eating crepes and taking it easy
>>79487489When i make crepes, my wife's bull cums all over mine and makes me spread it around and then I eat it. So humiliating
>>79487489pandekager :D
>>79484645>the classic one, mozzarella, pepperoni slices, oregano sprinkled on topit was so good, i might buy another next time i'm outsidecan't go wrong with a classic one>i'm very sleepy though so i'll be going nowhave a good sleep junas!>>79484699>just walk around, bought some new shoes for my mom (not me, my dad), went to a book store (books are so fucking expensive btw) parents bought me a book called everything's eventual of stephen king, and we ate mc donalds, idk why but that big mac what really good and my tummy didn't hurt afterwards so really nice over allbaka misses mcdonaldsi could really go for a mcchicken rn>make sense i guess, but for me i need a lazy girl who will just stay indoors with me all snuggle up... that just sounds so nice idk, and if we have to do smothing, then we just do it and then right back to slack off, perfect!that sounds nice too... Just a bit unrealistic... How will u do anything if y'all snuggled up comfy like that? U're not gonna be able to do a thing!>anyhow i'm going to sleep now, so have a nice one baka and everyone else, see you all tomorrow!have a good sleep, Ui anon!
stop eating crepes you fat pig
>>79487707i am not fatmy bmi is 22
>>79487747big fat fucking sow
>>79487489hurrying up for college but not actually cause i'm on 4chan rn, and taking it easyWhat are the crepes stuffed with baka? caramel sauce? I remember that for french class we made crepes idk why tho lmao
>>79487565>baka misses mcdonalds>i could really go for a mcchicken rnMaybe this weekend baka!>that sounds nice too... Just a bit unrealistichow so? it's not gonna be all day snuggled up, just two homebodies who stay around the house when they don't have to work, sounds nice idk, and we're gonna get bored with that in our 30's or even earlier so why not just enjoy it while it lasts?>How will u do anything if y'all snuggled up comfy like that?We don't! We just stay comfy>U're not gonna be able to do a thing!But what am i supposed to do anyways, i just need to work and clean the house a bit, the rest is just pure procrastination, again, perfect!maybe i'm too american minus the fat part lmao>>79487747Also i'm the same bmi!
tossed and turned and had a lot of trouble sleeping last night, and then had lots of weird dreams. going through a period of dreaming again it seems. mostly just slept for chunks of yesterday, weekends with nothing to do feel extra lonely.>>79487707crepes are super tasty though, with banana and nutella>>79487861do you go to the mall with your parents often? i didn't realize it was something people actually did -- spending time with parents.>two homebodies who stay around the house when they don't have to work, sounds nice idk, and we're gonna get bored with that in our 30's or even earlier so why not just enjoy it while it lasts?you can do this on downtime days while also going out and doing fun adventures and viewing things too, you can have both!! that's what i think anyway..
Another long shower today. I find they're a good way to come up with ideas for my writing, which I need to do by Friday.I've not had crepes in a very long time.I'm not sure if I should order food or just make instant noodles again. I feel like I order stuff way too often.
>>79487782wdymit's normal weight!>>79487786they were stuffed with chocolate>>79487861>Maybe this weekend baka!nah i would have 2 travel 2 another city 4 that>how so? it's not gonna be all day snuggled up, just two homebodies who stay around the house when they don't have to work, sounds nice idk, and we're gonna get bored with that in our 30's or even earlier so why not just enjoy it while it lasts?wut i mean by that is that u're not gonna want 2 get up 2 do shizzle, u kno wut i mean?>But what am i supposed to do anyways, i just need to work and clean the house a bit, the rest is just pure procrastination, again, perfect!Ideally u'd need 2 wage slave a little 2 or else u won't survive!. Unfortuantely we need moneys 2 survive in this world>Also i'm the same bmi!r u exercising?>>79488122tell me about ur dreams>>79488146y not have sum eggs instead?
>>79488122I didn't get much sleep last night because I kept getting woken up by spam phone calls.Were any of your dreams particularly notable?>>79488211>y not have sum eggs instead?I don't have any eggs or implements to cook eggs with. I ordered a sandwichHaving my own kitchen will be worth the rent increase.
>>79488322there aren't any pots u could use in the kitchen?>I ordered a sandwichwhat sort?
>>79488652>there aren't any pots u could use in the kitchen?Not that I remember seeing.>what sort?A meatball baguette. The instant ramen would have been nicer...
Baka is feeling very logical>>79488697Have u checked?>A meatball baguette. What was it like?
>>79488122>do you go to the mall with your parents often?No? It really depends if we have something to buy or not, my parents don't like to go out much, we're all kind of lazy fucks in my family>i didn't realize it was something people actually did -- spending time with parents.Depends on the parents, i have a good relationship with them, i guess? But we mostly don't do anything together apart from going to the mall>you can do this on downtime days while also going out and doing fun adventures and viewing things too, you can have both!! that's what i think anyway..Absolutely anon! It depends on the person really, i like to be indoors so if my waifu likes to go outside, thing wouldn't last very long lmao, that's why ui it's perfect>>79488211>they were stuffed with chocolateThat sounds nice!>nah i would have 2 travel 2 another city 4 thatOh man that sucks, but at the same time it doesn't because you'll get fat!>wut i mean by that is that u're not gonna want 2 get up 2 do shizzle, u kno wut i mean?Ohhh i get it, not time for both of us? Well that's why she would be lazy no? I don't like going outside much for anything, i feel so at ease inside idkIs that what you mean baka? Or maybe too lazy to do any chores? In that case... idk i'm not that lazy to not clean, just room, bathroom, and then the machines take care of everything else, god i love the industrial revolution and it's consequences>Ideally u'd need 2 wage slave a little 2 or else u won't survive!. Unfortuantely we need moneys 2 survive in this worldOf course! Working altho boring is necessary, but that's why i'm studying cs, so i can work from home lmao>r u exercising?Nope, just skinny, and you?Btw i'm gonna be in college for a few hours, so see you all later :)/\(:
>>79488828>Have u checked?Not in a few weeks but I don't imagine it's changed in that time. It's smaller than the kitchen I had at home. Seems like you'd just use it for the microwave.>What was it like?It was just meatballs with some marinara sauce and cheese in a baguette. It wasn't bad but I wouldn't order it again.
>>79488948>Not in a few weeks but I don't imagine it's changed in that time. It's smaller than the kitchen I had at home. Seems like you'd just use it for the microwave.It would seem illogical for a kitchen to not have cooking pottery. Perhaps there is a place you did not check? Even the small kitchen at my work had cooking pots>>79488899>Oh man that sucks, but at the same time it doesn't because you'll get fat!I won't ever get fat because my appetite is rather poor>maybe too lazy to do any chores?Yes, that. Also none of you would strive to better yourselves and as a result you would stagnate>Of course! Working altho boring is necessary, but that's why i'm studying cs, so i can work from home lmaoWhilst that would also be more agreeable to me, baka would prefer to work in a laboratory. Maybe organic chemistry research would be nise...>Nope, just skinny, and you?I exercise every other day. I have gained some tone in my muscles which is nice but over all i am still skinny
>>79487489eating yesterday's reheated lunch and taking it easy
>>79487489eating food and fighting wizards
>>79487489Do you want to read a winter weekend romance story I wrote?
