/Big/ - bisexual general : the end of the summer edition>QotT #1: How was your summer anon ?>QotT #2: Any plans for fall ?>optional QotT: what's your favorite autumn activity ?Previous Thread: >>40766952Tagmap: https://tagmap.io/tag/%2Fbigen%2FFAQ:>Am I bi if I like women and femboys/traps?>Am I bi if there's this one member of the same-sex I'm desiring, but normally I like the opposite sex?>Am I bi if I sexually like both sexes, but only interested in romance with one of them?Yes, sexual attraction to both sexes is bisexuality.Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>40923699Google alexithymia
>>40923725So I haven’t read a full article on it, but with a preliminary google search I’m gonna say I don’t think I have alexithymia. I definitely experience and aware of some very negative emotions.
>>40923707Maybe I’m burned out from this life. Idk.
>>40923500i didnt mean to imply that it was one or the other, but youre probably right in that it is fairly uncommon.i sort of had what you described with my ex, but with enough mental illness sprinkled in to cause lasting damage. whats worse is that i'm now naturally distrustful of anything similar.>>40923568i think you can be vulnerable with people outside of online spaces, but you have to know when to do so, and with who. people love to say>nobodys REAL or GENUINE anymore, why cant i be vulnerable with people?after they get back from trauma dumping onto their blind date.its definitely easier in an online setting, because so many people struggle in finding meaningful connections today and are willing to let just about anybody in, but obviously that can cause problems.
>>40924384I try not to trauma dump IRL, I'm better at containing it except for like right after something happens. Remembering how I was and everything around me after I got in a fatal car crash yesrs ago still bothers me because roomates and suitmates basically didn't care even while I was concussed and recovering from injuries. But online I am definitely bad about random trauma dumping because it is easy and my mood is poorer alone.
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>>40924192>why do you want to help femreppers specifically?I tend to get on well with femreppers for whatever reason. I think they are just the most receptive to the idea of some weird, short, soft, feminine and sensitive mtf who wants to help them.My past two relationships were the best relationships of my life and they were both with femreppers.>bird syndromeBroken bird syndrome tends to be more self focused from my understanding. It also tends to have an end point, with interest lost once the bird is no longer broken.I think mine is rooted in my dependent personality disorder. It is external for me. I can only feel happiness by making someone else happy. There is also no end point with me, if I ever get married, I would be just as committed to making my partner happy 30 years from now as I would be the day we got married.>im really surprised there arent more like you in these threadsI think there may be some 'broken bird' type mtfs who could have some interest in femreppers. But that interest would typically take the form of 'saving' them from repping and encouraging transition.I do not want to 'fix' anyone like that. I would rather like to help someone where they are at, rather than impose something on them. It is why I post about dysphoria management (rather than transition) here: >>40918705 in each thread.>seems like an easy to invest in and manipulate populationI'm not attempting to manipulate anyone. Where you see people who could be manipulated, I see people who are in need of help. I would like to provide that help to whatever extent I can :3
>>40922853Well if you're preemptively treating people like shit and smell horrible it's a self fulfilling prophecy at that point isn't it?I get that trauma takes a toll, I've had a very traumatic life and have dealt with CPTSD etc. so I understand it can do weird shit. However, once you understand that a behavior stems from trauma then you can judge it as unreasonable and work on it and it stops over time. It's not something that stays especially once you recognize it. "Is this me or is this the situation?" You assess that every time immediately and discard when it's just you.>>40923324I'm on a bunch of antihistamines because my body has decided to start reacting to my period with MCAS flare ups. lol The irony is amazing.
>>40923486Show.>>40923793I think if you're only sexually attracted to women you can be an incel if women don't like you.I could probably find 10 guys for every 1 woman who's into me.
>>40924037You help people for selfish reasons to escape pain and feel worthwhile, that's not genuine kindness. It's a form of controlling behavior in a way even. While I understand focusing on others when you're fucked up yourself it's not quite the same as genuine kindness.
I'm ftm and have a breeding fetish. I'd never want to actually be pregnant, but i want the perception of risk and to be cum in raw straight into my poon. I do also like women and would like to do that to them, but I have to take what I've got.
