last:>>36635567qott:how much time do you spend in your room?
>>36640220Laguna please answer my calls
>qotttoo much and yet not enough
Half the day
>>36640220That image is so cool. The huge earring looks very daunting though.@__@
>>36640266I think it's an animated rendition of a live action pic.
how can i get hoes and fuck bitches
>>36640220currently almost all of it lol>>36640215used to work in a kitchen with a guy who used to like, shadow stab the air with knives and walk up behind ppl with them up his sleeves as if they were his hands. Took a surprising long time for him to get fired
>>36640241You don't get it. I need her
Discovered kebab mexican pizzaTraumatized
>>36640220>qottliving with ppl who make me uncomfy i spend most of the day in my room. living with ppl i like i rarely spend time in my room.
>>36640172not much probalready have quite a handful with this little rapscallion
I’m exhausted from all this shitI think I’ll do a flip down the elevator shaft
>>36640303Why are you nice to me :(
>>36640220>qottnoneI don't have the luxury of a bedroom anymoreprivacy is but a pipedream for a few more months at leastif the room I sleep in countsmost my time I guess because the the room I sleep in is the only room that's not a bathroom, bedroom or kitchen here
QOTT I have a house so the whole thing is my “room”>>36640183 # Clara>>36640199 #no but I had never heard this degas angle I really like his paintingsGreek Town is just downtown but Detroit is so spread out >>36640219 # Larrywow 5 hrs is quite a drive wonder if it is worth it>>36640233 Lilyseems like there is a significant risk of correlation w lead exposure through water and and poverty and we know there is def a correlations by poverty and prosecution for violent crime>>36640270 NazI grew up around firearms and I have never wanted to conceal carry
>>36640297Why are you doing this to me, I've been trying to call you for days now, I thought we had something going you know, but you keep pushing me away, why? Do you hate me?
calling radiochan radiochan overcan you think of any recommendations for Clara she has about three hours and is in the vicinity of the DIA
I dont like myself very much
>>36640370Bit too much schizophrenia how about you calm down
>>36640385happens to the best of us but this is why we have friends who like us even when we can’t figure out why
>>36640370unsettling
>>36640355nice flex
>>36640355>I have a house so the whole thing is my “room”guess it sorta worked like this for me too yeh. spent a lot of time on the patio.>correlations by poverty and prosecution for violent crimealso by a bunch of other discriminatory factors it's rly disappointing.
>>36640386Just answer my calls.
>>36640428The meds are calling too better go get em
>>36640401Being consoled only makes me feel worse because it does nothing for me and makes them sad.
>qottFar too much time. I'm unemployed and cannot afford to go out anywhere.The job market sucks, so unless I get lucky I'm basically trapped at home and cannot even get laser. Let alone start saving for FFS.I feel like I'm basically frozen in place and unable to get moving again until I get lucky with a job. But when I'm an autistic loser and most job ads currently get north of ~200 replies, I do not have much hope of things changing.I know there are groups for shared trans housing. I wish there were job networking groups exclusively for trans people. Being able to just hire each other and know that we were helping out the wider community just seems much more preferable to wasting an opening on a cis that objectively needs it less.If things don't change in the next month or two, I think I'm just going to end myself.
>>36640439So you really hate me that much, fine, I'll leave you alone, you keep acting like you wanted love then you block me and just refuse to acknowledge me, you're just a narcissist
>>36640220I rented a trailer so now I get to be outside of my room :). But I’m mostly outside with my animals now.
>>36640355yup yup, apparently something I never really thought about but makes sense is how ballet as an institution has really strong ties to sex work and how these ballet theaters were sort of set up to operate similar to brothels except for fancy and cultured rich men. the historical marginalization of women and girls sort of makes what is to be considered sex work blurry of course but I mean relatively speaking.
>>36640466I haven't talked to anyone privately for at least a week maybe two. Chill the schizophrenia
i wish i did not have ocd, even by dissociating i don't get rid of it, that is how persistent this shit is
>>36640416worked very hard for italso and this is harder to explain it is strangely a part of me like a the relationship bt a haunted house and the ghost who haunts it>>36640425make me wonder if the lead thing is really misleading>>36640451lol dummy you know I don’t believe doomposting that having friends means nothing to you
>>36640355by different worlds I mean people who self justify violence compared to those who can't self justify violence like my dadwho see's no issue with even threatening violence against childrenlet alone random strangersyet we're all victims of violence anyhowthis is like a good chunk of the reason I'm terrified of people there's no real way to tell what someone capable of before they show youlike I saw a certain someone essentially celebrating the murder of one of our neighbors just infront of his kidthe only people I can read as safe irl are my mom and my siblingeveryone else mayaswell have a god tier poker faceI can never tell what they're feeling or planning to do
>>36640521>lol dummy you know I don’t believe doomposting that having friends means nothing to youI mean when im dooming im incapable of positive emotions like empathy or love or relief or happiness.
>>36640481
>>36640472yes I have heard of how rich young men had ballerina mistresses and there were scandals and duels around this but I don’t know much about itwhat’s the theory that Degas had anything to do w the murders
>>36640538would you characterize this mood as utterly irrational
>>36640564What'd I do this time I dont Even know who I'm talking to
>>36640600it's not me
>>36640587I dont believe in rational experiences
https://youtube.com/watch?v=lrsnPqLHWxw
it is all your fault that my life sucks
>>36640580multiple reasons.. degas would frequent london. during a period of two of the canonical murders, degas sent letters to people from a paris hotel that were out of character and to random acquaintances he didn't normally letter. speculation is the strangeness of these letters signifies an effort to set up a false alibi.degas was notably anti-semitic and so was jack the ripper.degas friends said they had to stop being friends with him because he became increasingly anti-social and misanthropic in his 50s.around the same time he was going blind which is basically viewed as the reason he got so bitter, but some studies suggest a correlation between serial killers and a brain issue right behind the eyes so it may be a more biologically placed anti-socialness.Jack the ripper took womens organs sometimes and there is x-ray confirmed unidentified organic material inside of his wax sculpture of the the ballerina girl.and lastly many suggest that his blocking of ballerinas is very corpse like and that his paintings have allusions to necks being slit with like ribbons around girls necks n stuff.
