Previous episode >>36327788IM NOT GOING TO FUCKING MAKE IT EDITIONQuestion of the Thread #1 : what keeps you from just fucking ending it all? what gives you reason to go on?Question of the Thread #2 : voice training or vfs?▶Info:What to do if I am questioning my gender? https://rentry.org/mtfginfo1What is Gender Dysphoria? https://rentry.org/mtfginfo2▶Hormones:HRT Information: https://rentry.org/mtfghrtFor additional HRT information, please visit >>>/lgbt/hrtgen▶Style/Passing:Fashion Guides (Videos): https://rentry.org/mtfgfashionBasic Skincare and Makeup: https://rentry.org/mtfgskinmakeupI'm tall! Where can I find clothes that fit?: https://rentry.org/mtfgclothesVoice Videos/Training: https://rentry.org/mtfgvoice▶Misc:Trans women have woman brains (Video): https://rentry.org/mtfgbrain▶MTF Timelineshttps://catbox.moe/c/afyn1t
blobby
>>36332166>Question of the Thread #1 : what keeps you from just fucking ending it all? what gives you reason to go on?Honestly? Finding the answer to this question keeps me going. What's "the good ending" like? I wanna find out no matter how bad it hurts.>Question of the Thread #2 : voice training or vfs?Voice training for me. Almost there, one practice sesh at a time.
>>36332166>qott1it wud upset ppl i like.>qott2both.
shit thread
>>36332184i will remember thatty for trying to help me anon
>>36332166ty for using the good OP
>>36332166>what keeps you from just fucking ending it all? what gives you reason to go on?my variety of lil projects. ain't got time for existential decay with all these irons in the fire>voice training or vfsvoice training (diy) + choralmaxxing
>>36332233good luck in your search! It's only difficult now. When you have that job, you'll be glad you kept going!
>>36332224snooze you lose nigga
>>36332247faggot
Is 35 too late for feminizing HRT to be worth a damn?
>>36332177Okay thank you.
How do you tuck effectively? I never hear it get actually talked about in detail and I'm at the point where I really need to start tucking. I'm a 1yr boymoder but a bunch of online friends who know I'm trans will be meeting up in a month or two and I'm genuinely terrified of how I'm going to present myself. All of them are cool, but none of them are trans and there are even going to be people who I've never met there. I don't know what to do honestly. I'm not ready yet but I can't back out, I can't boymode either, and I know I won't pass. My laser isn't even fucking done yet. I don't want to look like some kind of freak to them. I bought a bunch of understated girl clothes like simple tank tops and shorts but I just realized my bulge showed in all of them and I can't deal with that. How do I tuck it, exactly? Is there a guide or video somewhere? How do I make it stay for like an entire day? Please help me I'm freaking out.
how cooked am i
>>36332253it was too late at 19 for me
>>36332270omega malebrained
>>363321661-who said anything about keeping? I'm roping on first of August2-vfs, voice training is scam eventhough my voice passes it's not my real voice
>>36332280>malebrainedbitch idc abt that
>>36332286WELL WDYM BY BOOKED THEN BITCH
>>36332253too late after male puberty starts honestlywe all cope
force femme me into a productive member of society
>>36332283>I'm roping on first of Augustgiwtwm
my eyes are bursting
>>36332270decent haul. i got a couple final fantasy games, dmcv and the zero escape series today. dmcv instantly made my hand hurt so that is annoying. idk how to play the game without hurting myself. i need to get 428: shibuya scramble
>>36331998these projects are hs tier, apply yourself
just getting around to watching the debate>first trimester is between a woman and her doctor>second trimester is between her doctor and extreme situations>third trimester is between a woman and the statewtf based bidenshame about how he seems to have forgotten how to speak out loud
>>36332353epic advice
>>36332356The man showed he can thinkBut he can't fucking talk.Trump is the opposite
>>36332356>he doesn't mean for it to be this way, he just doesn't knowwell no point posting about the rest trump won 2024 with this sentence
>>36332401100%. to the people listening to the words trump sounds like a dumb playground bully and biden sounds like a presidentto the ears, biden sounds like he's about to fucking keel over and trump sounds like he feels bad for the guy lmaojoever
https://youtu.be/nLicQ2ChV5Qim nvr gonna be gay i wont do it u cant make me being a str8 chick with a str8 dude is life 2 me now and if these chucklefucks try n take that shit imma fard n piss n sob so fucking hard i swear 2 big bro
>>36332372ty
>>36332332omg zero escape is so fucking good enjoyalso dont listen to the haters ztd is peaki want to get ff13trilogy and the 3d remakes they released on the ds but ive been holding out on them for years
>>36332432have you played AI Somnium Files? also Okada
>>36332444
i dunno what games to get except Dead Space remake
>>36332356thankful for the content that this debate brought to the world
i should kill myself, why should i live? i have to go to masters in programming so i can get a job from there maybe and then do that for the rest of my life as some dysphoric weird faggot, i would have to do smth that i don't give a shit about while being miserable and dysphoric and even if i feel ok, it will still no be ok and feel robbed of an actual life.. so why even live?
>>36332448ya both games slap, i rly hope they make a 3rdthe secret ending to 2 was fucking insane
>did some writing outlining work for VN>only one "episode">feel a little better that i got some progress made even if it's not tonswagmi>>36332456room no 9 is on sale
>>36332458Why did you make biden the bottom?
alright, my good friend fell for the propaganda and became a tranny. he is even taking hormones. When do you guys grow out of this? how long does it normally take? i don't want to wait long
yo this game slaps fr doeshits fire ong sheeeeeshbruh
>>36332482define "propaganda"your friend has gender dysphoria, she's taking steps to treat it
>>36332488half life?
>>36332496ayyy frfr finna go play again on god bruh
>>36332490the dogmatic concept that a man can become a women, all you need is to spend a small fortune. I don't recall treating delusional people included affirming their delusions.
oh my GOD every time trump is talking shit he looks like a kicked dog46th president of the united states everyone>>36332458kekking and sobbing
im going to fucking kill myself
>>36332528please do
>>36332530I AM
>>36332512kys blobby
>>36332540stop wasting time here then?
