the last year has been a realisation for me that my transition will only be downhill from here. Ive lost pretty much all hope that used to keep me motivated to keep improving my lifestyle and my appearance. FFS did not do enough for me, I realise that my large core proportions are always going to hold me back from ever feeling like I'm one of the women in my life. I am slowly starting to soft detransiton into a shameful kind of androgynous non-binary man thing. Ngl it's not getting better after 25 is it. There's no 2nd peak to look forward to after this - the ship has sailed
>>42333897>FFS did not do enough for me,YOU HAD FFS ALREADY!?Jesus I legit feel bad for you, maybe consult a malpractice lawyer
>>42339064Technically not a hairline lowering since the brow lift counterbalances it. I know I need a hair transplant I just don't have the money rn
>>42333897I'll eat your trough until you peak
>>42339109Why the ever loving fuck would they suggest a brow lift was indicated in your case?You 100% have grounds for malpractice. If you can’t afford a lawyer go to your local state low income legal services
>>42339149mardi did good work desu. If you look at my before & after you can see what he had to work with :|
I dont like being mean to people... it takes its toll on me..... people who force me to be mean to them are thusly abusive abusers. They are abusing me by forcing me to be mean. Just leave me alone. Respect my boundaries. Stop being an abuser.Leave me alone. Stop visiting my threads in any way. Dont post on them. Please.
>>42337991Hmmmmmm, indeed with this in mind it does make a strong case for npd. Am i np i hope not. But i might be. Its true i am magnetic but usually at my own peril. I dont know how to stop being magnetic. Maybe thats my nature. Only God knows...
>>42338321i love god
>>42337670Yes. As a stoic stacy queen. Im allowed to have a lil fun on the side ^_^
>>42337494what is your ideal person like?
>>42338951are you even attractive? you probably should have taken the crazy girl if she is actually pretty
Reminder: This gen is for cis females with gender dysphoria. This is not a trans man gen. All posts that are considered off-topic should be directed to other generals, threads or boards.Keep the discussion exclusively about female repressing or fuck off.Prev: >>42183663
{Aggressive} "Take your damn clothes off!"
>>42335126but what if im not a tomboy and im actually very feminine
>>42334721No, I'm saying that the thread was dead because people don't like being bullied when they already feel bad. Why would I be referring to you.
>>42338256oh because i like being bullied when i already feel bad
Just had a memory of when I was younger and we had a puppy that was in his humping everything stage I rememebee grabbing remote off my parents bed and of course he decided it was hump time while I was bent over. I remember not trying to push him off immediately and his claws digging into my hips. That was so long ago though now and I never actually did anything
Jason of /cum/ editionPrevious: >>42092689>QotTWhat other boards do you browse besides /lgbt/?Tagmap: https://tagmap.io/tag/%2Fbigen%2FFAQ:>Am I bi if I like women and femboys/traps?>Am I bi if there's this one member of the same-sex I'm desiring, but normally I like the opposite sex?>Am I bi if I sexually like both sexes, but only interested in romance with one of them?Yes, sexual attraction to both sexes is bisexuality.>What's the difference between bisexual and pansexual?Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>42337201Did it take 4 hours or were you edging?Ive fucked for hours and never had any pleasure from sex at all and wouldn’t even start to have any build up that would lead to an orgasm unless i started death gripping
>>42337238It took 4 hours. Stop gooning.
>>42333627in theory yeain practice, I have preferences and very very few other guys fall into them, usually through no fault of their ownalso the biggest crush I have is a lesbian anyway so
>>42308177youre not alone anon. i started browsing this site in 2005 when it was this new, underground thing where teenagers were posting hentai and flash porn and torrents. The site really hit its peak right around the brony days, and its been a slow descent since then with nazis gradually taking over. I used to use a dozen different boards, now this one thread is pretty much the only corner of it i bother with. Glad to see there is at least one other person here who isnt a babby
>>42339072lmao I also started coming here when I was a teen in 2005 and now only come to /bigen/ for basically the same reason
>be me>22 year old 2 years post-op passoid >having sex with my boyfriend that i’m stealth to for the first time>in the heat of passion i yell “yeah! fuck my fag ass!”>his dick is literally in my vagina >we finish up >afterwords we’re laying in bed >he turns to me and says “sooo… what was that?” >try to explain that i have a gay man/yaoi fetish>he buys it somehow >next morning >he remarks as im sitting down for breakfast “you’re pretty tall huh?” i’m fucked aren’t i?
