it feels like no matter what ill always have walls up with people or they will misinterpret me as something else. it feels like being trans puts you at such a disconnect with so many people. rn im enbycoping untill i start getting a passing ratio of 60% or higher. it feels like being trans just makes it uncomfterable with cis ppl even allies. if they are allies the most theyll ever do is liten to you talk abt how being trans sucks and go "that sucks" but also i dont have any trans friends. i just hangout w cis girls who are like all bi thats about it. unfortunately i find most trans women in my area to be insufferable or just ppl i dont connect with. the only trans person ive made a deep connection is a trans guy from another country but still i never feel fully seen. idk y
>>42326840i dont fit in*
>>42326888well usually people pursue cbt type stuff if you asked a therapist and said these issues were really bothering you they probably would recommend that, but it's never helped me personally
>>42326153You're complaining to cissies about troon shit?? Moght as well complain about ylur skin colour, they could never understand.
>>42326153they're idiots. it's not your fault. just practice mindfulness and awareness in the same way they completely lack it. by observing the world and adjusting and pointing yourself within you can attack it with purpose and anger rather than needing to gain things from it and letting anger be misdirected inside of you (what much of depression is, it's almost all of it when it accompanies more emotionally intelligent people and/or unrelated mental problems).most people are dust and will remain dust, that is their true nature and cannot be changed for if it could that would prove they were never dust to begin with, that's the truth even if it's ever difficult for the mind to have faith in these things being true or the self regardless of evidence. observing and not acting when repeated is fundamentally critical and intertwined with taking action and practitioning. the fulfillment of anger and fire is one of the first effects of doing this i think. do not let it be turned into guilt or self-doubt. those things have no truth to them, they're merely forcefully instilled by the world so that the mind forgets how to exist without them.>>42326888IMO it's for themselves and they want to share that idea solely to affirm their belief in it. the vast majority of modern psychology is that anyways, seeing an effect and putting a label on it rather than studying its existence or actual reason for existing, usually to create the illusion of knowledge or wisdom so the mind doesn't feel unsafe. it's ironic how diametrically opposed to the actual core idea of science these things are. i was kinda forced to phrase that like an authority redditoid in tone so pls ignore that vibe.
>>42328485i dont but it feels like theres always a barrier between me and all cis people because im trans>Moght as well complain about ylur skin colouri dont get this
acceptance editionQOTT: what are you having trouble accepting?prev >>42318658
bimodal lesbian
i mode the hardestpost so retarded
if you tweet about being a manmoder and have a picture of yourself in your media tab you are not a manmoder. not because manmoders cant post or wont pics of themselves but because i checked and saw how foided you all are :(
>>42325138>QOTTthat i am become what i are desire
all twittermoders are narcissistic bddoids
Probably one of the more successful fatmaxxing endeavors, but it is still triggering my ed hard. Pic included.
>>42327176Hope you learn to love food more Nona.
>>42327005Its insane you retarded troons dont get you are some third other, why are you trying to allign with normie views so much? Youre not fat yoire just an attention whore
>>42327017This is 25bmi? You don't look fat at all.
>>42328454Well I'm probably going to get denied entry into a clinical trial today because of my weight. I also never see anyone with a body similar to mine so all I'm left with are numbers to look at.
>>42327005>chinese>considers self fat>only 25 bmidid you know most americans conside 25 to be excessively thin
>QOTT: What's your breakfast beverage?I'm now strictly black coffee in the morning. I don't eat breakfast until late morning so I can intermittent fast. Hopefully I'll either lose weight so I feel less disgusted by myself or be in better shape for when I inevitably troon out as a disgusting lateshit.Previous thread: >>42285773
>>42328665>can be normalThat's the funniest joke.
>>42325107why can t you just be a feminine man tho? have you tried it?
is trooning really becoming a scourge why are there so many now anyway
>>42328832politics don't dictate trooning as much as normies and some reppers think.HRT availability has a bigger impact. Since DiY became a thing, trooning just kept on growing and continues to grow until it hits the natural plateau. We just don't know what the natural plateau is. Could be 2% of the populace, or 5%, who knows? But we will find out in a decade or so.
>>42328757I'm a turbo normie
blah blah post your charts, guess letters, rate people, Plus and minus, i assume yall know the deal. Pls dont lazy post
>>42319427lesbian mtf>>42322377inveracity spotted, definitely a chaser>>42323085bi mtf>>42326923lesbianbolt thrower good
I don't fit in here>>42322377FtM that tries too hard>>42319427<3 Gezebelle, MtF>>42321247Gr8 industrial, cisles?
