"Well-adjusted" editionQOTT: Do you consider violence cathartic?QOTT2: What do you do to chill out?SOTT: https://youtu.be/EQto-edK_8w▶Info:HRT Information:https://diyhrt.wiki/transmascHRT Roadmap:https://transcare.ucsf.edu/article/information-testosterone-hormone-therapyStyle Help:https://ftmguide.rassaku.net/guide/index.htmFitness Help:https://ftmguide.rassaku.net/guide/fitness1.htmHair Loss Help:https://rhrli.com/blog/trans-men-hrt-hair-loss/Previous: >>37985110
>>38018726What stops you from getting pregnant?
>>38018726What stops you from topping cis boys?
>>38018776infertile>>38018783heterosexual
why is it its always MtFs making our threads
>>38018776Man this ain't even offensive, shocking, or funny anymore. When will you finally tire out? Are you a neet? A bot? An insane autist? How long has it been going on at this point?
>>38018119can someone show me moidcoded art to take inspiration from?
>>38018823How could you tell
>>38018845Uhh idk any specific names but maybe the art you see on western movie posters or old war propaganda posters.There's also things like berserk or whatever if you're a weeb.
>>38018823>its another flux is mtf believer
>>38018879genuinely sounds good but if i draw propaganda posters it's gonna come across as trying too hard :/ you can never win
>>38018914How is it trying too hard? I didn't mean literally drawing propaganda, I just mean stealing the art style.
>>38018926no i want to draw actual propaganda now. i never thought of that before it sounds fun
>>38018845Moidcoded art seems to be focused more on objects and technical things, while foidcoded art seems to be focused on people and emotion and whatnot. Try drawing machines like trains or cars or whatever with lots of detail. If you ever draw people (which should be sparingly), always draw the men like ripped superheroes and the women with unrealistically sexy proportions.
>>38018968Star Wars is basedboybrained
>check plebbit inbox>'we sometimes ban alleged ftms for being too malebrained, just send some proof ur trans'???
>>38018823Flux is ftm dipshit
>>38019164You got banned from an ftm subbreddit for being malebrained...?
Anon with ruined friendships here: Gonna be highly skeptical of afab friends from now on
>>38019164Send back a selfie with a really pouty almost crying face.
>>38019215no it was from 4tr*n4.just a really bizarre reason to get banned.>>38019246...i am not going to do that.
>>38019341>...i am not going to do that.based and avoiding-dysphoria-pilled
>>38019366thank you.
>>38019341What is the general consensus on 4tr*n4 here?
>>38019397as in what do people here think of it? it's plebbit so most people hate it by default i guess.
i need to fatten up, i ran out of roids. ive been chowing down on bacon and pork rinds all week to put on mass.
>>38019341I hope they unban you wtf i love that sub
>>38019341How to you even prove you're trans to them
>>38019479i said i'll send them a photo of my box where i keep my t vial/injection supplies with a slip saying my username. if that doesn't work i don't know what will.>>38019463i post my art and other stuff there pretty frequently, its fun.
>>38019479I'm confused why would anyone do this? Being mistaken as cis should be the best compliment one can receive. In my opinion, at this point it'd be better to just stop going to FtM spaces.
>>38019574i don't mind having a handful of places knowing i'm trans if it's relevant. i girlmode in my normal life (although that's rocky at the moment) so it's nice having somewhere i can "be myself" so to speak.
Flux is homo.
>>38019659you wish.
>>38019604I see I see. As long as you like it, then I suppose no harm in that.
>>38018726I find pain cathartic, but not typically violence unless you count consensual rough sex while feeling negatively toward someone, then yes but it's very rare and it's done within accepted limitations. Pain is preferable, and immediately soothing.To chill out when upset? Depends on what's going on but usually I just kind of take a moment to let myself really feel it without trying to push anything away and think about what hurts and why and what it reminds me of and how I could make the experience valuable. If I can't do that right then walks or meditation stuff that clears my head etc. >>38019241Why?
>>38018726>HRT Roadmap>''Those who start testosterone later in life may experience less overall facial hair development than those who start at younger ages.''I started at 31, I don't think I'm gonna make it bros
>>38019836Lmao this guy is old
>>38019836>31did you know him?
>>38019869Ancient>>38019904Looks like my dad
>>38019558Oooh i wonder if I've seen you there, nice
>>38019759Drama
>>38019836If you let your eggs get fertilized as you are taking your meds you will grow a lot of hair
>>38019836It's ok bro.. Take these
>>38019976
>>38019943Can happen with anyone I've noticed. >>38019836That's around when I accepted that I was never going to transition
>>38019836>started at 31Same fellow ancient, and the beard is still lacking at 34
>>38018879>>38018974>ermm boy art is about trains and war and superheroes and girl art is about feelings and people and gross sensitive stuffboth of you are so confidently retarded it's baffling. go visit a gallery or read an art history book, drooling imbeciles
>>38020103I've had more peace with amabs desu
>>38020103I had that moment when I was 26 and got denied entry to the trans clinic due to mental health. Now I got in and got on T. I need to be on testosterone for 6 months to get a free top surgery, after that I can just quit if nothing good has come of the hormones.>>38020152Well fuck. Maybe one day.
