Where’s my suicidal dysfunctional twin soul-sister?Here’s to hoping this will reach youI have just enough money to cover a domestic plane ticket. I want to live together, survive together, give each other warmth and company. It’ll be us against the world. I’m not employable or in any rush to find housing, but I have a tarp, and some supplies. I can’t stand living in one place for too long, because I build up negative energy. Moving is the only thing that eases the restlessness in my heart. I want our cohabitation arrangement to last for a few years, maybe 3-5. I like living outside because I feel like a part of the world. I hate being severed from the world, from cold, hunger, my emotions. I want warmth, not the cold, stuffy comfort of living at home. I can’t escape misery as long as I’m here. The wooded area surrounding my house feels like another part of the enclosure. I can’t get a job here, there’s no way out, and it feels hopeless. I’m sick of hearing my own voice, and I just want to hear someone else’s for a change. I’ll listen to you, speak to me. I really don’t want to be housed, I never want to feel “trapped” again, like I was for years. I just need to get away from it all.Be my inspiration, give me strength, and I’ll handle the rest. I’ll look after us. I’m not enough on my own, I need to assume responsibility for someone else. I don’t want you to be infantile or helpless. We’ll help each other to meet our goals. I need someone somewhat mature about things, even if you’re a bit crazy; if not then you’ll make me crazy. I’m a chivalrous woman; I like to care for other women, particularly if they’re anything alike. We’ll be like Nattie Gann and Henry, you and I. CANADIAN WOMEN ONLY, and no trannies.Not looking for women who have/want boyfriendsDisc: el_4321I need you to verify that you are a woman
>>33542521I know those hands.
>>33542521I have to find a woman who is willing to make this work. Hope it will be soon.
tranny
>>33542521Should have just said “Canadian woman needed”It would have covered everything
>>33542544Nah
>>33542544This was her previous thread; >>33526394Apparently some guy didn't want her, and now she's a woman moment generator. It's splendid.
>>33542551Plus I’ve already posted my face hereI can prove to any woman that I am femaleIf you speak to me, you will hear my voiceAlso, I can show you my ID and documentsI’d ask the same before I fly out to meet you haha
>>33542558:)
>>33542554>194 posts by this IDyea thats all i needed to know... anudda cluster B added to the collection
>>33542604She's lovely!
>>33542554I’m never self destructive in a way that gratifies. I cut for myself (metaphorically, I don’t cut myself). Anyway, you can leave, but thanks for the life-fuel! My hatred of Satan will push me into the arms of God.
>>33542653I will not leave.
>>33542653I see you hovering on the surface like flies over a diseased animal
>>33542661I don’t really mindIF I HADN’T MADE ME, I WOULD’VE BEEN MADE SOMEHOWIF I HADN’T ASSEMBLED MYSELF, I’D HAVE FALLEN APART BY NOWIF I HADN’T MADE ME, I’D BE MORE INCLINED TO BOWPOWERS THAT BE WOULD HAVE SWALLOWED ME UP, BUT THAT’S MORE THAN I CAN ALLOW
>>33542676IF THERE WERE NO REWARDS TO REAP I must keep reminding myself of thisNO LOVING EMBRACE TO SEE ME THROUGHI must keep reminding myself of thisTHIS TEDIOUS PATH I’VE CHOSEN HERE I must keep reminding myself of thisI CERTAINLY WOULD’VE WALKED AWAYI must keep reminding myself of thisBY NOW
>>33542678https://youtu.be/HKQcUz79bNo?feature=shared
>>33542676>>33542678>>33542680I am glad you don't. I wouldn't leave you like the others did.
>>33542680https://youtu.be/xNBwUcALBoQ?feature=shared4CHAN BELONGS TO ME, IT’S MY BLOG
>>33542687Perhaps.
