Last thread died early edition>QOTT: What's your favorite cancelled TV show?Last thread: >>42271435
Idk if it counts as canceled, but I liked Deadman Wonderland a lot when it was airing on Toonami. One of the first animes i was into.
last thread died nobody hereno reppers left? did everyone else take their pills?
>>42285773take your HRT, retards
>>42285773freaks and geeks
>>42285773>be me>born male>don't really feel like a man>fail to act masculine>get ostracized for failing to act like a man>wish I was born a woman>wonder if I could become a woman>remember I'm tall with broad shoulders, a massive forehead and non-feminine facial features>realize none of my friends or family would accept me transitioning>forced to stay a shitty failed male>only hope is that g/acc is right and I can someday modify my body to become a biological woman I fucking hate repping, but I know the alternative would be worse. Anyways, my favorite cancelled show is The Shivering Truth (Idk if it was formally cancelled, but I doubt it's getting a third season)
be happy as an effeminate gay man, don't worry about hormones or female social identity
>>42288496but i want to have a vagina :(
>>42288489how old are you and are you on hrt?
>>42288559because penis is seen as a rape organ, especially if you are attracted to men since most of them cannot reciprocate intimate feelings without being shunned by potent femalekind
I'm cooked bros, I increasingly daydream about just giving in and being an ugly hon.
>>42288496What if I'm already an effeminate man, have been one for years, and that's really not doing it for me?
>>42288625maybe you aren't allowing yourself to be assertively effeminate and dominant?
>>42288569I'm 24 and no, I've never even tried HRT
>>42288625Why do you people think gincel has any real reply for you?
>>42288655if you hate repping that much you might as well try hrt
>>42288640What does that even mean?>>42288658I suppose I don't desu. But I'm always curious to know how that argument is defended because it's so missing the point.It's like if someone says "I want chocolate cake for dessert," and someone else responds, "Why not have a hot dog instead?" I can almost see how you came to that response since they're both food, but at the same time, how did you come to that response?
>>42288709It's an easy matter to understand when you realize the person believes all chocolate cakes are hotdogs that have been tricked into becoming cakes, and operates under the fundamental belief that chocolate cake is evil.
>>42288760I guess you have to operate under a fundamental belief to understand someone else operating under a fundamental belief.I guess I'm also used to people who hate cakes hating hot dogs as well.
all i think about is suicide
>>42288587It's hard to know if it all stems from men or women
>>42285773>QOTT: What's your favorite cancelled TV show?Tiny Horse Show G4.
just took my second shot
>>42290694How much does it hurt? I'm a total wimp with pain.
>>42290882minor pinch. No pain.
>>42290663Same :(There will never be another show with those same first season vibes (or even 1-3)
the biggest lie most people believe is that everyone has an innate and fixed identity. When really you are just a bundle of drives, desires and fears. You just have the ability to intellectualize your innate animal schizophrenia in order to control it and numb yourself. So people call themselves men and women or define themselves by what they do or think or their sexuality or whatever. When really all of this is in flux and none of it means anything. All of you could become masculine normal men tommorow, you just dont want to because you are being held hostage by a purely irrational desire, and thats ok, because so is every "normal" person as well.
>>42290663>>42291545We will go together as stallions
>>42291552>stallionsIf I end up a pegasi I will jump off a cloudMake me a mare, even if that means I have to be raped by a manticore every night
>>42285773mind hunters
>>42288489>get ostracized for failing to act like a manHate this shit so much. Like there's an expectation of me socially to be a "man" and everything that comes with it. I could tolerate the body issues (well... not really... but yea) but the constant socialization is fucking awful and I'd rather not speak to people at all.
>>42291680Was my pick too.