>>38018726>rolls away
>>38019836>I started at 31Lmfao it's over, why aren't you repping
>>38020260Insect
>>38020307Started T at 31, tho I've ''manmoded'' my whole life
>>38020236>I need to be on testosterone for 6 months to get a free top surgeryUSA?
>>38020364Finland. It does cost around 130 euros and ~40€ for each night spent in the hospital, but I'm on welfare so it covers that part fully. Not that 200-300€ for a big surgery is anything lmao.
>>38020351T at 31 does literally nothing except give you sonic voice and male pattern baldness, you're gonna be a non passing pooner stereotype forever. Both coping or roping would have been better options
>>38020215I used to think I couldn't get along with most women then I realized it's just that I can't get along with neurotypical women. With men I prefer neurodivergence, but with women it's required.>>38020236I used to think people were full of shit when they say you get even more feminine in your 30's, that's been true in my experience. At 26 I could manage androgyny so I didn't feel like it was over, I was concerned it would be soon though and that the results would be lacking. Life just went the way it went, it's cool though I had different experiences than I wanted at that age is all. I'm really short anyway so that wasn't going to turn out ok regardless. Everyone's shit is different though, something being a waste for me doesnt mean it's a waste for you. Are you happy to be on it? What made you change your mind? >>38020260Used to have one of these, some lady brought it in when my older brother was working in a pet shop because she couldnt take care of it and he felt bad for it so he brought it home so it didnt become snake food. I was the only person it didn't bite so it became mine. Hamsters are assholes.
>>38020615>Are you happy to be on it? What made you change your mind? I just want a top surgery so that motivated me to try again. Can't afford doing it at a private clinic which would cost 5k-10k €/$. I'm tall and have naturally deep voice, so I'd be happy with just that. If T happens to bring ''gifts'' like facial hair, sure I'd like that, but if it doesn't give anything good, I can just quit after the surgery. Tits are the biggest source of dysphoria for me anyway.
>>38020260eats rodent
My ass is noticeably bigger these days (3 years t) than it was pre or early testosterone. I'm the same weight. Interesting development
>>38020546Starting at 31 wasn't so bad
>>38021046Larp
>>38020844Ah got'cha, I figured it was that. Sounds like your expectations are realistic, should be fine.
>>38021172What do I stand to gain from anonymously lying about having a bigger buttocks than before? My ass used to be flat but now it sticks out some more and is shapely. I am neutral about this turn of events but I was not expecting it
>>38020546Don't fucking stay this, I'm gonna be 25 in march and still haven't been able to get it
>>38021328Better late than never
>>38021328Honestly at this point it seems like jealous people shilling. If T is what you want, keep at it and you'll get it one day. Like the other anon said; better late than never
>>38021344Is it tho. If i end up being some non passing sonic voiced wanna be guy that's just pathetic
>>38021400You can start at 17 and not pass or you can start at 30+ and pass fine. It depends on what you're working with and how well you will process the testosterone. The latter you won't know until you try. As for the former you need to not be delusional about how masculine or feminine you objectively are
>>38021243U get off on it
>>38018726QOTT: YaQOTT2: Minecraft>>38019241You shouldn't trust anyone>>38019446I'm trying to de-fat, got a little too soft>>38021046Stop this is my worst fear
>>38021611>Stop this is my worst fearThere are far worse things than having a nice ass. Be thankful you don't have bunions
>>38021075Face kind of passes somewhat but I bet you have a super clocky body & voice
>>38021328DIY before it's too late retard
>>38021972I live with a transphobe but am gonna when i move out
>>38021766God i miss the taste of bunions
I 100% think the only reason I got into humiliation and hegradation is because I'm a trans man. Beta censors, chastity, forced foot sniffing. All of this shit is emasculating and FOR ME so is being a trans man. This shit is a cope
>>38021976You can low dose for ages and no one will suspect a thing. I'm 7 months in on a full dose and only just now not able to girlmode
>>38022037You have no idea how tempting this sounds
>>38022015Yep I'm the same (minus the feet shit). I can only get off to reality and the reality is that I'm not a real man
https://i.4cdn.org/gif/1731924368399589.webm
>>38022057Do not look into it, you might awaken shit like i did. Only into it if it includes emasculation but a lot does
>>38022050Just do it, you're getting to the point where you'll never pass otherwise
>>38022075Roughly what age is too late to pass for most people?
>>38022074I don't think I will ever like feet lmao
>>38022088I envy you.
>>38022086Mid 20s is iffy depending on your genetics but late 20s+ is doomed
Real talk I hate this place. It gave me eye dysphoria. I never would've known pooner eyes were a thing if not for this place. Now I'm clocking trans men I previously would've thought passed. I don't want the pooner eyes it's so pathetic looking. Not even in a good way
>>38022088Not much to envy desu my MEF is so bad I can't get horny for regular sex
>>38022125Same
>>38022102Well fuck. Luckily i supposedly already look masculine for a """woman""". Hope it's true
>>38022123Don't you hate it when you're sharing pics of an eyepoon and everyone else is like "wtf he passes fine" when no he does not his eyes will make him look like a woman with a beard no matter what he does
hello! just reposting the invite for the new server for ftmg:https://discord.gg/kXqgFCj8MK
>>38022155I don't share the pics, I just look at them and feel sad for them. Genuinely hope they don't run into anyone who recognizes eyepoons
>>38022141Get on the roid sites right now and save yourself from an eternity of non passing humiliation
The eyes are the gateway to the soul. If you look close enough, you can see the little person there controlling the body.
