What exactly is a soul anyway? What is it made out of?
I know that the soul is not my consciousness because when I met a being that looked like shiny dots that blinked like stars afar, my body moved by itself and incorporated in bed, then I talked to it in a strange language I hadn’t heard before and whose words I wasn’t consciously thinking, but had to be spoken by the soul in me. Only word in the dialogue I understood was “Yahweh”. After saying a few words, the being of blinking lights disappeared and I laid again in bed.
body is to soul is to spirit as ice is to water is to airyou "have" a soul but doesn't mean you "are" a soul in the strictest sense
all souls come from metalsthough they may have other information imprinted on them, but the immortal aspect can only come from metals and minerals, sort of similar to the mono-atomic ormus idea, that a light body is created from the subtle essence of the metalsSouls thus have a quantity and a quality. The quality is the degree of divine wisdom, or the light of God, because to the degree they lack it, they are in hell, and to the degree they have it they are in heaven. t. alchemist
>>41048620a unique organizational hash value of biosemiotic meaning within the holographic corpus of meaning of the physical world
>>41048620Your Soul isn't you, it is among other Over Souls in the Astral+ Plane, and it is a spiritual entity in, and of, the (more) Real World, a more vibrant World! It wants Experience and Sensations that it can't get where it is, so it has many Avatars who experience for It. It wants more than your present incarnation, it also wants every probability that you could have chosen. Existence is a Multi-verse! Your Soul remembers what you usually don't! You are a spark of the Divine, you are a god who comes here to grok Existance (No, not fucking Musk!) and bring it back, and you have an "eternal" existence that no God denigns to give you! Being god isn't all it's cracked up to be, for there's a 2nd part: "All that groks is God!" Other souls work with you, taking on various roles, like being relatives and friends, and your opposition, during your incarnation, including jerks. You're Experience leads to more interesting things in the Afterlife, and you are in School there. You choose whether or not you come back here, and when.
What is it you can feel when praying? There's definitely a sensation there that's different to anything else I've felt before. And only when praying. I've found it doesn't awfully change whether I'm praying to Amihtahba, Gautama Buddha, Jesus or God.Serious replies only please.
>>41051634I agree with your sentiment on prayer and the Holy Spirit and how it will amplify what Jesus taught.>didn't know gnostics prayedI don't think they do. That's not the point. OP is spreading false information to give the false impression that God is indifferent to who you pray to. It's very common for self proclaimed gnostics on this board to make up false claims while spreading faulty information to give people the wrong idea about what faith in God is really about.
>>41050349The feeling of inferiority, that there's a being out there more powerful than you that could do things you can't stop and that you beg so things go in your favor.My life improved significantly after I stopped praying, as if I was giving my energies away and all I needed was to keep them.
>>41051989Your whole post is bullshit because you are claiming that prayer costs energy when that's a complete fucking lie. So everything else you're saying that stems from this lie is a lie as well.
>>41050349I came from new age to Christianity. I used to do deep visualization when I would meditate. Being a Christian and feeling Jesus's embrace Is supernatural. The love, the peace, the joy you feel surrounds you fully. Getting closer to Christ has changed my life for the better. I never would have been able to change without Christ. Prayer, or doing the rosary has changed my life even further. It got me a job, got me closer to God, my path In life Is now further defined. Prayer may be so beautiful when properly applied. John 10:1-6John 14:6 6 Jesus said to him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.We all need Jesus.
>>41051480I'm the OP I don't think you're right here.How am I not taking it seriously? Because I am Buddhist?
was it just me or did others get 200% extremely vivid dreams last night
>>41051937My dream was weird, like if I was in alternate timeline in which I make a different life decision and I was having a conversation with some relatives.The dream itself felt 'normal' but the feeling I had after waking up was so vivid, so stressful and so unique. I haven't dreamt like that in a long time.
>>41051937Yes, the past two nights the dreams that I can remember have been vivid and lengthy and it's kind of annoying because I've been wanting to lucid dream but I've just been having especially vivid ones, and last night the dream was even partially about dreams/lucid dreaming but in an abstract way, wasn't actually lucid. They were nice dreams tho
I was back at my highschool home. For some reason my room had two beds side by side and on the other one was an ex from high school and another from uni. I loved the one from high school the most; the other one meh. they were going at it and filming it for OF and I started seething. all of a sudden the wall was crawling with ants and spiders and in horror I grabbed my high school gf's infant and told her that he would perish under her care. she grabbed my hand and snatched my phone out of it, on which was a picture of my own children. I took it back smugly thinking that's right I'm over you. Then I woke up to take a piss and was surprised at how crazy it was. Then I went back to sleep and dreamed that I was successful in a mansion but all by myself. No kids. No wife. shit was nuts
>>41051937You guys have weak spiritsReal magicians don’t dream, since this reality is the dream
For better or worse, if you had vivid dreams you reality shifted.
