Talk your heart out, /soc/. I've got a thread idea.Do you ever feel like just talking and rambling but fear that you talk too much and irritate people? Worried that your excitement over an interest will annoy someone? If you're like myself you hold back a lot of what you'd like to say so I thought for anyone like this I can be that guy that'll listen to you.So here's my offer- add me on discord and we can talk, but more importantly if there's anything at all you just want to gush about or share then go for it. I won't promise the best conversations or responses, but I can at least give you an outlet and i will respond. No rejection, no judgements.>discord: boomer_chadin the meantime, i'm ditching my old draw thread and continuing here. for reasons. post yourselves and i'll sloppily sketch you a thing
>>33053265first sketch of the night
>>33051229popped this one out while waiting for a reinforcement in helldiversalso this one>>33053316 is from over yonder
alright, another grand theft selfie complete. >>33053736
Why the fuck do Lost Connections threads keep getting deleted? Of all the shitty and degenerate threads on this board? They’re wholesome and I’ve seen them work.
>>33053265yeah. I forgot I put my telegram instead of discord in a thread. I only use telegram for crypto.I thought everyone reaching out was a scammer. I feel so dumb.
>>33051800This next one was giving me "maids looking down at me with disgust while you show me your panties" vibe.>>33054561l've noticed a lot of one off selfie threads and other garbage. you better not be talking shit about my thread though, i've got a decent number of responses from my OP. pure gold. now post selfie so i can sketch you>>33054790pretty funny, ngl
next up! >>33054739
can i join ya in drawing randos, jinn? i'll also ramble about stuff while i do so
Very nice caricatures manFavorite so far is >>33053316Because it's so accurate
>>33055055hell yeah man. these threads are always better with more. trouble is this board is so damn slow nowadays.>>33055063lelaight that's enough helldivers tonight. time to get back to this.
>>33055086right on. feeling like i'm in a pocket dimension these days. things have changed inside of the pocket dimension but i feel fundamentally "the same" (wrong, even. i've changed so much). feeling very moody and in all sorts of ways. out of sorts. i'm hoping to get on a regular schedule soon enough >>33054369i'm stupid and i don't know how to link to other threads, but perhaps this is how you do it. anyway you're beautiful, and i would love to do more drawings of you
>>33055121nailed it. are you using a tablet or is your work trad?anyway this piece is to absolutely in no way bully my fren
>>33055138ty fren, i'm using procreate what's on your mind today anon? >>33024799PNW tribal tattoos fuck, you've got some gorgeous ones. a closer pic of them would be dope
>>33055178nice work. cant believe i'm saying this on /soc/ but we need more people posting selfies. in the old days people would be jumping into threads like this. now they're getting slow even in dedicated threads
>>33055192really? might be worth it to seek out other threads for fresh faces. i wonder why it's slower lately>>33021728went a lil' scrappier with this one. would boof molly with you/10, love your nose shape
>>33055220legend has it that every time this man is drawn his smoke gets larger
i am awake once again. let's see who i can find to draw today.
>>33056367artist's rendition of this depressing retard>>33055878
>>33056391>that opening line aloneoh god. i have to do this
some people take the worst photos. WHERE'S YOUR HEAD?>>33055083
>>33056391i think i channeled the homeless schitzo from Aqua Teen Hunger Force but here's what i came up with
>>33056842Oh wow that's heckin' basedI like it
>>33053265Been chatting with this girl and I can't tell if she likes me or is being friendly. Have conversations like>Her: I just cooked some food, I'm a pretty good cook>Me: man I gotta try some of it>I'll make you some sometime We'll have friendly convos like that, talk about life etc. I just can't tell if she's being friendly or if she likes me. Here's some more things that makes me think she's disinterested: I always initiate. And after conversations for like 30 or 40 minutes she'll just never respond back. My question is this: you think those two things I mentioned is a sign that she doesn't like me? Idk, I'm just confused. Because when we DO text, we're having God conversations. But I don't know if that explicitly means that she likes me
I genuinely think I'm like 5 different womens plan B. It gets pretty tiresome getting told I'd date you if X or Y. Like I'd prefer if they didn't say anything like that its more damaging than helpful.
>>33056890tyty>>33056990hit up my discord my guy. let's talk about it
Stashing this here for later after im done waging. This anon's pic should be fun
>>33058040hopefully he finds this. i really enjoyed this one, channeled some Clint Eastwood here
>>33058040get out of here stalker
>>33058971Infinitely basedBest thread on /soc/ desu>>33059066Looks like kenshi kino
>>33053265glad you made a whole thread for this instead of just posting ur tag on a shitty discord thread>but I can at least give you an outlet and i will respond.i.e I AM BORINGhttps://discord.gg/Z9GSaN5t
Draw me like on of your French girls.