I'm going to watch "In a Violent Nature"
>>36332555i like the mask's design
Waiting for earth crust displacement
y'all really have 0 issues to condamn paige to absolut hell just because she calls you what you are, men, males, amaband you're so fucking insecure, disgusting, stupid, irremediable hons that you have no other weapon than censorshipyou have nothing to say or show, just censoryou're the literal end of the world niggers
>>36332402okay i still think trump won here but>we're providing israel with all the weapons they need, whenever we need themthis sentence is where biden lost. whatever your opinion on this personally, this man does NOT know his base
>what keeps you from just fucking ending it all? what gives you reason to go on?i genuinely don't fucking know and i wish i did so i could get rid of that and kms already, i want to die, i hope i will actually do it and disappear forever
>>36332166>what keeps you from just fucking ending it all? Cowardice>what gives you reason to go on?Nothing>voice training or vfs?I voice trained successfully into a fully female passing voice but in the end it was a complete waste of time because bone law is unforgiving and merciless.
>>36332596just do it
Look at this guy
>>36332604i am scared of death and i am too proud probably too thus i suffer :'(can i get a hug and a kiss? please, it would make me feel better
i turned 27 3 days ago.i still feel like 21
>>36332623yup
i'm 28, 125 lbs, 5'6", is this doable... i can't stop thinking about trying, but worried i'm a bit too old? i think i might have top tier genetics for this (i literally haven't aged in 10 years) but i have no idea what's gonna happen if i try to transition and it kinda scares meaaaaaaa
>>36332624words of wisdomseek your replenishment, from waters you have not pissed in
>>36332649at least ur not 31 and feel like ur 20 :^)happy bday tho
>>36332623
>>36332649turned 26 2 weeks ago and same ;_;
>>36332623i love him............
>>36332166>what keeps you from just fucking ending it all?i physically cannot bring myself to take actions to end my lifeif i take pills i throw them up and everything else in my stomach and cannot stop pukingif i try to jump or crash my car i just can't make my body do it it just doesn't listeni got close by alcohol consumption but not close enough and ended up in the hospital and it fucking suckedmy mind may want to die but my body isn't going to let it happen>what gives you reason to go on?the closest thing i have to a reason is that i'm wildly insanely in love with a man who wants nothing to do with me. the hope is that i either find someone else like him, or hell freezes over and he gets in touch with me and proposesi guess also i want to create good meaningful art that makes ppl feel or think or just appreciate itthat would be nice and i know im smart enough to make something like that, but i lack a lot of the stability and discipline and ambition to tackle it, plus PDA doesn't helpalso, i don't want my mother to be hurt by my death. she's already suffered too much for one lifetime, i don't want to add to that>Question of the Thread #2 : voice training or vfs?neither bruh just literally do the voice it's that easy
>>36332665no, becoming a troon is not worth it, please remain a man and repp>>36332666do you love me now? i just want friends, i promise that i will become nice :'(
>>36332649i turned 30 like seven months or so ago and i still feel like a 12 year old an uncomfortable amount of the time and an 80 year old the rest
>>36332514well here's something for you, medical transitioning has been a thing for more than 100 yearsso you don't know shit about psychiatry or medicine in general>>36332586paige says it because she hates herself and projects that hatred of herself onto the rest of us.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FQbg7gQM9ogfond of this song...
>>36332707>feel like a 12 year old an uncomfortable amount of the time and an 80 year old the restpretty normal with bad early trauma tbdesu
mtfrens i got blood drawn but they had to stick me 4 times before i bled :///i think it's cuz i have low blood pressure, the docs always tell me that whenever they take my vitals>>36332721so is mohg just like literally a gross ass pedo groomer??? cuz that's kinda the vibe i get granted my understanding of the lore is not completedid he do shit to margit and morgot too??
>>36332586i only give paige shit for being a nazi. she's half right about the amab stuff she's just too wormed to admit that trannies are cross-sex not either or
>>36332166>qottI don't even know anymore :(>qott2both for best resultsthere's more to voice training than just pitch and resonance as important as those areif I was rich I'd get vfs then hire a voice coach
>>36332779>so is mohg just like literally a gross ass pedo groomer???yes and no, it's mostly meme. it's got the caveats of "miquella is ancient and immortal like their siblings just cursed with eternal unbloomed youth", and "mohg isn't doing this to get off he's trying to make miquella into a god and himself as consort of a god into ruler of the world."the writing is pretty clear (and, it is george rr martin) that this would involve mohg, who looks like a giant demon man, fucking miquella, who looks like a genderless child, to make offspring. but, he's not into it. but... yeah...again, george rr martin
>>36332597wish that was me on left
>>36332819i also think maybe it's supposed to imply that miquella once ascended to godhood would be like, not lookin all like a little kid anymore. and mohg just lives in his blood waiting for that to happen like a freak
Realistically, how worried do I have to be concerning liver/kidney damage and/or brain tumours when using cyproterone at 12mg/day? Is spironolactone safer?
>>36332753ugh sobbing>>36332779did you drink water today
>>36332649>>36332668I feel like I've aged a decade this past year
>>36332890do not take spiro lolidk how long uve been on hrt for but u can just switch to monotherapy after a while
>mono injectionsworried
laughing like bowser
>>36332908ya lots, all i drink is water and red wine (sometimes)>>36332819>>36332839got it so he's using the ageless ancient shota defense mixed with (potentially) a bit of "I'm waiting till he looks 18"ugh god the elden ring lore is so good i love how much gay tranny shit there isstill trying to wrap my head around radagon and marika being the same personyesterday i killed hoarah loux and i actually got kinda pissed at this guy, what's his deal? he hasn't been in the lands between for like ever bc he wanted to go be a barbarian and now I've done all the hard work to burn the erdtree he thinks he's just gonna walk on in and help himself? what a dick
>>36332915i mean spiro is definitely better than nothing and has no real health risks besides dehydration or potassium overdose. it's ineffective at suppressing T, it's not "do not take"
>>36332690>my mind may want to die but my body isn't going to let it happen
>>36332977i dont like that picturewhy is being hopeless bad
Is Carol still banned
>>36332980ppl say this and I'm always concerned cuz I'm a spiro hon but last time i had it checked my t was 12 ng/dl so i should be ok right?
>>36332969>yesterday i killed hoarah loux and i actually got kinda pissed at this guy, what's his deal?his deal is he's my husband>he hasn't been in the lands between for like ever bc he wanted to go be a barbariansobbing marika literally kicked him out of the house and the entire lands between and also his entire tribe and all his non-empyrean descendants (which may be the same thing unclear). literal god-waifu told him go home so he went back to the badlands :')also he was not just hoarah loux! he was nice and civilized and kingly with the help of his immortal dog who was unrelatedly also a king, and he stayed that way for marika even in exile, until you came along to swipe his wife and forced him to barb out againgotta kill him tho his stomp is too fun sorry mr loux buddy
>>3633301112ng/dl is nothing, mine was higher last check and I'm post orchi. Spiro has crummy side effects is why it's hated.
