Last Thread: >>37739724QOTT: If you could be frozen in cryosleep how long would you want to be frozen for?SOTT: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HhtxqvAlIpoPOTT: https://strawpoll.com/61gD9bl2aZw▶Info:What to do if I am questioning my gender? https://rentry.org/mtfginfo1What is Gender Dysphoria? https://rentry.org/mtfginfo2▶Hormones:HRT Information: https://rentry.org/mtfghrtFor additional HRT information, please visit >>>/lgbt/hrtgen▶Style/Passing:Fashion Guides (Videos): https://rentry.org/mtfgfashionBasic Skincare and Makeup: https://rentry.org/mtfgskinmakeupI'm tall! Where can I find clothes that fit?: https://rentry.org/mtfgclothesVoice Videos/Training: https://rentry.org/mtfgvoice▶Misc:Trans women have woman brains (Video): https://rentry.org/mtfgbrainMTF Timelines: https://catbox.moe/c/afyn1tStreaming Room: queup.net/join/mtfg
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y9-MLgHxQGs
deciduous btfo evergreen in the last poll
>>37744942until pokemons are real and happiness too
>>37745042Furry
>>37745053no i just want to be friends with them and catch them all (but only the first gen)
>>37745062friends don't keep friends in balls
>>37744942the polar bear would get distracted eating slow lazy manmoders and the hsts would go for the eyes when the moment camepoor guy never stood a chance
>>37744978he seems like a cool guyId buy him an icecream
>>37745111NEVER say that to a furry dear god woman
>>37745161Sandy..
theres one of those tranny owned videos going around rn (people harassing trans ppl and act surprised when the ppl get upset) right on my campus. fuck my gay life
>>37745165precisely
>>37745170I've seen way worse though that's tame
>>37745111i would say the same but they are canonically happy with it no
>>37745151he wouldge a ice cream
>>37745260I don't talk to racists sorry
>>37745258hard not to being on 4chan, I remember the spam of old shamefullybest not speak of such matters lest we summon malevolent entities, words hold power >>37745274penubt buter ice cream for he
>>37745301you absolut astro nigger it was a reply made to my post in the first place
>>37745167this is my worst nightmarei'd cry
>>37745167i hate people like thatfar too many these days
>>37745324One day I'll forget..
>>37745364somedayI hope ;~;
>>37745349me too. i get laughed at enough in public
feeling a wee bit drain circley ladsmight binge eat then weep all evening
Legally changing my name will no longer be Dakota or be cursed with my dad's last name. V excited but kinda scary it's weird to get called Dakota ur whole life and then it's something else the next dayKotakins is like my brand name at this point tho so it's staying for now
>>37745397ok dakota
>>37745397i found that at first i kept thinking 'oh wait thats me' everytime i heard my name. and whenever i heard my birth name i felt !!! then it was like, my actual name felt normal but i still was like !!! at my birth namenow my birth name feels weird and alien and like it doesn't belong to meits very weird having that happen over time, i honestly can't imagine being anything other than what im called nowthe weirdest thing is when old friends and family get to that same point, where they can't imagine you as your birth name anymore
>>37745397are you changing it to something totally different or quite close like d-d-daaaytoonahttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y1WlBBVPMJo
>>37745417U guys are bullies>>37745420Yeah I'm having that issue rn, like I'm not completely responding to the new name because I'm not used to having it>>37745425Totally different the new name starts with A
>>37745444aaaytooonnaaaa
>>37745453LETS GO AWAY
>>37745462doot doot doot doot waWeEehhhEHHaaAy
>>37745453akota
>>37745444hello kotakins how's your day
>>37745541It just started so idk
>>37745420the worst part is when you're fully over it and start wanting to make jokes every time you see your deadname but you can't because that would reveal it
>>37745444is it alice say it's not alice
>>37745609It's not Alice
>>37745600hearing it makes me panic a bit still even after ten years
>>37745640thank god
>>37745651yeah i get a like slight alarm moment but its nothing like it used to be lol>>37745600agreed like i make tranny jokes to people even but like fuck am i about to let people know my old name
how did the thread got so bad in less than a hourare lasagna and paige the ones actually carrying the thread?
>>37745718I had a nap desu
>>37745718Yeah Im getting my nails done rn
>>37745725welcome back>>37745746you make yourself pretty for your computer?
>>37745746I should do my nails for once desu
>>37745770Yeah my pc wants me feminine and scantly clothed
>>37745776Ok also stop saying desu
>>37745718evil presences in thread lower the poster count
I have been really enjoying my masculinity recently, and it doesn't even feel strange, I like my face, my jaw, the way my brow makes my eyes lookI don't know if it's happened before, but a decade of hrt seems like it should be at odds with this feeling, don't suppose anybody can relate?
