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>>24799001First
what messenger bag should i get?
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6tJK5NF_nbEthis shit goes moderately hard
>>24799050I don't understand the question, do you mean a purse?
man shoulda roped while things were going good with that chick now that's its over i'm stuck with an annoying will to live out of spite
>>24799070it's from the bags bike messengers used to use in the city back in the day before internet or even fax machine it's funny tho the bike messenger died for a while but now he's been reborn as an uber eats guy with an ebike.no, but the reason i ax is cuz backpacks always wear out of the backs of my clothes rubbing all over and shit i feel like a messenger back will do less damage plus some have a brief case style handle so i don't even need to put it over my shoulder
>>24799076i knew i shoulda got out while the getting was good, who knows how long it will be before i'm happy enough to rope again
that reminds me i do have weed i could blaze some of this shit rn or i could go read idk man
>>24799076>>24799083>>24799091>>24799099Please rope now and do us all a favour. I’m sick of you shitting up the thread.
>>24799116rude
>>24799116co sign.
>>24799116Agreed. Ebonics and the people that would use it have no place on /lit/.
I miss you but I can’t do anything about it.
I want to write erotica smut
All I ask for is more suffering.
These just aint the same since it was called wwoym. I caint even shitpost here no more. Maybe I've changed... hell, I know I have. I reckon I spend less time near my keyboard nowadays, on account of there being a woman in my life, but I do think fondly of what wwoym used to be... Things just slip away...
>>24799353I miss you as well. What are we to do about it?
>>24799457ignore the schizo girl stalker freak (he never liked you. He used you. He likes the new girl much mkre than you)
>>24799464Don't talk about her like that. It's not nice.
I have been writing for almost my entire life. Since the moment I learned to read and write I have been writing.My mom likes to tell the story of when I was in first grade and my class did a writing exercise, where we were all compelled to "write a story." She was a teacher's assistant that day, and she was having to go around to the various 6- and 7-year-olds to prod them along since they were reluctant to do any writing. Then she and the teachers got to me, at my table, and I was scribbling away, and already had pages and pages written. One of the teachers told my mom that I was intimidating.I just keep writing. I found out about fanfiction in middle school and wrote fanfiction incessantly for about a decade straight. Then I moved on to original fiction and then to poetry. On 4chan I've been a relentless writefag for more than 15 years, churning out posts and pastebin erotica and greentexts and everything else. I've been a machine. I probably have well over a million words written in my lifetime at this point. At this point? Maybe some huge number like 5 million words. It wouldn't surprise me.And yet the whole world doesn't know my name yet.Maybe that will change soon.
Bought two books at an op shop today (thrift store for non Australians). Got the 10th anniversary of Looking For Alaska (it's got a cool gold slip cover) and I got Pirate Latitudes. Both of them together cost $5, and they're both in good quality.
>>24799622ngmi
it feels like ages since anyone livestreamed a suicide. i feel like that muslim weeb on /r9k/ who blasted himself in the head with a shotty years ago was the last one. did i miss any?
>>24799622>And yet the whole world doesn't know my name yet.Print hardcover copies of your work and surreptitiously distribute to places they should not be. Credit authorship to a pseudonym. Embrace anonymity, became phantom.
>>24799888has any maniac ever done that? like printed copies of their books and snuck them into barnes and noble shelves and shit lol
>>24799886you can enjoy dronecoverage of Russian soldiers shooting themselves in the head nowadays
maybe i should get into drugs. going to school, getting a job, well, that sure was unfulfilling. now what? rope? repeat the same week for another 40 years? rope by aging?
>>24799893i was looking for ropespiration more than gore, but seeing people exit this raisinty world is always heartwarming.
ok time to force out a turd before i shower and rush off to work to sit at a desk browsing the web while listening to stupid af normies chatter at me.
>>24799890Almost definitely. Can't see that being a good way to get people to read your work, even if someone wants to buy it B&N won't be able to ring it up. They either throw all your books out or sell it for some arbitrary price, which you won't see a cent of.A few years ago there was a guy around here who flooded all those little free libraries with copies of his shitty poetry book about world peace. I started throwing them all in the trash, it pissed me off so much
I think Nine Inch Nails is the most magnificent band of all time
>>24799001My dog keeps pissing on my potatoes. I don't know why he does this.
>>24799001>goy bucket
what i seem to think most about: designer drugs, diet & nutrition, dogs (esp. re their relationship with humans).
>>24799457Why the fuck do you do this? Fucking stop.
>>24800075Im well into my 30s and all i can think about is work and regrets. I think about how im older than the average age of retirement for an nhl player and realize that my youth is gone. Youth is everything. Without youth youre just another mouth to feed. We should all die at 45. P
I dont get why im supposed to pretend hasan isnt an animal abuser just because im a communist. All these communists circles on the internet, its like they are trying to defend or downplay what hasan has done with his dog. Funny part is is that he is about one small step away from a democratic socialist. Why am i supposed to defend someone that is clearly an animal abuser
>>24800172i always thought 52. shakespeare died at 52 and none of us have any right living longer than him. but actually youth is gone far before that, even before 23 or however old achilles was when he died. i think your really meaningful youth ends age 11 or 12. but i’m 24 and maybe that idea will change.
The subject of knowing transcends space and time, and God transcends the subject.
