I’m not trans because I’m not jealous of cis women, but I am very attracted to and jealous of a lot of trans women—so much so that I’ve spent over half a grand on women’s clothes, wear them under my clothes nearly every day, and have fantasies almost every day about being a trans woman, both in sexual and non-sexual contexts.At the same time, I also get mad when I see transfems. I don’t know why, but I get this weird feeling that I’m somehow fundamentally different from trans people in a way I can’t understand yet, and that if I’m not a man, my life will turn out absolutely worse. I’m a pretty attractive male individual; it’s easy for me to get laid and talk to women, and I’m afraid that if I don’t hold onto that part of myself, I’ll end up regretting it.I can’t tell if I’m a chaser or if I have a toxic idolization of transfems.
I wish there was some place for older (30+) trannies like me. Every online trans space is filled with extremely young people or reppers.
>>42151577It's a different experience to grow up knowing exactly what you are, but having no space in the cultural imagination to exist, vs. stories of egg cracking / self discovery, with only retro-active "there were signs" interpretation, which seem more prevalent in trans spaces today. "Trans" until recently did not exist as a culturally intelligible concept, and those who grew up in a world where "trans" as a concept (more than just a caricature of a sex addict) don't seem to understand how the world was before their experience, and can’t seem to relate to the experiences of people who were aware of what they were during this time...
>>42184924>Your genitals basically become a vagina without srs or anti androgens.what?
>>42186662basically this, i knew i wanted to be a girl since i was a child and it was for two decades the last thought i had when drifting to sleep for two decades, but it might as well have been a dream of being a famous movie actor with how unachievable it seemed as a livable reality.
>>42186674It happened to me too. Why, I was even more shocked to wake up one morning with an innie than I'd been when I shrank six inches and lost about as much from my underbust. Estrogen surely is a miracle drug!
fuck you becky all my girls hate becky specifically
1 Does the fact that this website supports free speech make it your Safe Space? 2 Do you want protection from hard conversations and if people can disagree here without being banned, does that create real dialogue or cause harm? 3 When rules stop personal attacks but allow controversial ideas, does that help you grow stronger, or leave you unprotected? 4 Is a space truly "safe" when anyone can speak freely, or is it only safe when difficult speech is supported and people are heard without fear?
>>42186405it's sad I feel the need to point this out but to other anons. This is a strawman. I know more than anyone that child rape is bad and have never advocated for it, and there is no world in which anyone posting illegal content would be complaining about self expression like this. I post map flags. Sometimes with an anime character attached. I post greek and roman history and literature. I advocate for the unfair persecution of pedophiles to end. None of this is illegal or against the rules. I am being silenced for no reason except for hatred. As a trans woman I am used to this but it has always been disappointing to run into it here as well.>>42186440standards being things they're brainwashed about too. Although not even really true. its nu-4chan shit to hate pedos. it outs you as a tourist to be honest.
>>42184538reddit is garbage unless you can figure out the exact weird interests of the mods. I got banned for asking a question once.
Nowhere in the world is safe from women
>>42186026Because I say the truth about niggers and jews, also I do >>42186375 but do it ironically and to test whether they support freedom of speech or to piss them off
>>42184502nothing you are saying there is rational friend
where i can find a female chaser to forcefem and peg me while she laughs at me
>>42183932ahauhhghhhmm....hii.....i mean kys
it's easier to transition and t4t to cope with another mef bottom
>>42183932>Where do I, a cis male with fembrained fetishes who wants to transition find an attractive cis female with malebrained fetishes who doesn't want to transition Brother, stop looking at futa porn and deal with your closeted homosexuality
>>42183932try /soc/, they have a femdom thread
>>42183932No women are into that.At best you can maybe get a girlfriend who tolerates that you have a fetish for shit like dressing up in women's clothes or being pegged, but she won't be turned on by you being into that, will likely view tolerating it as a chore, and also almost certainly will be getting fucked by other guys on the side.
Can a pooner diy top surgery or is it instant Darwin award
take a wild fucking guess
prev - >>42161654scary editionqott: what are you scared of?
>>42187369okay so there’s at least two of you, unless you’re samefagging. how’s your collection of crudely drawn images of imagined trannies?
>>42187386I don't actually have a collection of crudely drawn images of trannies, i'm just a tourist
>>42187642we don’t want you here
>>42177284My dads reaction to when he finds out I’ve been taking estrogen
>>42187684my reaction when my dad finds out i’m on estrogen (he’s been dead almost 6 years)
how will anyone ever seen me as a man if i cant even see myself as one i hate my stupid pooner theyfab life
>>42187352why can't i find jake paul yaoi
>>42187318Stop playing shitty games like Togainu no Chi and play a real BL game like Luckydog1
>>42187368the jake paul yaoi is in your heart
>>42187318men arent real. the only options are to become androgynous or to become a woman.
>>42187318I see you as a man
Fuck this is sad. My favorite BLACKED artist is done.
What do we think it is? Cancer?
How is this lgbt related
>>42187611Because world is a collapsed shithole and so is our board. Wanna do ket with me?
>>42187611Board culture, sweaty
>>42187659Indian culture*
/lesgen/ is the lesbian general for all cis women and trans women (MtF) to discuss lesbian relationships and topics.QOTT>Are you a fan of enemies to lovers? Favorite lesbian trope?>How do you decorate your room? Would you date someone with a messy room?>What songs do you listen to when you’re falling in love? During a breakup?>How will you celebrate the new year? Will you have a new year’s kiss?tagmap: https://tagmap.io/tag/%2Flesgen%2Fdiscord: https://discord.gg/bAnVMAGPNRold thread: >>42115509
Thought about my dead grandma at work and started crying
>>42186968Charlie charlie kirky
I JUST POPPED A PERKY
>>42186968sorry nonamake yoursself a hot coco when u get home <3
i curse your with tranny magic
what happens if you overdose on estrogen
>>42186855most likely? you get gallbladder stones like a pregnant woman.short term? pms symptoms and maybe a panic attack feeling as it half lifes over every 4 hours unless you injected it I guess.then youre stuck like that for a few days.if youre chris chan, your gooch splits open and becomes a vagina.
