I'm genuinely so insanely afraid of transitioning. Not because of anything that comes with it, but because of the smallest possibility that I might one day just completely change my mind, and realize that I actually prefer being a man. Or even worse, that I'll realize I'm just fine with being a man compared to being a tranny.This genuinely cripples me with horrid dread. I wish I had an innate sense of gender and wasn't completely depersonalized, so that worrying about this would be pointless
>>40968172My younger self is a stranger to me. I remember how poised I was at being a man, yet there was always this underlying wrongness. I've lived in constant dissonance.Nothing adds up, I wasn't distressed by puberty as far as I can remember, I didn't want to be of the other sex as far as I can remember, I liked being a guy as far as I can remember. I remember nothing. That person wasn't me. How did I even end up here? Why am I feeling like this now, despite never having felt like this in the past? it feels like constant gestaltzerfall of the self I never had.
>>40968177>you dont feel human because you don't socialize enoughI have irl friend with whom I socialize. It only ever makes me feel less human. Always a skinwalker.
>>40968002It's normal to be afraid of change anon but when I started imaging my future as a woman/tranny the mental images stopped being fuzzy and black and started being clear and bright. Literally, I can see the woman I want to be and even when I see the hard or scary moments she's always smiling, so I have to try
>>40968243maybe you need friends with your same interests and that you can open up to? try discord if you have trouble with that irl
>>40968249Sometimes I have brief moments where I feel like this, but it takes just a single quick distraction from it to remind me of reality. I can never be her, because she's a delusion. I wish I could be her, but I will never be able to change my immutable core.
misandry is actually misogyny, especially if experienced by a trans woman
>>40964495That's the thing, there are already women of the master class, same as men. The class isn't determined by some shit like ethnicity or gender, it's mostly about money and how much power you have to exert your will onto others.
>>40965145>what do you call hating men for no reason or putting women on a pedestal (sic)I call it the trap that ignorant liberals and foolish leftists fall into - identity politics. Basically taking an intro to feminist lit class in community college and falling victim to the dunning krueger effect. Many such cases, lotta women be dumb as shit. Men fall into it too but typically the opposite way where they are inundated with messaging towards women (and by the aforementioned dunning krueger libshit women) and start to doubt their own place in the world based off of failing to meet arbitrary standards of masculinity imposed on them through subversive messaging about what would otherwise be considered an alright message for everyone. The real culprit at the end of the day is consumerism fueled hyper individualistion of society that commodifies personality. Think capitalism in the labor market, but instead of capitalism, it's neo-lib feminism in the dating market. So, i guess, also capitalism.
>>40966339So you don't like capitalism?
would
>>40966339>using class reductionism + vulgar economism to insert reactionary ideologyoh boy! you're so clever and original
i'm not dysphoric but i have extreme orgasm and vagina envy and want to have sex or masturbate like a womanis it worth taking HRT despite being a disgusting male pervert that is chasing hedonism and then killing myself if i can't have good orgasms?
>>40968065I don’t remember ever saying that feminine, jobs were easy, just stressful in qualitatively different way than masculine -dominated jobs. Masculine dominated jobs tend to wear the body out in an explosive fashion, which leads to compensation through over eating and other bad coping habits. The distinction between masculine and and jobs (beyond “oil rig versus salon”) is actually not very big, but it’s more about how the worker responds to stress. Yes nursing and med tech can be overly stressful and that’s why a lot of women end up looking extremely rough many years in. Lack of sleep, overeating, not enough pay for high quality nutrition, etc
No. You are what you are. Get over it. If you truly wish to edit yourself you'll need to completely master bioengineering and recruit several AI data centers as lab assistants.
>>40968065You mentioned earlier that you don't know any jobs that match the description of, "constant, steady paced, relaxed, long stretches of time". And honestly, yeah that's true (at least in America). But if you look at Japan and how their corporate system is structured, you'll find the average salaryman gig to match that description pretty closely. This is ironic given salarymen are mostly male, but as mentioned earlier, Japan truly is in touch with "feminine energy" moreso than any other country. And while most mangaka are male, if you actually look at these men they do seem oddly feminine or have a feminine way about them; even the ones who are middle aged. Like not just their hair and clothing, but their skin and hair seems soft.So I believe corporate culture in America and Europe has made most jobs kinda naturally stressful, and figuring this one out is just a personal challenge. Personally, it's one reason I plan to work for myself.