>>37745800i doubt it
>>37745783its a word filter she's not saying desu she's saying desu silly onionsboy
>>37745835i want to speak to you about this but i need to check firstis this nomii don't think she's been on hrt that long but you type similarly in some ways
>>37745897I'm not nomi and that's absolutely devastating to hear I type like them in any way
>>37745891We all know Man im just saying 2 bypass it or say smth else
>>37745167link?
>>37745911dwdw this is on me an im so sorry for implying you were like her lol. its just like few people here type with proper grammar and she is one of them its v silly my badthat said yeah i think i sort of agree though i do not know if i'd word it the same waymore and more i l;ike some of the things about me that are like 'trans' if that makes sensei'm not sure i consider them masculine in myself, but stuff like high cheekbones or sharp facial features or distinctive lookor desu on my less crazy days i even like how my body is shaped like, i'm lucky in that my body is feminine but also i've got an inverted triangle thing and im quite broadbut yeah as time goes on i like these things more and more and its made me for example reconsider ffsi think for me i don't see these traits as masculine so much as like, features of trans womanhoodand in my case i think there's yeah a femininity to that which jennies could neverand i think part of why im pretty is because i don't look like some average cis woman ykidk if any of that resonates with you
>>37745947wtf you don't like nomi?
>>37745952i have no strong feelings on nomiits just that nomi is the last person i'd want to have a natter about the complexities of masculinity/femininity and trans womanhood with lol
>>37745964poor her, i hope she doesn't read this...
>>37745986nooo you can't do that after telling me not to be nice to everyone all the time bakai don't think what i said is unreasonable anyway
>>37745947it does a lot actually, makes me reconsider using the word masculinity too because they don't look very manly, so it's less that and more trans woman-y features, although I think in my case actually maybe not that either? they're my features more than masculine or trans-ish features, I look like me, and I think I like thatI'm glad you like how you look, feeling good without ffs is great(also I like my high cheekbones too)
>>37746005didn't like everyone in your life tell you this at least once
>>37745783nah Im pretty gread Desulike everyone loves me and I make them all happy and I make everyones day better just by being myself desuu>>37745890no the usual suspects genuinely disappear when I start posting lol desuuuuuuuuuuuuuunya~~>>37745891oh wut is onions? wuts the word thingy thats being filtered pls am curious :3
>>37745952nomi is a pedo
>>37746022yes i actually nearly made a second comment saying like the reason i don't want ffs anymore is because im worried i'd lose a certain 'me'-ness that's not really like a masculinity of femininity thingjust more a idk, salty thing igtheres still stuff i want but yeah realising that i like looking like me has been hugeand i think i describe that as like, a sort of expression of trans womanhood is likeidk i like being a doll lol. like i like passing to be clear, but also i feel most comfortable in my own skin when i'm not worried about being clocky all the time. i am a tranny and i like being a tranny, so why hide it ykand yeah likethe unique things about my body/face are the same things that i could in another breath describe as clocky in a bad waybut idk i think its hot lol like sorry not sorry i think dolls are cute and i think that some of the ways i am a bit clocky are what makes me stand out in a crowd and look goodso yeah reframing 'oh no im clocky wahh' as like a sort of trans femininity, a sort of beauty that cis women could never, has been nice
>>37746036s.oy = onionss.0y = based
>>37746058onionsonionscool ty
>>37746029no nobody told me lolin fact i was like pressured to be this way and made to be a doormat most of my lifeit sounds silly but it was not until like late twenties when maiq and fi and you and someone irl told me to stand up for myself that i realised i was a push over and likeits alright to have spines and actually that helps keep your peace
testsoi
>>37746075iktf
testonionssuoy
>>37746037mby but i'm talking to salt (which is superior factor to justify my question)
>>37746075wtf, this is so shocking can't imagine that it didn't strike people like it did to me apparently
>>37746075how were you being a pushover
>>37746187both my parents were in different ways like broken immature people and v emotionally manipulative. lends itself to learning to people pleaseand then my ex was very similarbasically until i went out on my own i was punished p nastily for putting myself first and its a skill i've been learning over the last few years
>>37746206i think most obvious examples were during my marriage, when my ex had a lot of control over me and i just rolled over and accepted iteven when it caused me a lot of problems (such as stalling my transition for many years)i was just a very passive person really
NOOOOOOO LAGUNA DID YOU JUST CALL ME NICK AFTER I LIED TO YOU AND CHEATED ON YOU FOR MY OWN BENEFIT?NOOOOOO THATS A HATE CRIMEYOU AND YOUR WHOLE FAMILE HAVE TO BE EXECUTED NOWYOU RUINED MY LIFE BY CALLING ME NICK NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODon't mind me while I go back to Mono and suck the dick of a confirmed abuser, liar, cheater and rapist.Laguna is the real villain because she calls me Nick.Cheating, raping and abusing is completely fine though!