Previous>>41026093Interstellar object 3i/Atlas is visiting our solar system!Anomalies detected so far:Anti-tail, tail points towards the sun.Ecliptic plane trajectory.Travelling at 68 km/sFlies by Mars, Venus and Jupiter. Nickel with no iron <- rarest sign so far.CO2 ratio of 8:1 against water.Made from non-organic compounds.Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>41047380That's why when shit goes down I'm just gonna try and ignore everything and just pray
>>41050788It could be a star
>>41050788Iirc comets refer not to its material composition but the elliptical and stable orbit they tend to have, in comparison asteroid are mostly free roaming bodies that get catapulted into the inner solar system due to the effect of mars gravity on the asteroid belt, and more rarely from neptune influence on the kuiper belt.
>>41051089Nigger you better pray it's not a fucking star with any sort of gravity
According to a documentary and evidence obtained through multiple warrants, this mother catfished her own daughter, who was 14 years old at the time, and told her multiple times to kill herself, called her a bitch, nobody liked her, told her that her ass and tits were flat and that her boyfriend didnt want her disgusting pussy and that real bitches cream.What the actual fuck is happening to us? Why is demonic possession not a serious discussion? Why are mentally ill humans being possessed at such an alarming rate and being coerced/manipulated to do such heinous and disgusting crimes?
>>41046205>Why is demonic possession not a serious discussion?It's not demonic "possession" its just women being women. Literal demons in the flesh.
>>41051759Call your mother
>>41046205Demonic posession now seems to be an excuse for any and all shitty behaviors.This is nothing new, women naturally develop negative feelings towards their daughters as they see them blossom while seeing themselves hit the wall, it's just that most of them act on these feelings in more subtle ways, a backhanded compliment here, an ugly sweater there, this bitch simply lacked the usual finesse but rest assured a majority of women work extra time to undermine their children in some way or another.
>>41051776His mother was a drug addict who didn't love him and his sisters were meanie meanies who bullied him. Feel pity for him! A woman has never cared about him so now he simply has to be a petulant child online!
>>41051783only time me mum did that to me was when she said "you'll be single forever" because i didn't think a guy who looks like a satanist cro-magnon was hot
Is anyone else just that guy that's hated by God?Nothing good happens, my life is a disaster, bad luck, more misery behind every corner.
>>41051326Not paranormal. Grab a bag of nuts and man up you fucking pussy.
>>41051326make yourself more likeable to god. simple as.https://www.brighteon.com/5e509d24-817d-47ac-994f-74a24abc7e98
>>41051326I went bald in high school and sold all my bitcoin at $60. I'm just trying to run out the clock without anymore disasters.
>>41051733recognize the 4 noble truths and 3 aspects of existence
>>41051326God hates no one since He is everyone (Omnipresent).
Is it worth it to take these tapes seriously, or is it much better to listen to binaural beats while meditating?https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLHU_ADAgLCXbUu7Q-Uupfe94ODw19wzpN&feature=shared
>>41050463Never mind the rest of what they were doing and their output product.. the point is their method for consistently creating the trance state in the channelers. The concepts are the main point I was making. Look at the ideas the channeler was focusing on. They were able to produce a consistent result even though they were using different people to channel. At times they were even talking about things that the person doing the channeling had no knowledge of and the messages were consistent even when they used different "channelers". The trance state was the one real identifiable thing that was tangibly evidenced.You won't necessarily achieve a change in your conscience awareness simply by listening to the audio. There are certain aspects of your focus that can either intensify the experience or diminish it. Otherwise the only thing that the Monroe institute audio was doing was creating a ritual process to interact with the hierarchy of authority. The confidence in the authority of the instructors was used to get people to mentally drive development of their own cognitive abilities.You can find your own methods for doing this.. or you can leave the entire field of research to someone else Only you know exactly what you are seeking.. a heightened capacity for cognitive perception does not have to have any negative connotations with it as baggage. What you will find out with additional cognitive perception is that you can perceive a lot more of what is going on within other people.. and then there's the responsibility of keeping your mouth shut to allow people to live as though they have been successful at keeping their secrets.https://youtu.be/qgawWCBj2JkThe binaural frequencies are a crutch for developing .. helpful but not absolutely necessary
>>41044374>Part of Roberts Supposed success is him having a triangle (like a pyramid?)What's that you say?