>>36640616Yeah I'm just wondering cuz that's weird to post
>>36640220most of my life...has been inside.no wonder im getting pale...
>>36640521other factors haven't changed enough to rly explain the whole change i think that's the main argument for the lead hypothesis.
>>36640875and by main argument i mean main reason why it exists at all. the neurological impact of lead exposure leading to reduced behavioral problems and impulse control issues is why it's plausible.
>>36640764it’s amazing how that case still causes so much wild speculation
https://youtube.com/watch?v=sLQWjW4-ApE
>>36640921looking over this and it is interesting that the arguments emphasize gasoline and IQ
>>36640954people love to pick at loose threads
Burrito yummy
>>36641054yeah it is really interesting — but while looking into the Degas angle, I went down the rabbit hole of the Dreyfus Affair which nobody talks about much nowadays at least not in the anglophonic worldwhat other late 19th-century news stories is still so popular today ?
>believing tiktok theories about a serial killer from 150 years agobrainrot
>>36641033>IQthis is how you know something is bsimo people don't have to being up iq when they're being honest
started having dreams about starting HRT, I think it's over for me
>>36641101But only honest people have high iqs, I mean its just a fact
>>36641106I keep getting sexual dreams and it makes me sad. They're all realistic too so I wake up confused thinking I was in the middle of drying the tuna but then realize it was all on le head.
My GF and I are losing steam for RE6 lolIt's like the 3rd chapter of every campaign just objectively sucks
>>36641145>drying the tunawhat does this analogy refer to kek
wtf are you all even talking about
>>36641145what kind of sexual dreams?
>>36641083I'm not sure what other popular stories are from around that time... blood meridian by mccarthy about the wild west is in my head but idk if that's actually in the same category as loose thread stories..
>>36641106I have a reoccurring dream that I live on a houseboat but it sinks.
>>36641157Realistic aka could happen. I try to say something different because saying the actual act would be weird and awkward. It is what lonely people do when they get the horny>>36641176Like the ones where I watch porn and do stuff. >>36641186It means.. that you're gay.
>>36641165I'm always blabbering about nonsense pay me no mindhttps://youtube.com/watch?v=H4qoeRVoT8U
>ywn be daddy’s little sonccubus
>>36641201>It is what lonely people do when they get the hornyah relatable..
>>36641145what the fuck is drying the tuna
>>36641232Tfw will never be food for an evil rapey vampire lady>>36641238The horoscope of today says pretty people like you shouldn't be lonely.>>36641241Yknow what you do when the when Is jerking the jerky a funnier analogy
>>36641257>ou do when the when>Is jerking the jerkyoh i don't do that, i use a vibrator because of dysphoria also tuna is misogynistic and inaccurate so doubly offensive
>>36641201thank u doctor
>>36641289Okay what about cleaning the fish. And I don't have any fancy toys so.>>36641303No problem wheat product
>>36641312>fishstill misogynistic, words like that are used to attack women and demean then for their anatomywhile your anatomy is maleso you're just larpingit's like a white person using the n word
>>36641257gooner incel
>>36641323>it's like a white person using the n wordto describe themselves* sorry i hit enter too earlylike>man im such a dumb bitch NIGGER>kevin ur white>NAH MAN I BE A NIGGER YA FE
>while your anatomy is malekms
>>36641323sometimes it smells likes fish tho. that's not a misogynistic stereotype.
>>36641350your penis doesn't smell like fish and if it does seek medical attention or fucking bathe once in a while holy shit why are trannies so gross
>>36641323I'm calling the ween a fish and using the act of cleaning it as an act for cleaning it. I find nothing wrong with that.>>36641333Trve>>36641350That's true that's trueAnd why as a woman shouldn't I use silly analogies others also use for my genitals.
>>36641323o come on, there's tons of words for pp such as shrimp in ur case
>>36641323i don't think that's even remotely comparable. maybe if you're a terf and hate trannies enough to exclude them from being a type of woman.
>>36641337and you even create life with itbeat all of us
>>36641369ugh totally btfo i will never recover lol>>36641370p-erhaps
please stop talking about your penises and their smell>>36641375created
how do i get the motivation to do anything
>>36641375I can't wait to see my little angel again soon
>>36641369Oh okay. New analogy. Saucing the shrimp. Though mine is like ginormous so it's more like saucing the lobster>>36641393Things will get better one day I'm sure
>>36641405you should be thankful to your anatomy, not little angel without it
>>36641364i fucked a girl with a yeast infection when i was 17, and my peen smelled like fish afterwards. Skanky hoe named ashley who didn't tell me. I'm a tourist not a tranny>>36641368people get uptight about the silliest things, misogyny isn't real
>>36641405do you have kids naz or what?
>>36641412jumbo coconut shrimp, now I'm hungry
>>36641436Was she trying to bake some bread in there? And how do u not figure that out that thing had to smell like the back of a ps4>>36641446Coconut shrimp? Never heard nor had that. Did hear of coconut crabs and that they don't like coconuts..
>>36641395the pain of not doing it becoming greater than the pain of doing it
>>36641446same could go for some tempura prawns.
>>36641446how would you describe the taste (not texture) of shrimpI was eating a shrimp the other day and I like them a lot but realized I could not think of a word for the taste
>>36641437>kidsI have a daughter singularalready 5 years old
>>36641465weed
>>36640220most of it desu
>>36641453coconut shrimp means frying shrimp in a batter made w shredded coconut it’s very delicious
>>36641474grotty lesbians are also capable of generating whatever causes that.
>>36641474>>36641493So if people don't shower and try to make babies they make bread instead. Very interesting>>36641489That sounds interesting I should have it one day
>>36641465slightly sweet, creamy, seafoody. >>36641453they're coated in coconut flakes and fried
women are such niggers i hate them
>>36641529men are the niggers of gender, women are the jews
>>36641512>seafoodyYou can't just say that. That's like saying cheesecake taste dairyly. It's what it is of course it tastes like it.
