I usually don't attention whore or start bullshit threads. I usually just go on here to offer advice or hope, anything that's not just the same black pilled bullshit that feeds the brainworks. It makes me happy. But tonight is something different. >Be me>Early 20's passing MTF>Stuck in southern state for foreseeable future>To be honest my circumstances are actually really good. I'm lucky to be in them despite my location. My family sucks but they support me and are in my life. >Autistic enough to mention + schizoaffective bipolar disorder >Been trying the whole meds and therapy thing most of my life. Trying to get better, improve and be consistent but lately it's just been getting to be too much.The green text was unnecessary to be honest, I just wanted to do one if it'll be one of if not my last. I'm sober too. Had a stretch of different addictions and weed use but I've been sober for over a year with only occasional alcohol use and no real desire to relapse, even in my current state. I don't really have any specific reason to be this coming to this kind of decision. Maybe just a combination of many. I've had suicidal ideation and severe depression since I was 10, I'm shocked I've even made it this long. Idk. I kinda just wanted some people to talk to. People who have no stakes, don't care, hell, may even hate me for existing. Tonight unfortunately is not the night. I need to finish up writing a few final messages to people I care about and to finish up my will and get it notorized. If y'all have any questions or just anything go for it. Only thing I have planned is maybe a walk to the gas station to buy cigarettes. I don't smoke, at least haven't in a long time, I just figured I'd enjoy something I miss.
>>42202033Get a pack of dark green spirits they give a nice buzz also don’t do it
Anon please go to a hospital and check yourself into a BHU. Bring some books with you and take a few days of being around people and eating well to mull things over. These decisions, they should not be made out of desperation, and you are so, so young. Please give your future self the chance to be happy and stay with us.
>>42202116I've never been in a psych ward before. I'm scared. I've been told there are some good ones near here. But I guess it's just the loss of autonomy. Also, I lied in the original post and am addicted to nicotine via vaping. That may be the biggest thing keeping me from checking myself in right now is that I don't wanna go through nic withdrawals and have no desire to quit.
>>42202193I've been in before. I believe most allow you to take smoke breaks. Pack a bag with a few changes of comfy clothes (no drawstrings, hoodie strings, or belts). Bring your vape, cigarettes, a lighter. They will take it from you and lock it up and then require you to ask an attending at the front desk to use them. Bring some books, body/hair wash, and anything else you like to pass the time.It is incredibly nerve wracking going to an emergency room and saying you feel you are at risk of suicide. If you have a friend to go with you/take you, that is ideal. You can call hospitals beforehand and ask if they have vacancy in their BHU, if they allow smoke breaks, what the rooming situation is (some give you a roommate, some give you a private room). This is what I recommend. It saved my life, even though I hated every second I was there, it saved my life. Please please go. I can help answer any other questions you have if you have them, but please just go.
>>42202033Where the FUCK can I get this hat
>husband called me his little obedient and well-behaved slave girl princess after i drank his loadawawawa... i love him so much...
>>42202227lucky bastard
>>42202255you're righti'm a very very lucky girl
>be me>mtf 20s transbian pass hot idk>arrive late to NYE party w gf and friends>start talking to old friend "max">max says "thank god, everyone has been third wheeling me the entire bight">party is geniunely boring, every couple is in their own world>catch up w max>another friend "emma" walks up visibly drunk half awake>"im down half a dozen beers now">she looks like it, she gazes emptily into space like shes about to fall>she snaps back and says "yeah i was about to kiss you but your gf is here">what?>i did not enjoy this comment>comment felt gross>not sure what kind of face i made but she left after my expressionComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>42200870i spent my nye on this board talking to other anons
>>42200870Yeah it sounds a bit degrading.The solution is to hang out with people who don't date. Then nobody tries hitting on you and nobody ignores you in favour of their partner.
I got invited out to a NYE party by another transfem I was flirting with earlier and when I arrived I find she also invited someone else without telling me and was just all over her the whole night. I just kind of awkwardly participated in small talk with other ppl while they were eating each other's face and left after the new year. Weird night but it's about part for the course when dealing with other trans ppl.
I didn't spend my time with anyone because I have no real friends. Cheers anon I'm sorry that happened.
>go to new years party>hardly speak for 6 hours>come home to flirt in chasergen and watch adam sandler moviespretty ok night i guess
Thanks to all the ‘Queers for Palestine’ morons we’re now seeing a resurgence in actually high iq homosexuals who sexually HAVE a survival instinct and don’t feel like sucking off their future murderers
Notice how these threads always go dead silent because gays don’t want to admit how stupid they are
>>42189433I agree with both of these actually
>>42195008exceedingly based post
>>42200270free palestine and kys for contributing to the lgbt political tourist crisis
>>42195008Their salt quota?
foamer editionq what are your favorite transit vehiclesq2 if you could drive any transit vehicle what would you drive>>42144666
>>42201097based how are you doing them??
>>42198199yeah i want to be inbetween too, i know enbys are a joke but thats how i feel at this point. i almost roped 5 years ago with how depressed i was over masculinising, but that doesnt make me a girl, or want to be one, i dont even want to say im a trans woman, its just not me. i wish there was a hormone that just disabled testosterone and you could just be a non masculinising male, but this is what we have.
