ups, forgot my name, i just finished gooning to loli hentai so i thought this was fitting

>>38493263
take your pills, retards

>wake up
>NO ANIME VAGINA

Day ruined

>>38493555
How can one power through this? I just can't live like this anymore

>>38493580
Sometimes even to live (Without anime boobs and an anime vagina) is an act of courage.

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i NEED a below the knee amputation on both of my legs

even though it's absolutely retarded and a bad decision I might end up hrt repping or something

the slow decline into being a husk isn't working

>>38493263
a cat is fine too

Why not be an effeminate gay man, instead of pretending to be a woman?

Why not be a decaying corpse, instead of pretending to be a woman?

>>38493787
I dont want to be a man

>>38493798
There is literally nothing wrong with being male.

>>38493263
based filename

>>38493813
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>>38493813
>nothing wrong with being male

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>>38493813
>nothing wrong with being male

I WISH I WAS A WOMAN

its ok to have hair in some places, and not in others
it's not worth freaking out over

>>38493813
youre right, theres something wrong with me

>>38493813
Literally everything is wrong with being male

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would getting on e make me have friends again
i'm so fucking lonely

>>38493895
my gender dysphoria doesn't care about that, something is WRONG

so uh
what's the best way to an hero

>>38494257
irl or online

>>38494308
woman isn't a feeling, you don't have a female soul

>>38494315
either is alright, but i don't think any irl friends are possible for now

>>38494257
bet you'd get lots of friends
i'm on e2 and have zero lol

>>38494327
socialising on discord is at least accessible

>>38494318
what?

>>38494451
for those with social skills
people just avoid me lmao *crying*

>>38494466
just stop soliciting nudes lol

>>38494451
what places do you have to go to to make friends as a 4chan repper? nobody off /frengen/ sticks

>>38494473
i only do it ironically
fr actually
when people contacted me to send shit, i've refused
...
maybe that's why people dislike me? for not masturbating to their pics.... :P

>>38494473
ps post butt :3

>>38494451
ive reached the point with repping where i can't even do this now, i just cant talk with anyone without feeling physically nauseous about how retarded and stupid i am
there's one person who still talks to me sometimes and i really like them but i feel awful , i don't understand why anyone would ever want to talk with me
i really think i might be on a death spiral here i have no one left to help me , i think ill die quite soon

just checked my digit ratio, I'm not transgender, also check these digits

>>38495599
wonderful!

>>38495599
Witnessed.

I am manic now and I am considering stealing my sister's panties when I go home to my parents house, and doing Bambi sleep with them as the bimbo uniform. Then the next step is makeup and full outfits. Then I will voice train. Then the dysphoria will be so strong that I'll order hrt. I am in a manic episode

>>38495636
be a manic bitch and order the hrt right now, seriously
what do you have to lose?

>>38495599
MOST impressive

>>38495577
lol give hrt a shot first

I was pretty suicidal recently but my mom sent me a cute picture of the family dog. I can't traumatize them

>>38495645
Family might notice, and my body will be fucked from hormonal changes. I need to ramp up the dysphoria so I don't care about this stuff. Mania develops over time. It has begun now.

If I do the crossdressing, voice training, and makeup first, the hrt will be less intimidating because I have the groundwork done. And the manic episode will be well advanced at that stage.

I am hot, skinny, but 28 so I don't know. I am not masc but not fem either, we will see. The problm is I'm 6"2. I won't pass I just wanna be hot

>>38495683
my family love me but would probably be better off without me. they wouldn't be sad for that long if i died. metamorphosis type shit u know

>>38495775
They would miss you no matter how useless you are. You have no idea how damaging the death of a child is for parents. And if you kys you'll probably go to hell or some awful state of existence according to all world religions.

>>38495795
i guess so
it just pisses me off that they would be upset. why can't i just die without any worries. i haven't done anything to warrant being loved by anyone. also I don't believe in hell I think consciousness just gets severed and that's it, which sounds veryyyy nice

thinking about maybe having a breakdown. just for fun

>>38496125
What about instead of having a breakdown, try letting yourself act more girly without taking hrt?

