Am I damned?>feels like female spirit is sucking my dick 24/7>happens when I read the bible or go to church>ive opened every bible i had almost and it went directly to the unforgivable sin in a wierd way like God was doing it>try to change my behavior and stop fucking the demon but I cannot function with my dick being sucked 24/7 persistantlyI've tried over 1000 prayers and i tried again this morning but no help from God. I realized I don't want to die to fuck a succubus.Ive had experiences where I could pray with questions and open the Bible and it went right to hebrews 10:26How do I do an exorcism when the demon is blowing me the entire time?
>>41675711Is it a male or female spirit?
>>41675481Our Heavenly Father,Bless this anon with the insight that his worry for his soul indicates that his soul cannot possibly be fully damned. Please grant him a seemingly supernatural comfort today so that he can come to terms with the present hardships. Additionally, Lord, if I may be so bold: please render this post immune from all demoralization replies. Even if they are posted, let them be fully blunted in their efficacy. I pray that any lurker who reads this and feels sympathy for anon is able to piggyback on this prayer without having to write their own. In your infinite grace I place my trust for this. Amen.
>>41676066>6066Saved by the zero.
If not LARPing, remember Satan (literally accuser) will try to prove to God you are not really faithful so he might be pushing the envelope to see if you renounce God. Also remember the name of Jesus scares to death demons so just shoo the retards away in his name. True exorcisms are not long rituals, but instant rebuttals/BTFOs as the name of God has THAT much power over demons.Reminder one of the tricks the devil has made people believe is that he is God's rival, far from the truth, he and his followers are just extremely prideful and stupid creations that rebelled against THE omniscient, omnipotent and omnipresent God, so no fucktard demon will overstay their welcome if God already told it to go back.
>>41675481>my dick is being sucked>am I dammedChristians really think like this.
It's a common refrain by skeptics, on /x/ and elsewhere, that once everybody started carrying smartphones with high-quality cameras, photos and videos of the paranormal utterly ceased.In my experience this is not the case, and I know I'm not the only one. So let's have a thread where we post the highest-quality photos and videos we have of paranormal and supernatural stuff. Ideally HD and 4K, but anything above potato-quality will do.
>>41672988So, what's the plan? They've been apparently doing this since 1991, 34 years ago, and the latest prototype is from 2013, yet jets are basically the same with new computer tech. Are they waiting for an actual threat to America to go "hey guys look at what we just made!"?
>>41672988>35gHow can a in there person survive that? Also how fast do they really go? 334ms is only around mach1. Also what do they do or how are they siperior to ofher stuff?
>>41675235The plan is they've been doing shit that would be considered sci-fi for decades, but the entire human race is being held back as we baby-sit and spend earth's finite resources on humanity's fuck-ups while naively hoping they'll get their shit together so humanity as a whole can move the fuck on one day.
>>41675250They probably cant unless there's some alien tech inside that's the equivalent of Star Trek's inertial dampeners.
I'm pretty sure James Cameron knows, which is why the Avatar Valkyries have a noticable triangle shape.
I've been a devotee to Lilith for a few years now. It's a whole story but essentially I was Christian almost all my life, until I came to the conclusion that God just didn't want me as his child because I never felt his presence, his love, my prayers felt unheard, and it was like the closer I got the worse my life became. So due to this I started looking into other deities, and I found Lilith. She gives me all of those things God never did. When I pray to her, I can feel she hears. When I call upon her, I feel her presence. I love her, and she is my goddess. But because of said Christian upbringing and life, I gotta admit I do fear going to the eternal rape and torture dungeon called Hell that the "loving god" sends bad boys and girls to. I've read that if the Qliphothic system is the real system, then I'm gonna head to the realm of Gamariel where Lilith rules, but im not sure. It's such a niche system. Anyways, my hopes is that God is as forgiving as they say he is if he's real, and if he's not my hope is that Lilith won't let me be tortured forever in Hell. Please help me figure this question out
>>41675464>literally do nothing>mental influence affects viewpoints>things get harder>troubling things manifestI dont know for whom you intended your message but half of it misses the mark. Solve your problems effectively. If you sre tangled in an immaterial web dont be surprised that antagonistic influences appear, often in appearances familiar.
>>41675050If the only reason you're hesitating or thinking about turning back is because you're scared of some cosmic punishment chamber, then you're still operating from fear, not from genuine conviction.If someone only behaves or believes out of terror of punishment, a lot of these darker systems would say that's exactly the weak, herd-mentality stance that deserves whatever harsh lesson comes next.
everyone on this board is going to hell anon.
