last >>36664532qott are you a sentimental person?
Are we Miquellaposting?
>>36671506>qottveryextremely it's pathetic
>>36671506never held onto much throughout this playthrough XD
>>36671519i wish i were as cute as he isi relate to him a lotmost of the souls gays i relate tomiquella bc of obsessive love/bpdemon issuesgwyndolin bc daddy issueslothric prince for being a failurekuro bc i wish i had someone like okami to protect meidk if there's anyone from bloodborne i relate to as much tho, maybe maria but she's a woman
leddit ring
>>36671550what game/characters would you prefer ppl post
>>36671558vampire girl from helsing
>>36671506>qotti tend to prescribe a lot of meaning to things that probably don't mean all that much to other people (apparently that's an autism thing) so uh tl;dr yes way too much
>>36671558nta but Homeworld ships pls
>>36671558no leddit and no anime
pizza time
>>36671601are you there?, jesus?
>>36671506>qott are you a sentimental person?Yes. I usually collect things that I think will be significant. Even the painful ones. I don't have any digital photos of myself pre-HRT, although the pics I have from my polaroid phase are the only ones I proudly display. Sort of like an easter egg, for anyone who visits and might notice. I also have a movie ticket from the last time I saw my ex. A drawing the girl before her made for me. Wristbands from my favorite music festival. IDs from previous jobs. I pin these all to a corkboard I have on my wall. It's probably the corniest thing I own, but I love it. I need to buy a bigger one, however. I've been continuously adding to it for the past, I dunno, 10 years?I put a lot of sentimental value in these objects. They remind me of the good times. They remind me of the bad times. They remind me how far I've come, they remind me how bad things can get.For better or worse, I carry these memories.
>>36671574>apparently that's an autism thingwtf...>>36671578comfy looking, i used to play fargate which was like a shitty ripoff of homeworld games>>36671599good standards
>>36671620so this is the power of ffs
>>36671652its just so fucking funny
my legs are getting kindof big
dead cope thread
jesus? this is iggy
>>36671901oh schrodinger every morning when i wake up i open my eyes and i realize you arent next to me .every morning without you ruins my day,
I took a long nap what are you all up to ?
>>36671931your life must be pretty shit if my presence would improve it>>36672020drawing a baththinking, unfortunately
>>36672020exercise
>>36671506Trannysisters, I'm not sure this is a good look for us.
>>36672035i could only imagine you building your mechs with razorsharp focus
>>36672020beer
>>36672053physical deterioration via ocular stimuli
>>36672053holy shit is this a fucking jokeis this from the opening ceremonies lmfao what the FUCK>>36672056im actually not hyper focused on them when working, mainly just trying to relaxit's about the same focus level as knitting
ok but whats ur biological name?
>>36672077oh nvm i thought you were severely autistic which is what i like i just love them aspergers
>>36671626>wtf...yeah apparently it's related to forming emotional connections with objects - like how a lot of autists with plushies genuinely have emotional reactions to people "harming" them for instance>t. autist who finds this stuff kinda interesting but isn't a neurologist so take this stuff with a grain of salt ig
>>36672035nice relaxing bath that’s a great ideado you ever read in the bath ?>>36672040what kind ?>>36672067what kind ?
>>36672098calisthenics
>>36672114good job all I did was nap lol : )
>>36671519>>36671506I fucking hate this character
>>36672126basde
>>36672098coors banquet
>>36671506used to be pre-trans but not really anymore. i cry over memories but items don't really do it for me anymore.
>>36672157what’s the occasion
>>36671506yes
>>36672077no thats an old webmrel...prolly be able to find in archives by searching "findland yes!" or someshit
>>36672087i am only somewhat severely autistici get hyperfocused like that when reading about mecha, or designing paint schemes or doing detailing. the actual gunpla cutting out parts and putting them together doesn't require that much focusidk if it would make u like me more i will hyperfocus pls i need approval>>36672094i have a page from my mother's writing detailing me having a really tough time and crying over having to get rid of a lunchbox i felt attached to, and i've always been extremely sentimental and tend to act like objects have spirits of their owni'll talk to my car and thank it for going up a steep hill, or apologize for a rough gear change, etc. if i go on a hike and carry a rock i found, i'll show it cool stuff and be like "isn't this cool? i bet you wouldn't have thought things like this existed if you stayed back there!", etc. objects seem heavy with meaning and personhood sometimes
>>36672186it's friday
jesus please us
>>36672203>i have a page from my mother's writing detailing me having a really tough time and crying over having to get rid of a lunchbox i felt attached to, and i've always been extremely sentimental and tend to act like objects have spirits of their own>i'll talk to my car and thank it for going up a steep hill, or apologize for a rough gear change, etc. if i go on a hike and carry a rock i found, i'll show it cool stuff and be like "isn't this cool? i bet you wouldn't have thought things like this existed if you stayed back there!", etc. >objects seem heavy with meaning and personhood sometimesyeah this is absolutely autism :)honestly though i think it's kinda endearing>i get hyperfocused like that when reading about mecha, or designing paint schemes or doing detailing. the actual gunpla cutting out parts and putting them together doesn't require that much focusnta but lol yea hyperfocus is kinda weird like thatgod i wish it was like an on-off switch or something i'd be unstoppable
>>36672230this is my birthday weekend I will hang out w friends tomorrow night maybe I can find some good beer to bring along
bruh
>>36672262happy birthday : )
HAAAAABICHThttps://youtu.be/NKg2vj9X1CA
>>36672294thank you !I want to go somewhere nice to eat maybe sashimi
>>36672203lol im not a dad type from what i know about youbut why are you schrodinger sometimes but anon posting everynow and then?
