I'm in my mid 20s and this is ruining my life. Ever since i was about 12 i masturbated to the idea of being a woman. It was like a daily ritual. I crossdressed ocasionally and masturbated in women's clothes. I know this is autogynephilia. I didn't know the word at the time but once i did it made sense to me. My life up to this point is a blur to be honest. I can't remember anything else about my childhood or teenage years or even up until a couple of years ago. I think i'm bi as well but i've never kissed anyone or had sex. All i can think about now is how much i hate being a man but i feel like it's all because of my autogynephilia and lack of a sex life. The idea of being a woman is on my mind every second of every day. I hate seeing myself in the mirror. I don't get my picture taken. Being called handsome or compared to other men makes me cringe. I know this all stems from autogynephilia but how do i move past it? I take finasteride to stop hair loss and i take antidepressants but i'm still miserable. I can't go on dates and struggle to keep jobs. Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>42196826I feel like i'd be taking resources away from people actually suffering from gender dysphoria
>>42197058if you DIY, you aren't taking resources away from anyone. there isn't a hormone shortage, if producers see a spike in demand they'll just buy more raws.the only place this concern makes any kind of sense is for like NHS waitlists, and those are already so long that i would not recommend anyone go through them anyway
>>42196738So how do i stop my agp getting worse?
>>42197623Strict limits on "girly time," for example dressing up and fapping once a week if that's your thing.Don't putter about the house cross-dressed all day. Build and maintain a connection to male social life.Nut regularly. Post nut clarity is what you want.
>>42197255Not going to lie the effects of hrt sound good but i would just be indulging in a fetish
Are there actually any questioners on this board left? Or did the concept die out?I would consider myself to be questioning my gender, mostly because I'm too emotionally detached to figure anything out.Do I have dysphoria? I don't know. I have no clue what it means for my body to feel right nor wrong. Wouldn't my body be just be a vessel either way?Would I like to be a woman, or do I already like being a man? I don't know. Both feel like arbitrary concepts to me, with up and downsides. I feel nothing in regards to being a man, and I can't imagine what I would feel in regards to being a woman.It's been over a year of constantly thinking about this, and feeling torn back and forth, and I feel like I'm still at square one.
>>42182329>I hate being perceived and people are scary... I want my work to stand on its ownthats why image boards are so great>>42184214>The more and more I analyze my memories and my feelings now I start picking up a handful of things that I did or remember>>42183340>i feel like a complete idiotits so obvious in retrospect that its almost cute how dumb the mental gymnastics and rationalizations were
bump for questionermoid
>>42174339>Are there actually any questioners on this board left?I am questioning. Probably "questioning" is not the best word to describe my feelings, but I still feel something similar. I'm not sure if taking hrt is a good option, I'm constantly thinking about it but I can't decide if it's the right thing to do. It's like going in circles. At first I feel nothing, then tranny thoughts come, I feel bad, I think that I'm a woman and should start HRT immediately, then I forget about it, decide that I don't need HRT and I'm a man, then I feel nothing again. Tbqh I'm just gonna sit and do nothing waiting for something to change because I always do that when I have to act
>>42193993You probably should just give hrt a try, lest you be stuck in this cycle until it drives you mad
>>42174339I just stopped caring and taking I am what I am approach. Would I have been happier as a girl, probably. But I’m more detached than anything. Having a couple of my other chud oriented friends I could slowly open up too over the past year has helped a lot actually. Some people are more kind than you might think if they love you as a person. I just live here and do my best. Hopefully this year I can stop burning what seems like years in my life into a flash and find something to throw myself into and get fulfillment out of. My advice would be to stop overly thinking about it, I didn’t do me any good and probably won’t help you either.
what if shes right
>>42191699That is LITERALLY what a transwoman is though. How fucking STUPID is this planet?
>>42195348you're the prime consumer of what can be called "goyslop" (lowest effort, hylic consumption slop)
>>42193678>Fortnite must be good... BECAUSE IT POPULARAre you 10?
>>42195653fortnite IS good doe, but its nowhere near as popular as it was in its heyday
mfw people argue this
Why do holes become so upset and angry when the topic of trannies and artificial wombs come up? I thought holes didn't want to be incubators? So why get so angry about trannies wanting to carry that burden?
>>42198163BEING the sex would require all the organs to be of that sex... lolBut maybe trannies just want "woman" costumes but not being a woman as an adult AFaB.
>>42198198terfs and feminists are just mad that trannies who succeed get the best parts of being a woman without the worst parts. no periods no pregnancy and actualy fun to be around lol
>>42198198Yes? I assume most gender dysphoric people would want to fully become the opposite sex.If we had the technology to make it possible, then trans people will just be history. They now can get the care they need, and I don't see an issue with that.Anybody who does needs to self-examine.
>>42191470why are we having this /r9k/ thread on tttt?fuck off
>>42192338it's not so much about feeling pride, it's something that they can always fall back on, "no matter what happens i can give birth so ill be important"
why isnt there more twinkhon porn
>>42197717>quit having fun!!!! it's heckin problematic media coded
>>42197758I'm not telling you to not have these fantasies because whatever in your head is not my problem but if you don't understand what you're asking for it means you have poor reasoning skills and need some help. You have autopedophilia. Get some self awareness before you traumatize some unsuspecting child, please. Having a room temperature IQ is not going to sway the judge when you proposition some kid because you don't understand that you are an adult now and society expects you to act like one instead of inviting the neighborhood kids over for a michael jackson sleepover.
