>>42181342
>i've done like group sex and stuff but never any bondage or anything really weird
did u like it?
>i like pee though...
kinda gross ngl but u do u
>you should have the pp snipped off
its gonna be a couple years until then. in the mean time i make do. i mean i dont mind topping cus im pretty good at it but sadly thats kinda holding me back from bottoming ig. maybe i should date a big masc idk but those types seem risky cus they might just be assholes who just wanna fuck and ghost me /:

>>42180017
Hi OP I'm vanilla

>>42181383
yes it was really fun but i was a bottom obviously

>>42181416
hiii
does it feel like ppl expect u to be into stuff cus ur trans? i get that vibe a lot

>>42180069
lol
venial /vē′nē-əl, vēn′yəl/
adjective

Easily excused or forgiven; pardonable.
"a venial offense."
Minor, therefore warranting only temporal punishment. Capable of being forgiven; not heinous; excusable; pardonable.

>>42174731
Its based if someone posts something too edgy or too corny i dont even bother

>ASL
20, mtf, transbian, central europe
>about
i'm a uni student, kinda going through a tough time mostly bc of loneliness and not being able to pass well
>interests
I'm mainly interested in music, primarly undergroud rap and other types of internet music, also politics, all sorts of alternative fashion and all sorts of chronically online beheviour i also like going to raves a lot!!
>looking for
someone chronically online with similar interests and music taste, preferably someone also interested in music production/djing as i'd like to start getting into that
>not looking for
transphobes, homophobes, bigoted people in general
>discord
vivicodn

>>42180178
What underground hip hop do you like?
Do you have a topster, last.fm, or RYM?

>>42175517
who?

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>about
23, femboy/gnc, US, bi
>looking for
frens
>not looking for
chuds, bigots, chasers
>about me
currently a neet that is very poor, quite shy and introverted but socialable enough to be able to hold a conversation and sometimes touch grass and do things with people. in terms of my interests i play a lot of vidya, i will probably rant to you my new stupid hyperfixation. i like pokemon and other nintendo slop (although mainly emulate), farming sims, yakuza, and some random indies that were cheap on steam lol. i watch a shit ton of youtube, and a bit of twitch and anime, and write sometimes. im not really into music, but i listen to a bit of hip hop, video game/anime music, and vocaloids. i also like basketball and then also listen to a lot of podcasts cause i cant be alone with my thoughts. im austitic and very traumatized, but some find it cute. politics is somewhat important to me and im a leftist, and it is important that while we made not agree on everything, i would apperciate if we held similar morals and values in that aspect. please introduce yourself in your first message!! it helps me out so much when trying to get a conversation going.
>discord
yaoitrashcan4

>>42178991
....damnit this turned me on

>>42180876
better get eating huh

>>42178386
feeder stuff has infiltrated my head these last few months; i fell into the fatfur hole and there is something so affectionate about it. i've always loved bigger men but now i can more articulately describe how i want to ram my head into one of my good friend's giant stomach

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a bionicle comic i read in 2004 gave me a corruption fetish
and i always liked sticking my hands in stinging nettles as far back as i can remember so i guess i was always doomed to be a masochistic freak

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Forgot about it until right now but these panels from the Bone prequel comic made me go insane. I'd read it over and over imagining being completely paralyzed like she is in the dream, restrained by all the bugs, and having this weird bug dragon rub his feelers on my face. Only with the gift of hindsight do I realize that was kind of weird

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no one is posting charts because nonas dont read
>>42180716
linux transbian
>>42180795
maybe cisles but probably transbian
>>42180920
cisgaym

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i'm still reading Demons (will finish soon) and put down Gravity's Rainbow for it because it SUUUUUCKS (i will finish it too)

>>42180716
straight mtf? how is Inferno? i wanted to read that but could not decide on a translation. which are you reading?
>>42180795
i do not really know any of these i'm sorry...maybe a transbian for the Twilight(??) books and Wicked
>>42180920
i do not know these either but ftm vibes for some reason. no idea abt sexuality. how is the last book there? it sounds interesting.
>>42181264
>Frankenstein
incredible taste i loved
how is Walden!!!! i wanna read that one, too.
i'm guessing you are a bi mtf maybe.