>>36672234>god i wish it was like an on-off switch or something i'd be unstoppableyeah righti could hyperfocus on being productive and become a stable adult, instead of spending hours mulling over ideas for a specific scene in a gay mecha visual novel lmfao>yeah this is absolutely autism :)ugh kms>honestly though i think it's kinda endearingthat's encouraging, i feel a little sad when i think about how a heavy piece of brass has been one of my closest longest friends, but it's a very nice weight and density and it is a nice rounded hexagonal prism. i know my mother is like this too sometimes, so i never felt super alien because of it, but i do have a hard time parting with things. once, after i had gone to college, my mother donated all of my books to the thrift shop. when i came home i was absolutely devastated by the loss, i had memories tied to the books and each one had it's own story to it's existence and period in my life when i was reading it and having it all ripped away hurt so bad, so it's not always fun being like this>>36672350crossboard posting, i haven't used a trip in a while so i keep forgetting to put it back on sry
>>36672368yknow i dont believe youre who you say you are post a recent pic of yourself :3
https://youtu.be/00rnuvhfs_8?si=FyP7wtcVbdMHAVwC
thread deader than deadits over
>>36672380bleh i look shit bc i just got out of bath + have missed 4 weeks of hrt due to shortage issue>>36672419i wish frens would come backit's sad that lasagnya gang killed the thread so hard w drama
>>36672419then post something good to bring it back
>>36672430argh ugrh i cant think of anything
god fuck nvm holy shit im so ugly i want to fucking die
>>36672081the worst pickup line of the century
>>36672429fffffffffffffff i missed itt
>>36672435the art of bait has been lost... you need to study up so you can get these threads going.
>>36672455i dont want bait or arguments i just want old trips to come back
>>36672441i cant stop getting fat.i think its karma for shitting on prung.she gonna mog us all. watch
>>36672307when my family went to hibachi once, I wasn't in the mood for hibachi so I ordered a sashimi plate because I thought they would include rice with it and it was nice but I was very hungry afterwards and had no more money.
>>36672461fair enough
>>36672368>yeah right>i could hyperfocus on being productive and become a stable adult, instead of spending hours mulling over ideas for a specific scene in a gay mecha visual novel lmfaothis is literally god's way of nerfing us wtf :(>ugh kmssorry about that>that's encouraging, i feel a little sad when i think about how a heavy piece of brass has been one of my closest longest friends, but it's a very nice weight and density and it is a nice rounded hexagonal prism. i know my mother is like this too sometimes, so i never felt super alien because of it, but i do have a hard time parting with things. oh wow the way you describe that piece of brass actually makes it sound really nicehonestly i don't think it's something you should have to feel sad about because ultimately if it makes you feel more comfortable and it's there for you then why can't it be a friend?>once, after i had gone to college, my mother donated all of my books to the thrift shop. when i came home i was absolutely devastated by the loss, i had memories tied to the books and each one had it's own story to it's existence and period in my life when i was reading it and having it all ripped away hurt so bad, so it's not always fun being like thisgod i relate to this in my own way i'm so sorry to hear that she did that to youlike, i don't want to sound as though i'm being disingenous, that's awful, i'm so sorry
>>36672449https://litter.catbox.moe/xz71it.jpghere u go sry it's such a large photo>>36672463i wish i could gain weight like that sometimes, but it's probably a grass is greener situation>>36672465hibachi shrimp is nice>>36672471no worries, thanks anon your posts are really calming
I don't think I'm getting any less afraid of leaving the house anymore
>>36672435I cant post skin anymore because paige reminded me that I must be chaste and pure. I can talk about machines and conspiracies tho
>>36672471also i would attach a photo of the brass but i've moved out of my apartment months ago and most of my stuff is still in boxes bc im planning on eventually moving out of my mother's place, so it's someone in storage rn>>36672485is it the leaving the house or all the ppl that's the problem>>36672497UGH sorry i wasn't trying to chastise you or anything
>>36672481>no worries, thanks anon your posts are really calmingit's a pleasure!everything can be too much sometimes, and i think calmness is a real treasure, so... thank you for that. it's nice to help someone feel that. :)>>36672506>also i would attach a photo of the brass but i've moved out of my apartment months ago and most of my stuff is still in boxes bc im planning on eventually moving out of my mother's place, so it's someone in storage rnthat's alright! hopefully everything gets to where it needs to be unscathed, and hopefully you can find somewhere to stay that works for you :)
>>36672506nonono, you were right and I was being terrible. I felt bad about afterwards because I thought u were upset with me.
quitting cigs and alcohol is killing me !! someone please shoot me !!
need ffs to nuke my brow bone so bad
>>36672520thanks! here's a picture of something similar, my brass bar looks pretty much like the one on the left in this pic>>36672526no im not upset with you, i was just surprised and thought maybe i was thinking of someone else
>>36672463how are you doing>>36672465sashimi can be very expensive but it is so delicious I love the delicate flavor of fish>>36672485on the other hand you have done it quite often lately which is admirable >>36672497paige is right about that
>>36672530you'll feel better in 2 weeks, drink lots of water and reward yourself in other ways
>>36672557you forgot the chad trans woman also got affirmative action hired on six figures
>>36672558>thanks! here's a picture of something similar, my brass bar looks pretty much like the one on the left in this picooooh picrel looks really nice, very fidgetable
>>36672582its been like a month and im still losing my shit !!
>>36672585i mean she already gets paid by the left and george soros just for existing so
>>36672530noooo self improvement ONLY DEGENERATION
>>36672609are you hanging around people who smoke and drink? do you have any other coping tactics?
>>36672481>https://litter.catbox.moe/xz71it.jpg>>36672558now you have to let me smash
>>36672623no and no. ive been vaping for a few months now instead but i still think about cigs every day>>36672619i agree but my gf got mad when i got drunk and tried to kill myself
>>36672558i like how they cud be used as giant allen wrench. think how big the screw wud b lol>>36672564jus taking it one day at a time as they say. i like ur book cover. wuts it about. also read me a story daddy im sad or ill kms if u dont etc
>>36672635r u over 25>>36672643>i like how they cud be used as giant allen wrench. think how big the screw wud b lolbig nuts... sorry what?
>>36672641me too fuck they real don't like that, i've found the trick is to just be mildly useful for the most part and then fuck up on your own time but to a lesser level than you normally would so it feels like progress
>>36672647:/maybe maybe not?