>>42334969is this cope? avg in the netherlands is 170cm, that's the tallest female average height in the world and 5'11 is 10cm more than that
>>42336097170cm is 5'7'' which is taller than 5'6''
>>42333557I really hope you aren't larping that's so funny Just keep gaslighting him hon
>>42333557>22>passoid>srs at 20are your parents rich
>>42333557aw fuck I'm sorry nona
if i go on xitter and see another 25 year old puppygirl transbian with a wolfcut im finally gonna do it
>>42338958but she pitypasses have u seen her beardshadow???
im a 24 year old manmoder and i want to kill myself. i was raped at 18 so it sort of is and isnt my fault because i reacted way worse tk the rape than i thought i would
>>42338958to elaborate what bothers me isnt that they are passoids necessarily, its more that they are the opposite, they look like twinkhons, they just seem like they are having so much fun and are usually like less than a year on hrt yet somehow are full girlmoding and probably in a polycule
>what is INTERGEN?INTERGEN is a general for intersex people to talk to each other about their experiences or just to hang out>what is an intersex person?Intersex people are those born with any of several sex characteristics, including chromosome patterns, gonads, or genitals that do not fit typical binary notions of male or female bodies>am I intersex?We are not doctors, please seek medical advice, but dont be afraid to ask questions here to maybe understand things better>are trans people intersex?Trans people are not inherently intersex, however an intersex person can transition if they want, “neurologically intersex” is not real as being intersex pertains to the sex organs or hormonal productions>how is this /lgbt/?We share similar experiences of discrimination and social prejudice based on sex and gender norms, even though intersex is a variation of sex characteristics, not a gender identity or sexual orientation itself—————————Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>42332590For some reason I've been really warm lately. Wonder what that's about. Sleeping or otherwise.
>>42334662I would kill to be warm lol I feel like I’m shaking all the time
>>42311850not me but local intersex friends, 4/7.
>>42336007Sorry :( I'm not sure what's responsible desu. I did restart lifting after like a 2 month hiatus so maybe it's that. Certainly I'm suddenly filled with ravenous hunger.
>>42337927>>42336743These both go hand in hand but I’ve been reading about getting more exercise to boost my immune system, get the blood flowing again, and I’ve started getting sleep under control (I’m up to 5hours a night!!). Hopefully in conjunction my body will be a bit more resistant
two confusing feedbacks a few days apart>ask my coworker if he thinks our new boss knows im trans>he hits me with "who knows, maybe he doesn't. some women just don't have a very feminine physiognomy.">mfw>few days later, meet my firends roommate. later she is told im trans. roommate is confused and asks if im starting a ftm transition, is shocked to learn im mtf.idk what to think anymore. i get all kinds of responses from strangers too.
Are you retardedPeople who know you're trans always think you're masc because they want to believe they can always tell.I had a former friend recently tell me I'm visibly trans during a chud spiel. He knew me before transition. Do you think that makes his opinion worth anything? Ofc he'd say that.
>>42338921i’m *a bit* retarded. ty tho. i guess i shouldn’t minimize the effect of having known me before
>>42338929I mean you know you're trans and that leads to your dysphoria too. Like you probably have benign features you attribute to being trans but if you'd had amnesia tomorrow and thought you were cis you'd never.But np nona
>>42338915phrasing it as kindly as i can:>he>shesurely you know what i'm aiming at, yea?
>desperately tries to fill void with people>can't commit to a single person without eventually losing interest>sexual orientation issues that make me swing from gender to gender randomly>genuinely can't process the consequences of my actions before I do them impulsively>hurt a lot of people and I can't help but hate them
>>42339047shouldve filled the void with dick>sexual orientation>makes me swing from gender to gender?you sound like a bpdemon
Is the king of FTMs a jewish twunk who gets railed by endless hung guys for his onlyfans in Los Angeles? Just look at this chad.
>>42338770>I'm a 191cm high T bigod.Do you also drink matcha, have a mullet, and are in research to fight periods?
>>42338846Not familiar with pooner inside jokes, sorry.
>>42338870that's not a pooner inside joke it's a zoomer meme
>>42338889Same difference. Zoomers are retarded.
>>42338750He's going to record it and make money off the footage because he makes pornography sometimes
i'm pretty sure i have hematospermia, this sucks, all i did was fap after not doing it for a while and now i get to live real life body horror until i see a doctor, i hope it's not prostate cancer, but it might be
it happened 3 times today btw
>>42335781wait are you the one from the other day>>42335788you fapped three times today?
