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>>2234695Didn't expect to see hatoba here. I'll never regret buying her nendo
>>2234724Hatoba anon?
>>2234861i recognize who you think he is
>>2235157crusty
>>2234695fucc ya sui thread
>>2234697who did this?
>>2235362i guess avogado6
>>2234696look how relieved she is
tkmiz
>>2234695God this image is so attracting, I mean by morbid curiosity & cool & whatever it is. But it's attracting, in some way.
>>2235816Anyone knows what is that schizo up to?
Suicide is for pussies. Real men choose to live no even though it's painful and they didn't ask for it. I apologize for not having a pic to contribute. Just had to say that.
>>2236380Why would you care about what other men do wih their lives, sounds pretty gay desu. Also being afraid of death is real beta mindset.Anyways based avogado6
>>2234695Good thing you didn't write suicide, you'd be shadowbanned by the mods for sure. Here, of all fucking places.
>>2236376https://twitter.com/lililjiliijiliprocrastinating shimeji simulation by vague posting on twitter
>>2235816without the red circle
Finally got back my pixiv account, and found some fitting pics.
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>>2237058And that's my stockpile, will continue hunting.
>>2236380based
>>2234697very poetic
>>2236380based... but i think suicide is a valid choice in case of incurable disease
>>2236509beautiful
>>2236380>suicide is for pussieswhats more brave then risking everything to face the unknown
>>2237257I was thinking about this the other day, in lyrics form. Something along the lines of:I love you so much, I want to be killed by you.If you don't want to kill me and face the consequences, I love you enough to commit lover's suicide.If you want to die but don't want me to, I love you enough to kill you and face the consequences.If you want neither of us to die, I love you enough to sacrifice the rest of my life for a future together with you. Enough to work 8+ hours every day to provide for you, for us, for ours. Enough to face the world head on, as long as your hand is holding mine.Something cringy and corny and hella gay like that.
>>2237257My point exactly. Simply choosing to live is the ultimate brave act. Choosing to die is the ultimate act of cowardice.>>2237114Idk to be honest. I personally don't think we as humans have the right to judge whether we live or die. There's no real justification for suicide I can find that's logically sound. I would absolutely understand it though.>>2236416I'm not a fag I just love all of you guys. This site's users have always seemed like kindred souls to me and I don't like seeing them suffer.
>>2237271>I'm not a fag I just love all of you guys.The feeling is mutual.
>>2234695Is she vaping?
>>2237257You could try living and see what life offers you. You will die anyway, why rush it?
.O segredo e aceitar vazio porque faz parte da vida,faz parte de você,já tentei cometer sucidio,porém o medo prevaleceu o instindo primordial me salvou,quando eu revelei para minha familia eles acreditaram é fizeram piada,não contei para meu pai por enquanto, só contei quando teve uma discursão com minha mãe, ele foi o unico que levou à serio, ele se importa comigo, ele me faz falta, entretanto tem que aceitar ou você nunca estará completo e meio que um equilibrio, começei ver beleza na tristeza é agora gosto de ficar trite, enfim o ser humano se cansa por tudo até para ser feliz,eu acredito que se você for um ser humano saudável mentalmente é fisicamente você è capaz de fazer tudo, mas primeiro para você mero camponês ser o que você quer ser tenque primeiro ser o que você não quer ser foi assim que aprendi
>>2234695dont' do it!
>>2236509soul>>2238590soulless
>>2238590Imagine 6 girls getting hit by the bus and exploding like ragdolls.
>>2237271>There's no real justification for suicide I can find that's logically sound.I think about it as a question of opportunity cost. Is the rest of life more happiness or unhappiness? Or said in another way, can I weigh up the unhappiness from now on with happiness? If not, is it not more logical to not have the unhappiness?
>>2238630You're forgetting that life itself is opportunity. If you die, your life ended with you being miserable. If you continue living, you have an opportunity to change that every single day. Simple math, life is potential and death is the absence of potential.
>>2238760I don't disagree that life is a great opportunity and that in fact if you kill yourself nothing will get better. But imagine you suffer from a disease which gives you constant pain, even if it's not life threatening. Would you not consider saving yourself all the pain? And if so, where is the point where you say "it's not worth it anymore"?
