I'm in genuine despair over the fact that I'm likely not trans. My dysphoria is likely fake. I lack childhood signs. Imagining myself as a woman doesn't make me as happy as I'd like it to.This probably is a maladaptive cope I adopted, because living as a man is genuine ropefuel, and I thought I could escape my immutable self
>>40981580>considering*considerStupid brain
>>40978998i used to be like you OP. it helped to accept that im not actually gender dysphoric and i just take estrogen for cosmetic purposes, that i might have some similar symptoms to gender dysphoria but im definitely not a woman in a mans body. that and to kill my sex drive.
>>40981816>that and to kill my sex drive.this too, every time i goon i want to fuckin die
>>40981553I have tried hrt, and I didn't feel any different on it unfortunately.
>>40981580>I don't know why you think that's badI don't think it should be bad, but that doesn't change the way I feel about it. Didn't mean to understate the pain of actually dysphoric trans people at all.
Rate, guess letters, make assumptions.
>>40977774did anyone here like ghostholding?
>>40978435bi trans woman >>40981999>my three least favorite paramoreswow, bne is really surprising. i feel like it’s pretty commonly considered their best album, and i’d especially expect it to be top 3 for someone with riot and all we know is falling in their top 3
>>40977384JOIN tttt DEEPCUT.FM and play musichttps://deepcut.live/tttt2
>>40981999TIME N PLACE!!!
>>40982014Yeah, really fucked with the first half and then it got really same-y after awhile. Belive and recoil kicked ass
everytime i see a hot tranner it makes me depressed. not in the "i wish i was her" kind of way but in the "this is the exact genre of woman i'm most attracted to and but i'll never be able to pull also i hate myself for being a faggot" kind of way. anyone relate? how do i overcome this pic related. god i hate being a fag
>>40981477There was a girl I saw on this board a couple years ago who's genuinely one of the most gorgeous people I've ever seenAnd she had the same niche interests as meBut I was a sadsack and physically a piece of shit at the time so I never engaged Then I spent two years grinding self improvement and came across her again earlier in the year and was confident enough to get to know her this timeWe clicked hard and fast and talked all day every day for monthsUntil she changed up and randomly ghosted Man, did that shit fucking hurt. I thought I'd never be good enough, then for awhile I was, but in the end it didn't even matter. Idk whay my point is here. I guess that I relate to the sentiment and despite trying to get better shit still sucks. Oh well, gonna have another shot now
>>40981806It's really disheartening when you find out they are all either transbians, living on a different continent or already happily in a relationship.
>>40982886Do not pray for an easy life, pray for the strength to endure a difficult one
>>40981477unironically sucks for you op, but stuff like this is unfortunately normal for the board.I have this situation where I'm a 3rd worlder who can't get SRS and this means I can't date because dating without SRS leads to only getting boyfriends who want to suck your dick or stick it in their butt, and I'm bottom dysphoric - so I just stopped dating.it's really quite sad because I lucked out with my face and my voice is great, but I'll stay alone
>>40981630I mean, it is pretty faggy to like penis. But we should not be ashamed of homosexuality, its fucked up
...fuck.previous: >>40836388Goal of the thread: I will not be fucked with that today.Daily goals can be repeated. Remember to keep score, it can only go up!>What is this thread for?Getting better is hard, and sucks. A lot. It does not get easier doing it alone.Share resources and experiences with combating depression, anxiety, personal issues, achieving or maintaining a healthy weight, etc.>Why is this thread /lgbt/?Struggles with mental and physical health are an indisputable part of /lgbt/ life, be it from dysphoria, social pressure, heartbreak, or just unfortunate lifestyle choices.>Notes to consider:Please be civil. Shame is your greatest enemy in fighting urges of self abuse (be it sh, drugs, or just self deprecation). Relapsing into bad and unhealthy habits is to be expected, the goal is to increase the average amount of time it takes between relapses. Any improvement is a victory no matter how small. Your worth and right to get better are non-negotiable. And most importantly:WE ARE NOT THERAPISTS, WE DON'T REPLACE MEDICATION>Note on adviceComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
going to bed now bump
hithank you for replying to the last time i postedcleaning a bit at a time is becoming more manageable for mei also bought a vacuum and its quite handyand thank you for the reassurance on worki had an episode of crying and vomiting againbut i was lucky enough to have friends who cared for me afterwardsi still try my best to stay stable as much as i canthank you for your time and effort
urgh... time to get up
ok flu finally seems like it's getting a bit better, so let's try to get the room in usable shape, get food, shower, and go from there
>>40980155based and same
why are trans women on dating apps always such hons?
>>40983042Because most trans women are like that?
>>40983042would emmashe probably has a nice pawb
>>40983042the ones with self-awareness are not on dating apps because it's too humiliating
>>40983042why would passoids need a dating app?
Is gayface real?
>>40983043yes, but not always an indicator if someone is gay. Same with fagcent.My bf has no fagcent whatsoever, but def has a slight gayface, i feel like often gay guys come after their mother too
>>40983056I think it is an indicator of homosexuality, as is fagcent. A lot of people repress fagcent cuz its so heavily discouraged, and use not having a fagcent as a heavily-touted point of pride.
>>40983043>if you’re a man with a feminine face you have to have sex with men okay?? You can’t date women even if you’re attracted to them.
>>40983063men are pretty heavily encouraged to date women, I don't think encouraging them to date men has much of an effect when 99% of society is doing the opposite
Green is you become a cis version of what you want to be, but all other trans people will be doomed to be the worst possible caricatures of their AGAB.Red is you become a caricature of your AGAB and all the other trannies in the world become cis versions of what they want to be.
