Had an EXTREMELY uncomfortable talk with my father a couple days ago and it's bringing up a lot of horrible shit I have tried for years not to think about. I have a therapy appointment in a few days but i don't even know what to say. If you have dealt with something similar I need to know how you cope. I just literally don't know how to resolve this for myself so I can move on and stop thinking about it constantly. Haven't posted here in months but there is absolutely nobody i can turn to about this.
>>42312330DIY coontroon
>>42312217I have literally no idea, the things I've dealt with like this basically just messed with me until the discomfort of them went away on their own, I basically had to completely improvise
>>42315878i think it was implied well, he made comments about my body that brought up uncomfortable memories of times he crossed the line in my childhood. poster 2 replies below you got it. I'd like to keep it relatively vague>>42316082I have been doing essentially the same,. he was sober for a while which helped. idk why he's like drinking and doing coke and shit again but it's making him act how he used to.
>>42316518ah okay I'm kinda stupid anon sorry. Personally my dad had anger/screaming type issues so that's the lane I was stuck in thinking about. I honestly don't know how I would handle something like that. I'm not close to my dad at all cause of the aforementioned stuff lol.
>>42316518wow, this is the exact shit that happened to me atarting 3 years ago. he wasnt allowed to see me til 18 cause of restraining order from dv case when i was 13. then when i turned 18 he was actually really kind then one day out of nowhere he just screamed and cursed at me while i was washing my hands for not getting out of the bathroom quick enough. shit escalated a lot after that and other circumstances also made everything worse and they sadly are still happening. although fast forward 3 years later and it made me realize im still trans and i started hrt a few days ago. recently he actually attacked me and my mom and blah blah blah there was a restraining order but since my mom is financially crippled because of him she had to cancel hers. so they communicate now for financial purposes. but I'm never going to speak to him again if i can. and i honestly want to become independent from my mom, but I'm completely fucked mentally. i have disabling level ocd, like near the level of people you would see in a documentary but I'm able to hide it enough to have a job (that i can barely do properly anyway). i grew up in a cult and have been abused in really horrible ways (not sexually though) that even shocked social workers. motherfucker even has hidden mics in our house and car and has proven it circumstancially by repeating things from me and my mothers private conversations, and shes the one who noticed it first. what can you do though, you need money to do anything :) I'll never forgive my parents for the pain they caused me I sometimes still wish I committed suicide when I was 12 and first thought about it https://youtube.com/watch?v=LpJHgUMzkTU&si=nEGiWeHbJE-p8j0l
I know one girl who has fully transitioned away from toilets and purely relies on diapers. She's also getting a bit fat not sure if related or not
>>42316676Eww what a disgusting bitch
>>42316663>>42316676nasty bitches
>>42316676It's anecdotal and maybe it has something to do with needing looser pants to hide them, but I swear there's a link between wearing a diaper a lot and getting chubby
>>423166371 or 2?
>>42315092>>42315125Thank youuu I am genuinely so lucky to have him for the rest of my life
>>42315771There is a middle ground, but I mean I do agree that being able to do business is nice, my wife is sick and wont be able to work at some point in the future, and I struggle to hold a job at all so we've invested in real estate and are landlords now, meaning we'll be safe even when she gets sick, you can't really do that in a communist country, you just kind of have to trust that the state sponsored care is going to be enough for disorders that need a lot of specialist workI think though we should strive to get along with people we don't agree with and be less tribal, most people who have political views have them because they think their ideal world would be better for everyone
>>42314110i larped being female for an entire year with a guy, would always be in voice eith him the only one talking. he wanted to fly out to see me so i had to admit and turns out he was gay?? brother
i've never had a single online friend, let alone an online relationship, before or after transition
>>42314110i had two runescape "boyfriends" for a few weeks back in 2006/07, does that count?