>>36333011i don't think spirohon is real unless your t is actually unsuppressed. there's stuff about cortisol and tummy but it's inconclusive data and (when i'm not cheat eating bloaty foods kek) i am a flat tummy twink after 7 years spiro so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯i will say my breast growth has been shit but i don't think that's because of spiro, i think it's the recurring bouts of anorexia + never having monitored my e2 levels
>>36332969oh also your character is probably directly descended from hoarah loux
>>36333035o got it >>36333053mm my breasts aren't great eitherim grateful they've rounded out a bit tho, least im not stuck with cones>>36333030sounds kinda cucked nglimagine being such a shitty husband ur wife kicks u out and literally fucks herself and gets pregnant with her own childreni don't wanna know what that bedroom was like with godfrey theremfer didn't even put his foot down with visitation rights judging by how he reacted to morgot's body
>>36333069woa fr? what a slut
>>36332983kek!
>>36332969try iced tea>>36332983why did he stab you
>>36333085>grateful they've rounded out a bit tho, least im not stuck with conestfw ribcageconehon. i have a pigeon chest goin on and it makes them point outwards with no under boob lol. i will need implants.technically they're c cups because obv they point down on the leaning measurement so i guess i could just become a hunchback kek>sounds kinda cucked ngl>imagine being such a shitty husband ur wife kicks u out and literally fucks herself and gets pregnant with her own childrenoof you brutalize my boy but u rite tho lmaoand then to make matters worse one of the kids she had with herself went and murdered his only good son too lol>slut louxbasedi will be nepheli's stepmother
>>36333302i don't rly get the nepheli loux questok so she's the queen of limgrave now or whatever, what's the point? all her subjects are mad and there's barely any of them left
>>36333351>ok so she's the queen of limgrave now or whatever, what's the point? all her subjects are mad and there's barely any of them lefti mean... what quest are you on right now
elden ring autists, what build should i go with
>"give the nice lady your stuff honey">"hi there, do you need a bag?">"oh nice man I'm so sorry! and yes please!"dang it
>>36333678that really depends on what you've already done lolalso if you mean dlc build i can't help i am like 1 hour into the dlc, the new fists and katanas seem cool tho
>>36333721>that really depends on what you've already done loli've beaten the game but not gone on to ng+ with one character (INT)on another, beaten most of the game but iirc have only beaten the fire giant but not progressed past that outside of other areas, and it's with a dex/arc build that really just sucks and was meant to be a scarlet rot focused build but im not really feeling it since trying to play some more on it the most i do is spam giant hunt and occasionally use some utility fth spells either for pulling enemies or dumping scarlet rot dragon breathand all my other characters are still early game
>>36333597umm i guess i still gotta do Millicent's quest and the haligtree stuff and then I'm starting the dlc this playthrough I'm doing int + dex
>>36333890I am James dean I have only ever smelled the feet
ugh i am deeply considering getting this tria nowmy shadow is slowly coming back between sessions and i prob wont have another until at lest nov/deci am 100% abt to blast my face
>>36333716i like the artist that drew this picthe blonde one is cute
speaking of vanii, where is her online presence now? I remember I was following her and then her twitter and her curious cat https://curiouscat.live/vaniis got deleted
my fav elden ring character has prob gotta be ranniwish i could transplant my soul into a pretty doll body...malenia is a close 2nd thoshe makes me feel better abt my fridge bod
>>36334255mine is mogh.he was a victim
Watching sailor moon with mom
>>36334298my mom called me a fag for recommending sailor moonshe liked mob psycho and overlord though
>>36334298cute and comfy :)
>>36334324Based. Those are good shows>>36334328:)
>>36334265lol eccentric tastes i can respect itdoes anyone here like cardcaptor sakura >_<
>>36334298i was watching it earlier as well on adult swim too, tho i've watched the whole series like 5 years agocozy
>>36334324ur mom should not call u a fag
my thigh gap is widening :>
>>36334459naz glowup arc incoming
>lose another 50k souls because im a fucking retardi am GOING to kms
>>36334494aw dw abt it I've lost probably a few hundred k this play through but it doesn't matter! i try to level up here and there when I'm free roaming but most of the leveling i do is just from boss flights desu
>>36334374Omg its the yamcha gets exploded episode now
>>36334514erm spoilers?
>>36334524Lol
>>36334563the baseball filler episode of super was the best episode of super because of the reference to this.
>>36334574Lol thats great. I didnt know that. I gave up on super cause i hated it
"A Violent Nature" was good, currently in the middle of Smile. I could have sworn this movie came out ages ago
>>36334485I hope sothinking if I can improve my diet and get better at skincareI'll look alot healthier at least
>look up r/translaterActually I'm a man who is fine with being a man and will not try to transition
>malenia phase 2 starts with an instantkill if you don't dodge it correctly:)))))))))))
>>36333678pure RAW STRENGTHHH And use the great club ooga booga ooga booga ooga booga- elden ring autist
Unfortunately while I went from wanting to die to not really wanting to die anymore, I know hrt was not the right decision. Im jhst at a loss. I dont think there is anything left to do in life. I am thinking of ending it all.
