Yes, I am considering spending an extra $7 and ordering the book from a different country because that version has the cover I want.

>>23702352
There's nothing on my mind at the moment. You can go ahead and close the thread, I'll let you know when i think of something. Thanks.

>>23702352
But he himself went a day's journey into the wilderness, and came and sat down under a juniper tree: and he requested for himself that he might die; and said, It is enough; now, O Lord, take away my life; for I am not better than my fathers.

>>23702362
Based and coverpilled

>>23702368
Alright, thanks for the heads up.

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>>23702352
It's Friday night. I'm about to go to the gym and then keep reading Always With Honour.

nothing on my mind
going to massage in a couple hours

>>23702352
I don't know whether my struggles are making me stronger or weaker.

I've got about $60 left on my gift card, do I dare buy some Hunter S. Thompson? So far what's in my cart is:
>Hood Nigga Affirmations.
>Some pants.
>The Stranger.
>Dostoevsky collection.
>Conan the Barbarian complete collection.
>Stoner.
>Blood Meridian.
>Moby Dick.
>Animal Farm.
>The Old Man and the Sea.
>Jaws.
I'm open to suggestions. Thinking about chucking Heart of Darkness in there.

Just ate the worst cracker in the world.
Had two stick of gum and I can still taste it

>Vice President Kamala Harris is expected to call for a ban on corporate price gouging on groceries. Economists say the cause of higher prices is more complicated.
harris's food policy is so bad it even the nyt had to fact check it, yikes

>>23702362
i've done that on at least two occasions

>>23702469
I decided on the cover that I'm not so hot about so that I can save money and get an extra book.

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I saw a werewolf with a Chinese menu in his hand
Walking through the streets of SoHo in the rain
He was looking for the place called Lee Ho Fook's
Gonna get a big dish of beef chow mein

>>23702401
>>Some pants.
this is a book or you're actually ordering pants from amazon? with a $60 gift card?

>>23702466
It couldn't possibly have anything to do with the government pumping in an insane amount of money into the economy. No, it has to do with corporate greed.

I often wish I picked a different career, not only because I scratch my head when I hear decisions being made by leadership because they’re just so obviously retarded, but also because I’ve realized that I’ll never be happy unless I answer to myself. There’s no room for entrepreneurship in my career and that’s a problem.

>>23702483
I'm actually ordering some pants. And it was originally a $500 gift card but I've only got $300 left.

>>23702489
did u check the sample on that conan book? the one i just looked at on amazon had an ugly af font

Recently discovered Harold Lamb. The guy was a historian fluent in Latin and French, with some knowledge of Russian, Turkish, Arabic, and whatever they speak in central Asia. He worked for the OSS in Iran during WW2, and became very good friends with the Shah. He published a large number of stories for pulp magazines, in addition to writing acclaimed biographies of Genghis Khan, Peter the Great, Ivan the Terrible, Alexander the Great, and Timurlane. His two-volume series is wild. I often come across such widely accomplished figures from the early 20th century, and I just wonder if such types exist anymore. Are they all just in tech?

>>23702508
How would I go about that?

>>23702522
click on "read sample" below the book cover? you never used looked at amazon book preview before? btw u can use amazon giftcard to buy clothes from shopbop and i think get prime shipping too since they are owned by amazon

>>23702520
>Are they all just in tech?
Superficially, I guess. That type of man doesnt really exist anymore though.

>>23702526
That's not an option for me. Care to screenshot a small sample for a brother like me?
>btw u can use amazon gift card
It's a Mastercard prepaid card.

Religious women don't need Feminism and here's why: While man is physically above woman, man is still spiritually below God. Therefore, men are checked, religion is the spiritual woman's counter to an abusive man, as a religious man would bring shame to himself before God, not to mention God punishing him of course for abusing women.

This is in direct and oppositional contrast to the role of women in seculary society: Men are physically stronger than women, and with no God, what is the check against him? Nothing. This is why women have turned to the state, to use political power to even the playing field and to castrate man into being "equal" against her, as a way for her to hedge against such a critical biological disadvantage. This is just truth: Animals fear things bigger and stronger than then them, what hope does the average woman have against the average man, especially if he becomes violent? It is a scary position for a woman, hence why Feminism is so tempting.

But it is a fool's errand, for man can go against the state if he chooses to, he can still be violent against women, he can still be a sexual predator and dominate them. Feminist ideals are limited only to the extent a man believes in Feminism (a laughable thing), and of course, at gunpoint by the state (the more serious threat). And yet, man by definition as a material entity is always beholden to higher powers, with rebellion punishable for eternity in this life and the next -- there is no escape from the hands of an angry God.

Thus a religious woman can use God as a shield for her dealings with men, and has no need of Feminism. She may be below man, but man will always be below God. A woman in a burka may look oppressed, but she is in some ways more liberated than a woman in the West: If a Feminist is violated, she can only appeal to Feminists, generally other women and the state. If a religious woman is violated, she has religious men at her side, potentially a religious state, and ultimately God himself as he protects the rightous and punishes the wicked.

It is from this conclusion then, that there is no need for Feminism in heaven, and that it is an entirely material construct for non-religious women to feel safer while on Earth. The devil being prince of the world, it is no wonder why Feminism does not always work out the way it's meant to -- spiritual problems cannot be solved by material solutions.

>>23702520
>>23702528
The problem with a knowledge based economy of value is that it will produce highly adaptable, highly cultured and multivariate individuals while it is being built up; but it's apex and end goal is the automation of all tasks that require knowledge by a total compendium (internet, data mining, AI, etc). So as the knowledge based economy of value gets better at what its doing, it requires less and less of these types of people, in fact it can't even justify their continued existence. The end result of any knowledge based economy of value is a plethora of individuals incapable of wisdom or informational acuity.

We were better off as farmers and herders who read novels occasionally.

>>23702520
Not really. The great men you so admire grew up in a society that provided the right atmosphere and environment for them to emerge. Today we still have free thinkers like maybe Peterson, but we all saw how his career went to dumpsters because libshits hated him too much.
There's still countries like Switzerland where speaking your thoughts in academics is explicitly tolerated and encouraged, but generally in most Western countries that is no longer the case. In the UK, during the riots, people were given year-long prison sentences for expressing 'anti-etablishment' opinions online.
So yeah. Fuck this useless, modern society.

>>23702530
damn dude what country are you in that it amazon doesn't have previews? it's basically just some sans serif font. i'm not a font nerd, but imagine sth like calibri bold.

>>23702488
Richard Wolff is a Jewish Marxist professor, but he is interesting to listen to. He made the comment that capitalism (he really meant liberal free trade + industrialization) made all these promises, and when they weren't fulfilled by the 20s or so, that's how all these utopian movements sprang up; fascism, communism, etc all trying to answer where the promise had failed.
But he said the main thing we realized, and are still realizing; under slavery, we had masters, under feudalism, we had lords, under capitalism, we have employers; we have more abundance, leisure time, access, opportunity than we've ever had...and amidst this, man is realizing that he never wanted all the worlds riches, they don't make him happy if he still has a boss. What man wants is to work without a commander.

I was raised as a Christian, baptized at 8, and lost my faith around age 12 or so. So I stopped going to church and became agnostic. What I didn't realize until much later is that my world view and ethics are still deeply Christian and whenever bad things happen in the world I get super upset, because there's no answer anymore. Every day I wake up and I can't stop noticing the bad stuff. I don't want to live in a cruel world

>>23702520
No, not really. I’ve researched this extensively because I’ve always aspired to be this kind of person: the sort of literate cultured statesman gentry type. The same type of person definitely exists albeit they’re extremely rare. They just don’t have the same resume that these guys because it’s a different game, in a different time, and a different environment and it’s totally different skills being selected for. I mean, look at academia. Look at all the accomplished academics of the best and what passes for an academic today. That same trend has occurred across everything: military, intelligence, politics, business, art, absolutely everything. Over 100 years ago Oswald Spengler eulogized the death of Western culture, but what we’re living through now is the crisis and dying of Western civilization as well. It comes with the total abandonment of all standards as well as a shifting of focus towards…well, less noble types and skill sets.