>>38496140
i do this already and it only heightens the disconnect between how i want to act and how i'm expected to act

>>38496152
>expected to
maybe feeling enslaved by external social expectations is the real problem

>>38496171
what a terribly astute observation
unfortunately i live in a horrible rural shithole so i can't exactly go around pretending to be a woman while biologically being a disgusting fucking man

>>38496191
I genuinely think it's not different at all in urban areas.
>pretending to be a woman
you really are a feminine man, and that's ok to embrace

>>38496201
it's very different. people are much more tolerant in cities because no one pays attention to each other and there are more likely to be people similar to you
in rural areas everyone knows each other and everyone is the same

>>38496223
that's not tolerance, that's being ignored

my index and ring finger are the same length, is it over

I usually only have minor dypshoria thoughts but when I'm drunk they get really intense and I end up self harming
What does this mean..

>>38496911
when you're drunk your mental inhibition goes away

>>38496926
Maybe I just go insane when im drunk though
I can't believe my dypshoria is that bad

>>38496980
those are definitely real feelings, up to you how you deal with them. Seems like getting drunk is a bad idea for you I must say.

i need a job, pls help me out
i am a good hard working individual

>>38497006
I'm so zoned out and emotionless usually though, I hate it

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Hello ^_^
I am thinking if I should transition or not, this is me with makeup, I think I have a pretty decent skull, all the measurements i did where in female range, I think I have a really solid shot at passing. What do you think, should I troon out or keep repping?

>>38497601
troon out, you're cute

>>38497601
That's not you. I've seen that bitch in passgen

>didn't wake up as a bio girl today
why even bother living

>>38497601
Sexo.

>>38497601
are you on hrt

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Is life even worth living if I can't be a legal loli?

>>38497015
house help for a domme

>>38493822
I'm only at 3 and I already want to kill myself

>>38493263
I WANNA FUCK THAT CAT

LEAVE THE KITTENS ALONE!!!
T__T

>>38493822
What do I do if I'm norwood 2?

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I need someone to kill me immediately

>>38493836
Hairy guys are hot. I want a hairy guy to cuddle me

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i'm not even trans
i just don't want to be myself

I'm an autoanimegirlphilliac

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>>38500777
We all are

god, it feels good being a sociopath and feeling sedated and yes i am still miserable and head hurts like crazy but i feel more and more high sedated each day that passes and one day i will simply feel amazing, sucks to be you, skill issues bozo

>>38500854
nmiggah i've warned you
do you want to end up like me?

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I think I am stuck in a weird androgynous zone with my self identity. I do remember not wanting to go through puberty as a kid and considering castration. After puberty I just kind of gave up on those thoughts. I wanted to be physically fit and active but I still hate looking at myself in mirrors and pictures despite others saying I look good. I shut myself in physically and cut contact with most of my friend groups. I barely ever showed up to college classes and quietly graduated without attending the graduation ceremony. I never pursue any romance, I never masturbate. I spend much of my free time dissociating. I deny myself from doing any physical activities for fun, only self improvement is allowed, I am obsessed with self improvement until I consider myself worthy of others again. The flip side of this is that online where I am separated from my physical sense I have positive relations with others and am pretty well liked which sustains me, I however always excuse myself from going to meet-ups when I am asked.

>>38500861
i don t do it though, my brain just does it automatically when faced with a lot of pain, is like being on more and more benzo or weed but naturally 24/7, but i like am also retarded and can t take care of myself bc of that bc living sedated like that 24/7 is actually fucking hard

>>38500843
It feels good being able to admit that. I don't have to pretend I want to be a """passing""" tranny or Cis woman. I WANT TO BE AN ANIME GIRL.

I'm considering SEAmaxxing and having a child to end this tranny nonsense for good, though not sure where to start

chronic disassociative masturbation causes brain damage

>>38500979
passport bro as a repper? kek

>>38500979
Don't pass on your shitty tranny genes.

>>38501058
If I have an asian wife then the child will be a girl one way or another, and would pass far better if male. By this time the future will be more automated, the terfs will have died off. And she would have a greater life than me. Not happy about the eugenics pink pillers here btw.

>>38501172
i hope you like rice and chink smell

>>38501215
are you white?

he's barely human

>FTM want to be gay men
>MTF want to be lesbians

I love the symmetry

anyone else just not able to relax?

>>38500880
lol me. my favourite times of the week are when I'm alone and can just exist online.

the rest is hell

>>38501497
i can be relaxed for some hours maximum like once every two years lol
not even exaggerating

>>38501497
I can relax but I have to be totally alone. Once a single person enters the home it's over.

