>debilitating baby fever>born a boy only into guys There's worse things than death here.
>>41509134i didnt say that. i said that the procedure is just not advanced enough, and that the risks far outweigh the pros.>>41509199is there a specific type of child you'd like to adopt? girl, boy, of your own ethnicity or any? what if your partner wanted to adopt multiple children.
>>41509237I'm genuinely not picky. I can't imagine caring about such things, not in a rude way. I think he only wants one. I'd be content with one, haven't thought about more than one for feasibility reasons.
>>41509262interesting. you seem like a very kind and genuine person. if i knew you more id probably ask you out. i have similar ideals.
>>41509294It's a little frustrating that people treat /tttt/ as a dating app more or less. I'm taken I'm just trying to have a normal conversation about something specific to the alphabet experience...
>>41509199Yeah I know, but having kids in general is gonna be expensive anyway & research like this is a great stepping stone to trans & queer people having bio kids safely and ethically, it's good that this research is happening & can't be meddled with by the US gov.>>41509237Well idk what to tell you, unless you plan on waiting for artificial wombs to develop then if you ever want to have bio kids with a trans woman then she'll most likely need some sort of vaginoplasty regardless. If the dick is so important to you then find a girl who took the penile preserving route
I just peed in a pooners mouth>be me>6"7 dude. White but severely shut in>hate people in general, unless they share the same interests as me>have not coomed or jacked off in a year>bored, scroll through grindr after installing it. >find what appears to be a butch lesbian. Check profile>identifies as a gay man>pepelaugh.jpeg>hit him up>You are only a mile away. I'm looking to just use you like a toy. Specifically, I want you to meet me in the park nearby and be my public urinal>sent. Im sure he would just ignore.>a minute later he begs me to use his face as a stepping stool and piss cake>I drink four glasses of water and a glass of old pineapple juice (tastes disgusting)>we meet up almost an hour later at the park. Sun is about to set. Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>41506843>I just peed in a pooners mouthtl;dr nasty bitch
>>41506916I hope this is real
>>41506843Hot. What is your ao3?
>>41507245>ao3Huh? I don't know what that means.
>>41506843You're 6 inches tall bro?Fly on back to Neverland you fairy.It is weird though listening to someone physically describe their fantasy self as you. I guess it's flattering in a way.
Halloween II.5 Edition: Back from the dead (director's cut)previous: >>41307921 >>41475843 Goal of the thread: TREAT yourself to something nice, be it a meal, a hot bath, or something else you'd enjoy doing.Daily goals can be repeated. Remember to keep score, it can only go up!>What is this thread for?Getting better is hard, and sucks. A lot. It does not get easier doing it alone.Share resources and experiences with combating depression, anxiety, personal issues, achieving or maintaining a healthy weight, etc.>Why is this thread /lgbt/?Struggles with mental and physical health are an indisputable part of /lgbt/ life, be it from dysphoria, social pressure, heartbreak, or just unfortunate lifestyle choices.>Notes to consider:Please be civil. Shame is your greatest enemy in fighting urges of self abuse (be it sh, drugs, or just self deprecation). Relapsing into bad and unhealthy habits is to be expected, the goal is to increase the average amount of time it takes between relapses. Any improvement is a victory no matter how small. Your worth and right to get better are non-negotiable. And most importantly:WE ARE NOT THERAPISTS, WE DON'T REPLACE MEDICATION>Note on adviceComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
In other news, finally I could share results.> Dropped 8 kg (since late June) and stable to below my last measurement I've taken in unsafe places> My new lab results just dropped. Perfect levels across the board aaaand:> Against the last pill result on 6 mg oral E at 159 nmol/l (dog shit)> I have 1,042.8 nmol/l (~250 pgml) of E in me directly before injection (falling edge)EEn worx!
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>>41505554Man, I wish something like that existed where I am. There is nothing on meetup here, I am deadass so lonely :(
Apologies for not properly following up on previous communications, still settling in.Thank you for being patient with me.I hope you all are doing well this week.
