Relationship wise. I won't specify what they are cause its not the point and I've been flooding this place up with them for a few weeks now cuz Im a lonely gay faggot loser bitch. Just know that they're so niche I'm fine with someone only being into them and working up into a relationship from that point on.
>>42348235*I remember reading this lesbian concept called "do you want her or want to be her" sorry I fucked it up :P
>>42348235Is that what lgbts here refer to as skinwalking?
>>42348091are they really so weird that you can't just ask someone to try them? like if it's uhh a sport find someone into sport in general? not just saying what the fuck it is makes this a lot more complicated than it needs to be
>>42348297Well thats mainly a derogatory term towards the self about feeling inadequate compared to cis people, but it also fits in this situation.
>>42348347Sorry I forgot to respond. Basically my niche interest is weird art. That's not that bad but I am also an artist that if I could would dedicate all of my time to making weird art. So you can see how interests and lifestyle meld into one whole thing. The fantasy that I spend my time working up to is to be someone like David Lynch who just comes up with ideas and spends all of his time working them out no matter how offputting or ridiculous they are. Sounds absolutely pointless and hopeless right? Exactly. I couldn't be with someone who didn't get the part of me that says "this should be my whole life!" when I see something that influences me or could basically brush whatever they actually thought about the stuff I'm into cause it was from me or I liked it. And I know a lot of trans people are into weird art like Femtanyl and whatever but I'm not into that whole wave... at all. I don't think I could be with someone who was only into that. You see how this quickly becomes me being pretentious? But it's not like I'm trying to be I'm just reflecting what I've seen and how I feel.You said sports so I'll create an analog using it: most people into sports as a pastime watch it and maybe play it with their friends occasionally. For me it's like if I was thinking about sports all the time and whenever I wasn't at work I worked out to try and be a D1 athlete but never actually tried out for it, I just liked watching sports enough to do it. TL;DR I'm a weird artist and need someone else to be a weird artist too (or at least be heavily into it)
Share your kinks, ask people about their kinks, ask people to explain the appeal behind kinks you don't understand, and generally be freaky
>>42348609I saw it actually happen to a really poor girl i knew at my rich ass high school who couldn't afford new uniforms, I felt bad for her but she was so curvy it was kinda fucking hnnnng especially since she was also a star student who got attention for being a prodigy
>>42348647Wanna talk on disc? :3
>>42348609If you want I can show you the inferiority of your body very easily. I just need to bend down and raise my ass and wait for you to fuck me. But can't really do that can you? I think you lack the tool for dominance...
>>42348611>nuclear families need to be abolished, village method all the wayThis theory is interesting but I have mixed feelings on it, because the culture of your wider community can be just as savage as your family lol. I do agree that parents shouldn't be tyrants though. Tacitus attests to germans having smallish monogamous families even as early as Roman times but often elders and uncles/aunts would not be very physically far
It's a bit dark and weird, but: recently I've been inserting in my fantasies (not reality @_@) as a 30-38yo cis male hebephiIe who gets committed to a forensic mental ward - either voluntarily because I'm scared of my thoughts, or as mandated rehabilitation. And one of my therapists is a slightly younger woman in her late 20s who uses her authority to just fucking rape me. Maybe she's a true crime fan who fetishizes "bad boys", or maybe she was abused in her youth and just wants control as revenge. Like riding me and forcing her huge breasts and pubes in my face even though I find her adult body repulsive, saying that if I report her nobody will take my side, and even if I was killed there'd be little to no investigation because I'm the scum of the earth. Saying she can extend my commitment as long as possible. Doing creepy things like kissing me afterwards and making me gaze down when she walks past in the mess hall. A bit like corrective rape but instead of a lesbian I'm something much more despized and with mature anatomy defamiliarized idk.
>17in bideltoid>30in underbustits over, isnt it
>>42348385>15" bideltoid>37" underbustim so sorry how tall are you
>>42344079>16.5 bidelt>32 underbusttell me about it, there's a reason I'm still a boymoder besides my horrific face
>>42348631Me
>>42348767boymoder solidarity nona
>>42348631>>42348767same, ive given up on transitioning
Every time I encounter one they're always the most off-putting, disgusting fuckers alive. They almost seem revel in other people pointing out how gross they are for fetishizing minorities & up the ante too. Do any of them put there feel even the slightest bit of shame.
>>42347841Do you can like futa and still talk to trans woman normally which I’m capable of doing like right now I’m not asking for your Gock or something crazy like that
>>42347841nah if you LIKE the fact someone is a transgirl, then you're a stinky bichud chasoid, according to /tttt/
>>42343578Chaser here.No.You will do what daddy tells you. I am basicaly permanently hard and this is the problem of all marginalied groups. Thank you for your sluttention on this matter.
