I watched a little bit of trans porn and if that's what men actually want a girl to be then I have to accept that I have 0% chance of getting a guy. I thought my body passed for once but of course not. It's too good to be true. I'm just an ugly fat man girl
>>42156960Even the porn trannies are pretty gross to heteros so...I think OP can find love, just needs to find a tranny appreciator ;)
>>42155803I feel you T_T
>>42156485trvke
>comparing herself to girls in porn unironicallyma'am please consider that porn is a form of erotic fiction which often bares little real resemblance with the act of sex. It is highly artificial, and that includes the way that people look in it, so u shouldn't stake your self esteem in it. Dummy.
>>42155803dating is impossible because men have expectations and idealizations of me that stem from porn and it eats away at me
does your blood boil? are you overcome with male rage?do you feel happy for them?
>>42156291i did the basic, put a bit of effort on myself, worked with what i have, changed what i could and focused on myself. also not letting the envious thoughts steal the little enjoyment of the gains i had. me having contact with younger passoid tgirls also helped.
>>42156464so are you a hon or proper manmoding?
>>42155519Interesting question, idk how I feel, I've been excluded from being around other women except for a period of 2 years awhile back. I did some soul searching and I know I don't feel jealous anymore. I think I just feel normal and I don't dwell on it to much.
>>42156510hon manmoder.honniest of hons
Its weird when they are attracted to my masculine features
I got railed in the butt for the first time and it was terrible...I've always been attracted to men but I repressed my feelings for a long time but recently I decided to hook up with a guy. He was a lot bigger than me but he was very good looking so I was very attracted to him. Once we got started it was like an animal woke up inside him, he wasn't interested in being gentle with me, he was out for my ass and nothing was going to stop him from having it. His cock was really big and it was so painful when he penetrated me even with lube. He didn't care though and he started aggressively pounding my asshole. I was clutching the bed, biting the bed sheets hard as he railed me. He started slapping my ass and saying mean things to me. He grabbed me and spit in my mouth and called me a whore. He pulled my hair and jackhammered my ass with no regard to my pain. He humiliated, degraded, emasculated me at every turn. He manhandled me and fucked me like I was a doll to him. He came and made me feel every throb of his penis as he ejaculated in me, tainting my body forever with his semen. I've never felt so ashamed of myself in my life...I can never go back, I don't feel like a man anymore after what he did to me...
>>42155045bait-and-switch smut larp was unexpected but enjoyable nonetheless. thank you, anon.
>>421550456.5/10 'text I got a quarty
>>42155219mee
>>42155045I wanna do this to a femboyI wanna make him crossdress in a maid outfit and absolutely ruin his assI wanna leave him sore and leaking and questioning if he can ever go back to being anything other than my cute little buttslut ever again
>>42160539i wish that would happen to me
I am God's strongest cisf pooner chaser (yes I'm a repper) and it seems like I come across a new pooner who decides he's a "gay male" every week or so. WHY do so many of them go into this weird lesbian > lesbian ftm > gay man ftm > detrans straight woman pipeline? It has been a fear of mine for a while now but I came across this article today and it set everything off again.https://betachronicles.substack.com/p/her-strong-and-recurrent-fantasy>How and why does this happenI need to understand the inner working behind it>How do I prevent him from going through the pipeline? Immoral answers preferred. I need something that works.
>>42158567You don't
>>42160284I feel that. I tried detrooning for a bit but felt like I couldn't, really. Even before trooning out I felt like I fell out of the masculinity that I very painstakingly fought for for years. Still feel like a failed male.
>>42160243>Tweenage gay boy > straight incel (school shooter mode) > "lesbian" trans woman > AGP/MEF > Bi > ???? (Straight(ish) woman, occasionally detrans gay man)Nonsense! When you start out okay you stay gay you don't go through no incel phase. If put into pipe line terms, it befeminine boy> gay teen> drag queen > transgender woman.