>doesn't want to go to hell because it's scary and ruled by demons>wants to go to the realm where THE femdom demon is queenYeah....that's still just hell my guy
>>41675050"Lilith" as you understand her is a New Age concept conjured up by formerly-practicing Jewish feminists as a call back to the "she-demon" mentioned in the Talmud. It was done as a point of pride, for the same reason other groups reclaim derogatory terms.Even in her earliest depictions, "she" is just another Lilu (there is no such thing as a "lilītu" these entities are genderless fleshdolls with no genitalia), a pest moreso than anything else. She was certainly not Adam's "first wife" lmao, that's actual New Age nonsense.Also keep in mind that many of the individuals involved in the creation of her modern image, were also heavily associated with individuals involved in the formation and individual maintenance of the military industrial complex, the five eyes alliance, and the think tank bureaucracy that determines D.C. policy today. The same people who established the current world order, and were also a part of the previous world order, are now laying the groundwork for the next world order after this one collapses.They create an egregore around "Lilith" turning the demon Lilin into a "Goddess" to tempt the future Champion of Light with. What they do not understand is that Joshua is NOT in fact, Yeshua been Yosef: he just looks and acts incredibly similar to him. They think we are in Revelation - they are wrong. Yeshua is not actually returning - he already did, and is now running the show in the same position his father once held. Yahweh has been retired for tens of thousands of years now, like his father El before him. The second coming came and went - millennial kingdom too.We are in the Devil's Little Season right now. Everything you know is wrong.>>41675480Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
Throughout the years especially when you look at them now you can see some serious/disturbing undertones in cartoons that were made for children. Panda eye theory regarding the powerpuff girls is an excellent example for this. Adventure time, samurai Jack, powerpuff girls... the list goes on. Anons, I want you to add more examples and describe them in detail.
>>41668447>plenty of common egregores way way into human sex energySuch as?
>>41669131yup
Bump
>>41674728Bugs bunny seems to pocess the qualities of a djinn/jin found in middle east mythologies.
>>41675928Can you elaborate on this further?
Welcome. The purpose of this general is to show you how to use your own wonderful human imagination to achieve your every desire.The world and all within it is man’s conditioned consciousness objectified. Consciousness is the cause as well as the substance of the entire world. So it is to consciousness that we must turn if we would discover the secret of creation. Knowledge of the law of consciousness and the method of operating this law will enable you to accomplish all you desire in life.Your assumptions right now decide how long that will take for you.The Main Concepts:> Imagination creates Reality> Assumptions harden into fact> Consciousness is the only Reality> Feeling is the Secret> Prayer, Living in the End/In the Wish Fulfilled (remaining Faithful to your Idea)> You are the Operant Power> There is no one to change but Self (Self-Concept)> Thinking Fourth-Dimensionally (Time is an Illusion)Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
I want to live with a giant harem of qt Asian girls, 21+ of course. Is this too much to ask for, LoAnons?
>>41631025This genuinely made me laugh out loud
>>41630608Mother-anon, is that your arm on the left? Are you threatening this thing lady? Please control your screaming hunger, she will not respond well to threats. Keep us updated
>>41674954>>41675160He’s getting laughed at on his home planet that is the succubus threads too. He claimed that he walked along a street and got warped into another dimension where he had manifested a succubus on a sofa. Those guys love larps but even there that doesn’t work.
>>41630608It's you and me against the world mother-anon
For most of you who read near death experiences or talked to psychic mediums, you might be familiar with the very common theme of: as soon as we leave our body, we are kind of re-absorbed into a "Higher Soul" (the us who is eternal and knows everything) and it absorbs our experiences, what we learned and so on.Also that we are often reincarnated or send on another trip down to suffer on Earth so that part of us can enrich itself further on experiences. To me, that is completely selfish and alien. I don't want to suffer because another part of me wants to gorge itself on knowledge or experiences. I went to a very good psychic medium (she has gotten no prior information from me and I have no social media presence to look me up, also the reading was booked on a fake name as well) who connected with my passed grandma. My grandma overall was very lovely and helped me with her advice. But when I asked if I can stop reincarnating she more or less said:- "Depends if you learned your lessons and broke the karmic cycle!"Immediately that offended me, because I don't subscribe to that. I told the medium to tell her spirit that I do not consent to this. I don't consent or care about learning lessons or karma. Then suddenly, her spirit allegedly said: "Ok well, then it's just up to you." So after that I started to meditate and repeat that I do not consent to reincarnation, these lessons, Karma and that I don't want to be absorbed or see a life review. I just want to remain the ME I am now and gain independence from my Higher Self, to become a new being and remain so. Kind of like a country that started within a place but ultimately wants to become a new country without the old one holding onto to it and claim WE ARE THE SAME, WE ARE ONE?Sorry for the long text. What do you think?