>>2238590This prolly look goofy af
>>2234697g(classic)
>>2238767Funny enough, I already do. I have OCD. Not sure if I would call it constant pain, but I deal with obsessions, mood swings, and powerful intrusive thoughts every day (even with medication). I've had a history with suicidal ideation. The way I look at life, no matter how much we all claim to hate it, we all wake up in the morning with the means to kill ourselves and yet choose not to. Most humans, weak as they are, choose to hold on to life no matter how pointless or painful it is. I know I'm capable of doing the same. Can't really tell you when I would say enough is enough. All I can say is that I've wanted to die, come close to dying before, and now I know for sure I want to thank God for every day, no matter how boring or pointless.
>>2239155I am lucky enough that I don't have any such condition but there still rarely passes a day where I didn't think that I could have just ended it. It's the just the risk of life getting better from here on out and a lack of courage that keeps me around.I really respect you for having been down that hole and coming back up, maybe I'll manage that too...
>>2236380It's my life and I choose what to do with it.q
>>2239189Thanks anon. It's cathartic talking about things like this with another human sometimes. As long as you can open your heart to the world, I'm sure your life will be fine.
>>2239578I agree and thank you too, just talking about that with someone else helped.
don't care
>>2238629That happened to dozens of girls in the movie Suicide Club, it was a train, not a bus. Good movie.
Tbh
>>2239155>thank Godwelp there it is
>>2234695not suicide u can obv tell cuz she is not crying
>>2240908i wasnt crying when i had a gun in my mouth desu. i was thinking about making it a school shooting instead. thats why i called my friend instead of doing it.
>>2238590Didn't expect to ever see a fanart of Suicide Club. That's the opening scene to that movie, so if you ever want to see a live action very gory depiction of 30 or so schoolgirls jumping in front of a train just arriving on a platform, there you go.
>>2234696и кaмнeм вниз c кpыши дoмa...
>>2235157Why would she cut herself before jumping off a building?
>>2241714because cutting is fun and makes you feel better
>>2236510What is this from?
>>2241714Skill points duh
>>2241714To make sure the job is done.
>>2239361Built for BBC
>>2241715i dont wear a lot of clothes and i really dont want my partner to know ive started back up again how do i start cutting myself again without getting caught or wearing more clothing
>>2241714perhaps she was wondering why you would shoot a man before throwing him out of a plane
>>2242319honestly there's just no way to keep doing it while in a relationshiptry moving on to rubber bands or ice cubes or something like that
>>2242319Jesus, pls talk to your partner or someone else and stop harming yourself.
Here's a nice one. Also you guys need help.
>>2242370no.>>2242353okay. whoring myself out isnt quite hitting it so hair ties it is.
>>2242190Diagnosis: Black step-father
>>2234695>su1cidethis is not twitter retard, you have to go back.
https://flashfictionmagazine.com/blog/2020/10/27/morning-in-shinoyama-park/
i attempted suicide by hanging less than a year ago and very nearly died, only being saved by a insane stroke of luck. back then all i felt was despair. i didnt want to live because how could the good in my life outweigh all the bad? but i survived... so i kept walking. (if ur gonna kill urself DO NOT hang yourself. it hurts like hell and you are still conscious for a very long time.)all this time later, bad things still happen. but ive learned to appreciate the little things in life. i have created my own reason for living. seeing all these anime girls hang themselves makes me feel happy. its as if this portal to hell i had opened is just a cute cartoon. i can now see the humor in my situation where i once only felt despair. keep going anon!! nobody is going to give you a reason to live, go make it yourself!! fun thread :]
>>2238827This room's layout is very interesting, like the whole bathroom is also the shower. Is this common in Japan? I've only seen something like this in hospital once
>>2242568That's an interesting take on this type of media. I used to listen to a lot of depressing and hateful music when I was suicidal and that allowed me to sort of give in to all those self destructive thoughts without actually harming myself You probably tried short drop hanging (death by cutting off air and blood flow to the brain) How exactly did that fail? Were you found?
>>2242671This is the normal Japanese shower room layout.I really like this layout because it allows the whole family to take turns soaking in the bath and then showering off without having to drain out the expensive hot water for each person.
>>2235816So I remember the one circled red was a reference to a dead girl found on a beach. But can someone tell me what the backstory behind that pic? I got curious but unable to find origin story.