>>40921482"should i be miserable for the rest of my life but be really aroused for a bit or live a fulfilling existent with slightly worse orgasms"This is how ik ops a man. detransing for a nut is wild business.
>>40924031>Fulfilling existence cause I cosplay as a dudeLot of assumptions there. Especially that whole "am I there yet" and "will they treat me like a dude even though it's entirely possible they know I'm not" weight that's going to follow you for life. My favorite, is the one you don't think of. >Is this the year they finally disprove trans scientifically; Because when trans theories politically falling out of fashion, that means science disputing trans theory is gaining more funding, rather than being cut off because it was frowned upon.
>troon out over a fetish>detroon over a fetishschrodingers troon
if ur trying to justify a reason to detransition then you might subconsciously want to detransition.
>>40921482real
Id do anything to be 20 againEverything could be so different
>>40924166Don't be fat
>>40924265I was very thin
>>40924279Maybe don't be too thin
>>40924295How thin is too thin
I hate that I look 20 still.
l33t h4xx0r editionold >>40902155QOTT: Do you engage in safe hardware practices and remove your clothes to reduce the risk of static discharge when working on your computer?
>>409239756'2 is worse
>>40924205boo hoo
>>40924243Why are all of you laughing at me
>>40921760this is the only post i madei miss you too but i know nothing i say would change your mind
men with the brand of sacrifice tattoo = avoid
There are almost no good looking femboys. That's why they all hide behind face masks and anime avatars. The ones that remotely look good are usually stealth tranners on HRT and with FFS that call themselves femboys for attention.
>>40923157Exactly I’m sorry but Afabs can’t be femboys. It takes away the whole point
>>40924343But they are. 80% femboys are afabs, rest is hrt femboys (trannies)
femboy is a porn term anyway and it honestly is a really cringe term nowadays only 20 year olds use it because anyone older than that sounds extremely cringe, literally just troon out or get a girlfriend already
>>40923028lmao he looks like a guy at my office LMFAOOO
>>40923028Thats bekause when people hear femboy ,they think flat woman with a dikkThats how all drawn representations of them areIn reality ,there are like VERY few non trannies that look like that ,and most people forget/ignore the BOY part of femboy
> meeting up with friends to shoot a video.> one of them spots my bra strap, squints. looks super confused.> "what is that? what is that strap on your shoulder?"> "ummm. it's just a wifebeater."> thinks about it for a second. he definitely doesn't believe me.> "no it isn't. let me see."> "what? no. stop touching me."> freezes in the middle of his groping. breathing through his mouth like a retard. still confused. then a realization strikes his face. > "you want me to touch you!"> "no i don—oww! hehe!"
>>40922217wish i was getting molested by a handsy guy my age
>>40922217when i got asked that i was just like "none of your business"
>>40922217it's not like it's abnormal for a girl to wear a bra?
>hehe>>40924247this is /tttt/, none of us girlmode
>>40922217why were you wearing a shirt so lose your bra strap was visible?
He's cutting off his boobies this weekend. I usually prefer FtM twinks to have flat chests but idk his tits are so perfect he actually looks hot asf with them
>>40923509Too good for anyone in this thread
>>40923801Men don't need boobs
>>40924362not too good for me, mah dude
>>40924362Show yourself pls :3
>>40924399You look like a buff version of my uncle. He's bald, too.
>like anal>like nipple play>consider nipples and butt my primary (only!) sex organs >don't want SRS>don't find anal painful or dysphoria-inducing or inconvenient Am I crazy? Trans women tend not to be as amicable about these things as me (I'm not one just an HRT femboy). I feel really weird for being like this. Like I'm either a pervert or a fetishist.