>>4104575 Ok, I will try to explain. Iam not great at lengthy explanations, and it is quite lengthy but here it goes. I never believed in anything of the occult or mystical side of life, iam very straight cut and always thought it was for hippy type people, I've always believed in reincarnation from as early as I could speak, and always had interest in aliens UFOs ect but apart from that iam v conservative. I got to about 30 years old and it was when people started talking about DMT and shit like that, it peaked my interest some more. So one night I started properly reading about mediation, thought I'd try it, specifically a technique called holotrophic breathing. I did this for a few weeks, and felt the tingling sensation which is normal as that's what the technique does, floods your body with Co2 which causes the tingling sensation. Shortly after this I mixed in some binaural 432hz binaural beats through a good set of headphones while I would meditate. Sometimes just the beats, sometimes mixed in with the breathing.This went on for a few weeks, I felt relaxed each time and saw some colours while eyes closed but nothing otherworldly. I saw it as an itch I'd scratched, then stopped doing it altogether. A couple weeks had passed and one night i was waking up in the middle of the night and as I was just falling back to sleep I had a loud, rythmic buzzing in the middle of my head, that got louder and louder with intense vibrations. My body felt like a ringing bell. This happened a few times that week, but one night I woke up and I was 100% awake and conscious but my vision was like everything was swirling, vibrating and buzzing around with different colours. From here on I obviously became quite alarmed. This happened on and off for a few weeks, and I'd always try to fight what was happening, but one night I thought fuck it and I let it continue, and this is the main bit. I let it continue and I remember looking down at my wife asleep in bed and for some reason
>>41052024> I was pressed up against my ceiling. Floating above my bed. Next thing I know I've been catapulted so high into the night sky I was above the earth. I was then joined by a blue spinning merkava? Multipointed star type being/object. It proceeded to pull me along through colourful tunnels and different places in space. Until I find myself floating in a huge dark ocean, just floating and breathing normally. This feeling was accompanied by an overwhelming sense of comfort, warmth and love. Like a knowing everything was going to be alright. I then made my way back to bed where I sat bolt upright, just in silence and awe at what had just happened, my wife still asleep next to me. These series of events changed me mentally. Iam still the same thinking type person, but for a while after I suffered from panic attacks, brain fog, and other negative emotions. I felt like this everyday life was mundane and having seeing the other side and what was possible, It changed my perception of everyday life. I wasnt even trying to get to that sort of state. I realise now that I probably experienced an astral projection, but at no point was I in control of anything, and for someone like me I found it very unsettling for a good while after. I've stayed well away from mediation and listening to that type of sound, and everyone and then it would keep happening but id always fight it away. It took a good few months/years for it to stop completely. I then found out about the hemi-sync files on X and realised the similarities on what I'd done and what was already written about. Like I say it doesn't happen anymore, and I don't want to pursue it further but I still get strange buzzes in my head sometimes and really fast undistinguishable images flashed into my mind in black and white and monotone colours. Who knows what really happened with it all I'd thought Id share. I will try and find links on the media I used. Thanks.
>>41050961>No elaboration on the tampering narrative, huh?The fact is that there are several versions and that if you compare their contents on a spectrogram they don't match and that people report the most recent ones, the one they're selling now, to not work.I'll just link to the correct ones:https://mega.nz/folder/Ns9mhDSC#iKKxSnq5EoG_GxYLeylrSg/folder/Vt8l3IBQNow, if you say "I tried these ones and they didn't work" or "they're identical to the ones I used and they didn't work" that would be something, and significantly, you'd be the first anon claiming that.Because we already knew other versions of the tapes didn't work.
