>>37396538
prev: >>37390248

dead general, no real manmoders here

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does anyone else feel like they were happier before starting HRT?

>>37396581
im just as unhappy but my unhappiness is now focused on being a tranny faggot rather than being a faggot loser that won't help himself

I was a lot happier thinking it's all just a fetish but now i'd rather die than stop hrt

i love emotionally abusing trans women

i love emotionally abusing minecraft villagers

I love emotionally abusing myself.

>>37396581
my life got worse for other reasons it's not the estrogen's fault

good morning

>>37396894
good morning anon
let's stay in bed all day and not get this bread

>>37396902
that’s what i do every day

>>37396611
this

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wgmi

I was aap as a teenage boy and that’s why I didn’t transition and that’s why I’ll never pass. God doesn’t let a man live two golden ages

>>37396538
I broke her garlic press...

>>37396581
Maybe? When I was on testosterone I had hope estrogen could fix things at least.
>>37396611
May be on to something
>>37392221
That’s the thing, I disagree that it involves accepting your hopelessness. Making a change to your life inherently means trying to claw out some hope. It may be less deluded than being a hon as a baseline, but once you fall into the estrogen trap you can’t avoid that you’re obviously attempting the impossible task of feminizing yourself to an acceptable degree (futile for a non luckshit)

>>37398189
accepting hopelessness and working to make your life better despite it is not futile - you're setting yourself up for failure with that outlook, there's no logic behind what you're saying

hey, can you fix my life?
thank you meow meow

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I started hrt two days ago. Do I have to shave or do something even though I'm 100% a man or should I only take the pills for a while?

I don't like having hair, but shaving is really annoying

>>37398207
larry stop being depressive start getting based
t. speedanon

>>37398309
i am low energy brother
at this point i would even go on speed

>>37398323
do it faggot
t. speedanon

>>37398304
shave as often as you're comfortable with, just keep in mind estrogen can make the skin more sensitive, and look into laser ASAP

>>37398205
Trying and failing hurts much more than not trying at all and invites despair. With never trying there’s always the glimmer of potential and possibility. When you do your best to just fail repeatedly it means your inferiority is inherent and unfixable. That’s just self evident.

>>37398630
you've gone beyond any kind of meaningful or material consideration and catapulted yourself to purely masturbatory heights

who fucking cares about your "philosophy" or whatever, bro, do you want to live a shittier life or a slightly less shitty life? keep it grounded

how are my fellow masculine bearded bald men with bulging muscles and 10" dicks doing?

>>37399175
i'm chillin

I’m getting laser on Monday
No more beard shadow

>>37398304
Do what you like with your own body anon
Pro tip: nobody cares how you look unless you honmode
Manmoding with no hair bellow your nose piercings and painted nails if you wanna
Nobody cares

>>37396581
yes but the only reason I’m unhappy is because of the mistakes I keep repeating that cause me to manmode. ik cutting off family and friends is usually a stealth thing but I think i need to do the manmoder equivalent and move to a hon-friendly area

>>37399261
it might take a few sessions so be patient, but good job it's one of the best things you can do for yourself if you have general dysphoria over masculine sex traits imo

>>37399287
I agree except
>Nobody cares
don't lie, some people DO and WILL care and will try to make that YOUR problem because they're assholes if you're not gender-conforming as a man

>>37399258
niiice

>>37399312
Idk
I’m just doing things
Shaving but still having shadow is annoying
I’m not sure if my dysphoria exists
I’m just annoyed at being ugly
Did my hair in a straight girly look and it was breaking the look.

my endo said my estradiol level was good and stable... even though it was over 1000 pmol/l
got a prescription for ozempic

>>37398640
what I’m saying is straightforward but you seem to have trouble following it for some reason. ‘slightly less shitty life’ is a dumb conceptualization of the problem at hand. I don’t feel better for having smooth skin when it’s all I have to show as the results of my pathetic attempt to ‘become’ a woman. If you can avoid feeling that way good for you, but it isn’t pompous overphilosophizing to recognize how much of a disappointing joke manmoding is.

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>>37399609
what's that? can you dumb it down for me? sorry, I'm just having trouble following what you said just now for some reason

how can i stop looking subhuman

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Literally just found out people think i look like a very good ftm or a very tragic mtf kek

>>37399994
5'5 is not good for an ftm

>>37399994
sometimes I wonder if people think I'm a pooner and they're being "polite" or trying to affirm me by so aggressively sirhehimbrodudemanning me

do you get buddy'd?