>>42343578>Do any of them put there feel even the slightest bit of shameShould i feel shame for liking tranners? Self hating much?
>>42343578If you want to feel shame I can bend over with my ass raised high up for you to fuck it.But once you realize you don't have tool for it between your legs and I'm laughing you will get to experience real shame.
if you really think about it, men mostly like teenage age girls, give or take a few years, after that you're barely even desireable, if at allsince trannies always look older than that, none of us really experience being actually desireable to men, it's pretty grimi hate that i have been a hag since like 5 years old
This is mostly not about transitioning... I think. I'd be okay if I never transitioned. I'd be happier if I did but I don't suffer just because I haven't. I'm just kinda not usually in the mood to put up with the world. I'm not depressed I don't hate myself or anything. Actually long story short I like myself better than almost anyone else. But I don't like most people and most people don't like me. Their loss. So I generally stay alone in my room and I work on a few different kinds of art. Transitioning would take a ton of work even before I started to see results and even once I did manage to present exactly as I wanted I wouldn't feel any better about the primary cause of my listlessness... other people. I don't see any sense in trying to optimize my existence in such an environment. If I had easy access to a painless suicide I'd kill myself as soon as I got too bored. Or I'm totally wrong about all this and maybe transitioning will be the key to changing this entire outlook. So I thought I'd ask.
>>42348559I've never been entirely sure. I think it started out when I noticed how much I disliked being perceived as a boy, with all the assumptions that puts in people's minds. There's nothing I dislike more than being misunderstood. If I presented as a girl I would be less misunderstood. Of course I would still be misunderstood everywhere as a girl too - gender is stupid, really I'm nonbinary, etc - but that is one reason. Another reason I understand even less is that I would feel better about how I look. I enjoy looking feminine. I have no idea why. Before my egg cracked I cared hardly at all about my physical appearance or my choice of clothes. Perhaps that apathy could just be a reaction to "feeling like I'm in the wrong body", as many trans people describe it. And many people, cis and trans, report enjoying working on their appearance and feeling proud of how they have managed to look. I suppose I could that in common with them, but only as a girl. I don't think I know what that really means though. What is a girl?
>>42348621I see, im in a pretty similar situation to your op and this. but I believe to some significant extent the way u present urself socially will always be an act and u have to accept that so don't expect too much but u probably know this already. personally I just trooned cuz I couldn't take it anymore. it feels like its not really a problem cuz its in the background and you can detach from it but at the same time its killing everything on some level or sometimes. honestly just do a cost benefit analysis and do what u truly desire to do, there's not much else I can say. im too early in transition to be able to say if its really worth it in the end
>>42348670I hear a lot of trans people say that they know gender is a performance and they enjoy putting on the performance. But it's hard for me to imagine enjoying that or even doing it at all. When I'm relaxed, when I can fully enjoy myself, I never act. I am myself and I do not try to hide "myself" from others unless I need to for whatever reason. Usually that's because it's the path of least resistance socially. I'm more comfortable acting a little bit for smooth social interactions than being entirely myself and dealing with the fallout of inadvertently picking at one of their many emotional wounds. This happens with essentially everyone I meet and I'm out of patience for it. I'm also proud of what I've already accomplished artistically and I wouldn't mind stopping here. So I don't desire to die, it's just apparently the most attractive option available. Glad the same isn't true for you though. Good luck with your transition.
>>42348756tyhowever, being yourself is precisely an act. although being yourself as X or Y are different acts I suppose. the only path of least resistance phenomenon I can agree exists in the human psyche is just conditioned/impulsive behaviour which doesn't really reflect on the person underneath all of it. I think the only true self is the one that chooses which act to put on in order to suit its desires. its not that I enjoy putting on a performance, is that it can't be anything but a performance. I am always aware and deliberate and when I'm not it's just the animal aspect of my brain coming out.also whether u want to die or not you will find out easily if u end up in a situation where u might die. not really saying you should seek it out but there's no such thing as being on the fence with this
>>42348815Interesting. It sounds like being cis was no less of an act for you than being trans? Not exactly sure. But if so, once again I don't think I relate. "Being myself" with others and "acting" for the protection of others' emotions are entirely different experiences for me.
I suffer a decent amount as a tranny in Australia.QOTT: Have you showered today?
Hold on... You actually think you're a woman? Like a real woman?HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH HOLY SHITYou can't be fucking serious.