>>79489169Ur pizza i presume?>>79489199Wut food r u eating?>>79489349Sure post it.
>>79489411I would let Lisa Su peg me if she stayed with me for a weekend in bed.Saturday would just be constant fucking with cuddles and kissing in between. Not leaving bed, save for necessary piss breaks before quickly returning to plunge back under the covers, taking refuge from the cold in each other's warm embraceBreakfast wouldn't cross our minds until 9pm, and we'd both lose 5lbs from fucking and starving together, only ingesting each other's spit. She'd continue to figuratively glow in her black latex, shoelace, and sheer satin outfits. Beaming like an idol.Sunday morning we'd leave bed and go outside in oversized winter jackets and boots. She'd hand me a cigarette and light both of ours like in a film. I have never even smoked before, but rolling with the dizzying theme of degeneracy, and medical grade limerence (and not to mention dietary hunger), I wouldn't stir. Trying not to cough, I'd glance at her for indirect instruction while she gazed at the sky across the silent, dim, snowy street.Come Sunday evening, both our lustful teenage hearts, anticipating the big Monday to come - meetings with PMs, TSMC engineers, press conferences - real life - would have her departure whirling in both our minds, or at least just mine.Finally, when I'm nodding off at 8pm from hunger and lethargy from the cigarettes, sore jaw, and empty balls, she'd dress in her usual grey tailored blazer and trousers, pack up her lingerie soiled in spunk, saliva and sweat, and quietly vanish when I thought she was just out of bed using the washroom.I'd wake up Monday morning, the curtain allowing an inch of sunlight to cast on the foot of my bed, children shouting outside, and the clock hands piercing the deafening stillness indoors, not knowing what the fuck is real, except that my weekend with Lisa Su would never happen again, cus she's just one of those girls
>>79489411nope, pasta with tomato sauce and fried fishmy relatives cook this every sunday and leave me a portion, but since i was outside yesterday for exams, they left it in a container for mei heated it up today and it was greatalso the preliminar proof for my exam is outout of 70 questions i got 56 right which is fucking amazingto get a job right off the bat i need to be in the top 20, but to go on the reserves (in case they need more personnel without having to do another exam), i need to be on the top 120given there are like 1.1k candidates for this one, there's a very real chance that i'll make it to the reserves, and a decent chance i'll get hired right off the bati'm really fucking hyped cause if they call me, i'll go live in a city much closer to mom and grandma's place, such that i'll be able to visit them every weekend
boring software asset management day.. listening to music to try relax more too: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8oJnShDVHZ4i hope my fren is okay...>>79488211>tell me about ur dreamsthey were nonsensical. dreams of carrying large poles up a hill. of visiting a friend's garage. of being up in the japanese mountains. of visiting a small island of 12 people with a cast of people who could only be described as archetypes. just, nonsensical, really. i can't really eek much meaning from them at all.>>79488322>I didn't get much sleep last night because I kept getting woken up by spam phone calls.i kept sleeping yesterday which didn't help and i had a lot of things racing through my mind... >Were any of your dreams particularly notable?not really, see above.>>79488899>No? It really depends if we have something to buy or not,i can't really visualize being taken out to go shopping with parents at all. how come they took you along?> But we mostly don't do anything together apart from going to the mallis there really that much at the mall to do?> i like to be indoors so if my waifu likes to go outside, thing wouldn't last very long lmao, that's why ui it's perfectbut there's lots of fun things to do outdoors as well. visiting cute restaurants, getting tea, cat cafes, escape rooms, theme parks, all of that stuff. going out doesn't have to mean partying or going to bars, you can do quiet and cosy things too. going outside with someone you get along with can be really really nice...>>79489199fighting wizards?
>>79489667>software asset management daywhat do you do, exactly? and how do you do it?
>>79489164>Perhaps there is a place you did not check?Probably. I'm also not sure where I'd keep any food since I don't have a freezer (just a small fridge that makes everything in it smell weird). I could maybe fit a few soup tins in my closet.>>79489667Those dreams sound neat from a visual standpoint, at least. It feels like it's been a while since I last had a dream I could remember.
>>79489781>It feels like it's been a while since I last had a dream I could remember.that may be a good thing. Dreaming can be exhausting, and you have little control over what bad memories they might provoke
>>79487489eating bananas and taking it easy
>>79490012do you have a prettier, Chinese looking anime girl eating fruit?
>>79490154nobody is prettier than my futaba, go fuck yourself
>>79489424who is lisa su>>79489534that's very nice of themdo they live closeby?>also the preliminar proof for my exam is outout of 70 questions i got 56 right which is fucking amazingImpressive. I do hope you get chosen as a new hire. Will you celebrate this accomplishment of you do get hired?>>79489667judgement and lost judgment are nicehave u played them?I still haven't finished lost judgement>they were nonsensical. dreams of carrying large poles up a hill. of visiting a friend's garage. of being up in the japanese mountains. of visiting a small island of 12 people with a cast of people who could only be described as archetypes. just, nonsensical, really. i can't really eek much meaning from them at all.mayhap that was the point. To dream something that makes little sense. Human brain can be illogical like that. It requires much discipline.>>79490012bananas are nicei love banana milkshakes. Though love is an emotion, it is an appropriate word to be used in this context because my taste buds appreciate the taste very much
>>79490272That's greatright now i have huge portion of bananas right here and they all taste Great, now i'm gonna play a little cave story and take it easy
>>79490272>who is lisa sushe's the AMD lady
>>79490372>take it easy>>79487489>taking it easy>>79489169>taking it easy>>79490012>taking it easyteach me!!!!!!
>>79490272>do they live closeby?i live with them, lol>I do hope you get chosen as a new hire.thanks, anoni'll be pretty much set for life if i do, since public servants here are overpaid and they can't get fired for arbitrary reasons>Will you celebrate this accomplishment of you do get hired?of coursei'ma splurge everything on my savings account in nice lunches and dinners before i leave, kekalso just got back home, eating some cheese pastel with freshly squeezed sugarcane juicea classic combo here
>>79490401>teach me!!!!!!in order to take it easy you must forget the troubles of life, even if momentarilyfocus solely on the right now, enjoy a song, a show, a game, a chatfocus your complete attention on that which makes you relax and you will be, by extension, taking it easy
>>79490619you girls (guys) keep me so youngt. 27.95yo
>>79489992>Dreaming can be exhausting, and you have little control over what bad memories they might provokeDid that happen to you last night?