>>33542687STANDING LIKE A SORE THUMB OUT,NOTICE YOUR IMAGE IS DIFFERENT.TRAITS THAT CHANGE, IT'S JUST TOO QUICK,FOLLOW ON CLUES AND GUESS WHAT,THAT'S WHAT, IT'S LIKE.FOLLOW YOUR UPS AND DOWNS,IT'S SAFE TO SAY THAT I CAN'T TELL.ALL SENSE ASIDE.LEFT OUT IN THE COLD,SIGHT OF YOUR ROUTINE GETTING OLD.BLAME SOME INDIFFERENCE INSIDE,TAKEN ON SHAPES NOT TO SELECTIVE.JUST WHAT YOU FIND.LOOKING FOR SECONDS OF PEACE OF MIND,PIECES OF SOMETHING TO HOLD ON TO.A JOB THAT YOU JUST CAN'T HOLD DOWN,DISTRACTED FOR SECONDS, YOU'RE GONE.FOLLOW YOUR UPS AND DOWNS,IT'S SAFE TO SAY THAT I CAN'T TELL.ALL SENSE ASIDE.LEFT OUT IN THE COLD,SIGHT OF YOUR ROUTINE GETTING OLD.BLAME SOME INDIFFERENCE INSIDE, TAKEN ON SHAPES NOT TO SELECTIVE.JUST WHAT YOU FIND.WHERE YOU FIND IT.NEEDING TO FIND SOMETHING,IS EVERYTHING OK.I HOPE YOU FIND YOUR NICHE, SOMEDAY SOON.EASY TO CHANGE YOUR PHASE,TO MOVE FROM WHERE YOU STAND,BUT YOU GOT TO KEEP THAT FACE.EACH CHANGE YOU PLAN.WONDER, IS EVERYTHING OK,THE PROBLEM IS HESITATION
>>33542700TAKEN TO THE BRINK OF SOMETHING.SOMETHING, BUT WE CAN'T KNOW WHAT.TO WAIT, TO WANT, IT'S SO BAD, AND,TRY SOMETHING, AND MOVING TO SLOW,TO GET WHERE YOU WANT TO GO.LOOKING FOR RESULTS,YOU CAN'T BEGIN TO FIND A WAY OUT FROM THE COLD PLACE YOU'RE IN.BUT IT SUITS YOU, YOUR CONDITION.SYMPTOMS THAT KEEP YOU IN,KEEP YOU FROM MOTION.UNTIL IT'S COLD,SLOWING YOU DOWN UNTIL YOU CAN'T GOTAKEN BY SOMETHING,BUT YOU CAN'T HOLD ON TO IT, YOU CAN'TIT SLIPS THROUGH YOUR FINGERS,SLIPS THROUGH YOUR HAND.BECAUSE THEY'RE TOO COLD,CAN'T GET A GRIP ON WHAT'S IN YOUR SIGHT.IT'S LIKE GETTING OLD.IT'S LIKE GETTING TOLD TO SIT STILL.BUT IT SUITS YOU, YOUR CONDITION.SYMPTOMS THAT KEEP YOU IN,KEEP YOU FROM MOTION.UNTIL IT'S COLD,SLOWING YOU DOWN UNTIL YOU CAN'T GO.IT'S NOT ME.IS THERE SOMETHING SO WRONG.PROCESS OF DEPRAVING YOURSELF,OF PEACE OF MIND.
>>33542700>>33542703:)
>>33542687>>33542653Sorry for the egotism. My self awareness comes and goes like pins and needles
>>33542711I love it.
>>33542711I am deeply sorry L. I hope I’ll be able to settle this with you. I never foresaw this as the outcome. I know that we cannot be in a relationship. I’d just like to know if you hate me, or have some guidance. >>33542521Anyway, I hope my soul-sister isn’t put off my my comments, but she’s hopefully a little mentally ill herself.
>>33542745:)
>>33542745I may even be content with a female friend who wants to phone call. I’d like it if you were also from Canada. Maybe we could help each other out with out goals? It’s not the perfect scenario, but I guess it will do.
>>33542775You're such a newfag, I love it.
>>33542775I had to fight my mom not to call the police last night. Social services will not allow me to stay home, and the shelter will not allow me to come back without a reaccess meeting which might take a week, all the other ones I called were full. Can’t stop myself from fucking it up. What do I do? I’d like to move to ‘berta so I can go to one of the shelters there, but I don’t have photo ID, and it’s going to take awhile to get things set up without transportation. I can’t wait that long, I’m suicidal.
>>33542779Ehhaha. I’d sleep in the city, but I can’t get a ride. I can’t drive on my own, it’d have to be approved.
>>33542785>>33542779See?
>>33542785Staying at home wears on me, and I don’t have the strength that I did a few weeks ago when I wanted to move out. I’m here again. Feels like I’ve lost all my progress. I don’t believe the fallout would have happened without staying here, but it is what it is.
>>33542809I wish you hadn’t have convinced me to stay here, but I can’t blame you. I just wish I wouldn’t seek approval for my choices. And now I’ve ruined everything, and I feel like that wouldn’t have happened if I could have followed my intuition. I love you L, and something is wrong about this, don’t you see? It shouldn’t have been this way. I should never have met you, I couldn’t afford to lose anyone else
>>33542820If only if it was true.
>>33542820And you mean a lot to meI love you because you don’t love meIf you loved me, it would be for all the wrong reasons. You believed in me when no one else did. I feel more connected to myself because of the connection I had with you.
>>33542836So superficial!
>>33542836You took what M started, and added to it. I will always be a stronger person because of you. I cannot thank you enough. I’ve said a lot, but I hope this reaches you.
>>33542857This is not strength.
>>33542857It shouldn’t have meant a lot, but it did. It did because of the time that I met you. I believe that things could have worked out differently. In the end, it’s just me and M in this world. M lives through me, when I live according to what he wanted for me. I am very fortunate to have met you.
