Where do we go. The world is against us and they refuse to educate the masses
>>43143847>2020>list of public government officials = HIPPAA breaking list of random, politically uninvolved peopleOh, to be this retarded
>>43143925Ok but you still said it wasnt forced when it is. I personally would use it out of politeness and respect for their feelings. But thats not what you argued, but i see youre not going to admit that
>>43143935Did I say anything about HIPAA, you retard?You said lists, I showed a link of somebody actually promoting the idea of creating lists of people.A politician at that.
>>43143994Also:“Remember what they did,” the group’s sparse website declares. “We should not allow the following groups of people to profit from their experience: Those who elected him. Those who staffed his government. Those who funded him.”"Those who elected him" and "those who funded him" would not simply imply "politicians"
>>43141501>all those transbians sleeping together in one placeIMAGINE THE FUCKING SMELL
Im 6 mo on E and idk if its a good idea to keep going or not. The problem is that sometimes i really like the effects, but other times i get anxious i wont like them (especially regarding breast growth).Sometimes ill like see myself in the mirror and like how my face and skin look more feminine now. Or ill see myself topless or in a sports bra in the mirror and like how i actually have breasts/curves now.Occasionally (maybe like once a week-ish?) these feelings get very strong and i get super emotional seeing myself like this. Like i start happy crying or jumping up and down in joy about how i look more female now and about how i love having breasts and stuff...On the other hand, usually when im not in front of a mirror/not looking at myself in third person, i get anxious. What if ill dislike having breasts? What if i dislike them already? Like i might brush up against them with my arm, and feel a bit weirded out or unsure how i feel about them being there.Or i see a woman with a big chest and wonder about how "that looks kinda uncomfortable" and get anxious id end up like and would dislike it.Its also that these anxious thoughts are really hard to shake off. They are almost constant.Im also confused because there seems to be a seperation. Where when i see myself in third person i enjoy the effects. And when im in first person i get a bit anxious.This isnt 100% clear cut, sometimes i see myself in the mirror and doom about having a broad shoulder and ribcage, or get upset at how my boobs look weirdly like pecs and a lil odd on my wide ribcage. Or im not looking at myself in third person and still like how my breasts dent my clothes out a bit, or i like how i can feel them move or i like how soft my skin feels.Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>43138495separate external responsesimagine a set of scenarios where you are the only person aroundwould you take e or not?sounds like you are doing good but don't want to be 'visibly trans' or whatever
>>43142460Hmmm ok, i really hope thats true, i dont want to have made a massive mistake with this :C.Altho i gotta say im also surprised that you say this is common. In my mind its like most trans women would definitely want breasts and are pretty sure about that no?But also it makes sense ig cuz its like the biggest and most obvious change, which is partially why im so conflicted and anxious about it as well.
Ok so i just got out of bed and looked at myself in the mirror topless and fucking loved having breasts.If anything i might have wanted them to be a bit more breast shaped and bigger and less pec-like/cone-tit like. So i dont have to angle myself at a very specific like 45 degree-ish where they look round and noticeable enough to make me happy i have curves, but not angled so far that it becomes apparent that they have more of a cone tit shape.So idk ig we can cancel the thread lol. But also not really becaue, somehow, in spite of me literally just 10 min ago having been super happy that my chest looks more female, im still scared i might be making a mistake or that i will dislike them when they get bigger...Idk ideally id want like small but very well shaped breasts. But ofc i cant guarantee that, and im scared ill end up with massive round ball like honkers instead, that will be apparent no matter what i wear.Instead of like cute, smaller, tear drop shaped ones that only tastefully dent out shirts and such a bit :C.
make sure you're writing all of this shit down in a journal you crazy bitchit might help you to look back on this in 12 months when you're dooming about whatever's going on then
>>43143956Well these posts/threads are actually partially my journal lol. (I screenshot them/download the webpages when they get archived lmfao).I also have an app on my phone to track how often i like HRT effects and how often i like my current breasts.The former is currently averaging like ~16 occurences of liking any HRT effects per week. And ~10 occurences of specifically liking my breast growth per week lol.Altho some measures indicate otherwise. I also track how often i dislike my male features and that is only averaging like ~4 times per week. Or how often i get envious of women is only ~4 times per week. Or how often i get envious of boobs/want bigger/more developed ones is only ~2 times per week...Altho there is some reporting bias, like ik i have things in there im supposed to track but just dont (as much) as they actually occur. Where as for other trackers i keep up much better.Additionally i also have a folder of pics and videos of myself on my phone where i was super happy about how i look. Videos of me toplessly talking into a mirror about how happy i am i look more female now and have curves and breasts (a bit), in between sobs because i was so happy i cried, are surprisingly effective at convincing me that maybe im doing the right thing after all lol.Mayb i should start an actual journal too tho,,,, idk.