>>23702540
Just downloaded the PDF for it, I'm OK with the font, I've got no issue with it.

>>23702565
>I don't want to live in a cruel world
Then kill yourself.

>>23702528
They’re not. The people in tech are people who were basically useless outcasts a few decades ago. Look at Bill Gates and Mark Zuckerberg. Titans of industry these are not. We’re living through a Revenge of the Nerds fantasy being played out on an epic scale. In fact, our single biggest ethical and political imperative over the next 50 years is to not let the tech people get a stranglehold on politics like their finance and industry predecessors did. It will spell ruin.

>>23702574
In Bill's case he's from one of the most influential and wealthy families of the American aristocracy lol. These are not nobodies and if there's some kind of stranglehold over our institutions, it's been going on for generations and he's part of that class. Born into that.
It's already been going on as long as industrialization, in feudalism prior to that too.

What’s the best ethical argument against men using porn and subbing to OnlyFans girls and whatnot? I recognize that at mass scale it’s bad for society but it seems to me it’s almost natural for men to do that since it’s like prostitution and even Thomas Aquinas argues for legalizing prostitution. Isn’t using content even more ethical than visiting prostitutes?

>>23702567
In older times, the humanities were prized and taught for their own sake, because it was understood that the humanities make you a more fully developed human.
Today, we don't teach them and only a niche of self starters go for those programs. If we taught it before because we saw the value in making people more fully developed humans, I guess today we value making people more fully developed....you fill in the blank

>>23702591
I think we as a civilization have abandoned our notion of the humanities and what they’re for and actually done that to everything. If you pay close attention to how we treat fields of scholarship, the one goal they all have in common is that they seek to dominate. The humanities are now social sciences and mainly about controlling, even engineering you could say, people, often through political and medicinal mechanisms. This is almost the natural way of seeing things for us now. It has to end though. We really can’t have this any longer.

How do I cope with being an godawful writer? Possibly the worst writer that ever existed?:(

>>23702567
>Over 100 years ago Oswald Spengler eulogized the death of Western culture, but what we’re living through now is the crisis and dying of Western civilization as well.
At this point, "Western civilization" is a meaningless term. It has no standards, no values, no traditions, nothing that guides it except capital flow.

>>23702608
Writing quality varies according to the state of your mind. Try doing it first thing in the morning, when drunk, etc

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Anybody know how to deal with not being interested in anything? I don't care for social relationships or friends and I don't like going out. I don't care about having a career and don't like working. I don't like most forms of media like movies, video games or music. I've tried many hobbies and none of them interest me. I don't really care about things like sports or news.
When I try to look up anything related to this all I get is faggy shit about depression but I don't relate to any of it. I feel fine and am generally emotionally poised. My energy levels are also good and I don't struggle with things related to executive functioning. Because of that I don't think it's a hormonal or neurological issue, I'm not just conceptually not interested in much.

>>23702629
I don't drink, anon. I also tried writing at various times of the day. It's still god awful :(.

>>23702612
It does. It has two sets: the ones it’s abandoned or pushed to the wayside and the ones it currently exalts: those are something like freedom without virtue, anti-racism, “progress” at any cost, being as transgressive as possible, things like this.

>>23702600
I do agree with that, but I also think this is a product of simple nihilism. As in, the academic tradition of any culture is to move that culture forward. Once a culture has no purpose, there's no "forward" to move toward, so the scholars really just sit around masturbating. There's no purpose so it's all hot air.

>>23702632
You’re me when I was younger. Coincidentally, it was through literature and happenstance that I found what I was into. My advice is to keep reading and to just be brave enough to live life: go to school, get a job, try to get into a career, try to meet people, things like that. Sometimes it just takes time and effort.

Had a really strange dream last night. I dreamt that I took a long distance train that took me through Germany. In Germany, I saw a school through the window, ran out of the train, went inside the school, knocked at some school office's (just teachers inside, no children) door, went inside, asked a question in a very polite and confidential manner, and as soon as the teacher inside gave me an answer, I took out a small sized revolver and shot her dead. Then I went outside the office and knocked at the next office (again there was only a teacher and a desk inside the room, no children). I held a short conversation with the teacher, and immediately proceeded with shooting him dead. I repeated this 3 or 4 times until knocking at yet another teacher's office, but this time I decided to let him live. I ran out of the school and took another train.
Days passed, and I started becoming anxious. The news about someone randomly shooting teachers in a German school were everywhere. Finally I was brought to court, with my aunt as my lawyer. She said that I couldn't be convicted for murder because the bullets I used for the revolver were 'S-bullets', wich are usually not deadly.
And there I was, terribly regretting what I had done for the time I was now supposed to spend in jail and because of the people I had shot. I just hoped they were alive at that point.
Then I woke up and augh for Gods sake it was actually just a dream.

>>23702646
I agree and we see that. The main drives in contemporary academia are novelty, money, and power. They don’t sit around masturbating so much as publish research to advance themselves, advance a transgressive ideology, achieve fame, make money, things like this. The CIA had an acronym that described basic human motivations, MICE: Money, Ideology, Compromise, and Ego. So they do things for these, but precisely in a way that is not modulated by virtue and thus virtuous deeds. You know, the American left literally thinks they’re the good guys. It’s not just complete nihilism. They think they’re the good guys of history, literally. We’re being a little redundant here though because nihilism is itself the absence of values and thus virtue. So whether it’s nihilism or a confused set of values, the result is the same either way.

Managed to get the remaining amount of money on my gift card down to less than a dollar, feels good. I cringe whenever gift cards have money left on them so little that it can never be spent but this is the best case scenario.

>>23702479
>>23702352
Are we being raided by /hor/gen off /tv/?

>>23702810
That song isn't even in the movie you're thinking of.

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I broke my weeks long semen retention streak and jacked off 3 times in a row. When I entered "work" I failed to notice that I still had cum stains on my shirt to the amusement of a coworkercattle who promptly took a picture of the scene. But in all honesty I don't even give the tiniest fuck about that. This is the degree of detachement I harbour towards the people around me.

>>23702352
Trying to decide between getting Lon Fuller - Morality Of Law and Karl Llewellyn - The Common Law Tradition

Or

Paul Kennedy - Rise And Fall Of The Great Powers and David S. Landes - The Wealth And Poverty Of Nations


Decisions, decisions….

>>23702632
Do you find this relatable?
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schizoid_personality_disorder

>>23702841
Was it a woman who did that?

>>23702848
no

>>23702841
For whatever reason, I cannot stop imagining the low buzz of old electronics serving as ambience to your picrel.

>>23702841
> engages in cooming and porn
> still feels superior enough to call other people 'coworkercattle'

>>23702841
People know people whack off and cum dude. It’s not that big of a deal.

>>23702850
Probably some brown noser then

>>23702893
If someone came in to work with cum stains it absolutely is a big deal.

>>23702893
How did they even know it's cum? Just say it's salad dressing or something.

>>23702893
I have a coworker who talks about how he jacked it off this morning almost every single day and he asks other people too wether they 'jacked it off'. I find this type of behaviour annoying and I think he's a closet homosexual.

