traumatic brain injury edition QOTT: what were we talking about anyway?
>>37183984prev >>37160538
>>37183984I MISS HER
she's not coming back
>>37184029of course not and if she showed up in my life again I'd fucking kill myself on the spot but still
I killed her
>>37183101Imagine the smell
>>37184038if that were true I'd kill you
>>37184069Her pussy was so loose i couldnt even get off in her after she croaked kekI wore a condom too i didn’t want to catch anything
>>37183984you all wanting to fuck me?idki got a brain injury
>>37184081how rotten was she you sick fucker of microbial waste
>>37184081last time I googled her she changed her name, probably has a family and hasn't thought about me in years
who up in hell?
I will die only having really been with one person and that's fine, I would prefer it had been none so I hadn't been ruined
i never google himlast i did he had a wife, a house, and an adaptive daughter...fuck... why wasn't i born with some intelligence to see he wanted me so fucking hard?!?
>>37184115nothings up in hell...i mean the sulfur rain is light lately so that's kinda a positive
I miss her
>>37184099Ozempic
4th night in a row of fried slop
>>37184249i wish i could eat literally anything rn my stomach has been growling for hours but i don't feel even a little hungry
Which one of you posted the big tits on r9k
one day my intestines will rupture in a torrent of putrifying scum and acidic bile will melt through the decrepit skeleton that, at one point in time, could have been considered a human being
>>37184303People be posting nudes there? But skip us? OK who was it, let's string em up and burn the witch.
>>37184203only if it makes you love menobody will ever love me, or even like mewanna cuts so fuckign hard
>>37184323Fly me out baby
>>37184304>that ... could have been considered a human beingstop coping alreadybut sure if, it happens please direct it towards me to consume this monstrous blob of fat and... well, just fat, ok?
>>37184338might but ik nobody would ever
>>37184304happens to the best of us
>>37184303link
>>37184304same worstie metabolic life is disgusting
>>37184388>>>/r9k/78724039
>>37184281real and same>>37184323bigger same going to get high and bleed
AGP they/she gigarapehon oiling up big round they/hefab butts
>>37184427ugh
>>37184359You have me on discord just send the tickets hottie i will pack my fisting gloves
big booby man
>>37184404Size mogs basically all of us, shape is too be desired though.
>>37184526This is a worksafe board...
>>37184498
>>37184538We post tits all the time stfu bitch
>>37184538what's work?!?wtf...>>37184472omg!
>>37184526yeah well camwhoring is b& on r9k so lol whatever
>>37184526Is this the native american with the furry tattoo Good for her her hair mogs
>>37184594That's me and I posted an unsee and then someone just posted what I put there on r9k
>>37184610oh fairmogs me lmao
>>37184597No, I'm the native with good hair and tattoos. FURRY!? it's a black bear for my native name, I'm not a furry lmao.
>>37184610post in my dms instead?>>37184643at leasat post tattoos?
cock pox
a pox upon your cocks
any nurglemoders
im both autobisexual (i think it's hot im bisexual) and biautosexual (agp + aap)
i don't have THAT many STDs
the only STD I have is Terminal Oneitis
>>37184776I'm more of a slaaneshmoder but a pussy coward one
it's a skill issue at this point
anyone wanna date an actual manmoder whos old and looks like a warrior?
>>37184717Watching a movie rn, I'll post em after.
>>37184870post pics coward
>>37184877i get nothing out of posting myself on 4chan
>tfw too ugly for mmxmm relationshit
god it's all i fucking want
should I order pizza or microwave indian or ramen or fucking starve myself because I'm a fat disgusting piglike in appearance
warrior girl moder
>>37184984Now I wanna costume as like pocahontas for Halloween or some shh
>>37184870>>37184984bump
shut UP
Wants a mmg relationship, doesn't wanna post manmoder body
I can't wait for you to shut me up
>>37185110I'm the opposite, not actually willing to entertain a relationship with anyone due to emotional trauma but post my body all the time
>>37185118Yeah im over relationships at this point. I'm just a whore, both irl and online here.