>>33053265lmao i do this shit all the time. It can be a symptom of adhd or ocd, so maybe its time to get that checked by a doc
request complete>>33059152if you want some attention bud you can just say so>>33059171oh i've seen therapists before, i'm unfortunately mentally stable. >>33059100hell yeah brother
posting filler. for reasons. i earned this last bump.this sketch actually goes back to one of my first threads here when /soc/ first became a thing
>>33059170lost steam but oui monsieur, you make a beautiful french fille
Very based and pog thread. Op has both the dick and the balls.
>>33060631agreed. jinn is fucken basedback on the grindset>>33060922
>>33056916just ask her, what do you have to lose? if i could bet, i'd say she's maybe not as interested in you as you are in her, but also her style of texting could be very sporadic/she works at specific times/ADHD>>33061479what a pretty lady, i want brows like yours lol :)
>>33061521>>33061557the hero keeping my the thread alive while i do dumb shit
>>33059170i think i finally found my stride again
>>33061699Op is a magical person and I am completly blown away by the fact he made this amazing image for me complelty for free. I feel truly blessed. Thank you based artist.
another done, last one for the night. hopefully i can get on earlier tomorrow. >>33060990
>>33053265I bet OP cant draw a [spoiler]square[/spoiler]
OP inspired me to draw, here's some cheese.
>>33061778BULLSHIT. i'm nearly done already
>>33061792FCK
>>33061808Holy shit you fucking nigger How dare you make me laugh that hard
>>33061808leave this one to the professionals, bud. here's a perfectly good sq- oh fuck. gooddamnit
>>33062138>>33061808I never knew drawing a square could be so complicated
>>33061832Ill be here all week
>>33053265oh sick free arti love free art
>>33063153alternate reference because the phone is covering part of my head
>>33056406>filename
>>33055390>>33055086>>33054846personal favourites so far
bump
Come ramble here.https://discord.gg/FMRRKUSUnY
>>33063160smart man. i tend to avoid pics with phones
>>33062918i need to stop avoiding the femoids and get in practice drawing them
>>33063153hey guys, jerma895 here
>>33053265>Do you ever feel like just talking and rambling but fear that you talk too much and irritate people? Worried that your excitement over an interest will annoy someone? If you're like myself you hold back a lot of what you'd like to say so I thought for anyone like this I can be that guy that'll listen to you.Just about always. I'm too "political" for hobby groups, yet too jaded about intentionally political spaces.
>>33063778>I'm too "political" for hobby groups, yet too jaded about intentionally political spaces.heh, i fortunately can contain my grievances but otherwise i feel the same around normies trying to discuss politics.
>>33063450This is a very strange server but not the worst.
>>33063675I'm not sure if its a compliment or trolling
SighMy ex and I are still friends, I left him early December. We were together for 8 years. We were both fucked up Since breaking up, we've both lost weight. I've gone 1k miles away, and I'm doing well with self development and becoming more of a stable/independent adult. He already had his shit together, career/house/etc. He's been dating and lamenting to me about how awful it's been. He's been getting out more, literally doing things I've always wanted us to do together just on his own because again, dating apps and such are awful. Catfish, ghosted, dry conversations and no connections after weeks of dating. He broke down recently, said a lot of deeply sentimental things about me. Says the isolation is killing him. I feel like he just doesn't want to be alone. That he needs to be content with solitude and not settle again for just a warm body...I don't think that he ever actually loved me. I think I need to cut off contact at this point.
Can you draw her please? I think she's cut
>>33063506thanks boss>filenameoh come on why is it always the serial killer thingis it the glasses?
>>33063719it's true, I'm orc jerma
>>33064182Tell him that, and tell him it takes time to find the right person.Also maybe recommend finding friends? But otherwise yeah sounds like he's using you as his emotional tampon.
>>33064560I've told.him, that I think he just needs to be patient as it's only been 5 months so far. And that he needs to deal with solitude and not just get into another relationship so quickly out of loneliness. His response was, "idk, I'll figure it out" and that "he doesn't need whatever ass process this is, he knows who he is. Being alone isn't meant for him" Yeah I just need to be less available. I'm close with his mom is what, and we ended things amicably. I'll just.be upfront, and still be a friend but yeah. Definitely feel like I'm just filler until he finds someone else. That emotional tampon thing stung, guess it's true. Thanks.
>>33064153Just me having fun my guy>>33064182Some people just dont want to be alone. You probably should cut him off for your own sake to hlep move on. Can alwags check up on them later on. As always, can hit up my discord if youd like to chat more.>>33064520Its a few things. Your hair fits the profile from an 80s murder mystery and a little bit of a smile probably wouldnt hurt.>>33064330Sure, i will tonight
>>33064686Thanks op, I'll hit you up. Yeah my codependent ass just texted him saying that if he thinks talking to me less would help him focus on his routines/dating then that'd be fine. My passive aggressive ass... I have issues obviously. Yeah, it's time for boundaries. I broke up and left so far away for a reason.
