035Did you not play legends Arceus? I loved it honestly even with its flaws.Scarlet and Violet was ass though I pirated it and played it that way and even still felt like I got ripped off.BDSP is an awful example of a remake but personally I like it as a port of a classic... Not worth 50 tho...
>>35487757get someeesome of the sitting cuties looked cute but i rlly just want one of the life size furrets>>35487994ong...are they gonna make mega plusies?? >>35488003did anyone actually like zmoves or gigantamax? teraforming was ok imo
>>35488052Platinum was the greatest game in the series of course by the way.Best spinoff was probably ranger or explorers of sky
>>35488056Z moves are kinda goofy fun especially the Eevee and Pikachu ones I hate gigantamax and terastalisation or whatever.
>>35488021>1 im tall>2 torso is huge, >3 i live in an conservative country>most friends will stop talking to me>my parents would probably unalive themselvesother than that I could>>35488035
>>35488056girly they already made mega plushies like 10 years ago. I bought mine in 2019 and that was like it. I liked Z moves, they were stupid looking but the most tolerable gimmick. GMax and tera are completely awful. >>35488052Never finished Legends arceus. I really liked what i played, just didnt have time and then got sidetracked with new games.
I dont own plushies because I am not a baby
I dont think I can ever pass because nobody has ever noticed I am trans even though ive been on hrt for 20 months and I also work in same place as 4 other trans people but they have never noticed
>>35488068Understandable. Just know repping doesn't soothe the pain.
>>35488082I am a baby (24).>>35488070Yeah I get sidetracked with games so easily especially with work but when I have time off I finish a bunch in like a week>>35488068You shouldn't care so much about what tobers think, if your friends especially wouldn't accept you then rethink your friendships. On parents I understand, I could get ffs this year but I'm too afraid my father would be ashamed
>>35488115>if your friends especially wouldn't accept you then rethink your friendshipsYeah that's a hard agree. If they don't support you, are they really your friends?I'm the same with regards to FFS and parents stuff. I'm waiting til like 20months to get it and hopefully by then I'm self-sufficient enough that if it slips out i'm trans, I don't have to worry about them disowning a self-sufficient 27 year old. >>35488082All tranners are babu at heart.
>>35488097I understand>>35488115I understand and I agree
>>35488147>20 monthsY-yeah... Same...t. 72 monthsEven past what dad would think I'm just incredibly ashamed of myself for being a tranny too desu.
>>35488177>incredibly ashamed of myself for being a tranny too Also yeahh... that's why it took me so long to get on HRT and put pieces together. I did not want to mentally accept being a tranny. Like it's a hard and shameful existence. I'm proud of myself for accepting it and doing transition stuff, but like god damn do I feel ashamed like I've failed myself somehow. >>35488174Ganbare anon!
>>35488193Yeah best of luck with stuff anyways.Sorry for projecting any bitterness onto you before as well ofc.
>>35488204Thankss. I'm still babytran even if i accepted it mentally 3 years ago, but I want to make progress in my life. I'm nearly 26 and like I've never made a decision for myself until HRT. But still being a tranner sucks. Also, no worries.
>>35479892God I really wanna dye my hair white or light silver but it's such a terrible ideat. brunette
>>35488265im so on board with the silver look but same i dont think i could commit
>>35488385I could commit to it but not only do I think it wouldn't suit me it'd also be expensive as fuck and ruin my hair
>>35488219Well everything at your own pace I guess. Really early on I did ok I was like kinda pushing out of my comfort zone but coming out to my family going so poorly and the start of covid put me back in the stone ages and I've never really tried to do more since I guess.Meh anyways, I mustn't feel too bad if I'm not trying.>>35488411When it suits ppl it looks rly good but yeah i get being afraid of those factors.
>>35488494Yeah but it's hard to tell of it'd suit me desu
>>35487820was ruby the first pokémon game you played?>>35487866i don’t have the plush, but jirachi is probably top five pokémon for me in general.>>35488174good luck out there girl, you deserve to grow into who you are, not who others say you should be.>>35488265it could look really good but i understand the hesitation, it can definitely do some harm if not done properly.
>>35488535Yeah like I'm pretty sure it'd irreperably damage my hair
>>35488520What's your hair naturally like? If it's cute to begin with you're not really missing out either way I guess!
>>35488603It's slightly wavy chest length brown hair
>>35488612Sounds cute! I always call my hair brown but whenever I meet someone for the first time irl they say it's blonde :(
>>35488775Idk I really hate the colour of my hair, blonde black or ginger would be infinitely better
>>35488785Everyone always has self criticism on their appearance I think.Ik gingers who constantly feel bad about not being blonde or brunette when a bunch of people would kill for it if it's a good toneIt's hard to look at people that are prettier or have nicer hair texture or whatever and not feel a little jealous but a lot of it I think is just that you get kinda used to your own appearance because you see it so much. That and dysphoria and social media and stuff ig... The world can suck.
>>35488821Sorry for the tangent I do that all the time and will do it again.
>>35488821That's true, I'm definitely biased but idk at this point I'd like anything other than brown it's so boring to me
>>35488862Yeah I get you I wish I was like a real blonde instead of a yucky dirty brownish blonde but idk I'm pretty afraid the hairdressers I think she can tell too...Also sounds expensive and my wages have to be spent on games I'll never play.
>>35488884Yeah dyeing your hair is expensive as fuck
>>35488911Mm my sister spent insane money on it and she wasn't even that happy with the outcome...
>>35488932It's super easy to fuck up and there's no way to know how it'll come outLike it's genuinely so risky
>>35488951Yeah, well I suppose if you go somewhere reputable you won't come out orange at least.
>>35488059EOS is so goodi wanna play it again tho i dont wanna cry again..decisions decisions>>35488064the eevee one was cute tho...I SUMMON MY FRIENDS TO...GIVE ME STAT BOOSTS>>35488070no fucking way. shit so mega Blaziken and Altaria and Absol when I need themmLegends Arceus looked fun as hell.>>35488082nah. ur a baby cause you dont own plushies. grow up. get a squishmallow>>35488177Yeah, fuck the idea of being visibly trans scared me to the core...it hurts everytime i have to think aboit it...im probably visibly trans now which sucks but..its like the lowest of the low for so many outsiders yk? like being a gay bottom is pretty bad. but a tranner? I think one of my housemates actually hates me for it.>>35488204who is this new charlotte wtf>>35488961a friend keeps telling my to dye it but she also just died hers like orange so im not trusting that
>>35488961It'd probably take a few treatments to get it to white so it'd probably be orange at some point
>>35489043>who is this new charlotte wtf:( I'm always the same person I'm just damaged goods because I spent my entire teenage years and adult life absorbing this website.>the eevee one was cute tho...I SUMMON MY FRIENDS TO...GIVE ME STAT BOOSTSYeah Alola had rly good art direction imo it's sad it was a handholding exercise>>35489065yeah well any orange phase would suck butt...
