How does a manmoder/HRTrepper fix their self image to no longer see oneself as a dysphoric male and instead see oneself as a tranny, let alone a woman?I can't ever make the leap seem to stick and just see myself as a broken, failed male or some weird creature with both autoandrophobia and autogynephobia.
>>42167891Govt contractor. I have swung between manmoding and kinda fagmoding since I started early last year, with more fagmoding since the beginning of this year. The closet is glass for me, but lately I feel much more pressure to manmode.
>>42168564Why do you feel pressure to manmode? Has anyone said anything or changed how they interact with you or anything? I would assume the vibe would be different between people you work with regularly, and people you work with sparingly or just meet for a particular job.
>>42168881It's all internal. Doubt, self hatred, guilt, dysphoria, fear. I am a monster and it's easier to pretend that I'm not than to try and live with what I've done to myself sometimes.
>>42168906Damn.I'm a repper probing manmoding next year. It sounds like would be pretty similar.
>>42168983I literally wore a dress for the Halloween work party but because I'm a retard I'm not fully out. It's dumb. It's so fucking dumb. But I am a dysphoric shoulderhon/ribhon never passer I don't know why I was deluded enough in the OP to say I would pass with FFS just because I've male failed before.
>be me straight ftm>hang out with friends>we start bantering as usual>it leads to one of them jokingly referring to me as the 'daddy' of another guy>feel my t-dick get aroused>oh shitDon't know what to make of this
>>42164633What do you love about Asian guys?
>>42169082>If you're hot: this>If they're hot: this>If you're not: not this>If they're not: not thisSpecifically, if either of you is hot AND either of you is not hot, the output is both this and not this.Assuming the law of the excluded middle this is unintentional, and as such a conflict resolution gate is missing for 10 and 01.This means the English prose description is ambiguous.(No you did not mean the output to be a superposition of this and not this or you would not have guessed it to be a NAND gate.)>>42169095You're GAY.
>>42169161>You're GAY.Your mother.
>>42169111>implying
>>42169161Nonono wait I got a better one. Superposition THESE NUTS
>>42169161the law of the excluded middle lmao look at this retard loool
Week 23 day 1 of posting about getting a loving bf to kill me with love challenge impossible.
>>42168691can i ask you something
>>42168722nah
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it's messed up how taking estrogen sublingually is actually super confusing and impossible and nobody explains how it works
i'm scared i'll accidentally hondose myself if i take it sublingually, which would defeat the purpose
it makes me rlly sad hrtgen isnt more active. for allll the slop on this board, i wish there was more here </3
>>42166297on the bottom side of your tongue, you should see two blue veins (the lingual veins) and a piece of flesh in the center (the frenulum.) break your pill in half, lift your tongue halfway up, and place one half on each side under your tongue. the goal is for each half of the pill to literally be making contact with the lingual veins when you lower your tongue back down, but without touching your sublingual salivary glands. otherwise your mouth will quickly pool with salivia and you end up getting the dose orally. it helps to press each piece of the pill down for a few seconds so the dampness of your mouth adheres to it, otherwise it might move when you put your tongue down. keep your tongue comfortably lowered for 5 minutes minimum, 10 ideally. picrel also shows bucal adminisitration but i dont recommend it because it takes annoyingly longer to absorb & feels more leaky/wasteful, though it's up to you>>42166310do the above method, 6-8mg, and you should be good. divide it into 3 doses every 8 hours apart. also, you absolutely need to be taking a blocker. ive seen a few people (mostly third worlders with limited access) try to monotherapy it and they always end up with the most fucked levels & physical outcomes.
I have enanthate and needles on the way but it might be a week before I see them, though I also have estradiol valerate and bicalutamide leftover, should I just take the valerate/bica as normal in the meantime until it arrives or is there any risk of danger with taking such a big boost as enanthate while still under the effects of bica?
why does my body look different every time i take a photo?
bdd
>>42168046sometimes my hips are so much wider than other times.
yeah the type of mirror, distance from mirror, time of day, lighting, how you're holding yourself at any particular moment, feels like i'm a different person each time i look in the mirror sometimes it's fucked i hate iti think this is bdd friend
>>42168523>All the stuff they mentioned>the tightness of your pants/how high they're riding (this is actually huge, look how hard picrel is frauding with his belly button pants)>angle/position of camera
>>42168638what is he frauding sxactly? are you saying that my pants arenmaking my hips wider?
>MTF who exclusively topsWhy even transition then?
>>42168266Yeah but why do trans girls do that? Are they AGP chasers who transitioned to make themselves into what they could never find?
>>42168238cus femdom is peak
>>42168293I am not the usual mty agp or hsts stereotype at all. I love to please and that includes topping and bottoming. I need either something semi-open-ish or a versatile partner to get all my desires fulfilled.the never-passers that """"transition""""" to invade lesbian spaces are the same sort of men that scam each other with similar bullshit
>>42168238I like lesbian porn and sex with women (female), and I'm sexually aroused by making my body resemble women's bodies more. Not that complicated or deep.