>>42197647there is plenty, wth
>>42197717I dunno I just want to be loved, and it's a nice way to look at my first time as a connection with femininity, I don't care that much if it makes me an agp, it's not like anyone will know my fantasies other then me and my future boyfriend
>>42198047where i cant find any
>LargeAre the trans girls who announce their penis sizes like this AGP or HSTS?
>>42198068if you dont love neckbeardchad at his fattest you dont deserve him at his chaddest
>>42197583some girls are bigger than others
>>42197939the power of a pound of makeup and good hair care on a twunk
>>42198110some girls mothers are bigger than other girls mothers
>>42198164as anthony said to cleopatra
Thoughts on NBxNB relationships?
>>42198065I've noticed that most of these relationships are usually quirk chungus x male semi-repper. however, unlike me, they are together and not quite as miserable so I can't judge too harshly.
>>42198079<3
hot nonbinary plaps
>>42198065the only form of love that hasnt been colonized by hetero cisietal chokeholds. nb4nb transcends arbitrary human boundaries and is the purest form of understanding in the world, it is as close to God as you can get.
>>42198065What makes them NB, exactly? The hair?
Are there any trannies who act like their pre-transition selves after taking HRT? Or does HRT just destroy your internal monologue and make you like every other female hivemind creature?
>>42197778>I have freewillumm if you had any curiosity about the world you live in whatsoever then you would have realized what an incoherent concept free will is by the time you are twelve years old. there probably isn't a concept in philosophy that's been more thoroughly debunked. deterministic, probabilistic, stochastic, there's not even a hypothetical mode of causation where free will could make any sense. if there is a belief most indicative of being an NPC, its this one
>>42198006I should add that my fem side was there the whole time and not a result of hrt like OP suggests. Starting hrt was a result of her asserting more control, not the reverse.>>42198020Can you explain it more?
>>42197672Trannies are NPC narcissist vain hylics. They don't have internal monologues or original thoughts. They just pretend to so they can fit in with people who have actual souls, but all they can do is torment others because soulless humans can't love.
>>42198192i agree, i have no thoughts in my head. i am at peace
>>42198165So, when I first fully saw myself as a woman. No ifs ands or buts, I got excited but then broke down and cried in sheer anxiety. Two months later, I was experiencing an ego death. My memories were being changed so that I was always a girl growing up. I was just a woman. I got scared. I cried. I was terrified. It's like my brain was being parasitized. Growing up I always had both a fear of being replaced by someone else. It manifested as I got older and became more masculine and saw my personality changing in ways I hated. But it's sharper now. Part of it is because I inextricably link transition to death due to some complicated personal history things.
/lesgen/ is the lesbian general for all cis women and trans women (MtF) to discuss lesbian relationships and topics.Be kind to each other and report/ignore trolls who attempt to divide trans mtf lesbians and cis lesbians as a community. This includes transphobic bigotry, femmephobia, butchphobia, racism, and anti-c4t/t4t slop. This is nice thread. :)QOTT>How did you welcome the New Year?>What changes did you make in the past year that you are proud of? What do you wish you had done differently?>How do you want your relationship with her to progress this year…?tagmap: https://tagmap.io/tag/%2Flesgen%2Fdiscord: https://discord.gg/bAnVMAGPNRold thread: >>42154686
Lucy please buy us pizza I have no money
I changed Lucy's messy diaper for little ceasers
amy please check discord
>>42197940she's busy
Nah nephew, we good rn and for awhile matter of fact.. nah mean?
What's a country that's very underrated for LGBT ppl and one that's very overrated?
>>42197829yo mother, america
>>42197829Denmark is the goat
>>42197829Japan overratedUsa underrated
Sometimes I jerk off to my feminine attributesIs this pooner AGP?
The ultimate goal of a man is to become a girl
>>42195785That's called being a woman
>>42196486What can a guy do!
>>42197105Dress pretty, fluff his tits, and throw away T to go out there and get hot plaps
>>42195785>14 and 35>tfw officially too old to be a chud
foamer editionq what are your favorite transit vehiclesq2 if you could drive any transit vehicle what would you drive>>42144666
>face looks somewhat okay from the front, some potential>have an autistic, masculine side profile w/ a yakubmaxxed foreheadhow does this happen
Merry Christmas and happy new years anons.I haven't been on here in months since I detransitioned and stopped hrt, just thought I'd come here to check in.I have a few more beard hairs which I need to tweeze out now. That's nice.
>>42197565for me it's thinking I look fine in the mirror from the front but hideous otherwise
>>42197882happy repping to you anon
>>42197882I resumed hrt because I couldn't cope with this. I got fuzzy cheeks, still blonde but noticeable, and some chest hairs. I thought I could cope because I've accepted I'll always be a man but fuck that made me spiral. I just want to be a in-between
I have like 4 makeup tests at this point. I'm really good with the practicals but my brain that couldn't even pass 9th grade in school can't handle this stuff. Anyone else super dumb? I don't know why my brain is so useless. I swear I have an IQ of like 50 or something
>>42198037I thought I was in /adv/ holy shit. Why do I keep proving myself right
>>42198037U r very dum
>>42197945but i do :(
>>42197933How's dat anonners?
>>42197933she cute
>>42197933should probably not take hrt but would probably turn out fine appearancewise award
>>42198039Unblur the lips
how i imagine all the chuds making transphobic threads on /tttt/
>>42197862how about you prove me wrong and post ur face?
>>42195051its funny how much these pics make them seethe
>>42197881>>42197862radio silence kek
>>42197242what the fl*p she looks just like me
>>42195153>two more weeks>trump will totally take a break from sucking netanyahu's dick and fucking toddlers to make trannies illegal>trust me guys, this time he'll really do it
