I have an opportunity to be in a relationship rn with an old friend (we even hooked up) but i just know that I have too many mental health problems, i couldn't be there for them or do the bare minimum and im just consumed with these terrible thoughts so i have to spend most of the day in bed. as much as i know its all just distortions but i keep thinking people want to hurt me or kill me. i know its not true but then i get wrapped in these unending fantasies about it and then i really start thinking about hurting myself, like it feels like that would fix it or if she just hurt me herself, but all of that would probably make me a really bad partner. the thing too is that she's actually a psychologist and she's had her own mental health struggles, i know she would understand but i think it would be too much for her, i'd hurt her somehow or just pull her down with me. im already such a bad friend with how bad i am about reaching out first or responding to her (or anyone in my life). but i also just long so much for a relationship, to be taken care of and to take care of, for closeness and trust, for security and intimacy, and to have someone in my corner. i've been in therapy for so long and i live in a mental health residential and no meds or treatments or therapies have stopped it. im at a loss, do i wait until im better and deny myself all that comes with a relationship for as long as it takes or do i risk the wellbeing of someone i really care about so that i can have that closeness?>t. bi mtf
>>42334834take all of your bpdemon thoughts, put them in a jar and don't unleash it on themjournal or something
>>42334805As someone in similar shoes although maybe without as destructive tendencies you have (DPDmoder) I say go for it. I don't want to wait and lose what could be a good partner that things work out with in the end. All is fair in love and war
i got my shark at first for the meme but now he's all i have to hold and help me when i start spiraling. and i think i need to just crash out a little bit sometimes but i couldn't do that if i was with or near someone.>>42334871i really don't want to hurt myself and i've been trying so hard, i've only cut once in the past year. but its going to come out sideways somehow or just be some intense stressor or something>>42334873but i don't think all is fair in love (or war for that matter), and i might really fuck her up without even knowing or intending to, and it might just be so overwhelming for her.
>>42334929as long as you honestly lay out all your issues on the table and she as an adult agrees with full knowledge you are morally in the right for attempting to pursue romance. Love is important and it's worth risking hurt for. If you want to be self sacrificing and suffer without ever taking a chance, that is also a valid pathYou simply have to make the choice and neither is better than the other
>>42334805Some people fetishize the crazy, I learn to accept that
red: unemployed trannies are now all drag queens, ***they can't take hrt anymore***, and they are all assigned a school where they will be reading stories to children, in drag, every single morning until they turn 70. you get 2 "mental health" days a month, 4 weeks of paid vacation, but you have to work summer school (those kids need your message the most)oh and you get paid 40k a year + health insurance (that DOES NOT COVER GENDER AFFIRMING SURGERIES)green: congress is replaced by a new group that is 100% made up of straight trans women (both the house and the senate), they will be in place for life, no more elections, and when they die/get sick, they will be replaced by other, younger straight trans women
>>42336957they would be murdered, that's kind of the whole idea of america
>>42336975no they wouldn't
>>42336149*breaks the GREEN button with the amount of force pressed
>>42336149i press both buttons>no you can't do that you have to pick only one of th-i press both anyway
>>42338160being this autistic is very moid brained
Bruh Grok is just trolling now. Bad LLM.
>>42332708gemini is hugboxing me
>>42336881bro just take e before even the AI can't say anything other than>well, with hairline transplant surgery anything is possible!you'll be a luckshit if you aren't already mogged by t at that age.
>>42332721you would be surprised at how immediately effective traumadumping on chatgpt/grok can be.
>>42333541you can do all of that as girl, no?
>>42332721llms are unironically better than therapists now
I wasn't dysphoric about having a dick and balls. I got SRS because my boyfriend wasn't comfortable having sex with me like that. Now I have a vagina, and I'm... still not dysphoric.I was assured that if I didn't have genital dysphoria before SRS and I got SRS, then I'd develop horrible reverse dysphoria. Well, it's now years later, and I still have no dysphoria.What gives? Is dysphoria just bullshit?
how are you guys not scared that people will discover you have a pussy
>>42337986Why would you use a Q-tip instead of your body?
