>Be me 30M, decent looking, from Europe no HRT, AGP sexuality since I was 18yo. > Had depression and suicidal ideation from 14 to 24 yo because of some acne in my teens and body dysmorphia - not good looking enough, not manly looking enough, not enough friends, not cool enough, not successful enough etc..> first watched porn with like 14-15. got into hentai, gender bender and body swap stuff. > regularly watched porn and at one point started identifying with the woman during sex/porn.> started to regularly watch porn from fem pov. I probably just used porn to sedate myself.> in my early 20s I started to fall behind in law school/failing school. wanted to kms really badly. just being alive and breathing felt like an insult to my existence.
> Got into a respectable and stable job, that's paying decently. Have a car, some friends, though I feel no real connections. Good relations to my family. Studying IT next to work to fulfill my goal of proving my worth.> Never quit indulging my AGP over the years. Kissed some girls, had opportunities to have a few girlfriends and sex but never used opportunities/pursued it. So I am still a virgin.>Lessons learned: Never stop being kind to others. Kindness is the antidote to despair. As long as you can be kind to others, emphasize with them and don't belittle them you will never become helpless, bitter or hateful. > For some reason, I still deeply love life and people. I still think people are beautiful. Life is beautiful. Even if not my own. It's like watching the most beautiful thing through a window, inside a dark room.
>>42323374>30yo>still ruminating about stupid shit like having acne as a 14 year oldGet. Over. Your. Self. I swear to god all mental illness is just narcissism
> I do think that AGP and porn did help in surviving, but AGP is spilling over into emotions and identity, which is dangerous. so I want to stop the sexual porn fueled parasite.> I am not going to lie, indulging AGP does feel like bliss. But I simply need to walk out of heaven. I simply need to honestly face starvation and stop feeding it, forever. I am willing to accept that. I am willing to face that pain and discomfort forevermore. The only thing I want is a meaningful life, not a happy one, or an easy one. A life that uplifts others, that makes the world a better place for my surroundings. Towards that goal I am willing to bear anything and everything. :)So I will simply stop. I will stop watching porn and I will starve my sexuality. I got older, more mentally stable, more realistic. I don't need AGP and porn to sedate myself anymore, so I will exile myself from what feels like heaven and willingly tread the hard, real road.
>>42323385Oh the acne ways just hard on me as a teen. I don't worry about it now at all. I got over it long ago :)
Wjy haven't you trooned out yet? Have you considered it?
>Man, I swear, she fine homes, why she always lyin', though?>Tellin' me she 'phoric, when she know it's phlogiston>She got a clocky friend look like Natalie Wynn>Got a passoid friend look like Natalie Wynn
this is so real, if i wasn't an ugly tranny my life would be perfect i'm not a nepobaby but neither poor, life is simple and comfy all the time, i just hate being and ugly tranny
>>42323160let's fucking, that's wholesome >>42323112it's just the meme, i don't like pokemon, but anime and videogames in general >>42322889giwtwm but i'm too ugly and repulsive for that
>>42322852>27 year old NEEThon tranny it's over isn't it
>>42323355I'm sure you're not that bad looking but this was when I was 22 at 27 that's a bit late to wait for
>>42322852i kinda feel like autistic women get a pass and can be coddled by their parents their entire lives without it being seen as cringe...
>>42323432me fr. since my parents actually see me as a woman (mtf), they hold me to woman standards.
Would you still be cute with short hair? Or do you absolutely need it long in order to pass?
>>42323216do you straighten your textured hair?
Frizzy hon whisps could never
>>42323297i've considered it but i've heard people say it damages it over time until you hit a point of no return and even tho i hate my curls i do take good care of themi was considering asking my stylist about a keratin treatment and my sister recommended trying a keratin blowout but that won't be until next month
I pass better with a buzz cut than neck length hairRegrowth is awkward
>>42322838long hair is worse for me but idc
How can I get my body hair under control if I can't afford laser removal right now?Pic related
>>42323573larp. ive seen this same image posted years ago
>>42323573I would eat this person's pussy
>>42323573stomach like an old mans ballsack desu
definitely not pic related but i love that image i wish so much that i looked like her
>>42323573laser doesn't work on blond hair on brown skin. like at all, sorry. :(you need electrolysis.
told my mom i want an orchi after my ba and asked "do you want anything else... down there?"
>>42321647Dilation is temporary, (not that a man with a dick would know that)
>>42322962dilation is majorily lifelong. Dishonestly and misrepresention is harmful.
>>42322990>looks at undilated pussy>still works just fine
>>42320161srs is for passoids... but if you're a passoid, you should want srs.