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>>37400001
Im 174cm neanderthal with 47cm shoulders kek
>>37400022
Nah i get called faggot

>>37400041
>Nah i get called faggot
same lol

>>37400041
>174
kys

>6'0
>18" shoulders
>dorito shaped upper body sticking out of a waistless brick
it's so ogre

i swear i'm going to mog all of you one day... and then blow my brains out while streaming

based

>>37400125
Make sure to get a ksg and wear a rainbow mask. (This is a joke)

>>37396709
Damn. You're calling them the hard R slur? Viggers

i live emotionally abusing manmoders. all of you should kys.

>>37400174
I know that webm

>>37400217
i love* but i kinda also live for this desu

>>37400225
I'm sure you've seen alot more partner.
Remember, subscribe to pewdiepie.

>>37400281
reference cache miss

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Know that you are loved and appreciated.

Even if you don't see it.

Most importantly, love yourself you silly!

>>37400090
Nah zoloft wont allow it

>>37400575
I only live one person and its not me, no one loves me

>>37400575
I really don't believe I am, one way or another I've made sure there's nobody left in my life and I have seen nothing to make me believe any of the people from my past or anyone else cares about me or notices I exist outside a small bubble of interaction here on 4chan

I'm working on appreciating myself

>>37400575
>picture
I thought it was anime. I like clouds but I have not really left the house since may

>>37400217
so hit me with your best shot romanian peasant

>>37400645
zoloft is sugar pills

sex

might fix some things that are wrong with me or at least calm me the fuck down

bored
should kms

a manmoder without suicidal ideation is like an angel without wings

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>>37401385
Cool.
I will now larp as a woman.
Funny innit?
Everything hurts babes.... I don't understand why it had to be like this....

thinking about honmoding through uni since at least in that environment I would not be the worst out of the population of compsci hons I see walking around in skirts and striped socks. yes or no

>>37401646
do it
rank up

>>37401717
I want to
badly
but I have no innate femininity to my soul

>>37401784
Just wear women's clothes and call yourself a cis man anyway. they can't prove that you're lying.

Anyone scared of doing anything feminine anymore??....

yeah except painting my nails and wearing women's jeans and not hiding my breasts

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KqRFiGQUCTg

>>37402384
I would really prefer if you'd be quiet. But yeah, that is correct.

>>37402397
how about you be quiet, retard

>>37402412
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-uhfETk81-c

>>37402467
that delivery is ice fucking cold

how to become as dysphoric as possible and overload my dysphoria until i break?

>>37402480
It feels so relatable. Whenever I try to be extroverted I end up like the guy getting told to be quiet
his home situation also seems relatable
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h7RKb0ETNtw

>>37402502
lol
I'm... not clicking on that link, I don't really do the whole lolcow thing

except you know being one zing amiriteImhereallweekIllsee myselfout

>>37402518
I'm a lolcow.

https://youtu.be/iu1RZhfuASw?si=A1baNTG93v4FemAq

If you were a tranny in Moscow what would you do?

>>37402658
I'd try and find a way to gtfo

>>37402548
like actually? I sometimes wonder if I could be, I'm oblivious enough and prone to oversharing

>>37402818
yeah but only irl
people at my school even photographed me without asking and shared pictures of me in group chats I was not in
and like 98 % of people did not talk to me

>>37402842
oh that's fucked up, sorry

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>Hate is more lasting than dislike. (Adolf Hitler)
>We do not argue with those who disagree with is, we destroy them. (Benito Mussolini)
>I shall spare neither women nor children. (Lothar von Trotha)
>The people who cast the votes don't decide an election, the people who count the votes do. (Joseph Stalin)
>Sometimes democracy must be bathed in blood. (Augusto Pinochet)
>I do not want to miss a good chance of getting us a slice of this magnificent African cake. (Leopold II of Belgium)
>Better to kill an innocent by mistake than to spare an enemy by mistake. (Pol Pot)
>There is freedom of speech, but I cannot guarantee freedom after speech. (Idi Amin)
>If you had not committed great sins, God would not have sent a punishment like me upon you. (Genghis Khan)
>Political power grows out of the barrel of a gun. (Mao Zedong)
>I don't care if I live or die. Go ahead and kill me. (Jeffrey Dahmer)
>We serial killers are your sons, we are your husbands, we are everywhere. And there will be more of your children dead tomorrow. (Ted Bundy)

lookin FRESH
lookin M O I S T

appropriate for the weather today

you would tell us if it was a bit, right? like... are you actually just a pooner?