>>42328368+Goreshit>>42328195neverd heard of any of these>>42327147Transbian instantly cause of femtanyl you even have her old lilyniku stuff>>42327124Mtf tranny +molchat doma +gorillaz>>42327027OP here but surprised to see someone else who knows N0THANKY0U, honestly one of the most underated ppl i know
Before I rate anyone is this like some sort of "most listened to albums of 2025" thing? I don't use streaming services apart from youtube so I'm a little out of touch
>>42329501I mean you can do whatever you want, some people just put their favorite stuff on but I just did music i listened to the most in the last 7 days from lastfm
Accidently got really drunk and high and told literally every single friend (both IRL best friends and online friends) in a big group chat that I'm trans or non binary and want to go by they/them. Then told a few friends in private I'm trans.I'm too scared to open up my messages now, I saw a few previews and my friend said she's happy no matter what I do and that we should go shopping, a few other people seemed maybe supportive. A lot of my friends messaged me asking if I was okay or needed to talk but I just ignored them mostly.I feel like I fucked everything up and I honestly just want to crawl in to a hole and disappear forever, for reference I'm a detransitioner/repressor for like 4.5 years now (prev 5ish years on hrt)i also wrote a big letter to myself begging myself to transition even if I don't feel like it in the morning
>>42329104>>42329157You sound lovable and nice, just miserable because of your current state
>>42329210Or just any other kind of dissociative disorder. Really common for trannies because growing up dysphoric often leads to dissociation simply to survive.
>>42329180im autistic you ODD shitbag. DO THE WORK
>>42329246sorry :(, probably therapy didn't stick because I'd usually avoid the gender issues and so I spent every therapy session playing it close>>42329225thanks anon, I think I used to be but the last few years I've turned in to a pretty bitter, self obsessed person that uses others. Hopefully I can improve that.>>42329235>>42329210I do have a lot of issues with dissociation but not DiD as far as i knowanyway so im not just using this as a way to talk about my favourite topic (how miserable and cool i definitely am like a tranny dostoevsky character)does anybody have any advice on discussing this stuff with people close to you? I was really fucked up when I sent my messages and I barely remember what they say and I'm terrified to even look but I imagine my friends will have a lot of questions (though its been a running joke forever that i'm trans so desu it might not actually be that shocking)
>>42329050You need to do damage control and say that you aren't actually trans and just were really drunk and said things that just came to mind, but aren't actually trans. You fucked up
>be a cis woman>society largely accepts that you face unique problems as a result of your sex>sexism, periods, pregnancy etc are all recognized as unique burdens that you must bear in any respectable community irl or online>abundance of places irl or online where you can talk about your unique problems and receive affirmation that they are indeed problems worth discussing>purposely come to the tranny board on 4chan dot org to whinge about your female anatomy and how the dirty nasty troons are so sexist for not wanting to hear about it and how your desire to be included is more important than their feelings of dysphoria and they are sexist dirty male freaks for not accepting you with open arms>meanwhile trannies are getting stabbed in public, banned from shelters, terrorized out of mens and womens public restrooms, and having their hrt taken away and surgeries made unobtainableDo we seriously not even get to have one single space, even one as garbage as this one, where we can discuss our problems without being told to shut up because real women have it worse?
>>42328983>didn't they do a study the famous study that isn't verifiable in anyway and lumps theyfabs with binary trans men lmao. Maybe ftms should man up, can't let the twitter transbians keep being the man of trans people come on
>>42329368You're retarded if you think total rates is more important in this statistic than per capita rates.
>>42328983I think it was found that FtMs face more sexual violence but less other forms of violence. Also the high school bathroom study that found that when bathroom restrictions are in place, MtFs face higher sexual assault rates (38% of MtFs sexually assaulted per year vs FtMs 34% or so) while without restroom restrictions, the MtF rate falls to just slightly above cis women (19% vs 17%) while FtM rates are still slightly elevated (24%).
>>42329433she was just hoping to lump in proportional stats with the raw numbers and hoping u wouldn't notice
>>42329368>just shows how much of a self centered victim you think you areshe says as she comes to the tranny board to complain about her issues not being taken seriously enough
Is it manly for them to get plapped?
>>42329046are vagbros even a thing or is it a board psyop/mtf detroon reppers/ftms larping
>>42329521Alright, but you're gonna have to teach me how to play again, lol.
>>42329580I don't know how to play lol I just think it looks really cool!
>>42329046i am a detrans mtf due to the bad political situation now and it's kind of embarrassing i still have a fwb that plaps me from time to time (he thinks he'll boyremove me or something lol)
>>42329588Oh, haha. I've never played it before either. Just looked at the steam page and it looks crazy.