>>35489166I loved alola it was so cute. > I'm just damaged goods because I spent my entire teenage years and adult life absorbing this website.Relate. I’ve been here 12 years. I’ve slowly unlearned the negativity and misanthropy i gained from here and from life as a whole but it’s hard. >>35489043*hug* yeah im scared to death of being visibly trans i wish was just a girl
>>35489166Fair and real...nice to see this chill side, and ofc any realisticly sad shit is fine yk?Yeah...it was a cool concept with the either but even eith USUM it felt like a waste?>>35489434HGSS was the prettiest pokemon game, I will fight on this point. 12 YEARS? youre 25 so youd be 13???? wtf?And yeah, real.
>>35489166i think this is a good take. like i don’t know why people relentlessly bash on Alola. it was a fun experience and offered a cool twist on gyms. but it definitely felt way too handholdy, especially the first island, it makes replaying the game so hard.>>35489636BW/B2W2 kinda has the same style, just better, no?
>>35489434Yeah Alola was the peak of 3d pokemon design, somehow they've stepped backwards since? Which is really stupid.>>35489636Yeah it's over basically.Been here on and off since I was like 12/13 and like actively since I was maybe 15, haven't really used here much in the past year bc I'm so busy but lately I haven't been so!I liked USUM maybe because I played it a ton for online games and the UBs and Alolan forms are way cooler than any of the other weird pokemon shit since
>>35489673Unova sprites look silly they're too tall all stretched out.
>>35489636>12 YEARS? youre 25 so youd be 13???? wtf?Yeahhhh, started using this site in May 2012. I stopped for a while, between 2015-2017, and then again between 2020-2023.
>>35489043>>35489434Yeah the thought of being clocked as trans is anxiety inducing af. I'm >>35484111 and it's just something I guess I'll have to get over. This year is gonna be my first summer boymoding and I gotta go back to China to visit my extended family and I'm loosing sleep over the thought of them finding out I'm on HRT. >>35488265Silver sounds super pretty if you can pull it off. I've always wanted to do an ombre red or blue for my hair once it grows long enough but thats like a neon sign screaming I'm non-GNC and it scares me
>>35489783>Silver sounds super pretty if you can pull it offThe problem is that idk whether I could pull it off :/
>>35488177>>35488193I'm ashamed of being a tranny too and it's part of why I fought against it for so long refusing to do anything about it, along with thinking it would be impossible for me to ever pass. It does feel fucking embarrassing being a tranny even though I'm not openly trans and I still present as a man. It's just like at a point where people look at me funny and ask questions and sometimes I'll get called a woman by people who don't already know me. Like it's clearly visible that something is up like I look like a young girly faggot at minimum and like there are guys who are younger than me who are like taller and manlier with more muscles that pretty much treat me like I'm some faggot kid or something. It's just like a weird and embarrassing feeling you know? But at the same time it's better than being a man. I am kinda proud of myself for doing this though, before I was like so listless not really caring if I died or caring about my appearance or social life or whatever but I kind of took the reins and did what I wanted to do and now I'm like a happier more whole person with real feelings doing more productive things and living life more.
>>35489837You’re not alone on that either anon. I’m terrified to keep progressing but I do it because it’s this or death I feel. And I am proud of myself for it and honestly, it’s a tough thing to do to really exert your own autonomy to at least marginally improve yourself from the disease that is GD. Proud of you anon. <3
>>35489837I get treated like a kid sometimes but yeah I gave up a long time ago so I'm just rotting now in terms of my gd I try to pretend it isn't there.It's sad because my life is otherwise pretty good all things considered
>>35489890did you give up because you’re ashamed of your transness or did something happen?
>>35489903Shame is a lot of it but also my appearance not being suited to it at all and like I've got a good career and I wouldn't wanna do something to sink that along with my whole reputation I guess.
>>35489813Maybe you can try one of those apps that lets you change ur hair colour virtually to see if you like it?>>35489837I'm not ashamed of being trans, but not being able to pass in the future and instead stuck in this weird place of being visibly trans would be shameful to me, as it wouldn't let me conform to being either a man nor a woman. I know there's women proud to be visibly trans that wouldn't agree with my view but to me being able to blend in is the goal.
>>35489962Idk any good ones and face app requires a subscription for that
>>35489929That makes sense. That's also pretty sad though. I kind of worry about that with myself since I'll be careering soon too and like what happens when I want FFS, what happens when I want to girlmode or go by a new name. Like I just don't know if it'll be possible for someone so risk averse as me, and I just don't want to be visibly trans doing that. I'd rather die than be a hon. >>35489962>I know there's women proud to be visibly trans that wouldn't agree with my view but to me being able to blend in is the goal.Yeah like being femme-andro/clockyish would be ok but like visibly trans is just like... embarrassing. >>35489696USUM was great. I loved the UBs and having like a serious boss fight with UNecrozma was cool.
