My boyfriend left me in late october. Its been really difficult since and just repeat episodes of me getting drunk and blowing up his phone every couple of nights. Hes also dating someone else. Last night ended up with him insulting me and me threatening him until i said something like the only reason he has been able to hurt me up until then was that I loved him implying that he had just killed that. He replied with "can i try something" and started talking to me lovingly the way he did when we dated... It made me tell him i was just gonna go to sleep i cant read this and he started begging me to stay and not leave his life. I told him he can stop pretending and that he won i wont try to hurt him anymore. We talked for a little while deescalated like that. Then he offered me if i wanted him to pretend a bit more.... I took him up on it and we spent the night acting like boyfriend and girlfriend and i asked him to say some things and act in certain ways i had begun to find triggering ever since he left, i thought it could help me feel a little less traumatised for some reason like i was reclaiming my trauma..obviously didnt workOur last interaction is now him sending me off to sleep and calling me love and saying he will sleep by my side and keep me safe. I think this is the best time there will ever be for my death. Im sorry i will not be able to keep my promise to not hurt myself S you were the only good thing in my life and ill die loving you im so thankful you gave me a comforting night at the end even if it was ultimately just pretendIll love you and be yours forever
>>42151009you need a boyfriend
Imagining a life without you is dreadful and the short call you gave me last new year at midnight because i told you i was spending it alone should be such a nice memory but knowing no thing or that will be happening this time makes me hurt and not want to be here to witness thatI have tried to not love you and to move on for a long time even before we dated and you know that and i never succeeded. I can imagine that you roll your eyes whenever i called you the love of my life but now that its finished because i lost you in a way that confirms it. I just dont have it in me to persist with everything in my life only ever being so terrible and my love gone with no forecast of returning im sorry that i invited you into the mess that was my life and i hope you never figure out that i did this. It was only a matter of time in the end and it was never going to get better and you deserved better than to be made to involve yourself in my mess. I feel like i unconsciously spent so much of the passed evening trying to convince you i would be ok and to make you not suspect i was going to off myself before the new year. If i lost someone i was willing to go so far for and who i dedicated every part of myself to whenever he asked then i have all the proof i will ever need that i am truly unlovable. And as you told me once long before we began dating, that your life had no destination without love back then, that sentiment echoes inside of my mind ever since i fell for you. I know that no matter how long i live and process this grief i will never overcome this self hatred. I love you forever. Your dani, always
I’m was planning on breaking up with my partner today and it’s so hard. they cheated on me and I still love them. I’ve just been crying all week every night. every time I think of how much I rely on them and every little thing we do together
Gay sex edition>QOTT: Have you ever had gay sex?>QOTT2: Did you enjoy it?>QOTT3: If not, why?Last thread: >>42106130
>>42151858everybody gets old and dies but some lived their life exercising agency and some didn't and some made compromises >what we do in life echoes in eternity
tfw i wake up and go through another day of taking the castration pills, meticulously researched supplement stack and 8 step skincare routine in the hopes of looking like a slightly less ugly caveman
>>42152121I cant believe mr beast would do thay
I'd like to take it for the mental effects. Idgaf about any physical changes atp i dont live my house anyway.The perfect life would be to be on the pills and have a slightly less fucked daily cycle and a remote job and thats it. No gf, no friends, no grand adventure to change or uncover my identity.Just chill in the solitude.
I just take hrt for the emotional range and skin/hair benefits. Maybe it's just dysphoria but I'm dead inside and unable to really feel anything on T.
The purpose of the historical Real Life Experience (RLE) without HRT for MtF was twofold:>Most trannies look like ordinary men if not adorned with unambiguously female-coded clothing and styling e.g. skirt, long hair, makeup, heels. Requiring female presentation instead of unisex ensured the patient was not simply functioning as a man during the RLE.>HRT does little for most patients. Requiring RLE without HRT showed patients what the rest of their life would likely be, without requiring any medical intervention and risk of associated complications.We must bring back the RLE to improve transition healthcare.
>>42152516>very few physical changesWhat kind of cheap bummy ass Temu hrt were they given?
>>42152509>>42152516>look like man>take hrt>look like man with moobs
>>42152535Prolly a "hondose" (the kind that works fine for true intershits)
>>42152456You'd figure that after all these years the psyops would improve, right?
>>42152563>t. would have failed RLE
QOTT:How do you feel about the objective fact that trannies can keep 20 threads alive at once, and cis f*moids can't keep one?>Reminder: This gen is for cis homosexual females (lesbians). All trans-related or bisexual posts are considered off-topic and should be directed to other generals or threads. No discussion of male (XY) anatomy.Discords:>OG Discord: https://pastebin.com/P644WESi>clg2 Discord: https://pastebin.com/1ct1Fcag>clg3 Discord: https://pastebin.com/emrpgWM8Previous thread:>>41990116
I think I'm getting sick. My throat burns a little like I got acid reflux or I spit up a little, my nose is running and my chest feels bubbly when I breathe. I'm not coughing yet, but I can feel the urge.
>>42149819Get well soon anon
Buff lady of the day
>>42147669i don't really get the point of remakes when the original is already pretty much a masterpiece (like silent hill 2)
did you have a good christmas clg?
