I've been on Hrt for 14 months and I feel mostly the same as a person except that I can cry now?When do i ascend to consciousness 2.0 but also sadly get the drawback of wanting to be fucked by men?
>>40941567then why have I always been a histrionic, vain faggot crybaby although my body runs on testosterone?> inb4 levelsThey are fine, slightly elevated even. I checked.
>>40941567i was dissociated my entire life before i started e at 22now im acutely aware of the immense pain im in at all timesim too scared to quit hrt but i wish i could go back to feeling nothing
>>40941588were you repressed? did you deny yourself at all? i mean everybody's experience is different but some people grow up incredibly repressed due to upbringing/religion/culture stuff. a lot of midshits are former repressors who went all in on hard denial and fucked themselves up pretty bad because of it. it's why they're midshits in the first place, it took years for them to even try to be their authentic selves.>>40941649case in point, it's rough out there for some of us tranners(i hope you heal anon these things take time don't give up)
>>40932741The last drops of your manhood are stored in your prostate............... you know what to do
>>40941936>i hope you heal anon these things take time don't give uptyim not going to make it but i wish the best for you
talk about your virginian woes in this thread
>>40940145my beautiful boyfriend is from virginia and i like when we frot
>>40940145waow based thread i miss it sooo much desu
My ex was from Virginia and we never had sex because I was uncomfortable.
i fr miss it too much blueridge was so based
35 years old, still a virginnever gonna get laidgonna die alone and it's all my faultI deserve itI do not deserve loveI do not deserve loveI do not deserve loveI do not deserve loveI do not deserve love>cis dude btw
why is trans humor so violent
>>40936969should have no problem with some stranger randomly killing you then
>>40937227nta but glass houses hon. trannies are an entire group of people that will absolutely lose their shit if you call them she without the s
chud humor be like>kill all trannoids kikes invent transgenderism nigger tranny kike faggot tranny troon kill yourself
>>40941962>billions must die>tng>day of the ropechuds wouldn't hurt a fly!
Real chud humor>>40941962Fake chud humor
just found out im 177cm tall (almost 5' 10"), is it troonover?
>>40939743Ha ha ha you're smol>t. coping 200cm amazon troon — im kinda jealous desu
>>40939877hey same!
>>40939805I dont get this shit. I have a 17in bicromial and a 32in ribcage at 6'3 and yet everyone sees me as small? Like even people who dont know Im a tranny.
>>40939743wdym you just found out your tall?
>>40941863dyslexic
how do I make myself lactate?for no other reason than I am just lowkey into it(sort of specifically like picrel where its sort of just a little bit and accidental and not full on breastfeeding levels of milk)my first few months of hrt I was taking cypro every other day which seemed to have some impact on me releasing prolactin discharge (would solidify on my nipples and was kinda gross) but then had it slightly lowered and that just stopped, did also start taking more estrogen at the same time though so idkbut other than that like nothingshould I try taking more cypro again or maybe a little bit of domperidone or something?
>>40939414you should start at a low dose and only increase if it doesn't work with pumping for a few weeks
I don't know but if you figure it out let us know please, baby needs milk!
>>40939426do I like need to be pumping for the sorts of results I want though?
Skill issue desu hon>mfw I lactate heavily and my tits keep growing by the week>mfw I make my boyfriend milk me before bed every night
>>40940272you should be pumping because that's what stimulates lactationwithout pumping you will probably need a much bigger dose
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Hey I'm gonna see an endo in November and I'm gonna be 24 then. I really hope I can see meaningful changes. I do have two concerns about HRT though:1. Can testosterone gel applied to my crotch once a week prevent atrophy?2. I already banked my sperm. However, if I were to detransition, would I be able to regain my ability to create sperm in the future?Is there anything else I should know before I start HRT? Thanks guys, this board is great.
First DIY EEn injection, a slightly raised rash around the injection site developed after a day and has been here for 4 days. It doesn’t hurt, itch, or burn. Is this normal? It’s gonna go away on its own, right…?
>>40941564looks like an allergic reaction
I should specify that I tried EEn shots a few years ago and stopped. This is my second time trying, but my first shot with this vial. I didn’t experience any reaction like this the previous time I injected EEn, so I assume it’s not an allergic reaction.
>>40941959Meant to reply to>>40941889
i think i'm addicted to cutting. nothing gives me relief like it does. my dysphoria persists despite hrt and i continue to make myself ugly. smoking, drinking, hitting myself, none of it works like cutting does. why can't i stop? have any of you successfully stopped? how?
>>40941452>im ftm actually apologies anonnbut i think thats actually even betteryou can go crazy in the gym without worrying about getting “too big” cos more muscle will make u look more masculine (i think im not an expert on ftm stuffs)you could try going hard in the gym, idk how much it actually helps but ive heard anecdotally some people using it to stop self harming and yea idk your friends finding out is a good tradeoff for maybe getting you to stop, simply because thats gonna taint their view of you forever i think. id rather explode than have my friends find out i cut
>>40941530OH and my final tipget the fuck off this website anon, it literal poison for your mental health
>>40941452That sounds very stressful, I'm sorry to hear that OP :( Thankfully, it seems you've already completed the first step as you've recognized that you have a habit of doing it instinctively. You're not weak-willed OP, you're stuck in a loop. People get stuck in loops all the time, the problem is that your loop is very harmful. I don't have any experience in breaking bad habits but I know that the more you consciously break these habits, the easier it gets. Also, out of curiosity:>1. What does your average day/schedule look like? >2. What do you *want* your day to look like? >3. *How* can you achieve that?I'm positive there are support groups and/or therapists in your city with people who want to help you! There's also subreddits for people who offer guidance to others suffering from self-harm (Ik it's Reddit but there are many people who have been through what you went through and I'm sure they can help you). I'm going to bed soon but there are so many people here who care for you and are willing to listen to you whenever you feel stressed, powerless, or if you just want to talk. You can absolutely stop your self-harm, OP. I believe in you and I know that you can believe in yourself too!!! I'm sending you love and support OP. You have control. You are not weak-willed.