I’m not getting matches on any dating apps anymore… is it over? should I panic?
omg maybe this will finally be the place i get some clout for this: i beat malenia once by parrying loli still had to dodge the waterfowl dance and the big explodey flower thing but other than that i parried everything and used a crit/blood loss buildwas fun af but so hard, took me weeks of trying a couple hours a night
>>36334795when i feel hopeless i make a silent vow to myself that some day i will be beautifuland all the ppl who thought i was just a gross cringe ugly autistic boy will have no choice but to bear witness some day...
heall yea niggas beat (male)nia
>be the only tranny in a discord server>its obvious that blahaj memes are aimed at me>I dont even like blahaj or memes
dead cope thread for honbeasts
>>36334938blahaj is fren
can't wait to get fucked up tomorrow been feeling so afraid over absolutely nothing today
>>36335012omg iktfI've been tweaking today over basically morning
>>36335152oops meant to say nothing
henlo frens need some quick adviceim hungry but it's lateshould i go get food or just not
hurry up the store closes in thirty minutes ugh
>>36335239flip a coin :)
I've only been playing elden ring for two days and I've already lost so many souls
>>36335287yeah it hurts every time>>36335283good advice im gonna get going
>>36335266Ye go
>>36335287friggen noob
Wanna get a hungry gf that i can feed and bribe with food
>>36335321manipulative feeder bitch
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AfPhZmGBD8w
ugly? yep thats me
violent femmes always reminds me of tony hawk no matter what they really went crazy for the music in those gameshttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=serIf92zTDc
swagger
>>36335416her pants are awesome her top just sucks. if she emphasized her shoulders differently like with straps or something it'd be way cuter i think
too sad to sleep :((
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N-SFAgDxx5o
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6o1okZNT3gU
aaa in the evening i'm too sleepy to be productive but it's not time for sleep yetwhat do i dooooo
i miss him so much thinking about him all the time kms>>36335520daydream about the straight guy you're in love with>>36335302done gone, got pidser bagels
>>36333750slow reply srymalenia's got another really cool spell for your rot build fyi, takes 3 slots but if you're already not equipping many spells that should be finei'll recommend you two very different options:>monk build, go fists and faith, use spells mostly to buff and heal then punch everything to death or throw lightning at it>bonk build, pick up either one of the fun hammers or the guts greatsword and just go full strength focus, add end if you wanna dual weild and feel like radahnenjoyed both of these greatly and both have a ton of really fun ashes of war to play with
>>36335508kys blobby you fat little evil goblin
>>36335526he'll never love me back :/his girlfriend kinda doesn't like me either (she's republican)
>>36335536thanks desuwas thinking i might respec for full fth build, but if i don't do that i'll probably get the flower for the rot>>36335545>he'll never love me back :/he will in your daydreams
>>36335526>i miss him so much thinking about him all the time kmssame but i'm on the other end, thinking of her insteadpretty sure it's over for me.. time to drink and cut
>>36335541im not blobby i just like 90s hip hop dam
>>36335552blobby should stabbed in the throat Cap this post blobby like you do with all my posts, print it out and then crumble the paper up and jam it up your fat ass
>>36335551>pretty sure it's over for me.. time to drink and cutfuture tranny
>>36335559i think no one should be stabbed in the throat except for maybe politicians that song in particular fuckin owns it has really beautiful lyrics and feeling a lot like this other one which is similar 3xd & everyone surrounding them was awesome https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hDhwvYKJiM8
>>36335561ok groomer
>>36332166Q1: Husband and kids, honestly. Started hormones at 30, husband stayed with me, kids love me... but I've realized my dreams are all broken/unattainable and I'll never fill that void. I don't hint at it but if something ever happened to my family I'd go suicide by billionaires security team or some shit.#2: Training. VFS seems really hairy.
>>36335549uggghhhhhhwhy do other ppl get to be normal and have normal livesi rly did try to be ok with being a guy and i couldn't so like what could i have even donewhy am i like thisweird, ugly and destined for loneliness
>>36335569gamps are invariably going to troon out themselves once they can't get off on their fetish by living vicariously through the transwomen they chase>>36335577idk it's not fair, i have so much love for my guy and could make him so so happy if he were into me. life sucks then u die
>>36335567rap is for try hards.
>>36335583no thats hard core . . .. .
god its nights like this that quitting weed rly suxi wanna go outside and have a smoke so badi don't even care about getting high it was just the ritual and the calm that i crave
>>36335561no i'm not going to troon out, i'm def sure i'm cisi didn't even cut i just began cutting bc of this girl..
give me one reason not to OD on my hrt right NOW
>>36335585i can relate to hard core more than i relate to rap and where i grew up, everyone listened to rap. as Jerry Garcia said "rap ain't music". Whatever, like what you like i just hate blobby.
>>36335582uggghhhhh rightttttti would do anything to make him happymake him cum as often as he wanted and cook all his meals for him and wash his sheets every week cuz i know how much he loves clean sheets and dote on him after a hard day of work when his stupid instructors were being mean to him againand i would love every second of itif only...we've known each other since middle school and he was my only friend a lot of the timesif i were born a girl i could have been perfect for him and he would have loved me so much
>>36335597And you can fucking eat me whoever you are. Get off my nuts bro
>>36335617>we've known each other since middle school and he was my only friend a lot of the timesyea same except i met him in elementary schoolhe had a crush on my sister too, ugh
>>36335616its cool i understand. i didn't really grow up with too much cultural influence around me and i'm big into whatever i can get my hands on except for maybe black metal. hardcore is as cool as hip hop and loud music is fantastic you should post your favorites anon
why this busta ass nigga think evry1 blobby lmfao blud buggin fr tho
>>36335627that's fucking rough I'm sorry idk why fate loves to twist the knife so much
>>36335622uh, whoever you what'd i do to you?
>>36335634hey at least they never dated, that would've been too much lol
any tips?
Go to sleep.Wait. It's the weekend.PARTY UP.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tMzk3p9eG5M
what is some faggy media i should watch/read? looking for things that make you feel warm and fuzzy inside.>t. sad lonely boymoder
>>36335694Inuyashiki. But be warned. They make you hate the villain very effectively.
>>36335669bro better be taking good care of grandma if he's making her do that shit for him >:(>>36335664ugh my friend was telling me about sex the other week and ugghhhhhhe was telling me about how much better he's gotten at pleasing girls and how he thought he was good at sex in high school but since getting older and having more experience and learning to talk with his girl about what feels good and what turns her on and stuff hes gotten way better and i was just sitting listening like giwtwmmmmmm
>>36335706fugg that sounds niceremember once my ex bff telling me about how he told his gf at the time to bite the pillow lmaough men are so hot, this same guy shoved me against a wall and choked me while staring me down it was so hot hot hoti wish i hadn't frozen bc of panic, i would've caressed his arm or tried to pull him in for a kiss or whatever kms i wish he were gay or at least bi so we could be togetheranyway enough obsessing gonna go to sleep good luck anon>>36335694nothing reallymaybe ai no kusabi
>>36335723wtf that sounds so hot i would melt if that happened to meugh to make things worse, him and me are both big plane autists (that's how we became friends) but he's a pilot in the navy now, hes flying this thing that's like a mini fighter jet as the last part of his training and then he's gonna be living on an aircraft carrier and flying off of thatand he posts these pics in his flight suit and gear and sunglasses and it's just like uggghhhhhhhhe's so tall too like 6'2 and im 5'8 and super fit and has this deep voice and like predator eyes and a thick black mustache, he was always more masculine than most of the guys at school but he was one of the only ppl who didn't bully me for being a nerd who wasn't into girls
o fugg bros im gonna coom bros
>>36335723>i wish i hadn't frozen bc of panicYeah but he should have just fucked you. Like, you can tell he wanted it.