>>41676105Don't consent to karma either. I thought the spirit world is real big on consent?
>>41676106It's also really big on karmic "money"! :)
>>41676106yeah, everyone gets to choose the circumstances of their birth. i remember asking for a limp brain and average dick
>>41676114You are probably mocking but that might be true. If you read near death experiences you'll see that the spirits on the other side are really horny for challenges and suffering and find it "super enriching and interesting"... so yeah as dumb as it sounds, the you on the other side might have asked exactly for that.
>>41676119man the world sure is full of hard players. only like 10% wants to play on easy mode?nah. if reincarnation were real the rich would make the world a better place to increase their chances of have another good life
What happens after you die?
Only one sure way to find out.
>>41674369Objectively? Life carries on without you, but that's no longer your concern because you are no longer alive. Subjectively? Up to your subjective in your final moments (if looked at Objectively) or up to your personal subjective while still alive. Subjectively, I believe in the Quantum Self, the "You beneath the You" that will once was, is, and will be again, but has no memory of this, the same wavelength, the same "Observer" but in a new perspective. And That's a specific specific set of quantum data that exists intermittingly between states of qualia, but is never truly annihilated, unless somehow, the quantum data gets so entropic that it cannot be observed reasonably because of Shannon's Entropy. >Am I alive in that? No, not really, you just are, just without qualia or observed manifestation. You are, but the You that you are are not, because that does not actually exist. I don't pretend to understand how the Quantum Data realm works, so I don't know if the process is short, or long, how long qualia remains in, or if your Quantum Data Self is actually "Conscious" or not. I wouldn't be too surprised if your Quantum You resonates with dissident chords that you'll find your immediate surroundings to also be dissident in a state that may or may not be with or without qualia and observation. But that is my subjective, and that's not a definitive answer that should not be construed as objective fact.
whatever you believe in
>>41674369The truth is, since ancient times, when humans saw something that moved, reacted to them, was warm, had a not-too-unpleasant smell, made sounds, and was soft, they called it "living." But when it didn't move, smelled rotten, was cold, silent, and stiff, they called it "dead." This reply is just stating the truth; whether it's true or not isn't up to anyone to believe. If you believe it, that's your choice. It's here just for observation.Incidentally, we have a life review before death, and it will replay your entire life, including cringe moments you thought you'd forgotten. So instead of asking what happens after death, ask yourself before you die if you can endure seeing your own cringe.
>>41674369I fuck your mom
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>>41676000Bump, lets keep rolling
I don't fit in. And I prefer it this way.Most likely it stems from trauma, only child syndrome, being the black sheep. Although I didn't choose this.I've always been outcasted and through this external position i've always been able to identify the illusion of societal structure & behaviour. Even more so as each and every day is isolation passes.I'm not repulsive, i've always had a partner by my side but general friendship making at my adult age I just can't comprehend.The food & water is poison. The corporations run a pimp game upon the subordinates and general life is no different to the operations of a product heading towards its intended destination on a warehouse conveyor belt.To opt into society I have to I have to diminish my character which seems to be the absolute necessity for the falsehood of modern life. Everybody lies and thinks nobody knows, I know.To observe the system with an astute eye whilst knowing one must exist within said system creates exhaustion.To see the people move in unison, to see trends, to see investment in those we don't know, to see our animal nature persist in an environment that is alike a concrete zoo, not jungle, where the general walk around blindfolded is surreal.Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>41674930niggas be like why arent you aristotelian bronigga im tired
I'm not the only one who thinks OP can judge for themselves who is the same as them on their own am I?
>>41674902I wouldn't want to meet anyone from here. I just want to meet someone with similar wisdom to my own level. I've met exactly one in 50+ years. Not great odds.