>>42285773Clone high, hilarious show, wish they made a season 2
>>42291948The problem is that no matter what I am, I'm always expected to push that expectation onto my partner as well. That's the biggest thing that depresses me, it's just this omnipresent thing probably even in lesbian relationships
Saw the most passing passoid I've ever seen tonight walking down the street. The only way I could tell was his troon flag handbag. Day fucking ruined. Im so goddamned manly im like hulk fucking hogan
>>42288489>my hope is that g/acc is righthow is it possible for anyone to rep well into their 20's and 30's without losing grasp of reality and revolting against the oedipal neuroses that bind them? Humanity has failed me. All I desire is to dissolve and plug myself into the organless fllow of capital. accelerationism meanwhile is hardly a theorem to be proven or disproven. it is shown, and it is spoken of. the tendency is for it to become increasingly more visible.
no mom im not succumbing to my transvestic sissy fetish I’m deterritorializing my self into the flows of capital, shedding the organism through intensities to become a Body without Organs for the desiring-machines.
I hate that you can't talk about this with anyone aside from on this stupid fucking website.
>>42294803>how is it possible for anyone to rep well into their 20s and 30sThe ability to gradually release parts of yourself that mattered to you, either through unhappiness, disillusionment or deliberate self-loathing. Also a staggering amount of alcohol.The goal is that there's so little of yourself left you no longer feel like a person, so there's really no reason to treat yourself well or hope for anything.
>>42294933this is whats killling me i wish i had just one person i could confide in
5th day of bica.First day I woke up calm.Maybe it's a coincidence. But haven't woken up like this in many years.
I'm not exactly a repper, I'm something more fucked up. I started HRT over 15 years ago when I was in school, eventually I came out to my parents and they went mental. They really did a number on me psychologically and I still haven't been able to work up the courage to socially transition. I had FFS last year and I feel much better about my chances now, but it's still so scary because I'm 6'3 and the psychological damage my parents have inflicted still haunts me. Anyway here's hoping 2026 will give me the courage to stop being a pussy
>>42295040Let the girl out, nona. She deserves a shot too.
>>42295053I hope this is finally my year. I'm too old for this shit
>>42295088No such thing as too old. Besides, you're literally elder trans by now.I didn't expect to ever have to girlmode. But... now I have to even if I'm not sure I'm ready.Monday I have the court hearing for the name and gender ID change.t. >>42218637
>>42295040Do you guys have no ability to look into your future about how you might feel one day? When you’re in your early 30s your man hormones really kick in as your body’s estrogen supply starts to dry up and the majority of men grow out of their tranny phase. All that adolescent self doubt dries up with it. You eventually all become grown men mentally. You might as well embrace it and look forward to a future that entails that. The rare gay man that has a feminine brain wired from birth is a fairly rare defect. Everyone else matures into men no matter how much prostate medication you throw at it, you will just fuck up the health of your sperm for life. Did your 60 year old boomer dad suddenly become a woman when he started taking prostate medication? No And neither will you
Being a tranny is not a strong enough identity to overwrite your own identity inside the man is still what’s at the surface and the thing your chasing is just a passing delusion
>>42295125>and the majority of men grow out of their tranny phaseI totally believed that.Was very sure I grew out of it by age 21. No problems till age 30 or so. Then things got bad. And worse every single year ever since.Now at 39 I got into HRT.I don't think you understand how agp works.This shit is consuming 50 to 70% of my brain bandwidth every waking hour.If nuking my sperm and risking minor liver damage is the price to not have this problem anymore, then so be it.t. >>42294996
>>42295143>>42295125This man is the only man to brave enough to drop truthnukes in the general.
>>42295160I do suppose sometimes temporary mental health relief goals can take over long term planning and maybe that’s the best that can be hoped for. I wish you the best life you can possibly live. Depression and mental health can affect you for life and practically grow into your bones. And they are indeed seriously important issues that I think people around you often don’t take seriously enough because they are not as concerned or connected to you as they should be. At the end of the day we are all chasing the oxytocin we need to simply survive in this harsh world. I would love for you to find healthier ways to get your oxytocin but I want you to know that your life is enough to the friends and family around you no matter what you persuade yourself to do.
>>42295219What's this reddit slop?>At the end of the day we are all chasing the oxytocinYou think I'm taking estrogen and bica chasing oxytocin? You're even more insane than I am.
>>42295282Oxytocin***I am saying the relationships in your life are far more important because they feed you with what the human soul needs to survive. Are you so cold and self hedonistic that you can’t see that?