Long before human history began, the Lyrans walked Earth’s plains. They had shaped the first civilizations here, weaving their knowledge into our early cultures. Humanity was their great experiment — a fusion of their own genetics with the resilience of Earth’s primates. It was meant to create a species capable of empathy, reason, and harmony with the planet.But as centuries passed, they watched from the shadows as greed, war, and cruelty grew. The balance they had intended was lost; their experiment had spiraled into chaos. Nations poisoned the land, rulers thrived on division, and suffering became the silent currency of power. The Lyrans’ council debated for ages whether humanity could still be redeemed.Now, the debate is over.From the edge of the solar system, their silver, crescent-shaped craft slip into the dark skies. The Lyrans return not as mentors, but as hunters of corruption. Their eyes burn gold with resolve; their armor carries the mark of the old clans who once guarded Earth’s wild places.They will not wage war on the innocent — their mission is precise. Those who exploit, destroy, and enslave will be removed. Hidden strongholds of the corrupt will fall silently in the night. Governments that thrive on blood will crumble without a single human soldier lifting a weapon.To the Lyrans, this is not conquest. It is cleansing. They believe only through purging the architects of suffering can Earth be reborn. When the skies clear and the last echoes of their engines fade, they will leave behind a world where survival no longer demands cruelty.The experiment failed, but the planet will endure. And in the quiet after the storm, humanity — what remains of it — will be free.
>>41050431>>41050212>>41050127>>41049916>t. Reptarfaggot
>no time to explain, get in
This is a glowie slide thread right?Designed to discredit us?
>>41051987I have an archive of rare Lyran material I will access soon which includes an apparatus that will summon them. We need anons to organize and prepare for the apparatus to be built. This is your charge, organize and prepare and when I get the archive you will be ready.
>>41051987Discredit who? What do you mean?
ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE MANIFESTATION THREAD!we need memetic phrase that’ll spread like a virus, so that our goal is met(which is the Zombie apocalypse).
I got more coming. Picrel.
>>41051237Dreaming:In DBZ Goku's journey is the one of the avenging spirit(set Broly aside since it's not part of the cannon arc). He's a fool. No job lazy(he only trains no chores ect.)and an idiot. He doesn't even have sex on reg with Chi Chi. Lol. What a fag. Anyway the arrival of his brother begins his journey to fulfill his destiny. Goku learns from Raditz about who his people are(a conquered people by Frieza) in order to deal with this arrival of his brother(knowledge of the past)he has to join forces with his rival Piccolo(the inner nature of "The Demon King"). The fight between Raditz vs Goku/Piccolo results in the death of the Goku(ego) and Raditz(the anger of being a conquered people).The significance of Goku and Piccolo working together is the mamal part of the brain(emotions/compassion) and the "reptilian" part, aka r-complex, wrestling with the trauma of the past(Radiz). This results in the death of who he thought he was(ego).Waking:Goku now "dead" had to work through the mystery of his mind and make his way along snake way(prep work for the ascending Kundalini). There's challenges along the way and Goku passes them all by out witting the challenges. He makes it to the end and faces his final trials before learning the king Kai fist. The ability can only be learned by those pure of heart. Success! Lucid:Next Goku now lucid to his form trains relentlessly to prep him for the final battle. Bunch of filler ensues, lol. Goku is only able to ascend (through the chakras)and become Super Saiyan when he channels his wrath at the loss of all the souls Frieza murdered in cold blood.Ascension :Now, Goku has taken his Ascended form. He has become the Legendary Super Saiyan. He carries out his destiny Killing the Devil.The Avenging Spirit is destined to win the The Final Showdown.
>>41051824The use of the scouter is symbolic of the inability to feel compassion(psychopathy)The faggy Gymu Force are the people possessed by demons that will battle the forces of light.The Devil though is best represented in Zarbon. Beautiful in appearance but an absolute monster in true form.
"Millennials" are the group of people that have lived countless lifetimes mastering the Kundalini. This is why there was such a heavy hand of sun hero programming in 80's; Thundercats, Voltron, TMNT, He-Man , ect. The Savior was also born in that generation with his Army of Sun Warriors so they will all ascend in mass. This particular point in time was chosen because of its proximity to the End of the Age and enough time to develop themselves into the lucid state at the same time. Also remember that the Savior is a new soul that hasn't ever incarnated beforer.The damn is breaking anons. Our destiny is calling us.
>>41052118So if you know you're a Sun hero you're aware of your lucid state. This is why we feel something on the horizon anons. Ascension is so close for us. So for all you zombie bitches, Tick Tock.Fuck, I'm pumped. Gonna listen to guardians of Asgard again.
I want to become whole but I have parts of myself who are polar opposites, on one hand I'm a porn addict with really weird fetishes and on the other I want to live a virtuous life and practice semen retention but both of these sides clash
>>41051238stick your pp up your butt
You must seek wise and powerful sorcerery! Hidden secret knowledge known only unto masters. Esoteric tombs of wisdom, exlirs of power, and practices of sacred arts. For your addiction I reccomend the milk of magnesisa.