>>33542872He is dead.
>>33542862How so?
>>33542875It's reliance. You falter when you are alone.
I'm american so u don't want me but omg ur fingers literally looks like a man the nails look so wide
>>33542881Her hands are very square, but she is also shaped very square.
>>33542881I’m proud of that, it is a family resemblance>>33542877Hmm.. I will take that into consideration, but is it wrong to draw strength from someone who is in heaven, since you do not demand anything from them?
>>33542920It is wrong when you are left with nothing.
>>33542936Who hurt you?
>>33542958No one, I am not a hurt or incomplete person.
>>33542521Eh.. it doesn’t matter anymore. I am getting out of this rut on my own
>>33542976Oh sure, you said that last thread.
>>33542976Do people really conceptualize the internet as being real.. ?You are a reflection of myself
>>33542981Wrong.
>>33542981But I would rather shape my soul than furnish itAnd I'm tired of waking up and worrying if someone elseIs talking about me, and all the things that I've done wrongI know that I'm worth more than how they see me
>>33542982I am egotistical
>>33542999You are not.
>>33543003BPD is egotism
>>33543014If you were truly egotistical, you would not be here to declare it, nor would you be here to defend it. This is you being vulnerable.
>>33543016I am just self awareWhat started off as honest, has become something else, something that I do not want to encourageIt is honest, but not delivered in an honest way
>>33543023You are indeed self aware but vulnerable. Out of your own choice.
>>33543023I do not want this to grow into something worse. I came here in earnest, but it is not earnest anymore. I need to learn to be truly alone, and comfortable in my thoughts.
>>33543035I am just spewing my thoughts online, this can’t be healthy. If I’m tired of hearing my own voice, I should stop speaking
>>33543035>>33543040You will never be alone.
>>33542521Well I deleted my account, so this thread is irrelevant
>>33543055Good!
>>33543055Lots of predators in the maritimes
Your hands are gross
>>33542521Hmm well restored my accountCar brakes are brokenI need someone to drive me from my rural community to Halifax, or a city further out WestDisc: el_4321Someone please fucking get me out of here
>>33544598Preferably further westThat’s where I want to go
>>33544600Get me out of the maritimes, and don’t leave me stranded in QC. Or just drive me to Halifax
>>33544608It’d be a real life saver if someone could drive me to Ontario, or further west
>>33544598FUCKKKINGGG HELLLI’m stuck here, jfc
>>33544627Living here will kill me
>>33544627You shouldn't swear.
>>33542521You know what? I might just kill myself. Shelters are at maximum capacity for beds, and I’m restricted from one that has them. No money for gas, car is gone 6 days a week. Can’t leave my rural shithole to get a job. School was my only ticket out, and I dropped out. I’ll be stuck here forever.
>>33544642Would be funny, but not beneficial.
>>33542521this person isn't interested in anything she rambled about in this post and just wants someone with a driver's license to take her places. dunno why she won’t just say that instead of going on about this “soul sister” living situation. don’t waste your time on this deranged little leechy user. kinda sucks because the situation she described sounded pretty ideal.
>>33544672You should be better.
>>33544677you should stop being such a faggot
>>33544684Start leading by example. Unlike you, I didn't care to add her on Trannycord.
>>33544672I did want that, but it’s impossibleI’m going with the next best thingPlus I was just informed that I may not be able to get a plane ticket.. so there goes that
>>33544686you orbit her endlessly though?
>>33544694And I am going to, correct. Unlike you, I obey the fact that some lines don't need to be cross, and you love replying to me.
>>33544672Well, did the soul-sister post resonate with you?
>>33544698Because I could make that work tooSorry I am so unstable, I’m generally not
>>33544698Hmm, well I tried to add this person againI mean, I’m just very hopeless and frustrated about my living situation. I’m literally trapped here.
>>33544698>>33544693yes, it resonated with me. it’s not impossible, and im also in rural canada, so we have a lot in common. if you decide to stop being erratic and want something serious based on what you originally described and the promise of a friendship, feel free to add me back. otherwise, you can stay here and keep shouting into this bottomless pit… just to hear a patronizing echo back from retards like yzilma
>>33544700I mean, I don’t know if the first situation would work out. I’m an involuntary shut-in. It’s fucking depressing. I took online classes in high school, in a room away from the other teens. It’s no mystery why I’m dysfunctional.
>>33544705Are you a woman though?
>>33544714yes, verifiably
>>33544716My message could not be delivered
>>33542521I feel that I need you to love me as some kind of reconciliation with how events played out. I wish you could give me closure. I thought you would. I feel very hurt, and it’s hard not being able to tell how you feel. There is a lot that I cannot make sense of. Lord knows I love you, L.I wish I could speak to you directly
>>33545208I don’t need closure anymoreI will do just fine on my ownHere’s to tomorrow
>>33545292Are you awake.