“@grok this dangerous man is wearing women’s clothing. Put him in a suit and tie, remove the makeup, the lipstick, the librarian glasses, give him a proper haircut, and add his two parents standing behind him beaming with pride”
a man wearing women's clothing is only scandalous because a man, the slave class, is daring to put on the dress of the elites - females are the elite caste of society and everyone knows it but few can admit it because they will be scorned for doing so
>tfw exhibitionist kink w bottom dysphoriai just wanna be caught/forced naked and embarrassed but i'll just feel like a pervert man cause i still have a pen15
>>42315943invert penor. surgically or with cage. problem solve
Gay Nigga EditionQOTT: Are you a gay nigga?PREVIOUS: >>42310994
>>42317703like omg . dude they were like talking about how much they want to fuck femboys for NO REASON and they called me cute recently . fuck my chud ass life, maybe i should start like disfiguring myself
>>42317678this is how it was not too long ago this thread has just gotten like super fast because of all the chud spam in the catalog
Is anyone else afraid to break up with their trans gf because they're afraid she'll commit suicide?
Time to pull out of the spiral I think
every aspect of maleness is wholly acceptable for all
>>42315788dugongs
>>42313417Most apes and monkeys. Canines
>>42313145i kinda wish i was a teenage girl in a changing room with "male-sexed people"
>>42315896ICE needs 2 deport u
every aspect of transgenderism is jewish
I don’t speak to any of my family members who voted for Trump anymore. I hope you all did the same.
>>42314662No instead this is what ICE wastes their time on:In a town only a few hours from me with an incredibly low crime rate and a 37% immigrant population (the rest is white), ice raided a laundry mat and had everyone in it running out of it like a bomb went off regardless if they were white or not. They picked up a 17 year old US citizen doing laundry because he looked Hispanic and sent his family canvasing the street looking for him and calling anyone they could to find out where he is. They still don't know. A bakery and other businesses next door are having to put up "no ICE allowed" signs in hopes it doesn't drive away all their customers because the whole town is terrified goons with guns are just going to run into random public spaces now. https://morristowngreen.com/2026/01/11/will-they-be-coming-back-sunday-morning-ice-raid-sparks-anxiety-in-morristowns-latino-community/I doubt any of the people they picked up were actually deportable or worth deporting.
>>42314303do you believe in the constitution and the principles our founding fathers built this country on?
>>42312676How dare you vote for jewish pedo oligarch A instead of my jewish pedo oligarch B!!!!! Fucking nazi!
>>42314054I think you should touch grass and get off xitter. This is what like terminal brainrot looks like.
>>42315870Fuck you got me. Guess I'm a Nazi Jew now. I'll wear that one along with mysogynist gender equalist, and faggot straight incel.
i see girls post here about how if you just get on the right diet anal is clean, but what diet is that actually? ive looked online and its not super clear to me. do i need to just go vegan/pescatarian? if i paint trade i will kill myself from embarrassment so this is life and death
>>42316391i feed my anus coconut oil. i dont think it needs much else
>>42316391i can only speak from personal experience, but the way ive always stayed clean (sort of poop like a deer if thats not tmi) has more to do with bacterial health than purely diet (obvi too much fat (has 2 be a lot) will cause issues)greek yogurt for multiple meals a day. fresh fruit and granola to add to it. u dont even have to keep this diet, just get that bacteria into your stomach
>>42316391eat healthy, get enough vegetables and fiber, and drink enough water, that's basically it
>>42316391laxatives and prune juice
>>42316391I cut down sugar intake, increased fiber intake, and added more foods that contain probiotics (like yogurts). Unfortunately, I have some undiagnosed GI stuff going on, so I usually end up taking an imodium after my morning shit, and at that point douching takes 3-5 minutes and I'm good for hours after that.
>be me 17 mtf>meet nice guy in video game club at school>get super friendly>graduate>ffw 5 years>want to try dxm and remember he was very knowledgeable about drugs (recreational and medical)>hit up old friend>she’s trans now and super touch starved>after talking about drugs and mental health (mine mosty) for a few days we somehow agree to being sex buddies>erp while touching myself>she’s coming back to her place in a few days after being gone for the holidayswe’re meeting up soon and desu this feels wrong since i have a very loving boyfriend but since he and i live so far away its really hard to not be able to meet but i already told him about this friend and i and he’s fine with it. the only reason i agreed to being sex buddies is because im so touch starved and havent had sex since last august and i feel like if i dont do anything about it im just gonna rope. what are your thoughts on this tttt?
>>42316422Tldr and don't careAlso you posted porn on a sfw site. Kys. And sage.