>>41501413>weekends are to recuperate, so there ought to be days with no work at all.Weekends are so crucial to my wellbeing, but admittedly I almost never have the energy for the things I want to do outside of school. I just can't help but feel like spending time with friends, making new ones, sitting in my makeshift lab fucking around, or exercising would be a better use of my time. But I dunno, some of my favorite life moments have been the laziest of days, savoring the ordinaryness and appreciating what's in front of me.>Actually the pic in >>41477092 # relates in this casesaved this. I dunno, I feel like this could be a friendly reminder to me to be a bit more free and open.>fearing to repel anyone is essentially identical to opting to attract nobody. Nobody's favorite flavor is water. And everyone's fav is disliked by someone else.Well said. I think I needed to hear that.>There is a high chance you fall into the common pitfall of mind reading.high chance? lolIn all seriousness, yeah. I've been trying to combat it lately. Being mindful and relaxed helps ground me. I just take a few breaths and fight the negative thoughts about myself with more neutral ones, try to really focus on what I know for sure and whomever I am with.
The fact that dozens of straight guys are willing to fuck a skinny man as long as he shaves his ass shows how extreme hoeflation has gotten.
>>41508212>>41508584>men get lonely>nature takes the reinswhatever we've got, it's not unique to our speciesit's just how nature "fixes" itself
>>4150858495% of men are bi, 5% are gay>but most men date womenbecause women pressure them into it at the risk of social ruin if they date men instead
>>41508212would straight guys fuck my shaved skinny man asshttps://files.catbox.moe/c8lerz.mp4
>>41509248yeah i don’t really think most men enjoy the personalities and hobbies and familial structures that c1s women want them to exist within
>>41509325cis women don't really seem to care what men want at all
my ffs is soon !!! :3
>>41508882must be exciting
>>41508882i hope it goes well nona, everytran deserves a face free of dysphoria
>>41509081theyre gonna peel my face off !!!!
Are they gonna touch your nose? When I eventually get ffs I’m gonna skip the nose, mine is cute already.
>>41509298yeah i got an uggo nose from BOTH my parents and some chump broke it recently
what if there was a group of raving boymoders above your apartment raving 24/7?
>>41506972When haggling the Boymoder will adopt the Happy Merchant pose
i bet they are raving because they defeated the girlmoding camp
>>41509082>i bet they are raving because they defeated the girlmoding campSomeone spoke too soon!
>>41509082>>41509111i... it's okay.... girlmoding camp isn't real....
>>41496924Rave on, it's a crazy feelingAnd I know it's got me reelingWhen you say that I love youRave on
cozy/cursed evening editionget it off your chest
>>41505649It's better to kill the feelings in my experience. The chance is slim that she'll change her mind
>>41508730i used to do a similar thing, laying in bed awake for hours dreaming aboit having a bf. but now im happy and have a more active social life and even dated a cute boy for a while. i believe in you nona!
>>41508730you sound sweet, wya?
>>41509186I’m in the American Midwest but I’m not really in a place where I deserve a boyfriend yet, let alone a husband. ive been working really hard this past year to fix that though! I’m definitely a better person than I used to be but I’m not good enough yet. I have faith that once I deserve him I will be able to find him
>>41509288Also these bugs are definitely st4t. Where is my cornifer? :(
it's okay to submit
>>41508250this
>>41508225i miss having a boyfriend so fucking much i can not explain how right it made me feel to just submit i legitimately never knew i was like that until i got a bf
>>41508807okay??? have fun in HELL im going to be a pure ethereal princess ^-^
Wrong.You must fight.