>>42181323
hii, im guessing maybe ftm?
walden was great. i started reading it a second time actually. whos afraid of gender is on my list, my local bookstore has it but its too expensive :(

>>42181264
You would like Becoming Animal
Cis lesbian
>>42181323
You would like Invisible Monsters
Ftm

>>42181360
>walden was great
awesome....maybe i will pick it up if the library's got it when i return Demons.
>its too expensive :(
have you checked a library? that's usually the first place i go, and then i buy the book if i like it enough. i may be pretty lucky to have a local library with books like this, though. and honestly i didn't love it.....Butler's arguments seem sort of weird and almost eschew justification sometimes. like, they're right about pretty much everything in there...i just didn't find it to be incredibly insightful. it's a short read, though, so do pick it up if you're interested and able.
>>42181436
>Invisible Monsters
>The novel was originally supposed to be Palahniuk's first novel to be published, but it was rejected by the publisher for being too disturbing
lol okay. thank you for the recommendation :) cool that it's got a trans woman in it, too. i am adding it to my list.

>>42180951
>>42181058
Thank you again for your thoughts.
I think changing interests doesn't scare me much because I'm old enough for my interests to have changed "naturally" already.
I will admit your being more wordy scares me a little because I'm already kind of wordy.
Of course, maybe I'll get quieter, which other people probably wouldn't mind. Or maybe I'll get more accepting that I'm kind of talkative. I guess I'll see if I end up seeing it through.
You say you miss being able to shout. Do you mean because the way you talk has changed? Or do you mean you don't feel like shouting as much, so you miss it when you need to?
>sex and sexuality
Thank you for your insight here. It's actually one of the more comprehensive I've read.
This one probably doesn't scare me as much as it should, but I haven't been in a relationship in years and my interest in them has always been pretty low, so I kind of welcome the lack of libido. In a way, I'm more scared that I'll actually develop an interest in being in a relationship and won't know what to do. lol
>football
It would be funny if your dad actually said "fembrained," cos that would mean he'd picked up some of "our" slang, but I'm guessing you mean that's what he meant.
Thank you nona. You are a very nice person, and I hope you know that.

I should isolate myself further from everyone and stop speaking entirely.

>>42181248
>shouting
All of the above.
I don't feel like shouting as much and I miss that because on the stadium that's part of the fun. Even the girl ultras shout.

>I'm more scared that I'll actually develop an interest in being in a relationship and won't know what to do

Lean in, that's what you do :3
But then again, I actually like people. And I want to be in a relationship. I hope I get to marry my current bf, desu

>It would be funny if your dad actually said "fembrained"
Ofc he didn't. Our native tongue isn't English. And he'd be horrified by half of the things I wrote on this board. He's been very supportive but I'd be pushing it if I were to introduce him to this mess. Heck, I barely tolerate this mess.

>You are a very nice person
Thank you :3

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>>42181310
>the normie tranny cabal
That got a laugh out of me.
And don't trip. I did catch English wasn't your native language--plus you used centimeters, so I'm assuming your football is not my football. Kind of. I live in a town that didn't have a football team for a while but always had a healthy Latin population, so, break even?
Either way, don't sell yourself too short on being nice, even if it helps that we're anonymous and whatnot. This is something I can't/don't talk to people a lot about, especially offline, so you giving me time feels special.
Anyhoo, I hope you have a happy new year nona. It sounds like it will be busy for you. I still don't know if it'll be busy for me in that way, but I appreciate your thoughts.

>>42181432
Happy New Year to you too.
Or, as they say nearby me, szczęśliwego nowego roku!