>>42338011Don't want to get poop on my body
>>42338022Yeah well I want to feel something behind so you better get to it.
>>42338005I hide mine under boxer shorts
there should be one day a year where it's legal, a full amnesty, to go ham on trannies with fists or bricks
>>42337611Can I hump your leg at least?
>>42337603height don't matter they're all pussies outside of the internet
>>42337669Fr they are all nerds now, nothing like the old street trannies that would roast your ass.
uhm no. no there shouldn't. thats actually a bad idea.
>>42337714it's a great idea
>6'0>190lbs>19 inch bidelt>size 11.5 womensyup, its gorillahon time.
>>42335969>6'2>124lbs>17.5 inch bideltoid>size 11 womensliterally me
>>42337821except for my enormous ribcage ya
>>42337828Damn you're a little willowy thing aren't ya, kinda jealous.
>5'7>120 lbs>16 inch bideltoid>13 inch biacromial>30 inch underbust>10 inch chest breadth>26 inch waist>11 inch bicristal>33 inch buttock circumference >9.5 womens
>>42337843The no hips and no ass is just sad to see
State letter and what cartoons you watched growing up. I want to see if there are any correlations.
>>42337681>Berenstein bearsLmao yes that, guess I'm still messing that one up, I remember my mom trying to correct me on it when I was like 5.
>>42337738Forgot to mention >Bubblegum Crisishttps://youtu.be/ajTAnMqhZB8?feature=shared
>>42337664I feel that, friend. I don’t have much contact with friends these days either. I have on y like 2 friends from back in the day, and we never talk.
>>42337056Bi mtf boymoderSpongeBob, Fairly Odd Parents, Danny Phantom
>>42337662That sounds exactly like my ex wtf
>want to transition >start taking hrt>freak out when effects become more noticeable >detransition>want to transition>start taking hrt>freak out when effects become more noticeable>detransition>want to transitionHow do I stop this madness? I must just be retarded atp
>>42334666Ah. That must kinda be what taking that leap of faith is about.Thanks. Been a while since I've Kierkegaarded.
>>42331023are you sure you aren't just a trutrans enby?
>>42331023I'm married and a landlord so my plan is to just live inside for years and send my wife on errands until the girlshots and surgeons make me look okreally if you're not happy with progress now, will you be happy when you inevitably break down and do it 5-10 years from now?
Just go to the doctor and get hondosed
>>42334772Maybe I am, but if that's the case, then I'm genuinely cursed to never feel right in my body
>>42334759I've never see anyone say it but I think that a large degree of the delusion actually comes from self-image. I think the contextualization as attraction to men as "meta" directly correlates to a trannies perception of themself. Trannies who see themselves as ugly, hons or fetishists get the ick from picturing themselves with normal men in normal love so they dehumanize their partner as a way of removing their low self-esteem from the equation.
>>42334733You have no idea what I meant and you probably aren't someone who needs to be aware of this to protect themselves. For men who are looking for more than a hookup it's important.
>>42334806it literally does apply to cis women ur out of touch and probably a moid
>>42333866real
>>42333777Those digits are too true to doubt
how do i cope with having estrogen insensitivity
>>42335226so?
>>42332902By being an obnoxious fucking nig nog and shitting up the board ever day apparently.
>>42335226>been here for two days>already tripfagging
>>42337794why do you feel the need to put her down? cant u see shes hurting
>>42337830>rib-waist ratio is fine>face is fine>jaw is fine >hair is fineno real problems and yet they can't even keep their spam to a general.
So I get rock hard when I watch porn of a girl blowing a guy, pretending it's me. No problem. But when it comes to piv intercourse, I tend to get softer. What does this mean? I'm a virgin so I don't know how it would be irl, probably not well since I'm neurotic and have intense anxiety. But I don't understand why intercourse doesn't get me going really. Is it an issue with self-inserting? Trauma? Am I a big gay faggot deep down?