>>36335753sorry was it too much >_<just trying to communicate how perfect he is and how much i would worship him if only i had been born a girlfuck my life lol what's even the pointevery day it feels like i have happiness dangled in front of me but it's something i can never grasp for myself
>>36335749SEXOyea my ex bff was 6'3" and im 5'9", it's a great height difference bc i can rest my chin on his should when we hug and lean my head into his neck and it feels greathe's big and strong and masculine and would protect me from bullies and i loved him so much and still dothese days he works as an outdoorsman and i wish i could be there with him or at least there for him after a day of work, ready to listen to his stories from the day or rub his feet or sperg about the game i'm working ongod why are perfect men sent to be best friends to trannies they aren't interested in
>>36335773Well i still plan to bribe him to give you another shot, so like, we are radically different.
SEXOOOOOOOOOO!!!!IM BUSSSSSTINAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHfuggggg girls keep the posts cumin!! im ready for round 2
>>36335773ugh RIGHTwhenever i try to meet guys i just think, you're not as good as him...not even talking about attractiveness, he's just a better kinder more responsible, manlier man than like any of the guys i meet
>>36335781shut up dad
I wanna hear about new stories! More tauren stories. Not tauren. I don't know warhammer. MORE SUBBY STORIES!
>>36335787o pls girlie we are hsts gurls we slayyyi NEED divorced dad cock Right NOW
>>36335773Enough about boyfriends do you know socket programmingI'd give you a firm hi five for a program
Pp in butte>>36335781
>>36335788me too!!!!!
>>36335788Henlo nomiI passed my first semester.I hope you're doing good
>>36335794ARRRGHHHHfuuuuuuuuuuck girls im leakin coomies
>>36335792oh jesus fuck do itook an entire client server class in college, one of the big group projects was writing a mail server and i was the one who did the linux version socket codeand in the same class we had to do a simple file transfer program without using ftp, the requirement was just to send a text file so everyone else read the text file into the program whereas i decided to read the file proper as a bitstream and use markers to properly reassemble the data on the client. when i demonstrated it to the professor, instead of sending a text file saying "hello world", i sent Big Trouble in Little China.mkv lmao
>>36335798Grats!I'm good. Tired. Just inhaled a small pizza. Thinking about drinking booze or maybe just going to bed. Depends how entertaining certain autistic trannies are whom i somehow share a brother sister relationship with despite having different mothers and fathers.
>>36335809wowso ur like really smart and suchsexo nerdy boy
>>36335815no im a dorky faggot UGH
>>36335818Dorks are cute.
>>36335801Pp make slime
>>36335827My pp controls me like ratatouille. My pp: "Jane, stop this crazy thing."
>>36335836What's it think of paige?
>>36335842Lemme ask it.*shakes the magic pp*PP: YOU ARE THE SWORD OF MICHEAL!
>>36335809Dionia server ?
I am not a man, paige isn't interested in what she does to my pp. Like, if i was a man, she'd probably still be pretty upset to know, but a lot less.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZJYN1d3f2dc
Ugh. I have to stand up to go to bed.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iJhkOURiyss
god i hate the fucking albinautic town to get to the haligtreelol let's make u do parkour over a bunch of roof tops while invisible enemies that teleport away from attacks stalk youno that's not good enough, let's also add archers on all the rooftops that will hit u with pin point accuracy from 100 feet away while machine gunning arrows at u
Ahhh, anonymity. Finally i am safe to say some people have pretty bums.Like laf and shinji.
>>36332719>people have been delusional/mentally ill for over 100 yearswow what a surpriseyou know damn well this is only as popular as it is because of fetishism, trendiness, opportunists, and adjacent mental illnesses via the internet and "pride" acceptance/harassment. this is a rare disorder, and those who actually have it kill themselves out of shame, or because they're not actually being treated. affirming a sick persons delusions actually hurts them. especially when their delusion can never be a reality. a man can never be a women. so i ask again, how long does it take for people to grow out of this game of pretend? i understand that if he actually has "gender dysphoria" that he'll be dead soon, but that is not what i'm asking.
>>36336029We'll see cyborgs in our lifetimes, how are you going to cope with that if you can't deal with people taking hormones?
>>36336029it's inate to the structure of the brain, you're phrasing it like it's a choice.https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Causes_of_gender_incongruence#:~:text=The%20available%20research%20indicates%20that,in%20non%2Ddimorphic%20brain%20areas.If you do not understand what this means it means without hrt transwomen still have brain structures closer to female than male
>>36336064while cyborgs would be unsettling, at least they wouldn't be denying reality. it's one thing if someone just takes hormones to take them. it's the idea they hold in their mind that they are something they are not, something they can never be that is the issue. this thread is full of mtf trannies. i am sure you guys have seen a fellow tranny or know of trannies that have stopped with the charade and moved on. i just wanna know after how long do mtfs usually give it up. internet searches are not working.
>>36336029>waaaa waaaaa my friend trooned and i don't like it so I'm gonna air my frustrations to random Internet tranniesit's the impotence of it all that gets meu may not like trannies but ur def some kind of faggot
no1 likes me... le sigh...
>>36336086nah, i know people actually have this illness, but the recent rise in popularity is not natural, and is a result of the stuff i listed earlier. but while on the topic, do you feel affirmation of their gender identity is healthy? is it not similar to if i were to claim i were an alien from outer space. and the expectation was for everyone to acknowledge and treat me as if i were an alien from outer space?
cause of death: terminal manface
i feel like im on the brink of a panic attack rnneed 2 be cuddled desperately
>>36336140do you have a brain structure that is congruent with an alien?
Been getting bit by a lot of mosquitos recently but I managed to splat 1 just now and seeing my blood all over my finger from it was so satisfying
erm guys whatabout this random scenario unrelated to trannies, betchaa never heard this one beforeplacate to my imagined grievancesthat never actually happens?ok but what if????