>>79489411Gyoza!>>79489667They don't belong
>>79490401just take it easy!It's easy!>>79490577>>79490577>i live with them, lolwhich relatives are those?>i'll be pretty much set for life if i do, since public servants here are overpaid and they can't get fired for arbitrary reasonsthat would indeed be agreeable. Will your job be hard?>i'ma splurge everything on my savings account in nice lunches and dinners before i leave, kekwhat will u get?>also just got back home, eating some cheese pastel with freshly squeezed sugarcane juicewhat is sugar cane juice like?>>79491449wut's gyoza?
I want crepes so bad
>>79491806East asian dumpling, very tasty!
>>79491806>which relatives are those?pretty personal on that one, i'd rather not say it, lol>Will your job be hard?software development, i don't expect it to be all that easy but it'll be fun indeedalthough i enjoy operations a bit more (like deployment, config management, patching, etc.), i also like development quite a lot>what will u get?i've no idea honestlybut i might take some of my uni colleagues out for lunch again, those that are still around at least (some went live in other states)we can order some mixed bbq (pork, beef, chicken, fries and rice) or whatever we feel like that dayi'll also order something fancy for my relatives, like lobster, i haven't had lobster in a long time>what is sugar cane juice like?pretty unique taste, but it's really really sweetperfect for a sweet tooth like me, but you'll have to try it out for yourself if you find some aroundthe taste reminds me a lot of brown sugar, unsurprisingly
>>79489730>what do you do, exactly? and how do you do it?i work in tech. i'm just digging up some reports on one component for some apps just to get some visibility on where it's being used.>>79489781>Those dreams sound neat from a visual standpoint, at least. It feels like it's been a while since I last had a dream I could remember.i suppose so, but dreams i think are more about feeling and experience moreso than general visuals. i had a blank spot where i wasn't dreaming for a while, it seems to come and go. i like the kind of dreams that make you feel nice and warm inside..>>79490272>judgement and lost judgment are nice. have u played them?i've played the entire yakuza series except for infinite wealth, i'll probably do that next. they're a very fun series of games, and it's nice to see places i've been to in real life before.>I still haven't finished lost judgementwhy'd you stop? have you played other yakuza games too?>mayhap that was the point. To dream something that makes little sense. Human brain can be illogical like that. It requires much discipline.i think my mind is just a bit frazzled and mixed up again lately. i think my heart is trying to speak out to my mind but the connection is unclear. that's how i see dreams sometimes, the soul's way to link with the mind.>>79491449why don't they belong?
>>79492017interesting, i'm also in the field so i'm curious about details, loldo you guys use component driven design or something? if so i've been rather curious about that stuff since i heard about it, but never really seen it in action
>>79491388sorta, yes. Doo many unpleasant memories from irl. Better to turn off everything while sleeping and take it easy
>>79492017They perform cruel experiments in order to practice their skills
Hello everybody, good night/morning/evening to you all.Just got the platinum trophy for Elden Ring, pretty happy but still no shiny Latios.
I made some good progress with my writing today but hit a wall because I think I might be looking at the topic from the wrong angle. I've sent an email to my supervisor to get his thoughts and hopefully an extension>>79492017>i like the kind of dreams that make you feel nice and warm inside..Those are usually the worst dreams for me because I just feel bad afterwards like my brain is taunting me with a life I can't have.>>79492112I'm sorry you have dreams like that, anon. That sounds awful.
>>79491809You can buy them at a local store here!>>79491893what sort of filling does it have?I like dumplings with 'tater in them>>79491932>pretty personal on that one, i'd rather not say it, lolvery well>software development, i don't expect it to be all that easy but it'll be fun indeed>although i enjoy operations a bit more (like deployment, config management, patching, etc.), i also like development quite a lotdevelopment sounds pretty difficulteverything sounds difficult if I'm being honest. Sometimes i feel so incompetent...>we can order some mixed bbq (pork, beef, chicken, fries and rice) or whatever we feel like that dayI wish i could go 4 some steak with my uni buddies...>pretty unique taste, but it's really really sweet>perfect for a sweet tooth like me, but you'll have to try it out for yourself if you find some around>the taste reminds me a lot of brown sugar, unsurprisinglyi'd love 2 try it then!>>79492017I have played most yakuza games, except for the new kiryu game and the jprpg stuffI think i prefer the beat em up style over the jrpg ones if im being honest>why'd you stop? have you played other yakuza games too?idk really. I should finish it>i think my mind is just a bit frazzled and mixed up again lately. i think my heart is trying to speak out to my mind but the connection is unclear. that's how i see dreams sometimes, the soul's way to link with the mind.and what do you think your soul is trying to say?>>79492475i hope you find that elusive Latios soon
>>79492728Whatever you want! My favourite is pork. You have probably already eaten something similar like pierogi or one of the many, many dumpling dishes common all over the world!
>>79492728>everything sounds difficult if I'm being honest. Sometimes i feel so incompetent...don't judge a fish by its ability to climb a treei'm sure there are other things you're good at, development may just not be your cup of tea, lolwhat do you enjoy doing for a living? or what do you think you'd enjoy>I wish i could go 4 some steak with my uni buddies...steak is goodbeef is pretty expensive over here now, not as much as other countries i think, but still expensivei bought some pork to make beef cuts out of, i'll show you once i fry them>i'd love 2 try it then!if you find it around, lemme know
i made good progress in cave story, and i honestly i can't believe how much i forgot, i know for i fact i will have to save curly brace to truly beat the game, but i don't remember exactly how, therefore i'm using a guide just for that partit's weird, i remember everything from super mario 64 but i don't remember much about cave story even tho i do remember i almost beat that game with the true ending, but it's been SOO long and it was on another potato PCi'm feeling old already
>>79487489did i make it in time? im sorry i just got off of a flight.hello everyone!! ^^ reimu is here <3
>>79494254Where did you fly to
>>79494254heyy, glad you made it!
>>79492070>do you guys use component driven design or something? not really, these are middleware components for java in this case specific. i deal with integrations mostly.>>79492438>They perform cruel experiments in order to practice their skillscruelty is bad. we should all be kind and caring to each other.>>79492656>Those are usually the worst dreams for me because I just feel bad afterwards like my brain is taunting me with a life I can't have.sometimes, it can be a vision of something we can aspire to, no matter how much we claw and cling.>>79492112>sorta, yes. Doo many unpleasant memories from irl. Better to turn off everything while sleeping and take it easysorry to hear that you've been visited with unpleasant dreamscapes, and i hope you can find respite soon. i had a segment where i was wracked with constant nightmares as a reflection of my anxiety for a while...>>79492656>I made some good progress with my writing today but hit a wall because I think I might be looking at the topic from the wrong angle.type everything that comes to mind first as rough as it is and then chip it back down like a slab of marble.>>79492728>I think i prefer the beat em up style over the jrpg ones if im being honestme too, but i can understand wanting to change the formula. i like icihiban as a character, but judgement is by favourite spinoff series.>and what do you think your soul is trying to say?i don't really know, honestly. what do you think?