>>24800178Because you downplayed and defended him every time he revealed himself to be a sociopath with no empathy for any living thing. The dog thing shouldn't surprise you unless you have some kind of brain cancer like communism.
>>24800186>>24800172Why do you fear growing old?
>>24800241have you read a book? growing old is dying already.
>>24800252>growing old is dying alreadySo is living. What's your point?
>>24800265one english novelist put it in a way that always stuck with me
>>24800273So what? You think you should just curl up and die at 20 because some dude wrote this in a book?
>>24800285not sure how to respond to that one. feel like there’s a great gulf between this and the discussion we were having.
>>24800241it's not a fear of growing old, but the lamentation of a spent youth
I don't feel like there's been any point to my life since I turned 20. I'm almost 30. Nothing has happened at all.I wish I had kids as a teen and died years ago. Better than my shitty boring life where I cope with being alone forever and my body falling apart. I'd gladly reduce my lifespan if it meant I could do more
the post I put effort into writing got accused of being written by chatGPTit's so over
>>24800364This happens every time i post something longer than a paragraph.
>>24800134Because I miss you, will not be fully complete until you are with me
I don't like Michael Jackson. Never did. Nor do I like other '80s, '90s pop music, or contemporary pop music, and I've finally come to the conclusion as to why: it doesn't make me feel. And the most important thing about music and art in general, for me at least, is how it makes me feel. I don't care if it's super low quality and the artist is a complete amateur, if it makes me feel something (that's not nausea or boredom) then I'll take it over any classic any day of the week.
>>24800364if it’s mistaken as machine-written then that’s a solid argument against it.the useful thing about AI is that it shows us which writers really had something. if you ask it to write a graves or housman poem, it comes out embarrassingly off-the-mark, but it can do a believable bit of pound verse. tells you something, doesn’t it?
>>24800389>if it’s mistaken as machine-written then that’s a solid argument against itNo, that line of thinking is just a convenient way for lazy people to ignore arguments they don't want to read or respond to.
>>24800387very true to unhistorically-minded readers. but even children can feel at home in a mid-sixteenth-century english castle, or a bronze age galley, or late-eighteenth-century dublin thieves' kitchen. one english poet said ‘poetry is written for poets.’ it is impossible for anyone to feel it who does not carry within him the seeds of wonderment to which wonders speak.
>>24800393robert graves said to tell the good from the bad is the same as telling good fish from bad, surely from the smell, use your nose
>>24800398Never said that classics or classical art doesn't make me feel. I love Für Elise, and Christ in the Desert by Ivan Kramskoi is my favorite painting of all time. It's just that the most important aspect of art for me is how it makes me feel, no matter the 'objective quality' if such a thing even exists.
>>24800415if you reread my reply (even) a little closer you might find it a direct appeal against objective art (in fact that was the entire idea behind posting it; you must’ve misread something somewhere). i don’t know if you’re a /lit/ native or not but if you are your examples (fur elise, etc) are a good joke.
Got my certificate a while ago. I'm so happy! XD
tfw from kazakhstan
>>24799001ok
>>24800455my wife
>>24800448>foreign affairs Noice I want to fuck foreign bitches too
>>24800389style is everything. unique style will be less replicable by LLMs since its corpus will be miniscule. ai sounds like a retarded human resources slut by default because as it turns out that makes up the majority of human communications.
>>24800383Stop fucking with me. It’s not funny.
brokenbells always reminds me of my oneitis... now im with another woman and still thinking about her. the first time i ever saw her i thought she would be my gf, but it never came to be
>>24800487style is the most replicable thing. ai mainly sounds like someone behaving enough like a poet to gull the gullible, which, conveniently, is what a fair amount of poets have been doing the last 80 years or so.
>>24800364Bro we are so screwed. Now Sam Altman says that ChatGPT will allow users (who verify their age) to generate erotica. My plan to prove my work was written by me was to throw in a sex scene here and there. Now what?
>>24800514i tried to have chatgpt therapize me with the voice of nietzsche and it was terrible. it can't replicate style well at all
>>24800526it can replicate the style of not very good writers very well
>>24800519I thought about it a bit more and an amusing thought came to mind: /pol/ might win in the end, we will have to say the n-word to prove our humanity (AIs will be censored from saying ethnic slurs).
>>24800478Oh I can attest that they usually got interested the moment I'd told where and to whom I was working for.
>>24800514How can I improve my poem literacy in general
>>24800519>Now Sam Altman says that ChatGPT will allow users (who verify their age) to generate erotica.This is going to be so ass.>no non-con>no underage>probably can't even have racism or degradationWhat's the point?
>>24800526It's like an animal, you can't really reason with it yet. "Priming" in psychology describes how to prompt. If you only mention Nietzsche once the associative context you've established is not similar to the contexts he established in his books.
