>transphobic teacher
I'd pay extra to attend

>>42306907
i am not transphobic. i love trans women

>>42306907
>>42306927
but only if theyre straight

>>42306867
I wouldn't take the bigotry accusations of someone that says "white supremacist values" seriously. Probably just a theyfab that got offended by not being asked pronouns or whatever

>>42306941
i am taking another class with a teacher that says she wants everybody to give their preferred pronouns so she can get it correctly and encourages everyone to wear masks and get vaccinated as well as electronic devices are illegal in the classroom

>>42306706
ftms always have essentially and fundamentally evil sexual fantasies i have found wehre being evil is the point versus l,ike shitting yourself in diapers which is socially liberatory and compassionate. I don't judge you guys though I just think you're really fucked up

>>42306878
Are you a diaper tranny?
I might be evil, but I'm also very loving and compassionate.

>>42306886
I'm a diaper tranny but I dated an ftm for years who wasn't into it so I didn't engage with it. I explored a lot of the really I guess 'evil' fantasies kinda similar to what you're talking about tbqh. I don't think they make people bad people but I find it really interesting...

>>42306878
Ftms have the female willpower and desire with the male compulsion and ability. If transitioning had been a thing for all of human history at the level it is now, then a few ftms probably would be at the top of "the most evil people" list.

>>42306878
I try not to say too much cuz if I transbian post near ftms they will assume I'm doing it because I see them as women. I fear I would make them dysphoric or something. Conversely I don't really give a shit if I make mtfs uncomfortable because they're assholes to me anyway. However I need to say that lately straight ftms expressions of sexuality have been much more relatable than other transbians.

>>42304269
Based anon

>>42301926
Weak bait. Gay sex was literally illegal in parts of the US within my lifetime. Homos were accused of "recruiting" children as early as the 60s.

Loud trannies ruined it for the rest of us. I just wanna find a nice husband and live a normal life that's nobody else's business

>>42301926
we should get rid of children entirely so we can stop worrying about this
you cant even put them to work anymore these days what good are they

>>42304856
You're way overestimating what estradiol does if you think you need to stop after a month to avoid looking like a tranny or something.
If the only thing you do is take hrt and you don't alter your eyebrows nor get laser hair removal nor wear makeup nor style your hair then no one is going to have any idea you're taking hrt after a month. Even after a year most likely no one will be able to tell beyond maybe thinking you got some gyno like half of men get without even trying at some point in their lives.

>>42306701
back then I had things going on that meant I couldn't reliably stay on meds long term

>>42304650
I've been called a transmaxxer on this board. Low agp at best. Transitioned to no longer be a lonely incel. It worked.
But probably was a tranny all along, just one with no extra mental health issues ig

>>42304650
the only reason someone would do this is to fight dysphoria

>>42304650
The loneliness and porn adduction becomes so unbearable that the desire to not be bad(hated), to be good(loved), is far greater than any real sense of self.

They believe truthfully that they will find far more support and compassion and become desirable. And usually they're 100% correct, even if its just by other weirdos like them. Is that not better than fading into the void?

>>42306212
you aren't going to make it if you can't even bother to read the thread
>>42286908

>>42306212
Mew. It mimics the tongue positioning and makes your jaw look better, win win

I failed the phone captcha 5 times why is it an intelligence test now

>>42306251
I'm just a girl this is transphobiccccc

>>42305750
>read 'blackshirts and reds' by michael parenti lol
lmao anon i meant like a prompt or something
but also thank you for the advice i will take it to heart
soon i won't be closeted anymore so i can practice it full time

>>42305746
oops i missed this reply
>2nd one stop boymoding NOW
i am quite literally on the cusp, things are finally moving in the direction i've been waiting for
also i will rate others tomorrow after work i was caught up in busy stuff but i will rate i promise nona you're very kind

>>42306607
Ohh trust me there's absolutely more fucked up people, you just haven't meet them yet

You don't know also if you will push her to her limit, maybe she will try to kill you, think about it

>>42306620
>>42306632
You are so nice and that really scares me because any time I have real feelings it makes it so obvious to me how I could easily be broken in half by someone who knew the very basics of me and cared even a little to hurt me.