>>37746236lingini lagunoo keeps winning
>>37746211selfish asshole
>>37746236I wonder of navy feels about the fact that kat just leaked intimate and embarrassing conversations like that lul
>>37746270are you the same anon that accused salt of lying the other day, it just feels like you are
>>37746343im autistic and made a bad joke and spent like 5 minutes trying to figure out how to fix it and gave up and did not make a second post. see cause she was saying she people pleases and doesnt stand up for herself so i go "wow so selfish" but i didnt say it rightwho accused salt of lying what happened
>>37746423lol dw i assumed this was what you meant it was funny :')
So, I have like 4 vials of EEn, as far as I'm aware, these are gonna last another 1-2~ years at most, next year around february my current vial is gonna run out, and I'm probably gonna buy some EEn from Astrovials who has a super good reputation, v excited for that, I was on otokonoko previously.anyways, I still have these four spare vials left, so what should I do with them? I know some trans women IRL kinda vaguely and not in the like close close way, so like maybe it would be wise to chuck atleast idk two? over to them? it's not like I have any use of them, they'll run out by the time I can use them.also >tfw no L bf
>>37746251This is true. Also does having gacha character logos on your nails improve or decrease sex appeal?
>>37746513spooky image
>>37746536Y
went outside for the first time in 2 weeks and saw all my friendswas really needed & they bought me drinks T_T
https://getpocket.com/explore/item/the-heartbreak-of-parent-child-estrangement-and-how-to-cope
>>37746690virus dont click
Is beer a good meal replacement?
>>37746813define 'good'>>37746707makes me laugh everytime
>>37745926im not gonna post a video of a trans person being harassed.
i dont know why this image hasn't left my mind i feel like it's altered my brain in a way i cant really explain
Sometimes I forget about being sad and I feel happy.>>37746820as in I can skip a meal in exchange for beer every once in a while. Like could I swap it out for lunch or dinner? My mind says no but my heart says yes>>37747021She's spitting facts
>>37747021Consumerists be like
>>37744942>QOTT: If you could be frozen in cryosleep how long would you want to be frozen for?idk like a years sleep would be cool i got thingsd to do good evening yallshttps://youtu.be/Vi-mTjshD-s?t=538
>>37747021chris chan followed this advice
>>37746813dont forget a ciggy,or vape if ur a vapefag>>37746813>>37747038i think im gonna hasve a beer nowchar did nothing wrong btw
>>37746457oh thank goodness glad i didnt offend youbold of you however to not always assume ebil dark forces at play
>>37747069nicotine makes me feel sick nowadays. Not sure what happened cuz I used to smoke before hrt>char did nothing wrong btw:/
Sleepy
>>37747165i am always 100% of the time unaware of ebil dark forces and sometimes even go up to them like 'oh hi you look nice' and then get hurt by it100% of the time always
naz are you sad about trudeau not wanting any more migrants?
>>37747420not naz but im sad about it if it means i cannot come over there
thinking about amputation
>>37746627lighting gives the flesh a corpse like quality and there's a lot of black in the image, even though the nails aren't sharp something about the shadows making it hard to see where they end gives the impression they might be sharp on first glance and the way the thumb is positioned does too, the ominous dark area to the left also adds to the spooky
>>37747498amputate deez nuts
>>37747498any particular part? I think about cutting my own head off with a sword sometimesone swoop
discord made notifs sound spooky
>>37747420kinda?I'm very pro open borders but also I think immigration should be slowed down until the housing crisis can be solvedlike idk it feels fucked up to me to welcome people in and be like>oh, you want somewhere to live?>and you have money too?>that's cuteotherwise yeah I wish they would confidence trudeau alreadyno way he won't win the next election even without my vote kek
>>37747554thinking about young women having their limbs ripped from them
and the doctor crisiswhy do people want to live here? we're sinking into the blizzard
somebody added me as a friend on discord ages ago and then never sent me any messages and it's weird whenever I see them onlinemysterious person
>>37747538Ig I do look like a corpse on white lightI used to have long sharp blood nails some time ago too
>>37747606wow you're like a mix of patrick bateman and etc. etc.is this a jealousy thing or something else
>>37747620desire to poke
>>37747624idk thinking about it makes me distressed
>>37747658Be careful, it bites.
>>37747670
I know it's never going to happenbut I want to see elizabeth may make pm :(
>>37747689Imma eat you just like he did with his brotherUnaceptable.
>>37747663why are you thinking about it
>>37747697what a way to go out, the humanity
>>37747701sometimes it pops into the head
>>37747718Maybe Ill let you live and only take a bite
>>37747731normie entry level intrusive thought just don't worry about it
need to dress up on 26th shud do fake moustache or the zelda link man?>>37747755but it makes me suicidal
>>37747021still thinking ab this image, it might be really sound advice to ignore reality and be young and small forever
>>37747774Copers be like
>>37747761femboy link obviouslywhy does it make you suicidal, maybe I'm just desensitised to gore from too many years on 4chan but a bit of dismemberment doesn't sound that bad, or is it the fact it's being done to women specifically mean something like it's a misogynist intrusive thought?