>>42186855i’ve heard too much can cause hairloss
You blackout and then wake up with cum leaking out of you from every orifice and surrounded by used condoms, lube, cigarette butts, empty alcohol containers, random articles of men's clothing and a few wedding rings
You grow a third bewb
doesnt it turn back into testosterone or does that only happen with excess testosterone turning back into estrogen?
Boymoding at work today, and my two coworkers who are women were talking about today’s plan, and one of them said, “He’ll do this. It’s okay." Then the other repeated "He’ll" with a smile on her face, and they both laughed with each other (for way too long). I wanted to melt into the floor.I hate being a boymoder it’s hell
I get that sinking feelingWhen i get constantly sir, he/him At workAnd irlIts a type of pain that doesnt physically hurt but mentally.Knowing im probably a freak.
cis people know the word boymoder nona the era of peace is over
>>42186589>If they didn’t laugh it would’ve been fineget better bait next time kid
>>42187424I think you have to be extremely online to know what that is desu
>>42187372Yeah I disassociated for a bit after unfortunately >>42187424Probably yeah>>42187460Bait? I for sure would’ve felt less embarrassed if they didn’t laugh idk what you’re on abt.
Gonna have to stay with someone I know who doesn't know I'm trans or on estrogen for some time and I'm a bit worried about them finding out if I just wear hoodies and layers all the time even though my chest isn't that big. I know they say you shouldn't wear binders because it deforms your breasts or something (fine for FTMs and cis men with gyno but not for me), but would a compression top be fine? I've heard TomboyX or GCBTL "compression tops" are like less flattening than a binder but less painful. And that's fine because I only have A cups. But it's definitely still noticeable if I just wear a shirt that isn't baggy and don't try to hide anything. I know this because a well-meaning friend told me this when I said "Yeah you can hardly see anything right?" And sports bras don't actually flatten much at all.
>>42187330wife beater and hoodie combo goes a long way
>>42187355I don't have a top like that but maybe I should get one, thanks.
Qott: Would you ever abandon your boy?
>>42187314it's easy to sleep with ugly desperate mendating an attractive high value man, and knowing what cis previous cisF exes look like, is the ultimate validation
>>42184696It isn't rape if you could have stood up and walked away with the only consequences being your neighbors get slightly annoyed. Being quilted into sex isn't rape you are devaluing the word.
>>42187351Every chaser is a desperate loser. Even if he dated hot cis women he is still going to slum it with ugly trannys any chance he gets if that's his fetish. For instance rizzle has/had a beautiful wife and children and is himself attractive for a man of his age BUT he has sex with many very ugly trans women. This removes all validation of having sex with chasers and it's pure cope if you still feel it with them.
>>42187389there are men who are normal about dating trans women, acting like they're all chasers is pure copium
>>42187406There are not lmao. If any man seeks out trans women has a fetish and they will fuck or be fucked by a hon just as quickly as they would a hot passoid. There is literally zero validation to fucking any man that fucks trannys. I don't pass at all I'm ugly as hell and my grindr is absolutely filled with hot built young dudes trying to fuck me. Every chaser on this board has tried too. Why would someone feel validation from men like this?
New Year's Editionprevious: >>42044782 >>42079478 (died prematurely)Goal of the thread: Consider the things you want to improve or accomplish, whether long- or short-term. What small steps can you make towards those goals?Daily goals can be repeated. Remember to keep score, it can only go up!>What is this thread for?Getting better is hard, and sucks. A lot. It does not get easier doing it alone.Share resources and experiences with combating depression, anxiety, personal issues, achieving or maintaining a healthy weight, etc.>Why is this thread /lgbt/?Struggles with mental and physical health are an indisputable part of /lgbt/ life, be it from dysphoria, social pressure, heartbreak, or just unfortunate lifestyle choices.>Notes to consider:Please be civil. Shame is your greatest enemy in fighting urges of self abuse (be it sh, drugs, or just self deprecation). Relapsing into bad and unhealthy habits is to be expected, the goal is to increase the average amount of time it takes between relapses. Any improvement is a victory no matter how small. Your worth and right to get better are non-negotiable. And most importantly:WE ARE NOT THERAPISTS, WE DON'T REPLACE MEDICATION>Note on adviceComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
made it to the end of the yearlets see if i do that againa few more hours and then i can drink make a couple of calls and finally rest
Seizureanaon again. Getting off antidepressants is going well, I feel a lot sharper and my spouse says I'm having less staring episodes. I'm 100% certain now that my "mood issues" are more related to the fact I'm crippled (my legs are fucked up too, no more 5ks for me). So I'm going to try more "lifestyle" options to cope. >>42186199Congrats! It's nice to have your own place. Be sure to get a plunger before you need it.
>>42187408But girls dont poop doe
>>42170017I want to improve, but I don't really want itI wish I could be better. Financially sound, mentally healthy, well dressed, helpful to my communityBut I just rotI don't believe mental healthcare can help. I tried it and got worse
how do i build up the courage to call the psychiatrist my therapist recommended me. im scared of telling them im trans and im scared ill pressure myself into giving my deadname. i think i really need antidepressants but im scared