>>38501487
that is probably the best definition, barely human, just barely, i like it, do i seem or act weird? some people started using 'it' a while ago so smth must be robotic

>>38501563
it is just the mean way of saying they when you don't want to be transphobic

>>38501570
ahh, makes sense i guess, i was wondering cause i can t seem that weird like

>>38501487
Non-whites seem to hate chink women the most.

How is your transition going? Any benefits?

>>38493822
Ketoconazole shampoo, microneedling, minoxidil. Fin if you can handle the side effects.

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does repression make you melodramatic or knowing about repression

>>38501788
just go straight for dutasteride

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>>38502038
If I take it for the next 6 years then stop do I have a good chance of recovering any loss in fertility? The science I've read seems to suggest yes within a few weeks but I idk if long-term use changes that. When I get older I'd like to be able to have kids normally tbdesu. I know I'm weird on this compared to most of you.

>>38502280
you're a repper why the fuck do you care about fertility

do you really think you'll get over this? that some day you'll be a regular family man?

>>38501731
some benefits but i'm old and don't have strong effects from hrt so.. have stopped taking it a few times but always return to it
>>38502280
loss of fertility?
duta isn't estradiol
the effects on fertility seems weak unless you're already borderline it shouldn't be a problem, and also one shouldn't father a child while on duta or fina anyway

>>38502280
duta/fin has no proven impact on fertility
if you're concerned you can suspend taking it it for a month or two whilst trying to conceive

nothing makes you rep harder than having to take care of someone sick

Is there any hope for this condition becoming solved somehow in the future?

>>38503430
not really. it's like trying to cure homosexuality. the only successful reppers I've seen have had very mild cases of GD

i have officially hit the crying stage of repression.
i don't deserve good because ive been bad. but how could such conditions exist? how the fuck could an inverted sexuality make me dysphoric?

it's disgusting and cruel. i don't want to be a woman. i don't cry because im a woman deep down. there is a boy there is a son who gradually got fucked over by this glitch in the womb. a ticking time bomb of suicide or personhood suicide via transition

transwomen speak about forgetting their childhood, not relating to themselves pre HRT. I don't want to lose myself. I don't want this. I don't want this.

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>>38503653
I think the people who say that found catharsis in that thought. They WANTED to forget their childhood and disconnect from their past so they did. This is not something that would happen if you did not want it.

>>38503653
>transwomen speak about forgetting their childhood
I did this but ive been trying to reconnect and its def possible, and ive learned alot about early trans signs i had. That stuff dont go away it can always be figured out

>>38503760
It's awful either way.

My childhood wasn't perfect, but I loved it (aside from poor mental health and the time I was going to commit suicide). My parents were so loving and still are.

Eh I'm getting too tired to post like this.

>>38503787
> ive learned alot about early trans signs i had.

yeah mine was just early AGP signs like touching my dick as a kid imagining turning into a girl

It's all so cooked.

I remember back when I wanted a repper friend and every person I talked to was either bona fide insane or a pinkpiller.

I'm still lonely but now I'm used to it

>>38503800
Oh i never had that lol im talkng like crying every time my dad cut my long hair, thats one of my earliest memories

>>38504056
androphillic?

>>38503789
Like you said this is a stage, you'll later probably have some time to assess your situation with a clearer mind but for now just go easy on yourself and try not to do anything in a rush.

>>38504594
Eh. My mind is clearer as I move out of panic. I'm just left with misery.

>>38504614
take it easy.

>>38504750
I am. I go to work. Do the basics I need to do. Lay in bed till bedtime.
Repeat until the weekend.

>>38504765
you seem somewhat overwhelmed emotionally right now. You should take action, but later.

>>38504970
not particularly overwhelmed. I'm not planning on any action right now anyway.

go to sleep soon. go to work. get back. return to the depression pits

>No anime boobs
>No anime vagina
>No anime hips
>No anime face
>No anime ribcage
>No anime pancreas
>No anime Endoneurium.
>No anime Lymphocytes
>No anime RNA polymerase

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>>38505012
I’ve been ruminating in all this for a bit myself now, I feel like I’ve acquired a more level headed assessment of my situation over time with my emotions returning to baseline. In the moment things have been pretty rough. This too shall pass, with time comes wisdom yadda yadda yadda.

you are so lucky that you can rope, i would have killed my ass long ago just to escape this cruel torture, i just can t, my brain is a faggo and doesn t care, half of the time i feel so high i don t even know what happening around me..