am i stupid? i would like a lean/built male body but my face disgusts me. its conventionally "handsome" but i think i look horrible. maybe im just too gaunt and eating more and working out would fix me. i go on and off e because i want it to fix my hollow cheeks but body changes distress me. generally i just think i have that asshole physiognomy. like a douchebag finance bro "handsome" face. i dont like it. and im getting older and starting to look like my dad lmao.this could just be a weight thing, i definitely have an eating disorder. I eat maybe one full meal every day or every other day. lately i havent been sleeping. but eating more both on and off e is distressing to me, im scared of the change.not discounting the possibility that i am just trans and hate my face because it's masculine. i find the female body attractive and wouldnt be the end of the world if i had one i guess. but i like the male one.
>>43143670Sounds like dysphoria to me. I was more or less the same when repping. That doesn't necessarily mean it actually is dysphoria, but it might be worth looking into more
> As a chaser, I hate being GAMP, as most trannies find that my exclusive attraction to them invalidates their identities as women> Therefore, I have decided to cave into my AGP and obtain the physiology of a tranny so that my chaser mind, in the body of a fully transitioned tranny will make me capable of fulfilling my own GAMP desires> I will manmode and hide my body since it will be mine and mine alone to enjoyWhat are the odds of this going horribly wrong?
>>43143131>>43143159I hope you two make out sloppy style
>>43143270Yeah uh no you're about as trutrans as you can get, I wouldn't worry about it
I tell my gf constantly that I'm a chaser I tell everyone constantly I'm a chaser "no ur not, trannies can't be chasers"It is literally fucking impossible to be seen as a chaser by some trannies. you can say it to them at face value and they will just ignore it. I'm GAMP as FUCK and they don't care. trannies are so fuciing easy when you're also one.
>>43143312because chaser isnt a real thingit just means "person attracted to me that i am not attracted to back"
it's a great plan you're definitely a chaser dw about this identity stuff for nowinject estrogen today
imagine if full dive VR comes out and the early transitioner starbucks barista troons have to witness fat bald money stacking google engineer manmoders becoming anime girls of their dreams without becoming ostracized due to transition
>>43143965>imagine if vtubers but like 3d and shit.
its hard to figure out whos who
I love ftm pussy
>>43142960god I hate being the ugly race
>>43143262brown?
>>43143271yellow...
What is your opinon on the prominent transgender artist Ethel Cain posting cock and balls on instagram on transgender visibility day?
>>43133973based asf. idk how to explain it but the average person just does not understand what years of proper doses of HRT does to someone in their 20s and the more normies see of the twinkhon body the more they understand. like in OP photo thats clearly a tranny but also clearly built for bottoming.
>>43143856Years of hrt makes your hair longer and makes your camera take low quality filtered photos
>>43143867and just like that i know you haven't experienced it or seen it in person
>>43142745>Trump raped and murdered childrenCan I get some sauce for that please?Links to criminal charges, police investigations, etc. would be fantastic. Thank you.
>>43143842tasteful nude != gross dick pic you fucking lunaticalso "considered by normies" "feminine behaviour" wtf is wrong with you people touch grass
I’ve coped all the different ways and I think for a while I genuinely just didn’t want bottom surgery even if the outcome was perfect but now I’m extremely depressed and endlessly searching for srs secrets is only making me more depressed. I wish the surgeries were more advanced. I wish your ph was actually acidic after. I wish there was a spot at the end kinda like a cervix so you not having one doesn’t stand out.It’s not about approximation to a cis woman because really and truly Idgaf but that part is designed like it is for a reason and I know I would be happier as well as have a lot more convenience in life if I had it.Has anyone here had bottom surgery? Are there any secrets I just don’t know about? If it’s not self cleaning I’m sorry I understand why you got it but I don’t want it. If it’s not a extremely close approximation with all the conveniences I’m sorry I understand why you did but I don’t want to
>>43143958it was ppt
>>43143884What method did you have done?
oops just saw your replywho did you go to surgeon wise though?
and would you recommend that surgeon to others or do you think others should go to someone else?
