sorry for blog posting but curious on this. Does anyone else feel as if they could die at any moment? Ive spent the past few years having the thought that I could die at any moment by any caus randomly pop into my head. It gets hard to concentrate or think about the future now, each time I do I end up thinking about how I could die. Sometimes I think itll be soon, not like in a specific amount of time but soon. Maybe it has something with being a tranny but I can't stop thinking about how I might die at any time and how this might be soon and how ill be gone but I won't know when ill die since ill dead. Sometimes i end up in this kind of spiral where I realize I can't think about what will happen when I die since I won't be there for it, but I cant stop feeling the fact I will die. It's hard to explain but idk, maybe being a tranny does this to you. I don't feel sad often anymore, I dont feel happy much but it's not like gone or anything it's just a little dimmer. More feel like I'm waiting
Sorry OP this is my last post. It really has felt like imminent doom and like the end is near which is why I posted. The feeling makes it hard to breath and like 1000 tiny needles are poking my skin. I would have left it at that but feel like I owe people responses. >>42305859Okay I'll start applying to accounting internships and get some office casual clothes. I have 2 years left>>42305924It's just this feeling of attempting to turn my stupid life around and the thought of it all being for naught is terrifying. I'm the first one in my family to go to college and it's like the only way I'm going to get FFS or other surgeries or even have health insurance. I know you're right though, it's stupid to kill yourself. A relative shot himself over some financial stuff so there is probably a genetic component to it. I'm sorry the government kicked you out of your job and all that shitty stuff happened. Thanks for saying that, I've basically spent the entire holiday season contemplating going through with it. I'll keep grinding and thugging it out like you are
ive always felt since i was around 11 that im just not built for the world, ill always be pretending and falling short of the bar. will never have a career, will never have an active social life, will miss out on almost everything. these are givens for me. the pain just gets exponentially worse as time passes. it will come to a head at some point.
>>42306358Hell yeah anon you got this. Keep that shotgun but get some shells for home defense or something lolI'd definitely start trying to set yourself apart from other applicants any way that you can. What are you majoring in? I was compsci but paused my schooling this past year because of the job market just making me feel kind of blah around it. Might change to something else that's still STEM desu. My girlfriend is probably my saving grace now desu. She's been really rubbing off on me with her eternal optimism.I've come to terms with my situation I just wish they'd put me on admin leave until I'm out in April so I could get a job and get a headstart on saving some extra cash for when I'm free. That's the one thing that's going to be sooo nice regardless of my finances, no more government dictating my every movement and how I present myself.. Being able to grow out my hair for the first time in almost 6 years is going to be the shit.Btw this is probably gonna sound stupid but this time of year even if you do go outside there isn't as much UV for your body to convert to vitamin D and it's heavily associated with seasonal depression. It may or may not help but taking a D3/K2 supplement might alleviate a little bit of the blues. Worst case it helps your immune system lol
>>42306358>>42307528Oops just saw you're in school to be an accountant. I've got a friend from HS who's been one for several years now. Maybe I could ask him what stuff makes applicants really pop, and maybe that other anon is spot on with the internships, I'm not sure desu
>>42307545>>42307528I'm close to falling asleep. Thank you for the kind words. I started trying to reply to a lot of what you're saying but I'm really sleepy. I'm sorry for suicide posting. I'm glad you have a support system like that to help get through these times
Why do so many ftms dream about being raped and impregnated?
>>42306614I mean I dream about this but I'm a cis man and in my fantasies I get impregnated by a trans girl
>>42306614i dont dream about these things specifically but i dream of my brain somehow aligning with female stuff again without being uncomfortable and accepting these things as normal, to free myself from this hell even if i never truly can at least i wont have to think of it as something negative anymore
What about the ones who are obsessed with the fantasy of raping people? You see them here all the time.
>>42307802overcompensation for weak physical stature. common amonsgt women and manifests in different ways.