>>36336151irrelevant. having a brain structure congruent to a females does not logically conclude the treatment is to "transition" and be accepted. because it won't fix the problem. their mind is in imagination land, while their bodies are in realityit's late, i have to sleep, i hope someone gives me a real answer. good night
also i copped a few cute earrings from hot topic yesterday..
>>36336178>having a brain structure congruent to a females she's not logically conclude (i think u mean to say imply) the treatment is to "transition" and be accepted no, decades of clinical data does, going back long before tranny acceptance was anything approaching mainstreambut let me guess, that's just because Big Trans has bought off the medical community right? for the past 50 odd years?
why are you guys even youing this grugoloidjust let go
>>36336184>peace earingsbasedthe rest are cute too
>>36332166Unironic question (not trying to stir up shit or anything), how many of you are sapphic/transbians?Did going on HRT change sexual preferences for some of you, or maybe it stayed more or less the same?
>>36336337i was bisexual leaning towards men, and estrogen made me bisexual leaning towards women
>>36336337was into women before, noticably less disgusted with the idea of liking men after hrt but still very much into women (also married) if you aren't actively repping your urges, hrt is *very* unlikely to change your preferences
>>36336337idk im just bii like boys n girlshrt made me more into men but also i think thats primarily bc i was v uncomfortable w being w a dude as another dudenot out of homophobia but out of disgust with myself
I deserve to be culled
honestly stressing over this move is probably gonna take a few days off my life
I know one day the sadness will endtoday is not that day
i feel like just calling myself a bottom does a better job of describing my sexuality than calling myself bi
my quads are still kinda destroyed two days later maybe i added too much weight last time. the pain feels kimda good tho.>>36336337always been bi, usually leaning towards guys for sex and women for companionship.
>>36336479>guys for sex and women for companionshiplol ya i feel that but only cuz it's like impossible to find guys that make me feel cared formust be too ugly ig
>>36336337I think estrogen's made me like women even more, honestly dunno how that shit works.
>>36336479gym pain feels so fucking good ugh
>>36336485or men aren't trained to care about other people from birth but women are
>>36336475YUP
>>36336475yeah but you can be bottom with men and women equally no?
How hard is it to get a cialis script
>>36336485guys can definitely be romantic and caring too but they tend to think v differently and have a hard time understanding emotions the same way. broadly generalising ofc.>>36336497yehhh...i wanna do more already but too sore still ;_;
>>36336512ya and I'm not too picky when it comes to that tho i guess i lean more towards men
>>36336524yaya recovery days r gudis good 2 pace urself :3
i shud start going to a gym been thinking it would be a good way to get my fix now that I'm not smoking weed anymoredid u know endorphins r like chemically the same as morphine? that's powerful stuff o_okinda scared about having to show up and ppl can see my scars and gyno thowish i could just have an at home treadmill, running is so good it always effs me up
been afraid to sleep lately for some reason :/
>>36336783what are you afraid of?
quick i need a surrogate for parental approval stat
>>36336785been having really vivid nightmares. they aren’t waking me up or anything but i do wake up covered in sweat and never feel rested. only started happening abt a month ago
>>36336813oh. yeah, i get you. i struggle falling asleep most of the time out of paranoia/anxiety, and usually the only thing that helps me is leaving on a light or leaving on a video to feel like i'm not alone. i hope you can sleep soon anon
>>36336818light & video are good ideas desu <3
>>36336813thats the worst ://sometimes sleeping w headphones playing classical music helps me sleep better
>>36336750i don't think i could handle going to a gym if there were other people around. i used to just do weights and bike at home now i go to this quiet private one around dead hours.
>>36336813i had that for a while, for me it only got better when i was doing better mentally and nothing helped until that changed, but i know people who had benefits from >>36336821 and other strategies like unironically not consuming 2 much sugar before bed
>>36336823>classical musicthat actually sounds lovely..>>36336832hardly consume anything as it is, however good to keep in mind! but ya i think i’m prob just stressed or sad or smth lame
>>36336827mm that's smartugh i used to live in an apartment complex with a gym that nobody used, i wish i still did
>>36336861c: ya i have a playlist of classical and movie soundtracks i likerly like the la la land soundtrack, the guy who did it Justin hurwitz is cool he also did the soundtrack for this Neil Armstrong movie called first man which i also likedugh there's this scene where they're landing on the moon and the song that plays is like the best in the whole movie its so good
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cS1yyhKDrcw
>>36336823>classical musiclike what
https://youtube.com/watch?v=zFYEYRcjK2g
>>36336876Debussy heh
>>36336876besides the movie soundtracks um lots of pieces i used to play on violin so it's kinda a mix of lots of composers, there's some dvorak, mozart, vivaldi, sibelius (suomi perkele!), umm debussy, liszt, satie, ravel oh and some chopin stuff um idk lots of thingsomg i almost forgot the Russians, i like tchaikovsky a lot also glazunov, i think there might be like one or two shostakovich pieces
>>36336862yeah that's the setup i have boomers love having gyms attached to their property to increase property value but don't use em.>>36336892lmaoo
>>36336875dang this is pretty good>>36336876I found out more about my future living situation todayam kinda utterly terrified although it's not actually bad
also schubert how could i forget
>come out>take hormones>start getting comfortable with body>hornier than ever>bisexual husband says he's ace now>been ongoing for 2 years now>completely dry for over a year>all of my flirting and blatant signs go right over Captain autismo's head>our relationship is OTHERWISE goddamn perfect>but jfc if someone doesn't rail me til I pass out I'm gonna lose my mindY'all... is my husband actually just gay???
>>36336926male aces are pretty sus
>>36336926he's gonna troon on u I'm calling it>t. was ace before hrt
>>36336892nice one but i do unironically like debussey>>36336903here are two pieces by Khachaturian to enjoy:https://youtu.be/jT3lCifXSk4?si=HO91yPu8GThK-P4zhttps://youtu.be/of5ebCY5__Q?si=r7zAHA7W36Exien9>>36336909what’s the news ??
ughhhhhhhh im feeling so fucking neurotic tn
>>36336926talk to him about your needs. if your relationship is otherwise great maybe he'd be willing to let you get plowed by fwb or something if he doesn't wanna step up.i'd advice against poly or open tho those basically never work long term.
>>36336949huh I'm not familiar with him, thanks c:listening now
>>36336880yeh ._.