>>36641459i can't really fear sadness, depression or suicidal at all most of the time and my fear anxiety and stress are also heavily reduced, i literally have problems making myself caring about anything since i can no longer really feel stress that much, just a little, on paper it might seem nice but it is kinda hard, boredom is a good motivator but only motivates me to do stuff that makes me feel good and i enjoy and not productive stuff that makes me feel bad>>36641472uhh ok
>>36641507it is a staple of down market American popular dining generally served as an overpriced appetizer by “sit-down” restaurant chains
think cud have msucular dreem bf??
>>36641512>creamyinteresting the best I could come up with was “subtle” or “mild”
>>36641581how did your appt go
>>36641587pearly?
>>36641571Of course americans would have fried covered with carbs food as an appetizer.>>36641597I mean they are partially white
>>36641597I dunno how that is a taste (like diamondish)
If I had a ba I'd look so fucking awesome at this weight. It's like a nice amount of chubbiness not going too deep to either side but having a flat chest ruins literally all of it. If I had a pair of aoobas I'd be mogging literally 99% of cis women unarguably. But cuz im amab I can't yet. Not cool, very evil
>>36641630So what's stopping you from getting it?
>>36641558yeah it's weirdyou really never know wtf life is going to give you
>>36641646I'm on waitlist cuz it's free here but I have to wait. They're slow. I'm pretty sure I've been waiting for more than half a year to be put on the list and I'm not even there yet. That's how slow it is. I could probably get a job and get it earlier with the money from it.
>>36641603ever heard of a blooming onion?
>>36641679Oh wait considering life cucked me and I'm going to either have no classes next year or max 2 hours at night I could get like a part time job or smth. It would probably be a good idea to do that so I don't end up rotting at home all day>>36641725I've heard of it but I've never had one. Aren't they fried onions that are like opened up in the middle like a flower would be?
>>36641725An absolute manmade atrocity
>>36641595it wasn't too terrible, which makes me worried im not focusing on the right stuffidk i still feel like shit and broken up inside, the longer i've done therapy for the less convinced i am that it truly helps. i've really put as much effort in as i can into each therapist i've had and each thing i've done, and only dbt really yielded any appreciable results. it just sorta sucks. i feel like im not getting really new insights from therapists either, i've been doing this for so long i have internalized the therapist and can play that role in conversations with myself, and even then i hardly get anything out of it. like talking about things isn't going to make me not severely depressed. it's not going to get rid of or even impact the pathological demand avoidance. a lot of the time it's just me presenting with an issue, being asked why i think that is, then me detailing the context and causation as well as my attempts to resolve things, and the therapist being like ok sounds good. i feel like i've made all the progress i can make>i miss ex bff but i have chosen to cut contact and wait until i'm in a more stable place emotionally, then start dating other people so i can move on>i have a lot of hurt from abuse in my life, and i set boundaries and am mindful of them so as to manage triggers and try to decrease how much i act out because of the pain>i have intrusive thoughts and images, but i try to not interact with them and instead engage with other things so i don't fall down the rabbit hole>i don't like that pathological demand avoidance makes it hard for me to function, but i try to break things down and myself freedom and choice as much as i can to facilitate getting things done even if only incrementally rather than stressing over doing it all at once only to get nothing done>i have nightmares and wake up in the middle of the night but i just shrug it off and go back to sleepbasically im just treading water and nobody seems to be able to help me swim
>>36641679Would you trust a free BA though? What if it ends up botched
>>36641795It's just a normal ba but the goverment sets it up and pays for it. I'd get the same by paying. I mean I'd prefer getting to pick who I go to but at worst I can just say no whenever I get picked by someone and search for someone new. Idk. The just getting a job idea is sounding decent now that I know I could manage it.
>>36641748yes, another deep fried appetizer that could feed six people.>>36641752I blame Australia
steam support wont change my steam account login that has my deadname (it's an account from 2010)nobody sees ur actual account name but it triggers methey asked for proof of account ownership via a credit card receipt from 13 years ago Im like bitch WHY would I keep receipts from some random ass game my mom got me when I was 12
I have a question:I’m 32, married to a woman, no kids. She doesn’t know I’m trans deep down inside. Used to repress in the past and it would come and go in cycles (dysphoria), now it has got to the point where it’s constantly there and I don’t know for how long I can keep repressing and masking. I love her, we have a great relationship, but sometimes I fantasise about getting divorced so I can start transitioning without hurting her. I feel like it’s gonna be over for me once we have kids. Even if we get divorced, I will always have to be a father to my kid/s. I feel trapped, like I'm in a content and stable vanilla life trajectory, and my inner woman is realizing she’ll never get to burst out and is freaking out. What do?inb4 tell wife you’re trans, she has said in the past that she wouldn’t be able to accept her partner if they turned out to be trans, it was a random comment while we were watching drag race or some other queer shit.Also inb4 it’s too late for me and I’ll be a troon, I’m naturally fem af
>>36641840you're not transgender if you can impregnate a woman with your penis, sirdon't traumatize your kids because of a midlife crisis fetish
>>36641823Youd think itd come from some deep fried kentucky hellscape
>>36641805oh shit this reminds me, sorry for being off topic anon: what is the font in that pic? i was trying to find it to make edits w/out luck. id guess its embedded in some app but i dont go online much besides on here
>>36641859are you taking hrt
>>36641840keep repressing. you've lived for 32 years as a guy, you can live the rest of it fine just the same. don't put your family through the stress. dedicate everything to your family, live vicariously through your wife, whatever it takes for you to get your mind off it
>>36641864i be not
>>36641792>wait until i'm in a more stable place emotionallywhat does that require? surely more than just waiting.>>36641840why the fuck do ppl do this i'll never understand. at least you don't have kids.
>>36641881>what does that require? surely more than just waiting.im not sure, i would think therapy but it doesn't seem to helpmaybe having my own place and a more stable life where i feel comfortable meeting people. right now im living with my mum and even just dressing feminine here feels transgressive
>>36641859look up fontsquirrel. lets u reverse search fonts.
>>36641859It's a font I'm pretty sure.
I hate being sick
>>36641881At least I don’t use anime profile pics and have AGP>>36641868Sound legit. I can tolerate a lot of things, more so than most people. I just have a feeling it’s going to come to a head at some point. When does the repression eventually start causing resentment or health issues, I wouldn’t want that to be the case for me or my wife.
