What is your favorite book written by a trans person? Mine is Darryl by Jackie Ess. It felt like having a panic attack the entire time
>>42160469butcher in the eye
basically every trans book i've read felt like the author shaking me by the shoulders going "DONT DO IT ITS NOT WORTH IT MY LIFE IS HELL"casey plett, torrey peters, imogen binnie, alison rumfitt, jeanne thornton, aurora mattia, katherine packert burke, grace byron, davey davis, emily zhou, its all just torture porn dude
I am sexually attracted to people with autoandrophilia, this is my cross to bear and I will suffer under this burden until I die. I need a guy to be St Sebastian with!!
>>42158680I can tell you’re a female by the way you type, I bet you’ve had zero socialization with actual men besides your male family members.
>>42158698i socialized with god
>>42158698so are aap ftms not allowed? i want to look loke this
trans woman that suffers from occasional bouts of aap what the fuck is wrong with me
>>42158913I know loads of mtfs like yous lol
me and who?
I wanna fuck Fallapart Rabbit so bad
>>42160315wtf based?????
i need a mtf gf who can watch cartoons w/ me now... Ughhhhh
Anybody else like for real for real retarded asf?I have to stare people in the face and cup my ears to understand what theyre saying pretty often, otherwise I'm literally just incapable of processing their speech.When I'm outside I hear voices and I cant tell when theyre real or fake so I just ignore all of them. Its really annoying because I think theyre talking about me sometimes or it feels like it on the back of my neck but I don't understand their words. Sometimes I just end up like staring at the wall for many minutes because I forget what I'm doing and keep turning around and walking to the other wall cause I forgot what I was looking that way forIt's really freaking annoying to be like profoundly mentally ill because theres so much stigma around mental illness and trans people so I try to just hide being trans and my dumb brain in general irl.Its really really annoying. I want to be pretty but the paranoia hearing people makes me dress sorta plain and maybe a little old for my age. Does anybody have advice for coping.
>>42157429I had a check up a few years ago and I dont remember what they said but I had the beeper button thingy and I didn't get told to do anything else.I really like deaf people. I wrote a fantasy story where the magic language is sign language and all the wizards do sign language to cast spells and stuff it is sort of awesome. My girlfriend is deaf but only in one ear so I stand on her left hand side and we talk that way.Is seeing an audiologist something you can do without getting a referral first? I dont have a primary care doctor. I can hear high pitched noises like dog whistles which is sorta cool I think.
>>42157496go see a gp (just any gp) and then go see an audiologist. idk if u can see an audiologist without a referral in your regionalso when u see the audiologist make sure u ask about audio processing disorders and not just hearing lossu should see a gp first cus they could tell you and also cus they could tell you if you have an ear infection, or some other obvious or immediate problemanyway yeah deaf people are cool. i have two friends with varying degrees of deafness, both of whom got it from something that happened to them (one from an ear infection and one from an industrial accident). i’m happy to tell you that you are already definitionally deaf (or i guess hearing impaired if we’re being nitpicky) because you struggle with hearing things
>>42157593Okay, I will meet a doctor and see whats up. Thank you for the helpful advice.
>>42156967literally just APD https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Auditory_processing_disordersadly its malebrained
>>42160040Is there worthwhile treatment for this? Seems like its what I have.
i love my husband
>>42157290>drawing that much>can't draw fat people Wow.... That's amazing.
>>42157327it's genuinely so bad it gives me second hand embarrassment sometimes
>>42157290>>42158178these drawings are what people look like in a khole
jerms you need to come back everything hurts
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oVZH3EzVZtk
>144 lbs and thin waist. Flat stomach. Low body fat and not too tall (5’9”). Good hair.But>Black, stubble on chin and above lips. Broad shoulders.I just want a cleaner, more androgynous look, but I’m afraid I can’t make much more progress at this point. I’ve improved since a couple of years ago but still.
Bump
you literally sound just like me but i assume you're amab (i'm afab). currently on a low dose of t and i get gendered both ways so maybe a low dose of e would do you well.
>>42158311that's a very nice Donbass painting
>>42159901>>42158311zigger troons are the funniest, how does this happen to someone? USSR phase in your teen years can't fully explain it. It's a phenomenon large enough to deserve studying.
>>42160070I’m not a communist or anything, I just think the USSR had some solid aesthetics and am interested in Russian culture.
how agp is it for Michael Bay to create this character and name her Mikaela Banes
>>42158807Reaching
>>42158807wow what a pervert
>TRANS formers>Auto "bot" (autogynephile)>Main character name is "sam" (ultimate gender bending name)>Love interest is a bimbo car mechanic (malebrained) with the director's name but feminizedHe may be a john 50 but he's our john 50
>>42158807Megan Fox with a Cock! Wow, what a thought!
being a woman is a fate worse than death. you'd have to be a retarded maniac to want to be one
>>42160028That's even more pathetic. Women will never accept you no matter how much you performatively hate men. You're not any better off than me, you just externalize your hate instead of internalizing it.
>>42160083why are you so bitter and why do you care about what women think? do you really think playing the victim card will get you somewhere with the way things are going? my best hope is to clean the trash where i see it. you should do the same
>>42159615I'd rather be a woman than a walking rape monster. I get raped in my wet dreams and wake up in my own cum because of how my body is built, it happens if I don't masturbate enough. Being a male never protected me from older men and mostly larger men, I am 5'6" petite, and built like my mom. I'm never taken seriously regardless of gender, at least as a woman I don't have to be a "lone wolf" anymore
>>42160244what do you mean? terrorism is the literal solution to your question.
