I just broke up with my girlfriend. They deserve a real, healthy woman and not a mentally ill troon like me. But I miss them already. Will you all help convince me that I made the right decision?
>>42201677Just have to stand strong on your convictions
>>42200784Shit book ngl. I hate George Orwell so fucking much.
>>42200649Holy shit I'm literally going through the same thing. I'm the highest level of mentally ill and it's carving out my brain and making me hollow and want to live alone in the woods and maybe kill myself if I get bored. I'm actually cooked and she deserves better than a negligent schizoid.You're probably just over reacting and projecting your internalized transphobia though OP. There's hope if you just let yourself love. If this is compulsive you probably have a personality disorder like avoidant or borderline, that or rocd. Get therapy either way.
>>42201987Also you probably need medication op. What diagnoses do you have if any?
>>42201857>>42201987Now that I've calmed down a bit (and talked to them some), I don't think I'm going through with it. Maybe I'm just a bad person, but I love them too much to cut them out of my life completely.>>42202028All I've been diagnosed with is Asperger's, but you wouldn't be able to tell. OCD and bipolar disorder run in my family a little bit though, and I have a history of self-harm, suicidal ideation, and eating disorders. I'm also extremely rejection sensitive if that helps any. I may be anxious too.
>LargeAre the trans girls who announce their penis sizes like this AGP or HSTS?
>>42200266I was gonna say the same thing. >Brazilian >trannyOf course is a prostitute or OF whore and they're all fishing for a green card, so always be careful.
>>42201203Why can't they be a prostitute for me alone, and the payment is citizenship in a first world country and half of my king size bed?
>>42197939Big shoulders
>>42200299what's your job anon?
Hsts, for jeeps it ruins the fantasy.
The entire idea of it is silly and down right fetishistic. To remove a "boy" is impossible for another person to do, transition is something that you must do your self.
>>42199297Boyremovalist here. I've removed 3 boys. It is in fact entirely real.
>>42200277are they ok?
>>42200331One femboy coped then transitioned, the other two started girlmoding. So I guess if you consider being a tranny ok then yeah.
yeah when i read that smut its always agp as hell. like “now i CANT be a boy anymore” - i don’t think men should arbit that, and gay bottoms get fucked just as intensely anyway. that being said getting totally mindwiped from getting fucked out does keep the worms at bay.
>>42200405i have a feeling this is how it's destined to go down for me too
Sometimes... i get consumed by my anger....... it makes me feel like an agent of vengeance.... its so hard to resist it sometimes... the frustration the anger... I also.. seem to be addicted to confrontation.i like being anti social.. i enjoy scaring people. I like their fear, cherish it... i consume it... i am essentially a force of domination.. i was born to dominate... . I enjoy taking people's arguments apart, i like embarrassing them in front of others, neutralizing them... stripping them bare until they are pure, reduced to a pebble underneath me...
>>42199401Is this a known person?
>>42199409He's most commonly known as office retard, he avatarfags all the time and used a trip before.Also please see the PSA>>42196558
>>42199212Knox's 7thIt is forbidden for the detective to be the culprit
>>42199442I dont think im much of a detective these days....
Office autist is a girl and her threads are fun
if you're not pretty you're not transit really is that simple. you can be an agp gooner i guess and guilt trip people into calling you by she/her pronouns or something.
Where did you get this picture of me?
What games do trans girls play?
I'm a "man"moder and I play mostly tf2 and Halo Infinite, don't really like replaying single player games tho I just finished MP4 and Kirby Air Riders, so fun.
>>42200377my taste in games is pretty eclectic, but i tend to stick to games that- are relaxing and i dont suck at them (sometimes, i like playing on hard modes to challenge myself)- have a good story- are horror (except jumpscares. fuck jumpscares)- just generally fun to playparticular games i like: house flipper, black ops 3 (just for zombies), resident evil 2, devil may cry 3, payday 2, and cyberpunk 2077.
>>42200377.....paradox games
>>42200377milk gamesjacob geller gamesthe sims
Is anyone here going to play hytale when it comes out?