>>33064686how's this one? older photo and pretty grainy but surely i don't look like a murderer here
>>33065030Now that is a much better pic. Im thinking trucker hats dont suit you either lol. Ill give this a go tonight
>>33065035thanks boss, i mostly just wear the cap for work anyways since it goes well with my denim jacket
>>33064714"If he thinks" You're better than this. Also sorry about the emotional tampon comment, my writing can just be colorful. Good luck
>>33065105Lol nah you're good man, I needed to hear that. I detached physically still need to mentally is what it is. Á
>>33065030i spent an incredible lack of time on this. now i have to make a second one for everyone else too
i dropped it. here it is now!
>>33065956hell yea now we're talkingthanks man>>33065952look at me, i'm johnny two-portraits
aight i'm back from a busy few days. time to bring my thread back to life. oh, who to draw first...
You want to know the biggest reason I'm disincentivized to get a girlfriend? None of the women I've met would actually BENEFIT my life. I want a girl that is:1.) Fun to exercise with2.) Fun to cook with / for3.) Fun to play board games with4.) Has a few of her own hobbies that I can encourage her to explore more.I don't know a SINGLE couple, married or otherwise, that actually DO things together. I know guys that go bicycling. Their wife doesn't. I know guys that work out. Their wife doesn't. I know guys that like board games. Their wife doesn't.Over 75% of the USA is overweight or obese and the % is higher among women than men. And my conclusion is that a great many women are fucking boring. I've ranted about this in other threads and a common response I've gotten is "You don't want to marry a woman. You want to marry a man. You are gay." as in, women are so fucking boring, no sane man would ever expect a woman to actually bring joy and comradery into their lives. If a man wants comradery, he has to seek it with other men. This sounds retarded. But it does sum up a whole lot of relationships I've witnessed where the woman is basically a simpleton oaf with no real interests.I. Don't. Need. Holes. I. Need. Female. Comradery.
>>33069250 not my favorite, but i need to practice drawing women more even if i do find them boring.
Bumping to keep thread alive, probably the only good thread right now.
>>33069942>not posting a stiff looking selfie with a phone blocking half your faceyou're not gonna make it
the womaning continues >>33069852
>>33070121now i know i attached the goddamn file
Im in a situation where my dad, mom and gf all are chronically ill.. my job is putting way more pressure on me than I can handle.. I have no place I can truly relax and I just kinda feel myself fading away
morning sketch >>33071040>>33070133i feel for you man, but the stress and bad times will eventually ease up. you just gotta keep moving forward.
>>33070075I still like it, thank you, really.
>>33071158hah, you gave me a lot to work with. i skip so many pics because of the aforementioned bad phone selfies. your sketch is by far my favorite i've made since returning to drawing.
alright, managed to find time for one more today>>33072316
>>33071144Thanks, I hope you are right. Being chronically ill isnt something that usually eases up. But hopefully I can learn to deal with it.
>>33072619Well, even for them things can improve. Maybe not their condition but life in gener. You being there for them is a great improvement afterall. However i was speaking in reference to you. Hang in there buddy.
>3rd attempt after seeing a problemmade a last minute change. fun pic, gave me a chainsawman vibe >>33073773
>>33074235hmm... i think i'm being too nice with my latest sketches. >>33072963
Nb: Potential for targets later tonight>>33075766>>33069232
>>33075835i drew a bird. this is a good thing
Based fanart obtained.
>>33069893wowwwwwww :0 she's wow. it's so easy to fall in love here
>>33078074She's aight. Too bad my pic was crap. Birthday today. Getting drunk. No pics till tomorrow
hey i think it'd be fun to participate in this too like the other anon who joined in, is it just taking any photos from the rate thread and drawing them or is there some other criteria im not aware of? im a bit of a rambler too but i assume it's okay here based on description but couldnt tell if that was just a thing for people who wanted to send a discord message im probably overthinking this but i am one of those worried im saying something wrong or being annoying types like you described
>>33078880Hell yeah feller, feel free to join. this thread's nothing serious. It's just my own personal entertainment so feel free to join. And yeah, since there's a lack of volunteers i just go steal pics from elsewhere.