>>38505602
let's rope together
driving over a cliff while being chased by cops

>>38505675
how can god design life to be so cruel awful like this? what is wrong with that mf

>>38500710
True and same, but being one feels absolutely disgusting (for people like us at least)

>>38505142
It's literally so over
what's even the point of living in this Kami-Sama forsaken hellworld

are you guys being performatively cringe with the anime thing

>>38505807
anime website

just pls kill me pls. i hate you so much. everyone ignores me

>>38505807
you wouldn't get it...

my mind can t even comprehend how shit being a dude is, leaving dysphoria aside, it is very hard being an average guy, there is so much fucking pressure and at the end of the day you are subhuman in comparison to chad and have to simp hard to get a wife which won t even love you and just settle with you, like jesus, women don t have any pressure on them, literally women cannot fail at life, you could fuck everything up and be retarded as an average woman and just get married and have kids and you will be a winner, heck, even if you live single with cats, you are still le strong and independent waiting for the right man, as an average dude if you fuck up, no wife no nothing and you are seen as subhuman loser, and if you live single you are just a loser, you can t even just find a woman and have kids if you fuck up, hell there is plenty of men with successful jobs and lives that are single just bc they are not chad, fuck, only chad lives life on easy mode for males and even he is below women, women are literally giga mega easy mode..

just think that even an average woman has more value than a fucking chad which is a small percentage of dudes, like literally
and at birth you have a 50/50 chance of being born a woman or man, basically a 50/50 chance between easy and hard mode
if you think chad is privileged and has an easy life a stacy has a 10x better life than even chad
a literal 50% chance that means everything, now imagine being born ugly male basically very hard mode and being very masc and dysphoric troon also on top of the hardships of being a man, legendary hardcore nigtmare giga insane difficulty, a literal meme existence, it would be funny in a sick way if it didn t hurt so fucking much

>>38505797
There is no point, but I suffer on anyway.

If I didn't have dysphoria I would love being a man t b h

>>38506143
i refuse to believe anyone loves being a man

>>38506307
Well you have a mental illness that prevents you from seeing it.

How do I just give up already
I don't want to be alive, I just hate everything yet I'm still alive for no reason I just want to die

>>38506307
It's ok to be a feminine man without taking hrt.

>>38506422
what if its not and makes you want to kill yourself and anyways ur too masculine to be considered feminine even by male standards

>>38506451
you have to rebel against the system that holds you as a slave

>>38506477
how does one do this

On my starvation arc, dropping my bmi to below 20 then assessing my appearance

im so fucking tired of feeling emotionally numb and dissociated like literally just fuck off, its like im not even a human im full of so so so much grief and anger and i just feel nothing most of the time, just fuck off i want to bash my fucking head against a rock and kill myself at least ill probably feel something

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Why is it such a weird idea for cis male NPCs to transition? Perhaps, by understanding this, I would be healed. The few times I've mentioned that I have dysphoria in male environments, their reaction has been complete astonishment. It was like I said I wanted to eat shit. But the curious thing is that these guys really like the female sex (even more trans women), why is the idea of wanting to belong to that so absurd?

>>38493272
THIS is what's wrong with society. STOP MISUSING GOONING GOONING =/= CUMMING YOU NEVER "FINISH" GOONING AAAAHHHH

I don't have dysphoria. I'm just ugly and autistic and depressed and looking for any escape route away from my own shit genetics.
I still stand with reppers in solidarity however.

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>>38500921
Yeah 3D women are gross, I'd rather just be a man. I know it's not realistic to want something I can never have but I don't care. I want to be an anime girl.

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>anime ass edition
God help me

I haven't shat yet this year. It feels like I have a bowling ball in my rectum.

>>38505946
Very few men win. Even chad usually gets a non virgin bitch wife. If you are a man, you are fucked, with a rare few exceptions. Emotionally I cannot imagine a happy man, because I associate manhood with dysphoria and would just think "he probably wishes he was a woman too". Even though I know this is not logical, it's how I feel.

I have become full of spite in recent years and just want to transition and die now. Or else get mad rich and use the money to spite people and feel power over others. But it's never happening so I'll probably just rot for a while and attempt suicide or induce severe mania to see what happens.

>>38509855
Get "triphala". It is natural and makes you shit and is very good for you. You'd need to take 10 of them if you haven't shit in that long.

>>38509917
Usually I just eat a tub of expired yogurt but I don't have any atm.

>>38509911
well. if you are sociopathic you are going to fell more and more sedated and aggressive too.. the hate for people and humanity doesn t go away..