>had the bf dream againFuck you god :'(>>35484501>remembered my state forces insurance to cover it as medically necessary for GD so i may pay nothing for it. Gonna wait til appx 20 months HRT though,Omg congrats!! Honestly though, start the process now bc it takes longer than you think and most wait lists are horrendous. You can always push it back if you need to>>35488056>did anyone actually like zmoves or gigantamax?I didn't play zmoves but i got to master ball tier on sw/sh and though i hated it at first i really grew to love gigantimax. Just adds an extra element of strategy to the battle and makes things a little more dynamic; using it at the right time with the right 'mon and reacting properly when it's used against you takes a lot of skill and feels awesome when you get it right
>>35489837:(I wonder if its gotten to that point but I dont talk to people because i am afraid of them so I dont know if they thinj im boy or girl. I am ashamed of trans
>>35489962>>35490067>don't want to be visibly trans doing that. I'd rather die than be a hon.I really hate this notion that flies around here that being visibly trans automatically=hon (though I'm not surprised with how black and white everyone's thinking is on this website). Hons and passoids are two ends of a very large spectrum and you have to be astronomical levels of manly with 0 self awareness for people to see you as a hon. The truth is, like 99% of us are going to end up being twinkhons and the sooner you accept that the sooner you can start girlmoding and get on with your life instead of living in a repression-lite state of limbo (boymoding). If you wait to pass 100% to even think about trying to girlmode you'll end up boymoding forever bc it's largely unattainable, and it also doesn't take into account how much presentation goes into passing. It's not a zero sum game, and the sooner you accept the fact that sometimes you're going to be visibly trans and that that's ok, the betterBeing a kinda clocky twinkhon is really not that bad. Speaking from a lot of experience atp. I would encourage y'all to check out some of my replies in this thread from yesterday:>>35479820>>35480290
>>35490375you either pass or u dont
>>35490375I think twinkhons are cute but ultimately I value my safety in the city as well as being taken semi seriously in my career over transition I guess.But yeah I'm waiting forever.>>35490067It's not that sad eventually you become numb to the disappointment with how things worked out and you just find other ways of making yourself happy while looking for ways to ignore that part of you.I hope things work out better for you in the coming months and years.
>>35490104>Omg congrats!! Honestly though, start the process now bc it takes longer than you think and most wait lists are horrendous. You can always push it back if you need toThanks! Yeah I plan to do so soon. I'm a bit scared of it desu, but maybe it would be ok to come out. I think the one thing holding me back is that.>>35490375I definitely wouldn't mind being somewhat clocky. I do think ultimately I can at least pass in the future, but I will likely girlmode before then. There's still things I need to do before then but I'll get there even if it means twinkhonmoding, over boymoding. >>35490512Thank you, I'm making strides even it sometimes feels like one step forward two steps back. I hope things improve for you though.
>>35489166you were mean >:c>>35489434>>3548969612 YEARS? 0_0I've been here for about two months, I had a breakdown two months ago and finally accepted that I'm trans, after a year of coping with femboy stuff>>35490509out>>35490512>>35490375Interesting, I thought that you'd be forced out of boymode eventually. You stop looking like a boy and start looking uncanny if you still pretend to be one.Unless you don't shave, but that's not an option for me.>>35484501This is really awesome. I'm really happy for you ;3My country's public healthcare pays for SRS, but only after a painful process with the national committee...--------------->picrelI forgot to mention that I also preordered this plushieeeeee :3I've been waiting to buy it ever since the game came out, but it was ALWAYS out of stock. >:cSo I'll be waiting for like two more months for this cute little bunnyPS: I've just been delivered an Estradiol vial,which means I could start soon.It's all a bit too fast for me, though, and I'm not sure if I should start without any blood tests. :cAh, I'll wait a few days and think this all over.Originally, I set my DIY deadline for my 21 birthday, but that's still far away...
>>35491110>pre hrt poster is telling me to leave
>>35490805>I will likely girlmode before then.It's good to dip your toes in a bit. I'm super grateful to have a few good friends and this super accepting goth club in my city where i could honmode and not feel like a total freak. Pride was cool too >>35490512>eventually you become numb to the disappointment with how things worked out and you just find other ways of making yourself happy while looking for ways to ignore that part of you.I used to have this mindset, it's how i repressed throughout my 20s (along with copious amounts of weed and alcohol). Eventually the copes run out tho:( Glad you're on hrt in the meantime, i wish i had known about diy and the concept of "manmoding on hrt" when i first wanted to transition way back in 2011>>35490509Yawn
>>35491110oh my gosh hi shoelace! did you enjoy security breach or just a fan of the plushy? also, while i absolutely encourage starting hrt as soon as possible, some important notes. first if you aren’t fully comfortable with the decision it isn’t necessarily bad to wait a bit and really think it over. secondly i would recommend a blood test as a baseline to make sure you know how your levels are being effected. i’d recommend asking hrtgen if you have any questions.
>>35491165gmai had remote work today, took some phenibut and vibed to meme djspartiboi69 and mcr-t are so based
>>35491162yeah well ur gay>>35490375wish i was ok with that ..idk. stealth seems like such a longshot and if im destined as a twinkhon hrmg
>>35491315I've never heard mcr-t but i love the ketamine horse trainer 69 man his mixes and visuals are lit, especially on ketamine if you can believe it? :^)Salvatore ganacci is another good one in that 'genre'
>>35491165Yeah I mean I've been on hrt for 6 years most people are like omg how don't you pass then it's like oh well at least you can get ffs someday when they see how I look even nowadays RIP>>35491110No you don't get forced out of boymode honestly even in most cases where you'd otherwise pass because most normies don't really care and will go off your voice and how you present yourself even if they think they would instantly spot troons.My country is also similarly shitty I am DIY tho and have no interest in SRS... Sucks that so much of world sucks.Anyways I'm going to play wit my dogs and relax cya everywan
>>35491419I mean it's like i said before about exposure therapy, the only way to become "ok with it" is to try it and realize that it's really not as bad as our shame and internalized transphobia tells us it's going to be
>>35491424this set is really coolalso the male stripper visual goes pretty hardhttps://youtu.be/hcikmV3K6AAhorsegiirl is another one
>>35491450>Yeah I mean I've been on hrt for 6 yearsI've seen you i still think if you did makeup and dressed really fem with a good voice you could easily pass but I'm not here to argue with brainworms and it's just my opinion anyway I actively repped for 10 years like "oh it's too late for me but it's fine I'm just a girl who has to pretend to be a guy but is ok bc I'm good at being a guy and it's easy" but i was coping HARD and it wasn't until i stopped smoking weed that i realized how miserable i actually was. Really crazy how much it was keeping me numb helping me dissociateReally wish i had at least been on hrt the whole time. Hope you find a way to make it work eventually
>>35491505Do you know cowgirl clue? Some of her stuff is probably too girly for your delicate masculine sensibilities but this mix is fuckin sick https://youtu.be/FR020cXzAP4One of the best mixes I've heard in the last few yearsShe was a memey horsegirl before it was cool to be a memey horsegirl :33
fuck i forgot to wash my hair>>35491618i dont like the opening with the yappy pitched up lyrics but the rest seems really good
>>35491703*vocalsesl is coming back
>>35491703My thoughts exactlyOpening track is pretty weak and goes on a bit too long but the rest of it is so lit I got to see her last year, she's a big inspiration for me in that you can still make it in the industry and be cute asf as a woman past the age of 30
>>35491110Hi shoelace! Yeah I've been on this dismal site for a long long time. I've used so many boards but /lgbt/ will probably be my home for the time being. >This is really awesome. I'm really happy for you ;3Thanks!! Insurance would cover SRS for me too, but I'm less interested in that. Maybe just an orchi first.>PS: I've just been delivered an Estradiol vial,Congrats!! I'd recommend blood test first so you know your levels first, but also ask at >>>/hrtgen/ if you don't feel ready yet. >>35491165>>35491465>It's good to dip your toes in a bit. I'm super grateful to have a few good friends and this super accepting goth club in my city where i could honmode and not feel like a total freak. That's awesome. I'm fortunate to live in kind of a lgbt capital so it's like I can twinkhon and not feel tooooo out of place, it's more like day to day stuff I'd be more interested in. Though I guess it depends on what you even classify as girlmoding. Like 85% of my wardrobe is womens clothing, is that girlmoding? I dont really know. I know i dont pass as anything other than a boyish androgynous thing right now. It's confusing. I'm hoping to lose weight first and hope I can girlmode in a more obvious way- but even if that's not possible I do like how I dress right now and there's still room to grow, since babytran. >>35491419I mean you're super young so theres still plenty of room to grow yeah? >>35491450Laters.
