last >>36999098qott have you found meds to be effective for depression, or are they just more bullshit like therapy
Did she actually fuck Laguna
meds make me feel less bad day to day, I also feel less drive/motivation so idk if they're worth it for me.
>>37005679she makes my dick rock solid hard.
>>37005622qott: i've been prescribed a few different anti-depressants and found they either do nothing or just like completely sap my energy. I think cus my depression wasn't due to a chemical imbalance or whatever but cus i wasnt a woman
>>37005673thanks anon
>>37005622>qottThey helped my concentration and made me go from a brainfoggy deadbeat to the top of my class. HRT seems to do alot too. Still need to fix muh anxiety
>>37005714yerp
>>37005679>>37005696she literally died you chuds
>>37005737No. She killed me. Are you really this behind on the lore? Jesus.
good morning threadi have a job interview today everyone wish me luck please
>>37005769from the grave
>>37005795ygmi
>>37005795Did you see my gifts. I hope the interview goes well too, like I told you before it was just a minor bump in the road
>>37005808i did not see your gifts but i hope you got good presents and that you have had a joyful day of birth !!
>>37005622>qottcymbalta did something for a few days hoping increased dose brings that back. escitalopram was a complete scam lol.dopaminergic drugs are the real antidepressants imo.
>>37005818The gifts were nice. Although I am stressing about what to do with my money. I wanted to pay for ff14 but the sub is unjustifiable almost though I still wanna play it, want to spend money on gachas too and want to preorder the deluxe edition of the new sonic game. Also want clothes. I should have enough for all of it but I don't like making choices. It is part of why I'm good at saving. And date of birth is a band. Very cool one
>>37005843that is very cute !!and yeah i get u i always jhave trouble deciding what 2 spend money on i usually just default to food
>>37005699le chemical imbalance isn't real. literally psychiatrist slopaganda to make people consoom dubious drugs.
coof coof
>>37005856>i always jhave trouble deciding what 2 spend money onAre you getting electrolysis?
>>37005864iunno, i've seen them work 4 other ppl but i do think they're probably prescribed too readily
>>37005938yeh once i have a stable job i plan on saving for electro on face + laser on rest of body
>>37005856I don't spend money on food. I default to clothes, then merch, then games. Sometimes I spend money on makeup or hair care stuff. Maybe I should do that. Or just steal it off my parents as always
im making so much money off crypto miners holy
>>37005985having richfag parents must b nice never take what u have for granted etc etc
just got another job interview for tomorrow lets fucking go
>>37006006They're mid unless u spend a lot>>37006009They're not that rich just smart w money. Difference between a millionaire and a Jew u get me>>37006022Very good job
>>37006056>richit's relative. between growing up in apartments and having to live at my grandparents house I considered any family that owned a home wealthy.
>>37005679>>37005696Jerking to her>>37005737just came>>37005769sure sure sure
i wish i was naturally born a fleshy sex object because that’s acceptable and even encouraged but it’s not acceptable to become one
>>37006093We've 2/3 houses and 3 cars. What's that mean
>>37005699so the key is to happiness is delusion? that's bleak as fuck>>37005864idk my brain is probably chemically fucked considering how depressed i am even in the absence of external factors>>37005722which meds>>37005833yeh i've tried zoloft and venlafaxine and neither really seem to be doing muchalso other side-meds like quetiapine and probably a few others, but nothing seems to workbrain just broke>>37006155>we're not rich>we just own multiples properties and automobiles even tho the single child can't even drive
any good suicide tips
so happi i cud cry
>>37006192what happened
>>37006166Is that a freaking poorfag malding doodDo a trick and I might even give you money for hrt.
why is hrt making me smell like onions? i thought i was supposed to smell like flowers
>>37006195very likely get 2 see my mum and my little girl today
>>37006214stop drinking the reddithon koolaid
>>37005944the answer is that they work but not for the canned MOA response of "they give you serotonin" that people often say. There's never been a single study ever that shows depressed people have low serotonin. This is called "The serotonin hypothesis" and we now know it's probably wrong. Here's a 'friendly news science' overview for it but it links to the meta analysis.>https://www.psypost.org/large-systematic-review-finds-no-evidence-for-the-serotonin-hypothesis-of-depression/
>>37006253then why am i like this :(
blegh
>>37006189hey thats my line
>>37006166serotonin and norepinephrine drugs r sus for sure i was very sceptical abt this til it felt like a stim. if this doesn't work i wanna try bupro next.
>>37006155wealthoid....
>>37006323I'm poor actually. Give me money for gacha subscriptions
>>37006166>which medsBupriopion/Wellbutrin. I do cheat a bit with Vyvanse on occasion lol
almost 150 days since emailing ex bff and still haven't heard from him ;_;i wonder if he got it or if i should try sending it to his work email or sending a physical copy or something
>>37006338i think i tried wellbutrin for a bit and didn't feel anything, maybe i'll give it another go or something idkconsidering just dropping psych meds entirely tbqh>vyvanseisn't that like eyedrops or something
>>37006339dont do it.throw urself at art/hobbies/fitness instead
>>37006339you should do all that and knock on his door
>>37006339totally not obsessive and creepy behaviour keksend it by the pigeons my dearno one wants you mentally ill autistic ugly ass, what is so hard to get abt that..
>>37006155People might seethe but it means your family has been a good steward of their wealth.
can boymoders get boob jobs?