>>36336949hey this first one is beautiful omgi don't know that much abt soviet composers besides shostakovich ballet music is rly wonderful c:omg any evangelion fans in the chat? did u know anno originally wanted this song to be the theme song, and then it actually ended up getting used in rah xephon lmao idk if that was an accident but it rly makes the copying seem that much more blatant (tho i like rah xephon)https://youtu.be/EsFbMYzYScY?si=PTqdcV_IhD8v1M35
>>36336960pls lmk what you think
>>36336955Yea I am (and always have been) too insecure to ever do a poly. Too much pain in my past, particularly with cheaters. I don't have any friends rn due to having just moved to a new state. I broached the subject today after one of my coworkers flirting with me (ignoring my ring) completely shorted me out for a few minutes. He seems receptive to just doing it for me but that makes me feel pushy which is kind of a turn-off in its own right. I want him to just kinda toss meeeee>>36336939I would... earnestly be extremely surprised. We've been together for 10 years so the ace thing is very new. Maybe he's sorting some things out. Eeegh
>>36336949apparently we're moving in a few monthsin the words of my cousin I'm "getting the whole basement to myself"hoping this will ultimately be a good changebut I cant help but catastrophize
>>36336880https://youtu.be/v1qKy4cMPUI
I'M AAAAA TWINKHONIM A PERMA MANMODERRRRFRRWHAT THE HELL AM I DOING HERE
>>36336983>He seems receptive to just doing it for me but that makes me feel pushy which is kind of a turn-off in its own right.yeahh if they don't have their heart in it it's like impossible for me to get into it. may as well just use toys solo at that point.>>36336998at least you aren't a post twinkdeath twinkhon like some of us.
>>36337005lol in order to experience twinkdeath one must have first experienced twinklifepuberty hit hard at 15 and ive been an ugly bastard ever since trying to be a cute gay boy never even occurred to me cuz i already knew i was way too ugly to be cute
>>36337016i've been ugly since i was like 8 it was over before it ever begun. then again beauty is in the eye of the beholder some ppl genuinely like 'unique' looking ppl.
>>36337026>i've been ugly since i was like 8iktf
>>36336977you may also likehttps://youtu.be/INVINWzdOrk?si=Krk2LpVTw-zfxGDPhttps://youtu.be/EskV-SzSb5I?si=D9lrGhfzkQxxFU1Lhttps://youtu.be/dbbtmskCRUY?si=KZ_mhnv5at6YRWbK
>>36336991https://youtu.be/gHlRDrT3XpE?si=2i8o8N32XDLB4nAs
>>36336987this is excellent news having your own space is a huge improvement congratulations !!
>>36337026aw well I'm not trying to one up u or anythingi think i looked ok as a kid, ppl would always call me cute and tell me i looked like my motherthen after puberty whenever i looked in the mirror i saw a hideous rape ogre lol i wish i could put into words how much my own face disgusted mei still see that hideous face leering back at me when i look in the mirror desu, even tho ppl tell me i look different nowlike the ugliest scariest most ill intentioned man u could possibly imagine, esp when i try to smile i think oh god i look like I'm about to go out and start rape calling ppl
>>36337044https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fMDr_luEqS8
>>36337049sad to read you are quite pretty
>>36337061hugbox cope sneed etc
>>36336998hmm
>>36337049i also always got told i look like my mom and i guess i sorta do but like a worse version in every way lol. fwiw i think you look cute but i understand it doesn't rly matter what other ppl think for ur self perception.>i wish i could put into words how much my own face disgusted mesame. it's incredibly upsetting to try and be the best version of yourself when you viscerally hate your own reflection.>smile yeah my face looks uncanny with just about all facial expressions. everything looks forced.
>>36337048yeahmaybe I can actually develop some hobbies n shitI think I need some sort of direction that isn't just floating downstream towards the inevitable rapidswas told I'm also getting a bedand the new place is in the same area I was in when I was living with my mom and brother before moving herewhich is pretty close by where I am currently tootrying to be optimistic about all this at least before I see how it is firsthand
>>36337052https://youtu.be/dy6neKO-8sk?si=KO0d1d7gGgVSjDnG
>>36337063-___->>36337075this is going to be a major step forward
>>36337070>it's incredibly upsetting to try and be the best version of yourself when you viscerally hate your own reflectionomg right i just could not be bothered abt anything except the things that scared meeven now a lot of times i feel like i'm IDK chasing a phantom or smth, like trying to improve myself, be prettier, look more like a woman, idk it's all pretty much unattainable and even if things did get better i probably wouldn't even be able to see it for myself
my weight has plateaued for the last like 3 weeks bc ive been drinking a lotbut also like my waist has been continuing to slim down over these weeksi do not understand this
>hungry>too scared to leave the house>no food delivery availablethis place sucks.>>36337107ur gaining muscle to replace fat?
>>36337129i dont see how though im still eating at an extreme caloric deficit
>>36337129why scared
매일같이열풍이불더니드디어내허리에큼직한손이와닿는다.황홀한지문골짜기로내땀내가스며드자마자쏘아라. 쏘으리로다.나는내소화기관에묵직한총신을느끼고내다물은입에매끈매끈한총구를느낀다.그리더니나는총쏘으드키눈을감으며한방총탄대신에나는참나의입으로무엇을내어배앝았더냐.
>>36337153i look awful and don't want people to see me. when i was going to the shops few days ago at night some guy on the street laughed when i was nearby idk if it was at me since i didn't rly look at him to see what he was doing but it sent brain worms into overdrive.
>>36337026you don't type like and uggo (lol)
>>36337075you have nothing to lose to be hopeful about it, all signs are good
Good Morning frens, hope you are all having a comfy weekendMoid smell has disappeared just in time for the heatwave, wagmi!! :>
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NIt5A36YhYwwuuoooooww
>>36337086:)>>36337193good point
>>36337176this reminds me i need to start learning korean already. i rly like 슈카월드 and wanna be able to listen his stuff in the background instead of relying on subs. and tune in on lck in the native lang when they got weak international casters on.>>36337185what did (s)he mean by this?
>>36337075things are looking up friend, am glad :)
>>36337177poor friend reading this hurts
UGH
Does anyone have any experience with these? I hate anal, and I found these tonight I kinda like ithttps://transsensation.de/en-intThey're expensive almost $350 after tax but hey, it's better than anal.