>>42337078I'm not opposed to the passing ones but so often there's some kind of tell in their face that it's a male. Not to discourage anyone, some pull it off but it's is very rare. I'm sure this is discussed ad nauseam here
>>42337116I can get turned on by imagining myself rubbing my cock against the vagina, like dripping precum on it, and the idea of like teasing it/sticking the head in/etc. I have no reference point other than porn for full on piv. I think you're probably a psychotic groomer/troll.
bump
>>42337116Why sex with men? This doesn't sound like someone into men outside of cocks which a strap or transbian can provide
>>42337052A lot more people are bisexual than we realize.>Is it an issue with self-inserting? Trauma? Am I a big gay faggot deep down?Maybe all 3. Maybe none of them. Who cares?Do what feels right for you. Explore (especially IRL). Live life as yourself, not as what brainrotted anons on the Internet think you should be.We all get one shot at life. Might as well not blow it. But if you do, swallow :3
transgenderism is the single greatest evil of our timealso, while we are here, those who call themselves transgender women are in fact male men
>>42337303truth nuke
>>42337711the engraving is just decorative patterns. the flowers and and stuff. fluting is the the armor is basically corrugated to make it stronger. your chudjack is wearing Maximilian armor, its an example of both techniques.
>>42337743I would like to be the armor that saves children from being groomed and pinkpilled by troons.
>>42337768u r evil tho
>>42337789ur only saying that cuz UR evil
I never thought much about this but I think I may be a lesbian? I’ve had 4 sexual partners (all male) and i didnt enjoy sex at all, ive never finished before (even when they eat me out and finger me) I just did it because it’s the only way I know to show someone i care about them. I normally just close my eyes and think about other things. I always thought this was normal/ a chore for everyone because of how often other girls talk about their partners being bad at sex but i don’t know anymore. Im still young (CF18) maybe i will grow out of this or it is some kind of trauma response as ive been molested a few times. I have had crushes on women throughout my lifetime, and i’m not a big porn user but whenever i do i can only finish if it’s between two girls and if im thinking of something it never includes men/a distinct person. I dont know if this would make me bi or lesbian or straight and just going through a phase idk?
>>42337496Well if you never enjoying the sex is a good indicator that you’re asexual it’s not bad at all tho anyways you should probably stay away from this board nona it’s bad for the mental health lol
>>42337511This fr, this place isn't good for young people
>>42337503Most women not cumming from PIV is insane to me, moids are evil and sex is definitelt an altruistic act wtf> go fuck around with some girls opI think ill do this after i move out, being bi with lesbian lean makes sense to me>>42337511>>42337540Thank you nonas, ngl this board is a breath of fresh air for me. way better than spending my time on /pol/ and /r9k/ :p Also ill learn more about asexual stuff thank u <3
>>42337625>way better than spending my time on /pol/ and /r9k/ :poh okay those places are much worse for a young girl, I guess you're used to negativity thenstill not healthy though!!!!!!!!!!!
>>42337625>moids are evilr9k pilledi think they are mostly just very dumb about sex and women's bodies
https://skribbl.io/?ewCvtjbL
>>42337282https://skribbl.io/?xQCUOEY1
>>42337282Bump
>>42337282he's a happy boy him lovey him toy he is surprised she hasn't taken it from him yet
Any other trannys dating a guy in the military and have to be celibate for 6 months at a time cuse he’s gone I wanna blow my brains out lol
>>42336678alrighthttps://files.catbox.moe/zj2u44.jpgcheck that, if that looks familiar, then its too late. He chased, stalked and harrassed another trans girl in november. Everyones quite aware of it.
>>42336716Oh I’m cooked
you could be stationed in the middle of absolute butt fuck nowhere and you still have some kind of communication, bro could call you at any time, etci have full internet when i do field work
>>42336760yeah I was snapping my ex in a fucking defensive back in the day.>>42336745ok girl I'm gonna use a throwaway acount, but you'll have to prove its you, and I'll show the full text messages and help you through things generally n be there for any support you need.artix_ae6288
>>42336409I had a thing with a boy in the military. He developed feelings for some other guy and ghosted me the moment he came back home. Never again.