>>36641840the question you need to ask yourself is do you love her enough to sacrifice your life for her. That's supposed to be what a marriage vow is. Better decide fast, she's not getting any younger.
>>36641792I think you are making a valid point regarding your relationship to therapyI think you are probably overly-therapized at this point where you have incorporated therapeutic concepts into your pathology
Hello everyone I am a transgender woman
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>>36641945so what should i do? im already working with the vocational rehab ppl to try to get back to work, idk what else to do outside of thati just want to die a lot lol and like i don't feel like that's ever going to go away until it happens
Jesus Chris is my nigga
>>36641916yeah i tried the matcherator but no luck!>>36641922youre trying to rustle my jimmies aren't you
>>36641973Do not call me a "nigga"
evens order a ton of [REDACTED]odds do not fuck up my life again
>>36641940To answer your question; yes. I am willing to sacrifice a lot of things for her, including continuing to repress and keep this hidden from her for as long as we’re together. I just worry about the toll this will have on me eventually.
>>36641971you're not a schoolgirlyou're not homurayou're not a lesbianyou are a man on estrogen who dates other men on estrogen because it's your fetishyou are an adultstop larping as a child
>>36641930>I just have a feeling it’s going to come to a head at some pointreal talkif your partner identifies as straightyou don't have to come out but you should break upfor obvious reasons I'd hope
>>36641988No I just don't know what the font is.>>36641999Top kek
wsg gang
>>36641972I think the only path to doing more than simply not killing yourself is building a social network of friendsand I cannot stress this enough while doing this do not give any info about it over the internet
>>36641999>>36642009never lucky kms
>>36641792>nobody seems to be able to help me swimu need one of these fren
out of the last 24 hours, i have spent 24 of them indoors
>>36642018God wants you to do well.>>36642020A floating boingboing?
>>36641907Do you still use tampax?
why are you people always replying to obvious bait
>>36642008>for obvious reasons I'd hopecare to extrapolate?if a straight woman is dating a man and he comes out as transgender, it's not sexuality that means they'll break up. often the wife stays with the husband even after he transitions, but that doesn't make her a lesbian lmfao she's just a straight woman with a crossdressing husband. some women aren't into that>>36642036>tampaxi don't remember using any tampax products, why would i?>>36642016that's what i'm thinking as well>and I cannot stress this enough while doing this do not give any info about it over the internetgood ideai did that with my job, and that never got disrupted
>>36642028go touch grass
>>36642043can u just fuck off paigeeven in your nonsense world where terfism is right and transphobia is fact, it's still kinda fucked up but whatever
I could get a job.. and a gf.. I could have money for surgeries and hobbies.. and someone to aid with loneliness.. A good hypothetical future I could get to but I need to be careful and be ready for it. Stop rotting on my room all day and all of that. I think I might go to the gym tomorrow even.
>>36642075sry i will indeed fugg off, gonna either take a nap or play ds1 age of sunlight, or both, likely in that order
>>36642043spitting the F
go to the gym or you'll be cursed for eternity
>>36642087>spitting the Fw-what does this meanis this more tuna talk?
>>36642043I think a lot of the way you present yourself here whether in text or pictures is designed to generate criticism, hatred, and loathing but after getting to know you for years now my opinion is that while you suffer from undersocialization you nevertheless have everything it takes to mature and learn how to be more socially positive and make and maintain meaningful, lasting friendships
>>36642059i didnt have work today and i dont want to suffer in the unbearable heat outside
>>36642103Proof?
>>36642035god is cruel ._.>>36642085gym sounds like a good idea helps with mental things too
>>36642106F stands for facts i can't believe some of them really think the wife magically turns into a lesbian when her husband starts wearing female clothes this people are so delusional, i would feel sad for them if they were not such a menace to fucking societysome rly should hatecrimed for the worlds benefit
>>36641930lol i don't use anime pfps i like art and specifically that artist and use his stuff as reaction images. also u shud own ur 'wearing wife's underwear and jacking off' fetish instead of projecting it.in all seriousness i have no idea how someone with gd gets where you are without roping but i guess here you are. i don't think repressing is healthy or gets better over time but u gotta decide for yourself if you can live with fucking your own and your wife's life up to pursue this. i'd say do it but also i don't know her nor am i you so it's easy for me to say.
>>36642008>should break upThis is the issue though, we’re married, it’s not like I’m 24 and she’s a random girlfriend. Some may say, well why did you get married then? I had this shit under control in the past, I really thought it would just fade away, not ramp up and go turbo mode. I understand latent transgender people a lot more now.
>>36642133>god is cruelActually I'm a nice person.>gym sounds like a good ideaIt is yeah. But when you start getting depressed and rot and all of that you get scared of it and start wanting to just be inside and waste your time all day
>>36642139how androgynous are you now, already (in terms of appearance, personality, etc)
>>36642121prove deez nuts nigga>>36642112do some situps
https://youtu.be/P03SlFSmeXo
>>36642137Sorry, didn’t mean to sass you. Just something I’ve noticed with those who are anime obsessed are like 9 times out of 10 just AGP in denial. Also I don’t jerk off in her underwear lol.>i have no idea how someone with gd gets where you are without ropingI have high pain tolerance, and can put up with uncomfortable circumstances for a long time. Like I said as well, it would come in waves, and progressively has become stronger and stronger. I agree, repressing is not healthy, but my options just seem very black and white right now, and part of me does not want to divest see someone for my own gain if that makes sense.
>>36642172Do not call me a nigga.
>>36642139>Some may say, well why did you get married then?I get ityou don't know what you don't knowI dated someone who claimed to be bi but was most definitely straightunfortunately there's no way this can end well for either especially if kids are becoming a question or something she wantsno fault divorce exists for reasons like these and hard to prove abuse
i get mad annoyed and angry when things don't go my way, i wish things would always go my way
>>36642157I regularly am hairless (which the wife doesn’t mind), and do calisthenics and lower body weight exercises only to maintain a toned feminine figure. Other than that, everything else is masc presenting appearance wise as part of my masking.In private I’ve practiced for years voice training, feminine walking patterns and gaits, and spend lots of time reading and studying HRT. I don’t know how I can describe my personality. Nurturing I guess and sociable? I kind of tolerate other men, and enjoy the company of women socially.