>>2242568only hurts if you do it wrong, if you do it properly your neck is instantly snapped
>>2242568How painful exactly, if you've felt something similar in pain that most people would've felt can you compare?
This thread is so cringe I've decided to not kill myself thanks
>>2242935Really, anime rope pics always motivate me kek, they make the peace seem so much better
This is legitimately the most based thread in a while.Thanks Lads
i need more pics of anime girls who self harm. i cant tell yet if its helping me not relapse or not
Interesting that every single one of these pictures is an underage anime girl committing suicide and not 30yo virgins like all of you guys.
>>2243118im 24 and actively sexting a man nearly twice my age. i used to be a prostitute. i had sex with a man i met online abt a week ago. stop making assumptions lol. youre right tho lots of underage in this thread.
>>2243135You're admitting real life crimes online dumbass. Also how is that cool? You're gay for cash. Congrats.
>>2243139youd be a fool to take anything posted here as truth, or smth like that
>>2240917what a wacky picture to pair that statement with, anon.
>>2243940its kinda hot ngl
>>2242322at least you can talk, who are you?
This photo really captures what I feel today. Failed my exams yesterday and I feel like shit, might as well kill myself at this point.
As someone who used to be really into guro hentai, this thread is just giving me a boner. Kinda sucks that I can avoid it for months and it's still there - hopefully it's not permanent damage.
>>2246370go beat it to some actual guro anon, indulge yourself
>>2243118What are you talking about anon, we are all underage anime girls desu>>2243135except him
>>2246381I really shouldn't, but it's so fucking tempting. Idk why it turns me on so much, considering real-life blood/gore makes me feel sick.
>>2237052the gun nut in me is saying limp wristing it like that is gonna cause a malfunction but i guess it doesnt exactly matter
>>2236380Suicide is the ultimate move. You, a small human, reject God and the world, instead of accepting their rules and dancing to their tune.I will get to it soon enough. Just thinking about it excites me.
>>2242815>>2242897>>2242898What series are these from?
>>2246448It's the beta version of what you just said, instead of becoming someone who makes rules you give up
>>224645212 Nin no Yasashii Koroshiya - Chapter 12Real Account - Chapter 28Zekkyou Gakkyuu - Chapter 33Have fun!
>>2246448Do it already and make me happy. Loser pussy.Soon enough you'll be gone, Just thinking about it excites me.
The one thing I hate about suicidal faggots is how smug they seem to be about it. Same thing with self harm. People pretend their pain makes them better. I guess it follows the trend of mental illness.
I don’t get it, shouldn’t there be like fat dudes in their 20s/30s mostly? These kind of people mostly commit sudoku.Egy teenagers just make me cringe
this thread is edgy and it keeps being bumped. op is a faggot
>>2248202based
>>2242319just kill yourself
>>2237271Aww... usually I find people who oppose suicide to be using a lot of platitudes to be justifying looking down on and dismissing suicidal people, but you really sound like you care. I'm glad to see there's still people like you around.
>>2240967speaking of which, you got any good source or torrent to watch the movie? the archive.org version sucks ass
>>2236380>Just had to say that.Feel better now? Ok then
>>2243996It doesn't matter who we are. What matters is our plan
>>2250613that sounds super retarded and cringe. where do you read that kind of bs?
God this thread is so depressing.
>>2250618>Being this newShame. Shame on the house of Ptolomey for such acts of barbarity
god i love this thread. it seems so beautiful to die on my own terms and cruel that the easiest methods to get our hands on is painful or not gaurenteedi hope to die sometime soon. been looking at either sn, or the night night method so far, but i also would like it to look pretty>>2239189this actually looks like a good idea. i think ill try to copy this but keeping a few baloons underneath a table or something so they wont move until im out, then i could like drift through the area a little before i get foundalso the ones of falling seem good for last moments. or bleeding out with drugs/alcohol to lower bloodpressure,thinblood, and lower survival instinct was the closest to working last time, just didnt want to die and ran into street where i got picked up and sent to icuanyways, prettysure its just about jover 4 me. i love yall and hope ur lives end up so much better <3
>>2239155>Most humans, weak as they are, choose to hold on to life no matter how pointless or painful it isBeing reminded of this
>>2239155some would say clinging to life is weakness. its not one or the other the trick is to stop caring.