>>43143966>>43143970ppt is best method but he doesn't do it anymore sadlyand he did very few when he did and i may be unique on this site so i don't like to say
I will learn to accept that I am a cis man
>>43143753>>43143722Thanks for the explanation. I relate to your words; it feels like the kind of game I would play for hours during a 3pm paranoid self-hatred induced existential crisis of being a faketrans.Also it’s really sweet and endearing hearing you two talking about their art.I wonder what you would think of Vividlope. It’s the polar opposite. If you’re interested I would gift it to you on Steam. Maybe you’d hate it. It’s much better than it looks. It makes me feel uplifted even though it’s supposed to just be a simple arcade game
>>43143753I had to. It's the least I could do Also, sry for not getting back on discord. I feel really burnt out, and that emotionally engaging and honest communication quite exhausting
>>43143335fuck you op you never answered me
>>43143820>the kind of game I would play for hours during a 3pm paranoid self-hatred induced existential crisis of being a faketransYeah, kinda. Except that I played the game prior to even considering trooning. Still was paranoid and full of self hatred though>I wonder what you would think of VividlopeI looked it up, and it looks really cool. I'll definitely check it out in the near future and post about it in the thread >If you’re interested I would gift it to you on SteamOnly if you let me gift you a game you wish to play, which costs at least the same as Vividlope
>>43143335>>43143981Sorry sorry. I really think you can learn to accept it, and your almost certainly on the right path, as this just sounds like the bargaining/depression phase of having to deal with grief.Ygmi nona, I believe in you
Every person I've been with, trans or cis, has said that I'm very attractive and rate me pretty high, anywhere from 8-9.5/10. Where can I meet a pretty trans girl who's also around that rating? I'm not socially awkward or weird or anything of that nature, so its not like im fumbling. i just can't find a cute trans girl irl is basically impossible. but looking online on dating apps is also quite difficult since trans people in general dont seem to use those sorts of apps. I'm guessing most trans girls just stay indoors mostly or stick to hobbies / interests that dont have them interact with a lot of people? which places do i look in online and in person. I dont mind putting myself out there i just dont know what places to put myself in to let a cute trans girl know that i am available and interested in getting to know her better.
>>43142974The way you reached out to her does seem kind of weird and bizarre, to be honest. I think there's some times in life where you just have to accept that you fucked up and move on, and learn to not make the same mistake twice. I imagine it's even harder for you to move on because you viewed so highly of her, and I think that's kind of the issue itself. When you put someone on a pedestal, you begin to treat them differently. And I doubt there are very many people out there, at least reasonable people, who want to be treated that much differently from others. Sorry for your loss.
>>43143286It was because I didn't want her to accept the friend request, the steam account was deleted after the fact. I don't really understand how you extrapolated the second half of your comment from what I said nor does it really fit desu. Sometimes it's better to take things at face value instead of attempting to fill in the blanks with none of the context. Just jarring projection.
>>43143286Also I'll have to disagree with this comment entirely. When you love someone, you're going to think highly of them. Our friendship fell apart for a lot of reasons but it was never a case of one of us loving the other too much. She's stuck in my mind both because she abused me and because I still love her in spite of that fact. She's not on a pedestal in my mind, I truly think she's a pretty bad person due to her myriad of issues and the way she treats people. But that doesn't change that I hurt her as I spiraled in ways I didn't want to. My accountability and desire to change isn't dependent on her getting better or changing. I want to take account for the things I did without worrying about what she did to me.It's frustrating to have people comment on relationships as if one side is always correct and one is always wrong, especially when you lack any context. I don't know what experience you're projecting from but don't assume I share it.
>>43143751>>43143802No need to get offended. My bad.
>>43132626>Every person I've been with, trans or cis, has said that I'm very attractive and rate me pretty high, anywhere from 8-9.5/10. I don't think you will ever get an honest rating from people you know unless they are stonecold autists.