>>38510258
I used to be full of love but the world made me this way and after two very bad relationships I am basically broken and just very angry. I am old now and transitioning seems impossible, so I am not happy and have no hope.

>>38510326
Have you transitioned? Or are you just on antidepressants or something?

>>38507713
I considered it weird and freaky as well, my first impulse was to think you either had a psychotic break, you are mentally very susceptible to suggestion, or you’re a pervert. To them it’s a switch suddenly being flipped rather than something you have been struggling with for your whole life. Remember the average man almost never even entertains the thought of changing sex

>>38510371
I imagine there is some kind of rebound effect from stopping HRT (assuming you stopped). Will probably change in time.

Another day in a No Anime Vagina Universe.

>>38510398
i stopped like 8months ago.. i know i sound insane but whatever.. maybe i am..

>>38510468
I would get your hormone levels checked now to make sure everything is ok.

>>38507713
because normal cis men live for pussy
wilfully castrating yourself is the antithesis of being male
its like a beaver not wanting to build a dam

i like listening to salem when i get sad
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lSeCdHpz8SI

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the dysmorphia is not letting up

i hate suffering and pain, i hope it will end soon

i require a lobotomy sir

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>>38502441
I'm under no delusion I will ever be normal, but I like women and still feel like there's a small chance I could find someone one day that will accept me as I am. Maybe its pretentious but since I was a child I've always felt like there are remarkably few people that think like me and share my aesthetic dispositions, I don't want people like me to go extinct.

>>38512006
>I'm under no delusion I will ever be normal, but I like women and still feel like there's a small chance I could find someone one day that will accept me as I am

I get it, but we are at high troon risk being what we are.

I wouldn't want to put a kid through that

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>>38512006
>there are remarkably few people that think like me and share my aesthetic dispositions, I don't want people like me to go extinct.

>>38493813
I actually agree with this, theres nothing wrong with being male IF you enjoy it, theres plenty of men who seem to enjoy being masculine and having sex with women im sure theyd be uncomfortable with the idea of being women but for us its the reverse, i find masculinity rough, chafing, uncomfortable and awful. I want to be a woman in every sense of the word, femininity is so much more appealing to me

bump

>>38507713
damm bro i wouldn't even dare to bring it up
think the idea is that male is higher and better than being female which it is

can porn help you relax in the same way crossdressing helps you relax

i hate AGP so fucking much
crying typing this
there was this one girl i crushed on so damn bad
but could I pursue her? Nah cause my sexuality is fucked up
ill never find love, ill never even have sex

that would suck by itself but yippee i get dysphoria too!
rep and end up sui
troon and end up sui
thank you god!

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I’m not at the point of suicide even crossing my mind. Just kind of wistful, this probably has been impacting my life in ways that I didn’t notice for years. My core personality was shaped by it. Whatever, maybe things can still be changed now that I am aware. I’ll be going out more.

>>38514241
For me it just makes me feel bad, I feel really bad after jerking off to AGP shit

getting harder to guilt myself out of feeling suicidal
it's funny I seem to be functioning better at work, feeling less panicked, sleeping better
but the resignation just grows stronger
I am crying a lot more than I have done in years

I would be down in going trans if that’s where the chips fall, I just don’t think it is the right choice for me specifically.

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(1)
Confession.

So there's this trans group in my local area I've known about for a few months. I never really wanted to go but thought it would be a good idea to get out and meet some people "like me". Dragged my feet with it for awhile. Would plan to go but always chickened out. One day, I finally convinced myself to go so I showed up to the sandwich place where they meet. Didn't have Discord on my phone, so I had no idea who would be there. I sat down at an empty table for a moment across from another table where a woman with pink hair was sitting. I wasn't sure if she was there for the meeting and didn't want to embarrass myself asking some pink-haired woman if this was the trans meetup and find out she wasn't even trans and had no idea what the fuck I was talking about, so I just sat by myself after I ordered my food. To go, because I planned to just leave.

Then these two women showed up who were, well, really strange looking people, and they sat down by the pink-haired woman. They were older, somewhat short and had white hair that made them look kind of like Ongo Gablogian from It's Always Sunny In Philadelphia. They were joined by a couple of people who basically looked like dudes in ponytails. They were obviously trans women, but they looked like dudes. Aftershaves and deep voices and everything, except their hair was pink or blue. Like that was literally the only thing about most of them that was "feminine".