>They don't think it be like it, but it do. - Black baseball man

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>>37402958

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"why don't you ever look at me in the eyes?", said the mirror to the manmoder. "it's too painful", said the manmoder to the mirror.

nah I get all up in there real psycho like to look real close at my eyes and my skin and my butthole or whatever to see how stuff is changing because I'm so fascinated with the process and how much little stuff is affected by which sex hormones you're running on

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"you must look", said the hallucination. "no", said the manmoder.

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>>37402958
luv oscar gamble

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>i'm barely even human
said the manmoder
>i'm gonna fucking do it
sobbed the manmoder

>>37402986
>>37403035
Anon get out of my head.... :(
I sincerely think porn did this to me....

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>>37403045
something about this sentiment and framing just resonates so very deeply

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>>37403159
i got addicted to futa porn from an early age which warped my mind on gender. i check out women, now, in the wild, and think damn she has a nice ass what about her dick? it has seriously fucked with my head.

>>37403181
yeah. He also spoke out about racism and so on.

youngshits don't think it be like it is, but it do

>>37403205
Fuck fuck fuck.....
I honestly sometimes think we are all just porn addicted weirdos. Which in turn invalidates all of this tranny shit.....

>>37402986
No problem looking into my eyes anymore. I just notice other things that I think clock me when I look in the mirror.

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>>37403254
porn addicted trannies are so hot tho

>>37403205
>type "hentai" into morpheus? or kazaa? client as a 12 year old already going through puberty
>troon out at 30
WAS THIS HIROHITO'S PLAN ALL ALONG

>>37400117
Isn't 18" bideltoid pretty small for 6 feet? Or do you mean biacromial

>>37403299
the radiation gave them knowledge from God. i swear this is true but nobody believes me. they're using divine knowledge to manipulate the masses into changing their gender. it's mass gender confusion and it's why i inject hormones into my thigh every week. i am so sick of their influence but i kinda like the abuse i mean the bomb was pretty big and did some damage we have to atone for in some way. gimme tits, you know?

>>37403310
it's alright I think, and I do think I mean bideltoid as that was my last recent measurement while I was hitting 19" with my muscle mass on T pre-HRT even after going skeletor mode (weighted 140 lbs for a bit there)

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>>37403333
checked checked checked fair is fair a deal's a deal onee-san two nukes was just enough

>>37396581
i was at best content right up until the point i realized i was trans and then i felt fucking horrible
overall i do think i feel happier these days but still have to deal with all the regular trans bullshit that everyone else here does

dubs and i will stop being a pussy go get laser finally

>>37404155
well now you have to

ah fuck

>>37404155
it's official

>>37404171
you can't believe you've done this

shit how do I find a trustworthy place that will not scam me

>>37404184
use groupon. i spent as much for 6 sessions as a friend of mine spent on 1.

OC do not steal

daddy's soul donut steel

gallz of steel

I'll rip off your sheets and shit on your dick

>>37404184
If you are somewhere with a Milan available, they offer a lifetime deal available. Was a little pricey, but I've already gone several times this year for full body. And can go as much as I want for the rest of my life.

maybe one more day without food is okay

>>37404840
just ate a whole plate of pizza and 4 cupcakes

I have OCD and obsessively check my bedsheets for bugs and spiders
I lifted my pillow and lol a spider started running out, ran away to a corner before I could catch it sadly
I am right I was right

i saw a centipede crawling on the floor last night and it would not die from poison or stomping

>>37404864
holy hell
I'm sitting here thinking about microwaving like a 500 calorie meal and some veggies or splitting up an order of tikka masala... or just not

i had a monster and some yogurt yesterday i think

>>37404868
some places that's common sense or a matter of life or death
thankfully not for me but even just in a lightly wooded area I simply had it happen enough times as a kid to leave a negative impression (one time really badly with a spider in my towel) that I give jackets, socks, boots, and sheets/pillows a good shake before I use them (and I shake out my bedsheets/blanket every morning too but that's mostly to dispense with human filth)

I've found spiders, egg sacks, molted skins, etc or just ended up with a bite but never saw them as they ran and I felt really validated a few years back when during mating season I lifted up my pillows after not being home for one or two nights and saw THREE spiders crawl away

>>37396538
Ok, I don't fit this gen. Can't see you, so? I like your intelligent discourse

>>37404940
Ohi

new old fears unlocked
fml

>>37404765
>Was a little pricey
how much are we talking? I looked it up and there's one reasonably close to me but the website doesn't have any exact pricing on it.