>>42307802I once tease a ftm to fuck me and they immediately menace of using a glass bottle so the shards would kill me :(I still don't understand their reaction, like why are you so enraged? :(
Oh my science I just gooned my sissyclit and I think I am a woman nowHello sisters #trans #enby #womanhoo
how to stop being cheated on as a straight trannyinb4 ST4T!!!!!! also got cheated on
I wouldn't cheat on you. Why are you dating bad men instead of good men like me?
>>42303185this usually prevents cheating but not always + they still break your heart anyway so idk if it's worth it
>>42307546trade off of breaking heart by cheating vs breaking heart by suicide basically
get the help you need and become a man worth keeping around.
>>42297845idk prison transbian seems like the way to go
>what is INTERGEN?INTERGEN is a general for intersex people to talk to each other about their experiences or just to hang out>what is an intersex person?Intersex people are those born with any of several sex characteristics, including chromosome patterns, gonads, or genitals that do not fit typical binary notions of male or female bodies>am I intersex?We are not doctors, please seek medical advice, but dont be afraid to ask questions here to maybe understand things better>are trans people intersex?Trans people are not inherently intersex, however an intersex person can transition if they want, “neurologically intersex” is not real as being intersex pertains to the sex organs or hormonal productions>how is this /lgbt/?We share similar experiences of discrimination and social prejudice based on sex and gender norms, even though intersex is a variation of sex characteristics, not a gender identity or sexual orientation itself—————————Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>42300663We went shopping and such and managed to buy all but one thing we needed. Go us!
>>42303201Heck yeah!!! I need to go shopping tomorrow after work, and I guess a call to my family, hope it goes better than the new years one :/ but I’m gonna keep a good attitude forwardGoodnight INTERGEN may you have dreams of shrimp crackers
Good morning the wind howls outside, it’s oddly warm and raining
>>42305988I am awake entirely too early for a weekend and it's a frozen wasteland here.(It's not thaaat bad but it is below freezing.)
>>42307777Don’t worry the weather made a fool of me here
Are transmaxxers actually real? Wouldn’t their reverse dysphoria be unbearable?
>>42306951amen, as a woman you are supported
>>42306951>>42307267>Is that not better than fading into the void?Yes. But it comes with a different dilemma that I couldn't have imagined as an incel: which kind of support and support network is right?It's the kind of tyranny of abundance. The opposite problem, basically.Protip: For maximum success, don't choose a tranny group.t. >>42306838
>>42304650No because dysphoria isn't real, it's just mental illness.
>>42304830>t.ranny
I was reading a different thread in which a few trannies said they transitioned with no dysphoria, but for benefits like social life, work, etc. Of course it helped that they passed, or claimed to. One even said they present as male while in private.That is a true transmaxxer.
I don't have penis envy, but I have balls envy. Toys are lacking proper balls. I want to put my balls on someone's face and have them slap against their clit. It's such a hot humiliation thing, and I find it very sad there's little I can do to achieve it.
>>42307405Yeah im getting mine removed asap
>>42307419Good girl. Only men get to have them.
I don't mean to rub it in but an under appreciated sex act is having someone kiss your balls during a blowjob. It looks very submissive when they do it and feels kind of good. I recommend having someone kiss your balls if you ever get a prosthetic nutsack
>>42307452Fr anon, the act of smelling his sweat balls and kissing his sack while jerking him off is sooo @.@
>>42307386can you tiktok newgens fuck off already
big cock trannies exist, but they refuse to talk to menlife is meaningless
>>42307674i dont do "fallbacks" with people
>big cock men existAnd?
>>42307678I don't either, but I'm used to people exiting my life, so someone having that arrangement with me doesn't bother me. Seize the day and all.
>>42302379Truer words never spoken, unless she brings it up id never ask
>>42291244>>42290847Have any recommendations?