>heard on the radio about some US athlete who was almost scammed by a restaurant into paying 26 thousand dollars for a bottle of wine, but she didn't let them get away with it>thought about it>tfw it's more likely that the american read "26,00" as the price for wine and thought they were trying to charge her 26,000 dollars because she's a retarded american and doesn't know that commas can be used in the way decimals are in america in other countries>tfw the radio person sounded smug about how clever the athlete wasi fucking hate americans so much>>37006350wonderful drawing i will now kms, you're really good at drawingor probably take a nap instead>>37006363because i love him what is so hard to get about that
>>37006339I just dm mine n he replies in 2 mins.
ngl fat trannys really piss me off. like come the fuck on, you can't even transition to eatting a salad yet you expect everyone to believe you can transition your gender? fuck off you fat retard
>>37006056stocks, girli'm making money off swing trading crypto mining companiesi'm only a bit of a retard, no one would i be delusional enough to think i can diy min
>>37006388just be demure anon :^)
>>37006375They have yeah. Basically done paying all the houses n the cars are paid too so they're just saving to help me move whenever I'm done studying/want to, I'm rlly lucky to have them and they're rlly supportive of me transitioning and doing whatever pleases me rlly, tho I hate how they don't want me to get diy hrt. They'd rather contact every endo available than do it which they already did. Kinda lame
>>37006391can i hab sun pl0x?
>>37006383maybe get out there n try n meet a guy.u will get over it.
>>37006391are you the person who was concerned about rate cuts?
>>37006391How am I supposed to know? I'd get into stocks if I had enough for it but I'm perma spending it on clothes laser saving for surgeries n the occasional consooming. Maybe once I'm done saving for that stuff I'll bother. I'd rather not risk anything and the shitty ones where you get a basically guaranteed % increase is so slight that I don't have enough for it to matter in my lifetime
>>37006344It takes a long while for it to have any effect on me like if I take it in the morning it won't start until the afternoon so I'm most productive during the evenings. It's a bit more subtle than normal stimulants but I like that>isn't that like eyedrops or somethingNo it's like a prodrug for dextroamphetamine. Also takes a loong time to get going
>>37006419i have tried that and every time it goes poorlyplus im not mentally well enough to be in a relationship responsibly tbqh, would be irresponsible for me to try dating anyone when i may kms or try to kms in the near future
>>37006435what skills do you havelike what job are you going to haveyou don't really seem bright enough to do anything above like dishwashing
>>37006388Kinda based and factpilled, honestly.
>>37006383i have never cared that much abt anyone, if they no longer want to talk to me, it is what it is, i move on and forget abt them..
>>37006462I'm gonna do house cleaning actually cuz I like cleaning. And then maybe I'll get a job at retail since they opened some stores of that here n they'll probably be more chill. Or nepotism my way onto a job. Idk
>>37006462dishwashing is the hardest job at a restaurant
>>37006435honestly .. i accidently hyperfixated on it and studied charts/patterns like a full time job everyday for over a year before i started trading live moneyyou have to be able to tolerate extreme risk if you aren't starting off with a decent amount of capital. i have taken drawdowns of ~30% in what ended up to be 2-3x tradesit's not for everyone, you have to basically be dead inside or the psychic damage will blow you up. i wouldn't even consider myself a "pro" or successful at it yet just bc it's something you have to prove you know how to do consistently>>37006429haha yeah altho i wasn't concerned about rate cutes. my thesis was jpow would come in pretty emphatically dovish, and that would be a signal to pump spot btc since it + the miners have been blatantly manipulated for months. like the forced consolidation was just unreal to watchseems like i may have been right, at least today feels p good
it doesn’t matter if my ass looks and acts like a girl’s ass, it’s not a _girl_ ass
apparently my moms coworkers didn't think i was her trans daughter and thought she had another trans one. maybe i'm seriously delulu and need to unfuck my brain somehow. wild.
>>37006442i miss my exdude as well ngl. the touch deprivation, thoughts that he's prolly moved on to another chick. i must have been such a nagging whore. i thought i did everything right but obs not. im tryna learn from it and not b such an opinion havin ass ho and just like be more obedient to a man when he shows interest next time. i think if u got in rly good shape and let the hrt do its thing u will b v confident and able 2 move on.https://youtu.be/9FgVRCud3rk
>>37006510Yeah it's basically gambling if you're not smart enough and it's still gambling even if you know a lot since things are still unpredictable by nature. I'm more of a fan of safeish investments and waiting.
>>37006419good post also good advice for you : )
check it out
>>37006523trying to translate this are you saying you pass bc yeh
>>37006539yep! i would consider myself a degen gambler for now, but i know a few more tricks than the avg degen iglook into swing trading! i generally just buy common stock (too new to trade options, gonna wait until i actually know what's happening) and will sit in a trade for a couple weeks to a couple months at a timejust buying index funds is also a very viable strategy. US equities always go up historically speaking :^)
repgen is officially dead, that bitch does not get more than 30 replies usually and it just dies, mmg is not that much better but at least it still stays bumped though it is slowly following in repgen s footsepts, this thread is also pretty dead besides the transbians and their drama.. after kat and laguna move on, well yea..
>>37006510do you realize that the price of bitcoin is a random walk with jumps
>>37006606>repgen is officially deadGood
>>37006601Swing trading looks interesting tho there's no much reason to look into anything if I don't have the money lol. Index funds sound good and my parents have invested in those for me so I've a bank account that's mine w some moners but they're not letting me use it before I fuck it up. So I've to wait until I'm done w studies and such for it
>>37006571i match with dudes on tinder n talk with them but it kinda trails off or they ghost cuz realize my anglefraud pics are that of an AMAB even tho i put mtf in my pf dudes dont read lol. im old too so most of the 30-39 range of dudes seem to have found somebody or they are just non monogomus manwhores. its prolly over but when i get srs and cant find a dude still i will give up and become a nun. thats prolly not gud tho to go to nun as a second option cuz if u are rly meant for that life it would be your primary calling not a fall back plan. sover etc
>>37006578Give me
>>37006643it's a tricky instrument to trade for sure!!>>37006662if you wanna try your hand at trading i would recommend starting on studying it now if u are a trust fund baby tho then yeah there's not much point bc ur life is basically already solved so don't stress. the only reason i'm doing this bc i have literally nothing my family left me to die lmao
>>37006589maybe idk. we went to meet her collagues b4 lunch a few weeks back and she just mentioned today they couldn't tell. i brought up wanting ffs and she seemed incredulous just like my therapist n friends who have seen me. maybe i'm headfucked n wormed or everyone is hugboxing.i still wanna do it but maybe it's ok for me to exist b4 too.