>>37404958
Hi kid. I see you're still using my trip

>>37405083
Well, it is insecure...

>>37405097
idc, so you're a manmoder

>>37396538
this pic made me think i was on ck for a minute
wondered why it was next to a diaper

idc, so you're a tripfag

>>37405161
If you can't have normal discourse with me, I'll leave. it's up to you now, babe

>>37405175
lol what kind of discourse are you seeking? you're an insecure trip user and your first post itt was one saying you don't fit this gen

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3PDA8TweJHQ

>>37405184
I like the discourse in the thread. Especially since I got a girlfriend who's transgender

>>37405213
fascinating, what are you? is your transgender girlfriend a manmoder?

>>37405225
No, she's real feminine looking. I've known her since 2010. Have just been friends till recently

>>37405249
I see
you've chosen not to answer a couple of direct questions so far, and I'm still not sure why you would be posting here instead of /mtfg/ or /lesgen/ if you have or want to find more insights on more typical mtf trannies

>>37405289
I've chosen nothing, I haven't noticed it. Apparently you think much more discreetly than I do. It's okay but I'm not going to emulate you
I like some of the responses I've received here. I am posting in Lesgen

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>>37405194

>>37405326
what are you

okay I found a lhr place that does like 120 for six sessions on the face with a coupon should I do it fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck they will know I'm a tranny

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>>37405391
do it do it do it

>>37405391
120 total? that's exceptionally cheap make sure it's not IPL

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i still have a scar from slamming my head
i hate myself so much right now
i am so ugly
i am so creepy
i am so violent
i am so stupid
i am so disgusting
i am so weird
you were supposed to fix me
instead you broke me
fuck all of you

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I don't fix things

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>I do not want to miss a good chance of getting us a slice of this magnificent African cake. (Leopold II of Belgium)
found my friends
in my head
im so ugly
so are you
im to blame
im not sure
i dont care
im so horny

>>37405042
For full body it was like 13.5k or so. But if you just want face it would obviously be way less. You can also have a consultation with them to feel it out and get exact price for what you want. They have the most updated tech, and the fans they use make the pain the most tolerable out of the 4 places I've used so far. Besides pain, both results and comfort during visits are the best I've had yet. Each tech that has worked on me has been lovely.

>>37405518
Should say that full body also includes face. It's literally anywhere on me I want.

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why don't you just kill yourself?

why don't you?

>>37400941
For you maybe, im 180° mentally on it

>>37396672
You do? That sounds kind of hot

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i fucking hate trannies and no it's not a joke, man; no girls allowed
t. ransgender genocide general

gross lmao
also mogs me
also makes me want to honmode just to get you to an hero

>>37400125
Pls don't

>>37405618
mogs
me

>>37404840
Please eat anon.

>>37405820
but I feel less bloaty and I look skinnier and I'm too fat

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the only thing keeping me alive is aap

>>37405868
masc4masc

is agp and aap the same thing as agamp?

>>37405829
I'm looking to either start omad or vegan again. Want to really get all this fat off me.

>>37405879
I could stand to improve my diet but I know what I really need is to exercise more, I'm far too sedentary

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f a t

>>37405876
no young man 4 young man. i wish i wasnt sexually traumatized and could date. im already almost in my mid 20s

>>37405906
Go back to mtfg faggot.