>>36640220>how much time do you spend in your room?all my free timecurrently all my time is free timewinter semester is in two months>went out yesterday to buy food>bought alcohol>the cashier didn't wanna give it to me>went "oh hell nah">said i look too young>asked me if my id was fake>finally budged and gave it to me>told me not to get caught by copsfriends keep telling me it's a good thing i look youngbut i don't wanna look like a teen boy..i just wanna be a girli have to give it time..>>36640459please keep trying>>36640469cute! <3what animals do you have? ^w^>>36641829it's in your emails dummy <3i still have my first purchases in my emailsit was portal 1 and garry's mod for 15€ total>>36641840that's really toughmaybe you could talk with a psychologistthough i guess they are usually pretty bad with trans people...i really don't recommend repping if you "broke your egg"you can try it for a while if you wantsee how long you'll lasti'm sorry about your wifeyou're in a hard position i wish you best of luck and happinesswhatever you choice you make <3
>>36642004the toll? I was ready to kill myself, then again I didn't have anything to hold on for. Most others would say something similar I believe. If you did transition things can also be very dark, so it's not necessarily an escape from that. I wouldn't say buy into the sunken cost fallacy, you already did your wife wrong by not being honest about this. It's probably best to tell her, let her choose.
Hate being fat.
>>36642191yeah your repping powers certainly exceed mine. i've been brain wormed about having the wrong body from well before i knew about trans ppl existing so my perspective on this stuff is rather narrow.you only live this one life are you gonna commit to living it as a man to appease others or live it as yourself? unless your wife comes around it is kind of a black and white crossroads moment yeh. better to choose now than when ur old, bald and have kids to fuck up tho.
why does my gf have a new reason to be mad at me every single day? :/ It seems like every day for the past two weeks she's upset at me for one reason or anotherI spend every day texting her, every night calling her and the one night I take time to talk to my friends after weeks of dodging them she blows up on me and tells me I'm ignoring her and making her feel unloved to the point where I just dropped my friends just to sit silently on discord with her while she chewed me out for being inattentive. It's like she forgot I forgave her for objectifying my genitalia when we first met. It's like she forgot I forgave her for continuing to text her ex. It's like she thinks it's okay to verbally abuse me and apologize an hour later saying "haha sorry I was moody :P" and brushing it under the rug as if my feelings dont matter.But the second I calmly tell her what bothers me, she brings up small moments where I fucked up like not texting her immediately when I'm *literally working* while she stays at home all day collecting her parent's checks because she convinced them to pay for her rent and bills for an entire year to "get ready" to find a jobplus she just.... Obviously doesn't like the idea of me getting bottom surgery? That doesn't have much to do with what I posted above but she gets visibly awkward when I talk about me wanting bottom surgery. I always talk about how it'll improve my life and make me happier with my body and she either awkwardly stops talking or instantly derails to "smashing [my] pussy" as if I'm getting a vagina *just* to get fucked? Like, my dysphoria is more complicated than just wanting to be able to be penetrated during sex.
>>36642345You're dating a demon amiga you better start mentally preparing yourself for this or get out of it
>>36642345
>>36642345oh hello MISTER BIG DICK
she's so me
>>36642345so many big red flags here it could be the national people's congress. idk how you can put up with that even if the extras are good.
all of you should be like in india and put into the woods
>>36640220Do you look like this though haha
repgen is genuinely religiongen at this point
>>36642455no, I'm not an anime anon.
>>36642345>why is my gf being a woman?Anon you are obviously AGP and not real trans. But if you are really a transwoman then the only solution is to date men instead since you're seemingly not romantically compatible with female logos.
>>36642310>If you did transition things can also be very darkYeah, very aware of this. The likelihood of complete alienation doesn’t sit well with me, but I think I’ve reached a point where I’d be willing to accept it if that’s the case. I guess my dumb brain has logically concluded that it would be better to transition post-divorce because then people would say “oh his brain broke after the divorce” rather than “he abandoned his wife and kids to larp as a woman.”>>36642338I’ve been appeasing others for a long time, anything other than appeasing seems foreign to me at this point. I guess why that’s been such a struggle. I’m sorry you had to deal with dysphoria at such a young age.
>>36642483I need to get BA asap kms
i wish it was always cold here i hate the heat
>>36642483>I'm not an animeaww :x why not?
>>36642385>>36642445Probably because I ruined my life so bad up until last year, this is on the lighter side of issues I've experienced.>>36642497Sorry, I'm not mentally ill enough to get brainwormed by 4chan posts.
>>36642513>BAwhy? t. an oblivious 38G biofem trans allied stacy
>>36642592go back
Cow>>36642483What are your husbands views on polyamory and trios?
>>36642588>Sorry, I'm not mentally ill enough to get brainwormed by 4chan posts.But you are mentally ill enough to post your relationship troubles for the public's entertainment instead of doing the one thing that keeps relationships healthy, which is communicating with your partner. So why didn't you just send that entire post to her?
america should make a woods where they throw all trans people
>>36640220i spend pretty much the entirety of every day in my room! ill sometimes go out for a walk tho
>>36642550wasn't meant to be
>polyworrying
>>36642629why
>>36642627>instead of doing the one thing that keeps relationships healthy, which is communicating with your partner. >So why didn't you just send that entire post to her?Did you not read the part where I said I do bring these things up?And of course i posted it here. It's nice to vent somewhere where it doesn't matter. What am I gonna do, post on twitter about it? Not sure what you're trying to accomplish here. It's just nice to type out feelings and be heard even if it's just criticism.
>>36642633you watch anime tho right?
>>36642200nugga
>>36642629You don't know about the secret tranny forest?>>36642642A falta de pan buenas son tortas>>36642659Nugget.
>>36642615eh? im just saying like, wouldnt it be nice to learn to love yourself even if your hrt boobs dont get huge naturally? i mean... even my bodys not perfect despite being cis.