>thread full of people sharing their pragmatic experiences with HRT and what they like and don't like about it>>40968221>if you can't PERFECTLY become a woman don't even bother startingkek absolute repper logiccan't regret any choice you refused to make
>>40968158>I don’t remember ever saying that feminine, jobs were easy, just stressful in qualitatively different way than masculine -dominated jobs.this discussion was specifically about jobs that are so easy that one could sit around and exert "light effort" (which you still haven't defined) continuouslyto me a job that requires continuous attention that leaves you drained by the end of it isn't "light effort", that is just constantly living under stress>The distinction between masculine and and jobs (beyond “oil rig versus salon”) is actually not very big,this is a copout. we were just talking about how women gravitate towards certain jobs because it enables them to work in a certain way, and now you're pulling the "the difference in the jobs isn't that big" card>but it’s more about how the worker responds to stress.okay, so suppose a man and a women work the same exact job, what general trends do you see in the difference in their work style and response to this stress?>Yes nursing and med tech can be overly stressful and that’s why a lot of women end up looking extremely rough many years inand in what ways is the stress there different from the stress of a masculine job?Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
Week 6 day 7 of posting about getting a loving bf to kill me with love challenge impossible.
Why no saya pic :(
>>40968028what do you look for in a man anyways anon
ham sandwich race moment
>>40968252
i feel as though i am one of the few trans women who would feel more affirmed in my womanhood if i was taller. most trans women talk about how they hate being taller than the average woman. but as a 5'2 boymoder, i would feel like a divine goddess if i was able to be the tallest girl in the room like 5'7 to 6'2. i've always looked up to (both literally and figuratively) to the tall women in my life and always thought thet their height makes them absolutely gorgeous. maybe because i don't have the experience of being tall, i would have a different perspective or even be dysphoric over my height, but the way i see it, tall women are beautiful, feminine, womanly, confident and empowered.i also think that towering over your boyfriend in heels is really hot.
>>40967025>i also think that towering over your boyfriend in heels is really hotI need to troon just for this desu>>40967474>and specifically i love being taller than men. it makes me feel powerful and superior to them in a way that's immediately obvious and even they can't deny.I want this so bad. I want to be a woman and have it be immediately apparent that the man I'm with is submissive and weaker than me
>>40967025grass is greener or something like that...
i'd be fine with my height if i was cis but all it does now is make me even more clocky so i wish i was shorterand not like even super short i'd be fine being like 5'9-6'
Im pretty about my height (177cm or 5'9"1/2) but idk I sometimes wish I were taller. I live in Sweden and I'm like above average but not tall tall.
if I felt confident in more other ways, I'd love being taller. it's definitely hotter. but it's another thing that makes you less feminine if you're already struggling.
boxing edition(I'm not creative)>Reminder: This gen is for cis homosexual females (lesbians). All trans-related or bisexual posts are considered off-topic and should be directed to other generals or threads. No discussion of male (XY) anatomy.QOTT: play any sports? if so, do you ever catch a cheeky whiff of your opponents aroma when you get close?>OG Discord: https://pastebin.com/P644WESi>New!! CLG3 Discord: https://pastebin.com/emrpgWM8previous thread: >>40868973
>>40961771How was the sex
Picking my catgirls up from the pound after a week in Orlando so they're gonna spend the rest of the day taking turns shoving their faces up my butt
Lesbians owe transbians sex
I been at work, what's your excuse? I got the next few days off though, so Ima grind on Helldivers. Go be newbooty in some high level fights and be the ammo mule. Don't know what do? Play support.I just unlocked the Flag strategem, it's dumb and does nothing but fun as hell
don’t take t it just gives you the man bpd instead (i like this guy and need to kill myself about it. why can i just be unapologetically obsessed like before. guh.)picrel is me irl
>>40968094what does male bpd even entailalso i kind of get this because i went from having the female autism to the male autism
>>40968094funny bc estrogen gave me bpd lmao when i was just regular angry traumatized adhd beforealso if thinking abt him hurts so much why dont you kill him instead anon? ^^
>>40968169(Not OP) Funny because T got rid of my bpd but made the angry part of my ADHD worse.
>>40968183sighhhhhhh theres no saving us is there we really are hopeless u_u
this might be true..T is poison for ur brain, after going on E a lot of my bpd symptoms have decreased in severity substantially probably to subclinical levels
>almost 1/3 (29%) of men prefer creating female characters in video games>in contrast, only 9% of women prefer creating male charactersyour thoughts on this? are 1/3 of all "cis" men potentially reppers?