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>>37405929
but mtfg is gay and this is my swamp

>>37405942
do you want to have sex

>>37405946
it would be nice again someday

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Franchement, M. Shankly, ce poste que j'ai occupé
Cela me rapporte et ça me ronge l'âme
Je veux partir, vous ne me regretterez pas
Je veux entrer dans l'histoire de la musique

Franchement, M. Shankly, je suis une épave écœurante
J'ai le 21e siècle qui me souffle dans le cou
Je dois faire vite, vous me comprenez
Je veux entrer dans l'histoire du cinéma

M. Shankly

La célébrité, la célébrité, la célébrité fatale
Elle peut jouer d'horribles tours au cerveau
Mais je préfère quand même être célèbre

Que juste ou saint, n'importe quel jour, n'importe quel jour, n'importe quel jour
Mais parfois je me sentirais plus épanoui
Faire des cartes de Noël avec des malades mentaux
Je veux vivre et je veux aimer

Je veux attraper quelque chose dont j'aurais honte
Franchement, M. Shankly, ce poste que j'ai occupé
Cela me rapporte et ça me ronge l'âme
Oh, je n'avais pas réalisé que vous aviez écrit poésie

Je ne savais pas que vous écriviez des poèmes aussi horribles, M. Shankly
Franchement, M. Shankly, puisque vous le demandez
Vous êtes un vrai casse-pieds
Je ne veux pas être aussi impoli
Je dois quand même parler franchement, M. Shankly
Oh, donnez-nous votre argent !

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do you ever get hit with the crippling realization that as you make more progress in life, even if that's just being closer to the end, you're supposed to be the one acting as some kind of role model or example for younger people and less experienced groups (unwittingly or not in either direction) who are increasingly unprepared for their uncertain roles in the world or the nature of always-on asymmetric communication and manipulation but you're still so unsure of anything you're doing or how to succeed and still giving in to indulgent emotional drives and petty destructive behaviors and genuinely can't even relate to the generational gap between your parents or other previous generations and your own or any other similar consecutive or overlapping generations because of the sharp spikes in acceleration of technology and social connectivity and the resulting friction in completely unprecedented sociopolitical and economic contexts and realize that if you want to keep existing in this world even in a passive capacity and give a shit about it at all that you might need to change not just for yourself but the sake of others who interact with or come across the echoe and ripples of your presence and life in the future?

yeah

>almost 6 am
>another night wasted rotting
i don't even have enough energy to kms

>>37405906
I will have sex with that. I'm cumming on your face too, with the glasses on
>man

>>37406297
not on the glasses...

>>37406324
Yes, you're keeping them on. That damn pale skin is so sexy

let me add some hontext to that

let's unACK that

>sneeze (masculine mneeze)
>a drop of manmoder piss (miss) is ejected from my manmoder dick (mick) and running down my hairy manmoder legs (megs)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cbB3iGRHtqA

I too have missed from my mickle and mipped in my mants due to mestrogen induced changes

>>37406475
I miled at your most, mhanks

>>37406472
based
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lXdOHlYIDkI

>>37406430
what actually gets me the most is having to pee and then nothing comes out and then I have to go again in 10 minutes or contort into weird shapes to make it happen and then dribbling when I think I'm done, it was a lot worse on spiro too before I stopped and I just never experienced anything like this before HRT

you all have utis

is that like cooties?

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we're gonna keep manmoding forever... forever...

>>37405518
damn i guess i gotta get a job now
thanks for the info

>>37406767
NO
I REFUSE

>>37406780
Lmao, this is what actually forced me to get back into the work force again too. I was initially paying the loan off with credit cards, but maxed them. Was kicking myself. But then I'm reminded it was worth it whenever I see myself naked, and I'm smooth and basically hairless everywhere. No more fucking shaving or epilating. Worth it for a couple years of debt.

>>37406961
based, STOP REPRESSING (if that's what manmode start to feel like or is for you) AND START LIVING! btw I drive a rolex and wear a rolodex

mayonnaise colored car we push miracle whips

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they don't think it be like it is, but it do

I'm retarded and that's OK

>>37407078
same
neetbux forever (until I will be put into camps with the nazi 2.0 coming to power in this economy)

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merican manmoders on their way to ffs

>>37407104
me irl

my brain is buzzing

>>37405599
discord~ :)?

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>>37396581
yes. my bad hrt dose my first year gave me acne scars which combined with scars from picking psoriasis as a kid has left my face looking like this and now I only feel comfortable with my entire face covered with concealer but oh wait I can't to do that because i can't girlmode

>>37407600
Wolfcut goes hard.

THE WORMS ARE BACK

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RMrZv6vMqPI

>>37405652
don't worry, i'll never mog anyone

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those edibles were a cruel mistress

I'm a German communist. No, I never worked.