>>42160301>I was on SSRIs from ages 17-24 and it made repping almost effortlessOf course it did. It also literally shut down your brain in a critical developmental period and nuked your libido (but not in the way transition does - but rather in a way that makes it dysfunctional).Again, never touch that shit again. No matter what! It's literally better to be a permahon than to be hooked on that shit again. Even statistically, the permahon has a longer and healthier (and legit happier) lifespan than perma-SSRI fried. It's not even a question.>Myalgic Encephalitis, but I suspect she may have had some kind of autoimmune issue or NCAHNCAH is not deadly in almost any circumstance.ME/CFS, however, is a terrible thing (and largely incurable - can at best be ameliorated).It's usually triggered by an infection though. So you might want to take a bit of care on fungi if you had a close relative with ME.Do the tests. If you can get 2 or more drs to interpret them, then use that. If not, then use the results and research it yourself as well.Whatever you do, don't blindly trust any doctor. This side of medicine (not just trans; but ME stuff, psychiatry in general with few exceptions) is still very experimental and they routinely know less than some 4channers but speak nicely and have a coat.
>>42160452The nuked libido was kinda good until weird male inadequacy stuff hit. I had severe sexual dysfunction issues due to religious stuff, relationship troubles, and frankly just being kind of weird. I do feel very fried from SSRIs. When I tried taking them again initially, I made the mistake of taking my previous dose and I thought I was going to have a seizure because the effects were so bad. I feared for my life and it definitely messed me up. I'm doing what tests I can now but waitlists are awful near me (for the US). Like I've been waitlisted just for a decent endo for over a year and a half now. Plan is to get a tilt table test done in the spring and then see the neurologist in the summer and maybe get an MRI and a nerve conduction test.
/lesgen/ is the lesbian general for all cis women and trans women (MtF) to discuss lesbian relationships and topics.QOTT>Are you a fan of enemies to lovers? Favorite lesbian trope?>How do you decorate your room? Would you date someone with a messy room?>What songs do you listen to when you’re falling in love? During a breakup?>How will you celebrate the new year? Will you have a new year’s kiss?tagmap: https://tagmap.io/tag/%2Flesgen%2Fdiscord: https://discord.gg/bAnVMAGPNRold thread: >>42115509
Wish I could have a conversation with vampire Knight again
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>>42157060does she post at all now
any trans girl around KCMO need crazy theyfab pussy?? i just got put on spiro and prog bc pill because they diagnosed me w PCOS and its made my tits bigger and my need to get fucked raw worse ;w;t. horny latina theyfab
>>42154700PS5
I am sexually attracted to people with autoandrophilia, this is my cross to bear and I will suffer under this burden until I die. I need a guy to be St Sebastian with!!
>>42158680I can tell you’re a female by the way you type, I bet you’ve had zero socialization with actual men besides your male family members.
>>42158698i socialized with god
>>42158698so are aap ftms not allowed? i want to look loke this
trans woman that suffers from occasional bouts of aap what the fuck is wrong with me
>>42158913I know loads of mtfs like yous lol
me and who?
I wanna fuck Fallapart Rabbit so bad
>>42160315wtf based?????
i need a mtf gf who can watch cartoons w/ me now... Ughhhhh
I wish there was some place for older (30+) trannies like me. Every online trans space is filled with extremely young people or reppers.
>>42159245>Not even the guys I datedI'm sorry, what?You either have a different definition of dating than me, or you never engaged in sex?I mean, I do pass really really well but I simply can't imagine dating a guy and not telling him.Admittedly, I'm also relieved I don't have to date. Somewhat jokingly, I'd say the bond with my husband increases every time one of us encounters an internet horror story. And there's no shortage of those these days :(
>>42151577There's quite a lot of "older" (is 30+ really older lol) tranners here. We've been having these threads for a while, and they are always decently well visited.I don't exactly fit into that group for better or worse since I'm a perma manmoder, but I have been on hrt for about 6 years now, and I definitely am up there when it comes to age (turning 40 soon).I don't really fit anywhere because my life experiences are just so different from both men and trans women my age. I'm mostly just focused on living the best life that I can, considering how fucked in the head I am in several ways, and that meaningful social transition is impossible to me due to being a neverpasser. I do wanna be healthier both physically and mentally, and I wanna be more grateful for everything and everyone I have.Also offtopic, but it's fascinating how small this board really is. You get to know someone, and suddenly their posts just jump out everywhere you go :)).
>>42159277I could never tell them. Don't you realize what it's like going into a "country & western Bar" in the middle of Texas? You can't just turn around say you're a guy!!There's nothing else they're going to understand. You either have sex with him as a woman, or don't do it at all. I never had a problem, to tell you the truth.I found it harder to have more than an affair
>>42160470did you just never have sex pre op or something?