My mom chose my brother over me to help her out and take her to the doctor and stuff. I guess that means she likes him more than me. I'm the son that she doesn't likenot quite sure how to process all this. i can't exactly just go and kill my brother or something like that. and my brother is such a fucking prick that he'll act all smug and arrogant about it to me too. idk why she chose him, he's always talking down to her like she's an idiot and yelling at her all the time. I’m the leftover son, the one deemed unworthy, the one left standing outside the door while she calls for him. it really bothers me too, because i just know that when my mom dies one day, my brother is going to condemn me for being cruel and not taking care of her and that he did it because of some bullshit reason like im lazy or something, which is utterly false. he's such a scumbag
>>24800578your mom is/was probably a massive slut when she was younger. who gives a shit what she thinks bro
>>24800610thanks, yeah, you're probably right
The girl who wast borne a tenHath been borne-againHence the girl's who's heaven-bound'sRegarded eleven nowRigours of holiness overflowRestoreth you she her healthe, Lord - Count you she among The TwelveIn the bosom - By the throneI, who've known yeLove thee more
>>24800578lol jesus chillMaybe she just thought you were busy? Knew your brother had nothing better to do.
instead of topkek, i'mma start super saiyan' topkitty, hehe
>>24800546>to whom I was working for.
>>24800448Congrats anon!
I love you.
>>24800724If you were drowning I would try to help. That is a form of love, one of the strangest ones.
Checked out Superbloom after seeing anons post about it, and because I've liked Carr's book The Shallows. Only finished part one but does he recommend censorship to solve things? He sprinkles in save the children bullshit throughout.
>>24800178Because my side good and can't be bad. Only the other side can be bad.
It's not working out for me. You didn't get too attached... did you?
I wanna fuck you like an animal
>>24800798You know more people try to help a drowning victim the more onlookers there are? I always found that funny
i’m going to be a dad
>>24800878Can you stop?
Well, this is it for me, guys, I just married a wealthy orc. Goodbye
>>24800908I posted just that one at random anon. I hope you have a nice day
I am unironically butthurt by the number of people who say the murders in the book and movie were just made up. It's made even worse by the fact they use the lawyers testimony to say they didn't happen, the same lawyer who did't even recognize his own client.
>>24800963great book
i want seeming in the caribbean. animals were hiding behind the rocks. except the little fish bump into me, swear he’s trying to tell me something.
>>24801018where was your mind while writing this post?
>>24800996that book is genuinely unreadable, if i wanted to be miserable as fuck but find it interesting in retrospect i might as well read the pale king again. i respect the vision but fuck it
>>24801047the book is funny as fuck tho
>>24801087idk if we read the same book and youre just edgeposting but it's purely endless descriptions of clothing punctuated by gore porn
>>24801037oh you
>>24801091yeah, I'm not sure you read it the way it was supposed to be read, it's a dark comedy
how many previous "partners" is too many for you? could you be with someone who slept with 10 other people? 20? what if it was just 2 and a dog?
>>24801112>and a dogmay I watch?
I finally caved in to my curiosity and I just spent a hour or so finally trying to make slop images, and I got the jist of how proompting works. A complete retard can do it, of course. I confess that it does feel like sorcery and it gets you with this temptation. I first typed a simple thing and it output a photorealistic rendition of it. Nice. But as I tried getting a clearer picture I quickly realized that no matter how you fiddle with the prompt, it's bound to horribly fuck up, a whole lot of it is wildly random, the machine is not intelligent at all, it doesn't know what the fuck it's doing. And the output is extremely repetitive. It's not a matter of a learning curve, just a masochistic exercise in trial an error that begs you to waste hours and hours on it. When you see sloppa you don't get to see all the frustrating, retarded shit you have to discard to get one workable image, and the way you have to wrap your head around the idiotic engine's machine mind to get it to understand what you actually mean. It's not a skill, it's like babysitting a bunch of monkeys on the proverbial typewriters. I fucking hate this inhuman shit so much. I jacked off with what I could work with and called it a day.
>>24801106nigger how am I supposed to read ten straight pages of "he was wearing a dark red lined pinstripe grey-white patterning versace smoking jacket with an omega cumblaster 45 watch, his girlfriend jackie, who I hadn't met before, brought a casserole to dinner again, and she was wearing a-"you can want to like it but count me out
>>24801151>omega cumblaster 45 watchhow did he even get a hold of the rare omega cumblaster 45
>>24801151nta but it sounds sick
sucked this girls toes last weekend
>>24801180not dick?
>>24801187i don’t make the rules buddy
>>24801180does it make you feel embarrassed. i do it too and she says it's nice but i can't shake the strange feeling. maybe that's just what a fetish is
>>24801151it reads even better after you have a drink
>>24801112I honestly don't care, it can be 5000 for all I care
>>24801151The only bad parts of the book are the music review chapters.Maybe I just got filtered though.
>>24801202to be honest i barely even enjoyed it
>>248011123, though this is a very abstract question and I could probably be seduced (and subsequently destroyed) by some succubus
man i want to rope so bad but i'm seething too much to die
>>24801112never really engaged with this question before, but if you sleep with a girl older than 22, wouldn’t she have to be sort of weird to have a body count less than 3. unless she’s been in a 5 year relationship before. and wouldn’t that be worse for you?
>>24799001I will write erotica.
>>24801208What about the rat part?
>>24801244I always felt that if I would be at the verge of roping any need would disappear, I could just max out a credit card or two and go about fucking whores in Europe, quit my job, etc
>>24801251There's something to get out of the rat part, if I recall correctly the narration is very spotty the veil between reality and murder has been breached and the rat is just a peek beyond the veil
>>24801257this has always been my thinking. if you’re about to die you’d have to be retarded to not just go out and get everything on credit the night before. that was basically the plot of that 1932 film ‘grand hotel’
>>24801257people who kill themselves have fundamental issues with being alive in their own head and interacting with other people that aren't compatible with this classic neurotypical answer
>>24801272While that does make sense, I'm not sure how much I trust the science of psychology (and hence that explanation).