>>35491742why did it autoplay into agpcore
>>35491783I guess the algo just knows you really well babe~<3
>>35491809but im incognitotheyre in my wallsthe worst part is it actually sounds good
>>35491835wasnt it proved in court recently that incognito pretty much does nothing
>>35491852they can almost always get you if they want unless you go schizo setupbut i wouldn't expect to get personalized agp music videos based off of fingerprinting even considering i started using amazon to buy obvious tranny shit
>>35491894amazon skirt
>>35491918no not that
>>35491926what could be more obvious
>>35491957buying the usual malebrained tech stuff alongside sports bras, boy shorts, skin care, hair products, nail files, etc
tfw lost a whole point of bmi accidentally and now i have no ass again
>>35491918cute jirachi
>>35492353just gain weight until you're happy, weight means literally nothing. i'm 25bmi at 5'8
>>35492833bmi means nothing* oops
>>35492833i try but it doesnt work. my talloid metabolism wants to be skinny
>>35492833how do you have such a nonchalant attitude about it? have you been on hormones long enough to be certain it will go the right places? i’ve been trying to gain some weight myself but end up really self conscious about it.
>>35491162yeah, because you're a meanie>>35491450Good to know ^-^>>35491261hiiiiii watergirlI love the whole fnaf series, I watched two playthroughs of SB, I watched speedruns, I watched my friend finish the game during a sleepover, and I bought the game, but I never played it I love horror games, but I'm too scaredy cat to play them XCI love bunnies, and Vanny is one, so this was on my wishlist for a while. ^u^>>35491781hiiya Naoto ^-^>boardsI haven't used any other boards other than this one, and I don't plan to. I don't really like 4chan as a whole, but /tttt/ is decent.I've been warned about brainworms, and my roomie makes fun of me, but it's kinda nice if you're sane enough to filter out all the schizoposts.>insuranceYeah, that's understandable. I don't think I'll say no when I have the chance. It would make life a bit comfier.>>35491261>>35491781>estradiolI'll give myself time to think it over. I'm not in a hurry....My puberty was really slow until now, so I'm kinda scared it'll wake up, realise I'm 20 and do a speedrunMy facial hair has gotten rougher in the past year, and I'm at the point where I have to shave it daily. It's just uncomfy if I let it be, and nothing else really changedI don't think I'll grow taller, I'm already the tallest person in the family at 183cm (6'0")I'm also still hoping I could get some hip growth when I get on E, but it's a lottery if the plates are already fused or not
>>35492871what's your diet look like currently>>35492875because i've weight cycled my entire life for sports so i'm really used to fluctuating all over the spectrum. disregard bmi as a whole, it means nothing, and just gain or lose weight until you like the way you look. i'm not so concerned about fat redistribution currently, i'm just trying to get used to gaining and losing on E vs T so i can get a good system going.
>>35492926whatever i can get my hands on really, i still live with family. i just try to stuff myself every day but i slipped for a few weeks and lost 3 kilos.
>>35492976ok, honestly i'd recommend starting to do some cardio if you don't already. it sounds counter intuitive for gaining weight, but i find that i can eat far far more if i'm consistently exercising
>>35493006but then i also have to wash my hair
>>35493107yep.
>>35492916>I haven't used any other boards other than this one, and I don't plan to. I don't really like 4chan as a whole, but /tttt/ is decent.Yeah wouldn't recommend it. /mu/, /fa/, and a few others used to be decent long ago, but all the good tripfags and posters left. Basically every board that doesn't self-moderate is a dump. So that just leaves /a/, /jp/, and /lgbt/ as being the only ones usable anymore. Stupid nazis ruined this site. >My facial hair has gotten rougher in the past year, and I'm at the point where I have to shave it daily. It's just uncomfy if I let it be, and nothing else really changedThe absolute worst! 6 months on HRT, 1 session laser, and its stopped growing in as rough. So you have reason to be optimistic! I had a full beard so yeah :)>>35492798All jirachi's are cute :3>>35492871These days i cant even eat. Its really hard, yet I dont lose weight. I dont get it.
>>35493257i checked out r9k and a and they were both ass. i dont get why ppl would use this site outside the boardyall go get milkshakes...mind im saying this, a cup no ass and male fat so
>>35493370Lactose intolerance... ;_;/r9k/ is a the /mmg/ of 4chan, /a/ really depends on the day. The thing I like about /a/ is that someone on that board will have seen the anime you're posting about, plus it has a big oldfag population which makes for comfy threads.
>>35493402I liked r9k when I was like 17 I'd laugh at the rly retarded shit there now I just think it's painfully cringe.I use /vp/ but never with trip, all other boards are uninteresting to me except maybe g...
>>35493402i found /shgen/ on /r9k/ to be very cozy and generally nice, but i’ve stopped keeping up and don’t know how it may have changed
>>35487618I didn't feel like getting them all together for an up to date picture but here is most of them
>>35493659Drifloon is one of my favs of all time I remember discovering them as a kid at the valley windworks :3 rotom too... God those games were my childhood
>>35493722you can't see it in that picture but the driftloon sitting cutie has cute little string feet than can dangle off a shelf when you sit it on the edge
>>35493659i think it’s adorable that you have those two bugs who evolve by trading, thanks for the picture.