For the last month all I could think about was the fact that I'm trans and to be honest sometimes I still think these are just some confusions but alas I somehow managed to repress it for 23 years and not realize despite being in a very queer friend group. I thought the depression I had randomly developed when I was 13 was genetics or bad luck or whatever but it makes so much sense. The intense hate and disgust I felt about my own body, the shame in the locker room, the uncomfortable feeling when I was in a cis male group. Heck I suddenly remembered how I pretended to be a girl online and tried on my mom's clothes when I was a kid.There are so many more things that were terrible in my life that are now explained but I thought that would at least give me some calm now that I have answers but nope. I'm so scared. Scared about what this means for my life, my relationships, my jobs, my degree etc. and worst of all: That hate I felt against my body, the fact that I found myself repulsive turned from sometimes crying in front of the mirror to thinking about it 24/7. When I walk past a mirror I actively avoid looking away as to not make me feel even worse. I never thought I had dysphoria but now it couldn't be any clearer. I hate this feeling, I hate this flesh prison and I hate how depressed I become even though I should be focusing on my exams right now.Luckily I have a therapist appointment soon but even if I get to convince him to get me started ASAP it will probably take up to a year before I can even get my hands on HRT. I have such an intense feeling of urgency suddenly. I feel like I'm watching my body change for the worse every day. I'm scared I'm already late but if I have to wait another year idk how I will cope. I will never be pretty or able to pass. I'll never be happy with myself. I know it's never late to transition and that's the mantra but that doesn't change the fact that I will always remain oddly shaped, clocky or just unhappy in my own body.
>>42329481Luckily i have several ear piercings already and I take very good care of my hair since baldness runs in the family and I can't afford losing anything
>>42329519Im sorry to say that taking care of your hair will not prevent mpb, but if you can diy order some dutasteride or finasteride it should save you temporarily if you start losing hairq
>>42329535ah ik i'm on minox already trying desperately to convince my derm to let me have fin. An anti androgen before being able to start HRT? Yes please immediately. He's telling me nah you might develop breast tissue like that's sth bad
>>42329513it's under $200/yr for crying out loud
get on DIY right the fuck now, it's dirt cheap
New Year's Editionprevious: >>42044782 >>42079478 (died prematurely)Goal of the thread: Consider the things you want to improve or accomplish, whether long- or short-term. What small steps can you make towards those goals?Daily goals can be repeated. Remember to keep score, it can only go up!>What is this thread for?Getting better is hard, and sucks. A lot. It does not get easier doing it alone.Share resources and experiences with combating depression, anxiety, personal issues, achieving or maintaining a healthy weight, etc.>Why is this thread /lgbt/?Struggles with mental and physical health are an indisputable part of /lgbt/ life, be it from dysphoria, social pressure, heartbreak, or just unfortunate lifestyle choices.>Notes to consider:Please be civil. Shame is your greatest enemy in fighting urges of self abuse (be it sh, drugs, or just self deprecation). Relapsing into bad and unhealthy habits is to be expected, the goal is to increase the average amount of time it takes between relapses. Any improvement is a victory no matter how small. Your worth and right to get better are non-negotiable. And most importantly:WE ARE NOT THERAPISTS, WE DON'T REPLACE MEDICATION>Note on adviceComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>42328196Did a lawyer confirm to you that it's hopeless?
>>42328252There's no way to prove any of it even happened.
>>42328196>>42328374You might as well pop another hundred of bucks for a quick consultation with a lawyer then. Don't be an idiot
>>42328706>hundred of buckshundred bucks
Coming to the painful conclusion that my BF will never be as authentic to me as I wish he were. I know I don't have the right to know everything. I am speaking up about being curious about his person in an entirety, anything and everything, and am never judgemental. He is what I consider the best partner I could possibly imagine. And I am radically communicative about my activities and thoughts with him myself, which he does appreciate a lot. Catching him doing things as small as they may be and him never mentioning it, even upon inquiry? Makes me feel like he is hiding more than I will ever know. I assume I need to let it go and accept the sadness this arises and concentrate on something more worthwhile than what might just be romantic fantasies.
I suffer a decent amount as a tranny in Australia.QOTT: Have you showered today?
y does she post about karter when no one else is even talking abt that lil mf but doesnt think shes the one w an obsession problem
>>42328493Nah we are fine.If you're having a bad time then you gotta fix yourself man
>>42328745worst part is you can tell shes talking to her self here
>>42328274You're doing great. Make sure you remember there still be some bad days, but youre on the path to a happy life
>>42327263I'm on that hustle grind. No time for showers, babes.
I walked up a castle with my bf today what did you do with your bf today
>>42329560Very cool after we walked up a castle we got food and drank now we are at home resting
>>42329546Had a quickie this morning, then each went to work.I got home earlier and now I'm cooking dinner.
>>42329546Nothing as I'm single and don't have a bf because I'm not gay
>>42329546peasantcoded bevahior
>>42329615How
Trans men had female privilege pre transition. That isn't their fault however it is their responsibility. If they want to be men they must be subjected to a 15 minute tickle torture session as reparations
Why women love this fagslop?
>>42327616nonethe world is a homophobic placeit's all psyop anti-gay content I can't even find gay vanlifers who do adventure stuff!
>>42327622They're totally out there (Gay vanlifers)What about books
>>42327637>They're totally out there (Gay vanlifers)ive been looking, its mostly lesbians, and mostly straight couples and a surprising amount of solo womenI found ONE gay male couple and they don't really travel they just "thrift" which is boring>What about booksname a book about a romance between two effeminate gay men
u cant spell happenis without saying ah-penis
>>42329248kys
i want to live in trans dictatorship
>>42329155I do too but only if they're all ftm and kept their tits
>tfw no trans dictatorwhy live?
