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>>42306228i wash my hands like a fucking freak and wipe the injection site and vial with alcohol wipes. my needles and syringes come from amazon and are listed as sterile cause my doctor is being weird and won’t prescribe syringes or needles for some reason (prob cause i’m in a red state and shit is kinda hitting the fan) it is just the injection site that is itchy and red, and that last around a week. the lumps under my skin typically go away around 3-4 weeks
>>42297844>E at 623pgml>Shbg at 100+>LH below 0.3U/L>T at .3 ng/dl Obviously lowering my dose and cutting out cypro but worried I've cucked myself by nuking T too fast and spiking shbg.Was on 48mg EUn and I'm going to drop back to 32mg, maybe swap to EEn instead so I can get better control with more frequent bloodwork.9months HRT but I don't feel like I'm progressing so wonder if I should stop HRT for a month and restart or something.
>>42306228i'm boofing, yeah. though i'm taking 100mg, not 200.
what if i took 50mg bica daily as i currently do, but went on an off estradiol (4mg sublingual, 2x doses daily)? i ask bc im wondering what would happen if my body was starved of estrogen and also testosterone was suppressed. its like my body has no sex hormones to work with. would i age slower if my body can hardly make changes?
Does t cream actually help with maintaining erections? Seems like no one can agree if it’s any use or not. Best answer I’ve gotten is one that doesn’t have penetrants should work locally if applied to the groin
do you anons ever have dreams where you get married and have a baby? in the one i had last night, i was married and pregnant and my husband was taking care of me by rubbing my shoulders or feeding me. then i was holding my baby for a while. i kinda remember waking up a bit and forcing myself back to sleep so i could hold her longer. i am so sad.
>>42307150used to have them from the age of like 11 well into adulthood. waking up from these dreams and remembering reality is unbearable torture
deep inside you are cis anon. im bi im cis im amab im happy
>>42307815>It’s so overIt really is over for me. >Intentionally?Not one bit. There wasn’t a moment in that cabin on Christmas that they didn’t spend Fuckin. It’s still ongoing, but it looks like they’re not keeping the baby. Neither of them are too happy about it (for different reasons), but they just don’t have the means to raise a child well rn.
>>42307150Yeah kinda. I wonder sometimes if I can get my FtM bf pregnant but it seems like it'd be such an unpleasant experience for him that I could never bring it up.
I had a dream I had friends. I mean not REAL friends but people who tolerate my existence and don't immediately chase me away. Then my alarm went off and I remembered my life. I'm going to go out and get breakfast alone so I can interact with a real life human and not get too weird.
when transfolx went after kids is when normies went after all of us
>>42301926I didn't go after kids so im fine. Checkmate liberal.
>>42301926Alok Vaid-Menon should be executed in public and his corpse should be displayed as a warning.
>>42307693>>42307677>n-no, listen, if i post the tabloid headline for the 1000th time ill be le heckin right!!! it works on reddit it MUST work hereI wonder how people like you function in real life, if you aren't an unironic paid shill
>Pooner art
This is how a pooner draws a troon> Flat chest
>>42307627Yeah i'd dress like that if i wasn't turbo boymoding. He's got that spot on.
>>42307513ya allah, help me resist the urge to 'ox this brimmy artist
>>42307609oh i figured, but i bought it with all that gooner art
i have been hate watching this guy for a while now. he has done everything, from claiming he roleplayed as an asian speaking in broken english because of racial delusion and because it was his age regressed alter at the same time, to posting his suicidal thoughts because some trans woman said she was uncomfortable with how he portrayed hitomi. i can talk about him for hours.i'll just show how he used to draw one of his trans male character vs now. (the now version looks identical to how he draws his other trans male ocs). feeling represented yet, doods? (no, the cat is not the ftm one)
MTFs, is this true of you?
>>42307533kinda lmao>chemicals in the watermy mother blames the large amount of onions milk she fed me as a kid but also completely supports my transition
>>42307533Wait, did he predict that everyone would start chimping out about trannies years in advance?
>>42307826to be fair they'd already started with bathroom bills back then but yeah a bit lol
>>42307533This guy is fucking stupid and it's absolutely baffling that anyone has ever taken him seriously.
>>42307602detrans today
Are there any trans guys here that would like to chat with a cis moid?
I’m happy
you are a happy man. thanks for sharing.
>>42307772woah dont misgender her
>>42307782misgendering implies i was incorrect in the gender i cited and that is not true. that is a man who is in need of medical intervention before he hurts himself and/or others.