>>36672506all of the above I have really bad social anxiety but also the act alone of crossing ghe threshold out of my safe area is terrifying n I always have this extreme feeling like someone is going to hurt me out here
>>36672643that'd be such a giant screw...almost makes you wonder what it'd be used for. maybe a giant tower or something
>>36672610yes but the claim is that trannies are hired everywhere for being trans
>>36672656oh man sorryplus i meant 35 lmao>>36672673oh man that's scaryi wish i had some advice to give, but idki hope it's not always super scary, and some days you can go outside, right?
I will become a Tekken 8 Master
>>36672649im kind of just pathetic so its hard to be mildly useful. im not really fucking up at all. havent smoked a cig since i stopped, but i drank once since i stopped drinking. gf didnt realize i was drunk tho cuz she was already asleep. i dont think ill fuck it up again but GOD am i losing my mind and thinking about it every day
>>36672695thats fucked up thats meani never get to flip the paige? but id like to see our next chapter
>>36672643At The Mountains of Madness ?
>>36672677secret moonbridge so i can walk to secret moonbase.>>36672700thas a importint goal and i support the fuck out of that shit. bless.
>>36672711yeh read me this pls.
>>36672706sry im into men older than me>>36672711Hello darkness, my old friendI've come to talk with you againBecause a vision softly creepingLeft its seeds while I was sleepingAnd the vision that was planted in my brainStill remainsAt the Mountains of Madness
>>36672737>>36672735emo paige is ripping my ass open wwtf
>>36672718>secret moonbridge so i can walk to secret moonbaseomg that'd be so cooli've always thought it'd be really nice to be able to retreat to the moon and just relaxlike, looking at earth and thinking "god i'm glad i'm not part of that bullshit" lol :)
>>36672564idk what to do with exposure seemingly not working>>36672695it's always generally pretty badbut I've managed to force myself out with mixed regularity and mixed resultsI've come a long way from shutting in for weeks only leaving to aquire food or other neccesities and talking to noonefeels like I've hit a wall tho
>>36672751why didnt u warm up first?gotta take care of that balloon knot girl cmon now u kno better
>>36672777idk idc all i know is i need to learn programming but i dont care for it, therefore placed onto the back burner
>>36672794yeah i dont like computer games either
my life is over.eating sunchips
>>36672807lmao
>>36672808sunchips are so underrated
>>36672735https://voca.ro/19O3xjcDG6Pyhere's a little bit of it, i got tired tho
>>36672735https://voca.ro/11XLBOGL4Gtu
>>36672807i bite at the fart bubbles in the bath
>>36672826ur not tigerdude...but pooge voice is gud voice regardless gj gj always consistently sounding like fem. skills.here go me making awful noises with my face....never mind. the recording is bad. i cant believe i talk like that to people and have boobs this big.kms lmao>>36672877holy shit imma play these at the same time its gonna sound so trippy.>>36672900champion vibes
>>36672920>...never mind. the recording is bad. i cant believe i talk like that to people and have boobs this big.who needs to talk when you have large breasts tho, men won't hear you anyway
>>36672932truuuu
my dad keeps subtlety telling me to stop boymoding..... its so over
>>36672972dad wants a peek at those donks girl
>>36672920did you like it
>>36672982gross.
>>36673006gross and hot are two sides of the same coin
>>36673056not to me
>>36673004yeh it were gud reading. i like book.
>>36673092okay good love you
>>36673076try saying this out loud to yourself:>dadee.... please dadee...your sprinkle will twinkle
>>36673105<3
>>36673110why are you trying to incestpill me
>>36672711>>36672735>>36672877such a good book, based
>>36673133princess, the seed is already there and I'm watering it so it can sprout
>>36673134did you enjoy too
IF YOU EVER FEEL BAD YOU SHOULD TRY TO TAKE A WALK AROUND THE . STREET :D
>>36673156you wish
>>36673177ya, I did that once
literally just fulfilled my childhood dream by finding the finally location in pilotwings resort. if i went back and talked to my child self they would be like wtf ur a girl now, but more importantly where is the last location
>>36673197lol awesome wii sports resort is cool
>>36673239its pilot wings resort...
>>36673171yes
>>36673248>pilot wings resortcool stuff never knew this was a thing i thought wuhu island was like just a pilotwings 64 & wii sports thing
>>36673265well ive learned that nobody liked this game so im guessing thats why
>>36673256: )
>>36673197>if i went back and talked to my child self they would be like wtf ur a girl nowis it grooming if you do it to yourself?
Searing meat in olive oil and then combining those drippings with a salad dressing to use as a sauce for the meat is so fucking delicious.
I keep getting tricked into watching harem anime
>>36673438Trick them into a gangbang as recompense.
hi all.im going into my first HRT appointment on Monday. if all goes well, i should leave with a prescription.I am scared about physical exam. i dont usually shave my chest because it is uncomfortable. should i do it for the physical exam? if yes, how do you shave your chest? it always comes back itchy for me :((( i got hair on my goddamn nipples it sucks. i feel like ripping them out would be disastrous.thanks
nomi's here so the posts are about drinking melted animal fat and rapeyey
>>36673438who do you self-insert as?
>>36673514Is paige here? I want to read a short porn story about her undying desire to drain her father's balls.
>>36673508you don't have to shave your chest if you don't want to
>>36673531:/
Really dislike life
Nomi is gone, has been kidnapped, she hasn't posted in days
>>36673552same
>>36671506too much so
https://youtu.be/URhJX3Is7XM?si=zQQxwxoxSI4TTaDv
sometimes I'm amazed at how oblivious I am. I was talking to this girl and I said something about the cigarettes burns on my legs and she said she'd pick up smoking for me and said all this other stuff but like it didn't rly hit me that she was flirting with me until way later she started calling me cute and stuff. Then I didn't know how to get myself out of that situation lol
>>36673715>Then I didn't know how to get myself out of that situation lolSpray her as a defense mechanism.