>>41051238>Asking /x/ for lifestyle adviceFFS
advancing spiritully makes you more attractive which means you can switch from jorking it to using cum dumpsters for your urges when they arisethis gets you off porn and associates pleasure with the noise some grievances of the woman whom you will grow tired of and leave behind if you continue the spiritual journeyafter that its pretty easy to not even want to coom anymore
>>41052084>advancing spiritullyHow can I do that? I'm pretty dumb and low IQ
How do you ward off the dementia demon? I feel like it's starting to...get the upper hand with my father.
https://haidut.me/?s=Dementia
>>41050784Very true, but keto works for most people because it’s starving parasites. Look at the most effective diet trends over 50 years and you see they’re all becoming more restrictive especially in carbs and sugar. Dairy too. If someone wanted an even more effective restrictive diet look up the diet candida infections have to adhere to, it’s essentially the keto diet but even more restrictive. Sometimes these can be too restrictive for many to follow though. Carnivore is effective for many but depends on the quality of meat (stay away from bigger animals with tons of hormones and antibiotics in their system) and even the animal type dependent on heritage or blood type. Sunlight factors in as well.The human body isn’t meant to be full of heavy metals and microplastics though so even with a keto diet, a gut detox is usually helpful at letting the immune system heal itself.
>>41046708Good luck anon
>>41050117this dude looks like he ground his teeth flat
>>41050117this guy looks trustworthy
Aren’t they both “father gods” and judges?
>>41049343Why is it that Saturn is the “bad guy” but Jupiter is the “good guy”?
>>41049814Good is usually viewed as the ability do whatever you willWhere bad is resistance to thisIf Saturn is discipline, boundaries, limitations etc. then it's obvious why some will also attribute hatred to that
>>41049814>>41049936Because of the context of mystery cults which oversee human progress,Saturn = constrain humanityJupiter = expand humanity
Just learn how to crop your photos It’s literally easy when you screenshot
>>41049814Saturn isn’t a bad guy and Jupiter isn’t a good guy. Think of it as different parenting styles. Saturn can be good for discipline for unhealthy behaviors. Jupiter can be bad in way a parent lets their kid eat whatever junk food they want and their kid gets unhealthy and fat. Or course both Saturn and Jupiter can be “bad” in extremes and both can be “good” also.
I realize that ICP tapped into something very ancient with their craft . They represent the holy fool, jesters, hayookas. The dark carnival is like the shadow psyche of society. They are like ancient jesters in the kings court of society mocking convention and revealing truth. They skillfully play the part of the fool to tease out deep wisdom. They represent an archetype that spans across culture and history to the very dawn of human civilization. Juggalos represent, in modern times, a social role that has manifested in every generation since the beginning of time. They're the Dionysian, the trickster, Loki. They're the gypsies, the carnies, the thugs, the bards, the minstrels, the freaks, the clowns. They tapped into something really deep and primal and sacred
"A caster of mind-bending, illusionsFrom the nether void of the shadow walkersExcel from Shangri La, The Great Melinko"Like any real poet, like the bards and holy fool's before them, they expose truth in paradox, that darkness is the shadow from light.Jesters used to wear contrasting colors (white and black/red and blue), just like juggalo paint. There's truth behind the veil of perceived duality.
>>41049890>>Reality>The world is a rotten, boring hellscape simulation designed to psychologically torture me and everyone is a demon and they're all in on itThat's just a paranoid take. That's not reality. Fact is, most people really don't give a fuck about you and are dealing with their own problems. The universe, for the most part, doesn't really care about us that much.
>>41049380The threads not about gen x, it’s about the spiritual clown rape that gen x all suffers from.
>>41051921https://youtu.be/iXZX_HAmbTU?si=Ecv_ZsuOTlxTVjL7Best part of it.