>>42307767Your pics back in like 2021 made me stare at you all the time
>>42307797im pretty sure hes a girl
sorry for blog posting but curious on this. Does anyone else feel as if they could die at any moment? Ive spent the past few years having the thought that I could die at any moment by any caus randomly pop into my head. It gets hard to concentrate or think about the future now, each time I do I end up thinking about how I could die. Sometimes I think itll be soon, not like in a specific amount of time but soon. Maybe it has something with being a tranny but I can't stop thinking about how I might die at any time and how this might be soon and how ill be gone but I won't know when ill die since ill dead. Sometimes i end up in this kind of spiral where I realize I can't think about what will happen when I die since I won't be there for it, but I cant stop feeling the fact I will die. It's hard to explain but idk, maybe being a tranny does this to you. I don't feel sad often anymore, I dont feel happy much but it's not like gone or anything it's just a little dimmer. More feel like I'm waiting
Sorry OP this is my last post. It really has felt like imminent doom and like the end is near which is why I posted. The feeling makes it hard to breath and like 1000 tiny needles are poking my skin. I would have left it at that but feel like I owe people responses. >>42305859Okay I'll start applying to accounting internships and get some office casual clothes. I have 2 years left>>42305924It's just this feeling of attempting to turn my stupid life around and the thought of it all being for naught is terrifying. I'm the first one in my family to go to college and it's like the only way I'm going to get FFS or other surgeries or even have health insurance. I know you're right though, it's stupid to kill yourself. A relative shot himself over some financial stuff so there is probably a genetic component to it. I'm sorry the government kicked you out of your job and all that shitty stuff happened. Thanks for saying that, I've basically spent the entire holiday season contemplating going through with it. I'll keep grinding and thugging it out like you are
ive always felt since i was around 11 that im just not built for the world, ill always be pretending and falling short of the bar. will never have a career, will never have an active social life, will miss out on almost everything. these are givens for me. the pain just gets exponentially worse as time passes. it will come to a head at some point.
>>42306358Hell yeah anon you got this. Keep that shotgun but get some shells for home defense or something lolI'd definitely start trying to set yourself apart from other applicants any way that you can. What are you majoring in? I was compsci but paused my schooling this past year because of the job market just making me feel kind of blah around it. Might change to something else that's still STEM desu. My girlfriend is probably my saving grace now desu. She's been really rubbing off on me with her eternal optimism.I've come to terms with my situation I just wish they'd put me on admin leave until I'm out in April so I could get a job and get a headstart on saving some extra cash for when I'm free. That's the one thing that's going to be sooo nice regardless of my finances, no more government dictating my every movement and how I present myself.. Being able to grow out my hair for the first time in almost 6 years is going to be the shit.Btw this is probably gonna sound stupid but this time of year even if you do go outside there isn't as much UV for your body to convert to vitamin D and it's heavily associated with seasonal depression. It may or may not help but taking a D3/K2 supplement might alleviate a little bit of the blues. Worst case it helps your immune system lol
>>42306358>>42307528Oops just saw you're in school to be an accountant. I've got a friend from HS who's been one for several years now. Maybe I could ask him what stuff makes applicants really pop, and maybe that other anon is spot on with the internships, I'm not sure desu
>>42307545>>42307528I'm close to falling asleep. Thank you for the kind words. I started trying to reply to a lot of what you're saying but I'm really sleepy. I'm sorry for suicide posting. I'm glad you have a support system like that to help get through these times
Why do so many ftms dream about being raped and impregnated?
>>42306614I mean I dream about this but I'm a cis man and in my fantasies I get impregnated by a trans girl
>>42306614i dont dream about these things specifically but i dream of my brain somehow aligning with female stuff again without being uncomfortable and accepting these things as normal, to free myself from this hell even if i never truly can at least i wont have to think of it as something negative anymore
What about the ones who are obsessed with the fantasy of raping people? You see them here all the time.
>>42307802overcompensation for weak physical stature. common amonsgt women and manifests in different ways.
>>42307802I once tease a ftm to fuck me and they immediately menace of using a glass bottle so the shards would kill me :(I still don't understand their reaction, like why are you so enraged? :(
Oh my science I just gooned my sissyclit and I think I am a woman nowHello sisters #trans #enby #womanhoo
how to stop being cheated on as a straight trannyinb4 ST4T!!!!!! also got cheated on
I wouldn't cheat on you. Why are you dating bad men instead of good men like me?