>>42295297Go away.Finally I wake up calm and jolly after many many years. Not in the mood to reply to your reddit slop.
>>42295040the most regrettable and depressing thing to me is people who let their parents ruin their lives with their neurosis.no you dont have to live to please your parents, fuck them.it makes me so angry and sad thinking of people who do this to themselves, and i know its a very common thing.
>>42295332>no you dont have to live to please your parents, fuck them.oh gosh i wish i realized this sooner
>>42295301you’re a borderline personality disorder with massively disrupted relationships and a severe lack of oxytocin You feel entitled to your opinion that everyone is just as cold and Machiavellian as you Get well soon anon I hope you find a way to love againAlso let this be a warning to well meaning gays with functioning emotions, be careful about diving into the gay community and finding yourself surrounded by broken people. You should strive for healthy relationships and boundaries from these sociopath types and maybe that means staying away from mass groups of gay people because it seems to run in the gayborhood
>>42295332>>42295338Don’t look back on your parents in anger Do go forward and make good relationship choices though
crying in bed is in for 2026
>no you dont have to live to please your parentsYes I do. I don't need to torture my poor father for no reason by becoming a freak who larps a woman.
>>42294933I hate that too. I feel like this place being the only outlet is incredibly unhealthy, but my gf says she's open minded but clearly is weirded out by it, my friends are all different levels of ignorant or even transphobic, and the only trannies I know are too distant and wouldn't understand the repper mindset anyway.
>mucho textoI've been looking at my high school pictures and crying all night. I hated myself back then but I was so much closer than I am now. There's this one picture from junior year, when I still had long hair. I look at it and I really do look like a woman. I thought about hrt back then, but a girl asked me out and I thought maybe I could live a normal life. A few months into dating, she looked through my phone and found an instagram account where I posted trans memes. I told her that it was just something I had thought about, but that I was over it. It took a while for her to talk to me again, but she did and we dated for a few years. She commented a lot on the way I acted, saying that I acted too feminine or that I wasn't as manly or dominant as her exes. I shaved my head and started lifting. I ended up wrestling heavyweight my senior year.She dumped me last August and I keep thinking that I should've let her leave back then. I'm just a fat loser moid now, and mexican. I'm taller than both of my parents and my sister and I have a massive skull and I think it's too late for me.I skipped details and this is already long but I felt like I had to say this somewhere. Sorry for wall of text.Been watching Seinfeld for the first time, and I'm on the 5th season rn. They probably could've milked out a few more seasons.
>>42294951Yeah this works, but you'll eventually start crying out of nowhere when the thought comes, unbidden,that you miss who you used to be. That you feel empty and don't like the shell you've become, that you never got to be who you wanted. It's in those moments that the urge to grasp whatever shards and shreds of being are left in you and stitch them back together become strongest, and you start to make plans to troon.
Is taking hrt to avoid twinkdeath retarded? I know I could take fin + min to help my hairline, and I could use topical estrogen and tretinoin to get some skin upgrades, but tbqh hrt is pretty aggressive for head hair regrowth, and has chance of making me prettier honestly I'd be fine hiding booba with binding of compression top just to get these benefits.
a lot of trannies don't really even grow anything that looks more than gyno. I know someone who's been on hrt for a decade and their booba just looks like gyno.
>>42298373Well I've already got gyno so maybe I'll luck out and it'll stack.
>feel like something is in the left side of my face when it twitches and I need to dig it outchat am i cooked
>>42285773original mythbustersbut they kinda just ran out of shit to test so i don't know if it counts as cancelled.
tfw iwn be a transbian freak with a twinkhon gf and tattoos wearing lingerie and dying my hair blackif i cannot do this life is not worth it, the agp is winning
>>42285773i can't stand the regret of holding back on HRT for so many years, i'm 20 now and im gonna be an acnefreak bonehon even if i do start, my parents know everything about my life and i can't do it without them knowing. fuck my stupid fucking chud life
>>42298840The realization that being trans in front of others is the equivalent of being that crackhead on the bus, clawing at his own skin and freaking everyone else the fuck out.