>>3664267120 piece mcnugget
>>36642671I truly am a gamer.>>366426811 nugget
five. hundred. nuggets.
>>36642646mhm!! ive been watching anime since i was like 11, i cant watch 24 episodes in a day tho like i used to be able to
>>36642642>poly>worryingsome people have the personality and disposition for it. i have a fearful-avoidant attachment style and can do open relationships, i dont get jealous or things like that.
>>36642508people pleasing is a rly harmful behaviour for ur own mental health probably should look into that regardless of what u decide to do about your gender identity.>dysphoria at such a young ageit was a shit time wish i had known sooner that i could do something about it would have saved me a lot of money and heartache in the long run. better late than never tho yeh?>>36642455nah levitating pizza is effortless to me.
>>36642676
>>36642689stop being racist little gooner
>>366426950 nugget.>>36642711What a fucking gamer dude
qott: not a lot. I'm back at home and my room isn't my childhood room anymore it was converted into a sewing room. I stay outside and smoke weed usually, when I can. I work nights now and sleep during the day so I don't have to be around my family as much. I'm going back to school this fall so I can hopefully have a career and afford a place eventually, I should have never dropped out during covid. In other news, since starting this job, which is a sex shop btw, manned by autistic people, while I was being trained not by a supervisor but an equal peer employee who's just been there longer, and we uh, idk we connected they were very attractive and I said it and they reciprocated which was unexpected they are also autistic and I'm undiagnosed, but we connected very very well. I felt comfortable and they said they did as well, so now we kiss I guess
>>36642696did it help you develop into a better roleplayer?
>>36642695wasn't the limit 410 or something?>>36642676come on now.
Holy freakers
>>36642708anon is correct in the end love will save the soul
>>36642708sorry idk, i just think most plastic surgery mainstream women get on a whim makes them look worse or just comes with problems in the long run, it's just so stupid and a scummy money grubby part of the medical industry.
>>36642760Big boobs will save the soul*>>36642764Nuh uh
>>36642752yeah id say so! i also spend quite a lot of freetime roleplaying, whether its with other people or ai!
go.back.
>>36642621he's strongly against poly. he can barely keep up with my drive, says I'm on hrt so it's "not fair". wahahaha
>>36642778huh??
>>36642737they are also trans masc so in the eyes of the Lord I am straight
>>36642783describe your scent.
>>36642787At least I tried. >>36642788I said nuh uh
hey what is qott?
>>36642801my.. scent..? Huhhh weird question!! well when i used to socialise with other people they would say that i smelt nice! idrk how to describe scents desu
>>36642807nuh uh to what???
ah fuck my earlier roll result yolo time to order bai
>>36642837To your opinion.>>36642845Maybe don't
>>36640245damn that's so real oof
>>36642828umm what are you wearing rn?
hey what's it called when someone's only been monogamous but they find themselves attracted to someone who is in an open polyamorous relationship with two established partners, also this person likes them back
>>36642849sorry lol it was just an idea, its your body and life and all.
>>36642871oo so many questions hehe :>im just wearing a t-shirt and a skirt rn
>>36642897Trve>>36642900Erm cringe
>>36642900Cute cute
>>36642879it's called no one asked
>>36642918hehe how come youre so interested?>>36642914ik im cringe but it makes me happier at least
>>36642879poly curious/polyhedron
>>36642929>ik im cringe but it makes me happier at leastunironically based
>>36634586thats a bad take though. if someone is harassing you and you give in to their harassment and become upset/angry you're submissive to that person
>>36642954holy necro
I'm such a wrimbloid
>>36642879anya upvoted this post
Took me 28 episodes to notice sonic x is grabbing a LOT from sonic adventure 1-2. Major plots and all of that. But with better depth to the writing and more time given to mutate into it's own thing and be better. Berry cool
>>36642879a crush, retard
>>36640220I'm MoTherFucking Gooning 16 hours a day in my room.
Should I work out at 10 am. I feel like my neighbors deserve to be tortured first by loud anime sonic intros and then me working out for an hour on the treadmill.
>>36643068>to notice sonic x is grabbing a LOT from sonic adventure 1-2I always assumed sonic x was supposed to be a literal adaptation of the somic adventure feanchisebut I haven't really watched the show since I was a kidloved it back then thoeven with the scuffed english dubbing
>waking up at 1 pmdespair
>>36643140It's not an adaptation at all. It's it's own thing but it sometimes ends up being similar, with similar plots and all that stuff
>>36643126Pm not am. I think I'm going to do it regardless. Because I'm a bitch.
>>36643155gm cutie
>>36643193gm,,,,,
>>36643171well yeahas an adult it's pretty clearjust chris alone changes alotbut to my dumbass kid brain I saw this and was like https://youtube.com/watch?v=Sycu92K6G8Mohhhhh it's the same as my gamecube gamekekI've never been very bright
damnI should rewatch x but not the dub
Offering company via vc for at least 90 dollars an hour (double price for webcam). I have decided to become an internet loneliness solver.
>>36643252If I give you 180 bucks you better gape yourself with something massive
I want to take HRT but i dont want to grow tits …….
How do I know if I have reverse dysphoria?
>>366432791 million for that.
>>36643327No.
>>36643252yeah for that price you better pretend to suck my cock through the screen desu
>>36643344>>36643346Wow okay. Greedy customers. I'd pay that with a smile on my face me personally. Ig the business won't start
>>36643365https://www.epal.gg/ you can already hire some gamer girls to play with you for like 25 bucks an hour, don't ask me how i know this i have never used this service before
>>36643365know your worth (it's lower than you think)
>>36643325you'll want to look like a man?
>>36643405Oh ok thanksI don’t want that I think
>>36643403Well that's tough competitionMost I could realistically hope for is like a tenner an hour.>>36643404You are soulless anon.
>>36643365How about we go to mcdonalds and have ourselves a bLt and have a nice talk
>>36643464Can we not go somewhere local I'd rather not eat a burger that has enough conservatives to outlast me.>>36643480Vro
>>36643480what are you trying to be?
>>36643403ya, but do they have weird foreign accents?