>>40923998I have nothing in common with gay men and gay culture doesn't interest me at all. Even before I transitioned it was so and none were interested in me.>>40924013No it's not.>>40924028Ok. Well the whole fucking point of the thread is to say I'm a weird freak. I know
>>40924108you are both men who want to have sex with men, anon. you are not substantively different than a gay bottom who wants DL trade
>>40924108You are gay. You get fucked in the ass by men. How you feel about it is not relevant. Hetero women are not attracted to men but still have sex with them
>>40924212My bf isn't gay. He was not interested in me prior to transitioning. I am not gay either but that's because I'm not legitimately attracted to men.>>40924224>Hetero women are not attracted to men but still have sex with themHoly cope
My ex wanted to do this with me and said things like this was the only way she wanted me to cum. I have the strongest feeling that she wants to date again. What do I do about things like this? I am not gay because I'm attracted to her and want to be in a relationship with her. But if this is something that she wants to do to me and she was adamant about it before, do I just give it a try for her. It's difficult to remove the connotations for me seeing it as a gay thing or something, I've been working on just mentally processing it that it's not anything gay it's just a toy/tool that is able to reach somewhere that makes me feel pleasure and she just wants to make me feel good using a toy, tool.
Create yourself here: https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/2366392
>>40922335Gay ftm>>40922526Transbian>>40922576Gay cis guy>>40922611Bi mtf>>40923013Straight mtf
>>40922335Premise 1: 95% of those itt are malePremise 2: 95% of all picrews present only femme or at best twinky optionsConclusion: AOE blanket ur all mtfs or Peter Pan reppers
>>40923277gay trans man>>40923013straight trans woman>>40922823transbian>>40922611transbian >>40922576cis gay>>40922526cis lesbian>>40922335bi trans man
>>40922611bi mtf>>40922823transbian>>40923013straggot mtf>>40923277bi chaser>>40923694bi mtf
>>40924114straight ftm, japanese curry>>40923694bi mtf, danish hot dogs>>40923277gay ftm, cottage pie>>40923013straight mtf, pasta amatriciana>>40922611bi mtf, birria tacos>40922576bi m bottom, grilled cheese>40922526lesbian, gulash>40922335Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
why does my top bf keep groping and licking my stupid tranny cock and balls its embarrassing
>>40924218oh yes all the time he affirms it every 58 minutesi am growing... suspiciiuss
>>40924211"Top" is a gay sex position and tops still enjoy gay sex foreplay
>>40924211
>>40924211you said you don't like it?
>>40924311>im straight, babe. >lemme suck yo dick everytime i get hornyabout 1/2 of dudes into trans are like this.the good ones wont even acknowledge you have genitalia. but i think its cause they're wise to the game.and those 1 are the true "tops" which again.. is a form of homosexuality.when guys fall in love when they get a piece of your ass. or they kick you out.
I've been trying to figure out if I'm trans or cis for about a year now.Tried looking for signs in my childhood. There were none.Tried introspecting whether I am dysphoric. Feel just fine with my body, mostly apathetic, but not like anything is wrong.Tried a more feminine gender presentation. Felt either nothing or felt horrible.Tried using different pronouns on a alt-account. It just felt like I was lying to people.Tried hrt for a couple of months. Felt alright at first, but it began to feel profoundly wrong when the changes started to show.Every single thing I've tried up until now has only reaffirmed the fact that I am just a cis man.Being cis is obviously the more pragmatic, and thus preferable, outcome, but I simply can't accept it. Every time I am reminded I'm cis, a crippling dread washes over me. I should love being a man, simply because I am one, but I can't help but obsess over what I am not and never will be. A woman.How do I accept once and for all that I am just a cis man, and that I won't ever be a woman, and also that I don't want to be a woman to begin with?
Same sameAlso I guess you know who I am
>>40924183there are a lot of ways to be a "man", anon. you can be male and act masculine and fulfill the social role of "man", or any combination of those, in so many different ways. my best advice to you is to stop thinking about yourself in terms of categories, whether "cis" or "trans" or "man", and think of yourself instead as an individual ontologically prior to any categories. just follow what makes you feel joyful and self-actualized. you can just be whoever you want to be in this life.
I'm not op, but in a similar situation.I think mine mostly stems from me going bald despite using the meds. If I was trans I could possibly keep my hair using E, so for me that's a huge reason to want to be trans
repping is hell where brainworm never dies once it hatched... even before it feels very very off, something not being right, deeply wrong... no matter what you do it will be wrong thing to do. cursed. no real way out... maybe unless it will work somehow... when thevfuck will be at peace at last? fuck fuck fuck fuckity fuck!feeling loke downing a bottle and crying like little baby but i know better... fucking cursed world to be born on.