I'm so fucking sad. In my friend group, two members who are in a relationship just had our final game night together. It went extra late tonight since they're leaving. They're moving to New York. I'll likely never see them again till they get married. It feels like now that I'm in my 30s, everyone is going their separate ways. Is this what getting older is like? Becoming lonely?
I think we should bring the aurux out of extinction and ride them in ultra death rodeos but you arent allowed to say that cause it was a nazi policy point and i think thats fricked up.
>>36673824>auruxaurochs?>>36673764you weren't already lonely?
>>36673824that cup noodle is going to get knocked overprobably onto the laptop
>>36673828I was but now I'm gonna be even more lonely, cause my friend group just went from 10, to 8. And while I like the other 7people in the group at game night, I'm really sure I could hang out with them outside of it.
>>36673828Ghtayd
>>36673848Tomoko is too busy rotting to see that
>>36673851what>>36673849>cause my friend group just went from 10, to 8waaa waaaaaaathat's a ton of friendssome ppl have zeroit sucks losing friends but it's not like they were your only friends and you were in love with them and they decided to just stop talking to you
>>36673867Sorry i meant yeah but typed the captcha in the post field and the post in the cqptcha field
>>36673853merntbh
>>36673885h-how did the post go through
>>36673867oof
>>36673867Paige, I understand that's happened to you, and it sucks, but those two were my absolute best friends. And they really added a lot of life to game night, we would also hang out and play games together, one of the two and I played throughout the entirety of Final Fantasy V on SNES together, every other Sunday we would hand out while I worked at T-Mobile, and just play a ton of FFV, and make jokes, and laugh. I consider her my absolute best friend, and now I'm losing her.
>>36673895https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OAr8mWCws5Qhere's something to cheer up with>>36673902oh ok that is tough desu, sry
>>36673907>>36673895https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mc4kemvDd4Msry that was the censored short version, this is true version
why isnt maiq your friend? you get along with him fine.
>>36673918I don't know Maiq in person. >>36673907Yeah. She also helped me get over my fear of cooking, because up till about March of last year, I was terrified to cook. Now it's one of my favorite activities, and my proudest moment in life, in general, is making pancakes for her birthday this last October.
>>36673907lol this is why everyone thinks all us brits are weird desuill give it a go tho ig
>>36673936>my proudest moment in life, in general, is making pancakes0_0
>>36673945>lol this is why everyone thinks all us brits are weird desuit's ok im half *nglish, i can understand. maybe more than i would like lol
any bedrotters?
>>36673948If you would read the full context, you'd see why. I was making them for my best friend, who gave me the courage to start cooking. Previously it was paying off my car without any help, no co-signing from my parents or anything, it was all me, took till 2020, but I did it all myself.
>>36673952jfc they sure had alot more shots of everything in that oneyeah didnt you mention how very english your dad was? my dads like that :|
my dads tongue is more welsh.
>>36673977sorry for your loss
>>36673936having irl friends sounds special I wish I was normal
>>36673990it feels just as good as english
its really wonderful to wake up early
>>36673993your dad or the sheep
>>36673992It is nice. But it's also hard when one moves away. Or in this case, two. I love these two, not romantically Paige, just as friends, and them leaving is just hard.
wonder where i should go to fuck with my brain today. don't rly need food but could restock on skincare. it's gonna be crowded af downtown on a saturday tho might be too much.
electrolysis is a scam that just scars ur skin
The voices
i’m so miserable and will never pass, i have such a shitty moid face. i’m not even really concerned about PASSING, not trying to be stealth i just want to look kinda like someone trying to be a girl. coming up on a year no job, cuts all over, grindr well drying up. sober so can’t even drown my feelings unless i relapse and piss off all my friends. shit suuuuux if i had known i would feel this miserable 2yrs in i would’ve roped.
Send genuine help.My friend (who happens to be my best friend’s recent ex-gf) ended up inviting me to see girl in red saying she has a spare ticket. I said yes I’ll go straight away without much thought because I wanna see girl in red and because I love hanging out with her.So here’s the dilemma. I’ve been boymoding because I’m only on HRT for a few months and by the time that gig rolls around it’ll be a few months more and I’ll be a bit further along. She used to have a transmasc friend who slowly fell out of contact with her so I know she’s chill. I haven’t actually told her but I think she knows I’m trans and is telling me she does know by inviting me to girl in red. And so what I wanna ask is should I go? Like I’d feel weird because it’s my best friend’s recent-ish ex and I’m probably taking his ticket, but also girl in red is kinda, well… her music is… like… yeah. Like I don’t want it to be suggestive, but had it already become that simply by it being girl in red? But also like girl in red is really popular anyway, so anyone could be going?Ughhhhh idk what I’m saying, I hate how confused I am…Other context, she’s super sweet and I kind of secretly love her (but also love her platonically) but I want to navigate this whole situation without hurting my best friend in the process.So yeah a bunch of questions in my mind:>does she know?>should I go?>is it her ex bfs ticket and am I being delulu here about it being girl in red and her knowing now?>do I say it to him beforehand or will that be hurtful or just honest or does he even need to know?>if I do go, I want to girlmode, come out to her and I need outfit suggestionsI hate how lost I am. Please help me :<
>>36674360Be a transbian.
They gave me more xannies I think I got a monthly prescription for them and thought it was a one time thing
>>36674414fckn score. how many did you get?
>>36674392The only trans person here is me though :<
>>36674423It's 30 per month of 0.5mg pills
>>36674428kys <3
>>36674428so the girl you'll be going to the concert with is cis?>>36674435very nice pickup. over here the .5 generic are called peach footballs, the good ones. i wish i had real again.
>>36674444>peach footballsBecause they're the same colour as one and round? Weird. Idk if this is good technically also
>>36674444Nice quads Also yes she is cis.
>>36674450What's the brand? How do they look? >>36674453Livin' the dreagpm nonny
>>36674111Youll get there babytransStop cutting yourself youll regret it later when you like your body
>>36674465I think the brand is normon on all caps.