>>38022171Doing it as soon as i have cash, may i be smited otherwise
>>38022181I see a lot of depressed people then
>>38022170I feel like it's obvious to most people that they look weird af but maybe I'm just wormed
>>38022065I got 3 boyfriends can't relate
>>38022202I was less wormed before i came here. I thought most trans guys on t passed. Now i think only half of the ones i see do, generous estimate. I notice the eyes, the hands, the patchy facial hair...
>>38021075I think it's weirdly sad to see these people still here. It's been way too long. Weird shit man you need a hobby
>>38022239Has this person been here awhile?
>>38022256It's been multiple years
Hey retards what is your opinion on this trvth nvke >>38019382
>>38022239Take your own advice
>>38021075Why aren't you wearing a shirt bro?
>>38022037Im considering this. I'm in college still and my mom pays for groceries. I dont wana lose that but I also want to start DIY so I prevent further feminization. What did a low dose do to you and why do you say just now after 7 months youre no longer able to girlmode. Also did you get your bloodwork done
>>38022414I hope he sees this bro
>>38021962Maybe>>38022239You can never escape, here you are checking in after years as well>>38022427You wear shirts to bed?
>>38022340I can't tell whether any of that is true or not but it makes me wanna rope
>>38022065Kinda stoopid. I lowkey never had more than 2 or 3 friends at a time and even then I'm still reserved and dont feel comfortable sharing feelings. I do feel lonley and suicidal often but I always have. Kinda skipped through the video, Is this a ftm? I have heard lots of stories of FTM crying to cis men about how lonely it is. I feel like ive already lived like that my whole life so i dont really care. If anything it makes me feel malebrained (cope)
>>38022492>You wear shirts to bed?Yeah a plain white T and shorts
>>38022509Don't intentionally consume information (that may or may not even be true) that you know is gonna give ropefuel. There are several ftm body builders on IG u can follow for hopefuel. If you go gym you can be stronger than the average cis M who doesnt go to the gym. the same way a cis M who goes to the gym will be stronger than a cis M who doesnt. So what is the difference and what does it matter. Focus on masculinizing yourself. Every ftm should go gym.
>>38022492SEEDABLE BREEDERSTURDY BODYSTURDY WOMB
>>38022543>ftm bodybuilders you can follow for hopefuelThe thing is, I'm much more concerned with actual strength that appearances.
>>38022514>I do feel lonley and suicidal often but I always have.BPD gang y'all know the feeling
>>38022340God can someone on here please disprove this
>>38022613I've never understood the obsession with strength in correlation to being a man. Just buy a gun anon, most people will do what you say if you have a gun
>>38022574Body builder prob wasnt the right word. They have strong looking bodies and they move large weight. T is a steroid, lift weight and get strong. If you do it well enough you will be stronger than most cis M. >>38022652Ditto, Learning how to shoot a gun is pretty masculine too. That can be ur alternative if ur too scared of gym
>>38022652And then you get imprisoned
>>38022456I started on 20mg a week and that basically just gave me bottom growth, more hair and changed the way I smell. I reckon you could stay on a dose like that for ages and still girlmode. Eventually went up to 40mg, this gave me a slight voice drop + more hair + more muscle + minor facial changes but I could still girlmode pretty easily. After 3 months of that I went to 60mg which caused a proper voice drop, 3 months of that dose and only now have I lost the ability to do a girl voice. Basically for like 6 months on a proper dose (40 - 60mg) I could do both a passing male voice and a passing female voice. At 40mg my levels were 7.4nmol/l at trough and at 60mg they were 10nmol/l at trough. I am of the opinion that most people could dose 20mg a week for a year or more and still girlmode
>>38022652Are you even ftm
>>38022750U must not live in the USA
>>38022750This is America buddy. You do what you have to do over here.
>>38022492Anglefag
>>38022652You know there's WAY more to strength than threatening people, right?
>>38022757What kind of question is this? This is ftmg I am ftm
>>38022756Would U say doing a passing female voice is essentially doing a customer service voice, or is it something you have to focus on doing. I naturally have a less feminine voice but I can force it when I have to.
>>38022778Because real men care about their strength
>>38022778>This is ftmg I am ftmIf only U really knew....
>>38022772You can learn MMA, or anything else you want anon. I've seen some of the users here and I think they would make decent sumo wrestlers.
>>38022787It gets like that pretty quickly on T, slowly going from just switching it to a slightly different mode to something you need to put serious effort into. Atp I can only manage to do a half passable girl voice for like 10 minutes until it starts to hurt
>>38022791I am very secure where I am so I guess I do not stress about it
>>38022123I hate how easily I can clock people now. The positive side is that this only comes from people involved in trans spaces (mostly exclusively online too)So chances are youre only gonna get clocked by other pooners.On that note hella cis M just look like they could be pooners
I have been getting misgendered more recently. I think it's cause I got a little fatter.