>>37006665you looks great in that picI think the main prob w dating is there are few venues for organically meeting potential SOs and getting to know the over timeBc that is how attraction really formsThis thing of just swiping on pics seems to result in really superficial and doomed connections
>>37006644well it is kinda sad cause no one there can pass probably, no one repps bc they want to, they do it bc they are screwed, i guess the regulars either roped, desperately started hrt and will rope later anyway or went into just hardcore repping forgetting abt tranny stuff as last resort but those will probably crack and rope or just try hrt and rope then anyway and now without a place to vent, being a troon is a fatal disease if you are past puberty and bad genetics.. pretty sad..
>>37006718>doomedyuuppp lolalso thats not rly me in that pic.picrel is the real me.
>>37005673Good shit son
>>37006697if it's something you want then i think you should do it. maybe not total FFS all at once, but just start with the things that give you the most stress?in my delusional mind i already have a pretty fem face but i do think i want to do something abt my adam's apple at some point at least. (also i'm hoping this IPL thing i got actually works on my face bc i'm mortified of going in for laser)i'm sure as i get deeper into transitioning i'll start noticing more subtle things, but i'm trying to keep an open-mind about ending up in a more enby space
>>37006697you are def wormed : )
>>37006692Misfortune. It depends on country and all of that but I've 0 issues ever even if I tell people I'm trans and many times they've told me they have xyz trans family member lol. I wish culture towards trans people was as chill everywhere as it is here, people don't really fully understand but they never criticize and just try to support and aidFor example my legal name is still not changed but after asking my school if they could change it they tried for months until ending up just adding me as 2 people and acting like the one w a deadname isn't actually coming to class I still worry about money regardless tho. I want to be as future proof as possible and I'd prefer to be independent, specially w how shite the economy is these days, I try my best to save and have enough for any surprises always since my parents taught me to do so
>>37006718emo is just a manmoder, that is they can't find anyone, gay dudes are no longer interested and they do not look fem enough for bi dudes to really give a shit.. it is just simple..
>>37005795Gl homura
>>37006748you have a good head on your shoulders, i think your future looks really good, especially if you have people around that taught you good lessonssorry that i got jealous abt your position in lifei wish i lived somewhere like that too. i grew up in the south and it's just suffocating. what you describe i can't even really consider to be a real place bc here even a lot of the "tolerant" people will talk behind your back. the southern culture is just caustic and a cancerit feels like a warzone
>>37006755>gay dudes are no longer interestedLFG
>>37005622>QottLoaded question, make a new oneJust because you personally didn't have a good experience with therapy doesn't mean all therapy is bullshit
>>37006243Hey congrats!!!!
>>37006755hi larry, do you miss me?
>>37006776well I would agree w just that part lol
>Larry fell out of repgen and mmg againLarry go
>>37006272Mogs me BRB kms rn
>>37006665Not enough sex toys in the bg desu
>>37006692if you're swing trading btc you're speculating one day there you will end up the wrong way of a liquidity black hole and your drawdown will be 100% do you really think you're privy to all the information assessed by other traders regime shifts can actually be modeled for liquid indexes like spx it's impossible for crypto
>>37006739i want adams apple shave even if it's not rly visible, smaller jaw/chin and maybe nicer nose. fuller cheeks if possible too but dunno. better hairline wouldn't hurt either so i could do something other than tranny bangs.>>37006744i hope sobut idk. kinda impossible to know. i will need to be ok with how i look til i can earn the money so i hope this delulu lasts til then. worried abt voice too but im practicing.
>>37006739IPL is basically worthlessLaser places are used to working with all kinds of people with various actual deformities, as they tend to be dermatology clinics as wellYou'll be fine and it'll actually help
>>37006774Your future should be good too because of the things you've learnt yourself which you could argue warrants way more praise. America tends to be bad for many trans people, I live in spain which is one of the most lgbt friendly countries in europe specially regarding laws n stuff which they tend to be some of the earliest to adopt. >here even a lot of the "tolerant" people will talk behind your backYeah. I felt that sometimes even when it was just paranoia but after hearing people talk about me without me being there like w calls and stuff they're also always nice about me. People rlly don't care about anyone being trans here (there's also the fact a LOT of women here look like they could be trans by transphobe standards lol. Spic genetics tend to build people relatively manly always)I'm sure you've thought abt moving out of there but the laws for it always sound so inconvenient. Is moving to Europe complicated over there? I remember it's super hard to do the opposite
i wish i had real boob attached to me so i could call myself a woman>>37006665smexy valkyrie
>>37006776you should try ftms or some gay dude that does not mind the boobs, i would really not get the srs if i was you unless you really needed it, better get ffs first so you are more attractive to bi dudes, your face is you biggest issue..>>37006791are you the asian mtf? how is it going?>>37006795repgen is dead, mmg is just a few people left, most very suicidal>>37006835why are ipl machines worthless and is the professional done one actually permanent?
>>37006819yeh iirc voice is pretty good but you can get it even better did you see the shirt I sent you ?