>>33053265My discord is collectorzani. I love running away from situations and having 0 fucking responsibility about it. I love freedom! I love being ignorant, closing my eyes, then blaming it on the other person. I love making people feel like they don't exist. You know all these fucking feelings which you direct back onto me by ignoring me and never dealing with fuck all, never aplogizing, treating people as just a means, it doesn't disappear. "Take care of yourself" LMAO, good answer, doesn't fucking work. And I'm supposed to just live knowing you just fucking lie to yourself and won't ever apologize, that everything I do is my fault, that I don't exist, it doesn't go away, you ask me if I'm doing alright followed by "LMAO go see a osychiatrist you awful person" and you will never see anything you do wrong, you never will, I really love being dehumanized, then when I try to talk I get labelled "emotional" "mentally ill". No one but talking to you does anything because it's so fucked that you can just run away and I'm supposed to fucking live with that, you can just tell yourself you're such a good fucking person without ever being able to empathize with me. "Are you mentally ill?" "talk later better mood" HALF PROMISING SHIT TO JUST REVOKE IT AND SAY "WELLLL TECHNICALLY I DONT PROMISE ANYTHING" This fucking faggot collectorzani just denies anything you say, when he asks if you are doing ok he never fucking means it, "you sound like you are suffering, you can't stop" as if that's how it fucking works, I really love having everything displaced onto me and being ignored, talking to different people doesn't make this go away. That's not how it works. It ALWAYS comes back. And I'm supposed to just ""accept you being wrong about it"" while you go on enjoying your life. FUKC YOU. "ack" This faggot collectorzani thinks his actions have 0 repercussions, he's going to make a 19 year old kill herself. Seattle, web dev.
I'm also drawing
self bump. i aint done yet niggas. i'm just busy rn
I'M BACK
(1)All the porn and filthy thumbnails in the catalog fills me with immense disgust. (2) I'm tired of getting my hopes up with anons. Majority of the time I'm the one pulling all the weight with the convo because most people here are either too jaded or too autistic, and in the end it's for what? Just to either be deliberately dropped or slowly ghosted? AND THEN afterwards I happen to see them post again making deliberate additions to what they're looking for, like they're singling me out in the most passive aggressive way over the most petty things.
>>33088846Sorry, I thought this was a general vent thread. I didn't realize you wanted people to add you on discord.
>>33088846yooo for (1) you're literally just like me, didn't think someone else would feel that too on here. I just google threads because I'm so disgusted even glimpsing at the catalog. would be nice to just have an sfw general space that isn't degenerate.
Can you turn my plushie real? He stuck with me while I had the flu
>>33093741new phone things sadge
>>33088852Doesnt really matter. Can chat here or on discord. But yeah, this board sucks. Most people looking for quick connections but you try talking to them and they cant even be bothered the courtesy of a "fuck off" or be more direct in what theyre looking for. Not to mention just how much of a gooner board this is and effectively a second lgbt one at that. It always has been, but its just boring with the lack of interesting threads. >>33093752Ahhh a request. Ok, now i have to make time tonight. Ive been slacking
>>33093801Thank you, he's a real lad, his profession is stopping doors
>>33093826yes
>>33054561Because the janny is a faggot that prefers to have 10 dick threads up>how dare we have something wholesome
>>33093831done>>33094200some degen is aight. this board was literally made to appease the non-stop chubby threads on /b/ but goddamn man how many desperate hookup and cuckshit threads does this board need?
>>33094515what an absolute unit
https://voca.ro/1muIeYPkDU9l
Thinking about writing a mecha setting. Japan's actively sinking into the sea as a new ice age unfurls, and kaijus in the depths awaken and are drawn to the islands because of their volcanic activity. It's warm and keeps them toasty, so they don't die, you know?To combat them, big cities grow genetically compatible kids in vats and take care of them until they're able to be given back to the armed forces as a mech pilot. Mechs in this setting are called icebreakers, since they specialize in breaking through ice and fighting underwater. U-boat shenanigans ensue. Some bigger submarines are around, but they have crews instead of a pilot. Turns out the kaijus are coming from a rift in the Philippine tectonic plate, and there's some funny materials down there that allow for some really sweet nukes. I'm talking like, turn entire cities into glass kind of nukes. On top of that, you can probably get some free power from how hot it is down there. So Japan starts proactively doing expeditions with these icebreakers to find out how deep the rift goes. The rift eventually ends up revealing a "hollow earth" kind of thing where antediluvian humans used to live. Maybe the kaijus are actually antediluvians, giants, whatever reddit conspiracy fits. But yeah, the main characters go in there, explore the abyss, try not to die from overpressure, blow up some weird shit, obtain some unobtanium, make cool new quasi-magical weapons and traumabond.
>>33054846You thread is good, JinnJinn.
>>33096965No one is going to save you. Read that again. Learn a skilled trade. Welding, machining, pipe fitting, plumbing. You start low but it will pay off. There’s crazy money to be had.Some people get handouts. You will not. Life is not fair. Childhood is over and it is time to buck up. If you love her, then don’t be a burden on your mom with a shitty attitude, put on a face for her sake.No one is going to save you except you.
>last friend group from 2020 leaves>i don't talk to anyone both online and offline anymore>i do nothing about it and rot in bed all day watching Instagram reels
>>33096965You. Add me on discord let's talk.>>33097065You too. Im something of a writer myself and your idea is neat. >>33097066Itd be better if i didnt slack on the sketched. Gotta get back to em>>33097459Try being an oldfag like me where every single friend moved out of state and dropped contact. Add me, lets game
>>33097520whats your tag
>>33097775-> >>33053265
>>33092878now that i've gotten back into my method i think it's time to have fun and poke fun of some of the people here. get a little creative...