>>42335805not really also i woke up today and blood came out, i fapped once today, and then a blood clot came out like it did the first time, but even if i merely think about fapping it might also come out, i also kinda started fapping later, but didn't really finish and it happened againnormally i don't do all of that but yesterday i was taking pictures for a guy for the first time in a while, so i was kinda in that headspace, although now i have to worry about blood everytime, and if it's prostate cancer or a uti, or kidney stone, i've tried to schedule a doctor appointment but i had to do it through an app
welp it's another day of being cursed, it hasn't happened yet, but i live with the knowledge it could
Why do so many tranners have a diaper kink?
>>42338319have heard a few things about thiscan be, that they are incontinent (piss themselves) and they cope with it in a funny waycomfort association thingjust being degen scat enthusiasts with extra steps
>>42338319>they look cute>soothing headspace>genital erasure reduces dysphoria>spiro sprinkles
>>42338319comfy :3
>>42338319having to grow up male while having a transsexual brain will do strange things to a man's mind
Drag queen storytime hour is overall beneficial to society and teaches kids that adult gays exist and that some people are gender non conforming and its ok for them to exist too if they are gay or gender non conforming. The people who disagree with drag queens reading in schools disagree because they want to restrict gender expression and sexuality and force kids to all pretend to be straight and never ever dare to act or dress outside implicit gender roles.
To normies drag is inherently sexual like burlesque
>>42338436to normies being gay is inherently sexual and being gay means you cannot be around kids cuz you sexualize them at all timesyou cannot win with normiesyou just have to BEand take up space
>>42336795agreed!
>>42336795>confronting kids who have no tools to manage with some severely mentally ill demon for the sake of their own validation and ego is a good thingit's troubling that you are allowed to vote
>>42338998>muh demons muh jew on a stickSame could be said for (You), anon
i might actually despise ftfemboys/no t "trans men" more than agp rapehonsat least boomerhons probably have some sort of dysphoria, but these people are literally just women who feel the need to appropriate EVERYTHING after reading too much bl, and make sure ftms can never be taken seriously i thought all these attentionwhores died after 2021, but apparently some stuck around instead of becoming detransitioners who spread the word about the horrors of changing their name to Ash or Xavier for 6 monthsthe droves of 50 year olds with sissy kinks are way worse for optics, but something about these women really grinds my gearsmtf btw(feel free to shower with me with praise for my opinions trans guys)
>>42321452keep ur chin up mr !!>>42320271i dont care about your dumb trans sperging. as a biological trap ftfemboys are some of the only people i relate to bc so many femboys are so ugly and masc
>>42321452You have no rights to talk about trans related topic if you're not on testosterone. Also nice ragebait. Bait used to be believable.
>>42321504>was on hormones for almost 2 years
>>42321522>I just like to lie in ftmg to get a rise out of yall lolJust admit the fact that you've been caught Anonette. I mean, at least your fragile lil ego matches those toxically masculine men.
>>42338980Nta but why do y'all take internet people's lives seriously?
I feel like I'm both demisexual and somehow the opposite of demisexual. Schrödinger's demisexual. Does demisexuality even exist?I only feel sexual attraction towards people I have a strong connection with, sure, but aren't most people like that? But I do have sex with people I'm not attracted to sometimes because they are easy. People say my sex drive is too high but I don't think it is... Sometimes I just don't know what to do with my hands and start groping and petting my partner because I'm bored and think they'll like it, not necessarily because I'm horny. I've also slept with some of my friends even without being into them because I thought it would deepen our bond and make them like me more. I just feel like I have no qualities besides being hot so when I want to get closer to someone as a friend I just end up flirting with them. I don't always catch feelings after they flirt back but sometimes I do. I've lost a friend recently because I took their virginity and they thought it was too much too soon and said they weren't ready to start dating and when I said we could still have sex without dating they rejected me. Honestly, I'm kind of glad; the bad thing about being friends with benefits is that they can see other people. But it's also why I found it kinda weird when they said they weren't ready for a relationship, because like, to me, the only difference between dating someone and being friends with benefits is that dating implies monogamy (for me. I'm just not polyamorous. I know it's not like that for everyone) and I get jealous really easily and can get possessive. I keep alternating between seeing sex as a demonstration of love and not a big deal. I have periods of time where I'm obsessed with someone and then it's like a switch is flipped and I stop caring about them. I enjoy foreplay more than actual sex, which sometimes confuses my partners. I don't know if that's all normal or if there's something wrong with me.
im deadloli
Are you able to jerk off to a physically attractive stranger on the internet and check someone out in public who you have never seen before? If no then that sounds demisexual to me
>>42338945I have jerked off to online videos of people masturbating a couple of times but it's rare. Most of the time explicit porn actually turns me off, I just find it really gross. I like watching erotica, though.
>>42338918>slut around in your friend circle>claim demisexuality4d chess