>>37006856So you take your worst behaviors from those places and then have bipolar melties in here? Ew
larry still hasn't necked? that's craaaaaaaazy
>>37006728Only visited like once but repgen really seems awful. Like if I was gonna rep I'd just stay the fuck away from anything trans related, not stick myself in a hell hole filled to the brim with nothing but sad fucks torturing themselves 24/7
>>37006814well for one, i only trade proxies of spot btc. i don't have enough capital to justify holding any actual btc. obviously trading proxies doesn't fully mitigate risk, but it can help. obviously i am not a market maker, that's why i swing trade and only hold commons. my account would be blown if i traded with the ego of thinking i am a market makeri know the risk inherent to what i am doing. i don't plan on doing it foreverthe second i have enough money i will adjust my strategy to something that is easier and more consistent to manage
>>37006856IPL is about as effective as an epilatorProfessional places are roughly 95+ percent permanent, you just may have to research places that have the titanium based laser if you want red hairs and some blonde hairs dealt with
>>37006860voice is passing sometimes based on chatting with chuds in vidya and disc. still some work to be done tho.>shirti did it was really cute i thought i replied but must have forgor. almost tempted to get one.
>>37006850>smexy valkyrievivid & true
>>37006819you should get shoulder reduction surgery, your body is your main issue, idk how your face is but it mostly passes if people think you are a girl at your height and your body, you will sadly have to risk it.. idk how efficient is that surgery but yea..>>37006870>>37006872i am eternal>>37006885that is the closest you can get to hell on earth, yea>>37006890thank you
>>37006899yes I thought it fit your style perfectly even better than the ramen cat
>>37006819yeh that all seems reasonable to me. if you think you would feel more like yourself then you should do it>>37006835yeah i know i just have brainworms. i've been burned b4 by people acting like they are accepting when they aren't and it's hard to get back out there
>>37006796kek>>37006812they all in this fuckbox>>37006850no u>>37006856eh...nah.
>>37006911Almost no one should actually get shoulder reduction surgeryThat shit is actually ruinous to your posture and causes moderate long-term problems
>>37006923Let me be clear, I'd cut contact and warn everyone if a tranny friend gave me a controller off of the dildo drawer, no offense
>>37006923i don’t wanna be smexy valkyrie :’(
>>37006940i dont share those.they're in there cuz they vibrate see?
>>37006888>my account would be blown if i traded with the ego of thinking i am a market makerfirst by trading proxies of spot btc you're actually introducing even more risk then if you were to trade spot or derivatives such as counterparty, regulatory and legal risks secondly if you were trading as a market maker you'd be delta neutral and you'd have infinitely less risk ideally you'd have a program to manage your trades ego wouldn't be involved
>>37006947
>>37006957it seems like you know way more than me! i still have a lot to learnhope your puts are doing well !~
>>37006973http://docs.finance.free.fr/Options/Dynamic_Hedging-Taleb.pdfjust read this
Shoutouts to doctors and scientists normalizing trannys and declassifying it from being a mental illness my feeling are safe and protected and being a tranny is totally a normal thing and there's nothing wrong with me
>>37006839yeah, i know it will probably be okay if i stick with it, but everyday is a dice roll on if i really give up or not and it feels like an inevitability at this point. just trying my best!i'm trying really hard to move away, but one bad life decision = not much qualifications to enable me to get out. maybe someday!!
>>37006927well, that sucks i guess
>>37007024Just keep trying and one day things will get better. I'm sure there's some nicer places in the us too that wouldn't be as hard to move to
>>37006911nahh i've seen enough chicks naked in the sauna to kno shoulder surgery is the least of my worries i'd rather get ba, srs or some hip stuff but desu my body is ok now that i'm more fit. not super attractive but like it's whatever. better than half the cis girls my age i saw with sagging tits n lumpy figures desu. im lacking hips n tits maybe but im fit af compared to them.>>37006913it was rly cute yeh.>>37006922i will save money for it when i find work yeh. i know my parents kinda feel bad about me wanting to erase some of the features i got from them but i think they sorta understood when i told them i can't unsee how i looked as a teenage boy n such.
Post laser face big angery
usually manmodewhat should i do to help a bit?like what kind of haircut/style should i get (not really short, just styled) & such
>>37007040yea! i want to to see oceans and mountains. it's just so empty herethank you for the kind words
>>37007068Grow it outRock bangs and a high pony
>>37007041then what exactly is your issue, i do not understand, i guess that you are just mentally ill with depression or smth>>37007064it is over sir, i mean ma'am>>37007068get a better skull and body Shahhon, get better genetics..
>>37006984thanks that actually looks really interesting
>>37007098
>>37007068dude fucking YIKES permahon lol
>>37007089I try my best to spread positivity
>>37007098I don't get sir'd in public, and foundation does wondersSorry for whatever you have going on though, you seem really down on yourself in threads
>>37007091i am def growing it out, but i need something in the meantime i can work with. pre-hrt i shaved my head as a last attempt to rep so its literally 0 styling rn
the first time i saw a mountain my mind was blown i couldn't stop looking at it i guess i saw the appalachian mountains in pennsylvania when i was really young like 5 yr old but they just look like hills
>>37007068Side note, please get something like a urbody gaff, or similarIf you're gonna pull your jeans that high up, it's weirdly lumpy down there if you don't have them put away
>>37007103its one of the best books i've ever read taleb explains things so intuitively a 5 year old could understand it
>>37005679>>37005696I've been away from the thread for three years. Can I have a quick lore update on her? Anything noteworthy happen in that time? Preferably involving the disclosure of feet pictures if possible.
>>37007123good for you>>37007107someone just got mad
>>37007169She e-dated and it went badly because toxic behaviorsThen she did it again with someone half her age and it went badly because toxic behaviorsBetween all these events everyone was shitty to everyoneThen end
>>37007169she died from fumes after rubbing gasoline on her face for a one act comedy
>>37007185That's about what I expected, especially the last part.And the feet pictures? Any development in that specific area?