>>37185194oh irl sex or hookups without a relationship is completely off the table for me, absolute terror
I'm dyingalonecore so fucking hard rn
>>37185199oh it's fine i do it all the time and nothing THAT bad has happened
>>37185209external and physical consequences be damned my heart couldn't take it, I'm just not wired that way I guess despite being astonishingly shallow
>>37185199Chudette, it's time to move on. Have sex, have sex, have sex.
>>37185220shut up you don't know it's me trauma dumping and repeating that I miss her I can't I can't I can't
no one wants to plap a skelehon
who else livin in black mold and silverfish and flyes
>>37185228Bro I've been through this before. I'm Yoda trying to teach you the ways. But I can only warn you of the dangers of continuing down the path of the dark side. Only you can defeat the pull of it, and beat the image of your horrors(vader/your ex). You come out awoken, more powerful and sure of the light than ever. Become grandmaster Luke.
you know you can have cirrhosis and be asymptomatic for months? i thought that was interesting?
solo liver failure arc
>>37185368I just can't, the first person I caught feels for years later it blew up in my face the same way without us even being involved in any real way that wasn't just projection or in my head or her being "polite" and I still couldn't let go my ex and the guilt of feeling anything for anyone else even during the throes of ruining my own life and others' around me over that, I'm just chemically one and done and now it's over for me I had my time and now I get to spend my time alone
a man with sensitive vampiric skin and veiny tits is a hard sell even without the terminally self-isolating neuroses
it's all so wack and corny
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N9qYF9DZPdw
https://unseecc/album#ezeEX3IVeOsB>>37184717Here you go, my 4 tats. Dismiss the bumps I epilated the tattoos for the pics, and the hair more than an inch everywhere else I leave for my body laser. I want more tats, but am waiting for after I'm satisfied with laser everywhere.
>>37185693of all the things in the world
>>37185693How are you a manmoderAlso I would choke you with my transbian arms
>>37185693f*kemoderok but I love the tats
>>37185711Wait till I'm done. I plan on adding a couple of my sons favorite cartoon shows too, trolls and word party lmao. And more of my favs too, Powerpuff girls, Harley Quinn and ivy, bulma, courage the dog, cat dog, scooby, sailor moon.>>37185712I wrote a whole long paragraph about how I am and why, but it's all the same bullshit everybody says. It boils down to me being a coward and not being able to come out and present how I want. Also yes, choke me.>>37185750Ty, I want moree
still haven't seen a realmoder
realmoders don't post themselves
the sheer number of psychiatric diagnoses i have received is absurd
>>37186028im a pure manmoder.
>>37186172I want to start wearing crop tops.. I love the look of them.
>>37186206a lil tit growth and they start looking ok, b4 i wasn't too happy with it.
i can't own any single piece of feminine clothing without feeling like a perverted rapehon
>>37186305people irl expect me to dress like a woman now it's i dunno kinda nice but alil frustrating cuz i still feel like i look hyper masc.
>>37185693niiice :Dlooks like a total girl too...
>>37186003I'm an estromale
>>37186003newfag>>37186172*stares*>>37186206same but to old, too fat, too ugly
i think im going to be alone forever and it makes me sadi don't think i can connect with other pplmy antenna must be broken
>>37187425I am s orry that you have cptsd
>>37187425"man"moder
I disgust myself
feel like pure shit just want the beer drinkin hat
>couple outside arguing loudly>heard her literally screaming at him calling him a faggot>watched her swing on him a couple timesI'm really lonely but man I don't miss those moments of being with or in any way answerable to anyone else, bitches be crazy
>>37187783this is why you should date nerdy men
luv mensimple as
i'm afraid of the consequences of my drinking so i have to drink to quell the fear
>>37187783Maybe he was sucking a niggas dick and she caught himThats why she was calling him a faggot and beating himYou go girl beat his ass!