>>23702919
Maybe he should start asking the women instead

>>23702818
>You wouldn't know them, they go to a different school
Oh good it's only /film/ raiding us

>>23702934
He once told me he sometimes refuses to have sex with his wife and jacks himself off instead because it feels better.

>>23702919
Sounds like autism tbph

>>23702952
Sounds like a food way to find out if someone's potentially gay.

>>23702951
He's right.

I think I'm getting/have got minor carpal tunnel.

>>23702845
Yeah, that describes me pretty well I'd say.

I feel like I'm dying, I don't know if this is really just psychological.

>>23702973
Put your hands back to back like you're trying to do prayer hands but back to back and upside down. That'll let you know

I don't think I'll ever get one but I'm fascinated by really big aquariums.
Used to be my favourite part of the zoo. I want to go see a really huge one one day.

I'm so lonely and I have no idea how to build relationships with other people

>>23702352
Will it be ok?

>>23703021
Don't. It's too dangerous.

>>23703021
Ask them about their life, share your interests. Don't be too weird.

>>23703021
Do you have any hobbies or interests? That’s the key these days.

>>23702916
It’s not, man. Most people get a thrill out of being open about sex.

>>23703089
No, if you have jizz on your shirt I'm going to ask you to fuck off back to your house and put on a new shirt.

Maybe I should move to New York or California or and try my luck dating there.

>>23703021
>>23703043
>>23703076
Don't listen to these anons. Being desperate to get friends will only rend you false friends. Just stick to your relatives and the occasional talk with a good co-worker. Maybe you can become friends with someone later but only do so if you can really trust them.

>>23702520
>in addition to writing acclaimed biographies of Genghis Khan, Peter the Great, Ivan the Terrible, Alexander the Great, and Timurlane
in addition to influencing writers such as Robert E. Howard,*
>His two-volume series is wild
On the First Crusade and the subsequent Outremer*

>>23702538
>>23702567
Good posts. Thanks. What do you suppose we, who aspire to become precisely this sort of man deemed superfluous by such a system, are to do? If the existence of cultured types isn't facilitated where does that energy go? Where is the modern equivalent of a Lamb or a Barzun, to name another such American, today? Personally, my academics/career and even personal relationships have suffered immensely over the years because of my unusual and unmonetisable priorities. Just the whole philosophy (purpose, environment, pace, etc.) around learning seems different for us than it was for these people.

>>23703031
I still have hope.

>>23703105
Nobody advocated for forming shallow disloyal friendships.

>>23703108
I think we have to aspire to reconnecting success and virtue and to a healthy civilization once again guided by virtue. It’s not enough to be successful or to be virtuous. We have to be both.

>>23702973
My right arm has been feeling a bit weird lately

>>23703108
> Where is the modern equivalent of a Lamb or a Barzun, to name another such American, today
The culture that produced those men is gone. For there to be even a handful of great academics, there has to be thousands of average academics in a society. That's just how it works.
It fills me with joy to see what remained in relics of my ancestors from the end of the 19th Century, nice black and white photograpies, book sized calendars, pocket bible sized memory notebooks shared among close familiars where everyone would write some short sort of poem inside, and a middle school physics book written by my paternal great-great-great-great-grandfather in the mid-19th Century. Now this might not be a really great work of science, and my family is really average Middle European, but that's the fucking point. At that time, any ambitioned European man with an average bag of studies could become a scientist.
Nowadays, a large minority or a small majority has been to college, however, most just go do menial work at some profit-oriented corporation. There might still be scientific achievements, but there's no culture around it. In what branch have great men most recently emerged in the West? In the IT branch. Why was that possible? Because there was a culture around being an IT guy.
And even if you decide to stay in academics, you just have to spout the bullshit that you are told to to even stay employed. Where original thinkers are banished from the academic community, no great men can come out.
But yeah, for the people who despite all that still have the ambition to become a great academic, it's a bit like playing chess against yourself because there's no one willing to compete against you. Easily comprehendable how it's nonsensical to believe that any great men will come out during this Century in academics.
And a society is the more competitive the more homogenous it is. To proof this I only have to point out that in many parts of Eastern Europe, countries wich are 99% homogenous on average, especially in the smaller towns, have the employees of any larger workplace play soccer games against each other.
Once a society becomes too mixed and diverse, the competitive spirit dies out. That's the case for the whole West, save some isolated redneck ponds where no real academic culture can exist anyways.

>>23703108
Don't ask me. I don't aspire to be one of those kinds of men, having now been able to recognize them as tools used by an impersonal system toward impersonal ends, unwittingly. I don't mock nor deridretrospective, nor seek to undermine their achievements in life, but through the benefit of retrospection I can see what happened to them. Therefore, I seek other things.

>>23703164
Deride them*

>>23703108
>What do you suppose we, who aspire to become precisely this sort of man deemed superfluous by such a system, are to do?
Do you have ideals? The cryptobro technician is the archetype for all 110+ IQ men now because materialism is the paradigm. "Man of culture" does not make sense if all culture is totally rootless and subjective, based on fake ideals and so on.

>>23702980
You can poke around the schizoid subreddit, they have a good wiki. Be wary of the posts, there are often confused people who have depression or avoidant PD.

If you do turn out to be schizoid your default life will be a bare minimum job + grocery shopping. You'll have to find reasons to do things other than "wanting to" or "feeling pleasure" because those reasons will never work for you. Maybe obligation or helping others could work.

>>23703164
To a degree, anything we do can be used for any end, and only so much of the future is in our control, so this seems a bit paranoid. What things do you seek now?

>>23703174
My ideals are thinkers, poets, artists, creators. People who were able to glean deep insight into the nature of the world and skillfully express their perspectives. I did mention Lamb and Barzun, although my ultimate ideal would be Goethe. But I recognise that the latter especially was the fruit of a long and extremely complex historical development, and that's not even to touch upon the question of talent. So I don't really know.

>>23703156
What about autodidacts?

I know that everyone is lonely like me.

Three new-to-me jazz records and food in the fridge, this is going to be a good weekend

It’s weird how OnlyFans has effectively crowded out rich guys buying whores. Rich guys used to be able to buy nights with pornstars and models and stuff but now those girls can just make way more money by selling their OnlyFans to lots of men.

>>23703124
you can't just form loyal friendships lol. they happen to you if you're lucky. you're like under 23 aren't you?

>>23703208
Well as I said wanting to become a great academic nowadays is a bit like wanting to become a great chess player, and only having you to play against yourself. It's the same principle. During the time great chess players achieved virility, every single village had a chess club and random people playing chess against each other in bars.
Try even becoming an average academic. The demands are huge, the years you have to spend studying is unaffordable to most, the actual academics there are pedants high off their own farts with no original thought whatsoever.
It's almost hypocritical. The bar for going to college has never been lower, the amount of people graduating college has never been higher, but it's not about academics anymore, the liberal arts graduates go to corporation to make personal analysis of all kinds of people to create market products and advertisements perfectly targeted towards them, the STEM graduates do science to increase efficiency and make calculations on how to best increase the profits of corporations.
This is not what public education originally intended, it was supposed to liberate people from being slaves to capital, and yet it has done the exact opposite.

>>23703229
*virality

>>23703156
IT guys are kind of a joke nowadays. The only new zeitgeist left is social media and the attention economy. Politicians, entrepreneurs, and artists will always occupy a position of reverance all three have been seriously degraded. It’s weird to me to think about how late in Rome that Virgil found success. And I think “where is our Virgil?” And I think how silly that is because this is not a civilization of a Virgil. What is it then? Nothing really. We’re just entertaining ourselves to death. The silver lining is that this has to end in catastrophe and the possibility for brief renewal is possible at that point but as for whether we’ll see that in our lifetimes, probably not. It’s hard to figure out what we should do with our lives in the meantime then. Just wait? I find that intolerable.