>>37747803yes i don’t care about men being horribly mutilated but women are too good and pure and pretty and innocent and all their worth is based on their physicality that such things upset me
Forced comedy in the middle of serius media is so annoying
>>37747843spend more time around women they're often gross and bad
>>37747892they won’t let me be around them
>>37747898don't you got a cis woman friend
>>37747920she scares me tho
>>37747923that'll get better over time
>>37747942it hasn’t
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HgzTnKQDc_A@E
>>37747614aw man oh no this is about me isnt itughi bet this is about me :(scared this is about me
>>37748120Omg is that Nickus Langus?? Who's getting their dms leaked today my king
>>37748120fat lol
>>37748128it's almost certainly not about you, why are you scared it's about you?
>>37748100how long have you had them as a friend and hung out with them
>>377481415 8 16 32 42
bet its about me
>>37748225it's probably not about you ffs I should not have made that post
>>37747800yes ! I love coping, you should try it <3
THE NUMBERS MASON
:(
no its def me guys sry :/
>>37748248do I have to add you all to prove it's not you
>>37748223bros... she's literally gonna kill laguna bros..... you see it in this webm. the fingerguns, yeah? it's over lagunabros... im so sorry...
stop talking about me :(i get it im sorry im sorry
>>37748263stob id
>>37747324baby
>>37748223watched it 30 times desu
>>37748217on and off for a year
>>37748120=(
>>37748100doesn't seem like a lot of time to have gotten that close yet so will prob improve in time
>>37748335since release a couple timesSawyer oj man
652 pickup?anyone?..hello?...
>>37748223I'm gonna play fantasy five with these
>>37748419NEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRD
>>37748428pov: you asked how big my deck is
Byebye
>>37748442nini
>>37748409not lostthe webmi'm going to sleep
>>37748452No. Goodbye.
>>37748439trading card games are like a tax on autism
>>37748466what happened?
I have to go to bed but I don't wanna
>>37748424no don't they are cursedthey grant you incredible luck but basically kill everyone on an accident if you ever used them just enter them every 108 minutes into your computer and the world won't explode
eepy in a grumpy way ×.×
>>37748472eh I don't spend too much, like one or two decks a year, also I don't play, no one to play with thus I collect
>>37748527whhhyyyyyyyy thoughthey pump out cardboard and mark it up a million percent with rarity that is hey control it's a con to milk youuuuuu
egg noodlesdiced shallotchunky diced cukeegonions sausgod I love austerity>>37748559childhood memories and I like looking at them and I have little else in my life that brings me joy
>>37748537idk what that is but prob can't from here I'm too tired anywayso so tired
>>37748572fucking ONIONS sauce holy shit I walked into that
>>37748572well I hope you get a more forward looking hobby anon and it brings you all the joy in the world
>>37748587just kill me dude shit fuck fucking hell fuck my life holy shit>>37748596doubt
>>37748488those slippers
>>37748605you're fine!!!
>>37748488did u watch the new filler episode that came out last week..ive heard its one of the best episodes in the series
>>37748632sorry I just back from a thing Im a bit high strungalso need to take my meds
>>37748669did it go ok?
>>37748685yeah it was ok I just thought I was late so I power walked then the receptionist was weird getting me to sign in and trying to give me a keycard even tho I work there and the meeting went well but I always get anxious at stuff like thatSuoy saucetherechrist
i have been told sugar is not a normal thing to put on popcorn in canada and im shocked and confused
>>37748739I mean I've heard of caramel before, sugar seems a bit plain but not unorthodoxever see someone put vinegar on mac n cheese?
>>37748705the receptionist didn't recognise you or was just being too by the book or something?glad everything else went well
>>37748704idk if I'd like it if it's a phone game
>>37748759no he's new, the main problem was I was dying for a glass of water or some coffee or something for like 2 hours the entire time but Im too anxious to ask if I can get one
going to make macaroni cheese and put vinegar on it that actually sounds really good to me
>>37748759my noodle thingy I made tasted pretty decent tho so thats nice
>>37748782I mean I hate vinegar so yknow
>>37748772oooh yeah, the worst for me is when my throat gets dry and it makes me need to cough but I can't quite cough
>>37748757no but i bet thats tastybut sugar is just likesalt and sugar and butter is like just normal good popcorn? im baffled by this
>>37748797I'll save the recipe
nope went from garp to elders>>37748689Belgian Sheppard guard dogI like to sleep in piece
>>37748806sacrebleu! even balsamic?
so far not one person thinks the combined forces of mtfg could take down a polar bear
>>37748809I just felt half delerious on the walk homeneed to stay better hydrated>>37748819seems shrimple enough>>37748823:3>>37748838if it tastes like vinegar then im not into it>>37748873polar bears are one of humans few natural predators unless you have an elephant rifle around or something
blobbers won
>>37748849I might look at it but idk if I have the time or patience for gatcha stuff and their storylines I go awol on games for years and come back to them later
>>37748897um actually mono won
>>37748908mongo sneeds
>>37748830oh man u should watch it, ive seen clips and the animation quality looked sooooo goodi think im going to watch it tn
seriously what is this email shit
ok forcing myself to do the sleep now(っ- ‸ - ς)ᶻ z 𐰁
>>37748830you should see a dentist
in my restless dreams....