>>37183984>qottwe were talking about on how to make chudette post tummy every thread
>>37187425the first pic where you actually resembles a guy
>>37184643>FURRY!? Oops lmao
>>37187854maybe, they can be shitty in their own ways
I love being woken up in the middle of the night by something then every time I start to fall back asleep my brain suddenly posts cringe and I'm stuck emotionally reliving the worst most invalidating things girls I've loved in the past have said or done to hurt me
>>37185110I do not want to show my bulging bicepsI legit look like a man in a dress
>>37184526Nurturing mommy boobs lmao. Having a cis guy say this about my body would be wonderful. Enjoy your beautiful big milkers anonette. At least one of us here got blessed with big tits.
it ain't what it ain't
>a close up of a person wearing glasses, soft femme, channeling mana, long messy curly hair, creative coder with a computer, chris chan, happily tired, hello, 2 4 years old, castlevania witch, from a 2 0 1 9 sci fi 8 k movie, yo, streaming, tileable texture, no hat, mexican, curious expression, from sonicim going to kill myself.
>>37189396post medallion
it was what it was
it will never be what could have been
it was never going to have been what it could have once but never was
it don't be like that
they think it be like it is, but it don't
it do be like that sometimes
it's something or other anyway
it simply isn't.
Well my parents found out I'm trans and I'm about to go over and talk to them about it in a few hours
gl anonette
>>37190164if things go poorly remember to go for the femoral and carotid arteries first and consider having a dinner party to invite others to directly participate in disposing of the evidence
>>37183984i got my skull smashed open with a brick when I was 6 and I turned out fine :3
>>37190164
you don't look like haman THOUGH
>>37190446haman?
>left boob is slighly smaller than right boobkms
>>37190555mine trade places like its a competition.
>>37190555Normal, even in cis woman. They even out for the most part over time, which is years. People don't even notice really, it's just ourselves that are always looking too closely.
>>37190599lol funny mental imageso it could vary? Im considering doing workouts to see if they even out or something (probably cope desu)>>37190609true, I shouldn't worry so much, it's not really noticeable with my top on or anything, I worry too muchhhhh
>>37190629sometimes my left tit hurts for a week and then it'll swap to the right they just grow when they wanna
>>37190647god why do bodies have to be so confusinghopefully they turn out well for everyone :3
>>37183984I often read texts if people with similar lives as mine and then out of nowhere I will feel as if what they describe just doesn’t matter or apple to me at allIt can be anything the love for a song or a story about someone me feeling but every time I will often feel as if that simply cannot be me and I cannot ever understand what they are saying.Anime manga games artI cannot relate to anythingDeath sadness suicidal ideationNot even those thoughts of mine seem that they are expressedIt’s a veil of fakeness that seems to be stuck on me permanentlyMy own identity and existence seem fakeMy own memories seem distant and vagueMy whole life is just an empty desert
even if someone magically told me they have a romantic interest in me id just get angry and tell them to fuck off or something then be sad i keep sabotaging for myself and then reconvince myself it's the right thing to do because it is the right thing to do
>>37190744wow literally me! the perfect girl could materialize on my lap begging to fuck me and build a life with me and I'd accuse her of making fun of me or fucking with me and drive her away as fast as possible, even sacrificing my dignity and lifelong friendships in the process
>>37190555this is very normal>>37190647same, it's rare for them both to hurt at once, but I know when they both start getting physically hot to the touch and just kind of mildly dully aching I'm about to get moody
smoke weemd
>>37190825
>in university research group>one gay guy>me, a manmoder>three other womenfaggiest group of all frfrfrfr
>>37191255is he hot thowhat are you researching?
>>37191264the gay guy? not reallytaller than me (6'2) but overall quite a large person>what are you researchingcan't really say :)anyways I hate being in university and having to do all my academic things under my male name
>>37191284>taller than me (6'2) but overall quite a large personhot
>>37191255bet you'll get the best work done and best scores, though, I remember how it was before I dropped out
>>37191363that's true, most guys are really competitive, annoying to work with and also lazy, it's easier with women and gay men>>37191299if he lost weight maybe
>>37191382>if he lost weight maybeunhot
>>37191284>taller than me (6'2) but overall quite a large personI'd suck his dick so fucking hard ugh
>>37191409gay guys give me the ick
>>37191415he sounds hot though maybe unless he's super fem or something
>>37191415im a gay guy
>>37191431no not really, very slight fagcent and he doesn't 'advertise' being gay>>37191441same
>>37191443>no not really, very slight fagcent and he doesn't 'advertise' being gaythat sounds nice then
i have a strong fagcent and advertise being gay
>>37191479me toobut I'm on estrogen so it's fine
Hwhat differentiates a boymoder from a manmoder?