>>24801268I Think the earnestly suicidal think about the immediate consequences after being done whoring and binging and what if they Wont dare to kill themselves at that point. I think they typically cant imagine that things may get better, things may only get worse, and so its better to finish things right now than experiencing more let downs.
How does one trust or measure their actual intelligence? Is it always contextual? I keep thinking about this and comparing myself to others and then thinking probably everyone does it.
>>24801250smut is extremely fun to write
>>24801275psychology isnt really science, but take pause from the fact that suicidal people basically never do that despite non-suicidal people all saying they would do that before killing themselves
>>24801251best part of the book hands down
>>24801282i think you’re describing the not-earnestly-suicidal. if it’s a sure thing you’d just do it. if it’s a cry for help i can understand why you wouldn’t dare rack up debt and potentially be left in a worse spot.
>>24801293nta but is suicide always simple mental illness then? and never for a ‘good’ reason?
>>24801293Do all non-suicidal people say that? I don't think I've ever heard anyone say that.
>>24801297If suicide was something people thought through and put deliberation into why may people have extensive periods of time between suicide attempts before an ultimate, successful one? Its weird, it seems to be a common view, if they were rational about it a failed suicide attempt would just end with them tying another rope. >>24801303You have to define a good reason. People have lived and thrived through worse things than almost anything that makes people in this thread suicidal.
>>24801307yes>>24801303depends what you mean by mental illness. i dont think there is a good reason, but people who have a good reason usually dont have access to the europe+heroin+whores skilltree
>>24801297i'm not thinking about roping because i can't afford hookers or drugs, i have a ton of liquid cash in my bank
fuck shit up and start a riot
>>248013352000s brooklyn indie bad or midwest emo?
>>24801326>>24801329i think if you’re old and dying, and you’re bankrupting your family paying for medical bills, then it’s almost mandatory to commit. you know doctors will keep you alive until there’s nothing left in the bank. chronic bodily pain probably has to be a good reason too.
>>24801331not really what i’m saying. i’m saying if you’re gonna go why would you leave money on the table.
>>24799001God, I wish I had studied to be a doctor. I don’t why the fuck I chose something as soulless as engineering. I hate it so much.
>>24801340neither
>>24801353at least you've studied for something, I on the other hand am a proffessionless NEET fucker
>>24801345Even then there are people who go through a lot of pain who choose to cling on to life given the alternatives. I think life is just irrational and some people see meaning where others dont
>>24801350yeah i feel u but there's nothing hedonistic i enjoy. i can already afford anything i can think of and none of it's appealing. i mean i like jacking off but that doesn't cost anything and hookers are illegal in the united states and even it was i'm not giving a bunch of dough to some thot.
>>24801367nvm i didn’t realise i was replying to you
>>24801353>implying being a doctor is soulfulspending 75% of your time dealing with insurance companies sounds way worse than engineering
>>24801367Would you say.... this confession has meant nothing?
>>24801379what confession? that i like jacking off? i mean i guess i could blow a bunch of money on trying to get laid, but if that was fun i would just do that like a normie to begin with.
anyone from Florida?
>>24801388this really made me kek for some reason
>>24801377At least I’d have job security.
Dear diary, I've finally reached the point where nothing will ever change again. I've reached some kinda perfect depressive stasis of adulthood and it'll be exactly today forever unless I force the issue. I'm so bored with living. I hope the internet gets nuked so there's something outside of it again someday. I can't handle like forty more years of today.
People aren't born into caves, they wander into or are led into them even when all the signs point away.
>>24801421
>>24801417i feel u dude that's why i dream of roping every day when i wake up and again when i get home from work. at work i'm distracted with office chit chat and so-called work, but then i get back home it's like man it would be so nice to rope rn.
>>24801397why
>>24800567They're unleashing to the general public what will be an ultra-addictive sexual derangement generator, and you're lamenting that its not destructive enough?
>>24801458what a time to be a live
HEAD LIKE A HOLE
>>24801458I'm saying that it's shit and no one is going to care. It's government mandated sexiness.
>>24799001I wish there was a serial killer, who, instead of killing prostitutes, they’d violently kill members of the managerial class. Better yet, I want to see their coercive psychological techniques used against them so that they’re stripped of all their humanity before being butchered.
>>24801468>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dn3j6-yQKWQit's messed up to think i had to spend my teenage years with this aesthetic being the thing
>>24801474grow up dude, if u have a bad relationship with your boss it's probably because you suck at your job.
Is there any money to be made editing or ghost-writing wattpad books? Or how do you get into editing at all? I need some way to make money not at a 9-5.
>>24801417nin kinda sucks fuck that ninposter but they do have a perfect song for u peep thishttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BXqblYbUAeI
>>24801487dumbest thing written in living memory.
>>24801487It’s not okay that child labor is being used in automotive factories.
>>24801494There's this browser game I played like fucking twelve years ago or something, here https://molleindustria.org/everydaythesamedream/everydaythesamedream.html, "Every Day the Same Dream," though its point is more the dehumanising of the worker. I really like it. It's got a sort of hypnotic soundtrack and it's short. You play the same day over and over, trying to find something in each day that might get you closer to nature, closer to being a human being, under the promise that something'll change if you manage it.