>>38022222I'd say it's about 60%, and honestly it would be higher if most trans guys weren't lazy fat fucks with a nonexistent sense of style and no understanding of male grooming
>>38022906Cut ur hair and turn that fat into muscle.
>>38022340I was in that thread and I still think you're being way too in your head being neurotic about if every guy the same size as you would be stronger or weaker than you. Stop thinking you can't be big mclarge hueg
>>38023003>Stop thinking you can't be big mclarge huegThen I would just be deluding myself, given that T can't actually make you equal to real men. I haven't seen any evidence to disprove it yet.
>>38023035https://bjsm.bmj.com/content/55/11/577
>>38023035No shit it can't, but at least it stops your body being an estrogenised hellsack
>>38022528Only if it's unreasonable cold, seems like extra laundry>>38022562Beat Saber built>>38022771voca.ro/1hJMVjXsCaNh
>>38023186That doesn't seem like a very thorough experiment tbhon
https://voca.ro/12z6OJK0MwDHI sound like this and still girl mode and get gendered pretty much 100% femaleI started HRT In MarchJust look 100% like a girl and even with a teenage boy voice you can still look like a girl and get 100% of the effects of herI'm on a high dose and have a lot of hair growth but I put in a lot of effort to maintain my status as a girlmoderI even talk like this in public all the time, occasionally using my girlvoice but lol I'm on 300mg
>>38023376I typed like a retard here I'm playing L4D rn but my point is you don't have to go on a low dose if you just girlmodeI don't wear makeup but I do have very long hair and I even dress somewhat masculine yet I'm still gendered female. Especially at my job in my uniform. Granted I don't bind but I have small budding breasts anyways You can fully hide your transition if you just go full in on girlmoding during it till you're readyI'm AGP so take that with a grain of salt but you really don't have to fuck yourself with a low dose. My blood work is fine I got it checked a week ago as well and I'm doing DIY
>>38023376>I'm on 300mgRetard
>>38023414Buying a new vial next week
>>38023035I have a better arm than the majority of cis men.
>>38023459In terms of actual physical strength though? Just because it might look better doesn't mean it actually is.
>>38023442Mf never heard of aromatase conversionIf you’re going to inject more T than a juiced up roidmaxxer at least hit the gym and buy some aromatase inhibitors to go with that
>>38023376>I'm on 300mga WEEK? Do you want to fast track balding and flood your body with converted estrogen? wtf is wrong with you
>>38023459amab, but I gotta hop in here cause I keep seeing this post, this is about as average as it gets. Pretty much every guy I knew had arms this thick or bigger back in High School.
>>38023564"i h-have a better awm t-than the m-majowity of cis men >w<"
>>38023459That's a hot armt. ranny
>>38023590You wouldn't be so glib if you witnessed my ability to open tightly sealed Pickle Jars.
>>38023627I bet a cis man could pick you up and throw you over his shoulder kicking and screaming
>>38018841>How long has it been going on at this point?About 4 years, newfren
>>38018726Any faggot who likes Patrick Bateman is always some pathetic brainwashed npc goycattle undeserving of the air they suck. Every single time it's some miserable dork with like 4 other loser faggot friends who thinks they've escaped loserdom because their ugly disgenic freak friends told them so. Rape and kill any Patrick Bateman self inserter
>>38023545>>38023531Levels are fine it's not an issueIf I can do it and girl mode with no drawbacks there's literally 0 reason for you to poondose yourself
>>38023651Impossible. With my grip strength I'd be able to grab a hold of something. Once I did that I'd be unmovable.
>>38023691The drawbacks will come when you have no fucking hair lmao. Also have you tested E levels or just T
>>38023706Both theyre good and in the correct ranges. I have super low iron but that's not relevant really
>>38023695Nah. You'd get your pussy fertilized.
>>38023724Are you an ftm chaser attracted to those arm pics?
>>38023720Iron is necessary for hemoglobin synthesis. Oxygenated blood is crucial for development of all tissue in the human body.
>>38023627>random blood spots on armhope you're ready anon
>>38023828Yeah okay and now what
>>38023838What does that mean?
>>38023843Eat more food with iron, like meat.
>>38023838Oh shit I have those too what do they mean?
>>38023890Probably going to get big beefy arms like those.
>>38023897Look I'm kinda retarded I don't get what you mean by that
>>38023620You got any hot parts of you, you want to share?
>>38023984my forehead (I have a fever)
>>38024105Nice, they say a person's mind is their biggest erogenous zone.
>>38023267I have this exact body type for my midriff except I'm mtf and also do beat saber workouts. Do you want to fight using plastic lightsabers?
>>38024157The f*ck are beat saber workouts
>>38024164Its where you look really stupid in a VR headset and swing your wiimote at moving blocks to the rhythm with some squats thrown in for good measurs
>>38023411How long is ur hair and what about facial hair growth and facial masculinization that comes from T esp since ur on such a high dose. Also give example of “somewhat masculine”And what do u mean fuck urself with a low dose, is there really any consequence to lowdosing?I already sort of girl mode. I have medium length hair and don’t bind (Tho i have small tits) I am a hairy italian though My upper lip naturally is darker and my face is naturally a little on the masculine side. I don’t want to be caught transitioning which i need to be especially careful of as my mom is an active tranvestigator.