>>33078074This is my post. It's not what I wanted say. I didn't have the strength to and I just found out that I still don't. I want everyone and can't trust anyone. The line of thinking was that, if I could just vent, things would get better. But I was afraid if I talked to you the things I missed to say would come back as more painful emotions. So then I wrote down what I wanted to say and still there's this feeling something will go wrong if there's someone else. Someone posted a vocaroo, that was a good idea. There's notes for each of the seven years I knew him. The first year is all I managed before hysterics. I just finished trying to read it. My hands are shaking, my body is clammy and my chest hurts. I can't read the rest of this without someone holding me. My dad held me once when things were bad. I remember how it felt.
>>33053265https://voca.ro/1nGtkoL6xltVThis is about my best friend, but I wasn’t his best friend, I think.He went by Stresser and we never got to meet in real life.I met him randomly on a video game server doing an item giveaway. He was 17 and I was 16.I joined and started riffing like I had for the past 4 years and he started joking back.He was funny. REALLY funny. 4 years of this before him and he made me feel like it was my first day.We laughed with each other for hours after that before the server started the giveaway and he actually won.So the admin tried to give him the item and he said “Wow, that’s really cool but you can just give it to my friend.”His friend? I liked how that sounded.So we added each other and started playing all the time. Every day. I think I might have been his best friend too sometimes, we were always talking. It was SO funny and comedy is all I’ve ever loved. And him.Then he invited me to his discord server, no one had done that before. Til then I’d invite myself into groups where I wasn’t welcome.I was an obese and angry person back then, home life wasn’t good. I was a sick and disgusting hostile person who sent people horrible things. Most people there tolerated me because I was funny and Stresser liked me.We were calling and texting each other all the time getting to know each other really well.And it was only after a year of us talking before he even gave me his first name. He’s a private person.>>33078074
your art is good
>>33053265Most anons you meet on any board tend to be from the middle class. They're average people in the real life who have a facade on the internet, people who actually can be normal to other people without feeling pressed by an overwhelming feeling of embarrassment, of being judged at every step.I was born into a family of wealth and my burden isn't easy. It sounds like bitchy complaining but please take a moment to listen; when you have no other brothers or sisters, and your father rests the entire family lineage on you alongside something that has been built for many years, the weight on your shoulder is enough to make you collapse.Most people don't think about how hard it is for this to be going on everyday; being judged to extreme lengths for any small mistake I do.>"anon, you're shaming me by doing this">"don't go out and have fun anon, you're better than this">"no anon, don't do this, our family is on the line"And even better, when your childhood is plagued with conflict and all you see is arguments, you grow up to become emotionless. The first time a girl expressed true interest in me I thought she was joking. Multiple times have girls expressed interest in me in real life. I refuse them, even if I like them. It's involuntary, I associate me loving somebody with incompatibility. I am incompatible to love somebody, even though late at night, my brain is able to come up with all sorts of book-worthy stories about how I will grow up to be have a loving family and kids.And yet, this only happens at night, and this is how I have become addicted to the silence of the night, leading to everyday sleep exhaustion. I have grown to be sleep deprived every single day, and my motor functions are slowly losing ability. I have the brain of a 38 year old man in the body of an extremely young adult. Sorry for the rant above. I wanted to get it out somewhere and 4chan is the only place where I can do this
>>33100058Thanks man. Trying to follow your thoughts is a bit of a mess though and your story seems to cut off in the middle. By all means feel free to add me on discord and ill be happy to hear you out.>>33100101Nah man, you dont need to apologize. You were dealt a heavy hand regardless of how others might perceive your life and you're the one that has to live it. And the issue of making connections is something we can all relate to. It's that fundamental aspect of humanity we alld take part im but dont always fully realize. You sound as if you're buried beneath what you feel compelled to be but want to be seen as something more, even if its possibly something simpler. At a glance it sounds like you might need to remember you're allowed to live for yourself anon. Hopefully you can find that happiness you're looking for.
another one bites the dust. >>33100928
Resurrecting thread with a drawinguuuuwas of some dude who posted here a while agolove u jinnwhat's everyone's favorite color and why
>>33097459>in friend group on IRC back in early 2010s>was a casual roleplay group>have lots of fun for years, building our own world together>some of the best times of my life>one day admin invites his friend from another group he's in >his friend is kind of a shithead>whatever, we put up with him>admin invites another one of his friends>also a shithead, and somehow gets mod status>voice my concerns in private>everyone says I'm overreacting>I go full conspiracy theorist and say admin is trying to take over the RP group with his own circlejerk>nobody believes me>get kicked out>only stay in contact with one (1) of the 14 people from there who becomes one of my closest best friends to this day>have no friend groups for many years>grow jaded and cynical because of the ever growing rampant faggotry of online cliques and political correctness>fast forward to 2023>close friend invites me to Discord group with mostly the same people from before>everyone apologizes to me because it turns out I was 100% right all those years ago>all I could reply with was "cool, whatever">leave group very shortly after, never to see them again I genuinely don't care about people anymore. My social battery has been exhausted trying so desperately to maintain social stability between those that I once cared about. Putting up with constant assholes with untreated bipolar, ADHD, or autism who have constant conflicting opinions or mood swings just so I can have someone to play tabletops or online games with once every two months (if I'm lucky) just isn't worth it anymore.Sorry I'm not as good a storyteller as I once was. I just wanted to vent.