>>37191645boymoders have potential to pass and we manmoders don't or have much less.
some day i hope to hold hands with a nerdy manmoderof course using protection! nitrile gloves as i hate latex :(((
i have potential to passkidney stones
>>37191709brave of you!heard it's painful like infinite fucks
>>37191719twas merely a prank
>>37191775
>>37191719its not really a choice
>>37191816luv apusimple as
you don't look like apu THOUGH
i hate installing and fixing windows into something i can tolerate using :(i'm a bad computer nerd nowadays, spent like the whole day setting up a computer for my mom, and got so tired i've not set up my "new" computer :(
auxiliary power unit
>>37191881do you use arch btw?
loonix is for fagsuse a real OS, like windows 11
i have been using macos since 2016 or so
nobody needs anything more advanced than XP Pro x64
>>37183984QOTT Today i got dressed and left the house ! i went to the vintage store to find shoes to go with mu suitA black guy kissed his teeth at me is that bad
>>37191866hims is very comfy
>>37192013looks like you're built for BBC
>>37192055Nope i made an effort to dress masc so i could flirt with the store owner. he must have noticed my painted nails or something
>>37192153yeeeeh. my nails is always painted and black girls tell me it pretty much means u down to get fucked by black dudes.
I don't really discriminate but that is not a thing
black girls are really nice to me but white women recoil in disgust
>>37192177Hehe true i guess thats why chuddie wears black nail polish all the timeI have light pink because i like white guys with cool undertones the most
>>37191910i should nglwhen i get my new machine up and running (windoze) i'll go for linuxon my older machine... was far too long ago i used unix :(((>>37191920or amiga os
>>37192024you're very comfy(or you appear to be i'm sorry)>>37192210i almost feel racist thinking black tranners generally are hot. then i remember what my racist friend thinks about that...>>37192238post nails?my therapist suggested i should paint my nails idk so bought a set of colors... and hated painting them ;_; was ultra bad at it, maybe that's the cause
ever notice how black tranners are almost entirely hsts
>>37192606Tyler perry is agp kek
>>37192606idk? maybeare manmoders male enough to attract hsts? asking for ugly, old, disgusting, mentally retarded friend... ok enemy but(t) still
anyone wanna date an amazonmoder
once I finish university I'll never leave my room again
i hate being a young manmoder
WHEN I WAS
>>37192847you were able to do uni so youre a literal normie
A YOUNG MODER
>>37183984duhhhh buhhh i feel like a literal retard after falling on my head 6 years ago how do i make my brain woprk normal agian
>>37192912bet you're a hot fem boymoder>>37192949idk but alcohol will not helpt. cognitively challenged retard
>>37192949you just gotta hit it opposite to where you hit it last time and it should bonk your brain back into placet. fact checked by true american patriots
anyone wanna date an old amazon manmoder that is crazy
but enough about me
transition made me uglier. i looked better with a beard. people liked me more back then. i was never feminine as kid. there were no signs. im a faketrans mentally ill male shy boy
>>37193024yes but i doubt you'd want to date me
>>37193066i would
>>37192831Yes, for the love of god yes. Manmoder4manmoder brown4brown
>>37193141i legit look strong af would date someone
brown manmoders got me bricked up
>>37193153Well I'm not short or anything, and although skinny I wouldn't consider myself a twink. So if you are strong enough to pick me up yes yes yes.
>>37193183i def am im a amazon
i only like whites because im not weird
>>37192514i went to a greenway and walked a few miles.
>>37193161Ong the few browns here are sexy asf. We need more. Someone go out and recruit.
I spend 90% of my days procrastinating. Wtf is wrong with me
audhd niggas is lazy
>>37183984can't be procrastinating if you genuinely have nothing to do in the first place.
i thought about coming out to a friend or maybe family so i would have no excuse not to improve my situation, but i know in my infinite laziness i would procrastinate even still. i should be lobotomized.