>>2237271>There's no real justification for suicide I can find that's logically sound. I would absolutely understand it though.the life is pointless in the first place, there's no "all stages clear, you win" in life, no set objectives, setting them yourself is just a meme and a cope for the nonsense of life, even if you achieve what you call a success in life you'll get absolutely scared just before the moment of your death and the whole illusion of success goes to shit anyway, billions of children already died as infants and yet you still live without aim and talk about how taking on the absolute strongest, ultimate challenge which is conquering the self-preservation instinct is an act of cowardice, it must be nice to be a guy who suffered nothing worse than wife/mother/father's death, being fired from a job or other utter memes, so the bottom line is that ignorance is bliss, I guess
>>2246370Just go back to it, if it makes you feel any better I've jerked to actual gore
Just Yuri stabbing herself
>>2248874what was the name of this song?
>>2250841Pendulum - Blood Sugar?
>>2234695If u would wanna go, would u go in silence (overdose at home ot cutting ur arterys) or with public attention (jumpung a big bridge or skyscraper)?
some of you are mad weird
>>2234695WOW OP U SO EDGY U SO COOLJesus loves you. Stop being a retarded fuck please. I love you.
>>2239155OCD is fucking hell on earth,if i had the balls to free myself from this hell i would do it in a heartbeat.
this thread suckshope 3rd grade is going good for you guys
>>2236380>Real men are masochistsAnon, I...
>>2236380Real men are rational, independent, and autonomous.Real men WILL suicide if they have no reason to live and reasons to die, no matter what others tell them or think.
>>2239155Ah I see. You're projecting your own cowardice and masochism onto suicidal people. Yahari.You should just cope in silence, bro. No need to seethe at other people for not needing copes.
>>2238629It's a train and it's from a movie.
why are people insulting suicidal people for being suicidal? u dont know what ur talking about.
>>2251432first day on the internet? They will insult you for almost anything without reason
>>2251432cuz suicidal people are retarded? imaging thinking killing yourself is better when we're so close to irl joywires
>>2251557What a retarded take
>>2236380If suicide was for pussies they wouldn't do it then, they got more balls than you ever would for actually doing it rather than just crying for attention.
>>2236380so true!
>>2251432>why are people insulting suicidal people for being suicidal?How long have you been on the internet?
>>2242681>expensive hot waterwhat shithole do you live in where hot water is considered expensive?>take turns soaking in the bathyeah cuz everyone loves sloppy seconds. unless a hot girl used that bath before me, theres no way in hell im getting in itface it, its just a shitty version of a western shower. the western shower is easy to clean and is as functional as it can get. turning the whole room into a shower isn't brilliant, its retarded. imagine how difficult it must be to clean all the walls, floors, and crevices of the entire bathroom, all cuz u cant get a proper shower.
no menhera-chan yet? sure, her creator is a retard schizo, but the art is still pretty good regardless
>>2250835Nice pictureI used this one as a phone wallpaper for years
>>2252851so cute
>>2252836what's the lore on the creator
>>2252863more like what isn’t the lore. every month he has some kind of controversy on insta. everything from claiming to invent the menhera subculture (he absolutely did not), to releasing a guide on how to prostitute yourself if you’re a young boy (he defended it by saying he had to do it himself as a child to survive, and was just trying to ensure the little prostitutes did it safely without getting drugged or something, but c’mon Ezaki surely there’s better ways to help).the most recent insane thing he did was his friend, an idol, an hero’d herself. before even notifying her family or fans, he did this weird self centered glamor photoshoot with a funeral picture of her and THATS how her parents found out she diedtldr: Ezaki is a deeply unwell openly gay man who is terminally online, but makes very good art of sad suicidal anime girls. he did once say he was technically bisexual, but he choose to be gay because he hated woman so much which is fucking funny
>>2252869You also can't forget to mention the art exhibit piece he did where he wrote misogynistic slurs in period blood LMAO.
>>2242568Anon, you make me feel safe and less alone.