Look in the fuck g mirror cunt do you actually think THAT'S a woman LMAO
>>42348691>>42348698Actually I think YOU'RE a woman.
>>42348687Fine I'll just make a thread about it. Holy shit way to not be supportive.
>>42348200That's good. So what's your current hobbies @? Anything new?
women isn't a feeling, those who call themselves trans women are normal, conventional dyadic male men
>trans girl who doesn't exclusively bottom
>>42347529You need a partner who makes you feel comfortable and safe
>>42342991Strapons just feel awful and overly firm and the other person I assume only gets pleasure from your reaction. I don't understand how they're as popular as they are and I wish I could enjoy being strapped but it hurts compared to dick.
>>42343635Tranny tops are exclusively for cis men, AGPedo
>>42348531impossible
>>42342991anal sex is absolutely disgusting
Exercise Editionprevious: >>42162119Goal of the thread: Go out for a walk, or try to get any other form of small exercise (walking stairs for 5 mins for example)Daily goals can be repeated. Remember to keep score, it can only go up!>What is this thread for?Getting better is hard, and sucks. A lot. It does not get easier doing it alone.Share resources and experiences with combating depression, anxiety, personal issues, achieving or maintaining a healthy weight, etc.>Why is this thread /lgbt/?Struggles with mental and physical health are an indisputable part of /lgbt/ life, be it from dysphoria, social pressure, heartbreak, or just unfortunate lifestyle choices.>Notes to consider:Please be civil. Shame is your greatest enemy in fighting urges of self abuse (be it sh, drugs, or just self deprecation). Relapsing into bad and unhealthy habits is to be expected, the goal is to increase the average amount of time it takes between relapses. Any improvement is a victory no matter how small. Your worth and right to get better are non-negotiable. And most importantly:WE ARE NOT THERAPISTS, WE DON'T REPLACE MEDICATION>Note on adviceComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
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2026 is the year i WILL get a job at the ripe age of 30 years old
>>42341787i went out to eat with my mom and cleaned my room when i got home. im trying to get an appointment with a psychiatrist my therapist recommended but they haven't responded back after I gave them my legal name (they asked for it) and revealed im a disgusting terrible tranny that will be laughed at when i go there
The workouts will continue apace even tho I am about to hit 7 months unemployed after a layoff, I will accept a lower paying job enthusiastically if offered as I need some cash coming in
>>42342976>Do you have a schedule?And here I was, thinking it was you, /sig/anon, expressing yourself.
i'm 27 and i've only ever had sex with and dated one guyi feel like i have wasted my youth, but at the same time i really don't want to be a whore idkmtf tranny in case that wasn't obvious
>>42346612i went from giga incel to having sex with like 5-6 people, i still feel just as ugly and unlovable. its not nice having sex with someone and not even knowing if they actually want to but you just do it anyway in the hope it will make you like yourself.
>>42347178god that sounds like sui fuel
A lot of us are in a similar boat. I stopped caring that much but it would seem pretty morbid if I gave a candid history of my sex life.
>>42346612Girl I lost my virginity at 27 and was so heartbroken when he wouldnt date me i was celibate for another year afterword. By age 32 I had been with 15 guys. You have plenty of time.
>>4234661240 year old whores wish they didn't whore around40 year old chaste women wish they whored aroundTale as old as time
i might actually despise ftfemboys/no t "trans men" more than agp rapehonsat least boomerhons probably have some sort of dysphoria, but these people are literally just women who feel the need to appropriate EVERYTHING after reading too much bl, and make sure ftms can never be taken seriously i thought all these attentionwhores died after 2021, but apparently some stuck around instead of becoming detransitioners who spread the word about the horrors of changing their name to Ash or Xavier for 6 monthsthe droves of 50 year olds with sissy kinks are way worse for optics, but something about these women really grinds my gearsmtf btw(feel free to shower with me with praise for my opinions trans guys)
>>42347216>Fully trooning out would bring way too many complications in my life, for now.thats fair, im already stealth as “cis” fem irl so now I just wanna lose weight and go back to being a tiny little bit more masculine. I said to a friend the other day, Ive been on both sides of the fence and what I definitely prefer is sitting in the middle, looking at the guys, I hate being a chick and I genuinely hate how chicks are and treat each other. New job and I already had 2 cis lesbians ignoring my engagement ring and asking for my number, I hate it I hate it
>>42348483
>>42320271Cute upper body but those legs need serious work.
>>42321490this tbdesu,
lowtier bait
Three estrogen pellets installed today and I can't stop smiling. I feel amazing.
>>42348808Imma good girl! I do prayers and go to church and do charity and everything!