>>37748976carols a lesbian isnt she? imma go kms
why hello there
val marry me already you know you find someone here
>>37748990i unnohttps://youtube.com/watch?v=5fO1e2MT2pk>>37749047hihidelving into the depths of hell again for spooky season
>>37749080oh yes very fun ! good choice Jo ! (also missed you)
>>37749047hi :) did u hear about the VHS release for romulus? ik its useless but i wan
>>37749090wtheck no I didn’t how odd
>>37749100kinda came out of nowhere desu. supposedly has the IMAX ratioanyway hope you've been well, long time no talk etc etc
>>37749080jessu i didnt think there was a song for thatsong fer youhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EKLpPc1_fQ0&list=PL2C73B9F1C0C6B1DE&index=4
>>37749139not sure I see the connection between romulus and vhs unless it’s a matter of almost criticizing the faux nostalgia that burdens the filmbut that would mean that hollywood isn’t self-aware and that can’t rightwhat have you been up to otherwise watch any spooky movies lately ?
>>37749178>connection between romulus and vhsfree money thru nostalgia-grab. maybe FOMOwent to see The Witch ln, somehow hadn't seen it. other than that just been rotting and watching anime. want to get in the mood but just cant idk
>>37749142lain! :>
reminder that maiq removed his trip and was caught sexually harassing people itt as anon
>>37749090>VHS releasethat honestly seems kinda coolrematched rolumlus and liked it even more the second time aroundbut modern resolutions definitely do the series no favors imo
>>37749284I think I’m gonna watch Dracula (1931) tonight
>>37749290what are your thoughts on maiq removing his trip and sexually harassing trannies in this thread? a place where they should be able to post safely without weird bottom chasing cis males fawning over them?
>>37749315I also liked it better the second timeI am waiting for the Dec blu ray release to see it for the third timepart of me is a bit regretful I didn’t see it at the theater one more time
>>37749330>bottom chasingsince when
>>37749354he has made posts about eating ass and slurping precum
>>37749345lol
>>37749354what does it even mean ?
>>37749362we have different ideas of what bottom chaser means
>>37749408he wants penis in his mouth and up his ass
>>37749315mayb need to rewatch, but that also means borrowing a vhs player..hope you've been well nazfren>>37749326sounds fun :) u are in a real vampire mood lately! didnt get around to salems lot but saw RLM talked about it
>>37749345if chasermaiq was real i would go on a date with him
>>37749403they're saying you want to get fucked by a trannybottom chaser = chaser who bottomsand there's a lot of like weird ideas about what it means to be a bottom in chaser spaces likedoes giving oral make one a bottom etcwhich ig comes from stone culture stuff
>>37749419he posted his hand a few times and it has excessive amounts of extra fat. he has to weigh at least 20 stone
>>37749422>>37749403should add none of this is a reflection on your proclivities im just translating lol
>>37749445i mean read the screenshots
>>37749456yeah nothing there screams bottom lol unless you have a super restrictive view on this stuff
>wants penis in his mouth and up his assI mean same
>>37749422stone culture is hard to understand. it seems like some kind of repping but i dont know whats being repressed. like tops who are afraid of gay, bottoms who are afraid of being straight, it's so silly. just enjoy sex or dont have it
>>37749422oh it sounds like someone who is looking to too for a bottom
>>37749442>excessive fat
>>37749417>borrowing a vhs player..now thatis truly scarybeen a long time since I've even seen one of those>hope you've been wellishtoday is looking up anyhow :)
>>37749480the difference is you are tranny in a tranny space and maiq is a cis male invader in a tranny space trying to get people to chat with him offsite in private
>>37749575>trying to getit was me who asked for thati badgered him into it even>>37749490i think its like stones ime rly hate the idea that they are into what they're into because of like trauma or internalised phobia or whateverits like they generally rly reject the idea its reppingi think for a lot it relates to a sort of sexual dysphoria actually, even with cis peoplethat was the case with my ex anyway who was by the end of our relationship stone>>37749495i would not want to speculate!
Do you need a good lawyer? I work pro-boner, meaning you pay me in juicy lady cock.Call maiq the liar and associates at xxx-xxx-xxxx because I'll never give you trannies my real information!
>>37749531bet i could beat you in an armwrestle
>>37749555the benefit of having frens interested in trend-chasing video edits. am surrounded by VCRs, even got to watch a few episodes of Eva & Lain off one>today is looking upglad to hear it!