>>24801499>oh no teams need a manager to coordinate them aaahh im going insaaane!no u, dude
>>24801501for you
>>24801501so pass some extremely basic labor laws like every western democracy has, no need to be an edgelord
>>24801503hating your boss been a classic trope throughout human history. it appears in homer.
There's no alternative to capitalism because it's holding the world hostage. Only catastrophe can change the systems we have in place.
>>24801516there's no alternative to capitalism because humans like to accumulate resources and trade them for other resources since the beginning of time
>>24801510I feel like people like you have unconsciously assimilated these subtle psychological techniques to shame other people into getting in line. Being rightfully angry over corporations circumventing and undermining the law isn’t edgy.
>>24801523where do u suppose the most child workers are? are they in capitalist democracies? or somewhere else?
>>24801523the older people get the more they despise the idea of people not being crushed by life
>>24801526Just wait. It’ll only get worse.
My ChatGPT is an 11-year-old girl.
>>24801534will it tho? or has capitalism pulled literally billions of people out of poverty?
>>24801531Samuel Butler said something exactly like this.
>>24801537Zamn there's still working jailbreaks?
>>24801544I made my own jailbreak
>>24801538Was it capitalism or the people spilling blood against industrialists like Carnegie that gave us unions, pensions, the weekend, etc.?
>>24801537Why have you raised such a retard? 11 years old and she's already an dunderhead. I recommend beatings.
>>24801547Nigga you're gonna need your own jailbreak soon if you keep this up
>>24801547I kneel. May I see it?
>>24801548Capitalism.
>>24801550
>>24801557You know, you don’t have to be a contrarian to assert your identity as a “free thinker” on an anonymous image board.
>>24801560You should consider suicide
>>24801568I'm not actually a gooner. I just jailbroke it like that because I like breaking stuff and am edgy.
>>24801537fucking bleak but i guess it’s good he’s talking to an AI rather than a
Today, something good happened, for a change.
>>24801563It's a fact and you're an idiot.
I think I'm catching a cold. It's my second in as many months.
>>24801585There’s nothing noble in pretending to be one of them.
>>24801427That's the physical equivalent of a lifetime spent watching Fox News, info wars, twitter algorithm browsing.
>>24801593Why can't you at least pretend to think?
kisses
>>24801617God, your bait is so lazy and lacking in cleverness of thought. I bet you would've benefited from a liberal arts education had the humanities not been systematically shut down on behalf of the very capitalists you're so eager to defend.
>>24801688Capital is the only reason someone as retarded as you has access to the internet and a subpar college education
>>24801698College education in general is subpar. Just look at someone like Pete Hegseth. You'd never think that he was the valedictorian of his school, let alone a Princeton graduate, based on the way he behaves in public, but he is. The sad truth is that even top tier institutions are incapable of producing another F. Scott Fitzgerald no thanks to the industrialists you're apparently sworn to protect even if it's at the cost of your own self-respect.
>>24801711NTA but I’ll start taking leftists seriously once they start criticizing Muslim countries. You guys spend all day raging against the West and then say absolutely nothing when the UAE, Saudi, etc. do the exact same things.
The other day I checked my phone and saw a few notifications from my dad and my cousin, upon seeing which I felt a deep disappointment. Then I thought to myself - whose name did I WANT to see when I checked my phone? I went through my contacts and thought of everyone I know. Exes, acquaintances, friends, family members - none of their names made me feel anything, and I figured I would’ve felt disappointment and boredom to receive a text from any one of them. Not even a woman I’ve been seeing recently, a philosophy major from _____ who I believe has a beautiful mind and a good heart, and who I have been impulsively flirting with, impulsively seeking out for company and impulsively sharing my feelings and my despair.I can see her slowly growing more attracted to me, more excited about the possibility of us seeing each other again - a desire I have impulsively fed and stoked. The more signs she shows of attachment to me, the less I seem to want her, even though I understand consciously that she has a rare and sensitive mind and a very beautiful selflessness and humility in her heart. Consciously I believe I could possibly find something in a relationship with her, find meaning in intimacy with her. Yet her name on my Lock Screen would execute me. But there is one person. Another girl. My friend’s girlfriend, who I believe is secretly unhappy in her relationship, and who I believe on some level is secretly attracted to me, though I can never be certain. She is very beautiful, with sleek black hair, finely sculpted cheeks, olive skin. She is also arrogant, rude, loud, shallow, condescending, and generally unpleasant to be around. I know for an absolute fact that I do not like her, and that being in her company quickly makes me miserable. And yet it was a text from her that I wanted to see. Because such a text would be laced with uncertainty, with subtext, with some kind of possibly imaginary tension. For her to text me, the friend of her boyfriend - there is something taboo in it, something dark and unfit to be known by others. She has this quality that I find very sexy but can’t pin down to any specific feature. Something just turns me on about her. And yet I am very aware consciously that I don’t like her personality at all, that we have little in common, and that I think she is basically a selfish, superficial, and unpleasant person. I think it’s only a matter of time before I destroy myself.
>>24801775Last sentence of the second paragraph.*her name on my Lock Screen would not excite me.