>>35493747they sit next to each other right by my computer monitor. I love them
>>35493736Cute kino pokemon selection anon
Kinda wish someone would donate 50k to me
>>35494325what does 50k cover?
>walking my dog at the park>lowcut croptop cami, hair down, mascara+eyeliner+brows filled>bald guy in loose clothing channelling his inner avatar walking towards me >tries to hand me a book "hey broski what do you think of meditation">broskiHe didn't clock me right he just calls everyone broski right im totally not a hon r-right -.-kms
>>35494844honestly he sounds like a hippie type that would call everyone broski. >>35494812would just be nice to have. fill out my wardrobe, give me some money to invest, downpayment idk!
>>35494959I feel like i could easily wave off dude or bro or even man bc it's just west coast hippie slang but i don't think I've ever heard broski for a girl ._.Oh well
>>35495036i wouldn’t worry too much about it. especially if he’s trying to pawn off weird meditation shit
>>35495257>wouldn’t worry too much about it.Thanks dw I'm not..I've been doing this long enough that little stuff like that won't send me spiraling anymore, really just more of an annoyance
>>35479892dorks
>>35495326Yeah can imagine.
>>35493659AWWWWW>>35494844nah hes just a monk. wait so ur a girlmoder?>>35495367hehe. this is my diary so ig its a dork diary
>>35495632>so ig its a dork diarygoober lol. also have a bonus pic of arcanine
>>35495666hes so real.such a good boy. in exhange have latias pic
>>35495713aaahh I want to get a latias plush. love the extreme close up lol
>>35495713extreme close up
@naoso im rewatching gossip girlsevere desire for rufus humphry
>>35495367Holy shit puffin? Real?? :o
>>35496031>@nao>so im rewatching gossip girl>severe desire for rufus humphryGossip Girl is really good... Kinda really like Rufus too... Georgina is really pretty and makes me super jealous
>>35494844Fuck I really don't even know what to think anymore either, I get varied reactions, it's a mindfuck. Some people call me like bro or man and other times I get miss or lady or whatever. It's so trippy
>>35496066As far as I know
>>35496031i have never seen gossip girl. he’s good looking though :)
ok bmg it’s my bed time. see you all laters! night
>>35496347goodnight o/
>>35496171Based based based
>>35496267hes sooo cuteee and so goodi could have sworn u did>>35496070i mean shes an arse but i agreealso serena did nothing wrong. also i kinda like nate now
>>35495632Sorry i missed this>wait so ur a girlmoder?Yeah.. I've mentioned it fairly often. I only really boymode when i have to grow out my facial hair for electro or if i cba to get ready and shave and cover the shadow, v time consuming and annoyingI just hang out here for old times sake and to try to help where i can:)>>35496171How are you puff
I just got my meme shark about a month ago I've been on hrt about a year but am still boy modeing in public.
>>35497646I mean not great if I'm here, but good atleastim sticking to outer board though
>>35479892Gonna be late asf to uni and probably fail an exam today
>>35497646oh cute! idk how i missed that im sorrys >>35497815go...pass girl
>>35497972I don't think igmi today
>>35498025i meant the exam but that too ig
>>35498132Oh I meant the exam too
>>35498212i believe in you!!!!!
>>35498309I don't :(
>>35497815Uni is gay you'll find a way even if you fail an exam
>>35498309I think I might get 70% so that's based>>35498684True, last semester I had like 5 tests I had to retake and still somehow made it
>>35498865I've worked with people who have flunked and just faked having a degree regardless.
>>35498870I think I'd prefer having the degree desu
>>35498943lol im not telling you to flunk you'll survive regardless though i flunked and got a job where im the only one without a degree (real or otherwise)
>>35479892>QOTT: do you own the meme shark or any other plushies? If so how many?The meme shark and 90 other plushies Im slowly accumulating. I also started to get into dolls a little bit but I only have maybe 8 small ones and 2 big ones. I should be getting some more soon but I really need to stop so I can get into making clothes and costumes and stuff. I think itd be super fun to make stuff like picrel>>35493659>>35495713Oh my god.... I need these.
>open bmg>some retards still talking to charlotte>close bmg
>>35499756She is unusually normal this thread
>>35499819I'm a human being anon I can be normal and crazy and not be entirely defined by either...I really don't get how that's difficult to understand do you think I could hold down a job, hobbies and friendships if I was constantly as miserable as I am here sometimes...
Boy moder? Is this where you pretend to be a boy? I’m confused aren’t you already a boy don’t mean this as an insult just genuine question
>>35499925Basically we're just trannies who still present as male for a myriad of reasons.If you believe trans women are innately women then yeah we're pretending but if you see us as guys becoming women or something else then yeah ig already a boy? It doesn't really matter.
>>35499952Okay I guess. What’s the reason for doing this? Blending in? Isn’t the point of changing your identity to be known as that new changed identity? Why do this blending in thing
>>35499959People do it for a few reasons I guess. But yeah I do it to blend in, because I'm ashamed and because I'm not satisfied with my own appearance and because I have an image to uphold with my career and family.Others do it for their own reasons, what unifies us is only that we do it for some reason.
>>35499972Ok. Are you single?
>>35499973Yeah I'm aromantic I think, or maybe my mind is just not in a place to consider others rn.
>>35499984Oh. Aromantic by choice or because you haven’t found anyone?
>>35479892>>QOTTNo blahaj, but I have some penguin plushies from when I was younger. I used to have tons of them back then lol>>35499756More like>Open bmg>see good conversation about plans, hangups, hopes, and anxieties with other non-trans topics mixed in>wow bmg is good again>want to post moreAnywho, how is everyone doing today? I've been procrastinating on a report due in a few hours (mostly done, just making some additions and revisions), but I just listened to my voice from when I presented my last report to review what my prof liked and didn't like, and my voice is surprisingly not that bad, so that's super cool! I try to hear my recorded voice as little as possible normally...
>>35499993I've dated people in the past and I've been happier in the past year of being single and commiting myself to my career than I ever was doing anything else so.I'd rather work than date.>>35500026Good afternoon anon, doing alright over here been stuck in never ending boring meetings but taking my lunch now!Have you been voice training lately or do you mean your voice just isn't awful in general? Great either way I suppose.Get your report done so you can kick back.