>>37183984Today i figured out the secret Manmoding is easy you just act like a guyI know that sounds very simple but if you don’t overthink it it’s actually super easy
>>37193831worked for me. i told one then two and eventually everyone knew.
https://youtu.be/yXIJcNHkhEU?si=lwMwR87mZd-l0f0z
>>37193963the humiliation would be too crushing. if someone found out now i think it would push me to suicide
>>37193986its rough but it makes u improve. i really need ffs but its like my body is doing a lot better and my presence is more fem now.
>>37194000who did you tell first? i don't have many people irl
>>37194099work frens. my bestie then my second bestie.
my baldspot is itchy
>>37194323may i scratch it?
>>37193050same except I hid it fearfully after being shut down for wanting to be feminine at a very young age and I didn't really look better with a beard it just hid my lack of chin>>37194323same mpbestie
>>37194106>i don't have any of those
>>37183984No Injuries No damages. Restore all back perfectly.amd give him his life back and leave him.alone. or show him how everything works. Ander him enjoy his life. Fuck you people dead serious
>>37194361oh i got a lot of frens irl. try smiling and being bubbly.
>>37194106>work frensDo yoy mean your SUPPLIER or your CUSTOMERS
>>37194330...yes
>>37194424u still on that kick that i'm a drug merchant?
>>37194454Up and down the east coast in a toyota and meeting up with black women all the timeI know you are moving weight from Georgia to new york and back, your secret is safe with me baby girl <3
Possibly outed myself to one of my brothers today. I joined a clan on runescape, and they were doing huge giveaways on discord for it. So I invited my brother to clan in game and he joined discord. Didn't even think about how my discord is all queer, she her pronouns, girls name, picture lmao. Might be able to play it off like I'm pretending, cause I used to do that back in school too. He hasn't said anything though, so maybe he already suspected or just doesn't realize.
he has known for the longest time but he hasn't said anything out of secondhand embarrassment jsykt. same sitch
>>37194647I have several siblings, all younger. He's the closest in age to me. It would hit him the hardest both for that and cause he's also the most religious. Not like hateful religious, but idk if he understands trans people whatsoever.
>>37194615he knows
>>37194692for sure.
>>37194471oh btw i just cleaned the interior its still in nearly mint condition for a 27 year old car.
>>37193371How does anyone wear bras they suck so much I hate them
>>37194615Post rsn
>>37194870i started wearing them day 1 like my dr told me to and now i feel strange without one, also my nipples are insane so if i go without u see them pretty bad.
>>37192979>bet you're a hot fem boymoderno I have a buzz cut
>>37194883Yeah mood I still hate them tho like fuck it people can just see mine I ain't wearing them out they make my tits look mega obvious
i developed a fetish for amazonians once i realized i am one
>>37194912yeah u can see the outline of my boobs even worse without one so its not something i go out in public without almost ever.
>>37194870I know, they fucking suck. I've been getting more comfortable walking around with my boobs poking out cause I just can't stand the sports bras anymore. >>37194875Rs3 - Tiny BigfootOsrs - A Cute VampyI've won like 2b from this rs3 clan I joined yesterday lmao. I had only 2 mil before I joined. My brother won like 300 mil today too.
>>37194926snusnumoder...
>>37195074You watched the new season yet? Just finished cell saga dbz yesterday, so gonna jump into new Futurama tonight.
>>37194870I am an autogynephile and I get aroused from wearing them. The discomfort is secondary.
>>37194961I don't play rs3 Osrs - THshadow>>37194941I feel like it makes no difference so do it based on comfort, pic related
>>37195074i embrace my primitive brain
that's the Manmoders' Room... it's repression for the medical transitioner
>>37194805BasedYou are one of the best in this general 5 star rating from me
can't believe I trooned at 20 years of age instead of just killing myself at 10 like I wanted to
>>37195479
can't believe I trooned at 30 years of age instead of just believing in myself at 10 like I wanted to
I’m going on a date next week (bragging) what would be a cool first date someone help
>>37195861jump into a woodchipper feet first together while holding hands
do you think dakota has a 'white lives don't matter' poster close to a hotep flag
>>37195901Noooo that will hurtI have only ever been on one date and he made walk across the city in leather high heel boots on a trek to the imax theater to watch the restoration of Brazil The date was boring
>>37195914ok I got an idea you both get guns and put them under each other's chins and pull the triggers I hate you I hate anyone who gets to be with anyone or have a chance at happiness
>>37195927Sis you have decided to be single on your on accord on account of a hoe who never loved you…. its your own choice chudette i dont need to shoot myself in the head because you choose to be miserable.