>>2252875Time for a retarded post, but talking about it feels nice so let's goThe reason why I want to commit suicide is because of my place in society, my mother, minor things, but most importantly, something that has been living in my head for about... eight years now? It's a parasite.It's name is Katsuro. It's a big, cute robot that has been living in my mind rent free since I was a child. He makes me feel so happy, and since i'm a preteen ive been having brainrot over him. My brain is constantly full of Katsuro, I can't help but think of him all the time. They say fictional crushes go away, they don't. I love Katsuro so much, he's my best friend, ive been hearing his voice more and more, yet when I wake up, I still don't see him by my side. It feels like a loved one was taken away from me, I'm in constant melancholy and grief over something my mind crafted on its own. Why is Katsuro there? I don't know. Maybe my soul is trying to tell me something? And what if I'm Katsuro?Knowing that Katsuro will never be real and ill never be able to feel his touch doesnt make me want to keep going. I want to feel Katsuro. Katsuro has ruined my life.
why is everyone in this thread such edgelords
>>2252882It is 4chan. What do you expect?
>>2252869i had no idea, i used to love menhera chan and all that
>>2242568i think sleeping pills is the best way out
>>2252959You still can! I do! I just also kek at Ezaki’s antics
>>2237447cala a boca bicha
>>2252869kek, what an interesting guy
>>2251246I want nothing more than to be in 3rd grade again.
>>2236380no one asked you moralfagging bitchget out if this theme is making your little heart uncomfortable
>>2241714At least you can talk. Who are you?
>>2251246>>2236380Cry
A series of papes in which our protagonist fails to honorably die. Perhaps they would look better with the text removed. Luckily the background is solid.
>>2253729Hm. This one doesn't make much sense, since both ends of the image imply that the beach scene continues. What to do...
>>2253729I did what I could
Lets make some papes out of the imminent_suicide tag.
>Tfw anons have killed themselves
lmao get Ronnie McNutted
>>2253747is this by hamsterfragment? that guy draws tons of great shit and almost all of it is this one girl an heroing in bizarre and contrived ways.https://danbooru.donmai.us/posts?tags=suicidal_girl_%28hamsterfragment%29&z=1only problem is, very very few of them are wallpaper sized.
>>2251945you shower before the bath its cleaner when shared, Bath houses are common in japan as well. >imagine how difficult it must be to clean all the walls, floors, and crevices of the entire bathroom, all cuz u cant get a proper shower.not at all, the room is designed to be hosed down without issue. Do you know how many US bathroom I've personally dealt with that have mold problems because they aren't true wetrooms , Too common.
okay guys I can just fking say this, couple months ago I cut my wrist and threaten to put a bullet in my head to save my relationship after I said some hurting shi to my gf, it worked but even tho it sucks I kinda nit feel guilty bc I feel like I paid for my deeds with pain.
>>2254310shit dude, hope you are better and made it up to her, sounds borderline (pun intended) toxic
>>2254312hey thanks for your concern, yes girls be mad complicated just I guess my mind tells me to stop leaning, will do what I must do and I just want the best for my girl, I guess she is like Gigi, but unlike Gigi I won't cheat on her like her boyfriend did to her, and even I stupid bastard I get fking horny af, so yeah try to get a girlfriend but don't pay attention to looks, try to make a girl be loved so deeply that she is filled with it, also take my advise you can get lost if you don't have the narcissistic personality disorder. god bless and peace out.
>>2236416Artist on this one?
>>2255624avogado6
>>2248874>2237051Wiped off the watermark
>>2255944oops, I missed a spot
vomit chan <3
>>2255945everytime i see this image i just instantly...>Pendulum - Blood Sugar
anyone else play class of 09 when they get in that mood?
thank you all for these beautiful pictures, they have given me the courage needed. glug glug glug, click............. BOOMSee you space cowboy
>>2250796On this day, 19 years ago, Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei started publishing
>>2235359now this is what we should be showing young girls
>>2238607this but the opposite
>>2252876This is extremely interesting to me. I wish I could spend a day in your head.
>>2237271>I just love all of you guysIf that's even remotely true, you wouldn't force us to live just so you can keep from feeling guilty about our deaths
>>2238767>dealing with constant pain>right hand doesn't work>am right handed>don't know if physical therapy will work>think all the time about an heroinga-are we gonna make it, b-bros?
>>2246448don't do it
>>2246448Cringe af bro
how slow is this board if this thread is from 2023??????