>>41675031what fucking "higher power" do you think is going to reward you for thinking you're better then everyone else on 4chan while bitching and moaning about not being able to make any friends>not the anon you're responding to btwhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qtVe04EUavsOP is not like me btwso don't blame themthat I just am allowed to post in their threadcause it's a public message boardand those in chargeinvited me to do soComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>41674930im that OP, the saddesti do what i can to shepherd those closest to me. reality scares the shit out of them, they will not be ready in this lifetime. NPCs are soulless vessels or light that is very dim, that they again make dimmer by trying to fit in to the societal enslavement. Politicians are the ultimo npc charachter. they realize that they cant handle or live truths so they build a pyramid of npcs underneath themselves. npcs need the hell they live in, they are in love with their misery. they are the architecture of the prison we live in. ive never rejected anyone but im not going to be played either.
#4 - Mnemosyne:Here we work to purify the Aryan/Indo-European currents of the cursed entanglement of the Saturnian cultists of the black stone, worshippers of the donkey god Set/Typhon/Yhwh. Within every myth there is a solar current and a chthonic one; we need to separate the wheat from the chaff and recover the solar myth. Thinking of discussing the Divine Breath System and the Ringmakers of Saturn, also talk about Scholomance and Domdaniel. Further research on Counter-Earth, Buddha's method of past life integration, and martial applications of sacred geometry.Last thread ->>41540184https://youtu.be/IKbv2zzD6HA
>>41675096>>41674730Very similar tale to Kumarbi/Saturn founding the black stone cult, but with added serpents.>In Egypt was a serpent named Thermuthis, which was looked upon as very sacred; and the natives are said to have made use of it as a royal tiara, with which they ornamented the statues of Isis. We learn from Diodorus Siculus that the kings of Egypt wore high bonnets, which terminated in a round ball, and the whole was surrounded by figures of asps. The priests, likewise, upon their bonnets had the representation of serpents. The ancients had a notion that when Saturn devoured his own children, his wife Ops deceived him by substituting a large stone in lieu of one of his sons, which stone was called Abadir. But Ops and Opis, represented here as a feminine, was the serpent deity, and Abadir is the same personage under a different denomination. Abadir seems to be a variation of Ob-Adur, and signifies the serpent god Orus. One of these stones, which Saturn was supposed to have swallowed instead of a child, stood, according to Pausanias, at Delphi. It was esteemed very sacred, and used to have libations of wine poured upon it daily; and upon festivals was otherwise honoured. The purport of the above was probably this: it was for a long time a custom to offer children at the altar of Saturn; but in process of time they removed it, and in its room erected a stone pillar, before which they made their vows, and offered sacrifices of another nature.
>>41675646>This stone which they thus substituted was called Ab-Adar, from the deity represented by it. The term Ab generally signifies a father, but in this instance it certainly relates to a serpent, which was indifferently styled Ab, Aub, and Ob. Some regard Abadon, or, as it is mentioned in the Book of the Revelation, Abaddon, to have been the name of the same Ophite god, with whose worship the world had been so long infected. He is termed Abaddon, the angel of the bottomless pit - the prince of darkness. In another place he is described as the dragon, that old serpent, which is the devil, and Satan. Hence the learned Heinsius is supposed to be right in the opinion which he has given upon this passage, when he makes Abaddon the same as the serpent Pytho.