>>37195938you're right, sorry, how about each being lowered into vats of different balance acids as a bonding/dissolving experience
i love my bf so much :)
also I didn't tell you to shoot yourself in the head, retard, I told you to shoot your date
I love how we can all easily spot chudette when it comes to this topic.
fffffffffffffuck you no you can't you don't KNOW
>>37195982He is too kind and sweet no thanksAlthough i think he is a bot or a scammer maybe. i am so brainwormed i cant accept that someone might like meIts a indian larping with ai probably who am i kidding
>>37196108please at least consider the woodchipperhave you seen pictures? do you both have things and places you've discussed that are real and corroborate a physical presence?
What do you feel when called a man?What do you feel when you see your beard shadow in the mirror, that moustache hair mocking you by never disappearing? To wake up and feel this weight on your entire body and just go yep that’s me? To realize how male you are at the bus station just standing there and knowing that yep I’m male, I act look and behave like one?What is it like to be dysphoric for you?
>>37196142
>>37196122We live in the same city and i made him send a vid holding the tv remote by his face to confirm he’s realBut it could be aiIts like someone figured a bunch of things out about me and made them into a characterMaybe i am crazy idk
>>37196147my advice is play it at face value and give it an earnest shot but keep a backup plan and don't put yourself into vulnerable or uncomfortable positions, and also consider playing the grab-a-cop's-gun game as a great way of getting know each other
>>37196142beard shadow? i'm like 4 or 5 laser treatments in, bout to get another on wednesday
>>37196172Thanks for the advice>also consider playing the grab-a-cop's-gun game as a great way of getting know each otherWhats that mean
>>37196181I’ve been wanting to get laser since I started hrt, but between Monet and anxiety over going to a clinic it has fallen offNow I hate myself twice.
Damn yall really that scared to meet people? I was sucking dick on concrete in a locked little separated garage with nothing in it but a couch and TV with some random off grindr a few months ago. Actually.. maybe I should be careful..
>>37196289Baby being a slut is easy i did it for years this man wants to marry me i think he’s devoted after 24 hrs it is so suspicious it has to be an indian
>>37196265i got problems with neither. hrt makes me a hotshot bitch i do what i want. honfidence is real
>>37196305I get those moments but no my confidence is very low.I’m jealous
imagine being worth anyone's sincere interest or desire
>>37196305it did the opposite i'm even more of a pussy now because i hate every facet of my appearance
>>37196878i stopped caring.
>>37196923Mfw dakota is living an authentic life
need dakota to tear into my neck with them fangs
>>37197032mogs me
>>37194870samewhen i started wearing less tight ones it improved but still :(even with padding my nipples get crushed ;_;>>37194805what car is it?>>37194888buzzed women can be attractive af, femininity isn't based on hair alone>>37195959lmao
>>37197687
>>37197743ooh nice and shiny :D
>>37197757ty
kill the girl inside of you
kill the liver inside you
>>37197743Cuuute :3
my internet provider caught me and sent me a notice :( what is the cheapest VPN or proxy?
>>37198499what did you do?
>>37198499i don't know if it's the cheapest but expressvpn is really good.
https://www.nicovideo.jp/watch/sm14816900god i wish i were a farm girl>>37198542torrent Schindler's list using YTS dot MX
>>37195230What country are you from? Someone in my school used the same username
>>37199027never seen that one, how was it?