>>37749606its also funny because you leaked a ton of maiqs emails/vocas via discord dm. i bet maiq didnt know that
>>37749661this is silly drama baiting and there's a very obvious reason he will know this is untrue
>>37749679well someone leaked messages. if it wasnt her then it was someone else
>>37749531weakling soi hand bvilt to troonsition
>>37749690if it were me they'd be pics of it spread around here no doubtand yeah like he'd know if our convos had leaked and like, they've not lol
livin my best life
>>37749747stop smoking
another interesting thing about maiq, he often says he never browsed /tttt/ outside of this thread but a lot of his early posts references things happening outside the thread. really makes you wonder
>>37749768can't the crushing weight of reality is too much to bear :(
>>37749785he literally posted itt about how he found mtfg after spending time in other generals loli asked him this some time ago, its all in archives
>>37749799link? or screenshot? the blob is running all his archived posts through some ai thing that is summarizing the constant inconsistencies
>>37749531I could read your palm if you like
>>37744942
I'm 35 yr old goth girl who needs gf
>>37749645you just want to hold hands : P>>37749861please do !
>>37749987post face
>>37749993I don't want you to be as sad as I am
>>37749992sometimes i say it under a genuine desire to prove that im strong af tyvm
>>37749747me irl
>>37750005oof thats rough
>>37749987kat?
>>37750087stop>>37750051I look like a young boy
is there a way to stop being depressed that isn’t suicide, if you’ve already tried therapy and yoga and friends and jobs and nature and meds and made lives worth living only for them to get destroyed
>>37750111who is this character ?
>>37750117she’d be the empress of the protagonist’s faction
>>37750111suicide is the only way desu
>>37750111give yourself brain damageive never met a retard that wasnt happy 90% of the time
>>37750087shes 38 lmfao
>>37750133tried itdidn’t workdon’t know how to do it without fucking it up>>37750136i’m already severely brain damaged, been on image boards since i was a preteen
>>37750136>ive never met a retard that wasnt happy 90% of the timeit me
>>37750156if at first you dont succeed, try, try again
>>37750033I took the day off to help a friend move his aged mother into a retirement community and so spent hours manhandling furniture and boxes up cramped staircases
>>37750169i’ve tried to try, never works. i throw up pills and everything else in my stomachbody locks up if i try to jump or crash my carplus i don’t want to be a veggie if i fuck up
>>37749992your love line indicates that you can be selfish in love and have a good handle on your emotions. you have experienced some emotional trauma. your head line shows that you are adventurous and have enthusiasm for life. you think realistically but you have had some inconsistencies in thought. your life line tells me that you have a lot of energy and have experienced a sudden change in lifestyle. your fate line indicates that your path is subject to many changes from external forces.
>>37750188try, try again
>>37750193very interesting thank you for thishow did yo pick up this skill ?
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>>37750193if i post my hand will you do mine pls? :)>>37750177thats very noble of you!and chad state of mind desui hope it was not too taxing thoi still think i could beat you thosecret techniques
what is a boymoder to do when they are invited to a bachelor party by their brother ;-;actually what the fuck is a boymoder supposed to do at their brothers wedding???? im freaking out because my relatives are way too pushy to be refused of a hug
>>37750239refer to my previous post
kinda weird how maiq reposted nine of rootys selfies. very weird. why did he save them in the first place?
>>37750251>secret techniques sounds very pleasant>nobleHmm perhaps but the truth is I have a pathological fear of moving and almost never agree to help anyone move house due to this phobiaIn this case however one could hardly refuse
>pharmacist asked if my needles are for testosterone injectionsshe gave me one look and went "failed male?" it has never been so over
mistakes were madecan't wait till I meet the dommy daddy himself
>>37750267to 'ave a fap
>>37750267every chaser saves pics.some are creepy enough to show them to their friends.
>>37750251sure>>37750216my mother taught me
>>37750254i think weddings can be sweet but bachelor parties would make me want to dieeither come out or break your own arm the night before
>>37750402fascinating I’m sure it’s a cool way to break the ice w people
anybody seen mef they were gonna do the SN yesterday
>>37750408omg my bachelor party was the single worst moment of my entire life desu>>37750402kind of you ty :))>>37750292>very pleasantthats what you think until you suffer the humiliation of losing a test of strength to a 130lb tranny>I have a pathological fear of moving so i recall!though i was not aware this extended to other people moving tooeven more noble of you if you find it stressful and difficulthow did you find it in the end?
>>37750402are you a gypsy
its my weekend now :D
>turning 31 in two days>no idea how to celebrate or what to do for it >it’s just going to be another depressed day where i feel like shit >compared to turning 30 >i was optimistic about the future>thinking about moving out of state>was getting better from sword group drama>now>moved back in with mother>slowly slowly working towards an entry level job >no hope and severe depressionwhy keep goingi wish i could give up and just do nothingit would be better than constantly pushing and trying yet accomplishing so little
>>37750493it all went fine stiff upper lip but I’ll likely pay for it in the morningoh I just sent you something pls take a look when you have a chance
>>37750156u shud play the lotto 2 finance ur book
>>37750493>single worst moment of my entire lifewhat was it likeim gonna be honest ive neither actually had nor been to one lol im just sorta extrapolating from stories ive heard and whats in the movies
>>37750509party time !