>>35500050Aye, work is important. But lest you forgetIf you die, your job will replace you in days, or weeks. Ar the same time, if u die, your loved ones will be without you forever.
>>35500050I'm honestly so paranoid about voice training in my house, since I know we have different smart devices that could be recording, so the only time I get to work on it is in the car... and I don't get out much as of late, especially with how rough this semester has been in terms of workload. I was just talking in general. My voice kinda sounds like a boy partway through puberty without the voice cracks, but it also sounds really forced, like I'm purposely trying to deepen it when I'm not. Sometimes it hurts to speak; I probably need to see a speech therapist or something, idk. Either way, the few sentences I happened to play first from my presentation just sounded good, like I almost could have mistaken it for a cis woman's voice. The rest was back to forced and slightly more expressive middle school boy.Anyways, I'm rambling. It's just nice to see some good things about my body among the various mid and bad ones. Have you voice trained?
>>35500254No voice training is kinda out of my comfort zone I've given it short stints of attempting but not in years now.I am way too risk averse to stray from my schedule...Iktf tho everything is listening nowadays we've created a tech hell for ourselves. You'll hopefully get more chances to train once your semester is over!
>>35500447Thanks, freedom comes tomorrow!
Morning /bmg/!
>>35479892Got back home from uni and had a homemade burger for dinner, gonna take a nap nowgn bmg
>>35500577Good afternoon what's up
>>35500605Enjoy ur nap! Nothing beats a good burger except a good burger with jalapenos god I want a burger so bad rn
>>35500026Just woke up, but I have a class today with a presentation on some slides I made up and have to make some last minute revisions to. Then I have a draft poster for my thesis presentation due at midnight. So I’m at the end of my tenure of grad school but it feels good. However, I am going to go take my AA and have a nap for now. Also glad to hear you feel pretty good about your voice! Keep working on it and it’ll be perfect I’m sure! t. still needs to remove her fagcent >>35500050God Meetings are the worst. So much pointless talk about nothing. At least it kills time? My boss likes to have 30 min meetings that are actually 100 mins long because he’d rather talk about irrelevant topics lol
>>35500635Ugh wish I was a cute office worker but in reality it's just a bunch of middle aged women, IT bros and my awkward boy with boobs ass editing spreadsheets all day...But yeah it's good when a meeting goes too long but only if you're working from home cuz after you say your bit you can go wander off or whatever.
>>35500816at least you arent cubicle neighbors with a literal sweaty ugly bastard who pulls his pants down at the urinal and won’t stop talking to you even when you have headphones in
>>35500891We don't really have cubicles it's more of an open plan. All my work is internal too I think I'd kill myself if I worked customer service type jobs ever again.I work with plenty of people who will talk to you with headphones unfortunately... But I don't really mind once they don't start asking what im listening to I hate sharing what I like it's like my comfort stuff and I don't want to hear people's opinions on it
>>35500915I feel that a lot I'm like really private about some things I felt too nervous to share what I like, what I like is weird>>35500816Ahahahahah fuck I feel that. There's some IT bros here, a lot of middle aged women, and some middle aged men, not really many people close to my age, might look for another job at a point honestly. I'm also an awkward ass boy with hidden boobs that edits spreadsheets all day, I wonder what the fuck anyone thinks about me with me looking all androgynous and having long hair and everything, probably think I'm a fag at minimum
>>35500915>>35500978Thankfully he’s never asked me what im listening to. and there’s a more senior employee here who listens to exclusively New York Hardcore so like even my answer wouldn’t be as eccentric as that. Even if what i mostly listen to is pure noise with a lot of visceral emotion and disdain for oneself and others… :’)
>>35500978Wherever I work I'm always rly popular with the middle aged women probably because they see me as a child I'm not really sure. They always come to me to rant about stuff they don't like or if they want something from my team lol.So probably just don't look threatening at all I guess... I wish I looked like a woman tho kek.>>35501022Lol yeah fair enough, there's a guy with a one piece figure on his desk nearby so I'm probably not that weird but it isn't really about being weird to me it's just I want to keep my hobbies to myself.
>>35479892What is it called when I can't stop posting my tits on the board
>>35501216being desperate for attention and validation. i’ve been doing similar recently, hope you stop feeling the need to do so.
>>35501250I wouldn't say I do it for validation because I only do it when I'm bored and have nothing to do>hope you stop feeling the need to do so.Yeah like I don't feel forced to do this I think I might just be a whore desu
>>35500026>havent eaten in 2 days >plan to stay up and go to a breakfast place and watch the sunrise>fall asleep at 04:50>>35500978theyre probably not actually paying attention>>35501216whorery. i understand doing it but i reccomend not
>>35501294Yeah whorery is the best word for it probably >but i reccomend notNot that I disagree with you because I kinda agree actually but any specific reasons why?
>>35501071I'm always weirdly popular with older like 60+ women. I don't know what it is but they are drawn to me lol>but it isn't really about being weird to me it's just I want to keep my hobbies to myselfI've just had bad experiences sharing my hobbies and interests with people in the past- so if i can avoid that I'd be happy to. Anwyay i made eggs for breakfast. >>35501216being a tranny>>35501294girly go eat soemthing.
>>35501320internet footprintpimeyesyoure in peoples serveryoure being used at detriment to self esteem>>35501324idrk. feel like im getting fat
>>35501354I get it. I struggle to eat, like i forced myself to make eggs instead of just eating a clementine or an apple. Yet I'm still at 24bmi instead the 20 I was pre COVID ;_; Trying hard to fix that but i just hate food these days. Returning from Japan made me realize that, because I was eating so well there.
>>35501320Permanent record of your tits on the internet isn't a great look if you're the ruler of earth someday>>35501324>bad experiences sharing my hobbies and interests with people in the pastSo relatable yeah can't get hurt if I just stick to myself...