>>41049933I keep telling you I know I'm a biological male. I don't care if you think IWNBAW and I'm not asking you too. I'm simply saying that HRT is the best treatment plan for someone in my situation and I've made an informed consenting choice on electing to opt for that as opposed to pallatives like "acceptance"Bottom line is a lot of these downsides are are externally imposed and unironically can be chalked up to antipathy or overt hostility. The rest associated with it are either the results of a delayed transition after masculinization has occured or comorbid mental illnesses There really is no reason to deliberately fuck with someone making a effort to be semi presentable and align their behavior with that of the opposite sex unless you have some sort of ontological issue with them existing at all which in all honesty I would just mirror the same dismissive sentiment you expressedYou don't have to think I'm a woman but your a fool if you think that I can just make this go away. At least some of the more honest right wingers are open about what they think the "solution" is for people like me is and that's the backdrop I have to deal with. It's not about pronouns at that point
Welcome to the Semen Retention General!Loopbreaker Edition!Previous Thread >> 41032248 >What is Semen Retention?Semen retention is the practice of completely abstaining from masturbation and ejaculation, often with the intention of preserving and redirecting vital and sexual energy to oneself.>Why do it?Reported benefits include: increased vitality, mental clarity, reduced stress, increased motivation, increased energy, improved focus, healthier hair/skin/eyes, deeper meditation, improved AP/Lucid Dreams, deeper voice, improved mood, greatly improved testosterone, improved physical strength and many more.>Wet Dreams?They happen because you had a sexual dream and you coomed. Learn to be conscious on your dreams and stop the succubus.>What causes wet dreams?Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>41051624>why would your body sabotage you by "resetting" that progress?Because if you read here its not evolutionary or your "body" doing so. >>41051160>>41051624>This means that there was no flood of prolactin since that's what shuts down erection.Because its beyond simple chemical processes we can easily define as alluded to here>>41045641
>>41049730This is what I take currently on semen retention. Day 88L theamine Zinc L arginine Lecithin Iodine MacaI honestly can’t tell the difference of what helps and what doesn’t. I have heard zinc makes you blow massive loads but I wouldn’t know because I haven’t cum since I began taking zinc.
>>41052116L-Theanine helped calm lustful thoughts and helped me get through the first week pretty easily.
been seeing 111 a lot lately
>>41052138For some reason whenever I look at my watch at work before lunch a lot of times it reads 11:11
so, i've been talking about a tank on /k/ but never dared explain WHY i see this so clearly..to talk about myself a little, i am a strange case of tard that often see things way before they happen, i am constantly stuck in a loop of past experiences and sometimes i see future experiences, gone trough DT so many times and bumped my head a tone so i guess its literal tardation, its like i jump in time for 1-3 seconds, the flashes are so intrusive that i jump and or repeat tix like phrases without meaning to, sometimes cover my eyes.. it happens more than 40 times each day (my mental state is normal now that i don't do drugs or drink anymore, its just the time jumping glitches that bothers me these days) anyways, i do not have schitzo, they say its some sort of funny self inflicted (and not self inflicted) ptsd mixed with anxiety.. the glitches are good when it comes to luck, they also help when picking a class for games fx, i know what maps its gonna be about 70% of the time so ppl that knows me also wonder how i do it.. i got no clue. anyhow, i keep having flashes of war.something where army needs ppl because prior hubs isn't an option (i think its after a nuclear strike on big cities)flashes contain:>army guy looks at my driver license.>in a sim for what i thought at first was just a dream about playing warthunder in an arcade. (a game i only played for a week years ago) >driving around in the north, snow on road and pine trees.Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>41051746angel statue, managed to copy pasta last word and delete next, kek. the angel statue has four wings, but at the top of the wings there are propellers, its also blindfolded, i am very much alive during this flash, it looks like an aftermath visit to a place of battle.
>>41051850the flashes are sporadic and not linked, but they don't change and don't come often, i sometimes see what happens 3 seconds after or before but no new flashes in between these time jumps has arrived. what i can tell you about this machine my short ass is sent to operate is that it is a armored personal carrier.it has two shotgun turrets on its roof that rly doesn't like it when things fly, so the road is also covered with birds making the snow unreasonably red.the main gun is a big mortar like cannon that's mainly used for indirect fire (that's what i remember from sim) behind me sits a loader but i can only see his feet when turning my head (after noticing blood flow) it appears that commander is placed in the rear of machine with the riflemen because of where the primary hatch is located (i also hear him screaming on headset)i am sitting in the turret, looking trough a periscope, to the left and right are screens showing a better picture than what i see in front of me. i know focusing on the machine is semi wrong but i don't know what to do about these dreams anymore.. i don't know if i should even call it dreams, i just hope these are flashbacks from a dream that i've had. Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
as for my anxiety, they don't give me meds because i am coping so well with it, they don't know about the flashes tho, so for in the eyes of state, i am fit for combat sadly enough.. and i operate heavy machinery daily, the glitching mainly happens when i sit down to do nothing.