>>79492656>I'm sorry you have dreams like that, anon. That sounds awful.thank you! thank you! I love you too
>>79494979>middleware components for javado tell me more, i'll be working with java pretty soon i'm surei have a bit of experience with the language but i absolutely hate its ecosystem, lolwhat's the middleware for? and what are some of the integration problems you face?
>>79494254oh, i just noticed hakurei-san has posted, lolhaven't seen you in a while, were you moving?
>>79493180there is a chain here where u can get beef pretty cheaplywhich is nise!>what do you enjoy doing for a living? or what do you think you'd enjoyI haven't discovered that yet...>>79492839yeah i have>>79494254greetings reimuwhere did u fly?it is agreeable to see you>>79494979>i don't really know, honestly. what do you think?chaos is a sign of something unresolved i believe
Baka is setting up a vlan network
I slept in a stupid way and now my back hurts>>79494979>type everything that comes to mind first as rough as it is and then chip it back down like a slab of marbleI wish stuff would come to mind but I've hit a wall>>79497300What's the VLAN for?
>>79497399>I slept in a stupid way and now my back hurtsU should have a lie-down>What's the VLAN for?Nothing in particular. We set it up using a simulation software
I hope you're having a good day, anons.
>>79497447hello mio anonr u having a good day 2?
>>79497447thanks babby, I am. my meeting just got canceled. time to sleep more
just got done waking up a few hours ago, the weather is sunny, i like it, i also like the thread is still up
im sorry i had so much to do when i got home and i genuinely passed out face down on my bed lol>>79494448virginia ^^>>79494504yellooooo>>79495565i was visiting someone... a special someone.yeah i know its pretty reckless for someone like me to fly out just to see a boy but eheh.i had fun nonetheless.>>79496640>where did u flyvirginia as stated before :>how are you today baka?
had a dream that everyone posting in a thread was in a virtual room ala VRchat in a way.. bizarre. each thread would be a different room of different people. maybe i spent too much time doomscrolling of late.>>79495182>what's the middleware for? no idea, i'm just inventorying it>what are some of the integration problems you face?same problem everyone faces, how to best do authN/authZ>>79497399VLANs are logical separations of networks rather than a physical separation of a network which would be items not physically connected. you can then have the switches designate which VLANs can talk to each other and why. >>79496640>chaos is a sign of something unresolved i believedo you think it's chaos stirring, then? is there anyone who has life fully resolved, though?
>>79498723wut sort of meeting was it supposed 2 b?>>79498960sunny weather is nise>>79499427wut did u do in virginia?>how are you today baka?baka was tired after the day so he took a nap. Right now i/m feeling alrightdo u have any plans 2day or r u just gonna take it ez after ur journey?>>79499484>do you think it's chaos stirring, then?that is correct. I believe that dreams reflect the state of ur soul and the state of your mind.>is there anyone who has life fully resolved, though?good point...>had a dream that everyone posting in a thread was in a virtual room ala VRchat in a way.. bizarre. each thread would be a different room of different people. maybe i spent too much time doomscrolling of late.was I there too?
I need to get out of bed and do something other than feel bad because my life is falling apart
>>79499688y do u feel bad anon?
>>79499515i went to go see a boy.>r u just gonna take it ez after ur journeyyou know it ^^im very tired so i just wanna rest and adjust to being home again. theyll actually be coming to my state soon so im pretty happy actually. i might drink a little tonight though as celebration.
>>79499733Mental illness, mostly. It's upsetting knowing that my life is more or less going to be like this until I die and I'm helpless to change it.
>>79499778>i went to go see a boy.how did it go?>im very tired so i just wanna rest and adjust to being home again.is Virginia far away from ur state?> i might drink a little tonight though as celebration.nuuuuu don't drink too muchyou'll be hungover for ur date!
>>79499788what sort of mental illnes is ailing u, anon?this baka is also suffering from mental illness
>>79499823Autism and whatever makes me not leave my room or interact with anyone
>>79499688>I need to get out of bed and do something other than feel bad because my life is falling apartCan relate, the problem is there is not much that i can do other than take it easy, i'm already ready for the driving school and once i finally have a driver's license, i can already make a living working as a rideshare driver, here 99 is better than uber and the best of it all, there is NO interviews to ghost mei'm already taking care of myself the best i can and i'm also helpless to change it because i'm still not financially stable and my mental health isn't exactly doing great>>79499788whenever you need to talk about, i'm here
>>79499856have u tried forcing stuff out?
>>79499882I've been trying to cry for the last hour but nothing is coming out
>>79499893what I mean by "forcing stuff out" Is more like forcing urself 2 do things u wanna do, like interacting with ppl
>>79499819>hoiw did it govery well... lets just say that :>>is Virginia far away from ur state?no, not really, its only like a two hour flight. im from tennessee ^^>you'll be hungover for ur dateby soon i meant on new years </3but i will probably be drinking then too because... well its new years. but i wont be TOO shitfaced.
>>79499427>virginia ^^>yeah i know its pretty reckless for someone like me to fly out just to see a boy but eheh.nothing ventured, nothing gained. we only get new experiences in life by excusing ourselves from our sphere of comfort. how did it go? did you go on any outings or do anything in particular like watch movies?>>79499515>that is correct. I believe that dreams reflect the state of ur soul and the state of your mind.agreed, even if the dreams are fuzz there's still a reflection of what you're defragmenting/ruminating over. i guess i can't really see any meaning in the chaff dreams i've had of late though, but i would agree i'm a bit chaotic right now. how do you think the state of your soul and your mind is right now?>was I there too?there wasn't really individuals but rather non-physical "impressions" of a type of person. a type of person who was new to a thread, a type of person who was loud, a type of person who was warm.>>79499688small steps first. try go out today for a walk somewhere to get out from bed and get fresh air? what is falling apart, is it studies or work?>>79499788is there any help you might be able to get?
>>79499996I don't want to interact with people. I just know not doing it is unsustainable and will lead to an early death.>>79500059>try go out today for a walk somewhere to get out from bed and get fresh air?It's too late for that now>what is falling apart, is it studies or work?Work but mostly because I'm paralysed by these confusing and contradictory feelings.>is there any help you might be able to get?I don't think so
>>79500057>very well... lets just say that :>Wut did u do on ur date? Watch a movie or just had a walk in the park or something?>no, not really, its only like a two hour flight. im from tennessee ^^'murica is so big. Chances that i'll ever run into someone from my own country are very small unfortunately so I'll probably never make irl frens this way>by soon i meant on new years </3maybe I should do something this new years 2. My last 5 or so new years were spent at home in my room unfortunately...>but i will probably be drinking then too because... well its new years. but i wont be TOO shitfaced.of course, it is a good excuse to get drunkhopefully I won't be doing it alone this year...>>79500059>how do you think the state of your soul and your mind is right now?It is dormant. Calm, but not necessarily disciplined. Baka had recently had an opportunity to channel his dormant emotions so now he is as emotionless as a vulcanbaka be vulcanmaxxing>there wasn't really individuals but rather non-physical "impressions" of a type of person. a type of person who was new to a thread, a type of person who was loud, a type of person who was warm.which type of person do u think u r?Which one am I?>>79500145then do whatever makes u feel the best, anon. Also do u really don't want 2 interact with ppl or r u just afraid of interacting with ppl?