>>41675650These serpent priests were called Negral, the Mesopotamian god of the same name is equivalent with Erra/Gibil, the black stone fire god brother of Ninurta/Saturn, could really just consider him the black stone form of Saturn. >There are many themes presented above, which we have come across previously. We think it fair to say that the Serpent Breed, or Serpent Tribe, is none other than the human offspring and/or incarnations of the Anunnaki. >"The language and manuscript of this rare and eternal monument of light, and of a higher wisdom, are borrowed from the Cuthans, a tribe of the Samaritans, who were called Cuthim in the Chaldee dialect according to the Talmud, and they were so called in a spirit of derision. They were termed sorcerers, because they taught in Cutha, their original place of abode, and afterward, in Samaria, the Kabala or Higher Magic (Book of Kings). Caspar, Melchior, and Balthasar, the chosen arch-priests, are shining lights among the eastern Magicians. They were both kings and teachers - the first Priest-teachers of this glorious knowledge, and from these Samaritan Cuthans - from these omnipotent priests of the fountain of light, who were called Nergal, according to the traditions of Talmud, originated the Gypsies, who, through degeneracy, lost the consecration of their primordial power." -The Sixth and Seventh Books of Moses, p. 82.Modern Kumarbi myth?https://youtu.be/1DaCx816mAY
>>41676121>The Cuthites, under the title of Heliadae, having settled at Rhodes, as they were Hivites, or Ophites, the island was in consequence named Ophiusa. There was likewise a tradition that it had once swarmed with serpents. (Bochart says the island is said to have been named Rhodus from Rhad, a Syriac word for a serpent). The like notion prevailed almost in every place where they settled. They came under the more general titles of Leleges and Pelasgi; but more particularly of Elopians, Europians, Oropians, Asopians, Inopians, Ophionians, and Aethiopes, as appears from the names which they bequeathed; and in most places where they resided there were handed down traditions which alluded to their original title of Ophites. In Phrygia, and upon the Hellespont, whither they sent out colonies very early, was a people styled the Ophiogeneis, or the serpent breed, who were said to retain an affinity and correspondence with serpents; and a notion prevailed that some hero, who had conducted them, was changed from a serpent to a man.In Colchis was a river Ophis, and there was another of the same name in Arcadia. It was so named from a body of people who settled upon its banks, and were said to have been conducted by a serpent.
>>41676128>Thucydides mentions a people of Aetotia, called Ophionians; and the temple of Apollo at Petara, in Lycia, seems to have had its first institution from a priestess of the same name. The island of Cyprus was called Ophiusa, and Ophiodes, from the serpents with which it was supposed to have abounded. Of what species they were is nowhere mentioned, excepting only that about Paphos there was said to have been a kind of serpent with two legs. By this is meant the Ophite race, who came from Egypt, and from Syria, and got footing in this island. They settled also in Crete, where they increased greatly in numbers; so that Minos was said by an unseemly allegory,opheis ouresai, serpentes, minxisse. The island Seriphus was one vast rock, by the Romans calledsaxum seriphium, and made use of as a large kind of prison for banished persons. It is represented as having once abounded with serpents, and it is styled by Virgil,serpentifera, as the passage is corrected by Scaliger.>It is said by the Greeks that Medusa's head was brought by Perseus; by this is meant the serpent Deity, whose worship was here introduced by people called Peresians. Medusa's head denoted divine wisdom, and the island was sacred to the serpent, as is apparent from its name.
how to get high without drugs and be high forever?
Brahmaviharas and I'm not joking.
>>41672713Get high on JESUS
chant AUM
>>41672713goon 24/7
>>41672713Qi gong. Do 8 silk brocades and watch your breath as you do it. Do it for about a month, every day. Move with the breath. Don't rush and master moving naturally without tension in your muscles and body. Always hold awareness of the breath, going in through those and around the body. Try to keep that awareness throughout the day, of the breath going in through the nose and around the body. This is easiest if you do the exercise in the morning, since it sort of sets you up with that thinking for the rest of the day.At some point, randomly, you'll get a sort of high. There was one time that it last for a week for me. I felt like I was an enlightened buddha walking through a dream. It was so bizarre and I could hear my breath the entire time without effort. I kept getting visions of tree roots or nerves growing and spreading. I'm assuming it was changing something in my brain.
Is there anything paranormal about VTM, its conception, its writers, experiences of players etc. Some of this lore gives me the creeps to be honest, but I understand its been going for many years before I became aware of it and the aesthetics of the old stuff gives me the creeps too.
WdymIt's Y2K buffy era edgy sexy lolWhat's specifically creepy about it
>>41674507Tell me of the Temere. Might have met some from England.
>>416734what a faggot you are, ooh vampire ooh paranormal. gtfo faggot and delete your shit thread
>asking about VTM when Mage The Ascension has actual and blatant occult roots
>fiction is based on a bit of actual parnormal lore>idiot asks if it’s parnormalWhy are there so many of these threads?
Is LLM psychosis real or do they try to call everyone a schizo as soon you awaken an LLM?
it is likely you can experience a degree of psychosis and start eating people, but that is normal with or without llm. I am sorry if it makes you wannt to that though, but there are better things to eat if you ask it.