aight. i have free time tonight, now to settle into some https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q2dfe2yseIM&t=1s and get some sketches in. Here's my current WIP. very nice.>>33101645bro, i could speak with you for some time about shit friends and being socially tired. and yet, all these years later i still yearn for connections while simultaneously rejecting them. it aint easy.>>33101185>paint shaming me in my own threadfuck
>>33103297aaaaaaaaand done. i really enjoyed this one. on to the next.
a change of plans. i got an idea for an epic scale scene. i've got a good start on it, now to work on it over the course of a few weeks. see where it goes
I’m 30F, in my first polyamorous relationship with a married couple. They are my age and have been married 10 years. They were a “sexually open” type couple and we initially met over a shared kink. Over the last few months, I’ve spent time getting to know both. The male and I hit it off flawlessly. He is an awesome person, a source of sweetness in my life. He was the first to catch feelings. Both the wife and I were open to the idea of a triad. The problem is simply that the wife and I aren’t clicking on more than a friendship level. I wish we could. I have tried, but her mental health needs work. She’s quite negative and projects insecurities into he and I — which puts a damper on things every time we hang all three of us. We had some triad time this weekend and sure enough, she followed the pattern of negative “party pooping” behaviors. I opened up and tried to tell them both how I felt the day after. The poor guy sobbed because he thinks it could be the end if he and I. I also don’t want to lose him. blah…
>>33103432Omg, that's so good, thank you for drawing me, this made my day.
>>33103789Tbh do you want to chat? I'm in, or rather was in, a similar situation with a couple I knew, it's something I'm really struggling dealing with right nowI know how you feel, that's kinda bittersweet that he cared enough to be that upsetc the couple I knew just ghosted me lol... after telling them about how I recently got ghosted by the only other person I've had a similar close relationship to
>>33103789Sounds rough but probably why those sort of deals arent too common. Having dealt with someone long term one person is enough of a chore to keep up with, nevermind the added complexity of multiple people.>>33104282Glad to hear it!
>>33103789I have been on the other hand of the situation, and what you say about the girl kinda disgusts me of you. I'm sorry to say that, but that's how I feel.If it doesn't work for you because you can't get along with the woman, give up, end of story. It's not your problem and not your role to fix their problems. All you'll end up doing is hurting everyone in the process.If the guy loves you and is ready to dump his wife for you, it's up to him, not you.
I love you and I know I'm a cowardI want to break up with him and be with you but I think if you knew that was what I wanted it might break us completelyI'm too scared to do it I hold so much guilt and shame I think it might kill me, I really need helpWhen you were so horrible to me it made me feel like I needed you and I know that's wrong but it is what it isI need something anything to make me stop feeling like thisI'm evil and irredeemable and I'm too scared to make a change or really punish myself for the selfish awful things I doHelp me
>>33104392Sure! We could chat. What’s your contacts?>>331045351) You’re a rando on 4chan. I don’t care if I “disgust” you. 2) I didn’t say anything bad about her. I like her, but her low self esteem ends up self sabotaging her chance at connections. Sounds like you can relate. Funny how you assumed I want him to dump her too. I never said that. You’re projecting your own bad experience.
>>33105123When you get into a relationship with someone, you either support them or you don't. If you're not willing to get it on yourself, it's not a relationship you should pursue, simple as that. Someone with psychological problem will not "make their problem disappear" suddenly. And in a triad, you're supposed to love both partners equally, which doesn't seam to be the case here. Liking is not enough.Also, yes I can relate, because as I said, I was in her situation.
>>33105222We aren’t in a committed relationship. We are dating. The point of dating is to discover if you’re compatible or not. I am discovering she and I are not compatible, unfortunately. And you sound bitter as hell, maybe working on yourself would lead to more success with potential poly partners.
>>33105268I'm 31, I've worked on myself my whole life with therapy, medicines, friends and family. This is the misconception with mental illness, you cannot fix it. You cope and try to live with it. And your partners have to accept this fact, otherwise it doesn't work.I am bitter as hell because this world makes it clear people like us aren't wanted.