>>40924255>think of yourself instead as an individual ontologicallyIf I look ontologically at myself as an individual, I only ever see a male individual. Ignoring looks, I definitely act like a man, I think like a man, I feel like a man, everything about me is male. This is a immutable part of me and it's not something I've chosen, despite it fitting me like a glove>just follow what makes you feel joyful and self-actualizedI'm not even trying to doom here, but what if nothing I've ever done was able to make me joyful and make me feel like I am myself? I have very put in a ton of effort when it comes to being a man, having had a healthy social life with plenty of friends, a gf, a well trained body, etc, and nothing of it ever felt tangible? Everything I do only ever feels like I'm playing a character and everything that ever happens in my life feels completely irrelevant and transient. Call this dissociation or whatever, doesn't matter, since I never ever felt an alternative to it.>you can just be whoever you want to be in this lifeI feel incapable of wanting. Everything feels disingenuous, like a farce, because it feels like I lack a self, so wanting is just cost-benefit analysis to me
>guys think you'll leave them for a girl>girls think you'll leave them for a guy>trans girls think you see them as men>trans guys think you see them as womenWhy does bisexuality cause so much insecurity?
>>40924294Trans women are trans women.Trans men are trans men.
>>40924325That wasn't the question asked
>>40924325Nice dodge but I can read between the lines, thanks for your cooperation
>>40924341Are you also a leftist, male feminist, anti-fascist and a trans ally? Lol no wonder women are repulsed by you. But you could date a man instead. This leads to me to think why all bi men whine about women not wanting to date them but at the same time they don't wanna date a gay man or a fellow bi man? You're equally hypocritical.
>>40924425trip on kayla
so if you psst yourself on here do you get on some sort of tranny list or somethingcrazy that a stranger has probs saved pics of me on his computer
>>40923052Everyone knows nazis made grindr to have a faggot facebook during roundup
>>40923083So cute.
>>40923134I've got your pics saved babe
Some of the insanos even save the chasie picsI hope they like my soaped up bathtub pics, I was fond of that set
>>40923945let's be frank cisf chasers aren't saving and gooning to our pics it's the cism and trannies
Mighty Mighty man, do I love the white race and it's beautiful twinks.Let's be honest we are the most beautiful of all people to ever walk the earth.Just looking at a white person makes you smile.You are filled with an endless awe and beauty at their majesty.The pinnacle of divine beauty manifest in physical form.This is not a cultural phenomenon but literally a manifestation of the almighty.One gazes into the beauty of existence when they see the white man in all his many forms.9s, Cloud and jonathan from SMT 4.Tell me you are not enraptured by their beauty and inspired to be a better person as a result?You can't.We should all seek to fight against whiteophobia which is becoming rampant in this day and age because we have rebelled against all that is good in the universe.
I mean yeah I think white people are the best looking on average, but it's just my opinion. From what I've seen, most people regardless of culture or background think that blondes are the most beautiful, even in regions of Africa and India where there are no blondes.Anecdotally, I often get compliments on my blue eyes, but I've never seen my brother with swampy green eyes get compliments. Or anyone else with dark eyes for that matter.Still, you can't prove it objectively, and there is a massive number of ugly whites. Far from divine.
>>40924007You are a visionary and have a beautiful vision for the future.Let's make that world come true<3
>>40924025Exceptions do not break a rule.It has empirically, scientifically and spiritually been proven already.You need to rise up to help the white race.
>>40924180No thanks. I like other races. Some races like Indian or Chinese are less attractive, whereas central/northern Europeans and some African tribes are more attractive and physically fit.Also, I don't identify as white. I identify as European. American whites are on average much shorter and uglier. When I visited the US, I was literally towering over everyone and I'm not even that tall, only 185cm. My dad and brother are 195. European and American are a different race. I do hope white features like light skin, hair and eyes get preserved, but Americans are already too dysgenic.
too long didnt read + im a swarthoid and i mog u