>>42160244post pics
Good Evening /tttt/, I am here newfagging and entering spaces I should be more well versed in but if anyone would humor me I’d appreciate it. I’ve noticed that a lot of mtf trans women seem to really ruminate in girly childlike endeavors, whether it’d be fashion, or socialization. DESU this isn’t exclusive towards the trans community millennials and zoomers have been eternal children for the past ten years or so but I’m wondering if there is a loss in womanhood that trans women experience akin to the loss in girlhood. I’ve noticed this same thinking in ftm’s as well, who tend to focus on boyhood strongly as well.
>>42159581I don’t have the image on hand and I know you guys routinely clown the trans reddits board but it’s those older trans women that wear pastel clothing and pigtails a little like Dylan Mulveny (or however her name is spelt) during her first year of transition
>>42159571I think it's because those formative years are really important for cementing identity and childishness in women is more socially acceptable.
>>42159571fashion isn't a childlike endeavor you nonce, it's a professional career for models and agents alike; fashion is a massive part of american culture and adult life
>>42159679I see girlhood and childhood is very important in regards to development, I was just curious to see as to why in my experience there seem to be a lot trans people focused on youth but that can be explained in our society valuing youth heavily.>>42159694Poor taste in fashion is definitely childlike and embarrassing to see in full grown adults. I may be presumptuous, bigheaded, and judgmental but is the truth.(by truth I mean my opinion)
>>42159769>but that can be explained in our society valuing youth heavilyThat's one reason.Another reason is that the most vocal trannies ARE very young. So what are they going to talk about if not their youth?Us older trannies have given up even trying to offer guidance since the enshitification of queer spaces became the new normal.>Poor taste in fashion is definitely childlike and embarrassing to see in full grown adultsIt is."Baby trans" is real. In the past trannies had an older tranny or a close cisf friend to help them cope with that. Because the purpose was to become women and live our lives as normal functional adults.Social media, narcissism, abolition of gatekeeping and radicalization killed all of that and gave rise to the weirdest gigahons being the most visible trannies.Tbdesu, this isn't even specific to trannies. Almost all online spaces and almost all subcultures have gradually become enshitified.
>QO4TDo you find yourself worrying often that a man you're interested in might be repping? >QO4CHow early on in transition are you willing to accept a tranner as a woman?
anyway i really just came here to blogpost one thing>ask Her if She still loves me>She literally doesn't understand the question LMFAO boys i think maybe i overestimated my importance in her eyes just a wee bitalright goodnight everyone i love you all!
>>42162032That's rough
I FUCKING LOVE YOU JOYCE
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>>42161181THIS CAN'T KEEP HAPPENINGGGGGGGGG
>any barebacking trannies in the house?tell me your last experience barebacking. Me personally I got rawed by a bbc and frotted his cock was thick. Went over to hook up agian & he had a hairy sissy on the bed with him. I walked out.
>>42156827barebacking is just normal sex if you have a long term partner
>>42156940we're talking about anon sex
>>42157747nahhhh miss me with that
>>42156827I have literally never touched a condom in my life because I have only ever had sex with my bf of 8 years and i'm pretty sure he is monogamous (he had sex before me tho). If I didnt know my BF I just wouldn't have sex
>>42156854Anon, you are a sissy. You are a man dressing up as a woman and having gay sex with a large black man. That's the definition of being a sissy.
>>42160115THERE ARE GANGSTALKERS UNDER YOUR SKIN, TAKE THEM OFF AND DATE THEM
>>42160115I wanna shoot you in the head right in the face just stab you 30 times just incase I just broke inside it house for a taste
>>42160134Working on it boss o7
40mg/mL E valerate monotherapy subq every 5 days. Started at 20. Seems far too slow...https://files.catbox.moe/emaqy3.jpghttps://files.catbox.moe/2pw473.pnghttps://files.catbox.moe/5ix565.pnghttps://files.catbox.moe/lv8wr5.png
>>42159416>5 months >5Are you stupid? Puberty takes years to do anything. Anything less than 1.5 years is nothing. Fuck off babytrans and go practice make up and voicetrain
>>42159844This isn't OP's fault, retarded hons on here pedal myths of instant gratification 24/7.Good calls on the voice training and makeup though.
>>42159416your stomach is so much more feminine now. waow. hubba bubbaa
>>42159873tbqh I've been on hrt for a shorter time then op and got really lucky with how my body is taking to E. I'm 6'1" and started to male fail at 4 months, it really is a lot of thing going on at once too. I started voice training pre hrt and I socially transitioned for a year before hrt as well and I kept my body fit too (as in not too much fat and not too much mussel).
You are the equivalent of a 10 year old girl right now in your puberty journey you fucking retard. Come back in 8 years
is completely heterosexual and to say otherwise is bigotry
>>42159136and the whole audience plapped
I don't care what the fuck kind of sexual it is I just want it to be real
>>42159287Fuck a married woman. That'll feel realer than anything you did for your first time
>>42159136i'm always saying this to my coworkers when i clock out
>>42159307It would be even realer if I sucked her married cock
I want to look the exact same way I do now just with a dick. Is it possible to get phallo without being on T?
>>42157218I'm pretty sure most trans women outside this board like having a dick
>>42156425>>42157218idk i can understand it, while I want my dick gone I can see why someone wants a penis, dicks are greatunfortunately for OP though might be hard to convince people that you're serious about this
>>42157302Why would it be difficult to convince people of this? A lot of my theyfab friends have this exact opinion
>>42157378these theyfab friends are generally not the doctors and surgeons though, you can't get this done in most of the world without going through the whole trans thing, or at least pretending to
>>42156425Okay but I'm a trans woman and this is literally my body goal so I understand it completely