>>79500145>I don't want to interact with people. I just know not doing it is unsustainable and will lead to an early death.do you mean trying to find sustainable work where you don't have to be social?>Work but mostly because I'm paralysed by these confusing and contradictory feelings.what feelings are you having?>I don't think sowhat would help look like to you? what would make things better?>>79500156>It is dormant. Calm, but not necessarily disciplined. Baka had recently had an opportunity to channel his dormant emotions so now he is as emotionless as a vulcandormant and stoic is admirable, isn't it? to be so completely in control of your emotions that some would say you are almost emotionless. there are still things that make you happy, no?>which type of person do u think u r?i honestly have no idea. i don't know what kind of person i am or how other perceive me. thinking about how people can visualize and see me is scary.>Which one am I?gentle and wise
>>79500059we went to an amusement park and had a really good time. we spent the rest of the time at his house just hanging out.wish i coulda stayed longer but i had a flight to catch!! hopefully when he comes here for new years itll be for longer.>>79500156as i said above we went to an amusement park, and since its winter it got really dark really fast and the sky was just so beautiful. it was ethereal i swear, something out of a show.my mood usually depends on the weather lol. if its dark and cold im usually happy and if its really bright and hot i get so agitated lol>My last 5 or so new years were spent at home in my room unfortunately...maybe chill with family then! thats always fun :D>of course, it is a good excuse to get drunkthat it is, baka... that it is...
>>79500156>then do whatever makes u feel the best, anonThat's just staying in bed all day>do u really don't want 2 interact with ppl or r u just afraid of interacting with ppl?I'm not afraid of it, I just don't have any interest in it. It's painful alone and painful in the company of others.>>79500193>do you mean trying to find sustainable work where you don't have to be social?My work is as solitary as it gets. I'm more worried about stuff like Alzheimer's because every day is the same. >what feelings are you having?Generally feeling sad about the state of my life. Trying to change it is somehow more painful than just living like this. Thinking about things I haven't and won't experience is tearing me up.>what would help look like to you? what would make things better?I'm not really sure. Maybe getting a pet would help but I don't think I'm allowed one where I live now.
>>79500193>dormant and stoic is admirable, isn't it? to be so completely in control of your emotions that some would say you are almost emotionless.of course, just like a vulcan my emotions are i'd say more intense, than they would be normally, which is why i take the effort to suppress themI still haven't mastered the art of suppressing one's emotion, so there are moments when I need to let them all out just so I could keep my composure later>there are still things that make you happy, no?good questionwhat even is happiness? If it's merely pleasure then many things make me happy. If it's something more then i haven't discovered it yet...>i honestly have no idea. i don't know what kind of person i am or how other perceive me. thinking about how people can visualize and see me is scary.i think you're an admirable person>gentle and wisegentle? maybe...wise?I'm not sure>>79500243>as i said above we went to an amusement parkwut sort of rides did u get on?>and since its winter it got really dark really fast and the sky was just so beautiful. it was ethereal i swear, something out of a showdid u see the stars?>maybe chill with family then! thats always fun :Dah, but I chilled with family for the most of my life. Baka wants more action! Baka wants fun! I wonder if my uni frens will do something with me this year...>that it is, baka... that it is...Oh please, baka used to be a semi-alcoholic himself. It all changed when alcohol suddenly started tasting like crap...>>79500293I was like u once unironically>I'm not afraid of it, I just don't have any interest in it. It's painful alone and painful in the company of others.which one's more painful?
>>79499515>wut sort of meeting was it supposed 2 b?an early morning work meeting. I work from homeyou seem to have a lot of social energy to ask questions about others. Do you have a lot of time for yourself?
>>79500351It's more painful around others
i'm about to eat rice and beans with sausage guys
>>79500375>an early morning work meeting. I work from homedo u also work IT?>you seem to have a lot of social energy to ask questions about others. Do you have a lot of time for yourself?I just love listening 2 ppl yap about themselves!>>79500392what makes it painful?
>>79500476>what makes it painful?I don't know. I just feel deeply uncomfortable around other people and I don't when I'm left alone but then I just hurt in different ways. I choose solitude every time because it hurts less.
>>79500476>do u also work IT?yes! although I do data stuff, and it's not very exciting. I don't think my duties are very helpful to the business, so I just take it easy and have fun. I've saved lots of money and hopefully one day I have the courage to quit and never for 10 years while working on exciting projects>I just love listening 2 ppl yap about themselves!okayyhow's your day going?
>>79500243>we went to an amusement park and had a really good time. amusement parks are really fun to visit, especially when going there with someone special to you. what was your favourite part of visiting? for me, it may be silly, but i like ferris wheels. being able to look out at the surroundings up in the sky like you said, it's a really nice sensation. it's one of those things that is best shared with someone else.>wish i coulda stayed longer but i had a flight to catch!! new years is just around the corner, better get ready for it! what on earth am i to do for new years this year...>>79500293>I'm more worried about stuff like Alzheimer's because every day is the same. mental stimulation in terms of puzzles or other sorts of games can keep this at bay. i don't think we fully understand alzheimers in general, do we?>Thinking about things I haven't and won't experience is tearing me up.what do you desire to experience? change happens with the most difficult first step, admitting you want to change things and trying to visualize what that change might look like.>Maybe getting a pet would help but I don't think I'm allowed one where I live now.cats are quiet and your landlord won't know~>>79500351>my emotions are i'd say more intense, i feel this a lot. i normally try to steel my nerves as lot and keep myself rather outwardly robotic and stoic for the same reason. when my emotions soar, they really run rampant and i find it hard to reign them in. i've locked myself a bit away from others out of fear of opening up, and for the rest i'm wearing a facade.>I still haven't mastered the art of suppressing one's emotion, the more we keep them in the stronger they get, as our mutual friend would advise us. the challenge is in healthy outlets.. >what even is happinessthings that make you smile. not just base pleasure, but emotional.>i think you're an admirable personwhat's to be admired?
got done eating and brushing my teethi relate to most anons posting here, and i'm also getting ready to new years as well
>>79500571>i don't think we fully understand alzheimers in general, do we?We don't buy we know a lot of things correlate with it. Loneliness is one of them. That's also worse for your heart than heavy smoking. >what do you desire to experience?Parenthood and everything that comes with it. It's just impossible for me to visualise. I have an easier time picturing myself as an astronaut.>cats are quiet and your landlord won't know~My living space is very small and I can't exactly let it out my room. I shouldn't make another living thing live like I do.