>>36643480larissa please take your meds
>>36643508wdym
Thread is dead and murdered by Larry
I want to be a dominatrix and give girls handjobs while degrading them
>>36643636what did i do
>>36643661Can you do that for five dollars
>>36643681I'm worth more than that princess, especially since you're trash
>>36643480...Mal? Mal is that you? If your nickname isn't Mal, you look exactly like my old rave/DJ buddy.
>>366436846.99?
>>36643720Dont need to pay me, your self respect is has more value to me
>>36643504What if you got a sonic happy meal toy?
>>36643740Oh that's cool very cool thank you
>>36643764Then I buy happy meals until I get all of them then give them away to people. Give joy to myself and others. Very cool plan I think
The more i think about it the more i want to take estrogen. Am i trans ?
can't believe i still get intimidated by the bell gargoyles desu
>>36643952Those were boring. Oh wait that's the whole game
>>36643636part of it is that lasagna hanging around makes it feel like a bloody daycare all the time
>>36641083dreyfus affair is still considered important, they taught me about that in high school
>>36643959you thought all of ds1 was boring? why?
>>36643960The moment you are in thread you are crying about me. I think you have issues>>36643973Slow clunky story convoluted and hidden enough for everyone to be forced to watch videos to understand it pc port is shit repetitive bad artstyle bad setting plus gay
there's no love in my future and it scares mei wish i could settle down with someone someday :(
>>36643989>The moment you are in thread you are crying about me. I think you have issuesit's annoying the way you post and what you post about, and you clog up the entire threadif someone is going to say something about killing the thread, it's likely that if i weigh in some of it will be attributed to youhaving a teenager with a superiority complex, cluster b tendencies, and autistic fixations on sonic and gatcha posting all the time about all of those things whilst demanding attention and trying to shoehorn their way into a position of authority in a decade old community is just tiresome and childishyou're an emotional vampire and it's just tedious seeing some dork posting large breasted anime women while saying the most malebrained shit about liking big tits and sonic and pretending they're a woman >Slow clunky storyit's pretty straightforward tbqh>convoluted and hidden enough for everyone to be forced to watch videos to understand itunironically low iq issue>pc port is shit>repetitive bad artstyleidk if i agree with that, it's a little toned down to jrpgs and stuff but i like how the world feels and the more fantastical parts of it feel pretty cool>bad settingthe setting is a little cliche at this point but it's cliche because it was one of the first to do it well in this medium>gaynot a downside, the ships are cute
>>36643989also to be clear, the pc port is not shit and idk what you're talking about, i've beaten the game multiple times on a couple different computers and neither of them had any difficulty and the inputs were always registered faithfullyhint: if you're playing with lock on activated all or even most of the time, you're doing it wrong
>>36644067Yes yes thread is much better when you and val are sperging out about todays transphobic view you need to yell about and argue with anyone that's actually happy with themselves very true sorry
>>36644086the default control mapping on the pc port is psychotic and borderline unplayable. maybe she tried to play it without a controller lol
>>36643941yes
>>36644100>the default control mapping on the pc port is psychotic and borderline unplayablejust remap things, how is that complicated>maybe she tried to play it without a controller loli always play soulslikes with mouse and keyboard, once you find a good keybind and mousebind setup it's pretty easy to work with
Maybe it is time.. To come back to xenoblade chronicles 3.. I think I forgot 99% of the story I played through so starting from 0 shouldn't be that badOr maybe I play the hyperdimension neptunia games.. or maybe the persona ones.. or maybe dmc5 or replay dmc4..... or maybe utawarerumono.. maybe.. or the sonic rpg..
>>36644139Or maybe crosscode.. talking about things I forgot about and indies I forgot about I could play chained echoes. Maybe nier too. Maybe.
>>36644159Oh yeah or eiyuden chronicle. Or baten kaitos now that it got a pc port. Or spark the electric jester 3 because it's like sonic. Or 13 sentinels it's like mechs and cool combat but mostly vn that's pretty cool
hello /mtfg/ I realized I was trans recently and wanted a more grounded evaluation than what I might get from redditors - do you guys think I have a chance of looking nice if I transition? I'm 23 and 5'9"Sorry if I seem retarded or if this is off-topic, I've never really been on /lgbt/ because of self-loathing/resentment issues so I don't know the board culture.https://unsee dot cc/album#7Q2omf5HfpSHI know I have a big schnoz but on the whole, do you think I have a chance of being cute
>>36643966what country ?
>>36644228Iek what your saying to b3 honest with ya I was just thinking about how im going 5o do in 2 years and to be honest it seens unforeseeable As usual i have notivw a lot of trolling I dont like it but thats just me personally I dont see the point in pissing someone off for no reason. Also anyone have a job?
>>36644266nta but probably france
>>36644240How and why do people have this little self awareness? What's even the point of posting this? Getting told to take hrt and start trying then get ffs down the line like every person does? Am I living in a simulation where everyone has no consciousness but me>>36644273What?
>>36644240you're gonna make it (also here is the opposite of reddit instead of hug boxing everyone says nobody will make it)
>>36644289>you're gonna make it (also here is the opposite of reddit instead of hug boxing everyone says nobody will make it)that's precisely why it's useful!>>36644288sorry to annoy you anon
>>36644286yeh but I mentioned it not being talked about in anglophonic countries so I was wondering
Chat how long before your transition started did you tell your best friend that you are trans and how did it go?
>>36644300It's not. Everyone here is the opposite of honest. Their views tend to be extreme, extremely negative generally. I've seen people treat ugly as sin dumbasses well solely so they get to farm them for nudes or fuck them once then forget about them. I've seen people that are as pretty as they can get getting shit on and made fun of because of minor flaws in their looks just to put them down. Nobody here is honest. They're just more extreme and free to sperg than usual.
>>36644314way too busy with escapist hobbies to have had a best friend before I transitioned, sorry anon
>>36644331This. Generally though just take anything you see with a grain of salt (especially here)
>>36644314like 3 years and he was like yeah no shit
>>36644359Generally take things with a grain of salt but for 4chan bring the whole bag preferably.