>>38023564Why did you come here specifically to dog on a tboy
>>38018845Lately I either think about this guy or this video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M9J6DKJXoKk
>>38024479So many imposters want to break into our gen
>>38023838Wtf does this even mean, nta
>>38024494Idc if mtfs are here desu just don't bully the tboys in our gen unless its kinky rp lr something
>>38024452Just grow your hair super long and shave regularly. Facial masculinization takes like 1.5 - 2y on a full dose to be undeniable so the long hair will counteract any mild masculinization you might get. If people assume you are a girl their brain will make them see what they want to see, you just have to help them
>>38024515It’s FTM(gen)Ur probably a larp. Or a semen addicted nut job
>>38024515>tboys
>>38024535Not larp, all i said is idc if mtfs are as long as they ain't coming to bully trans men. Relax asshole
>>38024538I switched between saying tboy, ftm, trans men, etc all the time
>>38024571Why would we want mtf in FTM gen.
>>38024582I didn't say i want them here, I said I don't care. Completely different sentence
Unlimited genocide on mtfs
>>38024596Unlimited genocides on cissies
>>38024587Not caring is how you make them feel welcomed here. Keep dirty mtf out of ftmgkeep ftmg pure
>>38024604On both
>>38024607We already have chasers larping here, what purity is there to keep.
>>38024612No just on cissies, i want a hot mtf to dom me
>>38024596replace mtfs with gaydens and i'd agree
>>38024619You've betrayed the brotherhood
>>38024619Come on Flux what did we do to you
>>38024624Only taking cis cock makes you a traitor to country and a counter-revolutionary, the committe of public safety for ftms finds you guilty without trial
>>38024626you are all so annoying sometimes it drives me mad
>>38024639I mean I'm pansexual anyway but that's half gayden basically. That sucks tho cuz i always find your posts fun
>>38024613Purity can be made.>>38024617And only mtf right. You wouldn’t want a cis woman to top you. U r just a slave to flesh cock. U r a failure to the ftmg bloodline
>>38024648I would want a cis woman to top me, quit assuming shit you fucking rapebrained trauma bimbo
>>38024645>i find your posts funall is forgiven you will be spared in my crusade
>>38024607I only hang out in here because I don't like the anime or the general vibe in what's supposed to be my home general. I'd rather take the school yard war of boys and girls
>>38024656Wooo fuck yea
>>38024652U are a disgrace to the bloodline. You won’t be spared when the time comes. The only one with trauma will be you after we purify ftmg
>>38024666Bitches boys like you are all bark no bite, go get pregnant and kys from the dysphoria
>>38024676No u
>>38024157Oh shit, you play mods too?>Do you want to fight using plastic lightsabers?Yes and possibly silicone sabers too>>38024169Accurate
>>38024680That's it, bend over. We're fucking now. Whoever pins the other first gets to be daddy
>>38024695I wasn't even the anon you replied to, I'm fucking sun tzu. All warfare is based on deception
>>38024676Clear projection and a cope. I would never get pregnant because I’m not cock brained and I am rape proof so don’t suggest it. I would also not wish suicide on a fellow ftmg no matter how lost they are. Very fembrained of you for holding that type of hatred for one of ur own.>>38024702GG bruther
>>38024702Don't care, lets do a pinning match
>>38024714I'd wish suicide on an mtf too, equality
>>38024717Transness as a whole will never be taken seriously if the amount of suicides keep rising. Wish well for ur fellow man. We all just want to be normal and accepted at the end of the day
>>38024676This comment was really catty.
>>38024734Maybe i would if yall didn't call me a larper over stupid shit
>>38024808I can’t help but feel like i’m talking to a woman. Not even a sassy gay man, just a woman.
>>38024831You're talking to a pre t trans man so ye probably comes off the same
>>38024843T won’t change ur personality
>>38024872My personality changes day to day, sometimes even hour to hour. Hell I only started telling people to kill themselves after coming here.Most definitely will change it to a degree.
>>38024872i increased my dose by quite a bit, and introduced other anabolic androgenic substances. what i have found is that i feel much more 'alpha'. i walk around at night and instead of cowering afraid at any one i see, i start to size them up, and think about how easily i could take them on. i think about ripping them up with my bare hands, sinking my teeth into their flesh, and ingesting the protein they contain to feed my ever growing mass. i can see the difference in how my clothing fits the past few months. it's honestly exhilarating
>>38024881Fembrained…>>38024944Yea we can chop that up to confidence. Glad u found urself bro. don’t go killing nobody now
>>38024808This happens to me every time I post. I'm always assumed to be lying or making something up. Even if it's a regular thing that happened. Ftmg can't handle interesting people because they push everyone to be the same.
>>38024619We do need to be more self aware
>>38024881>My personality changes day to day, sometimes even hour to hour.are you me?
>>38025186Larp
I have to pee but it’s 4:30 am
>>38025306Go to sleep fellow NA
>>38025457Ok fine
>>38025489Don't listen to herStay up
>>38025507Well i am>herWere u that mad he told me to sleep
What are you guys doing atm?
I think I'm gonna need top surgery revisions. Damn it
>>38025700I’ve been doom scrolling all night>>38025701How long has it been? Why do u say that?
>>38025701What happened?
>>38025701Are you cutting yourself?