>>40982817>all trannies become gross caricatures including you
Red means nothing changes for me while worldwide tranners achieve liberation. The collective seethe of cissoids is worth it.
Me looking my ideal and all trans people suffering is a bigger utopian paradise than I can desire. I don't press any buttons
>>40982806red then kill myself
>>40982858literally this exact wording was what i came here to say lol. if i pressed green id die of guilt, so id have to press red. but i couldnt live with knowing what i gave up either, so might as well save the (tranny) world by sacrificing myself
>QOTT: Is this the end for terje?>QOTT2: Will he ever escape Gloves gaping maw?
>>40982451But you fucked that up too so instead stay alive and healthy as long as possible and show kindness to your fellow man
>>40982482i'm not wanted by my fellow man
>>40978507>t delusional samefag
>>40978534>>40982732meant to reply to. so blindly by afab stupidity
how can i find the ftm baddie of my dreams? i'm kind of socially awkward so i usually just use dating apps to meet ppl, but u guys don't seem to use them very much. are there like any clubs on campus where ftms are likely to hang out?pls help i'm like dying and only cute boys can save met.ranny
How does one find peace and embrace this? I'm so ashamed of my feelings and how they will effect everyone around me. I'm so miserable because I have to hide how I feel because I think it's bad that I want to be a woman. I'm missing out on so much life experiences because all I know how to do is be ashamed and hide myself from the world
If you actually hated yourself for being trans you would medically detransition and stop calling yourself trans.
you stop hating yourself when you pass and people treat you like a woman most of the time.i just feel like a skin walker getting he himmed everywhere with boobs under my hoodie lmaoooo
>>40981372I couldn't imagine stopping hrt i guess but im also a boymoding coward but I still think really poorly of myself. I call myself a terrible person
you transition so you can be the one you want to be, no one else is making you do this. your the only one who can change yourself into who you want to be. it not bad to want to be a woman especially when being a man is stupid.at the end of the day you are who you are and no one can tell you who you truly are.
ecco2k gf editionQOTT: what would you ask if you had one wish? if you could choose only one thing to fix? prev >>40956895
>>40982940cadoposting is the second lowest form of humor
>>40982937fakemoder kiss yourself
>>40968613>qottif i could have one wish I'd ask for the ability to save / load, like in Skyrim :)>>40982926Idgaf what my family thinks and my friends would probably see it coming desu.I'm worried about my coworkers, random people, my job required I interact with dozens of people per dayI work in a VERY conservative environment, so if I'm not at LEAST a very pretty tranny, I might get lynched or fired or some shit
a thread where we compile/share the information we have on maximizing breast growth. I'll start it off with some information I collected from a few years of boob threads here:The most common advice anons give is to eat more/gain weight, that makes sense considering that boobs are mostly fat. Specifically because boobs are made of subcutaneous fat you should eat foods which maximize that kind of fat (e.g. foods high in unsaturated fats, protiens, ect) and minimize viceral fat (i.e. avoid foods that are high in saturated fats), and also you should ensure you get all the nutrients you need. Something closely related to this is "weight cycling" which while many anons have suggested to do it some have said that it has the potential to promote viceral fat growth (which is what we want to avoid) particularly if one looses a lot of weight in the cycle so be weary of that.Next up for popularity is progesterone with many anons suggesting to use it late into transition/at least tanner 3, and one anon >>30544333 (/lgbt/thread/30534338) suggests starting prog right when one starts estrogen so that's something to consider. Various anons also suggest cycling prog (which will be a re-occurring theme) which could have the potential to promote more growth. In general prog is suggested to promote boob growth because of how it appears in the bodies of cis women.After that we have domperidone which will induce milk production however many anons state that the milk production causes breast growth, This can be seen with cis women's boobs getting bigger after pregnancy/during milk production. As with prog anons suggest using it late into transition and some suggest cycling domp which is in line with the boobs of cis women continuing to grow after several pregnancies.(1/2)
>>40971976well ty anon, at least someone is sharing information they've gathered about breast growth. I think if I were to make this thread again I'd either make the image super unrelated to the thread or something not worth talking about bc nearly all the people itt have missed the point of it.>>40975924I don't think it is if used in combination with one of the secondary medications (i.e. prog, domp, pio, ect)
>>40977096you could just take multiple vitamins all of which not containing biotin if you're concerned about it. However biotin does play a role in metabolizing food / breaking down carbs and lipids so becoming deficient in it might not be the best idea for boob growth as that might lead you to less effectively absorb the calories of what you eat
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Great effortpost Anon, our board needs more stuff like this.My anecdotes:>got breast growth when I stopped E for a couple of weeks>got breast growth when I stopped doing heavy barbell squats>got breast growth randomly without any regimen changes at about 15 months>lost breast size when I cut calories and lost belly fat (rip)
>got drunk again last nightFuck.
Your opinions on whatsappmoder?
>>40981123Yes
>>40979725the whatsappmoder makes me think of emily endocrinemoder now, so i think she is good
>>40979725endocrinemoder
why is whatsapp a meme again
>>40981844she is the goat
if i die this is what killed me
update so far i am not dead
>>40981723great news
>>40979882you died
so.. umm.. while im here 3 fights happened tonight. and i cant comment anymore about it. :) im okay. but the dude isnt.some dude fought 1 guy, then he went after a girl, and got jumped. then he went after a girl again. and got his ass wooped.and i just got back..im good. my toes broken or something.
i just twisted up a spliff. im going outside.idk what i feel right now. my heart hurts.
Bottoms aren’t women but I wish they were.
Are gay men women?