>>42201577have a dark blue I like, think I managed not to fuck it up
Everything is so shit. Even among the LGBT community, you're still stereotyped and shoved into a box.Gay people completely fucking normalize that shit too, and they pretend as if the hatred and dehumanization is all just a "joke" but we all know it's not.
life sucks and its going to get worse and stranger every year
I just broke up with my girlfriend. They deserve a real, healthy woman and not a mentally ill troon like me. But I miss them already. Will you all help convince me that I made the right decision?
>>42200784Shit book ngl. I hate George Orwell so fucking much.
>>42200649Holy shit I'm literally going through the same thing. I'm the highest level of mentally ill and it's carving out my brain and making me hollow and want to live alone in the woods and maybe kill myself if I get bored. I'm actually cooked and she deserves better than a negligent schizoid.You're probably just over reacting and projecting your internalized transphobia though OP. There's hope if you just let yourself love. If this is compulsive you probably have a personality disorder like avoidant or borderline, that or rocd. Get therapy either way.
>>42201987Also you probably need medication op. What diagnoses do you have if any?
>>42201857>>42201987Now that I've calmed down a bit (and talked to them some), I don't think I'm going through with it. Maybe I'm just a bad person, but I love them too much to cut them out of my life completely.>>42202028All I've been diagnosed with is Asperger's, but you wouldn't be able to tell. OCD and bipolar disorder run in my family a little bit though, and I have a history of self-harm, suicidal ideation, and eating disorders. I'm also extremely rejection sensitive if that helps any. I may be anxious too.
>>42201987>>42202099Wishing the best for you two
I'm a twink and got Athenian rent boy genetics,I'm just a little scared about wanting to long, and feel really anxious in anticipation, I think I'm going to have to boymod for a couple of months, but still I can't wait :>
>>42200375Good point, I'm gonna start late this month or maybe early next
>>42200362>That imageI can relate so hard
Your brain isn't fully developed. I would wait till 35
>>42202136kys
>>42200362how tall are you?
day two of begging for a transbian gf im 18 and mtf :)
too young desu
>>42201991am i really :(
>>42201903i cant be your gf but i can be your fren ^^dc: papillonary (19 mtf)
>>42202134sent :p
>>42202011Yeah, I'm 28 and people younger than like 24 are wildly immature and insufferable to be with. I also don't edate..
>tfw no ftm bf
>>42202160Have you ever made any effort towards getting one? I just see you posting this and nothing else
>how should I appeal to men who like other men?>I know, I'll make myself as feminine as possible!Why are bottoms so stupid?
>>42199986>how should I appeal to men who like to goon to other feminine men?Only a small portion of men who like other men enjoy feminine men. Not even feminine men want feminine partners.
>>42199986Isn't that a pooner
>>42199986They want straight passing men like all gay guys.
>>42199986Checked couppe socials, that's got to be a poonerHer everything is too small for it to be a real tomgirlWay too 'cute' to be a girl who's too cute to be a girl...Fucking full circle...t. trapologist
masc x fem supremacy
Qott: Would you ever abandon your boy?
>>42201505good attitude frem we love that
>>42200894Not good.. I'm hypomanic :(
cashed my oil check
>>42200894I'm taking a long rest. Relaxing on a heating pad under a cover.
>>42201606cash me outside
how i imagine all the chuds making transphobic threads on /tttt/
>>42201201fuck I admit I want this >t. boymoder
>>42197642nah you look good, although i doubt its really u
>>42195627how tall are you
>>42197642Oh super cutie!!!
>>42197642You look like a man
Czech hunter edition Previous thread>>41888225Comics we know of, all ofwhich are named Kaito Shuno:https://www.webcomicsgeneral.top/Other archives and lists:https://tagpacker.com/user/lgbtwebcomicshttps://webring.gay/list.html?id=0Feel free to recommend new webcomics that are not in the lists, but don't be lazy, please include:Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>42198555>Does American college really work like this?What part is odd to you?
>>42199472
>>42199898Should be "Yes, please!"
https://tapas.io/episode/3724174
>>42199316Most American Universities charge by credit unit so in a way they do bill for electives.
QOTT:>Would you breed a physically disabled ftm boy?QOTT2:>Do you plan to get pregnant in 2026?
>>42202106Where previous thread link
>>42202106PLAP PLAP PLAP
Is this app still hot garbage? I deleted it a few months ago when they added a bunch of new paywall features that even paying the premium subscription wasn't enough for and kept shitting up the UI with constant "tests to see how users respond" that were obviously just looking to see how much shit the users would put up with before deleting. But grindr gives me AIDS just from looking at it and the other apps are either botted to hell or too cishet.
>>42200564Literally me.
>>42197632Dating apps are for cishets. Meet people in hobby spaces who love the things you love
>>42200407To find guys like me you have to go to local dnd clubs or comicons. I met my tpuppygirl at an arcade during cosplay night while I wore a genshin outfit. >>42200564Everyone using lgbt dating apps is almost all of those things. Stop using apps and go outside.
>>42197632Taimi is fucked and keeps getting worse. The one positive is that I met my ex boyfriend on there and he was overall great. Other than him though, everyone I've met off of there has consistently been weird as fuck and even creepy. Also they keep over developing the app into a black hole. Like they just wanna keep changing shit just to do it. Bro why are you people making me pay a subscription to see only people ive matched with? Why are all you chasers INSANE!? The world may never know...
>>42197632I managed to meet my gf there. But it was a bad app experience even with paying out the ass for premium, won't use it again