>>40940526Cutting addiction suucks. I havent done it in years and still get the urge to all the time. Idk if it ever goes away.
I fixed cutting by parsing working out as self harmspecifically the painbut I'm a dude so ymmv
my dick is small and i'm fucking gay
>>40940026That has to feel so different, I wish I had your before size
>>40940051i did that but im not admitting it to anyone
>>40940460Uh based????
>>40940471if i ended up a hon it would’ve been the worst mistake ever but it’s going alright
>>40938043Well that's good, because you can use ur butt for sex instead
I ruined my life with drugs and alcohol before I could even get on hrt.If any young person sees this, don't do drugs and take your hormones early.If you have thoughts now they'll stay with you forever, atleast for mtfs.Stay away from narcotics and alcohol they can blind your dysphoria, but they won't get rid of it. Once you sober up you'll remember how miserable you are..If you believe in god and are afraid of god frowning upon you, I can't tell you anything but I don't understand why god left me with such unresolved feelings.The religious answer I got was to repress them or go against them It only made it worse.Do what you feel would make you happy It's not noble to torture yourself nor are you being honorable by doing so.<3
>>40937052can i take drugs after i start hrt for say a few years
>>40941707you can always take drugs. they don't discriminate
>>40941806yay
>>40937052Ho boy I can recognize those far away eyes. I remember having them. Good luck anon, shits hell but you can make it.
>>40937481tru. supression seems to be directly linked to interference with funtioning. the more fucked up and occupied with obtaining and hiding or gooning it the better... opiates and escapism is nice one. drinking turns into sobbingfest often... but gotta keep blasting brains when repping or i start going mad. other way is inducing low key ocd about some topic and rabitholing.
Does it make men uncomfortable when you look into their eyes while you lovingly suck their cock?
>>40940605it makes me want to palm the back of your head and push your lips to the hilt
>>40941033and they had sex
>>40940605No it's hot as fuck, I want her to stare at me as hard as possible whilst I'm balls deep in her throat
>>40941868and the tranny was too shy to add him*
>>40941917many such cases
Do you believe in female souls in male bodies?
>>40936135I do yes.
>>40936135No. I believe that there are masculine and feminine energies and that some males clearly have a feminine animus and I call those males women.
>>40936135I am oneBut I'm not a womanMy soul is a woman but my biology is a man. Therefore I'm a man
>>40936135idk really. personally doubt it.sure i've had people make observations about my feminine personality traits/habits/etc. since before i even considered transitioning but deep down i still feel like i have a male soul but i'm just like damaged in a weird way. like something didn't click right when i was created.at the very most i would only consider my soul to be some weird in between thing, not quite one or the other.
>>40936135Japan does, but westerners ignore the meaning and say it's a "yaoi" or "crossdresser" phrase much like they do "otokonoko" and "okama"
That strange moment when you realize being skinny is the only true way of being attractiveBodybuilding and starvation might be the only way to become attractive
>>40939644Are you only capable of staying fit if you starve yourself or lift 7 days a week?
>>40939644bodybuilding will make you build muscle which you don't really want if you're trying to be a conventionally attractive woman. I mean you'll get some people going crazy over you but for the average trans woman it's best to just stick to cardio. go for a decent-length jog every day and you don't even need to watch your diet and you can stay skinny
I dont know what the fuck you are saying, all i see are strong women and my transbian senses are makingmefeelalittlesillymeow:3mrrp>w<purr>////<
thats just like your opinion man or whatever
>>40939644Learning Kris Statlander was the same height as me gave me a lot of motivation cuz im kinda shaped like her
>Pink Pony Club, I'm gonna keep on dancing at the>Pink Pony Club, I'm gonna keep on dancing down in>West Hollywood, I'm gonna keep on dancing at the>Pink Pony Club, Pink Pony ClubWhy don't you work as a stripper, tranny?
>>40941668But xhe is a dreck kween.
>>40941346>Why don't you work as a stripper, tranny?disgusting, ugly and i get cold very easily so i dont like to not wear clothes
will never get over that this song is based on chappelles experience at las worst gay club
>>40941794Okay so what's the best? was about to go down there the other night
>>40941832the faggot meta these days is warehouse parties and afters
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>>40940477I do apologize I shoulda cooled down a bit and proofread my post I was a little emotional dealing with a stressful day at work and feeling like isolated and stuff, I wish I could delete it I regret some partsI think I do need to make just some more diverse friends in general now that I'm living a new life. Feel free to add me
>>40931145What do you mean by flirting
>>40931145i am a 29 year old dude in pnw who is also employed pls be my fren
>>40940262what do you mean by coop video games?
post your pre/post HRT photoshere is me, I used to look like a fucking chudjak before HRT
>>40935939chad to chopped
>>40935939im too lazy to make a new one so i'm using this old one
>>40938568How would you like it if I came over there and fucked you in the ass?
>>40938568Milf
>>40941865Total milf vibes. Fit sporty friends mom whose too friendly and makes me blush when I go to my friends house with a really nice ass