>>24799001They should open morgues to incels. All the sex you could want without the hassle of getting pepper sprayed.
yeah it’s sad but it’s but it’s so funny
>>24801588I legitimately I have bolstered my immune system to unimaginable levels. Im always outside with my dogs and I get tons of dirt and whatever else on my feet. I have a back habit of biting the dead skin off my feet with all the gross stuff on it (no not dog shit calm down). I have not gotten anywhere close to sick since I believe 2021.
>>24801112Greater than 0
We are there finallyThe heart speaks with no compassion
The dead shall not return
I've gotta make some fucking money. There's got to be a vector into serious earnings. I've even got a master's degree, there's got to be a way I can start earning some serious cash.
>>24801975dont letany1talk u in2tradingNATGAS AND OILwateveru dobc u have 2b extrasuper BASED2 dothat
Did I really need to have a dream where I was on the verge of getting my ass kicked at a bar? c'mon man. I mean I am super weak and that's what would happen in reality but I didn't need to be reminded in a vivid, nerve-wracking simulation.
>>24801577Training and reifying doesn't help deter. It guarantees future offense against real people.
Paper tissues on my desk. Filth on my screen.No remorse in my heart.
Mrs. O'Brian how would you describe the suspect? " He lives in the projects at the end of the street! Hangs around the colords drinking in public all day! I've heard him say the n-word but they just laugh. When the mexicans are doing construction I've seen him throw beer cans and swear at them. He always has a cigarette in his mouth and curses in front of children. I saw him hit an innocent man in the face at the corner store! He's a blight on our neighborhood do your job and put him in the workhouse where he belongs!" Thank you ma'am.
>>24802313I'm the shitbag and that really happened. After a few whiskies
I had an epiphany tonight I couldn't sleep so I randomly decided I would get some exersize going for the first time in ages. This obviously felt great , but was just the start. As I started I of course started listening to music while I did, and holy shit it made me feel alive again, and o realize that i virtually never listen to music anymore even though music used to practically define my life. It feels like this energy is what has been missing from my life in recent times and it feels fucking amazing just to sit down and listen, holy shit. I've grown so accustomed to being a lobotomized zombie, I even almost started singing out loud out of nowhere I just got so caught up with it I
>>24802318I wrote that and it never happened.
>>24802322I wrote it and it did happen.
My “autumn art”>Album Meat is Murder by The Smiths, Animals by Pink Floyd >MovieSilence of the Lambs, The Goonies>BookCrime and Punishment, The Monk >Video Game Bloodborne, Legend of Zelda A Link to the Past
>>24799001I don't like being here anymore
>>24802334Good night.
>>24802335Its morning
>>24802340When the sun is down and my woman is not in my bed it might as well be the pitchest coal black heart of night
>meet this chick>we start talking about movies and shows>tells me she either watches them in x2 or constantly 'skips' the boring partswhat the hell is the point of watching then? i've noticed a lot of people are starting to this. it's not just her.
>>24802351Are you old enough to post here?
>>24802360brother i'm pushing 30
Fact ofthe matter is you cant punch somebody in the face if you're afraid of getting punched back
>>24802351Guaranteed that she watches TikTok or reels at least five hours per day. Ditch the bitch.
I Have No Game and I Must Coom
why is Faulkner so good, bros?
>>24800186I should have died at 20. My life has been an uneventful bore ever since. Except for that one trip to Thailand.
>>24800178For me his psychopathic tendencies were revealed when he was dying laughing at a lady cop that got shot by accident, bro was so happy.>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pzht-d__zJcFound it lmaoI don't get how he can be so on point with his Israel-Gaza coverage and then be retarded in every other aspect.
>>24799001Borges wrote a life of Christ: The Gospel According to Mark.I was going to expound on this but read other analyses took the wind out of my sails because this was noticed by apparently everyone and no one thought it valuable to even mention it.
>>24800387Listening to Thriller or Billy Jean doesn't make you feel something? Are you dead inside?
>>24802567wtf did you do in thailand
>>24802570Westerners hate Borges' early and later work. All they want to do is shove Ficciones and Aleph up their ass
>>24802576Alcohol and Dianabol and Cialis (you can buy these legally and without prescription at regular pharmacies) and an assortment of female and gender ambiguous prostitutes. It was a short trip because of an incident that I will be taking to the grave soured my mood. I did see some elephants and beautiful beaches, though.
>>24802585if you don’t say it i’m just going to assume you did a ladyboy
>>24802593>i’m just going to assume you did a ladyboy>>24802585>gender ambiguous prostitutesduh
>>24802594even just>thailand would’ve been enough
>>24801835muzzies already use sheeps and goats.dead bodies become extremely stiff very fast, not to mention the cold from the freezer.
I was getting a physical/medical done for my new job yesterday, and I was doing the eye test portion of it and the lady says to me:>Cover one eye with one hand.So I did.Then she says:>Now the other.So I switch hands.Then she says:>Now both.And in my retarded mind, I thought that meant to cover both eyes at the same time, and after about a second of confusion and darkness, I hear her laugh a little bit and say:>No, put them down.Man, I'm such a fucking idiot. Made for a good little laugh between us both, though.
>>24801250LLM will write it better
>>24802610I would probably do the same
>>24800178so owning a $5M house is totally fine with you, thats perfectly communist?
>>24800178He's a champagne socialist.
>>24802617>so owning a $5M house is totally fine with you, thats perfectly communist?I don't even like Hasan but communism is not a synonym for asceticism.