>>38025696Mad? I don't know them
>>38023459How many years on t
>>38025700Applying stickers to plastic and then snapping that plastic together into a small mech
>>38025814This seems so cool. Do you put them all on a shelf
>>38025814Wow, rare anon win! Very cool!
>>38025820Use to have all of them displayed but haven't since moving so now only one or two ever sit on my desk at a time but I want to get a nice shelf for them again>>38025834Thanks, it's a fun hobby
>>38025857When did you start doing these?
>>38025869Decades ago when I was still in grade school. My first one was a Wing Zero sometime in 1998 or so. Slowly started collecting them since although nowadays I pick more up than I have the time for but it's nice to always have one waiting to work on. Wish I had a pic on hand of even some of them together
>>38025903What made you start?
>>38025923Grew up watching toonami so my love of Gundam Wing coupled with already enjoying building things. Instant addiction
>>38025997Are you big in anime in general or specifically gundam/ mecha?
>>38026004Was big into anime like the rest of the high school weebs I hung with but not so much now. There was a time I was going to Sakura con with a group every year. At the time Gundam Wing was one of the only Mecha I'd watch after hating G Gundam. I liked my mecha more grounded less anime but have chilled and watched a few now like Thunderbolt is a good one I have no gunpla fromSide note, it was fun to see Trigun get revived and turn into the Tumblr fuel I predicted the old one would've been had it been released today
>>38025700Drinking coffee and cuddling with one of my birds
>>38025700Getting pissed off and wondering why I went years and years not being a crybaby, so much so that my siblings were fucking terrific on the handful of occasions they saw me cry, only to turn 24 and suddenly become some mega sensitive bitch that will cry easy as hell.What the fuck is happening to me, this shit ain't normal. This isn't me. (I'm the anon scared of fnaf btw) Oh that's another thing I've remembered! In middle school fnaf didn't scare me! I didn't play it because I was BORED. Somethings going on. Is it because dysphoria has been impossible to ignore the past few years? Is waiting so long to get T (due to living situation) doing this to me? Genuine hope T fixes this, this is awful. I despise crying, it makes me feel like a girl
>>38022906i'm fat as fuck and never get misgendered unless the person in question knew me pre-t. either you have unlucky genes, or it's not that>>38024607esl kun can you please get a trip? your typing style is so aggressively recognizable a trip really wouldn't hurt you
>>38027490i should add, eslkun, i think you're alright & didn't mean to sound rude
>>38027490i think it's mostly my inability to grow facial hair in combination with the weight gain going straight to my butt and hips. Typically I am gendered male 98% of the time
>>38027574that'd do it, i'd work out in that case
>>38018726ftmg i need help i'm a cis woman dating an ftm and he's 5'4 and i'm 5'8 and right now he's like spiraling because he's insecure about being short, would it be bad if i told him that i actually prefer shorter guys? it's the truth, but i don't know if that would make his dysphoria worse or whatever
>>38027616Do not seriously go to 4chan for advice. BUT it's a 50/50 on if telling him your preference will help. Is he a person who puts a lot if thought into people's perception of him or does he care more about his self perception? That's the most likely determining factor here
>>38025706>>3802570711 months, but i feel there's still excess skin. it's noticeable when i lie on my side (picrel) or slouch. i expected this bc i had bigger boobs before surgery but i'm hoping it is fixable
>>38027464I actually had a similar experience, I cry very easily now, like I've cried watching this: https://youtu.be/q3uXXh1sHcI?si=km_9xim2Wv8N5tvz lol. I'll laugh about it while I'm doing it but just about any extreme emotion positive or negative comes with tears now. Been like this a couple years, but prior to that I had a lot of difficulty crying and felt very numb often. My grandfather was one of my favorite people ever and I couldn't even cry when he died (he had dementia after a stroke and was no longer himself with no hope of improving when he died so I personally didn't view his death as a bad thing personally, but I would cry if me now was present at the time) I got hit and shit as a kid though for crying, cry over something (even if it's something normal to cry about) and it was "I'll give you something to cry about" and then escalation. So I ended up burying that and lost the ability to, instead I'd feel like maybe I needed to and nothing would be there for a lot of my life. I can turn tears off though, hide them well, even still. It's something I can just go "Gotta suck this back up" and stop and make a few jokes or do something stupid etc to distract so people don't notice. Save that shit for later, time and a place etc. but still they happen now, and I'm a fairly sensitive person whenever I actually feel something (I'm indifferent to plenty of shit and dont take much personally) so it's triggered easily enough. In my case meditation and shadow work etc did something that triggered it. Like I flipped a switch and it was like I was suddenly making up for the decade + I couldn't manage that shit.It's uncomfortable for sure, but not necessarily hormonal because I've never been on T. I also don't know how to make it go away lol but I know how to stop it in the moment not sure how to explain that to someone else though.