I feel BIG!
I am below the lowest Teton.
I think beyond the atmosphere.
I cannot run / I cannot hide.

Women are fucking deranged

>>23703233
>this is not a civilization of a Virgil.
Virgil had a lot of /pol/ cope that would be very apt to compare our civilization and its discourse on itself with.

>>23703228
I know you guys have all these stupid fantasies where your friends would and should want to die for you but realistically you're never going to be in a situation that tests your friendship like that. Isn't it enough if they would help you move some heavy shit or take you out for a drink after a break-up?

>>23703241
>they would help you move some heavy shit or take you out for a drink after a break-up
That's asking a lot of mfers these days

>>23703233
>We’re just entertaining ourselves to death
Literally who is entertained?

>>23703241
>Isn't it enough if they would help you move some heavy shit or take you out for a drink after a break-up
I am talking about that retard. Well, perhaps I'm cynical. I wish you luck.

How do I make time to read if I work 50 hours a week? I don't have much free time at work and on Saturdays I just sleep all day.

>>23703247
>>23703256
It saddens me that so many people seemingly can't find something so basic

>>23703228
I’m 31 and I know loyal friendships are hard to come by and take time, which is where I was going with my advice. You didn't even let me get to it.

>>23703250
All the people playing video games, posting memes, scrolling 4channel and Reddit, watching porn, watching House of the Dragon, you get the idea.

>>23703233
> It’s hard to figure out what we should do with our lives in the meantime then.
Me, I wanr to brave the verdict of my ancestors, Western Europeans of Geist, and the verdict of Western Europeans of Geist. Rousseau's Emile, I have read it twice. It is a hand-book advice on how to raise a Faustian man. Step one, move to the countryside, ideally to a farm. Done that. Now I have to get a blue eyed, blonde haired wife and raise children with her on the farm. There is nothing non-Faustian about being a farmer, it has only become unvalued with the rise of capitalism. I am independant, I am self-sufficient, I am strong, I can confer myself the right to be political because I own land, and a farm house with it's large vast spaces truly is the closest to a palace. It is better than a palace. The Aryan locked up in his house there is King. This is how I brave the verdict of my Germanic ancestors, by returning to the simplicity in wich the most haughty ones of them lived. Achilles lived on a farm. David who slaughtered Goliath was a herdsman. Napoleon himself grew up on a farm. Farms breed greatness.

You ever feel like you would never become shit because you were born and raised in some shitty small town?

>>23703348
I think farming is a noble vocation but I just don’t think we’re in the kind of civilizational stage that particular cares about or has need of farmers or farming. We are highly urban and the people who achieve things are urban as well. I think in some sense choosing to become a farmer is not quite but a lot like choosing to just drop out of the civilization entirely.

>>23703372
yes, also third world country

>>23703372
the queers have succesfully coopted art and lived experience into the product of their jewish corporate overlords, the entire planet is a shitty small town now

>>23703292
read from your phone during breaks and coffee time, also during commute if you have it

>>23703381
Late Rome was heavily urbanized. The so fertile land of Italy, it didn't even produce wheat. Who rose to power after the Fall of Rome? The 'barbarian' Germanics. What did they live like? They lived in the countryside. I want my children to have a 'barbarian' side in them. I want them to be fearless in the dark. I want to teach them how to kill a snake, I want kids who know how to go hunting and fishing and how to slaughter a cow. I want them to be satisfied to hard labour and a healthy diet. I want them to be accustomed to getting up at dawn.
If Western civilization continues, some of my children will continue their studies, and, energetic men as they naturally are, raised on a farm by a man who's wisdom and intellect has made them to think and behave like Faustian men who know their value and value their honour, they will brilliate at it.
One of my sons will inherit the farm and generations will pass. He and his children will go through the fall of civilization smoothly, able as they are to survive and provide themselves with everything they need on the farm.
And then, they will shed light on the new civilization to be born. They will teach and enlighten the masses, their heroic deeds will sweep away the giants that will haunt the earth during those dark days in the future, and they will die as heroes.

>>23703400
The barbarians also lived in Rome. The city was filled with them. In fact, within the empire itself they were highly urban. You ever read Oswald Spengler’s book Decline of the West? It might interest you.

I still don’t know what to do with my life. I feel this enormous pressure to to do something, more specifically to make a lot of money quickly, and then do something more important after. How to do that or what that should be, I have no clue. All I can think about is what I want but I want so many different things and none of them feel realistic.

it’s harder to see through your windows in the day.
the reflections distort the light.

it’s easier at night,
when your windows are clear.

i can see you stacked on top of each other
in boxes.
cohabitating
or
seemingly alone...

i’m watching (You).

>>23703432
I have read a book far superior and informative wich is also about the decline of civilizations, the Essay on the Inequality of the Human Races by Count Arthur de Gobineau.
The primitive Germanic did not inhabit cities. That's why after the Roman collapse, most European cities became hideous bourgardes (small village whose houses are more scattered than in town).

>>23703437
How old are you?

>>23703391
>it's the fault of queers and jews that I'm miserable and my life is boring

>>23702352
I sit on a bench in the city during sunny days

I miss slacklining.

>>23703448
38

>>23703452
I used to do that when I was unemployed.
Sit in the park at 10 in the morning reading my ereader. Honestly a great time in my life. Anyone in their 20's should have a period where they just stop working. I never regretted it.

>>23703448
29

strange that i had an image of kissing this girl in front of her house and on the way home she became nervous as she relayed a story about a man her age (which is my age as well but I had to ask because she's dated way older men) whom became obsessed with her after seeing each for a short time. Anyway, I didn't even try.

>>23703460
It's over
>>23703467
Get your shit together now.
I stopped daydreaming at 25 and got my shit in order by 29. Do it now.

if the democrats ran a literal stalinist i have no doubt their followers would immediately fall in line. the economic illiteracy and cope in the comments section of that nyt article criticizing harris's food policy is disturbing. these people are ready to go full cultural revolution as soon as the dnc says the word.

Deleted all of my dating apps.
It's all soul sucking uselessshit anyway, epsecially in my small ass town.

>>23703494
ya i legit don't know how normies can use those things

I need some recs bros. I've tried to read big classics, I hated every single one I've tried. I tried philosophy and I hated how it always is so terse because they just don't get to the point.
I just want something fun and interesting. I like horror movies. Maybe there are short horror novels? Recommend me some. Thanks bros.

>>23703578
iq issue

>>23703578
Mask of the Sorcerer

>>23703488
My shit is together. I’m not even sure what you’re talking about. I’m almost certain I’m already more successful, given some common understanding of success, than you are. What I was talking about wasn’t exactly “getting my shit together”. It was something deeper and more detached from those notions of success.

Just listened to Peter Thiel on Joe Rogan. It’s so annoying hearing older people talk about technology and “progress” without even detecting let alone giving a nod to the deep pessimism about technology that is pervasive among the youth. Gen Z is actually not remotely interested in AI for example. That’s a pre-occupation of older millenials and investors their age or older. Ted K style techno-hatred is more common if anything. They’re just so disconnected from the on the ground reality that they can’t even tell anymore where the wind is blowing. I think even Curtis Yarvin has abandoned techno-optimism. Why don’t these guys get it? I guess hanging out with millenial tech investors in Silicon Valley and Austin and doing conferences with “academics” will do that to you.

>>23703584
Maybe if you weren't such a vague faggot someone could reply with something useful for you

>>23703597
I don’t think I was vague at all and I wasn’t seeking advice per se.