> Be me. Mentally ill tranny.> I thought I was in a better place, but I never stopped being weird under the surface. I should have tackled the root issues.> Meet racist bpd tranner> Instantly something I can only describe as a prey drive takes me.> I used to feel this way as a kid, but this is a long forgotten memory. It feels incredible on an animal level.> Start looking into her online presence, find out where she lives (surprisingly well hidden online presence, but not good enough).> Fantasize about how I'll kidnap her and torture her for fun. Don't want to kill her by accident so I think of ways to mess with her head.> Genuinely want to do it and start making plans. Depression lightens significantly. I'm planning YEARS in advance, I NEVER do that.> Start documenting her mental state and things like her fears. It's not even 70% accurate yet but it's getting there.> Guilt and dysphoria keeps me from thinking about sexual elements (rape is malebrained, anon!), but they're obviously there. I think it's more of a control thing though.> Don't feel bad about any of it except for the sexual bits. Her racism just makes it so easy to glaze over in my head. Bad person.I don't want to be a bad person but this is the only thing that makes me actually happy. Please god tell me there's hope for me. I feel like a crack addict relapsing. She's also incredibly cute too. In a way that makes me Want. To. Hurt. Her. Nobody has made me feel this way since I was a teenager. What do I do besides rope? I'm not completely monstrous, I swear. It's just this BUG in my brain. What do I do??Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>42306687really cuteif i weren't compulsively schizophrenic about my online presence, i would offer to keep in touchi don't really leave my house much, haha. your best bet is definitely going to be to find us onlinesleep well silly
ok im paranoid now lol
>>42306392ok nvm its not about me because i dont have real friends
wholesome ending to the threadgl op hope you find the right girl for you
>>42306155Wow based. All tranners should have a mindbroken chuddette slave in their basement.
There are still some people that just want their needs handled and to serve their caretaker right? I have a good job, im alright looking, and practical, but people gasp when I expect things in return from a partner.I want someone who likes being looked after and doesn't mind taking direction, that’s not a flaw in my opinion its normal.I’m not into endless debates or pretending everything’s equal all the time, the roles should be set, I take care of you and you take care of me.You do what’s expected, I make sure you’re comfortable and accounted for. I don't know how I can say it more plainly but It seems impossible to find someone who wants and understands that.I like to think this kind of setup works best for people who can more easily relax when someone else is fully in charge and fully takes care of them. Also im not here to convince anyone.If this bothers you, keep scrolling I don't care to debate the merits of my worldview. I'm mostly asking why this seems so hard to find these days.
>>42306204i'm aware. i said as much in >>42305943i am quite bottom-coded
>>42305485>There are still some people that just want their needs handled and to serve their caretaker right?There are, yes. It's like, I've been in vanilla relationships where I was expected to be on a rather equal footing as my partner, to be independent myself and so on, and those were very much not for me.And eventually I've spent a good amount of time just talking with a few doms and realised that what they have to offer is exactly for me, to be dominated in all aspects of my life, to be used sexually, to be controlled but also taken care for, protected, kept safe and in conditions that let me thrive. And I saw eventually that all the things that make a good sub are very much within me already and they just need a right type of man for me not to be afraid to show that part of me. There's a lot more to write about that but what I wanted to convey is that it is absolutely possible to find people who are going to want this
>>42305485Well me but I'm probably not pretty enough so maybe next year after ffs
>>42305869>Being financially dependent on someone is a massive risk and puts you in a vulnerable position. If they turn into a psycho you can just kick them out, if you turn into a psycho they have to choose between enduring how you treat them or being on the street with no money. If 10 years down the line you're sick of them and they get dumped they'll have no skills and will now be an old person in the position of an 18 year old neet. At least if this happens in a traditional cis hetero marriage situation the submissive one has a lot of safeguards in place to make sure she doesn't end up on the street (alimony, domestic violence shelters, relatives more likely to take her in).as the wiser women say, "a man is not a plan"
>>42305485>I want someone who likes being looked after and doesn't mind taking direction, that’s not a flaw in my opinion its normalim begging and pleading id be a good dog
the next passgen
>>42300233wow nice dj stuffi want to learn on a mixstream pro go or omnis duo; no interest in vinyl but id love to do real cdj's sometimeshould i just get something for serato?your hair is cute
>>42302684Calling others faggot seems rather male brained
>>42295933Pluck eyebrows, lip lift, light lipstick shade applied lightly, blush, normal clothes. right now you have a strong agp vibe, very unsettling
>>42302668There isn’t a single cis woman who would style their hair like that or wear ugly clothes like that. Where are you getting your information on style?