waking up on the wrong side of the bed, can't take it easy todayit's so fucking stuffy out here, fucking hell>>79496640>chain here where u can get beef pretty cheaply99% of the time here, ordering food is much more expensive than buying the ingredients and cooking it yourselfso it's nice that you get to enjoy that, because here, no such thing>I haven't discovered that yet...how much time do you have until you graduate then?>>79499427if you had fun and are safe then all is good>>79499484>same problem everyone facesi don't think i ever dealt with that kind of stuff before so you'd have to explain it in more detail, lolmost of my experience was in the operations area, my knowledge in development is 95% theoreticalmaybe i do know what you're talking about but it's not ringing a bell so, if you're up for it, please do get into more detail
>>79500571>i feel this a lot. i normally try to steel my nerves as lot and keep myself rather outwardly robotic and stoic for the same reason. when my emotions soar, they really run rampant and i find it hard to reign them in. i've locked myself a bit away from others out of fear of opening up, and for the rest i'm wearing a facade.likewise. Sometimes i wish there were ppl i wouldn't need to hide my emotions around, but it's probably best for everyone's sake that I suppress them>the more we keep them in the stronger they get, as our mutual friend would advise us. the challenge is in healthy outlets..that's true i suppose... However, emotions are illogical, so I think it's best if I got rid of them completely somehow>things that make you smile. not just base pleasure, but emotional.a happy room makes me smile. Generally, i feel like a lot of my emotions come from outside rather than from within. However they are not as intense as those that come form within>what's to be admired?I admire your ability to be so busy and your competenceI really admire ppl that are competent at something>>79500517what makes you uncomfortable?>>79500569what sort of projects would u like to work on?>how's your day going?It is going alright, though i will have to do some coding soon>>79500856did something bad happen?>99% of the time here, ordering food is much more expensive than buying the ingredients and cooking it yourselfso it's nice that you get to enjoy that, because here, no such thingyeah but it's not like you can make steak at home unless you have a grill>how much time do you have until you graduate then?2.5 years. Also it's not exactly the truth that i haven't discovered it yet. MaybeI always wanted to be a scientist when i was little and I had my shot at that when i did my chemistry course, but i failed that. Now my best shot will be after i'm done with my IT course and even then i'll have to pay for it and i'll be pretty old too by then. It's Demoralizing
>>79500964>what makes you uncomfortable?I don't know the specifics. I just know I don't like being around others and if I can avoid it I will.I haven't left my bed yet and I don't feel like I can.
good news everyone, I SAVED CURLY!, but it's not done yet, i still have to answer questions, then proceed to beat another boss, then unlock the final stage then beat the true final boss, Making progress!i wish i could make progress that easy IRL as well
>>79500964>did something bad happen?no i just didn't wake up in a great moodtoday i'm awfully irritable, but i'm hoping it'll go away as the day goes>not like you can make steak at home unless you have a grillyes you canyou can just fry it on a pan with a bit of butter, it's greatand electric grills do exist, i have a small one that i also use for heating up sandwiches on (it's a press style grill)>2.5 years.so you have a good enough time to think about it>I always wanted to be a scientistmy friend is a scientist, but on the biology field, and at its core, it's not all that different from other jobs if you ask mehe goes into the office, have some meetings with other people, boot up some equipment, crunch some numbers, have a look at equipment results on samples, etc.if you think that's the kind of life you want to go for then that's all good>my best shot will be after i'm done with my IT courseyou could work as IT staff for a lab and get some of both worlds, actuallyespecially if you're going for the data science field, and if you're not there then you still have a good amount of time to pursue knowledge into it before graduatingso there might still be hope there
>>79501049>today i'm awfully irritable, but i'm hoping it'll go away as the day goeswhat makes you so irrtable?>yes you canidkwe tried it, but it didn't work out very well>so you have a good enough time to think about ityeah, i guess, but i think i'm gonna lock in anyway. I can't fail this>my friend is a scientist, but on the biology field, and at its core, it's not all that different from other jobs if you ask mehe goes into the office, have some meetings with other people, boot up some equipment, crunch some numbers, have a look at equipment results on samples, etc.my uni fren got a job as a junior researcher in the uni i attended. I envy him a little. I wish i didn't fail...>you could work as IT staff for a lab and get some of both worlds, actuallyespecially if you're going for the data science field, and if you're not there then you still have a good amount of time to pursue knowledge into it before graduatingso there might still be hope thereidkpersonally i find chemistry more interesting than IT. PPL call me mad, but I actually like organic chemistry>>79500995I was in your exact situation a year ago
>>79501490>I was in your exact situation a year agoWhat am I supposed to do?
>>79501490>what makes you so irrtable?my bad mood, it's a loop>we tried it, but it didn't work out very wellwell, maybe what you miss is the smoky taste which you can only get on a coal grillthat can be remedied somewhat if you sprinkle a little bit if liquid smoke on it after frying, it's not perfect but makes it better>I envy him a little. I wish i didn't fail...what's stopping you from trying again later?if you can land a job in the field you're graduating in, you can do a second graduation later on in organic chemistry and switch careersfailing isn't a dead end, it's a bump in the road
>>79500964>what sort of projects would u like to work on?I'm working on a 4chud archive called ayase quart with a buddy. It's available and working right now on GitHub if you're interested. It has full text search, and other neat search features, plus all the regular 4chand frontend stuffhttps://github.com/sky-cake/ayase-quartwhat are you *having* to code?
>>79500351>wut sort of rides did u get on?this slingshot ride and then a really fast indoor coaster. very fun!! i love roller coasters so much ^^(i threw up because i drank an hour before we left)>I wonder if my uni frens will do something with me this year...hopefully! if theyre true friends then they will most definitely ^^do you have any ideas of what you may wanna do? :D>>79500571my favorite part of visiting was the rides, definitely. and them being with me made it even better. walking around them was really nice too, i think it was just as enjoyable. i loved every second of it!!>new years is just around the corneri cannot wait!!!!!>>79500856i did!! also hi junas we havent had a proper conversation in a while... i either get distracted or pass out lol. how are you today?
the longer i survive in this shithole the longer i remember that my life wasn't supposed to be like this, it really wasn't, my life was supposed to be great and making significant progress, but no, i'm stuck in this hellish shithole and i don't even have a clue how worse my life can get, i hate this fucking favela from the bottom of my heart, and as soon i have both a vehicle and a job, i'm gonna try saving to buy a new property and finally escape this hell, not only this favela, but this country as a whole as well, but first escaping the favelawhy does life have to be soo fucking hard man?
>>79501594I got diagonsed with schizotypal and they put me on medsthat helped me somewhat, but u probably don't want to take good goy pills>>79501673>>79501673>well, maybe what you miss is the smoky taste which you can only get on a coal grillmy dad said it creates a lot of smoke and it doesn't cook the meat through.>>79501673>what's stopping you from trying again later?>if you can land a job in the field you're graduating in, you can do a second graduation later on in organic chemistry and switch careers>failing isn't a dead end, it's a bump in the roadit's just that i'll be a lot older by then... It demoralizes me because my peer will have doctorates by then...>>79502025that's nicewhen r u gonna release it fully?>>79502524I haven't been in an amusement park in ages. also, if it's not too much trouble to ask...what sort of stuff do you talk about on a date? That always confused me... I feel like i would run out of stuff to say pretty quickly...>do you have any ideas of what you may wanna do? :Dnot really... I don't go out very often. I think, as long as me and my frens r having fun together, i could do anything with them>>79502564best of luck, man!