>>41509175this is so real. i haven’t had a bf but it’s only after hrt i started really feeling visceral attraction to men and my last crush was on my guy friend who just made me feel so feminine and giggly idk. im so used to having to be the most competent person it’s rly nice when there’s a strong tall man who has your interests at heart and wants u happy
Before I start I want to preface that this is a genuine post and I'm struggling to find guidanceI repped for many years because of thisI feel strongly about being good to others. I think it is important to make others happy at all costs. It is how I was raised, to think of others and disregard myself. I know this doesn't really match with how others see things, but in my point of view, it's a moral imperative to limit harm and bring joy, and morally bankrupt and self-centered to consider one's self and own feelings as a priority. As a result, since a majority of the population hates transgender people, (and when I was very young I thought the same of gay people but I think most people now live and let live with them) thus it is a moral obligation for my self as a transgender person to commit suicide, after repping until my parents die for their sake. I struggled back and forth for years with this. Among other things, it helped keep me in the closet for a very long time. But it always sticks in the back of my mind as an "ultimate truth" and that what I am doing trying to live my life is completely immoral, arguably cruel. It's starting to become a recurring, major thought sequence again after a few years of transitioning and managing to find some little happiness, and now I want to rep and look into exit bags despite things going relatively well, abusive relationship aside. Is there a way to end this guilt, or go through with the obligation? I need freedom from this torture one way or another.
>>41506808Trans people are other people too. We need your help.
normally i would just be a terrible person and tell you to kys but i actually relate to this thread a bit so ill be genuineanon/nette, please be selfish, you are too good a person. its ok not to do this, i know thisll sound hollow but genuinely, you do not deserve this at all. just because people think this way (and doesnt even mean you bring them any harm) should not concern you to this level. go to therapy please, talk to a hotline, do not to through with this. please
>>41506808Hey OP this >>41506913 anon is right. I had those exact same feelings and very similar situation. I ended up transitioning. I’m still numb but atleast I don’t feel a deep empty void of nothingness inside me anymore. Please just transition and be my friend. I’ll be here for you. I know it’s hard. That feeling will go away the more you talk about it and work on your safety and being able to transition. It’s ok to not be ok.
>>41506808Nona, go read this VNhttps://nyaa.si/view/1325411Just trust me on this one. Sit down with it, and read it, entirely. You will see what I mean once you're done.
>>41506913TRUE!!
spooky general for intersex people! Previous bread>>41444350~•PASTE BIN•~>what is INTERGEN?INTERGEN is a general for intersex people to talk to each other about their experiences or just to hang out>what is an intersex person?Intersex people are those born with any of several sex characteristics, including chromosome patterns, gonads, or genitals that do not fit typical binary notions of male or female bodies>am I intersex?We are not doctors, please seek medical advice, but dont be afraid to ask questions here to maybe understand things better >are trans people intersex?Trans people are not inherently intersex, however an intersex person can transition if they wantComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>41508111Oh I agree he’s an optical satellite technician not a Dr but it’s just weird imo that he says stuff like that and I can’t get a straight answer from either him or my mom. Like I just have a microphallus (about 1.5”) and it’s not really able to do much of anything aside from pee, testes were inside me, but even now decades later I wish I had some information ya know and not a weird statements from them like that, like they finally acknowledged that clearly there was something off but nothing more. Maybe im just wanting more than I’ll ever get :/
>>41507960Older brothers are great for quotables but I was told exactly the opposite of this.Growing up I was watching some show about intersex kids who rejected their assignments and I was asking questions. The medical bias towards assigning female came up. My brother chimes in: "It's easier to dig a hole than build a pole."And that remains true for consensual surgeries on adults today. Look at where MTF surgeries are vs. FTM.>>41503806I think I've knowingly met exactly one intersex person in person, and that was only through activism. Our paths almost certainly would never have crossed otherwise.I've met two intersex people in person if you count someone who one of my friends outed to me (yeah, I know) decades after I'd met the person.Not really a representative sample.
>>41501496Ooof I remember that struggle.