>>42302095Yeah that isn’t you you utter dumbass. That’s a cis woman with a normal hairline. Your hairline on her literally starts at the back of the head. People stare at your hair IRL. Take notice of this and do better.
>be me (FTM, 18)>live with transphobic parents>live in a country where HRT is free if you have a gender dysphoria diagnosis>therapist says he won’t diagnose me unless i come out to my parents first>buying T at the drugstore costs 300 [currency] per monthmy mom cries hysterically/screams at me/calls me a dyke/tells me to stop ruining myself every time i cut my hair short and tomboymode, i think she’d have a stroke if i pooned outbut i also think i’m too retarded to get a job
>>42307227what's your 'cord?
>>42307227>tells me to stop ruining myself every time i cut my hair short and tomboymode, i think she’d have a stroke if i pooned outbut i also think i’m too retarded to get a jobtsmt. i felt that
>>42307227Lie to the therapist? Say you told your mom
>>42307227>but i also think i’m too retarded to get a jobWhat's the plan then to hikkineet forever?
>>42307227>therapist says he won’t diagnose me unless i come out to my parents firstgenuinely fucking crazy. imagine if we held any other treatment back to an adult under the guise of "tell mom and dad" first. i cant comment on ftm stuff bc im a troon in the other way but this entire situation sounds awful...sending you positive vibes <3
have any of you noticed this new NICHE tranner phenotype? its the BPD HAUNTED MOUND TRANNY. They are the sweetest girls, neither AGP, nor HSTS, but the elusive third thing: bisexual. Usually had a transbian phase but got slapped out of it with a boyfriend whos lowkey dumber than her that she verbally abuses. The sex is one of the best but her mood swings make you wanna ACK! only real ones fw this awesome girlwhat other silly niche tranny phenotypes are you aware of?
>>42305445it's trueone day you'll be fattened up and homeless, addicted to oxy
>>42304493bisexual mtfs are agp
>>42305462my family has money so its unlikely but that would be th day
>>42305311it's not cheating if it's a 3way bb
>>42304493bisexual trannies don't exist
As a ftm who's into other ftms, it's fucking annoying when people use t4t to mean st4t. I always have to scroll through thousands of posts of trans men lusting for "girl cock" and mating press before I find a single one who actually means t4t when they type out t4t.
>>42307563inferiority complex and incel rage about not having a real dick to fuck you with so if you tease them it's like sticking your hand in a hornets nest
>>42307563maybe they were just actually into that
>>42307563all ftms have an inferiority complex with guys/trannies unless they're heccing valid coping cuntboys, dick envy is a lot deeper than pussy envy. Even theyfabs want to have dicks.
>>42307576>>42307578You are both confusing me :(Why be so frustrated? Can't they do anything? They must be able to do something that would be ridiculous otherwise. And why would they be into that? Is it common or some fetish I never heard about ?
>>42307121>most females are straight and want dickShocking
can any ftm pull it off?
>>42306523He looks retarded because he got abs implants instead of just building them naturally. Even natty would've looked much better. He also doesn't know how to style himself nor did he get fms
>>42306931hopefully he can get it reversed but yeab tbjs. there was probably some pressure to make it a quick transition
>>42306523Low effort argument Xe transitioned at liiike 30 and xe is really shortAn 18 year old tall FtM like myself has a much greater chance
>>42306970Being a celebrity, and an actor no less, has to make being trans brutal. It makes sense he did what he did but I just hope he'll settle into normal manhood eventually>>42306981I didn't watch the show so I had no idea how short he was till now. Bleak.
>>42306931not implants dick he worked his ass off>>42306981cope comes in 6 packs?