>>38027722Trans Men Are Smooth
>>38027464>>38027914+ Not being able to cry was worse, now I can at least let myself really feel shit as soon as I get a minute to instead of that kind of numb shit from before where I'd feel shit but it was like when you take pain killers and it's enough to dull the pain but you still feel what's going on. Just with feelings, and they'd just never properly get felt and I didnt know how to deal with the numb shit either so I'd just do drugs about it.Now it's like if I'm in a convenient place to have and display feelings I'll immediately go through that if not the process of them starts and I just kind of reflexively put it to the side and focus on how to remove myself from the situation or get through it without issue before i worry about feelings I'll still have later. It's easier to manage things that get released through fully experiencing them than it is to manage things that build up over time and become so many things all at once one day though. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
>>38027464Teenage hormones hamper your ability to cry. When things settle a bit, you become more sensitive. All 25+ feel more profoundly than teenagers. There is relevant research but I'm too lazy to look for it again.
>>38028053You make solid points and we've had similar experiences but everytime I cry I become more and more resentful of myself for not being a real man, adding to whatever I was crying about to begin with. I do not prefer this, it doesn't feel healthier for me. I'm glad it was for you though. Right now I'm getting more and more convinced this is a side effect of letting my body estrogenize via aging. I gotta get on T immediately
>>38028121>I gotta get on T immediatelyIndeed, take your shots, future liddle pooner!
>>38028121 Crying never seemed like a gendered thing and I knew not crying was just a weird response to abuse. I learned that eventually. So dysphoria wasn't like that in fact my younger brother always cried more than me and so did my older one. Neither of them had it put on them that they were supposed to be the calmest and most nonreactive quite like I did. I had the misfortune of getting the gifted label slapped on me in school and so I was the one who had to be reasonable and calm in all situations. It was never about my gender it was about me needing to understand everyone and everything and not react because everyone else who couldn't be bothered to think about things the way I was expected to had the option of having bigger feelings than me. To you it's gendered, to a lot of people it is, so I'm not surprised it makes you dysphoric. So for me it's been a few years in this situation, and I never attributed it to aging because I spend a lot of time digging into myself with various occult and meditative practices and I see what I'm dealing with there.At first it was really bad desu, I couldn't stand it, and it made me feel really fucked up and guilty even. Like "This is wrong" and all kinds of shit like that, but now it's more like "It's a physical response that provides release from mental overload so when it's convenient to let it happen I do and my understanding of it is that it's beneficial to my body and mind that I just accept that it happens. My evidence that it's beneficial is that over the years I have an easier time regulating and dealing with my emotions and the only inconvenience is I occasionally have to manually turn on nonreactive mode when it's a bad time/place. It's horrible in the beginning but gets better over time.I don't feel bad about it because it's like getting pissed off at yourself for bleeding if you get cut.
>>38028121>>38028527+ If you feel like getting on T immediately is necessary go for it, but I don't think you should pin this specific issue as hormonal necessarily is all. I also wouldn't use me as evidence it's aging in spite of the fact that I'm likely older than you, this is coincidence and I'm sure of that because of things I intentionally do on a regular basis. Also because I also can have someone make like personal attacks at me and feel nothing because I view it as some issue in them I trigger and unimportant so I'm not just unreasonably sensitive and I'm not a particularly emotionally reactive person in a good deal of circumstances, in fact I get some people mad by how calm I can be and people like having me around in very stressful situations because of how calm I am and how good I am at getting other people to stay or be calm too. That's honestly one of the things I'm best at, I've made money because of it even.If it was just some unreasonable hormonal thing I imagine I'd do it all the time over everything and inconvenient times. The baby penguin video that's a being other than myself in distress that moves me, some stuff will tug at personal things for me and such too, but a lot doesn't.
>>38028082Interesting I only started crying in my early 30's.
>>38025700working on my shitty 9 to 5
Does anyone here have experience calorie deficiting while being early on T? Could it prevent or slow changes? On the final appointment before I got my prescription they measured my bodyfat, and it turns out I'm skinnyfat/metabolically obese. I want to fix this ASAP but I've gotten a lot hungrier since starting and I'm worried about potentially stunting myself
>>38029736literally just eat plenty of protein and workout. don't go on weird crash diets to 'get rid of female fat', you'll just stunt your transition.
I got super glue in my cock hole. What is should do?
>>38027922Why do you shave your poon but nowhere else
>>38029736If you are over 25% bodyfat you can probably still pretty easily put on muscle while lowering fat percentage. For Cis Males the closer you get to about 13%-15% bodyfat the harder and harder it is to put on muscle while still cutting fat percentage, and they may even start losing muscle along with fat while cutting. For FTMs I would assume it is a higher bodyfat percentage where this diminishing returns start kicking in.
Anyone here use AO3? What are your favorite things to read?
>>38023459please manhandle me
>>38023459>>38023627why are you so hairy? i'm a cis man and even i'm not that hairy
>>38032809I guess some folks are just more masculine than others.
>>38031005Rape fics, you?
Can't tell if I want Megatron to rape everyone or power bottom. Go see Transformers One
>5 years on t>start having fantasies about fucking my hs best friend and him impregnating me with twins +>goon for months on adderall and weed to this>rewire my brain>can still goon to this>have to jack off 6 times a day now>this still gives me the best orgasmwtf. do i detroon and let him actually knock me up? how do i release this? i was mainly a bi top before
>>38033807You just have a fetish, don't detroon
>>38033807>do i detroon and let him actually knock me up?>5 years on tanon, chances of your male friend still being interested in you after that are slim to none.