Because Western representations of men are extremely restrictive/repressive, especially in video games save for the last three or four years. Boring ass outfits, rancid vibes, etc.I guarantee that if more male characters had options for Twinksh/K-pop features and clothing, that number would shift considerably
>>40967810idk I asked a friend why he did this and he said it's because he likes playing his waifus and aside from the questionable word choice that makes a lot of sense
>>40967780i play men
>>40967804>bro I just want to look at her ass bro bro it's actually kind of gay to play a man brokeep coping
>>40968208This is literally why I play Nikke though
how do i find a decent boyfriend when im a mentally ill unemployed loser who doesn’t have anyone irl and doesn’t go outside ;-;people tell me i pass really well. i have a cute, passing, but soft/weak voice, im good at voice training and can do several voices. people seem to find me attractive, im skinny, i a soft, gentle, kind and feminine personality. i introspect a lot and love thinking about the world, and people always tell me im smart and that im really helpful. im creative, and i think i have good artistic taste. i think i have good intrapersonal skills, but i do get really really bad social anxiety. i get hit on a lot irl, not the types that i think i would pair well with though …i don’t want just a sex thing, i want connectionim so mentally ill, incompetent and codependent. is it over for me? i want a boyfriend so bad, im also so scared of men. im so pathetic
>>40966734im not really a 4channer, sometimes i just come to post something anonymously into the void. i mostly just talk to friends and their friends, im not very outgoing, i get anxious. the most social thing i do is play minecraft on serves, and also voice train…
>>40966776thank you ;-; i hope we both find good relationships!
>>40966007>>40966073this is why I cant date men. are they attractive from a distance? sure. but as soon as they get close all they care about is being a monkeybusiness rape ape and not being human. why tf cant you enjoy talking? how tf do you like me if you want to fuck silently then leave? you want sex sex sex be a fag or pay a hooker.
>high sex drive (unpredictable subtype)>weird and specific kinks>do not want a "partner">anxious personality>unwilling to form attachments>keep everyone at arms length>caught in a fugue state of both wanting attention and to be desired but also have the freedom to not owe someone my attentionSend help, I'm undateable AND prone to whorish tendencies
>>40967742Wish I had a whorish tendency gf
How do I get over the fear of looking like a rapehon when being sexy with my girlfriendim already a passoid but the damage of my brain done by gigarapehons is so much I cant help myself than to be passive and saint-like
>>40968055ill let her rape me, she needs it anyway even if I dont want to
>>40967922yeah I agree. christ, she nearly said the whole /tttt/ lexicon.
>>40967914stop being a rapehon anon its not that hard :(
>>40968185im not a rapehon, i literally am as safe and bland as humanely possible. but the thought of my girlfriend thinking im a perverted tranny makes me unable to even touch her
>>40968185rapehons deserve love and acceptancei will save all the rapehons and love them ;3
do fujos like seeing their bfs bottoming for trans girls and flicking their beans to that? asking for a friend
>>40968074Not gay enough
>>40968141is sucking some gock not gay enough?
>>40968074I don’t think fujos generally find MtFs exciting, it’d have to be with a cis man or perhaps a passing trans man.
I wish I had a fujo gf that corrupted me and made me bottom for guys
Homosexual sex is only hot if I pretend I'm "the girl" for a masculine top or if the bottom is so feminine that's basically a girl with a dick.
>>40968005ok bro, uh I mean babe
internalized homophobia
>>40968005>Pretend I'm the girlGay>Feminine bottom is a girl with a dickStraight
are there any transbians in virginia that want to be my friend? i live in the greater richmond area
Ya, I'll be your friend.
Pusy?
>>40968198>srs before laser or ffs or putting any effort into appearanceautism is so fucking powerful
>be me>have serious gay thoughts for the first time a couple nights ago>think "it seems appealing to date a dude! this seems right for me!">next day>thinking about it a lot and it still seems right>kind of anxious cause it's a lot to process in one days time>anxiety shows and mom asks "what's going on?">don't want to tell her because i was planning on waiting for months before even considering telling anyone>cave and tell her i'm gay>she's supportive but I definitely told her too soon>tell best friend on the same day, he's supportive too but same issueI feel pretty confident about all this, but at the same time i feel like i rushed the process a lot. I wish i didn't tell my mom and didn't commit to this so soon. I am attracted to girls in a sexual way but I would not want a long term relationship with one. I feel like I can connect on a more personal level with a dude. Thinking about getting onto the gay side of a dating app but apprehensive. IT ALL WENT WRONG!!!