>>41508491The struggle is real >>41508471True
>>41508334Why are families like this?Like my brother even had my variant of that quote ready when it came up. See >>41508471But where did he hear it? I'd never heard that phrase before or since, until you posted your inverted version today. I don't think people just go around saying stuff like this, do they?Also my mom subsequently repeatedly debating my gender identity with herself in front of me. Like it was some mystery she could never figure out. In retrospect I wonder if I was supposed to answer, like if it was an invitation. But this would've been late 90s through early 2000s and no way I was admitting to something like that. Especially because it didn't really come with an offer to help so what was the point?This screws with my head so bad.Like if they knew and they knew the implications, why not tell me? Why beat around the bush like that? This is honestly the hardest part to accept for me. I get things were different when I was born but come on--I have a right to know.My parents are dead now so I can't confront them about this.My brother has suffered multiple strokes and has only communicated vague memory of me having early life significant health problems. But I was talking about when I was sexually assaulted and my primary care's office freaked out when I said I didn't need a pregnancy test and so I told my brother something like "if I ever get pregnant we need a priest, not a doctor." And you know what he says to me?"With everything going on with your body I wouldn't be surprised if you had a uterus."* screaming externally *Who just drops something like that? (An older brother with zero filter--that's who.)Sorry for the wall of text. I'm having Feelings right now.
Me? I only date trans women and gay men because they're easier to get along with and more fun to be around than legacy women
>>41509046We get it, you're a jealous gay dude
>>41509146no, its just gross to pretend you aren't a gay man because you crossdress and it makes all gay men look kinda delusional, like we can't accept what we really are and want others to play alongim not jealous, its just cringe
>>41509046can think retarded talking point die already
>>41509046Jealous faggot
>>41509210We get it, you're too bulky to ever pass & it's too late for you. Just femcope like the rest do & get over it
I've been trying to figure out my identity for years by now and every step I take in doing so only uncovers that I completely and utterly lack one.There's no desires, no beliefs, no sociability, no preferences, no sexuality, no gender, no sense of self. All I am is just a collection of happenstances, and the meek attempt at reducing harm towards others.I recognize the person in the mirror, but he's just as much a stranger to me as everybody else is. The world feels stagnant, disjointed, and nothing that ever happens actually feels like it has any substance.There's still hope that I'm just missing something which will make the world make sense, but it all just feels like a deluded pipedream. I hope at least that some people can relate to this, and are able to feel seen and commiserate.
I trooned. The void is still there. It doesn't fix it. It was a worthwhile troubleshoot. The funny thing is I'm so lacking in identity that being years deep into HRT and having an altered body doesn't perturb me. I'm exactly as dissociated but my form is different. I don't think I'd detrans at this point i have almost no preference either way. There are pros to having an estrogen dominant system and pros to a testosterone dominant one. Anyway I wish I had tips about the void but I can't help you there. I tried writing a list of stuff I used to enjoy and upon introspection found every single one of them was a response to some sort of neglect in order to fill a void. So it's all just like the negative space of where some kind of care should have been.
Man it feels good to just be a basic monkey-man and not some mentally ill intellectual.
>>41507910Keep that energy going anon. It's a better way to be
>>41503259>it's impossible to understand conceptsskill issue lol
>>41507737I first encountered trans people quite early, but it was always within the context of transphobic stereotypes. It took me until 20 to actually truly learn about trans people and gender dysphoria, I've felt the exact same way. There was just the empty hope that maybe this will be the missing link to all my discomfort and lack of belonging, which it ultimately wasn't. If anything, experimentation and exploration only ends up making me feel worse, since it always has the same outcome of not ever feeling fulfilling and it slowly erodes my hope that I'll ever stumble onto something which will be different
no one here passesinb4 angle lying
>>41506307I jacked off to this
>>41506307
>>41508524omg
>>41507068ive seen trannies who pass from the back but then as soon as they turn around its like LOL thats a man back passing is actually the easiest temporary pass
I pass
What was the point of trooning out if I can’t even give my dog puppies
>>41508528human dog or dog dog
>>41508528you want to fuck your dog?
>>41509106>>41509105thats how u know OP is a real white woman
>>41508528You couldn't do that even if you were cis
> be me> MtF > started dating a close friend of mine that i've known for a couple of years> he's a closeted femboy> always address him as ma'am whenever i directly address him> subconsciously bothering him to take the puppypill > constantly telling him i can dress him up and maintain him femininely idk where i'm going with this .-.