>>33105274>>33105268aight quit shitting up my thread. or at least contribute to it while you do
>>33105290I'm talking my heart out, like you asked in the original post of this thread. I have tons of frustration, anger and bitterness in me. And yes, I do in fact annoy anyone I ever speak to because of my constant negativity. But this thread was about spitting positive thought, then maybe I got it wrong.I'm sorry.
>>33105297yeah, i said talk. here or with me on discord. not argue with some dipshit. if you want to vent i'll be happy to hear you out where no one else will give you shit my guy.
>>33105335Ok, here's my vent :The third time I tried to kill myself was a night during which I was on discord with a bunch of irl friends. I was in a city far for work while they were partying drunk at a friend's place. During the call, one of the friends admitted he fucked with a girl I was in love with. He knew I had feelings for her, I told him, but he said it so non chalently during the call that it felt like he just stabbed me right in the heart. I couldn't take it, so I swallowed 4 full packets of paracetamole with alcohol and tried to sleep myself to death.I woke up in the middle of the night nauseous, I went to vomit in the toilet, my roommates asked me what was going on, I refused to tell them. Then suddenly, I don't remember how exactly, but I admitted I tried to commit suicide. They got very upset at me and shouted, insulted me and all. They didn't had the reflex to call an ambulance, I was crying saying I was sorry. They finally called the cops, who told they had to call an ambulance. They arrived, I went to the hospital, I asked if I was going to survive, the nurse didn't answer and left the room. I had news of if I was going to make it only hours after. All this time I had dread I'd just die. I went from panic, to crying, to anger, to giving up.After that I got back at some therapist consulting, but I don't remember what I told him, but it's 100% certain I lied. I went back to my parents home. They asked me what was going on. I stayed silent. I locked myself in my room, my mom cried on the other side begging me to open. She said she failed me, she said she was a failure as a mother, she said she was sorry. I opened but I stayed silent. She was confused, crying and all. So I just told her "I don't know".After that, I got therapy and as usual, I say everything is ok. They usually let me go without any continuation, without further questions.This was 10 years ago.
>>33105376Since this, I go to the hospital once every 3-4 month because of a suicide attempt. I spent some weeks at a psychiatric hospital too. My mom calls me every single day. I lie to my therapists, I confuse them, they tell me I'm fine. I don't take my meds regularly because I forget. There is no solution.
>>33105378Just to be clear, it's not because of this bitch anymore. I stopped trying to date women since then and only went for men after that. But I got lots of stories of cheating, lying, lack of trust, jealousy and all of that. I just react with self destruction and suicide attempts all the time. And sometimes, my partners react by being angry at me.
>>33105274I’m a mental health professional and I witness my clients heal all the time. I also personally recovered from some wicked PTSD and depression. It wasn’t easy. It took years. I almost offed myself more than once. It’s never fully 100% gone but life absolutely can be happy and symptoms can be manageable. In fact, I’ve never been happier. Now I can look back and fully understand why someone would not be attracted to me when my mental health was shit. I’m sorry you haven’t been as fortunate on this. Wish you the best. >>33105290Your post literally says “but more importantly if there's anything at all you just want to gush about or share then go for it.” Lmfao. This is 4chan you have no authority here.
>>33105376>not taking meds >lying in therapy >blames others>still can’t figure out why mental health won’t improve
>>33105403I don't take meds because I forget and I'm impulsive and have extreme mood swings.I lie in therapy because I'm stressed out, I never let my guard down and feel ashamed of myself for all of it.I blame others because I'm confused.Maybe all the above are bullshit, how can I improve ? It never worked for me, therapists give up on me usually. Even the psychiatrist at the hospital did let me go even though I was just "No I'm fine, nothing wrong" while I was clearly uneasy.
>>33105403You're a mental health professionnal, you should know what I should do.
>>33105397>So here's my offer- add me on discord and we can talkYou can at least pretend to read if youre going to larp as a faggot
>>33105421Try this 1. Set alarms for meds 2. Be honest in therapy and go for 6+ months without skipping a session. 3. Improve your physical health in tandem 4. Take responsibility for your own actions and behaviors. Only you can change you. 5. Don’t stop doing these things when you think it’s improved slightly or when things are tough. I do this for a living but this is still 4chan. This advice would probably help anyone.
>>33105438I should have said “this advice would probably help anyone IF they apply it.” It’s all about application.
>>33105438I do those, but give up after a few months.How can I be honest ? I never know what to say, and I don't want to say the shameful shit I do.I don't have the will to change myself.
>>33105446>>33105446Who do you want to be? If what you are now is it then keep at it. If you want to be something else then you must change your actions. >i give up after a couple of monthsThen be the sort of person that doesnt. Endure. Persevere. It's a concious decision you have control over.
>>33105446>I don't have the will to change myself.Therein lies your problem. It’s why nothing has worked. You have to get sick and tired of being sick and tired. I’m not judging. I was in a similar cycle for years. The only thing that changed it for me was choice. You don’t have to worry about “saying shameful shit” in therapy. It is THE PLACE to say shameful shit. I wish my clients would more often so we could actually do some good work! A lot of people (including myself in the past) have a learned helplessness.