>>37007199No, she had them surgically removed after her toes were doxxed
>>37007203Kms myself.
>>37007222Trips of truthSee you next character
>>37006672no get ur own...
take it back to discord, fellas
>>37007287They can'tThe diaper stink built up and another anyacord imploded
should i go visit my dad and his "family"idk what i would even wear to the beach because of my body and i would likely just want to kms the entire time
should i kms? i have all of the stuff ready and i can just do it now, what do you think?
>>37007274So you want me to steal it.
>>37007299Just wear your usual shorts and tank top combo
>>37007303yes>>37007347idk just thinking about going is making me feel like cryingim just gonna text him ssaying im sick/have a migraine and can't make it, honestly it's not worth it putting myself through that much fucking stress and feeling shit just for whatso my dad can spend time with me? he's as fine without me as with me, and it actively makes me feel bad being around him esp in public esp at a beach where my body will be visible moreso than usual and i fucking hate his wifeim just going to stay home today>>37007368it can be super frustrating yeahsometimes it feels like shit is a fucking cruel joke and everyone is laughing at you when you're not lookingits ok sheen
>>37007368Who is the target of your hatred? Like, which specific ethnic group? It's not British people, is it?
>>37007308idc how u get it as long as u dont take mine
>>37007395he could probably buy the factory where they're made lol
>>37007402huh
90 minutes - 210 minutes until grocery delivery
>>37006665you look like my mom what the fuck
>>37007386ok, i am killing myself, bye thread, it was a pleasure
>>37007007yea, let go be contributing members of society!!
I've known since I was like 8 now im 23 so it's too late
>>37007368>there is only one solution to stopping it>I've got to do it, I don't care about the consequenceswhat is the solution?
>>37006665You're the perfect level of androgynous. Not too male, not too female. Just sex.
>>37007454i take after my own mom. mom pilled ig.>>37007577cud b worse i suppos
>>37007169Dated 7 posters from here, 2 being near underage. Cheated on then dumped and doxxed all 7. Massive drama for at least 3 years straight.
>>37007492Ravanamoding
Turns out there was a mod to change the color of the effects so I put it on soft gold so the stock red doesn't clash with the fit. It looks marvelous
turns out twitter assigns you male or female automatically if you never ticked a box
>>37006923>she actually showed meFunking legend
>>37006946You wanna be a lil sissyboi huh?
>>37007145Seeing a mountain in Switzerland was cool, also weird how it was summer that the base but cold further upAlso I nearly got wiped out by a sledder Good times
>>37007763I'm just trying out mods out here I didnt do nuthin
>>37007698White gold is basedShitty right arm armour thoStupid and dumb
dodelgoofy looking but i think it will be the "enemy" top secret assassin mecha
and doodel of the pilotmachine, tears would be because of a live dissection unwittingly performed
>>37007804realness is our goal.more honman than honmanhttps://youtu.be/d85hvAKXy_o
>>37007862The swag factor though. Think about that
Duloxetine probably helped me the most.If you take Seratralin (Zoloft) you will feel like a hollow husk of a person.Wishing you all the best <3
am i a bad son
>>37007660>number 2At least we'll always have palma..
>>37007893Frfr Can't listen to video tho I'm at someones So I'll just assume it gay af>>37007895Can't deny thatI'll hold in my autism for the drip
>>37007942No
>>37007968then why do i feel like one
>>37007982Because you're a tranny duhWe blame ourselves for everything under the sun and then some
>>37007864>>37007879cool ideas>>37007955uh yeh it gay
>>37008052>post idea>immediately outdoneg-good drawings ur really good
>>37007942yeah cause you arent pumping out grandkids for them to brag about
>>37008096just fleshing things out a bit more, keep building on it its not a competition. and loosen up, ur dodls will get les brickhon'd and feel more organic
>>37007169She became a beautiful goddess and trannies became jealous as hell. (Shock: it tells) >>37007185 >>37007660>>37007660>near underage.how desperate are you, how much of a hon are you
>>37008142good desu ur right im just tense
>>37008162i will make a video.this is a good one in the meantime.https://youtu.be/bvxjdfs7jjYi find myself making rly timid and unnatural bad lines if i dont relax and take it easy
>>37008194>if i dont relax and take it easyoh man need drugs to do art the memes are real
>mum has two friends visiting right now>having to listen to three old women talk about my neighboursi am going to kms
what is blud blabbering about
>>37007864these are just turrets from portal
>>37008255Did this nigga link to a fucking petscop subreddit oml
>>37008255wait were you adopted
>>37008293Some adults adopt othersWeird but true
also isn't kat from germany, not colarado?
>>37008348Shush don't question the larp
>>37008348Colorado is America's Germany
>>37008355it's not a larp, i genuinely believe kat was abused and it could've been in connection w this evergreen stuff im just having trouble finding sources from germany about it, it seems to be mostly an americuck thing
>>37008150She literally started grooming laguna at 17That isn't "nearly underage" it was, and is half her ageI've no investment in this, just observatiins
>>37008371Abused by her narcicism and not everyone giving her what she wants at most kek
>>37008379>at 17whatlasagna just turned 20 allegedly, and they've only been posting for like half a year
>>37008387projectionkat clearly has deep seated issues and a lot of them are from her mother and stuff, ppl don't end up like kat for no reason. she's been through a lot of bad shit to get to where she's at nowidk i just relate to kat on the level of feeling very hurt and hurting others not because you're mean or a bad person but because you're just in so much pain
>>37008390It's shit bait to derail the actual abuse she's done onto others and instead focus it on made up nonsense that after clearing will make everything else sound faked
everybody itt needs meds and loving parents i stg
>>37008402Paige, your ex bff not liking you isn't abuse, nor your dad being mediocreYou're still being sustained and cared for by your parents, have no friends out of incompetency, don't have a job out of laziness (you are NOT disabled) and spend all your day crying on 4chanIf that did happen it'd be like comparing a paper cut with someone having their arm sliced off
>>37008402Kat had a difficult upbringing, but plenty of people have suffered worse. She's never had to work, go to school, she's floating through life on her family's money.