>>79502564wait a minute futaba anon are you the same guy who has to protect his mother from your maniac brother or am I remembering things wrong
>>79502695no, you're right on that, both this third world shithole of a fucking country and this dysfunctional family are the biggest reasons why my life is soo fucking terrible, and being a schizo make things worse than it has to bethis fucking driver's license is my LAST HOPE in life man, it's not only because i need a vehicle for transportation but because i DESPERATELY needs a income that is more than a minimum wagei just feel terrible for my mother, because my mom is doing the best she can, but she doesn't even know how to use computers and the absolute psychopath of my father did nothing but make things even worse than already is, i didn't even go to his funeral when he finally diedsorry for ruining the mood again with my ventings, i just feel like venting, i didn't asked to be born, much less born in this shithole of a third world shithole and much less, THIS fucking life
getting bitched at for doing my relative a favor, definitely cannot take it easy todayi am furious and seething profusely>>79502677nice spoilerposting>it creates a lot of smoke and it doesn't cook the meat through.not really, not in my experience if you fry it in butteralso, cooking the whole meat through would mean well done steak, that is not a steak, it is a piece of rubbersteak is best eaten medium rare, with a bit of red meat on the inside, so as to preserve its nutrientsif you're going to fuck up a steak that bad then maybe it's for the best you can't make it>i'll be a lot older by then...>because my peer will have doctorates by then...doctor's degrees are a meme, a lot of people don't finish them and those who do, end up with more closed doors market-wise than open doorsget a bachelor's and a master's along with some specializations of your interest, you'll be fineand nothing wrong with being older than your peers, you're not going to a fucking beauty pageant anyway>>79502524not good and it's getting worsesorry but i'm kind of on a loose cannon mode right now, best to save that talk for some other timei only replied because i've been mentioned and i take it as a kind of summon signal which is stupid but i'd rather not ignore those
>>79502677>that helped me somewhat, but u probably don't want to take good goy pillsDo I just have to live like this?
>>79502789its all good anon !! vent whenever you feel like it, we're always here for you <33
>>79500649>It's just impossible for me to visualise. the first step i suppose is companionship. is it hard to visualize spending time with the opposite gender right now? if so, why?>My living space is very small cats work best as indoor animals, and they're content as long as you stimulate them with toys.>Loneliness is one of them. That's also worse for your heart than heavy smoking. loneliness does hurt a lot, that is true...>>79500856>you'd have to explain it in more detail, lolhere's someone explain it in depth better than i can: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=996OiexHze0>>79500964>likewise. Sometimes i wish there were ppl i wouldn't need to hide my emotions around, but it's probably best for everyone's sake that I suppress themi really struggle with this a lot as well. i think to myself that people want to be around me for the good times and attitudes that i have, and that they'd all run miles away if they'd see how sad i am sometimes. deep rooted scars, i fear.>motions are illogical, so I think it's best if I got rid of them completely somehowemotions are also what drive us not only to those lowest of lows but the highest of highs. removing them all for a baseline of flatness also means you can't enjoy that rush of upward swings.>Generally, i feel like a lot of my emotions come from outside rather than from within.how would you describe outward vs inward emotions?>I admire your ability to be so busy and your competencethat's flattering, thank you. i am only busy out of necessity i feel, if i'm not super busy then everything tends to fall apart. i can only really function if i'm panicking and stressed for the most part. a lot of the things i've accomplished have been through raw brute force, and there's been a wake left behind as a result. i'm not too proud of where i am when i think of how i got here by sacrificing parts of my soul...but hearing a nice word from someone caring makes it all worth it.
NATEWANTSTOBATTLE AAAAAAAAAHHH
>>79502846yeah i think i know what you're talking about, don't think i've looked into openid connect but i did work with oauth before and sso systemsgood luck with that
>>79501043progress in real life works the same way: keeping at it, staying dedicated. the time scales are just much longer.>>79502524>my favorite part of visiting was the rides, definitely. and them being with me made it even better. walking around them was really nice too, i think it was just as enjoyable. i loved every second of it!!it sounds like it was a really nice time, similar to my own. was that your first time visiting an amusement park or seeing them in general?>i cannot wait!!!!!because it means you can see them again? >>79502677>my peer will have doctorates by then...comparison is the theft of joy. your peers and you didn't share a starting line, there's too much that happens before the marathon even begins. focus on yourself and your own stability.>I think, as long as me and my frens r having fun together, i could do anything with themi agree with this. with a fren or frens, you can make anything fun.>>79502915>good luck with thatif it was easy then i wouldn't have a job! if you work more in ops are you a sysadmin then?
>>79502790>nice spoilerpostingi only meant to spoiler one bit...>also, cooking the whole meat through would mean well done steak, that is not a steak, it is a piece of rubberthat's funny, my argentinian friend prefers his steak well done. He says that he doesn't want his steak to moo at him. Do Brazilians prefer it medium rare then? I also prefer it a bit undercooked>if you're going to fuck up a steak that bad then maybe it's for the best you can't make iti'm gonna try it sometime then. Maybe i can convince my dad to help me out>doctor's degrees are a meme, a lot of people don't finish them and those who do, end up with more closed doors market-wise than open doors>get a bachelor's and a master's along with some specializations of your interest, you'll be finewhat if u wanna work in academia?>and nothing wrong with being older than your peers, you're not going to a fucking beauty pageant anywaysure, but It's kinda weird to make frens with ppl who are so much younger than u...>>79502817you don't have to. I'm just saying that because many ppl here are against meds>>79502846>i really struggle with this a lot as well. i think to myself that people want to be around me for the good times and attitudes that i have, and that they'd all run miles away if they'd see how sad i am sometimes. deep rooted scars, i fear.same. I also get frustrated rather quickly.when no one's around I may break down in anger or saddness too> removing them all for a baseline of flatness also means you can't enjoy that rush of upward swings.that may be so. I guess it depends on what you value more. Getting the highs or not getting the lows>how would you describe outward vs inward emotions?you can compare it to lightOutward emotions is the light that shines and bounces off youinward emotions are emotions that shine from within you>but hearing a nice word from someone caring makes it all worth it.i'm glad it means that much to you!
I feel so alone in this world . . . I DONT KNOW WHAT TO RESPOND TO IN ORDER TO ENTER THE CONVERSATIONam I seriously getting excluded on 4chan ??curls up and sobs
>>79502989Speak your mind on something and people will reply
>>79503004oh yes . . . i forgot thats how a conversation works . . . sorry anon
>>79502933>comparison is the theft of joy. your peers and you didn't share a starting line, there's too much that happens before the marathon even begins. focus on yourself and your own stability.it's just that...Being an old man studying with these young whipper snappers makes me feel like I wasted my life>>79502989what would you like 2 talk about?How was ur day?