>>42181116
Maybe so. Its not for everyone, typically if this is your path its with you from a VERY young age. I used to go to bed every night wondering what my day would be like if I was a girl at 8 and wore dresses when I was 5 or 6

>>42181198
Well a number of reasons. 1. I didn’t really do any research. 2. I just figured I liked jerking off to sissy porn and would never go further.
3. I stupidly let other people kinda get in the way. I was just like any other blurry faced, nobody in the crowd. And then like 2019 I started getting all this attention from women. I had grew my hair out cuz I liked it and started dressing kind of “louder” than usual. I was getting approached and didn’t know how to handle it at first, even my female roommate of ten years, sorta like “confessed” her love to me. I didn’t like her back, but I felt like she was just trying to “reclaim” me since I was getting all this new attention. I ended up with a new gf who was into all the kinks I was in to and everything. We talked about a future and kids and stuff that never happened cuz the relationship eventually went no where. And then I got into another thing like that almost right after. Except this time, the girl was like 100 times hotter (the last girl was really overweight and hated herself, but never did anything about it) so I kinda spent a lot of time being kinda “performative” just to show the last bitch I didn’t need her 20 times over. And now that that came and went, I still liked the sissy stuff, so I figured this is what I needed

>>42181278
Yeah I used to wear my moms and sisters clothes all the time. I often wished I could wear panties as my everyday underwear cuz I liked them more. I think I just came of age too late. I mostly just want someone to spend my life with, and being openly trans seems to significantly cut down your options.

>>42181326
I wouldn't call you trans but hey, you do whatever you wanna do, freedom above all I guess
>>42181278
for me it was that I was a scared ignorant child for a while before I suddenly got hit with the "wait, gender is a thing?" at like 9 or 10, I was completely feral back then

>>42180927
Because sex is nice. And not all of us are autistic shut-ins.
Transition doesn't need to be the end of sex life. It can be (and certainly is for me) a reconstruction of the sex drive and sex life.

>t. married tranny

>>42181273
I hearby claim you to be my wife.

>>42181273
is this hsts or agp

>>42181273
Trans girls topping men is a lot more common in Asian countries. It seems like only white trannies have a hang up over it.

>>42181376
AGP trans women would never in a million years top a man.

>>42181273
Yeah I have this fantasy sometimes.
I think there's a feminine urge to feminize other men that pops up, like the dark side of the mothering instinct lol

>>42181307
I don't know if you have siblings or have paid much attention to them, but there can be two kids who grew up in the same household but end up with vastly different opinions of how good the parents were.

I hate both for reasons too sensitive to post on here, just know they're pure evil

>>42181337
Fair point.

>>42181337
Im someone who’s had siblings and doesn’t like my parents and the thing is they basically neglected me my whole life and i was the first born but with my younger siblings my mom gave them a lot more affection and love than she ever gave me growing up and i have different dad from my siblings so he wasn’t in my life very much

>>42181276
I don’t hate either of them i just don’t have love for them or even know them very well just indifference

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>>42179980
ive been offered head a bunch before but ive always denied them due to dysphoria, but if im currently curious about it now that im trying to change my mindset regarding it. so maybe!!! idkk
>>42180187
thank u!! ill ignore developmental biology and the waddington thinkg bcuz it sounds annoying though. also i love shaun too!
>>42180210
i enjoy being a woman
>>42180280
do u know where to buy online?

>>42180306
No, from that anecdote I read yesterday they DIY'd a cream? That's all I know.
Consult Your Local Orthodox Pooner.

>>42180306
Oh yeah should also say my view of gender. I don't think people have male or female brains very cleanly. I think our brains have an expected brain body mapping and multiple things can map to it that would make one more or less comfortable. Call this gender incongruence and gender congruence. Gender of course would just be one subset of this relating to sex characteristics mostly. There's an innate level that a person can't shake and a social level one can learn and unlearn. Your sense of self comes from your sensory inputs and it's this construction of self conflicting with the gender that causes issues. Auditorally you may have a more male voice, visually you may appear male, tactilely you may not have breasts on your chest. One big issue is what I call "clustering" someone who's broadly incongruent will imagine being a cluster of traits such as a woman as society presents it, see that it's broadly far more congruent than their current state and learn that as their goal and new social gender. The issue is now there's likely to be some components in there that clash with their innate gender, but if emotionally they don't cause enough dysphoria the person is liable to keep their clustered view. I personally advocate for declustering and breaking down the social gender and trying to find out your innate feelings. I've come to learn there's a large variety of potential forms I could inhabit that would make me euphoric or at least semi comfy that I can't explore given current medicine and technology.