my parents and i finally finished planning out how we'll be able to afford all the surgeries i need.>2024 - mid 2025study a 100% course at a swedish people's college and save 90% of my student grant into an investment fund (about 10k total). i'll also work extra at a convenience store or something and use an app where people pay me to walk their dogs.>mid 2025 - mid 2026work a full time job and save 90% of my income into the same investment fund. having a full time job will also allow me to take large a bank loan, not sure how much i could take out but hopefully 50k isn't too unreasonable.my dad also has around 7k in crypto investments which will hopefully go up when the economy recovers. that money can be put into the investment fund as well.>mid 2026 - 2028move to norway and work at any full time job that pays really well. norway has a different economy than sweden and people there apparently have higher incomes. this might be less true nowadays than it was in the 90s, but if it helps i'll probably do it.after a few years i'll hopefully have the 100k needed for extensive mardirossian ffs.>2028due to a weird quirk of sweden's political system, my parents will be able to take out large loans again simply for owning a valuable house. this loan will be used for vfs, shoulder width reduction surgery, adam's apple removal, srs, bbl and height reduction surgery.once everything is done i can hopefully stop manmoding and i can start studying for what i actually want to work with for the rest of my life (3d-modelling and animation). i'll definitely be the oldest person in class (24) and i'll be an obvious tranny, but i think it will still be alright.i didn't think this would be possible, but since we're part of the upper middle class and me, my dad and my mom are all saving up and taking loans at the same time, we're able to be 3x as effective as i could be by my lonesome. i think things might turn out alright.
not reading that but good for you kiddo
>>37199134i should be grateful, but for some reason i still feel miserable and hopeless. never experiencing life as a young woman just breaks my heart. i'll basically be the same as agp honbands trooning out on their cis wives. i'll only ever experience being a grown adult woman.i know that this all sounds insanely agp and creepy since i'm obsessing over youth, but i can't help but feel this way. it's like my entire adolescence was stolen from me, i have no positive memories of that time of my life.
my plan is to go work in the west for 12 hours a day, six days a week in a shitty food factory for a few years, should be enough
my plan>wait for rich relative to die (soon!)>finally pay off the taxes and medical bills i've avoided for years>return to the good graces of california and acquire poor people insurance>get botched can't wait c:>>37199111voice train dummy vfs is a scam
>>37199262other than being a youngshit, voice training + vfs is the only awy to get a voice better than a twinkhon voice. of course i'll voice train before the surgery, but i do absolutely need it. my voice is also really masculine sounding imo.
sucks being a manmoder in a sea of boymoders
>>37199292that's cope i larp as cis online with no problems. unless you're a sub 100hz gigachad with zero control over your voice i think that's a super defeatist attitude
>>37199262you can get mardirossian ffs through amazon insurance if you're an american. you absolutely wont get botched, you'll be a literal passoid.
>>37199316yeah but i'm too mentally ill and physically pathetic to have a job like that especially while i'm slowly pushing myself through school. i'm going to get my medi-cal, see if i can beg and swing mittermiller and if not take what i can get
>>37199314https://voca.ro/118iLKT20XDRhow long would it take before i get results from voice training? sounding like mickey mouse for half a year would make me feel even more pathetic and dysphoric. i mean i wear washable cloth face masks everywhere i go inside the house so that i wont have to see my disgusting face. i'm barely keeping it together and voice training just seems like it would make things worse.
it's fookin shite bein a manmoder
>>37199379you're already a twinkhon so even facialteam would probably give you great results. i think you're worrying too much.
>>37199388voice training is ymmv some people are just better at controlling the mechanics of their voice. but for what it's worth i think my old pitch was abt the same as yours (that is to say, not gigachad) and it only sucked for a month or two. i could easily reach 200hz without a falsetto and then i just autistically listened to women talk and mimicked resonance and vowel sounds. but as a terminally online neet at the time i never used my natural voice ever so i made quick progress. so much of sounding like a woman and not a tranny comes down to killing male monotone habits and preserving resonance over an entire conversation so get started.
kys both of you
i might
you should give up and kill yourselvesffs does not work for hons, you are wasting your time suffering for no reason>>37199401i see you have a trip now manface, still alive?
>>37199656i wont know for sure until mardirossian gives it a shot. and i'd rather be a depressed looking long haired 5'3 manlet than the freak i am now. even if i'm ugly my height will prevent people from seeing me as intimidating.nothing you say has any merit anyway, if you started saying i was bdd and would obviously pass after ffs i'd start believing i wouldn't.
>>37199656it mogs most of us by the virtue of being extremely short
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>>37199610>>37199610>>37199610>>37199610post the new one here next you dumbass