The is also why I hate talking to my bosses. When I hear that we’re unveiling some new degree program for “organizational change” or some other fake bullshit even though we all know it’s worthless and won’t even make money, I just cringe. These people literally don’t know how to do anything but get high on their own supply.

>>23703578
Blood on Satan's Claw

>>23702841
sleep tight steely

>>23703581
I know and maybe attention as well. I can't fix that easily

Fuckin' three hour wait at the methadone clinic, goddamn. The people who were just arriving though a bit before I left are probably gonna have to wait four hours.

Dimelo papi, papi
Yo quiero sloppy, sloppy
I'll give it to you if you beat it up like Pacqui, Pacqui

>>23703594
yeah investors are really trying to push ai on everyone except ai is mostly useless. i have yet to see any ai product that is useful. like ok autogenerating clip art is sort of neat. oh, and i got some good obscure movie recs out of brave's ai chatbot, but i've tried using ai for "real work" and the output is usually wrong and needs to be double checked and fixed. not worth the trouble. ai is like crypto: it had potential but in practice just ends up being a waste of energy literally and figuratively.

also, you just made me realize i haven't cared about or watched joe rogan in years. when i lived in my old neighborhood pre-pandemic i would check him out sometimes if he had someone interesting on, now thinking about listening to his dopey shit for hours has zero appeal. when he sold out and went to spotify, i stopped caring, sort like when howard stern went satellite radio only. i forgot he existed in about two weeks.

>>23703594
That's the beauty of death. The old who are stuck in their ways are cleared out for the young and the cycle repeats itself.

>>23703578
Check out S.Craig Zahler stuff, he also made some pretty cool movies

It's 8:15 pm, time to go to bed so I can get up early tomorrow and be productive.
This morning I got up at 5:20 am, nothing to brag about, not tremendous either. Ideally I'd get up at 11pm in the morning so as to get everything done before leaving to work at 7am. So yeah, one cannot get up early enough in the morning.

>>23703496
I mostly just treat it like a game until I actually meet someone in person

Whats the actual depression (non meme) like?

>>23703643
>Ideally I'd get up at 11pm in the morning so as to get everything done before leaving to work at 7am. So yeah, one cannot get up early enough in the morning.

What mass amount of things do you have to do each morning that you need 8 hours?

nobody has problems except me

>>23703692
and whats YOUR problem?

>>23703671
Mostly psycho motor retardation and anhedonia.

>>23703594
I guess that’s why I’m not as pessimistic about tech as the younger generations not only considering that but my autism got in the way of making friends as a child so the computer and my family cat was my only friends I had.

>>23703695
not enough problems

>>23703696
seems like anhedonia would be harder to fix.

>>23703697
gen z may be "pessimistic" about technology but that's clearly not stopping them from using tiktok 8 hours a day

>>23703719
They’re just very aware it’s an addiction

gen z is trying to cancel technology

i'm trying to listen to harris's policy speech and there are these sassy ladies in the background that have to go "uhh hu, thas right!" after every sentence, now after she said we will chart a new way forward the crowd starts chanting "a new way forward, a new way forward!" had to mute to just too damn cringe

>>23703089
I don't want to be those people. I don't condemn sexual thoughts in itself, since that is part of the human condition, but masturbation and promiscous sex clearly signify a lack of self control. And I want to be able to control myself. Still despite knowing all this I succumb to these temptations irregularly and I don't know what triggers it. I live in a shitty loud appartment complex which stresses me out as does the hellscape that is this city. Still I don't want to make everything dependent on these ouside circumstances. It can't be that hard to simply stop doing something which you deem harmful, is it?

>>23703769
that's probably the point, to elide entirely the actual content for emotional triggers

Ah, what life could have been if only I were born a Jew

>>23703391
And yet it seems all the successful and important people are born and raised in major metros…except for JD Vance but I don’t think anyone expects much more than 15 minutes of fame from him and he spent his whole adult life in Ivies and California.

What city do you think has the best women? I’m in Philly and while I like Philly as a city, these girls are terrible. They’re trashy and not even hot.

>>23703774
Yeah, it can be quite hard but we’re on a tangent now. I was just telling that guy that normies consider masturbation normal, especially girls. Girls literally go through life just figuring everywhere is covered in cum all the time. They figure any place with men living in it is saturated in the stuff. I’m not even exaggerating here.

Getting back to real life after years of living without a care for tomorrow isn't easy, who'd have thought.
Maybe if I keep struggling and make enough progress the anxiety will stop being this soul crushing. Maybe I was comfortable "knowing" I was going to suicide "eventually" and by moving on from that life I lost that comfort. Maybe I can find it again in a healthier form.
Maybe.

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things are happening.
the last year has been the lowest point in my life professionally. despite this i cant say im all that sad. im ok financially i guess (not really in terms of liquid) and i still have my friends and gf so thats nice. mainly just gotta work career shit out.
i only drink on weekends now. granted i binge on those days but all things considered its better than everyday. i havent smoked weed in like a month. actually thats a lie i took a hit off a friends j last weekend but i greened out and puked in his toilet. it was a mistake and a one time thing, i was having a bad night. ive genuinely grown quite tired of drinking and smoking and shit. maybe that wont last forever but right now i like going to bed sober. i get it now. i still smoke a bunch of cigarettes though, smoking is fucking sick and i dont want to quit that. i fucking love smoking cigarettes.
uhhh what else. oh yeah ive been cooking a lot and you might be also be pleased to know that ive been reading a lot too after not reading for like 2 years. and by a lot i mean i finished a book and have started a new one. anyways thats all for now i guess. hope you guys are doing well too

https://youtu.be/Aey2Ae4TwQI?si=dyN4xpzBTe6aSZ2W

we could be heroes

>>23704002
>havent smoked weed in like a month. actually thats a lie i took a hit off a friends j last weekend but i greened out and puked in his toilet.

Anyone else completely bored with the internet? There is nothing interesting anymore. Everything has dried out. Even porn doesn't do the trick. I don't remember how I used to spend so much time online. Now it's boring even after 5 minutes. What the hell. I can't even make it more exciting by drinking. I would rather lay in bed and watch the wall. And I ain't even depressed. It's just that the internet has nothing to offer anymore. Including 4chan.

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The whole people thing didnt work out for me
People just aint no good
But the issue is, my character is such that im interested in people and i want their company. I just think about them all the time when im alone
My question is- how do i make the leap and shift the focus on things, ideas and art?
How do i stop worrying about people and trying for them to like me?
How do i just move on and accept my major loneliness?

>>23703910
Successful doesn’t necessarily mean important. Do you think that because Marvel movies made a lot of money they’re also very important works of film that need to be studied and analyzed?

>>23703719
Good point. Criticizing society while participating in it should be illegal.

>>23704037
i'm just saying people whining about stuff doesn't mean anything. "gen z is pessimistic about technology". so what?

>>23704009
just for one day

>>23704078
Uvijek sam želio / ive always wanted
Biti heroj / to be a hero
Baš kao james bond / just like james bond
Prokleti tajni agent / that damned secret agent
Želio sam biti / i wanted to be
Heroj ulice / hero of my street
Bar jedan dan / just for one day
Djevojko bar jedan sat / girl just for one hour

>>23704099
Prisiljen da razmisljam / being forced to think
Ja svatio sam sve / i realized it all
Nisam rođen da budem heroj / i wasnt born to be a hero
O ne ne ne / oh no no no
*boomer guitar solo*

>>23704036
It’s the same whether you’re talking about success or importance.

>>23703769
She is literally the candidate of white women acting like sassy black ladies. This is politics now. Welcome to 2024. And they wonder why people are dropping out or killing themselves…

Are you ever embarrassed of your family? I’ve always worried about bringing girls home to mom.