>>42316433I'm not the op you fucking retard literally four lines down it says fast forward 5 yearsIn the time it took you to make a fucking comment you could have figured that out
>>42316283ugh need long lost tranny friend to suck off while grabbing her tits
>>42316451OP pic is porn. Now never reply to me again you disgusting white knight
>>42316459Guess what retard you didn't mention op pic here >>42316415 so whatever you managed to come up after that is irrelevant and you sound dumb
mine is theyfabs
>>42316261Grown men wearing diapers pretending to be female babies. The bapies
>>42316303also not lgbt?
>>42316314You say not lgbt, yet this entire board is just retards like this. And all the actual gays already migrated to /int/
>>42316314They're trannies. One of the mods called himself Diapy Bapy Sophie because he wore a diaper and liked female babies. He was a tripfag.
>>42316261so they want to dress like a girl but they dont want any secondary sex characteristics.
I'm 2 months hrt so far and I've start feel something that I can only describe as "tingles" in my lower half everytime I get excited/flirted/complimented in a flirty way. It's a bit hard to describe exactly but it's kinda the same sensation that I've felt when riding roller-coasters.How normal is this?
>>42315638One guy just started following me on Twitter and stalking me and another just kinda did the same and is showering with steam games
>>42315653wtf i want a chaser to do this
unrelated but does prog accentuate this feeling? i love it
>>42315698yes
>>42315473Im not sure this is actually an effect of hrt though. I had that feeling long before i started hrt. Its genuinely annoying because it feels like a weakness, it also makes your knees weak when it happens i noticed.. it usually only happens when im treated roughly xD
I was play wrestling with my bf and he kneed me in the balls and it hurtHow do I get back at him for this? I'm thinking of tickle torturing him at night right after he sleeps in a couple hours
>>42311693knee him in the balls
>>42311693knee him back in the balls, retard
>>42311693Turn the other cheek
>>42311693Suck his cock while you cry
>>42311693have your balls removed so you're immune to that tactic in future
im 19 and im really scared is it too latelike and transitioning is really scary its like a whole life change im really scared chat idk what to do i need help pls help me pls pls pls
>>42313227after you've been through puberty it's just down to bones, either you have a frame/skull that'll make it with feminine fat distribution from hrt or you don'tthere's not really a reliable way to say you will or won't make it because of age>>42313249>is it possible to at least still manmode and blend into society without looking like a trannyit is, at 19 worst case unless you're insanely fucked you end up some twink hon, binders or loose clothing work for breasts since most trannies never really develop large ones, especially if you don't put on weight
>>42313274>work for breasts since most trannies never really develop large ones, especially if you don't put on weightshould i still be putting on weight though? i read somewhere that hrt doesnt actually redistribute fat but it just redirects new fat or smth, so if i wanna optimize should i just fatmaxx?
>>42312943This is my exact thoughts, I'm still early on (like I'm currently 19 and started soon after my birthday) and it's either suffer the humiliation of transitioning now or die as someone I despise>>42313227Surprisingly I'm pretty hopeful that I can eventually pass since testosterone really only destroyed one thing for me, my voice
>>42313296>so if i wanna optimize should i just fatmaxx?i think fatmaxxing is a psyop tbhon, but it is true that hrt has much more an effect on new weight gain/loss than it does on existing fatthe secret though is that existing fat cells take years to die, cycling doesn't really kill them, it just takes years for total fat redistribution in a conventionally female manner. part of why i think if you're gonna troon the earlier you do it the better. there's basically no utility out of delaying further since it's gonna take years for hrt to work anyways, but realistically you get most of your face changes in like 2-3y tops and that happens regardless of weight cycling assuming you aren't overweight to start with
>>42311207This is all true (almost 25 yo repper that's also brown)
My motto for romance as a trans woman is simply this "I refuse to share my bussy with men who wouldn't politically defend it" - Kat Blaque
That's fair. I have nothing to add but that seems reasonable.
>>42313207but submitting my bussy to my oppressors is kinda hot
>>42314822Exactly! We need to start making sure these trashy guys feel the consequences, it's only then that they'll know things have to change.>>42314835Thanks, I think it's a good mantra. Hope you apply it to your own life assuming you're a trans woman.>>42314854Not really imo, that just sounds too degrading and I have to think about what type of guy even wants that dynamic, ugh.
>>42314854your boyfriend should be the sole male allowed to oppress your butthole. nobody else, especially not the government.
>>42316265Monogamy is based