>>37407956
don't buy no weed at the gas station

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>>37408016
lol true i knew this deal was too good to be true

manmoder murder suicide

manmoder positioning system

ffs isnt worth it as a manmoder if you have a good gay face even jf it’s masculine

minecraft alpha grass colour

god I am uncanny and disgusting
I need to detroon

>>37409172
minecraft beta

manmodercraft

time to wake up, metch and mawn, scratch my mass and my malls, then brew some moffee as I get ready for my may

>>37407600
mogs

>>37398304
Shaving your face clean takes like 30 seconds a week or less...

>>37410038
you have never dealt with real facial hair, I take it? you should fuck off and die

>>37409831
most mock malls and mits
>>37410038
maybe for you, but not for a man.

dark hair on my
nose
feet
unibrow forming

Computer, generate a man with bolt cutters who wants to cut my balls off. Disengage safeties.

>>37410038
i used to shave twice a day, on hrt and a shitton of laser i now shave once a day :)

>>37410432
miss him all the time...

can i ever look feminine and cute, not passing but just idk

haha
I do not pass!

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I transitioned wrong on purpose as a joke

>>37410371
I have some little curly toe-knuckle hairs and then like a small line of dark hairs running sparsely from my big toe back across the top of the foot, it used to be straight up hobbiton down there pre HRT

>>37410563
I purposely detransitioned and remasculinized myself, as a joke.

>>37407600
damn dis nigga ugly af

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i want to learn shapeshifting

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>>37410703
I want to be a hot succubus
>sword-wielding boymoder ronin with manmoder summon/stand

it is over. pls suicide me pls
also fuck out of here passoids

I will never pass

I'M HERE WITHOUT YOU BABY
BUT YOU'RE STILL ON MY LONELY MIND
I THINK ABOUT YOU BABY AND I DREAM ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME
I'M HERE WITHOUT YOU BABY
BUT YOU'RE STILL WITH ME IN MY DREAMS
AND TONIGHT IT'S ONLY YOU AND ME

my goal is to trick straight men into having sex with me

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>>37410729
Ideal modder body type

who wants to kill me with vigorous capacity

>>37411301
do you drop anything good?

>>37410428
Jesus how hairy was the rest of your body

I keep having pregnancy dreams and want to be fucked 24/7 right now.

>zety niggas on prog

>>37411310
i drop 3 cents and an xl black t shirt

>>37411357
I'm not on prog yet tho they just raised me to 8mg from 6mg oral.

>>37411363
>>37411344
well that's probably "normal" for your libido levelling out at healthy female levels

>>37411369
u callin me a whore?

>>37411383
this would suggest the necessity of any kind of distinguishing remark regarding such an obvious latent facet of your existence

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>>37411402

did someone here start using jork and peanits a lot like around 10 months ago?

Just ordered 3 vials of bathtub brew after 3 years of detransition. I'm a glutton for punishment, time to do this shit all over again. I'll probably take E for another 3 years and then detroon again and keep doing that periodically for 40 years and then die. I'm so fucking retarded it's unreal I literally can't stop doing stupid shit like this.

>>37411589
welcome back to purgatory, hopefully your visit to hell reminded you that it just keeps getting worse if you don't stick with the thing that makes it not

>>37411609
thanks, it's shit to be back.

>>37411331
not that much, face only

>>37411383
ngl i wish i could be one
might fill the void in my soul

>>37411646
why did you stop? I've thought about it sometimes, like even just to check or test myself and see if I really want to keep doing this, and every time I just think about how I felt pre-HRT or when I couldn't reup my subscription one time and didn't have my meds for a week

>>37411661
I'm dysphoric but I've never wanted to live as a woman or really "transition". After being on HRT for a few years and plateauing out I started to feel like the whole thing was pointless, and besides I really disliked getting it from a doctor.
for the first couple years it was fine because remasculinization was slow and I liked the novelty of re-embracing certain parts of my masculinity.
but now I'm back to 100% masc moidmode and I hate it.

>>37411718
I guess I get it, I couldn't let myself start HRT till I reconciled not wanting to fully transition with still having dysphoria and wanting to at least change my body and how I physically feel

I'm gonna start seeing surgeons about trying to get a date to get my dick chopped off soon.

>>37411851
make sure to post your cooch here when it's all healed

>>37411851
giwtwm

>>37411851
I could never, but good luck
also idk why you're here you don't manmode

>>37411935
this is my home.

>>37411861
probably its gonna be a zero depth so it'll be prettier than other ones i hope. i would prefer a full depth but i dont have the money or time to recover a dilate.