>>23704125
It’s really not, though

>>23704064
I wasn’t being sarcastic

>>23704126
We just need to get rid of women and then engineer ourselves to reproduce by mitosis.

>>23704151
Name some people for whom it’s not true then

>>23703912
Miami or LA
Buenos Aires and Santiago for SA

>>23704177
Did you not see my post previous to the you’re responding to?

heh heh... tupac

>>23704198
What are you smoking? There are hot girls in LA but most LA girls are overweight Latinas, and Miami is Cuban and black girls with big asses and trashy people. I don’t know anything about Buenos Aires or Santiago though.

I really should find a new job but I don’t want to give up my remote work situation.

Fuck, man. I feel like a failure…

/b/ is fucking boring now

>>23704287
now? the last time i had fun on /b/ those xzibit yo dawg i heard u likes memes so i put a meme in your meme memes were still a thing.

>>23703221
>It’s weird how OnlyFans has effectively crowded out rich guys buying whores.
This sounds dumb but I miss the online amateur porn circa 2012 and those chicks who did it just out of a kink instead of a business decision

>>23704030
I miss when you could actually explore the internet. Like there would be a static webpage with dozens of links and it was a rabbit hole you could just keep going down. And it somehow never got boring. Modern web is basically a fucking ocean with the depth of the puddle. It makes even the coolest ideas and things seem banal.

>>23704034
If you are that lonely it's better to figure out why you keep failing with people.
Socializing in general is not that complicated. People just like you when you're more like them. Have the same world view, same interests, same hobbies, same humor etc and you're doing good

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Deleting my steam after 12 years. You don't own steam games, the "people" on this platform suck, multiplayer games are a timesink, singleplayer games you can easily pirate. Good riddance

>>23704404
you don't own games, period.
they own you if you let them

>>23704406
Sure. Something was definitely lost in the transition from console games to PC games. I miss playing Mario on my nintendo 64 and just having peaceful fun for 2 hours, then shutting it off & going outside.

>>23704408
Connecting video games to the internet meant connecting them to the realm of satan

>>23704359
But i dont wanna act fake just to have friends
It never works, i always say whats on my mind since i have integrity
What youre proposing is to be an npc

>>23704408
That happened with handheld gaming too. Nowadays you have the same games you'd play on pc/home consoles but on a small screen in your hands.
There used to be actual games made specifically for handhelds, the consoles were smaller so that kids could do play on the go with each other. Now you have the steam deck that's bigger than a backpack and its made to let you play the same games you'd play on pc on your bed to minimize the time you spend with your own thoughts.

The best way to succeed and get what you want is to get lucky. Put all your points in luck. Cross your fingers once in a while at the very least.

My mother racked up so much debt and ruined her credit so badly that she has to live in a shitty working class rowhome even though she makes $160k per year.

>>23704444
There is no way you're so unique that you can't find someone who is at least a bit like you out there

>>23704486
I wholehartedly agree. That wasnt my point
I thought of a guy i used to play guitar with like 9 years ago. I remember he was a good natured guy. Ill send him a message tommorow if he wants to hang out again

>>23704445
That was definitely the weird part about the Switch. Like am I actually gonna lug around this BIG fucking screen and play zelda botw in a cafeteria? Handheld games used to be short & sweet. you could open them up and have 5 minutes of fun, then put them back in your pocket. Gaming just makes way less sense nowadays imo

>never had a beer
>never tried drugs/weed
>never had sex
>never had a female friend, so scared of women that I can't talk to one outside of work
>never been on a trip with friends
>have lost touch with the few friends I've ever had
>no social media because I have nothing to show
>didn't make any connections in college, got a shitty degree with mediocre grades because I couldn't handle math/science
>live with my mom
>small dick
>have been on anxiety medication for almost a decade, getting out of bed without wanting to kill myself is a huge feat
Damn I'm a loser and it's mostly my fault

The AI obsession has got to be the single most embarrassing event in all of history and the fact that so many people believe in this gimmick in an almost eschatological way is so pathetic.

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>>23702352

>>23704501
>this BIG fucking screen
It really isn't that big. I used to bring my switch to work and play Hollow Knight in a park on my breaks, it was great

>>23704569
Just felt weird having this YUGE escapism portal while I'm out in public. Of course to boomers that's what phones are. But damn it felt odd and a little wrong

>>23704547
yeah it's kind of crazy to see people who should really know better getting hysterical, but then we all just lived through covid where people got hysterical over a coronavirus. there are a lot of seemingly "serious" people who are apparently not.

>>23704597
I am confused on how AI is supposed to become le suuuuper smart. So far the shit it's been able to do is not that complicated conceptually, its just identifying patterns using complex algorithms. Doesn't seem like it translates to complex discoveries or a tech revolution at all

>>23704608
also it's funny how people think it's going to take over the world. it takes so much fucking electricity to run one of those stupid chatbots, like just don't pay the electricity bill, and it will be shut off.

orcas are so. fucking. cool.

I haven't thought about her in nearly a year, I had my oneitis phase but that passed, so why is she in my head again? Why do I want her so badly again?

>>23703119
Why?

>>23704618
Dorcas

>>23703239
What happened?

>>23704653
NTA BUT SHUT THE FUCK UP, THEY'RE SO FUCKING COOL, THEY'RE WAY COOLER THAN YOUR SHIT FUCK FAVOURITE ANIMAL, FUCK YOU!

>>23704130
My dad's a shell of a man and I'm probably headed that way too

>>23704651
Because I believe in the dream.

>>23704666
What's wrong with him?

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The "two guys on a bus" meme and the actual place

>>23704640
Don’t feel bad about feeling a sense of loss, reliving the bad memories or remembering the good times. She’s a part of you now, and you’re a part of her, and that is how it will continue to be. Nothing more, nothing less.

This moment will pass, brother.

>>23704653
take it back...
or else.

>>23704731
He's a neurotic and insecure mess, unironically because his mum didn't hug enough as a kid - he has serious mummy issues. He's always seeking approval from others and has zero emotional control. I'd liken his chimpouts to a 5-year-old lashing out. My mum has all but explicitly said to me that she has no attraction to him anymore. Reason why I say I'm headed that way because I see much of myself in that. Sin begets sin and he was obviously my most immediate male figure growing up. I also have a relatively terse relationship with my mother who lacked all manner of affection when I was growing up. I'm trying to brute force my way out of his vices but they're so deeply ingrained in me.

She

>>23704745
I never even had her to begin with...

>>23704762
She what?

>>23704780
He's probably pining over a woman who does not reciprocate his affection

>>23704780
She sugga mah dig.

>>23704780
she farted on my dick
damn
she shitted on my shit
man
that's some fucked up shit

people that say "my partner" when they mean "my husband" "my wife" "my boyfriend" "my girlfriend" or even "my spouse" are truly as homosexual as the phrasing they've adopted that was nothing more than a euphemism to the more crass "my lover" -- since homosexuals could not be wed and were self-aware in the adultery they were undertaking. oh woe are those that degrade themselves in their own speech!

>>23704808
Very true. I wince when they say that. It can either be construed in the manner in which you or say, or in such a way that reflects the fundamentally transactional understanding that they have of their relationship - a business associate who they occasionally sleep with. In either case, it's dehumanising and degenerate. The language and habits of the homosexual has permeated all facets of society.

>>23704772
Appreciating someone from afar isn’t all bad. You must learn to accept that there isn’t always a life for you with someone else. It will sting and can be haunting, but regardless, it will pass.

Should I start playing OSRS?

>>23704772
Then no one else should

>>23704868
I haven't played that since middle school (2000s). Aren't there non-fagex versions now?

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I’m a /lit/le lost right now bros.