Ok so for a while I've known my bf is lowkey not very smart but the past few days have been worrying me that he is actually retarded or smth because that feels like the only thing that would explain it.>be me, 22 bi mtf midshit>met bf at a concert, he's cute, nice face and muscular, lowkey would've bullied me pretrans>we started dating a few months ago and have rlly hit it off, he's kind and gentle but rough when i need him to be>a few weeks ago he took me out on an actually date at a nice italian restaurant>when he orders he sounds out "lasag-na" like he's never read the word before>ask him about it after the waiter is gone and he just says he's used to english menus>later we are driving to my parent's house>feeling kinda nervous but he reassures me that it's going to be ok>we get to a light and i tell him to turn left>he turns right>wth why did you do that>he says that he would've had to hold up his hands to tell which way is left and he didn't want to put me in danger while im in the car>wahtComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>42202023He does sound retarded. Crazy he got his drivers licence
>>42202023Himbo energy
>>42202023Marry him
>>42202023>>explain while half sobbing that they were calling me by my deadname and trying to hurt me and it worked>>he gets a shocked look on his face and goes "oh shit wait I lowkey forgot about that"No i totally get that, that's not being retarded, he just views you as a girl so he totally forgets about how you used to be a boy, he's totally conditioned
>>42202043He has a decent job selling cars for his dad, I think he can handle himself. I think he's just a bit goofy sometimes and didn't learn enough stuff as a kid growing up.>>42202055He wrecked the first 2 cars he got from his dad for free lmao, but his 3rd one is ok(if not for a few dings and scratches) I think he's being more careful now since he knows 3 strikes is the limit
For me it was just sheer guilt and fear and knowing I was some kind of freak and not being able to tell anyone about my issues because my only exposure to trannies was fucking terrifying + no knowledge of HRT until it was too late. t. lateshit HRTrepper here who is unfortunately spending his New Year's frustrated about not being a youngshit.
>>42194815cried and disassociated a lot around when i started puberty but couldn't transition by myself due to no income and insanely transphobic familyi'm now just starting 1 month in at 21 years old but the thought that puberty has done insane amounts of unwanted change to my body makes me upset and i don't even know why i'm continuing the path im in its doomed
>>42194815i realized i was trans at 12 and it took me 2.5 years to find someone irl who would give me hrt. so probably lack of diy knowledge. this is why diypilling people is so important. i could've passed so much better if i had known earlier.
Puberty started at 9, knew at 10, didn't know about or have any concept of transitioning. Grew up brown and poor so my only exposure to trannies was "man-in-dress" punchlines on TV, and kids in school beating up their "secret" trans gfs. Then I went through a kiwifarms/r9k phase.I only stopped repping this summer when I learned about DIY. I was enough of a luckshit to start passing 4 months in. Not flawlessly, but enough to change my documents and live quietly as a suspiciously young-looking man. I go gym now, and overall take much better care of myself. It hurts knowing I could have been an unclockable gigapassoid by now if I wasn't retarded, and I was living on my own as a teenager anyway. But I let estrogen give me E cups and 101cm hips and keep me at 165cm. Life is cruel but it's also funny, and in any case I'm happier as a mid male than a cute/hot woman.>>42200058Fellow 22shit, I hope your beard is coming in nicely
first person i ever came out to (fat gigahon) sexually assaulted all of my friends but not me (i was 14 at the time and all my friends (including “her”) were like 16-18). that made me rep for a few years until it caught up with me and i started diying at 17. kept it totally secret until a couple years ago when i was 21. im like a semipassoid/twinkhon now. my parents would have been supportive. i might have wound up a couple inches shorter, maybe my apple/brow wouldn’t be as bad, i would have had “female”/tranny socialization those years instead of awkward fem gay male socialization. i try not to think about it.
>>42194815I thought dysphoria would go away since being trans was very unacceptable, it didn't, I trooned out at 19 but by that time puberty had passed and now I'm a 6'2 bitterhon
foamer editionq what are your favorite transit vehiclesq2 if you could drive any transit vehicle what would you drive>>42144666
>>42200887actually good - stoned, made a pretty good dinner earlier, watching football and doing my nailsnever kill yourself or whatever
>>42201097based how are you doing them??
>>42198199yeah i want to be inbetween too, i know enbys are a joke but thats how i feel at this point. i almost roped 5 years ago with how depressed i was over masculinising, but that doesnt make me a girl, or want to be one, i dont even want to say im a trans woman, its just not me. i wish there was a hormone that just disabled testosterone and you could just be a non masculinising male, but this is what we have.