>>36674465Is it really livin the dream though, I genuinely don’t know how to navigate this ;-;My agp brain is too small
Ideal way to wake up
>>36674477we don't have that here, best generics here for mind erasing are called Watson and TEVA.
>>36674479fuck off i hate you
>>36674491Never heard of those either. Medication brands r very regional
>>36674479you tell her ahead of time, go to the concert if she still wants to, and then go home after. ez. need me to tell you how to eat next? breathe?
>>36674501you tend to learn a lot about pharms and which companies are better than others after a while.
40% 300 dmg% is easily achievable. Truly ideal>>36674505I've no idea even though I've gone through so many brands personally
>>36671506very sentimental, I don't think I've ever thrown or given away a plush or toy from my childhood, even broken ones. I can't even bear to get rid of presents from my ex.
>>36674474how many years for one to not be a babytrans anymore
>>36674496But you haven’t even got to know me :<>>36674503Yeah this is probs like what I’d do but I’m really overthinking everything… why am I like this
>>36674549>why am I like thisTrans
>>36674518over here some pharmacies try to give you junk pills like Auro-Life, placebo shit that doesn't work. And then the black market is scary too, so you want to make sure you're not getting ripped off, u learn as much as you can.
>>36674558I mean they seem to work fine for me and it's not like looking it up is bound to have much resources
>>36674568different situations, america be sheisty
>>36674518kill yourself pedro
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QDaMElW9cN4Genuinely traumatic video>>36674593Ideally all pills are always relatively similar and people don't have to worry about brands>>36674646El barto
>>36674360>does she know?probably no.>should I go?yes.>is it her ex bfs ticket and am I being delulu here about it being girl in red and her knowing now?probably delulu.>do I say it to him beforehand or will that be hurtful or just honest or does he even need to know?doesn't need to know.>if I do go, I want to girlmode, come out to her and I need outfit suggestionsjust wear whatever is the least cringe if u don't pass. desu most boymode stuff is unisex so u cud focus on ur hair, makeup, nails n stuff.
>>36674660>Genuinely traumatic videoyeah i don’t like looking in the mirror either. it’ll get better, and you’ll be playing real games again before you know <3
>>36674688Mirror?? I play like 2 gachas I'm actually dedicated to and have spent like what 70 total in themThis guy is 80k deep on 6 different games he has literally non figuratively EVERYTHING and maxed out. My power level is nowhere near his
>>36673973that's good, sounds like taking the training wheels off in your mid 20s was helpfulwhy were you afraid of cooking>>36673974>yeah didnt you mention how very english your dad was? my dads like that :|oof that's so annoyingbut i don't think it's an english thing, if he were a different ethnicity it would be that or maybe even something else. some men just need attention like water
>>36674660can it compete with a ken penders vid in entertainment or is it just a sad human fate?
>>36674700it’s so sad to see a mind stuck vacillating between guilt and anger. you deserve bargaining one day…
mtfg is a gatcha
Gatcha is not the most pathetic waste of time i've ever seen.
>>36674712It's just really sad specially if you actually have played the games and know the utter insanity of this manAnd I don't even mean it in like a like oh he's a freak that's so cool no like this is genuinely concerning he has 9 gacha games he's been playing for years spent thousands on and has probably thousands of hours spent on each too since he has literally everything maxed>>36674713Ok?
>>36674734knew i shouldn’t have used a big word. it’s ok ESL-kun go back to farming. ok? ok
>>36674734>child learns of an addiction for the first time
>>36674748Do you have profound mental retardation by chance>>36674754That's like hearing someone say they felt sad after seeing a drug addict and telling them "Waow never seen an addict vro?"You've got to be the soul of any party you go to
Where did using ESL as a reference point come from? I've never heard the expression "da da da because anon is ESL" before i came to mtfg. But i have since seen the expression used outside of 4chan, so that suggests it has a source from outside 4chan as well.
>>36674770>>36674770>Do you have profound mental retardation by chance
>>36674793keep us posted
finally a rest day where i feel it. figuring out the barbell was defs worth to amp up squats. goblets can only do so much when u got weak arms.>>36674734that's why i don't really like playing the kinda games that enable ppl to ruin their own lives. like yeah anything with mtx can do it but there's some stuff the devs can do to pull the vulnerable ones back from the ledge a lil or at least slow their spiral
>>36674905>but there's some stuff the devs can doyeh like charging once for a game
>>36674748Genuine question, why people here throw ESL as an insult? English is my first language and I've been called ESL. I don't get this.>>36674793I've never seen it outside of 4chan.I wish I could snuggle with someone. .__.
>>36674905The real issue is the time spent not quite the money, and this happens more often with grindy live service games that want your time more than your moneySpending money on a gacha game is a transaction you're having for entertainment if you view it valuable which takes like 2 seconds to get over with entirelyGrinding meanwhile takes 100s of hours of time away, which is way worseIronically gacha games try to push you away from grinding that much by making it better to play less rather than to play more because they know it's bad to get people grinding all day since they'll end up hating the game and just quitI think the real issue here is time hungry live services which gachas only slightly lean into while some games are way deeper into that. I've spent way way more time on things like osrs than I have on gachas and I know the average time spent on mmorpgs vs gachas is very much leaning towards mmorpgs having a massive lead>>36674947Or even better they don't charge at all. Like with gachas.>>36674953>I don't get this.It's a gotcha for uppity dumbasses on the internet, it never makes sense to actually use since having a language as your first or second doesn't mean you can't have any linguistic errors in them
>>36674953bc the person i’m responding to is genuinely ESL. i dont fire stray shots
>>36674963What errors though? Because every time it happens the person calling someone ESL does so because they don't understand and I've seen it in response to perfectly fine sentences. It seems like the accusor has linguistical issues, not the person accused.
>>36674947i wouldn't expect a business to pass up free money. milking whales is way more profitable than other business models. you can do stuff like duplicate protection, currency with ur lootbox that let you buy the thing ur gambling for eventually, weekly spending limits etc.>>36674963the grind is intentionally made slower so ur encouraged to go flip burgers for 8 hours and spend the money you made to progress than grind the game for 8 hours.