I was feeling pretty weird at this point, so I ducked out after my sandwich was ready. Didn't even make eye contact with them. Obviously I didn't belong there, they didn't know me, I didn't know them, they were friends with each other, I didn't even want to break into a new friend group at this point in my life let alone with these people who gave me such deeply discomforting vibes. Aside from the thought "I want to be a woman" which occasionally pops into my head, I honestly feel like I have nothing in common with these people. Nothing.

>>38516147
(2)
I don't hate trans people. I mean, I'm sure I have unconscious bias or internalized transphobia or whatever, but I'm not trying to disparage them. I don't want to hate them. If I do in any way, I despise the part of me that does. But frankly, when I look at them, I envy nothing about them because they have none of the characteristics of women I desire. I would never openly call them strange or ugly or whatever because I don't want them to feel bad about themselves. It feels so stupid and wrong and degrading to say this, but I am viscerally repulsed by (most of) them and it drives me fucking crazy.

So I can never be a woman because I cannot accept that that is "it". I will never be in the female proportion distribution. I will never be beautiful or even average for a woman, I will never think like a woman, I will never act like a woman or have womanly hobbies, I would be repulsively ugly and strange and too masculine as a woman and thousands of dollars of surgery and voice training and laser hair removal cannot fix that.

And I don't want people to call me what I am not, or accept me for what I am not, which is beautiful. Because I am not beautiful, and I am fine with that. And I don't want people to tell me "it's not just a fetish" or "it's not just social contagion", because I'm grasping at straws to think of what motivates me beyond that and I'm not going to throw away my social life for such stupid reasons and put a target on my back for all the bigots who hate people like me. Gender is not a "disease" for me and I don't need medicine. But I'll always live with the discomfort of never being what I want to be, and that will follow me for the rest of my life.

This is why I rep.

>>38516147
*I mean five o'clock shadow, not aftershave. Fucking dumbass I am.

My dysphoria is too mild for this gen.

>>38516213
Im here more for the shock of my realisation but there’s no real reason to be here unless you want to vent yeah

>>38516158
I try not to let it color my judgement of them but yeah their looks, voice and just mannerisms and movement are a big factor in me not doing it. I don’t want my body to descend into the uncanny valley.

>>38516147
I had a fixation on trans support groups for a while and was too scared to go, because of the hons. Your experience sounds really depressing, especially since those hons are probably the majority of trannies sadly.

>>38516414
It's weird because I wouldn't look like them if I transitioned today because I'm not old and I'm not out of shape, but I would end up looking like them as I aged.

life is just a big meme, i cant stop feeling this way now. go outside and look at the people, just muddling through their life. what do they really care about? i dont care about gender anymore, its all fucking stupid and i hate it, i dont know why im a man or why its important either way. life is just rolling dice, i hope the best for everyone while simultaneously knowing the entropy is inescapable, its written on the face of every older person i see.

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best tf art to repress

I regret not transitioning at 15 and I don't. I might have actually felt like me if I did but I know if I did I'd be a massive disappointment to my family and they wouldn't like me anymore. what's the point in trying to make yourself happy if the people who raised you and cared for you all your life won't like you anymore afterwards. It might be easy for some of you to cut contact with family but I'd literally kill myself if my parents didn't love me anymore, the thought of that hurts more than the dysphoria itself

12 years later and almost nothing has changed

>>38516147
>>38516158
brutal repfuel

>>38514293
Become the man you were born to be.

>>38516479
>but I would end up looking like them as I aged
To be fair that isn't how it works. Someone who passes won't magically masculinize later in life if they're taking hormones, just like hon's won't magically un-masculinize. Not saying you don't have good reasons to repress (my body is already way too masculine/disgusting despite being considered relatively young) but I've seen enough examples of older passoids to know that isn't one of them.

the AGP is driving me insane. like there's a female persona trying to take over

AHHHHHHHH

>>38506307
I didn't realize that not all men hate being men until I was like 26

>>38519773
i will never understand how people like being men, this is the worst thing possible, everyone must lie

just saw my face in the mirror, horrible beard shadow that never goes away, i look tired. my mental image of myself is more feminine than the reality, it always surprises me, but i dont even feel pain at the realization anymore, its just like looking at a stranger

would you date a flamer?

the man who is alone cannot be forsaken

>>38520827
no

is it bad that all my memories are in the 3rd person

fuck i wanna dieeeeeeeeeeeee

>>38516158
>>38516147
this could be normal in a few decades like freakazoids of last century are normal today

>>38521269
cope, hons will never be accepted bc next gen trannies will transition young and look cis

>>38516147
eventually the dysphoria will get so bad that you either will end up like them and then maybe rope or simply rope

what about the fact i always feel like a creep around women that can't be compatible with the idea of trutrans

the thing is where is my consolation prize

life doesn t give consolation prizes lmao
if you are fucked you are fucked

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>>38521304
this is your prize

>>38521316
>caring about the spectacle of democracy
i'm not even american

>>38521316
damn the red jews won instead of the blue jews.