> be shopping at Goodwill> go to the clothing aisle> there's a ton of pride shirts > $1 each> buy them all up> smuggle them all to different 3rd world countries via charities> gay pride worldwide> every other country is better off now> thank you lgbtq
schizo thread
>>42151887>> smuggle them all to different 3rd world countries via charitiesYou know they can be executed for owning LGBT propaganda right?
other psa thread died so i'm gifting y'all a new one for christmas.DO NOT REPLY TO BAIT.>you should just be a feminine man>all trannies are evil pedophiles>i would never ever fuck a troon because i'm straight and you can't make me>i'm ftm why do mtfs hate us>i'm mtf why do ftms hate us>look at my debunked study from 2004 that proves all fags are pedophiles>dae love bbc and want to be a white sissy sex slave in the bnwo>i'm g and i think we need to drop the t>i'm a real lesbian and i think all transbians are rapehon monsters and all other lesbians think that too btw>i want to breed an ftm and make her my little tomboy bitch>i'm a cishet man and i hate women and i should be allowed to talk about that here because lgbt has t which is transGENDER so this is the gender board and this isn't off-topic>look at my cute little ai boymoder and her ai bottom boyfriend come generate more ai boymoders with meif you see any posts like these, especially if they have a frog or 'jak picrel, they're bait. report it, put "sage" in options if you must reply, hide the thread, and move on.Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
i'm sick waaaaaahhh
>>42151317can i rub your belly
>>42151319would that helpit is sinal
bump
terfs would be less transphobic if they were given the opportunity to peg men
>>42152072sure jan, and that's why you're on 4chan
>>42152075I'm here cause I can freely express my opinions here and talk with cute trans boys
>>42152085TERFs and fetishizing trans men. Many such cases.
>>42151119I'm ready to do everything for a terf gf>>42151842No, they are pretty and an amazing
>>42151119Not everything is a sexual fetish, you weird gender freak. People dislike you for more than just that.
What is the LGBT equivalent of asking straight men if they prefer blondes or brunettes? Mascs or femmes?
>>42152484My favorite is:>Are you bi or pan?
I'm in my 30s now and I'm going to get in shape try my best to be attractive and find a partner and if it doesn't work out I'm killing myself by 2030Does that sound like a good plan?
>>42150146Sounds like a plan. Start today though, otherwise you'll forever keep telling yourself "tomorrow I'll change".
>>42150146I think it sounds like a planim 18mtf so maybe ill give myself until 2032
>>42150146Good plan nona
>>42150146All we need is one more year, this year will be different!
>>42150146Yeah 4 years should be enough time to see if life gets better good luck
This show is going to breed a generation of fujoshisIts everything a fujo could dream of, the hockey is more a pretense than anything its so fucking horny
>>42150498too busy doing hookups and orgies
>>42150498>Why don't cisgays make their own TV shows and romance manga n shit?The Jews control the media and wouldn't allow any non-homophobic gay programming.
This thread proves that cis gays are women and deserve to be treated as such.
>>42150714Meant to say *fem cis gays
>>42150656Can't the cisgays just learn to animate, set up a patreon, and go from there? What about manga and webtoons? General comics, or mixed-media projects online?>>42150645Lol I hope this isn't the case
My boyfriend says I am a little skinny but I feel fat already. 5'8.5" and 156lbs
The new age of looksmaxxed chuds are supportive of trans people. We're mog fodder but at least they don't want to kill us.
>>42148993>>42151555You're gonna seethe so hard when he walks
>>42151734His whole gimmick was taking rounds and getting plastic surgery at 18
>>42148925>>42149527man republicans are all closeted faggots>>42149607>>42150105nobody talks about mens looks as much as these fucking homosoooh he mogs this>>42151443>>42151537>>42151555he mogs thatooo daddy is so sexyno i just follow him for sex pics i mean mog tips so i can mog myself just like daddyComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>42149463You are an easy rapeable hole. A tiny poopjeet mogs you
>>42151801I'm curious to see him test the waters on how far looks will really get him
>talking to guy on discord >has a nice personality so i assume he'll look decent (retarded i know)>shows me what he looks like after a few hours>4/10 balding ugly pectus excavatum freak with a shrimp cock that looks deformed>panic and delete my discord account (was a burner anyway)>don't even send a final messagei used to be pretty ugly myself but he was unpleasant to even look at, like i wouldn't want him as my waiter at a restaurant or something.i feel bad because i used to be incel before realizing i was gay but holy shit most men are so ugly it's insane and no he didnt give me money or anything
>>42149282Its possible, I mean there’s clothes, makeup, exercise, body care, and plastic surgery if you’re really that upset, it’s possible to look good, I like seeing people who put effort into how they look and really self actuality their appearance, whether that’s a real fat old guy in one of those straw fedoras and a lovely flower shirt, or someone who looks grungy with a lot of piercings and shit, its very possible to look good, especially if you’re able to save up money, or spend time on yourself.
>>42147591A final message would've been nice but considering it was only for a few hours on discord it's nbd. I had a somewhat similar situation a few days ago where I added someone on discord and I ended up deleting my account because I freaked out about acting weirdIf the nona who this happened to is reading this I formally apologize
>>42147591i consider most humans inherently ugly and same problem here so i think i wont ever be able to date anyone
>>42149402I don't believe that given my genetics and immutable physical characteristics.
>>42147632explains trannies then
Everyone always talks about DIY HRT but what about DIY SRS?
I love my bf but last night i had a dream wherr i had 2 girlfriends and a overweight government worker grabbed my ass for about 2 minutes and then kept saying he was going to goon to me later. I know dreams dont rlly mean anything but my dreams are very vivid and memorable and it makes me feel like im cheating on my bf and extremely agp. :c
>>42152346>grabbed my ass for about 2 minutes and then kept saying he was going to goon to me later.2 minutest? For real? Epic two minutes?Mine was my dream guide trying to fingerbang my ass and I resisted and then I felt extremely threatened like I was going to die and felt metal taste in my mouth like I was about to be stabbed forcefully because I kept resisting the fingerbang session in my ass Somewhat strong sexual sensation in the ass btw Pic rel is how my girl version looks likeIt was revealed to me in a dreamCheck out my victory thread !>>42152216
Oh, do you have experience with drugs? Or your lgbt dreams are natty?It's one time only for brain rewiring of neurons