Trying my darndest Editionprevious: >>43093245 (Fell into the void) >>42892152Goal of the thread: Make a shopping list of things that you need, consider if there is any self care things you might be missing!Daily goals can be repeated. Remember to keep score, it can only go up!>What is this thread for?Getting better is hard, and sucks. A lot. It does not get easier doing it alone.Share resources and experiences with combating depression, anxiety, personal issues, achieving or maintaining a healthy weight, etc.>Why is this thread /lgbt/?Struggles with mental and physical health are an indisputable part of /lgbt/ life, be it from dysphoria, social pressure, heartbreak, or just unfortunate lifestyle choices.>Notes to consider:Please be civil. Shame is your greatest enemy in fighting urges of self abuse (be it sh, drugs, or just self deprecation). Relapsing into bad and unhealthy habits is to be expected, the goal is to increase the average amount of time it takes between relapses. Any improvement is a victory no matter how small. Your worth and right to get better are non-negotiable. And most importantly:WE ARE NOT THERAPISTS, WE DON'T REPLACE MEDICATION>Note on adviceComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
I shouldn't have taken Ritalin yesterday afternoon. I pulled an accidental all-nighter. Welp, almost time to take some more Ritalin
I haven't earnestly posted here since I dropped out of uni yet again. I've made progress on the mental health front. My bajillion psychiatric diagnoses got undone, and I got diagnosed with ADHD instead. This is the first diagnosis that feels correct, apart from depression. I'm still coming to terms with the fact that I probably got wrongfully involuntarily committed and (mis)treated for schizophrenia. Feels kinda unreal.Reminds me, I recently stumbled across Dr. Gabor Matè. He's a physician and writer with some really interesting ideas regarding mental health and society in general. I thought I'd share two of his videos with y'all that were pretty eye-opening for me:https://youtu.be/DvUoBswzsTohttps://youtu.be/krZmYALUqhM>>43137537>There is, Anon. Neither you nor the femboys your age that feel the same deserve to die alone, don't you think?I guess my age is just a dumb excuse that I use. One part of me really wants a boyfriend, but I'm genuinely so insecure about my body... and also I'm scared of messing it up again. I keep hurting people by breaking up for no reason, thus leading them on...>>43137586He really is a sweetheart...
>>43137625>Hm, what kind of wants do you think of, what usually gets in the way, internally?Various artistic thingsI have to make a whole thing out of getting conditions right so it takes at least a day to prepare and then hope nothing by chance gets in the way to make me feel like not doing anythingAnd more complicated skilled stuff like drawing and music production feels like a total pipe dream at this point
>>43143153Have you heard the good news of our Lord and Savior "Atomic Habits" by James Clear
>page 8Travel day today, don't think there will be much from me today.
Imagine how satisfying it would be to call an mtf tranny who is utterly convinced he is stealth a male to his face.
>>43143915trans women are shaved men with long hair
>>43143919you dont need to shave to be a woman chud
>>43143919at least you recognized we don't need a wig
>>43143868are you a tranny and would love me to do that to you?
>>43143923show me all the hairy trans women you can
would you come to where the flavor is?
>>43139622hug
>>43136051yeah...
>>43139622let her
>>43136051have her take me to flavortown
how about chocolate chip muffins from a boymoder?
>not comfortable in straight male social or sexual roles >people can tell you are kind of off, but you're not gay enough to own the gay label >fantasize about transition but once you realize the amount of surgery and effort that goes into it you realize it's not for you >can't pick a path, you become a shell of a person>die of alcoholism, last memory of you is your mom finding the amazon prime fishnet drawer
>mild agp>describes crippling gender dysphoriaEverytime with these reppers
>>43143139Unironically what do you think severe agp is?
>>43143793When you can't live as man anymore?
>>43143940And you call this living?
>>43143949Not OP, but the only area of my life that is truly dysfunctional due to having AGP are relationships and sex. So what, I'll die a virgin.
It is not natural to live in societies this big, and for the forests and the spirits to be owned by government is terribly disturbing. I think many of us have a instinctive desire to settle somwhwre on the forest and build own home. After all, humans have a great love for survivalist games. Even something as basic as minecraft shows the inherent nature within man. There is a desire to roam free and CHOOSE where one lives. Be it a mountain, or a forest or creek. Its all just not right that we are ESSENTIALLY forced to live in these big sprawling cities. I think the most natural deaire of man is to find a spot in the forest, to cut down trees, and build a home of rock and wood and maybe clay. That is the most natural nesting behavior of man. But just as pigeons are forced into the rodent role of survival within a concrete jungle, so toi are we humans forced to coexist with this society we have created.