>>42322990That just means fucking my gfs srsussy is a lifelong daily commitment.How is that bad?>bend over sissy, its time for your daily dilation
im an nb lesbian and i dont know how to get over my chaserness, i have an unhealthy obsession with trans women and i dont know why. ive been told its just penis envy, which i definitely do have, but it goes further than that. for the past 4 years ive been almost exclusively into trans women, my last 5 relationships were with trans women, i try extra hard to pick up interests that i know are popular with trans women, i daydream about how id love to be a trans woman, sometimes i even pretend to be a trans woman online, i feel personally offended when people tell me im fetishizing trans women because i dont think theyre valid, just because of the sheer implication that i would ever be so disrespectful to a group of people i nearly worship. i dont know how to stop this and i dont think i want to. is there something wrong with me?
>>42323075>is there something wrong with me?nothing wrong. u just go the halimede fever, just keep being yourself and move on.
>>42323075yes and you should kill yourself. now stop fishing for empathy online.>mountains of desperate transbians incoming
also you will NEVER be hunter schafer
>>42323075i'm only jealous of mtfs who have cocks
>>42323528eh to be fair from what i know bottom surgery sounds like literal hell i would not want to have it if i was a trans girls, might just be biased from the penis envy. but regardless SRS or no SRS i will happily chase regardless
i been acting more feminine ever since i bought this mouse pad for my desk wtf
>>42321359snca
>>42322096either this is a random bump with random term or you're referring to the alzheimers/parkinson's geneon either case my journey to sissify my room has been very profound and of insane difficultynext i will get this poster i thinktrying to navigate my malebrained tastless tendencies to fit within a high tier aesthetic composition is extremely difficult, but im trying to be nice to myself in that sense to not expect perfection and have some leeway
You can fuck chronically online NEET trannies by just being nice to them. You can get all kinds of ass like this. The only obstacle is distance>but anon, i'm a cis guy and all the chronically online NEET trannies I know are transbians!Another fun fact: You can just have sex with transbians as a man. It's true. You can just be nice to them and they'll let you smash.
>>42320685What
>>42320579east coast?
>>42322500NTA but I'm a cis guy on the east coast :D
>>42322596>cis>:Duhhuh, sure
>>42319432what board then?
3 years HRT. Started at 16. I am 19 right now. I am not very good at makeup, i know...
>>42322071No need to be so pedantic. I know most doesn't mean all, hahaha.
I started at 21 and I pass 100% so I think you'll be fine
>>42322095Yeah it's not something I'd worry too much about. Maybe in the future you can get clavicle surgery but I don't think it's necessary for passing, just if you want it.
>>42322105oof lmao
>>42321838yea pretty much.
Just seems like i'll be made fun of.
>>42320188I'm really not sure whether i have it or not. I'm really bad at self-examination etc and all the criteria i've read mean i either have it or am just sad about being ugly.Last time i've had a picture taken i was mentally out of comission for like a week due to sheer misery and got back into drinking. Not sure what that means doe.
I have a friend who turned out hot even though she is bald.
>>42321413I'm ugly though.
>>42319163>baldsolution: good wig>uglysolution: cosmetic surgery (note that not everything can be unuglified)
>>42319163Just do it, who cares
I need to die
>>42322789op looks like an oblivion character
Then kill yourself. Do you have any idea how many people here would kill to look that good?
>>42323005
>>42323207"Mages Guild members have said that Kud-Ei is an excellent teacher, as well as a very loyal guildmember."
if there was a news program for boymoders, what would they report on?
>>42320744but it's gonna be spring soon....
>>42320783The seasons of boymoding! (summer is the worst one)
>>42320816>seasons of boymoding :3
>>42321051Aww, this is beautiful! You're blossoming into a very creative AI genner! (I know you don't like to be called an artist)
>>42321148hehehe good night :3
Who else is transitioning just cause they're bored?
>>42319801Driving can unironically be the best part of a regular work day ngl
>>42320694Not if you live in Europe.
>>42318414I really do want to transition out of what feels like just boredom, but I fear the possibility that I'll be making a mistake to a paralyzing and genuinely panic inducing extent.
>>42321629When public transit is reliable, it's by far superior, but driving can really be quite fun
>>42318414literally me lol im 99% sure im faketrans but im just hoping itll fix some of my mental issues
I get trannies love New Vegas but this is ridiculous
>>42323316Ring a ding ding baby
>>42323316>only one bulletshit cosplay
>>42323316You will never be a real courier.
>>42323316What in the goddamn?