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>>42180394
idk any pooner personally and also id be too scared to ask. cnan i ask my doctor about it?
>>42180489
ur very smart and sweet but im too high to understand dsorry

>>42181293
I think it's this:
https://www.mayoclinic.org/drugs-supplements/testosterone-topical-application-route/description/drg-20073444
If you have a doctor who understands HRT then they should understand this too.

cis people
everything would be fine on this board if not for cissies

>>42181366
i think the cisgays can stay they arent so bad. theres no cislesbians so wtvr

>>42181366
*straight people

>>42181348
if this board removed straight ppl it would actually be so much better. also theres no hsts on here so its not like we are losing out on any trans ppl

>>42178772
sry still babytran
>but lateshit
I don't make the rules. You're obliged to be here (or chasergen or wherever the vibe is best) tomorrow with us lonely-o's unless you end up with something better (even if it's just an early evening)

>>42178618
it is in the interest of the predator to thin the herd.

nai nai, keep it up peeps, I look forward to updating sig, perhaps on new year's

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>>42178136
The number one thing that keeps me alive is the knowledge that there are people who want me dead.
>>42168226
I mean, you can always try vanishing completely and like, joining the military or some other drastic action to invent a new person to be.
I sort of did a bit of A and a bit of B I just never wanted kids anyway, so I don't care about the castration thing.
Like ig it depends on why you'd want to transition.
>>42163249
If I don't do cardio pretty often, my dysmorphia/general self image tries to eat me, so like a pretty big difference and the like dopamine boost or whatever is okay to sort of even out the emotional instability a bit.
I had to stop lifting weights, though, because seeing an arm pump made me disassociate.
>>42175634
>being a lateshit has completely fucked me and there really is no hope that I could ever pass.
It's kind of a cope, but I just psyop myself into liking manmoders if I can look at other manmoders/non-passing trans women and see a good person who'd be desirable to me, at least I feel less awful about my own issues, or at least see a reality where my inability to pass doesn't prevent me from having value.
>>42178772
>around 6 months
Unfortunately, you have to wait. I'm like 9 months HRT, and I have the exact same shit going on in my head (I mean, made that obvious already), but I don't really think you can really see anything until like 18 months minimum.

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>>42180403
They'd be all "yass" and vain because they'd have security in their height and thus womanmaxx

>>42139567
male socialization

>>42180403
swallow men whole and alive if I was a big enough giantess.

>>42175759
>though schizophrenia can be treated with meds if the same applied to dysphoria where one could Completely make it disappear without gender affirming care then it would at least be more realistic
dysphoria not being treatable by antipsychotics is proof that its not a delusion tho, at least not in the medical sense. ive been on haldol and olanzapine and seroquel and countless other antipsychotics and mood stabilizers and they never interfered with my desire to be a man. most trannies dont believe themselves to be biologically identical to their desired sex so id classify dysphoria as a pure O compulsion rather than a form of psychosis.

>>42181265
>dysphoria not being treatable by antipsychotics is proof that its not a delusion
yea but that alone makes it make even less sense because at least we know what delusions are

>most trannies dont believe themselves to be biologically identical to their desired sex
of course, but if only there were a way to stop wanting to "desire" being a certain sex...

>>42180656
incels are willing to be fags out of desperation so they fit here

>>42179591
but you're just a wimpy loser failmale with a shrunken dick lol
what would chad possibly be interested in doing with someone like you

>>42181000
Ummmm??
Because she's a WOMAN and WOMEN deserve the best???

>>42181000
meanie

>>42180986
some are even trannymaxxing

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the real question you should be asking is who wants to plough my mangina

>>42181261
I also think there's an effect in irl troon spaces where even tho left "mogs" right, in practice right is given tons of social deference due to being physically larger and more intimidating.
In irl troon spaces it is the gigahon or manmoder who has the most social status, not the passoid.

Also usually even gigapassoids will be mogged by the manmoders gf. I.e. they tend to always be surrounded by cis gigastacies

>>42181288
You people chat a lot of shite.