>>36644314i told my best friend at 14, she was very supportive. unfortunately i still didn't actually start transition until 19
>>36644314i told my best friend when i bought it
>>36644314>how long before your transition started did you tell your best friend that you are transAround a year after.>how did it goHorrible.
>>36643252Ah a venture capitalist/vc running a consulting company? Your rate is for $90 an hour?What fields do you specialize in good sir or miss? If you know anything about board-level engineering/IC design I'll take you up on it.
>>36644379oh fuck off
>>36644420What.
>>36644348I’m like this too but my best friend is also into the same escapist hobbies so it works.>>36644379Damn wish I could say the same, Why am I so secretive :(>>36644373I hope they take it this way desu kek>>36644410As in when you knew for sure yourself?>>36644416Why horrible? ;-;
>>36644373misread this. I meant 1 or 2 yrs after
>>36644439Let's just say I haven't had any irl friends since then.
>>36644450Ohhh you just went for the ol’ they’ll figure it out strat, eh?
>>36644467Oh… I’m sorry ;-;Do you live in a country bad for LGBT rights or something?
>>36644467Laguna chan did you actually lose your friends because you came out or was it because you're a shitty friend
>>36644288You know there i was looking to get ubuntu when i find out that it has become actual bloatHow in the shit did it go from 4.8 to 5.3Absolutly horrible
>>36644467that sucks sorry
>>36644469not really it was more just like I really really didn't want to tell anyone so I just didn't. I pretty much knew that he knew even before I started hrt but didn't wanna tell him. But then one night I was drunk and just told him
>>36644314I told one friend when I was 19 and he was pretty supportive about it but he said as long as I dont turn into a slut so that was a bit weird
>>36644499Did you turn into a slut tho?
>>36644314uhhh, I told him a little after. It went horribly. we are no longer friends and he barely speaks to me.
>>36644474Moreso a part of a country with good rights and views on it.>>36644475Well it happened right after me telling one of them I was trans go figure why it was yourself>>36644482Why would anyone outside of 2012 use ubuntu.>>36644491Meh I'm over it at this point>>36644499Huh?
>>36644439no like i told my friend when i bought it on the internet i was at his house i realized i was trans a few months earlier
>>36644507Its all you need Im done distro hopping
>>36644534No it isn't. Ubuntu is literal dogshit
>>36644507Laguna chan, what is your dream?
>>36644492Oh nice. >>36644499I’m sorry that is weird but I did also laugh that’s wild >>36644517Oh wtf you told him as you bought HRT? At his house? Like what? Did he suspect it?
>>36644551Why
>>36644567Nix life
>>36644555My dream is to be happy and comfortable>>36644567Have you even used it?
>>36644567uses like 3gb of memory at idle
>>36644587Download more ram
>>36644580LAME, BORING! BOOOOOOOOOOOOO
>>36644587True ngl i prefer ubuntu miniAn 13wm min maxxingI just get ubtuntu when im in a hurry desuBut a computer is like a home sometimes like a hotel ubtuntu is my hotel
>>36644504Welp this one is really sad :<What was so bad about it to him and were ye best friends for long?
https://youtube.com/watch?v=h5WA79F4UCs
>>36644699mogs me
>>36644808me too :(
I feel comfortable with my body and like it quite a bit.
>>36638584Nomi I am unsure what I accused you of, I never accused you of anything as far as I know.I think you're better off focusing on the people here who could benefit from your support, I cannot because I am too far gone.I hope you're doing good.
>>36644314>best friend ghosted him shortly after transitioning in 2021, readded him on discord in 2023 and told him and even tho he's pretty much your typical incel chud(and russian ontop of that) he said he doesn't mind he was just glad I was back lolseen him a few times since then and he helped me move and he's never acted weird or negative it's weird cuz before that he had trannies living rent free in his walls but ever since he knew I'm trans he never mentioned them again
>>36644872I want laguna to write a blaze fanfic
its dumb how gambling is often illegal but u can buy 0dte options
>>36644888That's cool. How's tonight going>>36644890Why would I do that?
>>36644912;)
>>36644912pretty badly like the past couple of nights :/probably gonna go to bed to turn off brain yeh...
>>36644923Winky face??>>36644928I'm already in bed to skip feeling bad me personallyI was going to take a xanny to nap easier but I avoided it because I am an independent woman that doesn't need any third party aid.
what do you think about sonichu laguna? you like sonic, do you also like that one?
>>36644314he asked me if i was trans before i told him
my fingers tight on the trigger of my glock 18 nigga
>>36644944nya u shudnt take it for sleep that just doubles how fast u develop a dependency
>>36644957both my irl gay friends did that lol
>>36644944>woman
>>36644314I told my childhood best friend when I was 8 started hrt at 19he told his mum and I was allowed to dress like a grill at their house
>>36644970he's straight... but i had a crush on him...he also asked me if i was gay when we were lying in a bed togetherhe pulled up a picture of some woman wearing a bikini on his phone and asked if i thought she was hoti said nohe asked if i was gay and i said yes
>>36644955No. >>36644966But it's so nice though.. makes me fall asleep instantly and so peacefully and I sleep so wellIf only it wasn't such an evil little drug I could be on it always and always feel normal but no I have to be cool and suffer because god wants to forcefully make me cool>>36644971Yes. A female individual.
finna let this glock go off on all you bitch ass niggas
>>36644944Why nix idgiIve known of you, but i tdont know you desu youre getting interesting
>>36644994>female>of or denoting the sex that can bear offspring or produce eggs, distinguished biologically by the production of gametes (ova) that can be fertilized by male gametes.you're not female sir
>>36644983>>36644971how hard is it to click on gaygen?
>>36644314he was supportive, not all that surprised, but he did a lot of "are you sure about this?" talk. he put up with a lot of my baby trans anxiety shit, I cried a lot. we ended up drifting apart when I moved from sf.
>>36645015>>36645015>>36645015>>36645015new
>>36644994that peaceful sleep will stop soon once ur tolerance has gone upXanax prevents REM sleep so if you stop it you get REM rebound which imo is the nastiest side effect of quitting right after the rebound anxiety, maybe even on par with the permanent anxiety REM rebound dreams are horrifying it rly is the devil in pill form...