>>36674971>i dont fire stray shotsYou assumed I didn't understand you, assumed I'd give a shit about ESL as an insult and assumed you even fired a shot in the first place>>36674986Well yeah that's what happens with dumb insults they're used in dumb ways which is realistically the only way you an use them>>36674988>the grind is intentionally made slower so ur encouraged to go flip burgers for 8 hours and spend the money you made to progress than grind the game for 8 hours.Wrong so wrong so absurdly wrongYou CANNOT pay to skip the grind in any way. You literally can't. Specially in games like genshin. Even if you did pay you're paying not to skip the grind but to get resources to grind more in the same day. They limit those and don't give easy ways to get them because you're meant to slowly progress and not skip to the end nor play all day
>>36675005I feel the cool aura emanating from you. I feel like I'd be flustered in your presence irl. >/////<
>>36675005senpai idk what game ur talking about but it very much is the business model for a lot of f2p games. mmos that operate on subscription make things slow because they need u to keep coming back and it's a balancing act between cost and time of making new content and how long it takes for ppl to compete said content.
>>36675016I have cool and unfriendly aura until people actually talk to me and realize I'm just autistic>>36675042I'm telling you as someone who's actually played the games you're talking about that you're wrong, gachas don't use that method for monetization whatsoever, you cannot pay to skip the grind you pay to get more characters
>>36675016oris makes some chill watches
>>36675044I got prediagnosed for autism. I probably have same level of autism as ADHD which is mild, functional enough to exist on my own but not normie enough for people to be comfortable.I feel like my facial hair and body hair got stronger since my surgery significantly. I wonder if my adrenal glans kicked in due to distress. I hope laser on face works and works fast, and the laser theyfab doesn't rob me with the price. @__@
>>36675060Do intersex people take hrt to control their hormone levels better? Sounds like things like these could be avoided by taking aa
Perhaps it shouldn't but it impresses me how easy it is to cut metal when you use a bit or die designed to cut metal.
>>36675044idk what ur having conniptions about u know as well as i do that i don't play gacha. how i described it is how it works with osrs, pokemon go, hearthstone, diablo, clash of clans, fifa, wow, league of legends, overwatch, destiny, ubishit games etc. it's pretty much the industry standard for pushing mtx.
>>36675067I'm gonna rate this cosmic comedy 8/8 it's gr8 m8
hello, can i have free money?
>>36675087Which is what I said before. That gachas don't have the issue of trying to get your time and instead target your wallet with characters meanwhile the other types of live service go for your time and sell you things to skip the grind or have "convenience"
>>36675066I am not interested in any hormones.I was given estrogen as a kid and hated it.I took testosterone as mandatory for a surgery as an adult and I don't have the need/want to.My bones would probably crumble if I took AA. I once took anti estrogen (my estrogen is lower than male range) and I legit felt like I was dying.I don't mind my body hair. I even like it. I hate that it makes me unattractive to most. But I am already unattractive to most via being androgynous and my mutilation done by the surgeon won't help so fuck me I guess.>>36675052Thank you uwu
>>36675101Oh and high testosterone is torment. It felt like all my emotions were instantly bottled up and festering on the inside with no way to deal with them. Toxic unconsensual stoicism kind of a thing. I wanted to cry so bad but couldn't. I still cannot cry very easily but at least I can tear up sometimes and it feels good. I love crying.
>>36675101Why would someone ever want to have unstable hormonal levels? That doesn't do you any good regardless of what you like or dislike
>>36675118
>>36675100the way my friends described genshin and nikke made it seem like u can grind in game currency or buy it for slot machine pulls so it did seem similar idk what the difference is if there is one.
>>36675118Why'd my hormones be unstable? Also, females literally have unstable hormonal levels. Cycles and all. But I've no uterus/ovaries so I don't see why mine would be. I also don't get why'd someone willingly take any meds unless they absolutely need them. Won't be me.
>>36675137You can do exploration on genshin for a minuscule amount of currency for pullsIdk where the fuck you'd ever grind on goddam nikke unless you consider the story a grind I mean it is long but it's a story reading a book can't be considered a grindYou're talking about hearsay from games you've literally never touched before>>36675141Why would you want to have what I assume is t and also estrogen on you. It doesn't make sense to go halfway on things and not fully commit to either
>>36675153I am cis and my body is fine (minus facial hair).I've mentioned my estrogen is below male range. I only have low testosterone. Still very fem if you ignore the body hair imo.
>meet other tgirl>yay friends>hits on me>tell her im not looking for that rn>keeps hitting on me>repeat a few timeswhat do i do? i kust wanna be friends but people see me as sex thing
>>36675184pick her up and launch her like a javelin.
>>36675180If you don't like the facial hair why are you not trying to suppress your testosterone levels. >>36675184Don't meet people who are openly trans women
>>36675197Because I had facial hair when I was given estrogen. I am very hairy and not responsive to estrogen naturally. If I was else, I wouldn't be intersex.
>>36675202Having estrogen won't stop testosterone unless it's at high levels which you're unable to get to seemingly. You could take aa and estrogen and not get any hair
>>36675211Can you please leave me alone? I am not an experiment and I'm really tired of people treating me like a lab rat.
stop chasing, legolas
>>36675246Why complain about things if you're going to act like this when people try to help.
>>36675261I literally said I'm getting laser hair removal and estrogen didn't help with facial hair. I am super happy for you for estrogen to work on you but no need to be interphobic.
>>36675287Awesome
._.
>>36675311https://youtu.be/grvrPGsfWrI
Xanny time
>>36675153it's not like i've played fifa or a bunch of the other ones either but i think i got a pretty good idea of how and why they're built the way they are from having to look into them in uni for a paper.just out of curiosity i did a bit of reading on gacha and yeh it seems like the business model is basically the same as in the west where you are encouraged to spend money because f2p is much slower and can't get u everything unless you get super lucky maybe. genshin does appear to have a pity system at least so that's cool.>In Genshin Impact, gacha refers to a sort of gambling where one can roll for a desired character weapon without a guarantee on what they will receive (Blom, 2023).>One roll in Genshin Impact is roughly $3.50 CAD so to guarantee a featured character would cost around $630 (Adams, 2022). Some players would spend even more than this since characters become phenomenally stronger when duplicates are acquired.