>>35501071Middle aged women LOVE me too, it's a he same way. I'm really not sure why if like it's because I look so young for my age and put together and I have a gentle temperment and I try to be really polite or what like if they see me almost like a kid or what? Or if because I look kinda more androgynous or whatever they subconsciously see me as another woman to talk to? I really am not sure but I have the same thing going on with me.>>35501294Yeah maybe they're not paying attention but I look way different now
>>35501354>internet footprint>pimeyesMy face isn't in the photos >youre in peoples server>youre being used at detriment to self esteemI'm not sure I understand either of these
>>35501394>Permanent record of your tits on the internet isn't a great look if you're the ruler of earth somedayDamn you're so right, I'm gonna be cooked when someone leaks my tits when I'm the god-emperor of earth
>>35501394>So relatable yeah can't get hurt if I just stick to myself...I only share that shit with those who get it. God i miss my lesbian friend from LA..... I have no one irl to chat about my stupid artsy pretentious interests.
>>35500577good morning bmg! i slept horribly and my body aches, probably gonna pass out for a while longer.>>35501294please eat something, i heard that’s important for life.>>35501406yeah, a lot of people just don’t notice (or out right ignore?) changes in appearance if it’s gradual and they aren’t looking for it.>>35501426even without your face it’s still a risky decision. but with the amount of people posting their tits at least there is a lower likelihood of you being targeted in particular.
>>35501583Hi watergirl! ahh that sucks, i hate waking up and feeling awful. >yeah, a lot of people just don’t notice (or out right ignore?) changes in appearance if it’s gradual and they aren’t looking for it.especially men lol
>>35501393i wanna get to like 19.8 bmi. which means losing like 14 ilbs or some shit. my whr is like alnost .9 so its kinda over>>35501426idk. ask any girl who had a kik as a teen. it hurt in the long run.>>35501448ur not pretentious!!!>>35501583aww rest welllife isnt rlly real. simulation right? >>35501603except they often do if you used to not change appearance often
>>35501670i'm deffo a bit pretentious lol i like arthouse films and avant garde music, so i just have nobody to talk about with that stuff irl >i wanna get to like 19.8 bmi. which means losing like 14 ilbs or some shit. my whr is like alnost .9 so its kinda overuwaaa, i have to lose 30. >.9;_; i mean maybe your hips will grow a bit with some feminine fat gain? but with losing weight idkkI have giant hips so I'm lucky, but my waist is fucking awful and i need to lose that male belly weight
>>35501709im hoping???? that the hip bones will get bigger since im 20 but probably noti coukd swear my UB is bigger than my hips
>>35501709chin up, i have to lose 45lbs to get to 19.8 lol. i think that's a bit unsustainable but i'll try anyways t. nearly 27bmi (jesus i'm fat)
>>35479892I am more of a squizo failure manmoder but at what point should I be worried that anything that looks like boobs is to big and can't be blamed as gyno / being to fat.
>>35501747There's no point at which it's too much anon, nobody suspects males to have boobs...I've never been questioned Abt them ever except one cis friend who said she was getting second hand embarrassment looking at them...
>>35501730;_; dont lose hope bea. youre only, what 4 mos? give it time. >>35501734ouch :( i wish covid didnt happen so i didnt have to become a sedentary piece of shit who lived with her parents who dont know how to make or buy anything healthy. like i got down to 150 but then trazodone made me gain even more. i hate weight>>35501747if youre american/brit/aussie/canuck you can just blame it on being fat because like 85% of adults have boobs these days
>>35501800yeah i don't have too much issue with it honestly, i carry my weight really well (all in my thighs and ass) but i'm starting to get love handles so definitely want to lose a bunch. i was 150 too before i started hrt so i know i can fairly easily get at least back down to that if i'm smarter about my diet.
>>35501800I am from mexico. were soft obesity is super popular but normal one is rare.
>>35501583>>35501670Yeah I'm not disagreeing that posting pics of myself on here is a bad idea I was just curious what reasons specifically you were thinking
>>35501841shit i was gonna mention mexico too. youre prob fine then. >>35501832ive felt better about it since HRT started moving fat around a bit so my tum is a little slimmer, but ive wanted a flat flat tum since i was 15 and im actually motivated to do it now.Good luck to u on your weight loss journey <3
>>35501709>>35501734Chin up, i have to lose 55lbs to get to 19.8 lol. i think that's a bit unsustainable but i'll try anywayst. nearly 28bmi (jesus i'm fat)
23 bmi and im also too fat. trying to go from 160 to 145
>>35501933>>35502128wagmi guys, i have faith in us. i had a small lunch and gonna go cycling once i finish my tea
>>35501899Izutsumi is my wife
Boymoder general more like body mass general amirite>>35497767You should reinstate your boy appreciation threads !!
>>35502180I need some tea. i had some earlier but its never enough.>>35502128you got this!! >>35502186harem!
>>35501882i mean, how long have you been here? chasers are creeps and will stock pile photos for ever, it’s just icky to give them that, you know? but i don’t have a leg to stand on, i posted unsee’s in hornygen recently, just be safe and responsible about it ok?>>35502224brutal
feeling the urge to get a shitty amazon corset to wear under my oversized tops.
>>35502367>i mean, how long have you been here?Like 5 years I think? Fwiw I only ever post unsees so it's not *that* bad>chasers are creeps and will stock pile photos for ever, it’s just icky to give them that, you know? True but I'm not really that bothered over it, maybe it's the malebrain but I kinda don't care that someone saved a picture of my tits >just be safe and responsible about it ok?I'm trying to>>35502588Same ngl
Need my hair cut again :( the place I usually go to might close and then idk where I'd go
>>35479892i remember when i was a boy modem. now im a manmoder, rapehon, ogrehon, etc etc etc. it never began, and i will die an ugly grotesque lovecraftian eldritch horror. let this be a lesson to stop boy moding and start LIVING!
>>35502747>let this be a lesson to stop boy moding and start LIVING!Why don't you take your own advice?Actually you know what don't answer that
>>35502747
i remember when i was a boymoder.now im a boymoder with a job.