>>42160499I had most of all my sex pre-op. I just considered a gay sex and did it for 10 years before I had SRS
Let's be honest guys being bisexual isn't really that hard.I'm pretty sure i'm bisexual and i can just ignore my attraction to men and focus on women.The actual gays have it way harder since they can't do that.
Which piercing would help me pass better and look more feminine? I already got ear lobes/nostril and I am thinking about getting a septum/medusa should I get both or one or the other?
>>42160332fked
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pg9 bump
>>42150941i have a question you might have an answer to. my endo won't prescribe EEn because of risk of clots.what the fuck is she even talking about? i can't find anything anywhere that suggest EEn is worse for clotting
usanons, what payment methods do u use for overseas purchases?
>>42160347ausanon used crypto to buy from brazil
>>42160347Wise worked for me but they can randomly be faggots>durr we need additional verification>yes we already have your ID and face scan and but we need a bill from the past 3 months
What causes honfidence in bogged transwomen?
>>42159551probably to hide his receding hairline
who is picrel?
>>42160251Ava
>>42160270who
>>42160490newfag
mu hates this band cause of the Girl in it, what does the Girl board think?
which one is The Girl
i love Geese actually but i only listen to them; i didn't know there was a girl lolenew album is very cool
>>42158922the one with tits
omg i love geese !
>>42158634/mu/ hates everything, it's basically just /pol/tards talking dadrock anymore and it has been for like a decade at this point. effectively unusable
>>42157274pretty girl :) i wish i looked like that :(
>>42157359Same
>>42157274living loudly can be a byproduct of being lgbt. think party/club flamer stereotype.other times, its just because everyone else is doing it. sometimes its self-expression in a very trad punk (literally just trying to piss everyone off) kinda way. sometimes its just because they think it looks good.most of the time however, it looks like shit. maybe im just not cut out for bright colours because i like my hair to be as dark as the night.
>>42157274Colorful hair dye is associated with outsider sub-cultures which LGBTs are far more likely to be in. Also makes chuddies seethe for some reason and that is probably worth it on its own.
I dyed my hair blonde because boys prefer blondes over brunettes >.<
Anybody else like for real for real retarded asf?I have to stare people in the face and cup my ears to understand what theyre saying pretty often, otherwise I'm literally just incapable of processing their speech.When I'm outside I hear voices and I cant tell when theyre real or fake so I just ignore all of them. Its really annoying because I think theyre talking about me sometimes or it feels like it on the back of my neck but I don't understand their words. Sometimes I just end up like staring at the wall for many minutes because I forget what I'm doing and keep turning around and walking to the other wall cause I forgot what I was looking that way forIt's really freaking annoying to be like profoundly mentally ill because theres so much stigma around mental illness and trans people so I try to just hide being trans and my dumb brain in general irl.Its really really annoying. I want to be pretty but the paranoia hearing people makes me dress sorta plain and maybe a little old for my age. Does anybody have advice for coping.
>>42157429I had a check up a few years ago and I dont remember what they said but I had the beeper button thingy and I didn't get told to do anything else.I really like deaf people. I wrote a fantasy story where the magic language is sign language and all the wizards do sign language to cast spells and stuff it is sort of awesome. My girlfriend is deaf but only in one ear so I stand on her left hand side and we talk that way.Is seeing an audiologist something you can do without getting a referral first? I dont have a primary care doctor. I can hear high pitched noises like dog whistles which is sorta cool I think.
>>42157496go see a gp (just any gp) and then go see an audiologist. idk if u can see an audiologist without a referral in your regionalso when u see the audiologist make sure u ask about audio processing disorders and not just hearing lossu should see a gp first cus they could tell you and also cus they could tell you if you have an ear infection, or some other obvious or immediate problemanyway yeah deaf people are cool. i have two friends with varying degrees of deafness, both of whom got it from something that happened to them (one from an ear infection and one from an industrial accident). i’m happy to tell you that you are already definitionally deaf (or i guess hearing impaired if we’re being nitpicky) because you struggle with hearing things
>>42157593Okay, I will meet a doctor and see whats up. Thank you for the helpful advice.
>>42156967literally just APD https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Auditory_processing_disordersadly its malebrained
>>42160040Is there worthwhile treatment for this? Seems like its what I have.