>>79503014>what would you like 2 talk aboutOH GOD OH GODITS ACTUALLY HAPPENING !!SOMEONES INTERACTING WITH ME !! OH BOY OH BOY>how was ur day?it was pretty good . . . I've spent most of it on discord and 4chan because I'm a LOSER !!but I enjoy doing thatUUHHH also I got a charger so I can finally use my laptop and scroll r9k again . . .
>>79502984>he doesn't want his steak to moo at him.if he's fine with eating rubber then his problem>Do Brazilians prefer it medium rare then?nothing to do with nationality, it's personal preference>Maybe i can convince my dad to help me outyou just pour a bit of butter on a hot pan, let it melt, then seal one side, flip it to seal the other, take the steak out and it's doneseason it a bit beforehand with whatever you want, maybe caramelize some onion with the leftover oil>what if u wanna work in academia?i don't, but if you do, then get a doctor's if you really want tothat's something for future you to think about though, worry about getting a bachelor's first>kinda weird to make frens with ppl who are so much younger than u...it becomes less and less of a problem over timeit seems like that if you're in your 20s because the people "much younger than you" are fucking insufferable teenagers and that yeah is fucking awkwardbut once you get to your 30s and 40s then the other people will be in their 20s still, so it's not as badand besides, you don't have to make friends with coworkersyou shouldn't, most of the time>>79502933>are you a sysadmin then?yes and noi worked in patching and config management most of the timewrite a bunch of ansible playbooks to ensure the infrastructure is patched and deployed correctlysome other things going on with that but that's the gist of it
>>79502846>the first step i suppose is companionship. is it hard to visualize spending time with the opposite gender right now? if so, why?It's hard to imagine spending time with anyone now, to be honest. It's even harder to visualise spending time with a woman. It just doesn't seem like it's in the cards for me, as evidenced by a lifetime of personal experience.Equally I'm not sure if I even want companionship. I think I just get sad because it feels like an expectation I'm not meeting, or that I'm missing out on a big part of life.>and they're content as long as you stimulate them with toysMy floor space amounts to a double bed and there's a 10 story drop if I open the window. Cats want to go outside too...
>>79503088>missing out on a big part of lifeold boy, you aren't missing out on anythinghaving a partner is completely your choice and not a vital component to a healthy and enjoyable lifefor some people it helpsfor some people it doesnt
>>79503037do u play any bydyer games?>UUHHH also I got a charger so I can finally use my laptop and scroll r9k again . . .wut happened 2 ur last one?>>79503067>if he's fine with eating rubber then his problemI like calling well done steaks coal>you just pour a bit of butter on a hot pan, let it melt, then seal one side, flip it to seal the other, take the steak out and it's doneI think the issue is that our pan doesn't get hot enough. Dad said he's gonna try buying an electric grill so we're gonna tryy that>that's something for future you to think about though, worry about getting a bachelor's firstyeah i suppose that's true...>and besides, you don't have to make friends with coworkers>you shouldn't, most of the timey not?where r u supposed 2 make frens then?
>>79503440>do you play any bydyer gamesNAOI don't play a lot of gamesI've been in a massive depressive episode for like a year so I stopped liking videogames>wut happened 2 ur last one?apparently the little metal charging piece on the end got slightly bent somehow and I didn't notice . . . it wouldn't connect
>>79503440i'm sorry anon, i wish i could keep talking but my misanthropic side is flaring upi need to get the fuck away from this place, this is disgustinghave a nice day though, and thanks for talking
>>79503501what caused u 2 be depressed?>>79503519okayremember 2 take it ez anon!
just took my meds, now i'm going to sleep, goodnight everyone
>>79502677I don't know when ayase quart will be completely ready. Maybe Jan 7th. It needs moderation and stuff
I'm sorry for sadposting so much this last week. I'll take a break until I cheer up again.
>>79506067Please take care of yourself.
ui anon is feeling down today, wave came down yesterday idk what the fuck is happening>>79489164>I won't ever get fat because my appetite is rather poori hope it's nothing too bad anon, take care of you>Yes, that. Also none of you would strive to better yourselves and as a result you would stagnateoh i get that, buy you mean work wise or something else? or everything? because my goal would be buy a house, car, marry, keep my wife happy etc. (and i expect my waifu strive for the same) but if you mean working then i couldn't care less, of course i would want to maintain my cushy life stile by having a high paid job, but it will never be my top priority, i feel like that's empty, and it scares me when people think working 14 hours a day is ok for some reason, for me, everything comes before work.>Whilst that would also be more agreeable to me, baka would prefer to work in a laboratory. Maybe organic chemistry research would be nise...baka as long as you don't feel like you want to cut you intestines with a butter knife just by the thought of wagecucking then you don't have to worry about a thing, also that sounds super cool, what do you thing you'll be doing once you achieve it?>I exercise every other day. I have gained some tone in my muscles which is nice but over all i am still skinnyohhh nice, i like being skinny more ngl, more cute looking, idk if girls like it but i do so.. xd
>>79506281>>79489667>i can't really visualize being taken out to go shopping with parents at all. how come they took you along?i've always been close to them, and they mostly drag me lmao, my dad just comes to my room and threatens to smash the router if i don't go (playfully of course xd).why can't you visualize it?>is there really that much at the mall to do?depends on the mall i guess? i've seen the most shit malls in my time, some are just a supermarket with a restaurant on the side (and for that they call them mall wtf), but the one i go is very big and has a bunch of shit to do, cinema, regular stores, food, dining, everything really>but there's lots of fun things to do outdoors as well. visiting cute restaurants, getting tea, cat cafes, escape rooms, theme parks, all of that stuff. going out doesn't have to mean partying or going to bars, you can do quiet and cosy things too. going outside with someone you get along with can be really really nice...i get it actually, i think you're right, sometimes is fun, still i like to be at home more, but if i'm being honest i love roller coasters too much to not go to them at least once a year, fuck, you actually make me feel better :'), i love roller coasters, even more when is not that steep and the ride is smooth, you feel super peaceful at night when you see all the lights from the city, and the smell of popcorn and chips, fuck man i love that. Life it's so beautiful.do you like roller coasters? (everyone can answer btw, i want to know you guys think)
>>79506281>i hope it's nothing too bad anon, take care of youit's just low metabolism i think>oh i get that, buy you mean work wise or something else?I mean just do something and not sit on ur butt all day. I know it feels nice, but it's not healthy!>baka as long as you don't feel like you want to cut you intestines with a butter knife just by the thought of wagecucking then you don't have to worry about a thing, also that sounds super cool, what do you thing you'll be doing once you achieve it?working at my uni together with my fren would be nise>ohhh nice, i like being skinny more ngl, more cute looking, idk if girls like it but i do so.. xdbaka wants to get that future trunks aestheticniggas gonna call me the drink
>>79506287>do you like roller coasters? (everyone can answer btw, i want to know you guys think)idkamusement park rides r scary 2 meso many things could go wrong...