>>33544705>just to hear a patronizing echo back from retards like yzilmaYou lost.
>>33542521But I want to know.. do you hate me, do you love me, or do you feel neutral towards me? How can I know this? Will you write me in 2 years?
>>33546265I could live through the pictures you shared of your drives, in many ways, you symbolized my hopes of leaving home. I imagined you driving me. Then you convinced me to stay here, and since my grandma left, it’s been impossible to get out. I believe the end of this friendship can be attributed to staying home, it is what it is. I wanted to stick it out, to prove to you that I was strong. I didn’t want to disappoint you, but I’ve disappointed you so much more this way. I let you convince me that I should aspire to accept my circumstances as they were. Lord knows I love you, L, but I wish I never let you talk me into this. I don’t know that I have the strength to leave, I feel like staying here is pushing me into death.You said I don’t deserve to stay at a shelter, well I believe I don’t deserve to live at homeIt’s killing me, L. It’s killing me, and you’re not there to comfort me. Where are you?
>>33546337If I must be lonely, I’d rather be alone.
>>33546345If I am to be honest, I don’t know that I can ever be in a relationship. I think that’s gone. I’ve just suffered loss after loss. It’s like a mother who miscarries, not wanting to birth children again.
>>33546355I had so much to give, and I’m left with nothing. Think I’ll just go back to isolating myself, or having low stakes interactions, like posting here. I don’t think I can maintain friendship. If this is my last friendship, it was worth it. I love you.I wish you knew me before M died, before everything.
>>33546381I wish we could have been together. Listen to my playlist
>>33546382Maybe I would have ruined it anyway.Maybe that’s the only way it could have ever been.Well, I just want to be friends again. I’d forget it all if we could speak to each other again.
>>33546393I’ll never forget you. I’ll love you forever.
>>33546396I hate how absorbed I've become into another persons life. Who am I?
>>33546418I just need to get out of here.
>>33546423Time to put this to restHate how pathetic I’ve become
>>33542521Hmm well I have no motivation to do anything, now that my hope is gone.I wanted to get a job. I wanted to move to Edmonton. I wanted to have a family. I wanted to become an electrician. I wanted to read all of M’s books in my lifetime. I wanted to learn Ukrainian. I wanted to find a board game club. I wanted to learn guitar. I wanted to live a life that I could love, and be proud of.I had just envisioned having family craft nights, family board game nights, making panoramas, and having a girl so I could work on dollhouse miniatures like I used to make as a kid. I do not want that if I cannot have that with you.
>>33546550Give love a chance, L
>>33546551I cannot understand why we are not together. Maybe it is because you are irreligious. When I am alone, I consider becoming LDS like M had wanted. He did not fully believe, as I discovered after his passing.
Hahaha.
>>33542521I should really be LDS, shouldn’t I?
>>33547084I should.I need to get my priorities in order.
>>33542521To stand the test of time,To stand alone.To be without the glue,That keeps us glued together.And feeling so excrementable.It only goes to show you,How many ways you don't know you.When the bad sets in,I could use some sleep.Resting, falling,Falling deeper than deep.We miss the point to carry on,We miss the point.To carry on where.Things you love but did not get.And all the times you've been upset by,Unfulfilled dreams and visions,And the guilt for your wrong decisions.It's so hard to pry away.Pry out from under all the lies,And distractions of the world,You've seen what they can do,But you can't see your way out.We miss the point to carry on.All thing fall through.That how it feels, when you hear the sound of Disappointment.So unsatisfied,When the sight's set higher.Some can't achieve, don't believe,There is light at the end at all.There's no light.Time to reach out for what's real,It's easy to miss, insist,That you shouldn't always follow the first thing you feel.
Mentally ill person who's bored asf plz talk to mePrefer cluster b ,sociopaths etc for no reason other than I like conversation with them more (typically) Kik-- ohoneone
>>33542521I am reminded of my camper, Lily. I am reminded of the discussion I had with my great grandfather. That was ignorance.
>>33547151I love you, M
>>33547153I have failed you
>>33547158I have dishonoured your name
>>33547161
>>33547162I am done here
>>33547163See you soon.
>>33547151>>33547153>>33547158>>33547161>>33547162>>33547163ew you're the schizo retard that posts on /adv/?? holy fuck i figured you were disgusting but god damn i didnt know it was THIS BAD!
>>33547510She's lovely!
Mentally ill person who's bored asf plz talk to mePrefer cluster b ,sociopaths etc for no reason other than I like conversation with them more (typically). Idk how to start conversation so just dm me a secret you haveKik-- ohoneone
>>33542554i honestly thought that was a dude
>>33550195In her own words, she detransitioned.
I don't think so.
>>33542521A woman added me from the thread, this thread, because I kept responding to you.
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