>>36675417Awesome
they said i wasnt allowed to eat for 4 days but mum keeps pushing food in my face ive only been able to make it to 3 its too hard to dodge eating when shes home
>>36675439due to surgery or something?>>36675287e doesn't do much to facial hair once it's there it's kinda weird because it can get thin or rid of some other body hair, assuming ur T is suppressed, but seemingly not for face.
>>36675407needbeing sober is awful
>>36675211>Having estrogen won't stop testosterone unless it's at high levelsun related , but this is not really true. if your t levels are low already, estrogen levels above 500 are more than enough at long as it's consistent. this is why mono injections are popular
does taking prog rectally still make u sleepy
>>36675460no some people told me that the other day when i was out i met them while on a vision quest
>>36675463Being alive is even worse.
>>36675468i think the weird brain effects actually come from the way it releases thru your liver. i only ever got ditzy and tired when i took it orally
>>36675468it never did for medomp/prog give me 1-2 cup sizes tho and my libido goes crazy
>>36675466Which is literally what I said. High estrogen stops t.
>>36675466Yea I think it is due to how strong the blood circulation is there which is the main factor in hair growth afaik.
>>36675481500 is not High...
>>36675488Awesome
>>36675472guess if it's something you wanna do you can try to push thru it just make sure ur doing it safe and are getting ur electrolytes n stuff.>>36675485what? hair growth is related to hormones primarily.
>>36675507Minoxidil was originally a medicine for blood circulation but it was discovered it promoted hair growth due to circulation increase. If you have hairy genes even low testosterone you'll have plenty of hair, especially if blood circulation in the area is strong.
>>36675473nuh rong :(>>36675485androgenic hair in terminal areas is related to chromosomes (cough AMAB) and fully suppressed T only prevents growth in small amounts with chest hair being the most affected especially if you start hrt at a young age
im. here . i exist
>>36675524I am extremely correct.
>>36675514mechanism of action for minoxidil isn't fully understood. if it was just about circulation rubbing ur scalp, applying warm compresses n stuff would work for baldness and any vasodialating med would cause hair to return but they don't.
>>36675532i don't believe you're real.
>>36675524I am XX and I am hairy as fuck since puberty at 5 with male pattern body hair (strong back, neck, stomach and leg hair even at a young age with hair on chin and chest getting stronger with age). My testosterone isn't even remotely high (I don't remember but I think I'm between male and female ranges).
>>36675556how do i,.know ? if i really am here,
>spend hour on call with partner helping me make hummus>make good hummus for the first time>eat an absurd amount of hummuswho here comfy>>36675466injection monotherapy got my T levels down to 50 whatever the measurement is but it makes me goo similarly to how i do when i'm off hrt so i'm taking cypro again anyway :/i might finally start working towards an orchi soon
>>36675583oh . I feel sorry for saying that now. you're here now and i appreciate you being here, pls stay
>>36675558>xxso much for the intersex afab larpcase closed >>36675533not this time u little baka
>>36675594but what if i am only . the figment of a beautiful angel' s dream ...
>>36675596If I wasn't right I wouldn't feel so miserable
oh, oh, oh,, .. her life must be treacherous . i will protect her inside
>>36675600we should all be so lucky
>>36675602that's called a self fulfilling prophecy :/
>>36675616oh, oh, oh ......
doing lines with my wife
>>36675596You're retarded. If I was a XY intersex I'd be feminised. And don't call me an AFAB, you trash. Call me a woman if you want to but fuck off with the interphobic and transphobic term.
>>36675639It's not like it matters
insomnia is hell
>>36675647Please shut up
>>36675640i thought it was you lol
>>36674684Yeah I’m probably just delulu. We’ll see in 1 month. Just realised it’s only one month away not months so probably won’t be that many changes by then (:>just wear whatever is the least cringeYeah I’m definitely gonna go for more andro les style vibes; I was thinking dungarees and a band tee with some accessories tbhon. I feel like I could pass but I hate myself so I probably won’t even try. My voice also never passes and 1 month from now there’s no hope so I’m gonna even skip out on makeup too I think :<God this hrt gotta start acting up, I don’t wanna boymode forever it’s killing me inside
>>36675647>ableism is good but transphobia is bad
>>36675647I would call you a womboid but apparently u don't got that so AFAB it is.now go back
>>36675676>hrt gotta start acting up, I don’t wanna boymode foreverhrt isn't gonna drag you out of the closet senpai. gonna give you some tits and softer shapes but a soft boy with tits is just a soft boy with tits. you have to manually change ur own appearance if u aren't a passoid by now.>>36675687that pic always makes me smile.
>>36675664https://youtu.be/f-BrkEo8knMoh, Oh...,,,
>>36675693I don't have a womb, retard anon. This is precisely why I oppose AFAB because it means a dyadic female body which I've never had.
wtf is this
>>36675723France
>>36675727mon dieu
it's gonna be so fucking hilarious if couchfucking is what brings down the trump campaign>>36675702it's a good one
>>36675723how tf does a place like france create a place like haiti
>>36675706I really wish i was the one who could fix your wings and make you fly, but we both know that isn't the case. And I'm so mentally ill I'm probably speaking to the wrong person again. I love you and I hope you do better than me.
>>36675761literally colonialism
>>36675761>[Haiti] has been described as one of the most brutally efficient slave colonies; at the end of the eighteenth century it was supplying two-thirds of Europe's tropical produce while one-third of newly imported Africans died within a few years.[70] Many enslaved persons died from diseases such as smallpox and typhoid fever.[71] They had low birth rates,[72] and there is evidence that some women aborted fetuses rather than give birth to children within the bonds of slavery.[73] The colony's environment also suffered, as forests were cleared to make way for plantations and the land was overworked so as to extract maximum profit for French plantation owners.[54]giving the dutch a run for their money desu
>>36675721i thought afab was specifically also inclusive of intersex that were assigned female at birth to conform with the binary system.