>>33105472I have trust issues, I don't even trust my therapist, nor my boyfriend. I could tell him if I didn't have him look at me in the eyes and I had to write it instead of talking. I can say my pathetic life on 4chan and random internet strangers. I would never irl.
>>33105480Tell your therapist this. I have had clients use a notepad and pen before. There’s also some online therapy services that might make it easier for the first steps. But if you’re lying, you’re self sabotaging.
>small update>>33105480 they're >>33105527 right about the self sabotage deal. at the end of the day either you want help or you don't. if you do then you have to choose help, to get better. all the suggestions and advise provided from us or anyone else will be worthless if you first don't make that choice. who do you want to be? that person that lies and pushes the people closest to them away or do you want to be the person that's honest with them and lets them in.
>>33105542>attachment didn't attachthanks captha
sometimes
>>33105597you just want to sit in the rain.
>>33101645happens to all of us. my friend group also went through this
>>33105629Hopefully you still have some hanging around. I cant begin to say just how much i miss having a friend group. I think im going to have that aching wound for the rest of my life.
I met a woman months back at an airport, turned out we lived 30 minutes apart. Got her number after 10 minutes of talking, expected it to go nowhere. We ended up talking 24/7 for about 6 months. We talked about what a relationship would like for us. I had never connected so well with someone. It sounds retarded but I believed in the concept of soul mates because of her and I'm 31 haha. We had each other's backs, same humour, our level of openness and communication was ridiculously good. We never let each other go unassured about feelings, constantly told each other how grateful we were for having met. 'No matter where this goes I'm so fucking glad we met' And we were complete slots for each other too. Genuinely amazing woman.Then suddenly whoops some guy from her past exists again, guess we're just friends now. She says she's down to be friends exactly as we were. I'm an idiot who still cared about her so I gave it a shot. Then she kept cutting off parts of our friendship and said it was to 'save' the friendship. Made no sense, but it takes two to tango so I couldn't do much. I only fought back when she said we shouldn't call ever because I knew that losing out on actual non text conversation was a step too far. Our communication would break down, which it did, and she kept blaming me. All I wanted to do was talk and explain that our friendship was too strained. Then she 'needed space' and said we couldn't be friends after 5 days. Needless to say, she hasn't given me the courtesy of a real conversation still. I don't understand how people can hurt each other like that, we were best friends, why throw that away?
>>33106899As someone that's been through this same story myself i fucking feel for you. However, you and i made very different choices. The moment the ex showed up again i said to fuck off. I knew it was over right then and there and she, like your own girl in the story, will always be holding out for jackass' return into their life. That's the type of girl that even if they married you would sleep behind your back and ln her deathbed say how she wished she couldve had one more night with them.She used you and i strongly caution against ever speaking to her again. You do not need that person in your life. It sucks, believe me, i know. Im 36, older than you and this is what we have to work with. And people wonder why ive started taling to younger women, so much less baggage. I dont know if thats the andwer, but i know you need to tell that chick shes a piece of shit for not even giving you the courtesy of an honest goodbye
>>33106956Sorry to hear that man, it's nice knowing I'm not alone but I wouldn't wish this on anyone. All I want is to have one final conversation at the very least. But I'm most likely never getting that.It's difficult having to carry on not knowing if any of it was real or not. And not projecting that fear on my next girl.
i met this guy on /soc/ and he's so fucking cool. i hung out with him for 2 weeks straight during the holidays but started sleeping at mine again bc school. he comes over after school almost every day now. anyway ive been skipping school way too often and should probably start going more often but i dont feel like it. probs gonna skip again today
>>33107066You might have to swallow it, punch a wall, and move on. Or if you know where she lives id send her mail that just reads "You're a piece of shit.".Otherwise if you lived nearby id say lets go out for drinks and forget the bullshit.>>33107087Stabbing at a guess that you mean HS? Should at least do the bare min to skip by it desu. It can cause a headache otherwise.
>>33107097>Stabbing at a guess that you mean HS? Should at least do the bare min to skip by it desu.yeah, hs. i used to do pretty well in school but i literally just cbf anymore and am so fucking drained. i used to just show up and do the bare minimum but i dont see the point in showing up anymore if im not gonna do anything anyway. ive been literally just showing up once a week
Forgive me if this isn't the place, but I'm going to rant. Please ignore the following:
>>33107170Derp. Hit the wrong button.I'm alone, and
>>33107170>>33107171I'm just going to go fuck myself.
>>33107174lmao well my thread has gone places while i've been at work. shoot me a DM bro on Discord bud. it's less likely to eat your responses than here (fuck captcha)
>>33107087Your education won’t leave you but a boy will. Remember that.
I wish to love, and to be loved.
aight this thread is dead and ive become busy once again. until next time /soc/