>>42348812Mine came from Stenlake pharmacy in Bondi. Home of TWO famous recent mass killing events. They gotta be good right?
>>42348818can't speak for the pellets but the events were certainly something. The beach is good there.>havent been to a beach in 4 years because im a tranny nowi should go to coogee again when its cloudy.
>>42348814and thus a pussy you shall receive, nona
>>42348830I literally love Jesus more than anything ever.
Do I pass?
lollmao
>>42348833As what lol
>>42348852A boy ofc
I've been in denial of it for too long, and now I'm completely unable to accept it. I was never actually trans, all my dysphoria was fake and something I've gaslight myself into feeling, my desire to be a woman was fake, and I can't not perceive myself as a man, but I keep denying the only reasonable conclusion. That being me being cis.
>>42348535>Issues like what exactly?Not feeling human, being constantly detached from reality, being extremely depressed and in a constant state of suicidal ideation, having no goals, ambitions, or passions, being unable to emotionally connect with other people, deeply loathing my own existence, in general lacking any will to live or even just exist, and severe anhedonia and apathy.Keep in mind that there just isn't something concrete causing me to be this way. It's just been the way I always was since around puberty.>What things have to you done in the past that has made you label yourself as a "weak willed person"?Given up on many things, and especially not even having the willpower and grit to stick to anything I plan on doing
>>42348561>Keep in mind that there just isn't something concrete causing me to be this way. It's just been the way I always was since around puberty.Actually anon, there is. What you're describing sounds a lot like depression and as a result if an undiagnosed mental disorder. It could be ADHD, DID, or something else entirely. The issue I'm seeing is that whatever that disorder is, it's prevented you from living a fulfilling life. Normally we release small amounts of dopamine throughout the day from small thing like eating, socializing, or even finishing a task. This is essentially what give us "hope" and allows you to getou out of bed in the morning. Judging by what you've said, you haven't been getting your normal fix throughout your day-to-day due to your mental disorder which has caused what looks to me like depression. To make matters worse, you've always felt like this since puberty. While you can get better at coping with these feelings, it dangerous to let them continue. Because of your undiagnosed mental disorder, you will continue to try things that are better for you and continue to self sabotage. It'll feel like walking a tight rope for progress but the smallest mistake brings you down to ground zero.What do you do for fun do distract yourself from.you issues if you do anything at all? Gaming, doom scrolling, gooning. Or do you focus more on your life and are too focused on long term goals?
>>42343447same but I'm still committed to transitioning
>>42348529>I could keep guessing what that "thing" is (gender roles, androgynity, etc) but it looks like I'm not getting any closerAll of these things just feel way too arbitrary to me. That's also mainly the reason why I believe that my issues with being a cis man are completely self imposed. I basically just keep hating on everything that makes me a man for no reason other than to have something I can wholeheartedly hate, and dysphoria offers a perfect blueprint for such hate. It's as if I wake up and decide to just hate everything about myself, which has now become ingrained as a habit, almost like I've classically conditioned myself into a sort lf pseudo dysphoria.>If the resolution is to stay on estrogen then you have time under your belt. If the solution is to get off then that's it, just get off itI really want to get off of it, to the point that I've started having genuine nightmares about continuing it, but I also can't get rid of the feeling that being a man is akin to a death sentence
>>42348693>The issue I'm seeing is that whatever that disorder is, it's prevented you from living a fulfilling lifeWhatever it may be, it sure has, as my life should be great by all measures. I have everything I could ever wish for, and yet I still am unable to emotionally attach any value to anything. I'm rationally aware and grateful of everything and everyone I do have in my life, but I constantly just wish I simply never existed in the first place.I'm certain that I'm depressed, but I can rule out DID as a cause, as I do have a solid sense of self (or lack thereof). I may have ADHD, but I doubt it alone would inpact me to such an extent that even transitioning seemed like a viable solution. I'm certain I've never experienced anything traumatic as well. All I know is that I never felt complete or even really alive.>It'll feel like walking a tight rope for progress but the smallest mistake brings you down to ground zero. It definitely does, except none of my efforts even ever got me on the rope.>What do you do for fun to distract yourself from your issues if you do anything at all?In the past I was filling most of my time by playing video games, but at this point everything feels so much like a chore that struggle to even get out of bed. I'm still putting in the effort to have at least some structured routine and things to look forward to. I force myself daily to just keep going and trying to enjoy the little things along the way, even if it ultimately always ends up being a fruitless endeavor.>Or do you focus more on your life and are too focused on long term goals?I am completely unable to focus on any long term goals. It doesn't just feel pointless, I also just break down after even the slightest attempts