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I used to play Newgrounds flash dress up games when I was like 12 years old. I'm only now starting to realise it was over from the start.

>>38521360
It was his blood pressure medication. Probably can get a note from his doctor

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>>38521314

>>38521316
I love Trump the butcher thoughever

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Japs are next level

>>38510602
Is it bad that this turned me on?

The cure for Dysphoria will arrive one day.

>>38522113
as long as people push transition as the cure there will be no serious attempt to make some pills just like for depression but just for dysphoria

just think abt life expectancy and how much more we have to live

>>38522323
>how much more we have to live
blackpilling stuff

>>38521655
i don't understand
if i lay face down my makeup will be ruined and face up my wig will slide off

Thinking of getting VR so I can use the anime girl models because I want to pretend to be an anime girl.

currently remembering that one time i was shown a candid picture of myself in a group and i was by far the tallest and most masculine person there

>>38516147
>>38516158
Honestly seeing what trannies are like is the best reason to not troon out
I wish I had been born a woman and all the usual stuff, but seeing the twitter groomer and speedrunner type troons makes my skin crawl, and I would hate to be even slightly associated with those people

>>38525051
shame repping just leads to misery

>>38525295
Being trans is misery by itself.

they should invent a repression method for tall people that doesn't make you want to cut your legs off

>>38525568
it's all misery lol

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yeah no I think I'm having a general identity crisis. I've been repressing and cutting out parts of my personality for my whole life but it's been getting worse and worse. I don't know how to stop doing it but I really want to.

the loneliness is literally eating me alive, it's fucking horrible holy shit
i know i can't burden anyone with having to talk to someone like me but its so hard

>>38525051
same
how about gross 4channer "troons" far too old also freakish and sick?
asking for myself
lol
>>38527073
not a good thing ngl :/
try to find yourself and accept it with warts and all?
you don't have to like it, but it's still there... so try to make peace? :/
>>38527949
loneliness is a killer ngl
i hope you find someone to talk to frend

>>38528015
i have one person i talk to online who i like a lot but they're often busy
even then im so boring and stupid and i end up saying something that probably annoyed or hurt them i don't know why they even bother

>>38525295
The misery stops after you take refuge in the Buddhadharma. The body is inherently transient, unsatisfactory and empty, whether you successfully transition or not.

>>38528015
repression has been my main instrument for maintaining self control, gender whatever is just one of many things. I want to evolve past this, to actualise who I really am. Not shut out parts of me that would be disappointed by what I am doing. It feels like I could be someone else entirely if I just let go of all this inhibition.

why cant i fucking hurry up and die already, fuck you

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>>38528400
>want to evolve past this, to actualise who I really am. Not shut out parts of me that would be disappointed by what I am doing. It feels like I could be someone else entirely if I just let go of all this inhibition.
sadly relatable. I feel like I never hit the normal teen -> adulthood coming of age moments where you actually become a person, regardless of GD.

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This is a sign for those hopeless: WE WILL WIN! TOTAL REPPER VICTORY!

>>38529713
What could I possibly win? More misery?

>>38529752
Shut up, you beautiful retard

>>38529813
I never got to be beautiful and never will

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>>38522480
It me.

it's so weird, I felt awful for a few months there but the past week I haven't felt dysphoric at all. changed nothing for the better, got snowed in so screentime is up, still smoking too much weed. it almost makes me more worried about my general mental it seems this random but can't really go to a therapist and complain about feeling fine about myself lol. bipolar runs in the family, wonder if that's part of what's going on
anyway current mood https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=akepwsp9oCc

>>38508112
So gooners are supposed to just edge and edge until the day they die?

MiSide is a perfect game for reppers tbqh, made me feel good about being male for a few hours

Degrees of Lewdness is the perfect game for reppers, made me feel really horny for a few hundred hours.