>>42299050lol i wish i could have realised this at 20at 20 i was already a solid 6 years into active repping, i repped another 5 years lmaoooit doesnt get better, you dont figure out how to deal with it. you have to live with it somehow
>>42295688i started the year crying in bed. Need to generate strength to kms
>>42299118>i repped another 5 years lmaoooDid you stop repping?
>>42299050get it on now retard fuck your parents. Gonna slam it at 29, but I am femboycoping, so who cares.
>>42299257yeah but its over for me, its like giving chemo to stage 4 cancer.
>>42299050same. i'm 20 and i wish i had trooned at 18. i know i wouldn't pass so i don't want to try and make my dysphoria worse.
>>42299050I'm in my mid-30's and it depends on the day and the hour if I'm feeling like this about my early-30's, late-20's, mid-20's, early-20's, teens, or fantasy land where I had totally supportive parents and lived on the west coast to do it when I was even younger. Suffice to say that the older you get the more years you're going to feel regret over not doing it.
>>42299267I hit it off at 27. Now at 32 I'm like thank god i stopped being an idiot.Sure, I'll never be a woman, but living and presenting very feminine and on hrt for the last 5 years has cured a lot of brainworms.>femboy
>>42295125Cool. I'm in my late 30s now. I still feel this way. So I have a couple more years to grow out of the phase, right? How many more decades do you recommend I wait anon?>>42298273You forgot waking up and feeling like you don't want to move because you have to go be a person who is so divorced from who you really are. What really sucks is if other people see you struggling, they try to help you be a better version of that person, who you feel no attachment to. It just cements how alien the "you" other people see is from how you want to be.The only place I disagree with you is that you only make plans to troon at a certain point.I think a true repper is always subconsciously making plans to troon. They only become real when they either become desperate regain who they are inside, like you say, or they become so divorced from who they've become that they don't see the point in saving it any more.At least, those are the moments I came close to trooning/actually took some steps to feminize myself.>>42297272Don't apologize anon. We've all been there. And are there.Seinfeld is pretty good tho. Do you have a favorite minor character?
>>42288640>dominantew. almost all feminine men will be submissive not dominantthe idea of being dominant makes me want to cry
>>42299935>I'm in my late 30s now. I still feel this way. So I have a couple more years to grow out of the phase, right? How many more decades do you recommend I wait anon?Sounds like me.Except I started this month.We only get one shot at life. Might as well try.
>>42286692it won't work on me
>>42299875>I hit it off at 27.>Sure, I'll never be a woman,This does not make me hopeful as a 27 year old
>>42299935Well the difference is that before your breaking point, your troon plans end in thought terminating conclusions like "This is morally wrong. it's not based, trannies are crazy and I'm not crazy, I won't pass anyway, it's too late, people would hate me, I'll go to hell, it's too expensive, I can't do this while I live with my parents, I'll think about it after college" etc etc.
>>42300445Try out. See how it goes.I get gendered female half of the time when I girlmode at events. And I'm not even trying.If I were shorter I would've gone all in. But this femboycoping has been serving me well fore over 5yrs now.
>>42300471>5 years hrt>get misgendered half the timenona... :(
the problem I think I have is I've repressed so long I don't think I can spend the time waiting for hrt and laser and voice training and everything to workI need to be a girl NOW, not in a year+
>>42300549You may want to read up the chain as well.I'm not trying to be a tgirl. I'm still femboycoping.t. >>42299875
>>42300236I will perhaps be with you in a few months. I've had a jarring couple of years recently, and I'm feeling that attitude.>>42300463Fair enough. I did bother picking up better haircare, skincare and mild voice training, but that's as far as I've let myself go. I suppose when/if I do troon out, I can consider those tiny steps part of the larger lifetime effort.
>>42300846The last 8 and especially the last 3 years have been straight up hell.Today (Jan 10, merely two shots in and some bica) was the first time in over a decade I woke up calm and smiling. It could be a coincidence. But if it's not and I slowly wake up better and better, then goddamn it I will be resentful for not doing this earlier.