I keep getting too high and imagining myself as a female living in the Neolithic era. Would I have tried to transition? Would I have made it? Does resurrection exist? If resurrection exists, is rebirth depended on reproducing? If I existed, would I have to have given birth to exist now? Would I still have gender dysphoria if I was too busy hunting deer and bison to think about it?I like to imagine myself as a stone top dyke Neanderthal shaman warrior. I had a harem of wives from the many tribes I conquered. All of my concerns revolved around gathering food and hunting for my tribe. I hunted bison and left my enemies' skulls on a spike to ward off invaders. Life was good then. We need to go back.
i am officially one year on testosterone (technically the 22nd but i just did my shot), and i have come to the conclusion that the scar tissue shit is poonscience or from injecting wrong. because i have injected in the exact same spot the entire time, that i know is the same spot because my belly hair is basically a carpet there and nowhere elsefor those doing subq in the stomach, you're supposed to inject along where the doctors do c-sections because there's less nerves to nick there. if you're fat (like me) inject to the side of your belly button, too close and it'll hurt however
>I take hormones to artificially validate ideas that have been put in my head.>When I die no remembrance of my being will be left on this planet.>Instead of fighting against the pressures of influence I embrace them. >I am choosing to delete myself from the human race after millennia of evolution.>Thank you ancestors for creating me.
>>38034682Nice. I'm on month 19 now. Hopefully I continue to masculinize>>38034363Damn bro that's crazy>>38029736I'm currently eating practically nothing becuz reasons. I think being thinner makes me look more masc. idk if it prevents anything, i don't know how the endocrine system and the digestive system/metabolism interact. My BMI is 25 so I'm "overweight". if by "fix this" you mean lose weight, just do it, everyone looks better when they are thin/fit. also obligatory go to gym>>38027922Thanks for posting, appreciate the visibility>>38027722dood... im sorry
>>38035062>>38029736Oops, sorry, overlooked the "early on T" part
My last binder was from gc2b and I donated it earlier in the year cos I thought my dysphoria was gone but it came back w a vengeance. I'm not ftm but I thought I'd see here if anyone had ideas as I really just can't deal w it at the moment. So I need a new one or two. I would really ideally get a bra that kinda flatten things out as opposed to a binder? Any ideas? Want to wear it with lower cut items without it being seen. Not opposed to taping or whatever if it's gonna keep the floppy bits in place.
Having a prosthetic helps me w bottom dysphoria a ton. When I fuck i can look down and see a realistic dick and not a rainbow strap on. I know i can’t feel it besides the pressure on my clit but visually it feels good enough.
>>38035343Banana prosthetics
what is /ftmg/'s opinion on spooning as a sex position? I like being big spoon, and enjoy letting my free hand wander where it may.
>>38036362not enough access imo
>>38036362Uncomfortable for sex unless you mean hand job for little spoon.
>>38036362My opinion is that all AFAB bois should get impregnated, preferably multiple times
>>38037582>tattoo to cover up the hysterectomy scars
>>38036362I find it's easiest to pin their legs as big spoon, if you're short it's easier to work with restricting range of motion by going against the joint angle. Need a pretty decently long strap tho and your arm falls asleep pretty quick so you gotta be kind of swift about it.
>>38034682You're supposed to rotate the injection site man
>>38038861>manare you retarded or smth? she's a fat woman, not a man
>>38039088>esl can't comprehend figure of speech
>>38018726cant wait until i move out and can grow a beardshaving every week is annoying
>>38039826Don't grow a beard unless you can grow a decent one. Men with sparse beards look worse than baby-face men that shave.
>>38037582this. the world should be glassed and the surviving clan should be me and my harem of 1 million preggerboys
>>38039826i wish i could grow a beard>t. cis guy
I want to go for a Thai massage. I've had top surgery but not bottom surgery so I'm scared the lady will make it weird when she realizes I don't have a dick. Am I just being paranoid or is this a legitimate fear to have? Pic unrelated.
Anons, hoe many of you have crippling bottom dysphoria? How do you handle it? I want to rope
>>38039088I'm sorry your mommy diddled you
>>38040578Masturbating with a blanket over my junk, the lights off, or not at all. Ignoring it exists the rest of the time. Playing with phone in bathroom to distract. But if you have a chastity kink beware that sometimes you can't help but cry for 2 hours over never being able to wear a chastity cage.
I was thinking recently and I realised that it's pretty universal that most FTMs don't pass properly until 2 years on T, for some it's 1.5 years but most guys will still look like 14 year old boys even by the 1 year mark. Do you think that's just because that's how long HRT takes to work or do you think it's a dose thing? Most docs will lowdose trannies for the first 6 months - 1 year at least. That means most pooners will pass from 6 months - 1 year of a full dose of T. Is there any actual science behind the lowdosing shit or are they just trying to prolong us passing?
has any tiddy shrinking technology been developed while i was gone? please
unsee cc/album#90I1hs4lVKDE 1.2 years on T. i see a lot of progress but my thighs are stressing me out
>>38041573Did somebody say botched top surgery?
>>38041573lose 20lbs, once you have a thigh gap you'll feel better
>>38041020Unironically go to the gym and work out chest and shoulders. Fat loss plus muscle changing your chest shape will help a lot.>>38040403She is working you are paying. Unless you plan on fucking her after that is it and you shouldn't worry.
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