>>37008421paige is another fake trauma victim. the worst one itt
where is wyrm
>>37008430You have hpd/BPD comorbidity kat.
>>37008430scary
>>37008403>kat on gaslighting modeLasagna has been here 3 yeahsShe started literally underage
>>37008434meds
>>37008460>Lasagna has been here 3 yearswhat the fuck are you talking about lol
>>37008447Those histrionics cause the most issues when you think about it
>>37008430Yeah seeing you make shit up sperg out on thread and walk out your house to fake suicide then poorly attempt to larp as if your face was wounded is ridiculously funny>>37008468What part of "made up shit to derail the point" did you not see? Oh wait yeah I forget you're one of those that falls for obvious bait
>>37008461she wants to be traumatized, but nothing significantly traumatizing happened to her. she has autism, and extreme sensitivity to run of the mill life experiences
>>37008434We trauma dumping? I got locked in a treehouse by a kid who wanted to "play doctor" and touch my parts. Then a few years later my 8 year older stepbrother tried to get me to suck his dickDudes are awful
>>37008469Fuck off with your "character" you jag off
>>37008477How do you feel about intimacy now?
>>37008476>nothing significantly traumatizingwhatim not going to dive into my shitty experiences but there certainly has been
>>37008486I like it, but I have to have a foundation of trust. I suspect its what pushes me towards demise quality, as I've never really had physical attraction without a strong emotional one first
>>37008484Your need to be heard and acknowledged shows me the kind of person you are.At least don't be a cunt about it. Yeah?
>>37008477I'm sorry that happened to you.
>>37008487Like consenting to drink piss out of a guys ass? Generally people don't say yes to things they don't want to do much less parrot trauma over and over
>>37008495Demisexuality not demise qualityI really do deserve the rope for phoneposting
>>37008497Nobody here likes you, please fuck off
>>37008501i don't parrot trauma, and that bf w the pee raped me and did other nonconsensual shit, it was fucking terrible and he wasn't the firstjust fuck off, you don't know me
>>37008495Understandable, ive noticed that people don't do the whole emotional connection thing anymorePeople just want sum fuck.
>>37008517Someone wanting to rape you sounds about as possible as 3 billion magically spawning inside my room
>>37008511You don't like yourself. And you're the only person that is thinking this. Find something better to do than start internet drama. Fact is you don't have to like me. And I don't need you to like meI don't even know you
>>37008537rape is about power and control. not whether someone is attractive jfc kys incel
>>37008544>about power and controlYeah. And who'd want to have that over you of all people? Lol
>>37008498ThanksI'm mostly adjusted from it and all the other shitTherapy helped, as did getting meds for adhd and sorting my gender out
>>37008573Derailing, that's obviously not anya
>>37008484>>37008511>>37008525You responded to 2 different posters dickhead dickwick
>>37008631Self posters are crazy
>>37008644Stop coping, no one wants you here>>37008646You've never done anything and you'll never do anythingKeep larping tho its funny
>>37008576That's great news, I'm glad you found your path to recovery. Severe trauma ruins some people's lives.
>>37008662>Stop coping, no one wants you here
>>37008379>>37008390Keep ferretting for every last detail - sign of a healthy mind.
>>37008670Lol
>life ruined by not-severe traumait is over
i regret the rape, it sucked so badly and paige smelt bad
>>37008670Yeah that'd be you two considering how most of your views are directly harmful to the trans community>>37008687It's okay cuh you're the traumatized one
>>37008702your face is directly harmful to the trans community
>>37008722Says who?
Any late transitioners
>>37008665I'm luckyI have friends who ran the queer resource center at their university, two other trans/gnc relatives, a bunch of friends, and a loving partner who is happy that I'm healing and enjoying the new erogenous zones I am developing lol
>>37008702yeah, i am still in therapy bc of the rape, i developed some really severe ptsd from that, she is that mad ugly, it kinda felt similar to how fucking chris chan would, i was just desperately very horny and on drugs, worst trip ever
>>37008728Mein Fucking Gott!