>>42168545>or a versatile partner to get all my desires fulfilled.damn you're the dream, your partner is/will be a very lucky guy/gal/nonbinary pal
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>>42167569so true
>>42167585Swedish girl with the beret was the cutest
Oh fuck, I forgot Michael Bay is doing that movie still.
>>42166172What's wrong with casual sex?
>>42167585She's so pretty, and she has those kinds of breasts... hehe, big breasts are good, but small breasts are great to grab too :3
Repressors, ever struggled between like picking a side ? One day you’ll say fuck it I’m a woman but next day you’ll be like nahh I’m a man, only to remember later the consequences of not taking HRT and becoming an ugly bald man and then swap back in thought ? All of which before getting HRT
>>42164482reppers be like: but what if i regret it!meanwhile existing in a life they actively regret
>>42167885Two things can be bad simultaneously. It's about chosing the least bad optiont. hrt repper
>>42164482yes and yesi inject once a week so i can just listen to the ups and downs and write it all down between injectionsit's interesting to look back on how much my feelings about it all fluctuate day to day, week to weekit still feels right overall and so i stay on hrt
>>42164482Yes.t.HRTrepper
>>42164482yes i eventually gave up choosing and just castrated myself and stop thinking about it
my body is gross and masculine
>>42168755actually i cut it off and its regrowing a lot better rn ^^>>42168761no it isnt
>>42168816y cut ur hair?>no it isntim glad u atleast acknowledge reality maybe try passing b4 getting mad ur a hon tho
>>42168835bc i wanted smaller sizes and better sectioning
>>42168869but your face is really wide. wont it make it worse?
>>42168891my face isnt wide i just havent debloated yet so actually itll look better in a year or smth
Ftms are insanely chill for the amount of vitriol they get on here I'm ngl
>>42163080>>42163041I don't think that's fair. It's angry mtf repressors, chasers, and raiders who come here to say that mean stuff and those same people say a lot of mean things about trans women too.
>>42167548ur soo handsome :3
>>42168541oh god i feel so seen
>>42166599waitaminute this is nothing like the pooner mspaints, this guy looks like he got bitchesmirin jawline and face in general btw>t. cishetfag
Not the one I knew but maybe she (she went by she/her) was just an outlier
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>friend tells me about how cool this guy is>decide to message the guy and try being friends with him>week later I'm checking my phone each time it vibrates to see if they messaged me backThe hells wrong with me
>>42167023crush outpacing body awareness & homosexualism
>>42166013Reading back our texts I think he thinks it's a different day of the week than it actually is.I sextuple texted so it may be over for me, man... why did I have to crush so hard, I just want more kisses.
>gaycels hate bi men>lesbcels hate bi women>straight women hate bi menWe are the niggers of the queer world, aren't we?
>>42168620Most powerful sexuality, most responsibility to be kind and compassionate to those who can't do as much as we can.Noblesse oblige!(We're the Jews of sexuality, and a persecution complex isn't befitting of us. Neither is explaining hate for bisexuals away as though we'd have no part in it and our own very much related responsibilities.)
starting to lose hope that i will ever find a fat person to date :( why is it so hard to find a nice fat boy or girl to love?
>>42168181it was first observed in 1942. its actually more than just "giving up the will to live" it usually occurs from extremely intense fear/paranoia usually inspired by fierce belief in spiritual matters. its called "voodoo death" sometimes for that reason>>42168211yeah but you aren't dating me and chances are you aren't even fat
do i just need to talk more about myself? i'm a 30 year old guy. i dont really have a specific sexual orientation, my attraction mainly comes from someone's personality. and if they're chubby and soft or not. other than that i dont really care whats goin on between the legs. demisexual is the word i dated a cis woman for 6 years and an ftm for 2 years. uuuhhh i'm 6'0" and i think 190lbs. i exercise and like to cook. uuhhh what else should i say?
>>42168655>i don't have a sexual orientationhave you ever sucked a dick or are you just being annoying
>>42168665i've slept with cis men, cis women, trans men, trans women, and an enby. to answer your question bluntly, yes i have sucked several dicks
in general i'm not really too attached to labels, i just kinda do what i wanna do. and what i really want more than anything is to have a soft partner to cuddle and be with. i'm ready to settle down and commit, if it ever happens. i'm tired of heartbreak
dad called me a rapehon again today
>>42168174did you teach him those bad words nona?
>>42168813it's not fucking funny!IT'S NOT FUCKING FUNNY
>>42168819okay but fr how does he know what that is
why are azn boys, and bottoms by extension, like this?
Race fetishists are genuinely the most disgusting creatures on the planet. It’s more palatable at least when it’s just a straight guy talking about the girls he likes the most but this woman-like fixation with dominance and humiliation literally poisons your soul.
>>42168563He isn't loyal to his cause lmao
>>42168739I'm a white top into ethnic bottoms, and I find this shit cringe as fuck. It's usually indicative of mental illness. I'm okay with some mild raceplay in the bedroom, but anything beyond that is a major red flag to me.
>>42166929waow it's a portal into every asian guy's inner monologue
>>42168563DROPPED.