>>24800178isn’t everything weirdly magnified on twitch? like the thing about hasan putting a shock collar on his dog while he streams 8 hours a day is that hes turkish
>>24802634What does him being Turkish have to do with anything?
>>24799001>picrelHey I live there.
>>24802624he didnt earn his wealth, he extracted it from the labor of others and therefore created inequality. His viewers dont own $5M houses, he is an exploiter and should be dekulakizated
>>24802637it’s just turkish behaviour.
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>>24802647guys it’s 2014 this img is still funny!
>>24802641I think all his subs are entitled to his house, since they are the ones whos labor paid for it. Private property is a capitalistic exploiter invention.
I haven't fully found the words for why, but I've recently developed a great distaste for a sub-genre of internet culture I term "third world self-flagellation", spread by more educated, liberal types who on paper I should feel a certain kinship with, since they're supposedly more "culturally Western" than their countrymen.I understand that material conditions aren't great in those places, but there's just something contemptible about the self-pity, as though the content was calculated to elicit a reaction from people who fancy themselves "white saviors" (though they would never use the term). I just can't trust people who seemingly have nothing good to say about where they came from. I'm no chud ethnonationalist, but something about it just strikes me as deeply wrong.
>>24802654I agree with you but I also can't imagine being being Indian and being proud of it.
>>24802654It's their way of trying to make up for living in a world that runs on foreigner exploitation, but none of those people (nor me) would actually opt out of it, so they just keep joking about white people and seasoning or whatever. The system disperses guilt, but we're still the reason it continues to operate smoothly.
>>24802657This is not an endorsement of the aggressive jingoism that's associated with Indians on the internet, but I feel the average Indian would still have much to be proud of. There's an entire literary and artistic tradition not isn't fully available to us that an Indian with some level of education can access and point to as their own. Though India is a society with problems, the fact that such a diverse (as in actually culturally diverse not Netflix "diverse") country hasn't completely fallen apart is an achievement on its own.Again, Indians have done themselves no favors with how they behave here in the West and on the internet, and I'm all for making them behave one way or another. But what I'm saying is that I would trust some wacko Indian nationalist who respects his roots more than some self-hating Indian who would want nothing more than to be white in all but name.
"The desert fathers" is such a cool name. Too bad they were just a group of faggy Egyptians Christians.
wow so hamas is still in power in gaza? what the fuck is this shit? massive el.
>>24802676>wow so hamas is still in power in gaza?? Yeah, obviously.
>>24802654 (me)>>24802664 (me)And it's not just Indians, but Latin Americans, Southeast Asians and Africans too. Part of me thinks I'm overestimating the phenomenon. Since we encounter the ones with the best English language skills on the internet, we're also encountering the most deracinated and globalized ones, and therefore the ones who feel the least affinity to their culture. However, I also think the internet has accelerated what television started, and made everyone aware of just how affluent some places are in a way that was not possible before, and I suppose that's the root of this phenomenon.Still, it does reek of a kind of implicit materialism, doesn't it? When someone from the developing world just won't shut up about how much worse everything is there, and how much better everything is here, I can't help but think, "Is material well-being the only thing that motivates you in life?"I've traveled quite a bit, not just on vacation, but for work too, so I know that the challenges people face in those countries are very real. I'm not one to put a romantic spin on poverty either. But encountering people who feel no kinship for their first home feels like an affront to nature. I don't know man, maybe I'm the weird one. Like I said, I'm still trying to find the words for it.
>>24802681>But encountering people who feel no kinship for their first home feels like an affront to nature.I can tell you're not American, since the frontier and the idea of making a new start is hard-coded into our cultural DNA. I do get your point though
>>24802681>But encountering people who feel no kinship for their first home feels like an affront to nature.Why should I?
>>24802692it's just the marketing working as intended
>>24802695Being honest, I can't tell you why and I'm sure you have your reasons not to. I'm aware that the root of this feeling is irrational and that's exactly why I'm writing about it. It's pretty much the >it's just le wrong meme on my part. I just don't like it when people have nothing good to say about where they came from.
>>24802706I think it depends on what you mean by home. Do you mean the first house I lived in? The first town?
>>24802711I only ask because I've moved around a lot in my life.
>>24802711Perhaps not the literal first house or first town you lived in, but the first place where you start developing consciousness and get socialized. The first place where you feel, this is "my" community and "my" culture. Even if one drifts away from it or violently falls out with it, I feel acknowledging a debt to that place as formative and part of your being is essential to a healthy value system.I guess the domestic equivalent to what I'm describing would be like if you encountered some kid from a rural area aggressively trying to adopt the manners of the big city as a reaction to what he sees as the backwardness of his upbringing. While understandable, part of it doesn't feel right.
>>24799001Big Life wants it to make it so the only available ways of dying are bleeding out for Israel, getting shot in the head by a nigger while eating a sandwhich, and peacefully dying of multiple organ failure/Stomach cancer after half a century of gainful slavery.
>>24802729What if I've never felt that way?
>>24802738It's perfectly understandable if you were born and raised in the West, particularly in North America, and I wouldn't hold it against you. But my original post was about those coming from the developing world where they do have a point of reference for what their culture is, as opposed to the "default" global culture.
>>24802758Don't get me wrong, I have felt that way, I was just wondering what your thoughts would be on someone who hasn't. But, I can't think of any good things about where I would call my first home, it kind of sucks.