I know I’m on the cusp of *something* but I can’t parse what that thing is, exactly. I feel like I’m stuck in a sort of bubble, mentally - but I’m pushing against it and close to breaking through the wall inside my head. I have some concerns that bursting that bubble might send me insane, or maybe it’ll change my life, maybe I’ll find some version of God, maybe I’ll spiral into nothingness. Maybe all of the above. No fucking idea but I have to burst this bubble because I can’t deal with it anymore.

What should I read to help me find my needle?

I'm sick of seeing all these cute, geeky, nerdy, quirky, weird, girls in my Instagram reels, why can't these chicks exist near me and why can't there be more of them? It seems like chicks like that are extremely rare.

>>23704808
My new thing to hate is using "her" in place of "his" for generic possessive.

>>23704938
Depends. What are you looking for exactly? There are a number of answers that could be relevant to your experiences.

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>>23704969
To break through, whatever that may be.

I’m dipping into philosophy but there’s often too much atheism for me as I’m a spiritually minded person. I enjoy the teachings and stories of the Bible at face value but I don’t prescribe to Abrahamic faiths. However, equally I can’t stand many of the modern pagans I meet or interact with either and it all starts to feel like a larp. As a white britbong I can’t envision myself saying “I’m working with Aphrodite” without feeling like a fucking fraud or a total geek. I don’t know, maybe I just need to get over that.

Other than the questions of faith, I guess I’m looking to just better myself, to expand intellectually and to carve a path for myself. I’m writing a reasonable amount, which helps, but I’m too weighed down by modernity and all of the bullshit. Fuck knows, I feel like screaming though, my brain wants to explode.

>>23704808
>>23704819
>>23704953
You guys are such fucking pussies. You "wince" when someone refers to "their partner, but you never say anything about it, do you? You act like you're kicking back against some gay agenda but you're really just a bunch of gutless complainers, getting upset about words.

>>23704990
Have you ever checked out Buddhism

>>23704990
>british
>writer
Absolute jej. The answer to your questions is The Sandman graphic novels. There's so much in there it's insane. I still don't know how they did it. Good luck my dude. The New Testament is always there for you when you come around to it.

>>23704997
Sure I'll chimp out every time I hear something I don't like.
>against some gay agenda
Heterosexual couples use the term as well

>>23705008
>The language and habits of the homosexual has permeated all facets of society
Also you don't have to "chimp out," but I know you don't even make some small comment about it. You just "wince," and quietly fume, and come here to have your feelings validated by all your gay little friends

you are going to regret this for the rest of your life.

>>23705049
good.

I went to a family gathering, and they took pictures with each other but never asked me to join.

>>23704990
>I’m a spiritually minded person
>philosophy

rookie mistake. read more theology, not philosophy. philosophy is the question, theology is the answer. you will just wander in a desert full of atheist larpers and literal communist satanists without any satisfaction until one finds the water of life. our life parallels the journey of the jews in the desert during the exodus you know, some jews said they would have wanted to stay in egypt and remained slaved since they still got food and shelter. some said by worshipping false gods, they found favor, but of course, it never worked out

ultimately many jews didn't make it to the end because they just didn't believe, they were stubborn. the truth is already out there anon, it is a matter of just receiving it, not taking it

>>23705001
I have. I experimented with guided candali meditation for a while which was an insanely powerful experience for me, but again, the community I interacted with just felt like some sort of new age larp and it pushed me away.

>>23705004
>bongistan prisoner
>slop creator
I know, it’s fucking over for me. I enjoyed The Sandman, but it’s not my favourite Gaiman. He’s a great teller of evocative fairytales. Maybe I will re-read the NT one of these days. Whilst I’ve got you do you have any other reading suggestions on Biblical history, theology and such that isn’t just scripture? I like the idea of a drier, more analytical read on the topic.

>>23705110 #
Kourosh should have slaughtered them all rather than free them from Babylonian captivity. Hopefully his tomb is decorated with their corpses, sinews, and internal organs. Not a day does by where I don't damn Cyrus the Absolute Moron, worst king out of all of history, first golem in world history.
Stfu and kys, Abrahamshit.

Who needs drugs when you can have a panic attack after not sleeping all day, never been more sensorial stimulated in my life

>>23705111
Yeah i would avoid new age stuff completely. Just get into it on your own. Buddhism is very practical and not really woo-woo like all that shit is. It's a very holistic philosophy explaining reality and how to respond to it.

Meditation is a good example. In new age, there all these metaphysical, spiritual connotations behind meditating. Trying to tap into some otherworldly shit.
In buddhism, the only point of meditation is to train your mind to recognize impermanence and meaninglessness, so that you don't form irrational attachments, so that you can love properly. No real metaphysical superstition behind the practice. I do not want to feel anger, lust, loss, fear, over things i cannot control, for this is what causes me to treat myself and others poorly; I instead wish to feel total compassion toward all sentient beings and have my actions oriented toward the alleviation of suffering; therefore I sit quietly and remember the essence of Nothing, so that I do not fall into delusion, this way I can face the reality of suffering with equanimity and be my most loving self.

That's all it is in buddhism. Everything in buddhism is like this. Very practical and grounded. Religion never spoke to me because while I could see the benefits, I couldn't believe the fables. Buddhism focuses strictly upon the practice and leaves the fables out of it.

oh my god what happened to virgil

what do you do
I'ma poet
really?
in the flesh.

>>23705076
nice. that caught me off guard.

>>23704990
Try going to Mass once or twice. You might find that the image of Christianity you have in your head is different from how people live it.

>>23705031
As opposed to?
>NOOO don't use that heckin' word!

I can win any woman in the world over with my personality, it's just my looks that hold me back. I'm not ugly, I'm just, meh.

>>23705159
Buddhism definitely has its share of that nonsense, you can't say karma and rebirth aren't immensely important. I agree there's something very profound and important within buddhism, but it's a sliver of the religion really

>>23705211
Palingenesis is true. Karmic seeds manifest itself afresh in new individuals
>>23705211
Poor explanation on meditation.
You don't even describe Vipassana, Shikantaza, or any style.
You sound just as stupid as New Agers.

Ordered something from Amazon but didn't realise that it's "Temporarily out of stock" How long should I expect to wait for it?

>>23705245
It will be available in the next kalpa following the kali yuga

>>23705211
Karma is just cause and effect, a principle found within physics. It's not metaphysical. And rebirth is also physical; energy cannot be destroyed or created.
>>23705221
Meditation is about training. I don't put much stock into the forms of buddhism that start talking about metaphysical entities and that sort of transcendence. It is a bastardization. If you don't think so, fine.

I'm selling every book in my library that doesn't have a heroic protagonist

>>23705251
What you're engaging in is your own invention. You're not engaging in any actual Buddhist styled meditation.

keep it simple, with simple people.

>>23705250
I want off this ride

>>23701117
Same guy here. Someone at work asked me why I seemed so happy lately— I guess my behavior is noticeably different, despite me trying my best to remain normal.

Idk what this girl's end game was. Despite not ever saying a word to each other since, I notice some things changed. I catch her looking at me every day now, sometimes more than once. I don't know if she realizes how afraid of her I really am. I literally hide in the bathroom out of fear, sick, nearly vomiting at the workplace. I don't even know why I'm so afraid. I guess it feels like she has so much power over me. If I were to describe it, it's like I have no control over what she sees and thinks about me, that she can see who I am, and use that to control me. I'm also hyperaware of my behavior all day, how I act, move, as if she's going to psychoanalyze my every step.

Last night, right after I posted, I had a dream about her. I was lying in bed with her in her uniform sitting on top of me— she read my journal, then my phone and 4chan posts, and then, without any provocation, she kissed me on the neck. So now I have this ridiculous bullshit and weird feelings that I can't explain when I see her. I am considering just quitting and working at a burger place. The only other option is seemingly suicide, lol.