>>37411989
fair enough
I told myself I'd consider big decisions like that more seriously after I'd been on HRT a full 5 years and that's coming up soon enough, so I'm still thinking about it but not pushing myself to decide one way or another or even consider whether I'd be in a place in life to be able to consider pursuing specifically what I want

>>37412005
oh, idk I mean I think people should customize their parts how they want but thats seems like self-harm to me if it's not what you actually want

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>>37411344

who ready for white man winter?

>>37412017
we can't always have exactly what we want but it will be a hell of a lot better than having this thing.

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>>37412027
aww ty for the pic fren.

>>37412101
damn true, sometimes that's just how it is on this bitch of an earth

I'm not saying don't do that and I personally can't relate to the feeling of wanting my dick gone at least anymore, but what would it take to consider realistically getting yourself to the point of being able to get what will actually be by your own admission a more satisfying piece of your anatomy for the rest of your life? would the delay or effort or potential dependence on others involved really be unacceptable to you? like I know revisions are a thing, but I wouldn't want to go through all of that twice

>>37412137
i'm a strong independent woman who needs no man. zd is fine because i can be self sufficient

I can't do this any more
*continues to do it*

i'd sooner go to colombia and get a cheap tilapia skin pussy than zero depth, i don't really get it? i mean i get wanting it gone ofc but something non-functional sounds pretty dysphoria inducing too

>>37412229
i don't want to recover for 6 months to like a year or more it seems horrible.

how to cope?

>>37412236
youre going to regret it

>>37412241
have a drink. have twelve.

>>37412155
that seems really short-sighted to me and I'd never settle for at least that degree of compromise, but then again if I end up moving forward with things and there is any kind of requirement to have someone to watch over you after surgery (I've read this is common) I'll just have to lie about that part

I've also approached this all with such glacial trepidation (I mean I'm planning the duration I have given myself to plan things for the future to eventually start working on getting possible answers that could lead to a decision and eventually a set of actions that support that decision if it still holds merit by the time those actions have been taken) that even now I'm feeling like I will be lucky to be "done" with the hard parts of my "transition" and recovery by 40 at the earliest so... you can't put shit off and avoid living either, I guess

just please really think about it and look into what other people have experienced or how their long-term satisfaction is, like make a very thoroughly informed decision

>>37412236
I've gone out of my way to read a lot of positive and negative stories about the whole thing and I don't think it's that bad

>>37412246
doubt it.

>>37412229
>tilapia skin pussy
I've heard way better things about this than even PIV (not the lesbian sex kind) or even alternatives like tunica or colon and personally want this and/or PPV

>>37412250
do you want me to die from alcoholism?
just checking

>>37412251
>and I don't think it's that bad
this, isn't it more like 2 months to go back to work? barring any revision requiring mishaps anyways. as long as you're sure it's not going to be a point of dysphoria later, i guess..
>>37412269
yeah it's honestly on my radar too, iirc dr rodriguez is only abt 10k and i've only heard good things even if my family would freak out at the idea of going to south america for highly invasive surgery. plus the documented experiences in english still seem somewhat sparse but i didn't look that hard. no clue what the wait list is like but definitely on the short list of surgeons..

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>>37412301

>>37412359
cheers then

>>37412269
>PPV
meant PPT but also yes

>>37412340
I'm not even looking at individual surgeons yet, just general techniques and outcomes, but I know my options will be limited because I'm not losing the dick

i want a futanari pussy made of fish skin
only problem i see is how sensitive, if at all, it would be

>>37412475
how sensitive do you think a real vagina is?

>>37412488
fuck if i know, i'm not a woman

>>37412547
lol... you could try asking one, or maybe seeing if any have discussed it somewhere at some point online

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https://voca.ro/1nroinJok1TS

>>37412696
high effort 9/10

also I look like this and say this

should i namefag (making me easy to block) or go anon (making me harder to block)
asking for larrychan

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im so tired /b/ros…

this shit ain't nothing to me ma'an
I'm on that brazilian bathtub
I'm shooting that good sudanese cistern toilet estrogen
don't fuck with me

>>37412909
I like this

i hate this

i wish i was a gayden

>>37413118
he hates it!

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im so tired

I'm a complete fucking loser and I refuse to change.

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>>37413764
https://youtu.be/YgSPaXgAdzE

iwnbaw :/

>>37396538
new: >>37413919