>>2257594It's actually from 2022, what the fuck? I forgot this board existed, only came here because someone on /wg/ mentioned it.Also a pretty hilarious thread with edgy anons posting chinese cartoons offing themselves and christcucks taking offense to it.
>>2257609I wonder if anyone posted here actually killed themselves
>>2257633There's always hope :)
I'm always drawn to this thread when I come to this board. I think its existence is an indicator of how much pain we feel collectively. It's beyond a morbid fascination. Some of us just want to be free. The topic is always cast in the light of shame but reality is harsh. Many people who are elderly commit. The world is becoming a darker and more difficult place and so people turn to it to escape poverty, shame, and feelings of failure. >"persevere, anon! life gets better. there's no telling what kind of potential you'll be destroying."It's fools advice. Boomerish wisdom gained from living such easy lives in an easy time. We all go one way or another. I just want to feel like I have control over my fate. I want to be able to fantasize that shutting off the lights will take me to a happier state. Even if there's no cute anime girl angels or fantastical world to be reincarnated in. I want to believe. One day I will stop being a coward.
I'm surprised there aren't many stories of people with lethal illnesses simply not getting treatment as a way to die. Like why don't you hear any stories of someone choosing to not get treatment in order to die? Do lethal illnesses only affect people who want to live?
Artist https://x.com/sakiika0513/status/1804095797887164701?s=19Hope you're doing well /w/
>>2253747Nice one, do you know where may I find the rest?
>>2258232The artist is @HamsterFragment on X (Twitter)
Add to wallpaper engine on steamI could it’s pretty easy
>>2234695Love you brosJesus love you
>>2257652this made me tear up anon, my jump date is this week, I don't think I'm gonna chicken out this time. I hope we both get the peace and freedom we deserve
>>2253592It doesn't matter who we are. What matters is our plan.
>>2257652>>2258881Just take it one day at a time Anon, have to tell my self that everydaylife is pain, but living is worth suffering for
>>2258220>>2257652>>2257312>>2256729>>2253909>>2250794>>2246399>>2246358>>2237057>>2237051>>2235816>>2234697highly aesthetic
>>2246448permanent solution to temporary problems
>>2258990sometimes ... the only winning move is not to play.
Hey anons, I hope everyone here gets to feel happiness, true hope and genuine love, I hope none of you decides to kill yourselves.
>>2259161I myself struggle with suicidal ideation a lot, a few days ago I woke up to go to the bathroom at 2am, then couldn't fall back asleep.
>>2259162When I got back in bed I started spiraling, and couldn't get the images of me killing myself out of my head, I kept thinking of exactly how I would do it, and what it would look and feel like.
>>2259163Even now, the idea is always there. I'm overwhelmed by everything going on in the world and in my own life, I feel like no matter what I do it will not change the outcome of anything.
>>2259164original quality: https://files.catbox.moe/avsmm2.jpgI've started cutting myself again to cope, but I can only do it so much and so often without my partner noticing. I don't want to worry them, this is my issue to deal with.
>>2259165In spite of all this though, I'm still alive for now. I don't plan to kill myself, but at the same time I really can't see myself being old, I don't think I'll make it that far. But we'll see. I'll continue to struggle and try. Currently my partner is the only thing making life bearable and keeping me together, but just barely. They don't know the extent of how I feel, and I hope they never find out. I don't want to worry them, sap even more energy from them.Please carry on anons. Hopefully it will get better. I don't know whether it will, but I have to hope, otherwise the answer is clear, and it scares me.