>>42201577have a dark blue I like, think I managed not to fuck it up
Everything is so shit. Even among the LGBT community, you're still stereotyped and shoved into a box.Gay people completely fucking normalize that shit too, and they pretend as if the hatred and dehumanization is all just a "joke" but we all know it's not.
im a mtf with decent bottom dysphoria (as in i can kinda cope with it, but i dont really like thinking about it or acknowledging it in any real way) but i constantly fantasize about plowing boys and making them my bitch.i do not share this same sentiment for girls and if anything would make me have a complete breakdown over dysphoria, so why is it different for boys? my only guess is that it spawned from my vaguely misandrist attitudes to men + generally bad experiences with men sexually so as a result ive internalized it as a kink for fucking boys and making them submit to me as revenge. idk fully though.is this fem/malebrained? agp/aap? based/cringe? what does this mean for me? do cis women also think about this sometimes?
>>42201739desu turns me on a lot to think of myself as a straight man while pinned down by a guy, stupid agp
>>42201713ugh. i wish i had a twink i could just plow regularly...they are soooo cuteee>>42201739so if im not agp, am i aap maybe? i feel like revenge-fucking(?) is something one could only do if they embraced their inner masculine rage.>>42201765ive never understood the appeal of hips, idk why. i like a nicely shaped ass but seeing someones curves would never turn me on.
>>42201868I know a cute twink who's stuck in hell (Missouri) and I've contemplated adopting him but the power dynamic would be so fucking weird and I'm also like seriously ill...
>>42201868it's about how the waist flares into hips n ass and about the submission too so a reversal of roles and making him my bitch fembrained
You're attracted to men. Most women would be the same if they had a dick, hell some are like that without having a dick.
will you pass this year?
>>42200629underbust man/woman may you give a poor 17 bideltoid 5'9 haver some hopefuel
>>42200485Wife material
>>42196057>will you pass this year?be so for real
>>422017945'9" = 175.26cm175cm bideltoid = 45.3±2.8cm female, 47.8±2.5cm male17" = 43.18cmYour bideltoid isn't actually a problem for your height and/or you measured yourself wrong.
>>42201873Lis you're a beautiful woman
How have they changed? What's similar?
>>42200677I have once
>>42200402they look like this now
>>42200693Well maybe you just need to relax and experiment more. Take your time, don't feel like you're in a rush. Don't try to insert anything right away just try to play with the opening and stimulate the nerves that are there.
>>42200402sexual access was much more limited for gay men back then, so life was much slower but also more difficult socially, and more rewarding when you found someone you love and can be with. Nowadays sexual accessibility is too high and instant gratification ruins relationships because people become replaceable and it's easy to move on and find another person to fuck.
>>42201928Yeah. People in general aren't too loyal these days Always talking about "cracking" people who aren't their partners and stuff
Becoming aware of meta-attraction mindbroke me. I am no longer comfortable with women, cis or trans, and I even resent a big part of gay men. I only want real attraction but as a man its practically impossible to acquire from women, unless you're a verifiable gigachad, and even then its largely contextual, as evidenced by womens romance novels. To put it plainly, cis women and troons just view men as accessories to their sexuality.How the fuck do I cope?
Avoid psychopaths and narcissists. It's not that hard to tell if someone actually loves you and not all trannies are meta attracted crossdressing skinwalkers.
>>42201328thats all women whether cis or trans doe
>>42198138This. Most women have raw attraction but it's not instant like ours unless you are seriously good looking. They are something more like demisexual, this is why hookups are so deeply unfulfilling for them. Trans women can be the same or they can be meta attracted, it's not one size fits all.
>>42198244>>42198226>Only top 5% of all men will ever make me horny in any way shape or form.Fembrained as fuck
>>42201768Cope
I let him sleep on the couch and he stays there as long if he dares to repeat the words: 'I find Amy whine-house better than Silvie Vartan'. Sylvie was before Madonna, Sylvie will not be defeated and certainly not by Amy Whine-house
>>42201571fuck off amy winehouse was an angel and one of the greatest vocalists of all time and back to black is my go to dissociation album
>>42201993>>42201993I simply disagree. At large in this case
would you trust a tranny to fly your plane?would you feel comfortable with a tranny as your captain or first officer?do you think trannies should even be allowed to become pilotchads??
If I heard a tranny pilot's voice over the loudspeaker in an airplane I would not feel safer than I have in my entire life. She could crash the plane, I would let her kill me.
>>42201607my gunner doesn't need to be a puppygirl they can be anyshcming, cis man, gay man, any afab, etc
>>42201664then in that case you’ll find a gunner in no time!!
>>42201653I don’t know how to interpret this, do you mean you don’t care if a tranny sucks as a pilot or if it one is a tranny you get scared? me no understand
>>42201814No I'm just retarded and used a double negative by accident. I would feel safer than I had in my entire life. I would feel so safe, id let her crash the plane and kill us all bcs I would trust her intentions