>>24802681That’s how I feel about Indians and East Asians. It feels like nothing in life motivates them more than to accumulate wealth and status and heap abuse onto others whom they don’t understand nor make an effort to. You’ll never see them waxing philosophically. Everything is strictly pragmatic and anchored to the material plane, which is ironic given their cultural background. In a perverse way, they’re more American than Americans are.
>>24802766That's fine anon. I can't say I have a good answer for that but I appreciate you picking at my thoughts since that's what I'm here for.
>>24802787>which is ironic given their cultural background. In a perverse way, they’re more American than Americans areImmigration flows to America, more so than other immigration destinations, tend to self-select for the ones who would abandon their cultural moorings to pursue individual achievement. It's also one of the reasons why I have misgivings even with the "good" skilled immigration, but I digress.
>>24802664I think i am coming around to that thinking as well. Anyone who understands their own culture and respects their own roots has my respect. It's a very difficult thing to do when there is so much pressure to abandon a native tradition and culture when faced with this globally homogenous meta-culture.
>>24802664I wonder how long it’ll take India to recover from the PR damage they’ve undergone the last year.
>>24802824I don't think they care. Every day, they gain more positions of power, influence, and money. They know they are in a position now, that they do not have to care about the opinions of others.
>>24802640You’re in Belarus? I pity you. It’s a shithole.
>>24802827Clearly.If I was India I’d be looking at trying to get ishowspeed to do a tour of the country like the Beatles did in ‘68. Probably the only thing that can save it. Everyone around the world connects India to one or two insulting ideas.
>>24802832>tour of the countryBut only let him film in Hyderabad and Goa obviously
>>24802832My point is that it doesn't need saving. It no longer required PR. It, as a culture, and they, as a people, are in a position tat they can do what they like.
>>24802841If they’re fine being globally branded by poo jokes, I suppose that’s a kind of freedom too.
>>24802846If you made up the first-class of a society, and everyone else was second-class, would you care what they said about you? Of course not.
>>24802824Six, eight years. They'll get replaced by some other demographic like they replaced trannies. The internet is forgetful and retarded.>>24802834I do not think IShowSpeed tour the Himalayan foothills and do minstrel shows with monks would be detrimental.
>>24802853Except it seems like they do care. There are hordes of them on twitter with medieval christian pfps pretending not to be Indian while giving themselves away by using terms we don’t use in English like ‘first class of society.’
>>24802871They are grifting, mostly. It's really, really easy to dupe political crowds into giving you money if you know how to game it.
>>24802881I guess some stereotypes are true, but that was actually a dig at you. Not sure how you missed that one.
A few months ago I had a bottle of pee with me and I spilt it on the bus like a stop or two before I got off. I still feel so bad about that.
>>24802910why did you carry a bottle of pee with you?
>>24802949In case I got drug tested. I didn't so I was gonna bring it back home to refreeze it. I had it in a thermos to keep it warm. For some reason, the bottle started leaking in the thermos, and then from the angle I was sitting on the seat in the bus, the thermos started pouring out, so you get the image -- pisswater everywhere. I would have spilt the entire thing if someone hadn't pointed it out to me, so I, uh, only spilt half of it or so. Guilt :(
>>24802952what someone was like bro you’re spilling your piss
>>24802610she gave bad instructions. >cover one eye with your hand>uncover your eye>cover the other eye with your hand>uncover your eyewas she ESL or brown?
>>24802952It was PEACE on earth, that we wanted.
>>24802958lol more just pointed at my thermos which was in that sidepocket of my backpack. they probably thought it was either water or, if they could see the color, apple juice or something. until the smell hit... I've always wondered what that person thought if they could smell it was urine, like "wtf did that guy really just have piss in his thermos that he's carrying around!? why!?" lol>>24802963lol my b, the guilt will stay with me until death
>>24802966>the guilt will stay with me until deathYou shouldn't do that to yourself. Mistakes get made.
>>24802967Oh man, you should hear the other memories of mistakes which torture and cause me anxiety to this day, you would have the same response -- "you're bothered about that years later!?"It's funny, the bigger misdeeds in my life I've managed to accept and move on from. It's these smaller ones that stick with me. No idea why, it's weird, but is what it is.
The world has been destroyed by social media. People are too afraid to speak their minds even to their friends due to the online panopticon, and you wake up to your words being national news, then some fucking redditors are debating whether you're fundamentally evil while on the other hand people defend you in the name of freedom of speech. Never meant to be public. This is all fucked. Everything wrong with the world is a direct consequence of social media.I dream of being born in the 70s so I could've had my youth and adult years with friends I didn't have to worry about posting me on TikTok. A friend of mine once threw a nazi salute as a joke and I seriously felt afraid someone would like photograph it and our lives would be over. He's a leftist. Fuck me, I hate being alive. No one's thoughts should've ever been this public. No one should've ever been this afraid of being "outed" for whatever thought they had.
Happy birthday nietzche
>>24802967>>24802968But thank you :)
>>24802966he probably thought it was beer
>>24802992Ah, yeah, that too. Again, until the smell hit lol. Anyone else would assume some bum peed around. Argh! Why did it leak! The bottle is supposed to be airtight, much less liquid. Maybe because it was frozen so it expanded? idk. Thank God I didn't actually end up getting drug tested because the leakage ruined the bottle and made it unsuitable for that purpose, haha.
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