>>23705256
Yes I am. What I described is just mindfulness meditation. Even vipassana, when understood properly, is just a form of awareness meditation regarding how the mind and body interact. Mahayana doesn't emphasize entities, deities, demons, angels, hells, heavens, etc except as states of being

>>23705299
What you described was not mindfulness.

>>23705303
Sure it is. Mindfulness to maintain equanimity...yes that is what mindfulness itself is and what mindfulness meditation is. Training detachment in one's self for the purpose of equanimity. To enhance compassionate response to life and to suffering.

I know. The perfect word to explain what I feel is "defeated." She won. I've been crushed. I feel like I need to surrender to her- I just don't know what that means.

>>23705308
In Soto school, mindfulness simply involves non-judgmental awareness that does not 'aim' or 'grasp' at anything. Shikantaza involves the dropping fixation on worries, expectations of the future, and "just sitting" facing the wall without being concerned with the conditions of the mind while maintaining alertness. It doesn't 'aim' at any specific mental state or block anything out.

Ofc Theravadans have their own styles.

>>23705312
Haven't you been posting about this for months? Get a grip man, relationships fall apart

>>23705314
Yes, but that is acceptance of Nothingness. It doesn't mean to sit and literally contemplate nothing itself, but to meditate upon Nothingness means exactly what you describe; surrender to the mind. Thoughts, worries etc all emanate from Nothing and mean Nothing. Avoiding grasping is surrender to this Nothing, which means to meditate upon Nothingness. The paradox therein being that through surrender, one achieves emancipation.

>>23705320
I think calling it "no-thing" or "non-arising" is better. It's not nothing as in a vacuum or void. At most you can say "not one, not two".

https://plato.stanford.edu/entries/japanese-zen/

>>23705325
Well, it both is and isn't that; but we're speaking the same language beneath it all at this point. Paradox is at the bottom of all these concepts.

Peter Thiel / Rogan talking about taking libertarian stances toward drugs like it hasn't produced a culture of degenerate faggots. everyone i know who took the drug bait is largely retarded and have either maintained or lost the status they were born into. these people are so out of touch

Who else here has some ugly fucked up teeth and hasn't bothered with fixing them, or god forbid, getting braces?

>>23705334
True but a real libertarian stance would freely let drug addicts exit the gene pool with their usage.

>>23705341
Get Invisalign. It’s life changing.

>>23705341
The last time I went to the dentist was 4 years ago. He found I had caries on some molar and made me a fill. I have met the decision to never go to the dentist again in my life (less I had some terrible tooth pain). Three of my wisdom teeth came out, one came out straight the other two are out of place. I don't bother going to the dentist and hope they will just become straight at some point.

>>23705273
Confront your fear now, anon. Either slip a note or directly ask her out for a cup of coffee so you can talk bluntly about what's going on, and face reality head on. All you're going to keep doing is spin around like a hamster and drain your energy on fueling pointless neurotic thought patterns that will keep torturing you for no reason. Your mask has already slipped in her eyes, and she cared enough to approach you. You can be a weirdo or however the fuck you really carry yourself on your own, just as long as you talk to her. Roll the dice, you don't know what it is that you're going to get, which stumps your impulses. You write well, by the way, but you're already very well aware of that.

>>23705351
It costs an arm and a leg

>>23705334
Isn't developing a data aggregation software for the express purpose of archiving the collective thoughts of every human being possible so as to assess their threat levels and then "take action" on that, a weird way to practice libertarianism?
Can you see a fraud when one appears before you?

>>23705334
Check out this classic:
>https://youtu.be/iPis68U7bdo?si=AIFYd4YpAhTEUtUs

>>23702352
I can't make up my mind about conspiracies. Is the world fake and gay or is the world boring and gay? I just don't know. Is there a red pill, or is the red pill a blue pill? How can anyone ever know?

>>23705393
Humans are animals. There's nothing conspiranoical about it. Even if there are actual world-wide hidden conspiracies it's all fake and gay.

>>23705393
It's kind of in between. Even real hidden spook stuff is like 80% bureaucracy and boring shit to 20% exciting and cool shit.
The conspiracies you can categorically write off as false are the ones implying any one person or group is in control of it all, as it implies there is someone or a group of someones competent enough to pull such a thing off. The truth is that even the people who are supposed to be the adults in the room, figuratively speaking, make retarded mistakes, fuck up, forget shit, or are blinded by their own beliefs a lot more than anyone is comfortable admitting.
t. knower

people will happily concede the notion of the 'eternal' when it comes to maths, physics and chemistry but as soon as you say the moral law is eternal as well, you start hearing them seethe

>>23705411
Curiously, there is not way to prove or evidence the eternal moral law, unlike the previous three fields. Instead one is to obtain this eternal morality through trusting one of several disparate philosophers or holy men separated by a great deal of geographical and temporal distance who make unfalsifiable assertions regarding the nature and precepts of this law.

>>23702352
I advocate for anti-natalism for thee, not for me.

Fuck shit up and start a riot

>>23705436
no way*

>>23705393
There are conspiracies but there are also just straight geopolitics.

>Get a girlfriend.
>We're a really good couple.
>It gets to the point where she wants to have sex.
>I get embarrassed because I have a 5-inch phimosis cock.
>I leave.

This is bound to happen.

>>23705476
This is pornography.

I don't even find pleasure in watching porn anymore, I just get jealous because they're fucking chicks that I'll never be able to fuck.

>>23705510
If she's in porn, then she's not worth tucking.

>>23705525
She's in porn because she's a good fuck, I'm not planning on marrying the chick, I just want a good fuck.

>>23705031
Alright big man, what action would take instead when someone says "partner" in front of you?

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>>23705510
I went full coomer and ordered a sex toy thinking it would be an amazing game changer and it was just mediocre at best and immediately I found myself regretting it and I have never felt less horny and more stupid and degenerate for wasting the money

some of us just gotta get burned before we learn I guess

>>23702352
I think I subconsciously lost a lot of respect for my brother when i found out he shaves his chest

>>23705567
>some of us just gotta get burned before we learn I guess
Ain't that the fucking truth.

>>23705572
I just try to tell myself that I had to give things a shot otherwise they would have nagged at me forever and I would have done it down the road anyway

>>23705569
Don't blame you, that's kinda gay

>>23705600
Good thought process. I tell myself shit like that to cope as well.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VPCYLuEwZ7M&ab_channel=GmanLives

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>>23705510
literally started jerking off to traps because straight porn just made me emotionally and sexually frustrated to the point where it was distracting and I couldn't get off because I am so lonely and horny

Society says I'm a girl

>>23705620
Are you Australian?

>>23705629
nope

So I'm on nofap month 19 and the last night I woke up to what first looked like I had a wet dream but then I realized there was no cum in it, just precum dripping out of my dick in huge amounts, it was also slightly slightly reddish, like it contained a tiny little bit of blood in it. I went to the bathroom and there was still precum dripping from my dick until I took a shower.
Has the perverse spirit left the body through my dick?

>>23705694
>So I'm on nofap month 19
holy fuck lol

>>23705698
That’s nothing, one time I didn’t fap for three years straight

>>23705620
I always preferred Vice City

>>23705532
NTA but I’d assume they’re a cowboy

>>23705341
My biological father seemed to bless me with impeccable dental hygiene. So not me.

>>23705758
Did you fuck women at least?

>>23705779
No, I was too much of a dweeb to get laid

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>>23705360
Yeah, mine was like $8k (CAD) but my parents paid for it. They offer payment plans though.