>accidentally saw a non mirrored image of myselfdeath. ffs immediately need god
>>35500050It's done! Well, it was done 5 hrs ago, but I had a final soon after that I went straight to studying for, but both are done! Only one more tomorrow and I'm free!I need to get a 93 on that report or I lose my A. I'm scared haha
>>35504765good luck fuckerrr!!!>>35503249wagecuck?>>35502588...why?>>35501800no. you see most peeps troon photos?they always had good shit yk how it iswhat is it with girlmoders and force femming
>>35504802>no. you see most peeps troon photos?>they always had good shit yk how it isi mean i think youre pretty femlooking but idk about whr. im sure if you gained weight after like a year itll bump your hips a bit? also uh, i mean my troon photos having me age backwards but i wont post that here >_<>what is it with girlmoders and force femmingthey wanna break the boymoders
>>35499756>i watch people engage with textbook bpd and am unable to save them
>>35504802>...why? they're cool and i want to have better posture
>>3550212823 bmi too, I'm trying to drop 20 lbs to get to 150. all my excess fat is on my tummy pouch ;_;>>35503249hello fellow wage cuck. i just got done wagecucking for the day>>35503813don't u get free ffs through ur insurance? ontario sucks ffs isn't covered and the company i wagecuck for don't cover it either feelsbad
>>35505141>all my excess fat is on my tummy pouchthis! I mostly just want that gone and I don't really care about the number for my weight so long as I can achieve that
>>35505141i need insurance that isnt my parents- but yeah i do. once i get hired, i'm going to apply for consult. im so disgusted by looking at my face. >ontario sucks ffs isn't covered and the company i wagecuck for don't cover it either feelsbadweh that sucks anon :(>all my excess fat is on my tummy pouch hate this ;_;
>>35505141hm? Keojama takes OHIP>>35504957whr is asss. yeah. do i just get rid of it in meantime? i mean yeah, intrinsically timelimes will reverse age before like...evil fucks>>35504997theyre uncomfy and smelly
>>35505235>Keojama takes OHIPnta but doesnt beobamba have a years long waiting list...
>>35505273yes. his ffs is gold tho
>>35505235id kinda love to go to Keo. idk if my future insurance would tho, plus having to go to California and heal there instead of at home is ... meh>whr is asss. yeah. do i just get rid of it in meantime? get rid of what? the weight? i mean itll redistribute and change a bit but i mean you can also like give the illusion of wide hips with like squats or whatever to emphasize legs>i mean yeah, intrinsically timelimes will reverse age before like...yeah but like i mean. i legitimately would pass for 25 at 19, and now at 25 i pass for 19. its uncanny i feel.
>>35505235>smellynta but wtf? They aren't, though?You should be wearing a tank top or t-shirt between your skin and the corset anyways...
>>35505307It is crazy, yeah, I looked WAY older when I was like 22 than I do now at 29 I swear
>>35505141ugh! tummy fat is the absolute worst!>>35505307>>35505422that reverse aging stuff is wild! it must be really weird to see and experience
>>35504802>>35505141I'm not a WAGEKEK I've gamed the system my job is lazy af>>35504765Lol best of luck anon sounds stressful but it's out of your hands now so
>>35505422I didn't really reverse any aging but I guess I started at 17 so there wasn't a ton of aging to reverse lol
>>35505479>that reverse aging stuff is wild! it must be really weird to see and experiencefor what its worth, until i was 22 i had a repper beard. but even since 23 i look substantially younger and different. like i really barely recognize pictures of me at 19 though. totally different person.
>>35505235ohip only covers srs, and if you don't like the options available in Canada you're gonna have to fight them or pay out-of-pocketffs also isn't covered by ohip b/c the chuds in our provincial government deems it not a necessary gender affirming proceedure. There's transwomen trying to fight the government to get it covered tho.other options for canadian trannies is to either work for the federal government or move to the yukon where they cover up to a certain amount, or for a company with insurance that does...it sucks :(
>>35479892since it’s boyboobs edition this vent feels timely. a heat wave must be passing through my area cause i’m boiling rn. and it sucks cause if i want to leave my room i have to wear my hoodie since it’s really obvious when i don’t. how has the weather been for you recently bmg?
>>35505961literally baking alive wearing my binder
>>35505961The weather has been insane lately, last week it was 30°C, this week it's 0°C and next week it's supposed to be 20°CI am either dying from heat or dying from cold, atleast when it's cold I have to worry less about my boobs showing because I csn just wear a sweater(they fucking show through it too but not as much)
>>35506031oh my gosh that sounds unimaginably more miserable. sorry you have to wear a binder.
>>35505754thats how i roll :3 i always thought some places it was covered underbut ig its not always a neccesary GA procedure>>35505485mhmOh yeah?>>35505398no, like they suck>>35505307pass for 16 :3idk i just wanna not be a guy >>35505961hot asf (14 degrees) but was boiling erier
>>35506052haha me too
>>35505961absolutely dreary lately. its just been rain and wind daily. yesterday was the first day where it was nice out. next week were supposed to go up to 80F... i have nothing to wear...>>35506167>idk i just wanna not be a guy felt. im like genuinely disgusted by my face so i probably will be stuck being an androgynously uglyish guy until ffs. guh............anyway i came up with a cool song that consisted of me playing no actual notes but just messing with reverb and the strings and it was so ethereal. i wrote it down for future use >:3
10 more days and im done 10 more days and im done. i hate thesis work. i cant wait to be over with it so i dont have to think about paper writing when im in a dysphoric fit. fuck.
>>35507218nearly to the single digits. you got this!
>>35507288thanks!! i'm like 15 pages left and i'm done for good. meeting with a different dept tomorrow at work , they may hire me and it'll all be worth it for a bland 65k office job. just cant think of school right now when i feel like this
>>35506458>>35507338would you ever consider posting the song? also, we believe in you! you’re better than you think! that bland 65k office job is as good as yours!!!
>>35507465Yeah! Whenever i actually start recording (and get a new amp, guitar, and bass) lol i'm hoping itll be mine, i really need the insurance and security. and money. im a pretty frugal girl but i have rent to pay and stuff to buy for my life.
>>35507506also we hit bump limit again! i'll make a new thread when this hits >page 9
I just dont understand. My body is truly too bad to pass
>>35506458is ffs the like switchy point for a lot of ppl?send me da tabbbsss>>35507338soon done and u can cry all u needs ok?>>35507288
>>35508586FFS would definitely be it for me. Like I can hide my body under clothes and have broad shoulders and lose weight, but my face just looks... male. It's androgynous, but it's definitively male. Except for all the times I malefail and then i'm confused but it's male. >send me da tabbbsssNo tabs!! Just gliding the e string over the fret ridge on the 18th fret towards the back of the fretboard, bending the b string inwards over again on the 19th fret, and tapping the next few strings with heavy heavy reverb to create this lush psych sound. Would be super cool with some drums and bass.>soon done and u can cry all u needs okyesssssssanyways we are at page 9, ill make a new bmg
>>35508647>>35508677>>35508677>>35508677new bread!