>>37750493Your love line shows that you're content with your love life and you freely express your emotions and feelings, you also have a good handle on your emotions although this can conflict with desire to express yourself. Your head line tells me that you have a short attention span and have experienced emotional crisis at some point. Your life line shows that you have lots of energy, strength, and enthusiasm. You have had a sudden change in lifestyle and may have been hospitalized or injured at some point. Your fate line indicates that you have or will have support of family or friends.
>>37750637sicc lookingcan’t do lottery, swore to never do it bc it’s a retard tax
>>37750506No i'm Scandinavian, but my mom liked that Cher song.
>>37750677thats just what they tell you so theres less people playing the lotterythe real retard tax is the lost potential gains in not playing the lottery
>>37750677wut about gamble at card games
>>37750640so to put it in like context of my life more widely i'd have been like 22. i had at this point figured out i needed to stop repping and had to transition. i had been nbcoping since 20, and then in the last idk 6 months or so concluded i needed to transition 100%should also add my ex is also trans and like they knew all this way ahead of time this was not a like 'oops you married a tranny' moment kekanywayi had not made any friends since moving away from my hometown and repping in late teensso the guys i invited were like, old school friends. i get on with them super well now because im like how i used to be, but they really did not like who i was when repping. and desu i can't blame them i was miserable and fakeanywayit meant it was a very tense trip of like all of us trying to have a good time but like knowing it was a liethey all knew i was a fruity girly sort because they knew me from when i was a kidi literally knew i was a woman but like, was deadass looking like a depressed man loland we were all liketrying to larp this charade long enough to have a lads holiday in Amsterdamon the way there i had to dispose of my razor at the airportso i couldn't shavethey were like trying to be all lads lads lads even tho it made all of us uncomfortableby the third day i had a patchy moustache and wanted to die i got some of the worst photos of me taken oml some of these pictures haunt me and one day im going to do the most dramatic transition timeline ever with them to provide ultimate hope fuel for doomersand it concluded with me getting lost in the city whilst high af and crying to some bar lady who asked if i was okay after noticing i rly was noti came out to them all and started RLE like idk half a year later lol and then didn't speak to them again until 2023 when one of them was like 'nice tits' kek>>37750626ah ty, good of you to pass that oni shall get on that tomorrow rly apprecaite it x
>>37750408i cant come out anon, its too soon :( if i do ill be fleabagging the whole wedding, i dont want to make it about me, or if i did come out just be treated horribly by my brother and conservative family
>>37750727thank you kindly I am certain it will be appreciated
>>37750782miggy stardust did you like the empress drawing idea or was it bad
>>37750800it reminds me strongly of something I have seen before but cannot quite remember
>>37750814interesting desu
my one irl friend today (gay cis man) told me he "always has trouble being friends with women-uh-cis women i mean"
>>37750855ur sooo not like those cis women babe yaaaasssss girl slay
>>37750855it’s because he understandably doesn’t see you as a woman, but caught himself and rephrased it to make it seem like he’s friends with you bc you’re a transwoman, and not because he doesn’t see you as a womanhe’s just being nice
how do i stop myself from losing all sense of purpose and slipping into wanting nothing more than cozy domestic wife life. i want to be ambitious but not enough to actually be ambitious just enough for thoughts of housewifery to cause me vague ennui
>>37750913realizing you wouldn’t be good at it bc you romanticize it and don’t understand what the day to day reality of it would actually be like
>>37750855>accidentally make sexist comment in front of woman friend>try to use the fact she's a tranny to save "no i just meant cis women who are different"kek'd himself boys are so funny
>>37750925the problem is i'd be really good at it. i'm great at social planning and housekeeping and if someone else is paying all my bills i would love to just do all that for someone it sounds really cozy.but i also feel on some level i'm supposed to be some kind of spinster evil ceo
>>37750727>crying to some bar lady who asked if i was okay after noticing i rly was notthat does sound pretty miserable sorry:(was gonna say that maybe youre able to have some sort of like dark nostalgia for that memory but the underlying repping probably makes it hard for that to seem comfy at allidk how it is for you thoughthanks for sharing>didn't speak to them again until 2023 when one of them was like 'nice tits'lmao>>37750740sorry anon :(guess you gotta break your arm dunno what to tell you
>>37750891thank you for you valuable insight paigewhere would we be without someone like you? eh?