I'm going to go to bed and try not to puke about how much I shared tonight. And delete my folder on her and just go back to interacting regularly with her (because thank GOD for compartmentalization!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Oh i do wanna ask one more thing. Hypothetically, how do I find someone who likes this sort of thing without embarassing myself like this? Lol. I fudged a couple details here out of habit so. I dunno. Sorry. I'm going to bed.

Probably won't see me again, but i'll be seeing you! muahahaha. was that good? i dont know. okay seriously bye gn

>>42306687
really cute
if i weren't compulsively schizophrenic about my online presence, i would offer to keep in touch
i don't really leave my house much, haha. your best bet is definitely going to be to find us online
sleep well silly

ok im paranoid now lol

>>42306392
ok nvm its not about me because i dont have real friends

>>42301613
honestly my ribcage is super wide too. It's weird.

>>42301195
My biacromial is 39cm (15~ inches) and my bideltoid is 18 inches (45cm) and I'm 5'4

>>42301369
>>42301485
yeah i feel for you 15.5(?) biacromial at 5'5"

Measuring biacromial is so hard with tape....

There is no such thing as passing.

>>42306899
fuck am I supposed to do with that individual case, your president and all of your politicians literally went to Epstein island dawg

>>42292701
Family and personal life:
>Father still working a rough job
>Mother is okay, trying to keep our house in order
>Parents don't communicate at all
>House may still be up for sale sometime this year, most likely
>I am moving along, a little less aimless but I'm still trying to figure what my best options are
>Nobody is too sure on what we need to do in order to get by but we need to get serious
>Sisters are struggling to get ahead in life
>One of my sisters confessed to traumatic abuse (I'm not even sure I can describe it further), I'm horrified I didn't find out until now

That's all I can say for now, I'll explain more later and follow up when asked I just need to get to sleep soon.

>>42301121
why so busy signon

>>42303969
Life has many things happening in it.

ughmp

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>>42262110
Thank you, Anon!
>>42261560
>I am not a good person, and should feel bad about myself.
Your screaming into the void is always welcome, I hope you don't mind me prodding you in return, though! Another Anon said this not too long ago, are you the same, someone new? We're here for you.
>>42247666
>My failures, my regrets, my goals and dreams and my 'traumas' are all buzzing in my head.
That's a lot at once, do you try and sit down to write down "everything", or have you tried perhaps keeping a small scratchpad with you and jotting down fragments of whatever comes to mind in the moment? This way you wouldn't be staring at a blank page and could flesh out later.
>>42264440
>bump for actual best gen
awh..
> i feel so gross. i want to believe a girl might someday find me attractive but it is difficult
Even though I don't struggle with dysphoria one thing I feel I can contribute is the following: don't put the cart before the horse in these matters. Your self image will drastically change when you let yourself make positive experiences. I never felt attractive until I had my first few encounters with people who made me feel that way, and they liked things about me I didn't. Your lovers will look at you with different eyes.
>>42265001
>I've hit a rock bottom again.

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what a handsome twink.

Why do you look so sad

fuck off chad. I hope your skin wrinkles and your hair falls out.

>>42306720
what are you? 26? you look youthful. mid 20s coping over nothing or aged very very well

>>42306720
you'd be a pretty woman

>>42306227
because now that you take hrt YWNBAR (congrats btw)

>>42306252
That's a harsh judgment for not even 2 weeks on it.
I don't even know what I'm doing. This could be a coincidence.
Either way, I'm looking at probably years of hrtrepping best case scenario. My psychiatrist is more optimistic than I am, lul.
Hugs

wow i fucking hate being alive

>>42306515
Can we hate being alive together?

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Woke up today. Still want to be a girl. Fuck.

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>>42306606
>Sounds like a plan
He's long distance at the moment, but he said he could either move to my state in 8-12 months and things would be a little harder for us, or we could wait a few years while he goes through trade school, then he'd move here. Part of me thinks it'd be better for him to come here, though, because going to school here would mean he doesn't have to juggle all the legal stuff of moving states and ALSO with finding a job with his skillset. I feel like I'm way in over my head with this, though. I already am stressed out enough just living with my parents and working.
>Tomorrow, lol
Maybe I should? I just worry about how that would complicate things, like when doing legal stuff like with insurance and doctors and applying for jobs and school.
>Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
Me and my bf will be married and we'll have a nice house, and I will have had FFS and I'll just be normal girl, instead of a coping boymoder twinkhon.