>>37008734Started at 34 and aside from being unpopular for not trying to achieve frail waif as my descriptive, I'm doing okay
>>37008734Yeah I’m 28 and thinking of starting. It’s so over
>>37008734yeh, started at 21. it was over before it started
>>37008728Chill out chicken little
>>37008734started at 19 still look like a man
>>37008774Nah bro. You triggered the wolf inside of me. All these backstabs and humiliations.. no more! Take the lesson well friend! GRRR
why do so many transwomen larp as mean girls
>>37008728Lookis like my 55 year old auntie unironic
>>37008824People who didn’t get to live out highschool girl drama trying to recreate it in their 20s
>>37008813He'll yeh awoo
its not normal to feel extremely suicidal like all the time is it
>>37008673gud fragrance >>37008728https://youtu.be/49SJFmuRO7A
life be hard ngl
i want the last few remaining ppl in my life who care about me to drop me, so i can kms without feeling guilty Sorry this isn't a fun post chat
Laguna dm me
>>370089155 page explanation giving me reasons to
>>37008888quads of holiness
>>37008943you gotta play sonic and listen to thishttps://youtube.com/watch?t=94&v=ZACv-oKeVWc&feature=youtu.be
>>37008955dubba right back atchya bubba
>>37008999mad troofs itt.bless'd get
>venlafaxine overdose looks extremely painful and takes days plus death is from liver failure or cardiac arrest>spironolactone isn't really lethal but it would suck>otc painkillers cause liver failure>exsanguination is too painful>don't want to traumatize others by using splat or vehicles>SN tastes like shit and would likely throw it upmum is out of the house right now so i could try co2 poisoning in her garage, but she has a friend staying over and it would also suck for her to come home to a dead kidshould i just buy razors tonight or somethingmaybe i'll visit my dad idkgonna eat some pizza and see if that helps"fake trauma" lol gfys>>37008902no that's fine i totally relateif my mum died i would finally be free to die too>>37008888will watch later
>>37009022its like 2mins lol
>>37009054u underestimate my anxietyit's too much like having a conversation
>>37008999Who listens to anything else than the games music while playing sonic? It's goddam sonic
>>37008761>>37008763>>37008770>>37008782is it worth it
current modo
>>37009076i do bruh, sonic goes hard with some songs
>>37009082I don’t know, I haven’t tried. I think I’ve given up. Just going to corporate drone until I can buy a Porsche and then launch it into the sun
>>37009101Yeah, like the ones in the game. Sonic games OST is literally the only thing known to be consistently good in them
>>37008734just started a month ago at 26 after my life blew up because it's something i always had in the back of my mind since i was a child but was too scared of ruining things or being a burdennow that there's nothing left, it's funny at the very leastsome parts i really like i guess, but i'm so dissociated from my body and i have so much built up repression/bias programmed into me that i'm ambivalent about iti don't want to go back to whatever i was before, so i guess that means i should keep going
>>37009082it certainly makes life harder. i question if i could have had a better life just repressing but its impossible to say
>>37009082No lol
who the fuck are all the new trips people keep talking about, last i was here reese and her supposed rapist girlfriend were still being talked about
>>37009138Ancient lore
>>37009082it dependsif you feel like you will kill yourself if you don't then yeah, but don't expect it to make life goodit's a minor problem relatively speaking and solving it doesn't change much
>>37009062aight...my voice is rly bad cuz sick and due to male birth issue>>37009090i hope u get kicked outta the mens room lmao passoid genetics
I have received word that wyrm is alive and well(?)
>>37009150isnt that like still semi recent like less than a year ago right
https://youtu.be/xlQEhnE8WEwShits made me want to come back to the game nglMaybe I should check it out for the evangelion colab
>>37008734Nearly 29 and 6 months in, tho I did transition for a while on and off when I was 21 so that might have helped a bit idk still wanna die
>>37009150Not to be confused with Kat (ancient whore)
>>37009160>passoiddidn't you see the pic lasagna posted earlieri look horrificalso last time i used a public restroom all the dudes were like staring at me it felt weird even tho i was using a urinal so it's like clearly im a penis having man
>>37009198why are half of you motherfuckers named Kat
>>37009198Still a passer
>>37008477Sorry that happened anon, people suckOne of my mums boyfriends used to come to my room at nightPeople suck
>>37009212Sam and Kat on nickelodeon >>37009194grim, im sorry anon
>>37009090Mood desu
>>37009205>horrificyeh ur a mess.still look like a frumpy broad more or less tho.
>>37009238just wait once i get back on meds and move out and can exercise and get a boyfriend and don't want to kms and just delete the bad memories and such i'll be looking finally "decent"
>>37009223Thanks, I'm mostly over that I think it's the rest of it that idk how to get pastI wish I wasn't like this tbhhhhhh
>>37009247I know a method to delet memories but you might wind up like me so yknow, prolly not worth
>>37009163>wyrmlitrally who
post characters you project your tranny mental illness onto
things just really suck recently. i'm not happy with how anything is going. i can't do any of my hobbies because i hurt my hand. having problems with plans and uncertainty and just. everything is fucking ass. what do y'all do when the suicidal ideation is overwhelming. i need to figure out some way to cope
>>37009247think cud
>>37009305drugs, read books, paint something schizophrenic and then hide it in my house so when i die theyll find all the horrible paintings i made like francisco goya
>>37009305i say keep doing the lefty doodle thing.use this time to gain the sickest high level ambidextrous skillz.big kopinski styleeee>vidrel: https://youtu.be/Ajp1t6CdW10?t=29
>>37009329jealous. i wish i liked books. hands fucked so can barely paint
>>37009289homestuck is for tifsmaybe miquella is a tranny idk>>37009305i think about it and look up methods and research as much as i can until i get bored and then space out for a few hours and start the cycle over again until i attempt to attempt suicide or the thoughts dissipate
>>37009289Crona >>37009305Try to distract myself and wait it out, im not very helpful sorry
>>37009336i guess I can keep trying that Left hand is just tired right now so I can't really do anything with it >>37009339I've been doing that a lot recently. I keep on getting intrusive thoughts that I want my family to find me or something and it really sucks Life feels so meaningless Miquella is cute >>37009345It's okay. I wish I could distract myself
>>37009337use fingers or any other extremity and books arent hard to read you already use 4chan so you have no problem reading shit tons of worthless text >>37009345>Cronakino
>>37009114you just have bad taste it's ok to admit it
>>37009329Francisco goya made numerous disturbing prices literally in public during his life, it's believed that the paintings found in the extension of his house, which wasn't constructed until after his death, were plants used because moneyyyyyyyy
>>37009383aww lame
>>37009345Forgor >>37009368Manic depressive genderthing is a fairly easy chara for a Troon to attach tooReminds me of chara too actually, wonder if she's alive
i am Cum
>>37009403LMFAOOOOO BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA CUM LMAOOOOOOO ROFLMAO CUM !!!!!!!!!!!!!