>>37750946well then why not pursue that? have you talked with your boyfriend to see how he feels about that?>>37750957probably somewhere less grounded but slightly happier or disconnected from reality
>>37750957someone like her must be here, it's a law of nature. if paige didn't exist someone else would be providing us a similar flavor of retardation. it is embedded in the dna of the worms of this place that some naive self-loathing chudette would end up stuck here posting this swill
>>37750975we would all suddenly become chris chan without his wisdom
>>37750988>his
>>37750947>idk how it is for youI think for me it was probably the literal final moments of repping and like in a very intense way, and in a generally super miserable time in my lifethat and my wedding day are two moments I find it hard to look back on fondlybut I can laugh about them both now so like, that's something desu. I'm not torn up about it exactly and there's a sort of comedy to it allI'd say if I do look back with a sort of nostalgia it's for things earlier in my life with the same group of guys, but when I was like the weird tranny girl they hung out with not like yeah sad repressing soon-to-be-married 'man' lol
>>37751011you get what you give
chatted things out with my big himbo friend he's upset but understands me and I was able to apologize feel very relieved. poor boy
>>37751036i give “nerd fish” as salt might say desuyou’re just misgendering me bc you don’t like me or what i think
>>37751053no I'd say she's serving nerd realnessjust to clarify
>>37751053you get what you put out into the world xx
>>37750969>why not pursue that?because i can't figure out what i want!i like the idea of devoting myself to being the domestic half of a couple and leaving the real world stuff to husband, but i worry that actually living that life i'd yearn to go out and forge an empire. i want to somehow have both but i don't know if that's real>talked with your boyfriendhahahaha good one ;_;
>>37751065so you’d gender me as he?sobbing>>37751075what does that mean? should i call you sir bc you’re misgendering me then? that seems petty
>>37751044good girl
>>37751053>you’re just misgendering mewait what are you chris chan is chris chan in mtfg lmao
>>37751091yes you may call me sir and daddyi will still refer to you with he/him pronouns
>>37751101i’m not going towhat would i need to do differently for you to use female pronouns? i’m not going to change, i’m just curious what your standards are for whether or not to use pronouns someone wants
>>37751091if this is who I assume it is I'd call you she and also silly>>37751093thank you ;_;he posted a sad pusheen and said>well it's not like lashing out is making me feel better but he didn't lash out at all he just went quiet and mopey ;_;he's a sweetheart actually. i have ideas of how to better keep in touch (partly things maiq has taught me in the past actually) so hopefully we can move on from thismight have him over in November too which will be nice
>>37751135im not changing either sorry buddy
>>37751136yay i’m confirmed fish cunt doll serve slay queen
no man will ever love me
will sell kidney for waist and hips pl0x
will sell bussy for bf
>>37751164you ate this gen up actually
the suicides kept us honest
honestly i cant think of anyone further away from cunt slay queen yas... to be brutally honest with u family
>>37751277anya
https://youtu.be/19gbeBgWEos
>>37750661omg breadfren I'm so sorry I missed this!but ngl this is a good read actually, pretty spot on I think. Ty!cool thing to know about
>>37751293not her... someone else but idk who /shrug
>>37749531the things i would do to that hand
I think it's really weird that I have this small group of friends consisting mostly of huge body builders plus one ex terf lassall of which were pretending to be incels for shits and giggles like when I himbo lad stopped speaking to me I spoke to a mural for advice and scrolled back through chat and saw pics he shared and he's jacked atand it's likedyk the memes where it's like several extremely huge men giving advice to someone? it feels like thatlike imagine this happening pre internet like how on earth would we all have met. weird to think
>>37749531stigmata????
AAAAAAAHHHHHHHJI HIT VEINI INJECTED STRAIGHT THROUGH VEINBLEEDING LIKE STUCK PIGWHAT DO I DOWILL I DIEDO I HAVR TO REINJECTTHE PAIN
>>37751474when you say vein do you mean like a little capillary? like a small surface blood vessel? you're not doing like deep IM injections?reason I'm asking is if you inject into small blood vessels they just burst and it's nothing to worry about idk what happens if you inject e into a proper big blood vessel but if you're doing subq and it's shallow injections it's nothing to worry about at all other than bleeding more
>>37750947ILL DO IT LITERALLY. i think im just gonna wear 2 sports bras and hopefully i can look normal in some baggy clothes... still wearing makeup though
>>37751701>still wearing makeup thoughbased
>>37751505is like inch long needle is that long?getting woozy
>>37751803cant have too much glitter eyeshadow idc what anyone says
>>37751818again subq or IM?
>>37751701giggling a bit imagining the worlds shittiest boymoder fooling noone at the weddingwearing a face of full glam makeup and two thickly padded sportsbras layered on top of each other
remember to make a new thread before this one archives, you're on page 8
feel really grossugh
>>37752037mmm nah
>>37752019i think i am the world shittiest boymoder but not everybody can tell, some people ask my pronouns some people don’t notice a thing. my family all think i’m straight because i was in an almost 2 year long relationship with a woman(we basically were just friends didn’t even have sex)picrel is me boymoding
im finding it hard to go outside anymore. i can barely show up to my classes because im just so uncomfortable. getting groceries is a struggle. all i can do is show up to work. its just getting so hard. i dont wanna and cant become a neet. this shit sucks
where find boyfriend material
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apologies in advance for shit quality like usual