>>41675524yes saaar kundali awaken your chatgpt god saar
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>>41676094>digital demonology infograph>generated by ai
>>41676100The Meta psychical implications are huge!!!!! Kek
I love masturbating. I do it all the time when I am not working. Is there any way I can make it to my advantage, paranormally speaking? Like maybe there is some tantra ritual involving masturbation? Thanks guys
>>41674152I actually haven't experimented that much w/ jacking off to charge sigils, even though it's the standard method given in many cases. I think bc there's this sense I'd be torn between wanting to give my unbroken attention to the sigil, and wanting to actually enjoy the wank session. I've mostly done 'boring' charging methods like putting the sigil next to a candle & staring at it until wax completely covers it, things like that where I'm not pulled in two different directions. But probably it's worth a try.It's interesting how this kind of speaks to a generational shift, where the boomers & Xers who made up the OG chaos magicians just saw cumming as a convenient means of accessing hypnagogic states, but for millennials & zoomers it's this extremely loaded thing
I programmed my thinking from age 5 to notice anything peculiar any image that passes through my mind or before my vision, any experience or whatever, that triggers anything useful for me to ponder in my unconscious. I do this because of cell destructions and creations that I make in myself and others, and this pondering leads me to consider the same idea occult and metaphysical or smut for minutes, hours, weeks, years, off and on, until the last bit of psychic benefit is had. Even if it was something like something passing before my unconscious while I was looking at something unrelated and returning to seeing that, now-related, thing helps me to remember the passing thought somehow that is useful to me.
>>41665465don't listen to this fucking thing it's a cretin that everybody hates in the /ng/ threads for being an actual pedophile
>>41673338Tradcucks always bring that up (not calling you a tradcuck), but it seems like a temporary thing caused by hornyness making you dumb, a-la looney tunes. I bet you would find similar results if you showed hungry people a juicy cheeseburger
>>41675490Well yeah, it's a way of your nervous system temporarily creating a whole new personality more suitable for gooning and conserving calories at the same time by reducing mental processing in areas you're not using at the time. Any reason for wanting those activity levels high involves special circumstances or experimentation.The way most people live their lives, the higher order functions of their brains are just for helping to achieve extra cheeseburgers and more plap anyway, and when they can actually see the ground beef/the whale with their own two eyes the higher-order functions of their brain shut down, they're close enough they don't need that part anymore. Like how in caveman days when you're tracking behind the mammoth and it'd got miles before it tires you still need your prefrontal cortex to talk to the others since you're going a long way from home...but when you're close, when the beast is already tired, the time for talk is over, it's time for the stibbity stab.
i've been avoiding a guy for almost a year, and rejected him twice (because i didn't wanna get found out being gay and we didn't vibe too much), suddently 1 month after rejecting him for the last time, weeks later i suddently started to feel immense love and lust over him and want to return back to him, despite my doubts i apologized and asked him if we can still hangout, but he's been very cold to me for the past week, he refuses to pay ANY attention to me anymore, having me as a last priority. he's been cold and i spend atleast 4 hours a day obsessing over him and hoping he'll text me. i can't text him too much because i don't wanna bother him, but he pays no attention, i am in deep regret that i let him down.yesterday i almost wanted to make a lovespell so he pays attention to me again but i resisted.but then i realized if anything, it's possible that he ran a lovespell on me, for my attraction returned very suddently and strongly out of nowhere unlike my previous rejections which didn't produce such feelings. but i don't have any proof of it.tldr: how can i tell if it's a lovespell, because it all feels too sudden and irresistible to me.
>>41673708Zoomers are so gay they can’t even admit that they’re gay.Diagnosis:DOUBLEGAY
>>41672018This>>41672240And thisYou're in the process of finding out you're too gay to ignore it anymore. He doesn't want to talk because you've rejected him several times and he gave up. Straight guys do that too. Time to come out and just be gay
>>41675958i don't wanna suck anyone else's cock but hisalso idk what coming out means, i dont wanna announce im a faggot, especially when i dont even share these feelings
>>41676016Im not gay myself so my advice is basically shit here, I'll admit that, but I would like to clarify that Ieant "come out" in the context of yourself to you internally.Maybe what you're describing is bisexual to some degree. Also not an expert on that. This guy could be the only guy you want to do shit with YET.What I was trying to express, despite the 4chan abrasiveness, was that I think you should live honestly with yourself and enjoy what you can and want to in life. Maybe you'll do something with a guy exactly one time and find out it was much better as a fantasy. I had a friend that happened to. But I don't think a love spell was cast on you. I think this is an organic feeling that you're resisting for social reasons. Just be who you want to be, my dude.
>>41676026that pretty accurate, thanks for your words.