Trying to just remember that it's okay to just be pathetic and cry and feel super gross about it because I can't hold back now and now that it's started I can't stop crying Lmao existing is so pathetic I need to get it together
>>37009472You can get it together when you're doneAnd yeah it's a bit gay and I won't let you top me but now you get to be the girl :D
>>37009472Call gf and vent
>>37009491Ugh reminder to get a six incher
29? Why do people talk of her as if she's a hag?
>>37009472just start shootin up T and keep it all inside
>>37009526She's only 29. 29 is young!
>>370095227' bbgI may have never topped b~but I'm sure that doesn't matter... r~right?
cis female friend tries to engage me in discussion of the agp outfits we sell in our halloween store and i just don’t have the heart to play ball, i know i’m supposed to say “omg cuuute!!! <3” but i just can’t
>>37005696mommy?
>>37009618so what do u end up saying?
>>37009526Gross coomer Spanish chris chan
>>37009526good taste
>>37009728i go “huh” or “hm” or “interesting” or something else equally autistic
just got visiting my gf pushed back even further. so, time to do what ive always done, which is sob, shut down and talk to the imaginary people in my head
>>37009780Badfeel Hope the voices are kind
>>37009760I never coom I only goon>>37009774It'd be of even greater taste if the colab didn't have 3 characters and I had a broke accAt this point I've all the top tier characters w only one exception so pulls don't matter that much ig
Does your body eventually like “give up” from repression and dysphoria? I’ve made it this far but I keep getting sick and my energy is totally gone
dudeling
>>37009799ya my chest constantly hurts a terrible pain
>>37009778nooo you have to go like "yassss queen i would slay the house in that cutey outfit. im going to be so cunty this halloween"
>>37009780She should visit you to make the wait less bad
>>37009833i can’t do it. i just can’t do it.
For fucks sake... SHEEN! You can just eat, I don't know... A fucking apple? A glass of water? WEIRD idea! And I know already, now you're going to sad post "boo hoo, nobody likes me because I've had" - no, nobody likes you because you FUCKING DON'T IMPROVE ONE. FUCKING. BIT.Ever since I've been here in 8 fucking years when my life went to shit, and I crawled out of the gutter over and over again, you have been here eating shit all the time, putting your fucking money towards a fucking graphics card. Because you know, that's exactly what you need right now. A fucking graphics card to sit more on your fucking ass and play fucking video all day. While shoving fucking burgers down your fucking hole. Right? Fuck.I'm trying to like you, quit making it impossible. Please. Like a fucking clockwork. Sheen, nobody is fucking angry at you for posting about fucking foods. People are angry at you for wasting money on graphics cards, video games. Fast food. A car, as I've been recently told. Instead of you selling the car, getting some fucking vegetables. Eating your fucking veggies, drinking some fucking water for once in your life (without added sugar I might add) And I don't know sell your fucking car get a fucking bike.Like, yes, you are depressed. Wow. 90% of us are fucking depressed. 90% of us have some fucking mental issue we deal with. Yes, we are here to support you. But you don't want support. You just want a fucking pity party. About poor old fat sheen. Who will never be liked. Nigga You look like a fucking middle aged woman. And you do fuck all with it. It's infuriating, it is sadOh, and I'm not done yet. Sheen. We've been over this for like, how many years? Like fuck? I've been fucking pre op. I had a fucking dick when you started posting here. And what changed? What did you do in all those years? Fucking nothing.You did nothing. Despite people constantly offering you help, offering you advice, constantly offering you to do shit for you and WITH you.
>>37009906>manos autistic stim
>>37009906https://voca.ro/1j0iF7kIesx2
>>37008888oke watched video, it's really interesting! ty for recording, i'll give it a shot
>>37009998yee np
>>37009996You sound spastic and rapeable
>>37010058getting sexually abused by a sexy male psychward orderly is lowkey one of my fantasies so yeah maybe i am ur rapetard
>>37009819poor orc :(
>>37009857u should explain to her about agp as a conversation topic and how the outfits remind u of that. i think that would be endearing
My voice is so nasally and gravely I'm going to fucking blow up
>>37010152mood
>>37010152*blows up*
>>37010092>maleNow that's just uncalled forAlso hot
>>37009780here's hasan pikers real voice to cheer you upreddit.com/r/LivestreamFail/comments/1eytpf0/hasans_real_voice_leak/
>>37010151i want to tell her about mefism
>>37010044tried doing a bit of scriblbe dodolbingidk i have a headach (had one beforehand tho)would take a bath but mum has friends over so i can't really leave my room
I hate when people front being caring yet never show to actually be so. Regardless of that persons importance to me it still bothers me and makes me want to cut them off of my life to not bother entertaining people that are larping as if they cared, there's nothing else I can do since if I did actually confront them I'd be a dick and a paranoid crazy person for it. Just feels bad on all regards possible. I hate dishonesty
>>37010301alright ur just drawing with ur nondom hand and trolling me for being mid at doodles. v funny.
>>37010315what does this mean;_;i earnestly tried maybe im just not meant to be an artist, i don't see things in scribbles i just see scribbles
>>37010307it's fun being a toy for people that they can pick and choose when to show empathy tothe silence is deafening
>>37010307Maybe you should dm them
there's not enough tears i can cry to express this feeling
>>37010247what is mefism again?
>>37010354>>37010354>>37010354>>37010354new
>>37010342I mean maybe. But conversations never last and they're always the first to end it, there's not much hobbies in common and I'm not good at starting conversationIt's like someone talking to you a lot for a few days then they kinda like just disappear basically and barely talk to you and it feels so weird. Why be like ohh I care so much then do that? I'm good at carriying conversations so if they wanted to talk we would've but they just ignore me so I don't even want to bother initiating anymore