>>36675702Yeah this is also why I plan on telling her. I also have not been blessed by good titty genetics but they’re there. I’ve gone passoid mode before with trans hugboxxer friends but my voice and height are the clockiest things in the world. 6ft1 so it’s like hmmm and then the second I open my mouth people immediately know.God I’ve neglected voice training for so long.
I want to be dead
>>36675767oh, Oh.. stranger.. ! i have my own , sewing kit and glue . i can fly . I can Fly!! and no one will stop me from flowing the Love to where it needs to be ... all will be fine, on < mother earth > i say .i love You, too, . . where ever your feet carry you . . . for even if you Fall In, you will dig your way home (!)
>>36675777ig its like offspring being opposite of parents sometimes.france is le homo #1 and haiti chops anything that pees sitting down into pieces with a machete.vive revolucion?nice get btw>>36675781>never forgor
>>36675794>passoid mode before with trans hugboxxer friendspretty sure passing to hugboxxers specifically doesn't count that's why hugbox such a negative term.>6'1oof that's probably rough depending on where u live and ur proportions.>voiceoof yeah better get to it.
literally forgor pic lmaonyc pays homage to their tru dutch daddies
hububububub fuckin FRANCE, man
>>36675804>picwhat it feels like after he pulls out
>>36675816>hububububub fuckin FRANCE, man
>>36675804>>36675820>>36675823talmbout dang 'ol dang hole man
>>36675804brutal but I deserve that. take care
dang ol hole man whats that even mean man some kinda freak ole wwe character THE WALL brother type a guy man i tell you what
>>36675806Yeah I mean I also went out for drinks and didn’t really get weird looks, stares or anything until I opened my mouth so I think my proportions are fine. Though one of them is my height and gigapassoid so I think I stand out a little less around her because of her being a similar size whereas the girl I’m going to the concert with is like 5’6” :<
>>36675847
>just woke up>already no drive to do anything>nothing seems worth the energy to do it>can't focus on anything>can't go back to sleep>just have to existblehhh
>>36675871spooky scary ass fox
>>36675804why are you typing like thatyucky>>36675721k
>>36675904She can't just tell me to kill myself directly.
who Even are you people!!!!
>>36675879i liek the fingerprint armor but with mask of honfidence. or the cleanrot armor with no helmet.its the cutest fit imo. ion rly care about the stats
>>36675909who are they?I think they sent me some cryptic bs a few weeks ago
i like to post .
I listened to a turn me into a girl instantly spell YouTube video and 15 years later I turned into a girl. Can I sue for the delivery time?
oh god its this retard
>>36675927idk and I don't care. she was saying earlier that someone is impersonating her around the board, so maybe that's it.
check out this turn me into a girl spell i found on ythttps://youtu.be/o2Vh4lGRNoQ
lol
>>36675875this guy looks like if the guy from Myth . Busters was a meth addict
>>36675943it's elton john riddled with aids, and even he wouldn't fuck emo.
>>36675943thats william h macy! show some respek on his name
not elton john.....no!!R00KJ
she's eating some gay midgets ass lol posting that pic where's the self awareness
>>36675962nah lil homie broke up after he was sure he pozzd me. many such cases.
>>36675979I believe you
need drugs desu
im on drugs desu
>>36675989As someone that just woke up from a xanny nap this shit is ass too
>>36676239u should take stims and play ur gacha autism games it's like popping a senzu bean irl
aight this exposure therapy shit is kinda good huh. writing down all the anxious thoughts before kinda shows how delulu my worries are when nothing even remotely weird ends up happening.
>>36676247The hell is a stim
>>36676285stimulants like adhd meds.
I want to hang myself
>>36676286So adderal>>36676289Same
>>36676295yeah adderall, ritalin and the like.
Need osrs friends and clan
>>36676239yah benzos suck big time, tho i rly miss broma, never having to eat and losing 90% of my humanity was kinda funbut i rly don't like depressants anymore..>>36676315imagine having access to Adderall sobwe only get shitty Ritalin or Vyvanse here(if you can somehow convince a therapist that you have ADHD as an adult) stupid yurop nanny continent
>>36676382addies were worse than ritalin imo. tho i guess extended release ritalin was kinda cheeks too.and yeah getting help as an adult seems basically impossible which is why i haven't even tried.
I look quite rotund
i want to yang myself
did anyone else ship bean and ender as a kid
Tfw ur a brickhon
>>36676545hit the gym and chisel that brick into a nice figure anon.
Anyone else into yaoi here
>>36676572If only I wasn't depressed
Does pain still post here?
>>36675558So you have NCAHGet your genotype Get steroids and androgen blockers Get your salt levels in good shape
Idk I don't buy the whole no womb thing while also having NCAH archetype after reading up, doesn't fit typical criterias/the statistical chances of suffering from an adrenal condition and having agenesis seems off to me
>>36676415Why don't you look like this?
>>36676641Can you stop??
Paul, intersexvestigator
>>36676580been exposed to a lot of yaoi art through friends so i guess i like some aspects of it.>>36676588understandable :{>>36676593don't think so.
>>36676659Listen here little lagooner, don't act like you're not turned on ny Sonic
goodnight. I hope I do not wake up.
>>36676778Goodnight, i love you.
>>36676708giwtwm (the dying one)
>>36676712It's a gooner edit of a fucking 12 yo furry character it's disgusting to look at
>>36676778sleep well
>>36676840*rolls eyes*
Been on monotherapy injections since march and 0 breast growth beyond some tenderness and inconsistent firmnessdoes this mean my levels are fucked?
Gotta spend basically all day outside.
>>36676673I've had so many people pretend to be afab intersex on me at this point I'm suspicious every single time LMAO we've had like 5 in this thread alone
>>36677069>>36677069>>36677069>>36677069>>36677069new
>>36677054i like you more just because your afab and i wish i was afab intersex.