>>42303185this usually prevents cheating but not always + they still break your heart anyway so idk if it's worth it
>>42307546trade off of breaking heart by cheating vs breaking heart by suicide basically
get the help you need and become a man worth keeping around.
>>42297845idk prison transbian seems like the way to go
>what is INTERGEN?INTERGEN is a general for intersex people to talk to each other about their experiences or just to hang out>what is an intersex person?Intersex people are those born with any of several sex characteristics, including chromosome patterns, gonads, or genitals that do not fit typical binary notions of male or female bodies>am I intersex?We are not doctors, please seek medical advice, but dont be afraid to ask questions here to maybe understand things better>are trans people intersex?Trans people are not inherently intersex, however an intersex person can transition if they want, “neurologically intersex” is not real as being intersex pertains to the sex organs or hormonal productions>how is this /lgbt/?We share similar experiences of discrimination and social prejudice based on sex and gender norms, even though intersex is a variation of sex characteristics, not a gender identity or sexual orientation itself—————————Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>42300663We went shopping and such and managed to buy all but one thing we needed. Go us!
>>42303201Heck yeah!!! I need to go shopping tomorrow after work, and I guess a call to my family, hope it goes better than the new years one :/ but I’m gonna keep a good attitude forwardGoodnight INTERGEN may you have dreams of shrimp crackers
Good morning the wind howls outside, it’s oddly warm and raining
>>42305988I am awake entirely too early for a weekend and it's a frozen wasteland here.(It's not thaaat bad but it is below freezing.)
>>42307777Don’t worry the weather made a fool of me here
I don't have penis envy, but I have balls envy. Toys are lacking proper balls. I want to put my balls on someone's face and have them slap against their clit. It's such a hot humiliation thing, and I find it very sad there's little I can do to achieve it.
>>42307405Yeah im getting mine removed asap
>>42307419Good girl. Only men get to have them.
I don't mean to rub it in but an under appreciated sex act is having someone kiss your balls during a blowjob. It looks very submissive when they do it and feels kind of good. I recommend having someone kiss your balls if you ever get a prosthetic nutsack
>>42307452Fr anon, the act of smelling his sweat balls and kissing his sack while jerking him off is sooo @.@
>>42307386can you tiktok newgens fuck off already
big cock trannies exist, but they refuse to talk to menlife is meaningless
>>42307674i dont do "fallbacks" with people
>big cock men existAnd?
>>42307678I don't either, but I'm used to people exiting my life, so someone having that arrangement with me doesn't bother me. Seize the day and all.
>>42302379Truer words never spoken, unless she brings it up id never ask
>>42291244>>42290847Have any recommendations?
> Be me. Mentally ill tranny.> I thought I was in a better place, but I never stopped being weird under the surface. I should have tackled the root issues.> Meet racist bpd tranner> Instantly something I can only describe as a prey drive takes me.> I used to feel this way as a kid, but this is a long forgotten memory. It feels incredible on an animal level.> Start looking into her online presence, find out where she lives (surprisingly well hidden online presence, but not good enough).> Fantasize about how I'll kidnap her and torture her for fun. Don't want to kill her by accident so I think of ways to mess with her head.> Genuinely want to do it and start making plans. Depression lightens significantly. I'm planning YEARS in advance, I NEVER do that.> Start documenting her mental state and things like her fears. It's not even 70% accurate yet but it's getting there.> Guilt and dysphoria keeps me from thinking about sexual elements (rape is malebrained, anon!), but they're obviously there. I think it's more of a control thing though.> Don't feel bad about any of it except for the sexual bits. Her racism just makes it so easy to glaze over in my head. Bad person.I don't want to be a bad person but this is the only thing that makes me actually happy. Please god tell me there's hope for me. I feel like a crack addict relapsing. She's also incredibly cute too. In a way that makes me Want. To. Hurt. Her. Nobody has made me feel this way since I was a teenager. What do I do besides rope? I'm not completely monstrous, I swear. It's just this BUG in my brain. What do I do??Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>42306687really cuteif i weren't compulsively schizophrenic about my online presence, i would offer to keep in touchi don't really leave my house much, haha. your best bet is definitely going to be to find us onlinesleep well silly
ok im paranoid now lol
>>42306392ok nvm its not about me because i dont have real friends
wholesome ending to the threadgl op hope you find the right girl for you
>>42306155Wow based. All tranners should have a mindbroken chuddette slave in their basement.