I feel like I'm lagging behind. I'm 21 and I work at Walmart, I don't have my own car, and I've not even done general education for college at all. It wouldn't be so bad if I wasn't trans. I feel like I won't be able to live my life until after I've had FFS, so everything gets pushed back even more. And I don't know how I'm going to do all this. I feel like I'm too young and too poor to achieve anything.

Idk but I've legitimately never seen a wildly successful(rich) tranny who passed unless they got their money from porn. Maybe it's anecdotal but the ones I've noticed becoming big shot programers or engineers are almost always diabolically ugly while the passoids almost exclusively become bedrotters on welfare or their partners dime, or do porn or something else completely unethical.

Make what you will out of that.

>>42306667
>the ones I've noticed becoming big shot programers or engineers are almost always diabolically ugly
programmer money can buy the best ffs in the world, so you only see the ones it doesn't work on.
>t. passoid getting ffs to looksmax from my software job insurance

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Is making art commissions online for niche and dedicated fanbases a good strategy for getting extra money I could spend on transitioning and sustaining myself? I'm somewhat at an intermediate skill level and have experience, but I didn't draw anything in more than six months due to repression and depression (pic related is something I did rn on the spot as a reaction pic)

I'm currently planning to move out of my bigoted mother's house to live in the main city of my province since I'm an uni student, and I'm doing my best to find a part time job that pays okay for living in a small apartment with other people (it's really hard). I live in South Italy so prices are fairly low, and even if I'll have to wait a decade+ for FFS and SRS at least I could shape my life for the better and actually stop living like a ghoul under a toxic homelife.

>>42302102
i know that feeling. i tried for years and years to wriggle my way into actually decent work and for a while i actually had it, but the fucking second they noticed i was on HRT things started to get worse for me there. i got kicked out of my prior role and put in the shittiest role they had until i quit due to not want to work getting covered in human waste in an icy cold environment with no shelter or access to warmth, and my boss had the nerve to call me hysterical for objecting to it. they fucking knew what they were doing and it was very much intentional.

success as a tranny is a sequence of invisible lucking out situations that all amount to even making it possible for you to effortmaxx. you will get nowhere when youre stonewalled at every single point. every card that can be played against you will.

>>42306731
I was open to dating HKVs, given that i was one myself pretrans. No luck tho. I am only the 2nd in my bf's life so close enough.

>>42306731
on the one hand the idea of it everything being a first for both of us sounds special
but on the other hand i'm retarded and would probably feel more comfortable dating a guy with experience in being physical and could guide me along the way

>>42306731
Depends on why I suppose, most cases are usually because the guys ugly, or creepy but if you weren't one of those I couldn't care less about a guy's body count really.

The ultimate truth is that the goal of all losers on this board is someone who is more attractive than themselves with significantly lower self esteem and higher tolerance for nonsense.

Being a virgin makes you fill one of those boxes, because you'll be more tolerant of shit that someone with an experience would not be. You'll also likely undervalue yourself and settle for someone like them long-term.

That doesn't mean they're inherently ugly or that the relationship won't work. But the ultimate dream for anyone on this site is to find some random golden retriever naive retard who is somehow an 8/10 but just never engaged enough with the outside world so you can sweep them away with just enough kindness and then mold them into whatever you want.

That also the goal of any chaser really. Every loser here who complains about being lonely is simply looking for that gold mine one day.

Of course the other part of it is actually being attractive. Whether boy or girl, what is actually desirable is UNDERVALUING yourself not properly valuing yourself. There will be some people who love the idea of being your first, but usually for their own selfish reasons.

Tldr: If your hot.

>>42306731
most women dont llike sexually active mene xcept in fugues of masochistic sexual actingo ut cause most sexually active men have actively degrading and violent views towards women

I wouldn't do the whole outing thing, since you're already 16 (20) at least in my country (Germany) you don't need your parents' approval to visit a shrink anymore