>>36337334what how
>>36337334dunnae what this is but i saw the grape fruit when i opened the page and immediately thought about this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2v_1rty5JpE
>>36337405my thoughts exactly
>>36337420i think that was intentional bc i thought of that too lmao
>>36337275honestly surprised it's been so many years since i've had a negative experience w strangers. guess the lucky streak had to end at some point. but yeh not ready to leave the house yet guess my self image is just that fragile.>>36337334????>>36337420same lmao.>"i hate anal but found this">grapefruitbrain rot too strong.
>>36337430well the influencer review video on their site offered no answersso I found her YT channel and the vid in the site must have been from ages agosince then her bf at the time seems to have trooned on her
>>36337473>since then her bf at the time seems to have trooned on her
>>36337435wait wait waitI was saying it hurts to read you being so painfully self-consciousI do not think that guy was laughing at you
>>36337477(1) yes poor girl wtf I’m sorry straight mtfs have to deal w that(2) I like that reference to Mike Stoklasa
>>36337484>Mike Stoklasawho? i thought that was a picture of a horribly aging homeless man
>>36337477i have to say that is not a good angle unless it's an attempt at diy ffs.>>36337478impossible to know at this point. and desu i don't care as much about what some random guy thinks but it just reminded me of what i am and how i feel about it.
people from mtfg back in the day used to say I looked like Rich Evans
>>36337506I think we’re talking about the same person
>>36337520>impossible to knownot really, it’s overwhelmingly unlikely that stranger was laughing at you but yeh the issue is not thatit’s that you’re in such a deep pit of self loathing>>36337526nah I don’t think so
>>36337536I don't think so either but mean things hurt
>>36337546kind of a tangent but it seems like Rich had a fairly tough life as a kid but he seems like the smartest and mist insightful member of RLM and he’s my fav
Crying rn. Face hurts
>>36337526didn't you use to present fem back then? i remember when faceapp came out and the fem filter looked almost identical to the pic it used as a ref. slightly fuller hair and smoother skin but it does that to everyone.>>36337536maybe but it is what it is. every psychiatrist i've seen just basically says i need to accept how i look but that seems like giving up on ever improving my self image which is immensely depressing.my moms been trying to push me towards seeing a psych again but i tell her its going to be a waste of money. been down that road so many times with exactly the same results every time. that money is better spent on just about anything else.
this car looks like a zaku wtf>>36337586why
>>36337649Start my new job on Monday. Not ready to go back to work
>>36337664oh yeah that's super anxiety inducingwhat are you gonna be doing
>>36337625>didn't you use to present fem back then? i remember when faceapp came out and the fem filter looked almost identical to the pic it used as a ref. slightly fuller hair and smoother skin but it does that to everyone.I still do, I just don't wear makeup because it just accentuates my male features
>>36337625I think you can simultaneously ease up on the self loathing and stay committed to self improvement, there’s no contradiction there>>36337664that’s good new Pring enjoy this weekend but don’t dread your new start
>>36337691not even subtle stuff like bb cream and a bit of eyeliner?>>36337702i think my motivation to improve is deeply tied to hatred of current self. like either i'm ok with the way i am or i'm not and i have to change. how can one ease up on that?
>>36337716I’m very very very very skeptical that any productive motivation to improve can really be founded on self hatredif anything, self hatred simply seems to justify stagnation / rotting and excuse failure to progress, as well as leading to self sabotage
>>36337716>not even subtle stuff like bb cream and a bit of eyeliner?no, I look bad. this was from a few years ago when I stopped.I'm deleting this in a minute.
>>36337763Why does my makeup always look best in the morning after I fell asleep with it on
>>36337785Oop Didn't mean to reply sorry for fake (you)
>>36337785its possibly because its rubbed off a little, try dusting your face with a dry brush after you're finished
>>36337791o-oh.
emma is such a fucking passoid
>>36337732idk how to derive motivation from anything else unfortunately. things like improving self for the benefit people i care about ultimately comes down to current self being inadequate and ruining every interaction i have with other people simply by me being present.very self centered i know.>>36337763looks like rather heavy makeup which rarely looks good on ppl unless they're like ultra-smoothskins to begin with.for regular ppl subtle stuff that doesn't really even look like much makeup tends to work better imo. bit of liner/shade around the eyes to make them look bigger, bit of bb cream to make skin tone more even but not completely even otherwise it collects in fine lines and wrinkles and looks off.for the 10+ uv index aus weather solid skincare routine at night, strong suncreen for day and neutral setting powder to remove the spf shine worked ok for day to day imo.>>36337785same. i think it's because it smudges off a bit for a more natural look.
lost my advilits over
>>36337814>strong suncreen for day and neutral setting powder to remove the spf shine worked ok for day to day imo.might give that a try. am old and ugly tho.
>>36337837time makes old ppl of us all.
>>36337814I think genuine motivation to improve comes from self esteemit’s a feeling of wanting to do better not bc you are unworthy but to the contrary precisely bc you areand really all improvement that endures comes down to the joy of improvement itself rather than the misery of self loathing
i want to sui :'(make my heart suddenly stop god, please buddy, stop tormenting me, i am sorry
>>36337858I am hoping that once I graduate I will save up to get ffs + srs by the time I'm 45 so I am at least happy for a decade or two.
>>36337878i think that's a cup half full cup half empty kinda distinction. i try to improve not because i deserve better but because i want to escape the abject misery of being like this. same function, same outcome.i don't feel anything positive about myself, never have and at this point i don't think i'm even capable of that. the whole positive self talk thing is at an impass of trying to conjure even one neutral objective/factual tatement about myself that isn't also a negative to me subjectively. all of this negativity is endlessly frustrating and tiresome. i fully understand why psychiatrists throw in the towel and why it's best that i don't talk about any of this stuff with people who are invested in my wellbeing.>>36337967how's your credit/finances? could maybe get a loan for it to improve quality of life now and then spend that time paying it off instead of saving while suffering. saving money with the way inflation is going is going to be working against you with surgery prices hiking up as well over time.like i would have enough to see the the french guy snew went to with the prices she paid but he jumped the price by 50% so i can't afford it anymore.
i need a fucking lobotomy dude i hate my brain so muchi cant wait to traumadump on my therapist after ffsalso i still cant find my advil sob
>>36338010bad and I don't pass and I'm useless which is why I haven't had a job in ten years
Think random ass seating tickets for XCX arena show is worth? Also 2 hour drive each way. Think worth? worried. pls rspond
can't stop listeninghttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0q3K6FPzY18
>>36338170send it desu
i want to die :'(
goodnight
found my advili love being alive!!!!!!!!!
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