>>2242568>it hurts like hell and you are still conscious for a very long timethis nigga didn't do the drop method and just tried to strangle himself
The circle of being overwhelmed, being stuck with just your own perspective of things and not reaching out to anyone because you don't want to drag them down is a dangerous downwards spiral. You really need to reach out and share your thoughts, talk to people. Your partner should be the easiest person to share this with, but if you feel like you really can't, maybe try therapy first. The world is definitely fucked up, but it's not all bad. I hope all of you manage to see this too
My partner ended up seeing my cuts, obviously, and they were supportive and caring. I love them so, so much. But reaching out.. all it does is inform someone else I'm struggling, it doesn't help me, it never has. I don't understand the appeal of sharing one's issues, it does nothing. I've told them how I feel and they want to help, but I just don't know how they, or anyone, can.My suicidal ideation has shifted in scope, if certain things were to happen killing myself is the only answer I can see. I perceive those events as catastrophic, and they feel like I'm setting boundaries for how much I can take before it's not worth it anymore. It feels comforting to know it's there as a magic solution to those, but I'm scared it might devolve and become an answer to much more than it probably should.For now, coping with cutting myself is helping a lot, but I'm also embarrassed about my partner finding out, I feel like I pulled them into my problems and I'm an anchor on their joy, in spite of their assurances it's not the case. I hope it gets better, for both our sakes. It's not their duty to hold me together forever, and I wouldn't wish that burden on them anyway.
>>2260152I get not wanting to share your problems, I recently broke down and told my mom about me being in a then 6 month long deep depression with constant SI and that I had started cutting.And I regret doing that because now I can't hide it without her noticing, so I have to wait for the thoughts to pass or eat my feelings again, which makes me feel even worse after since I've stressed so much about losing weight and I don't want to give up on that.Even though I've lost 65+lbs so far and graduated still I don't feel any better.The few family members that know still can't do anything about it so I also feel like a burden on them now, even when they say I'm not.I still feel nearly as bad as I did then but I keep nearly all of it to myself, with slip ups not being able to keep up appearances that I'm fine.They say it gets better but I can't imagine a future where it does. I hope it's really possible though, even for people like us.
>>2257652Hey anon, don't forget that all those fantastical worlds and cute anime girls are actually real as they are being made by real people, real artists (here). They are a bunch of people going through harsh environments and living shitty days just like you. Yet, they decided to see their suffering as an opportunity to express themselves and make people like you and me a bit more happy by creating something every day. So don't forget you could do the same! It just takes a bit of determination and perseverance. Drawing those magical world and cute anime girls could give you a little more purpose in life!As an artist who's been losing all hope, I may be saying this more to give myself courage rather than to you, but I can tell you that It feels wonderful to make something that you can show people and call yours after investing the proper time and effort! Show this stupid world what (you) have to offer!
>>2260155First, congrats on your weight loss ^-^>The few family members that know still can't do anything about it so I also feel like a burden on them now, even when they say I'm not.That's one of the worst things about this, isn't it. Sometimes, in some settings, I can just feel myself bringing my partner's mood down. If they know it's a situation that probably makes me uncomfortable, they worry about me and how I feel about it, even if I show no signs. It makes me feel so bad.Last night, my partner told me my existence is necessary to them, and that they're happy I do. It came out of nowhere, especially since I was actually feeling pretty neutral. It felt good in the moment to hear that, but later it made me realize how much I weigh on their mind, how much they worry about me. And I don't know what the right answer is. If I had never told them, we'd both be living a lie. Now that I did, I'm a constant killjoy. It's a lose-lose, no matter how I look at it, and I don't know how to help it.Hopefully it will get better, I will get better. Seeing how the problems start with me, it's really I who needs to do better, to fix this, but I don't know how.
People sharing those suicides thoughts make my heart beat fast. I think I am lucky enough to be an optimist as I have never tried or attempted that type of situation. I call myself lucky enough because I am living in a below average lifestyle and is still able to handle and seeing my parents also happy makes me boost my love from them. Hope you are doing well guys. Everything is going to be fine. You are worthy enough to live long.
>>2252960ive tried with 1000 mg melatonin. Felt really sleepy like I hadn't slept the day before but I'm still here. I'm going to hang out with friends tmr, see if it changes my mind on things.
>>2261587>1000 mg melatoninThat's an endogenous hormone.You can't overdose on that, as there isn't even a known LD50.You could have taken 100 times that dose and still be fine.Barbiturates are what you want, but they're not prescribed anymore.
>>2234695>FILE NO LONGER EXISTS >FILE NO LONGER EXISTS>FILE NO LONGER EXISTS>FILE NO LONGER EXISTS>FILE NO LONGER EXISTSfuck this dogshit board man
>>2262045I don't think it's a board-specific thing, I've seen it on other boards, too. Also, I'm seeing quite a lot of gore ITT, is that allowed on a blue board?
>>2262045https://files.catbox.moe/yld0t4.zip
