It wasn't until age 11 or 12 that I understood what sex is, and I was horrified. All my life I've been attracted to cute girls, but when I learned sex is this gross awkward aggressive act where a girl loses her innocence, I just couldn't be aroused by it at all. So I can only get off to naked bodies, while sex acts are a turn-off. So I wonder, why am I like this? Was I traumatized or something? Adults never told me sex was bad as a kid, in fact they rarely talked about it at all. It's not like I cringe or can't watch sex, but it's just this weird awkward bumping into each other thing, usually I don't even see it as sexual.
>>40969430>on the bright side, if you decide to unpack and work through your feelings it should help with that.yeah i was thinking of just having shrooms and trying to dredge all that stuff upbut i don't have an answer tbqhdropping psychedelics doesn't solve problems, it just lets you see a new perspective. you still have to solve the problem. there were so many problems i had as a kid & honestly even now i just don't have the solutions, i don't even really know where to start on solutions desu. i think a lot of us are in that position
>>40969469something that helped me a lot was writing down my thoughts. it helped me keep track of them all and gave me the structure to think through them more than I would have otherwise. once I had a better grasp on the situation finding solutions was easier.
>>40969500i fucking wish it was that easy ive been doing a diary since i was 14
>>40969510...therapy?
>>40969595didn't workive also been on over 10 psych meds and they didn't work. they didnt even do anything loli think some people are so cooked mentally they kinda need a "factory reset" on their brain. this is what electroshock therapy is for but personally i don't want to do that. i've heard if you get really good at lucid dreaming you can like talk to yourself and do self therapy so i'm gonna try that.
Halloween is around the cornerWhat do you fags like to do on Halloween? What are some good ideas on how a boymoder can enjoy Halloween? Costume ideas?How do you guys feel about the pumpkin meme?Any fun faggot related Halloween stories?
>>40969136My brain is so scrambled right now coming to terms with how cute you are I am falling off the couch flustered by your beauty and kinks. I'm flooredYou'd even let me talk about you like you're not there to the men I allow to grope your body, explaining oh he likes to be touched here, he likes this, ooh give him a good squeeze there my baby boy takes such good care of himself doesn't he? So proud of him you know. To the sleazey opportunist I let use your mouth in front of everyone, I'm with you the whole time petting your hair while I brag to the guy about how good your mouth is and how you were born to do this and every part of you is another feature I love to use. I'd tell you in that happy excited baby talk way you use with dogs to ask them if they want walkies to swallow down his cum like a good boy. When we get home and I strip you down and collar and pet you I'm going to make out with you first before I fully use you as my slutty puppy for the rest of the night and just kiss you breathless over and over licking into your mouth sloppy and greedy. You get a massage when it's all over and mandatory cuddles. Might watch a movie with you between my legs head resting on my chest while I pet your hair. That's just a Halloween fantasy though in an ideal world
>>40969136It also emphasizes to me that because I didn't overpower you with physical strength to make you mine, all the power I have over you is in your mind thus burned into your very sense of self. Psychological domination feels more permanent and complete. I'm sure we both have lots of thoughts on the subjectI like fuck or die tropes in fiction so I'd combine the helplessly large and controlled narrative with pseudo cnc where instead of you becoming violent you become sexual against your will and I feel guilty at first using your feral state to satisfy myself scared that when you snap out of it you'll hate me for not being strong willed enough to resist you but then finding out you wanted it too and were too shy to give yourselc to me normallyHey this was really fun! Thank you for the time you spent with me today, I really am fond of you. I really hope I have some way of seeing your costume one day gorgeous
>>40969136If any part of me was trying to be polite and distant this photo of you killed it immediately there's something hypnotic about the way it clings to you I am so fucking drawn to you
Spend time with my momive worn ghost face masks for so longits grossno :(
>>40967446>4pl8impressive anonmost impressive
>QOTT: Is this the end for terje?>QOTT2: Will he ever escape Gloves gaping maw?
>>40968591Anon <3
>>40962539noooo why. mtf are so funnies and cool. if you had a bad experience with someone in the spectrum than it was just a annoying person. not every mtf is bad.
>>40963878i cant see ;----;
>>40968862lmaaaaaaao. my intact hymen is the peak of masculinity...this was so funny i will think about it when i'm bored and feeling sad.
>>40969507You have to be over 18 to post here.
Is it normal to fap 5-8 a times daily?
>>40968484https://archive.org/details/20250324_20250324_0702/%D0%97%D1%8D%D0%B4%D1%8B+-+%D8%B2+%D8%A8%D8%B3+%DA%AF%D9%84+%DA%A9%D9%87+%D8%AF%D8%B1+%D8%A8%D8%A7%D8%BA+%D9%85%D8%A3%D9%88%DB%8C+%DA%AF%D8%B1%D9%81%D8%AA+-+03+-+3.mp3
Where are the high libido trans girls that will cheat on me
>>40969312In OP baby.
>>40968461Post urs?
I fap daily to BBC and BNWO.
i'm not dysphoric but i have extreme orgasm and vagina envy and want to have sex or masturbate like a womanis it worth taking HRT despite being a disgusting male pervert that is chasing hedonism and then killing myself if i can't have good orgasms?
>>40968158>I don’t remember ever saying that feminine, jobs were easy, just stressful in qualitatively different way than masculine -dominated jobs.this discussion was specifically about jobs that are so easy that one could sit around and exert "light effort" (which you still haven't defined) continuouslyto me a job that requires continuous attention that leaves you drained by the end of it isn't "light effort", that is just constantly living under stress>The distinction between masculine and and jobs (beyond “oil rig versus salon”) is actually not very big,this is a copout. we were just talking about how women gravitate towards certain jobs because it enables them to work in a certain way, and now you're pulling the "the difference in the jobs isn't that big" card>but it’s more about how the worker responds to stress.okay, so suppose a man and a women work the same exact job, what general trends do you see in the difference in their work style and response to this stress?>Yes nursing and med tech can be overly stressful and that’s why a lot of women end up looking extremely rough many years inand in what ways is the stress there different from the stress of a masculine job?Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>40968276>You mentioned earlier that you don't know any jobs that match the description of, "constant, steady paced, relaxed, long stretches of time".the only i can think of are extremely slow paced secretary or admin jobs that don't have a lot of work to be donebut those jobs are going away because companies are realizing if they have 5 secretaries they can fire 4 secretaries and make the remaining 1 do all the work>But if you look at Japan and how their corporate system is structured, you'll find the average salaryman gig to match that description pretty closely.don't they have high suicide rates? is a japanese salaryman job really less stressful than a western one?
>>40968383>the only i can think of are extremely slow paced secretary or admin jobs that don't have a lot of work to be doneIt's hard for sure. Like I said, our society is just naturally stressful to be in nowadays. Figuring out how you're going to deal with that is for you to solve.>don't they have high suicide rates?Yeah, because they force their employees to do ridiculous hours. Not all companies do it though.
>>40968444>Like I said, our society is just naturally stressful to be in nowadays. Figuring out how you're going to deal with that is for you to solve.being less stressed helps sex drive and leads to better orgasmsthere has to be techniques or methods to get into that headspace
>>40967589>sure but i have a male dominated careeris it tech or is it an actually male dominated career
how do i find a decent boyfriend when im a mentally ill unemployed loser who doesn’t have anyone irl and doesn’t go outside ;-;people tell me i pass really well. i have a cute, passing, but soft/weak voice, im good at voice training and can do several voices. people seem to find me attractive, im skinny, i a soft, gentle, kind and feminine personality. i introspect a lot and love thinking about the world, and people always tell me im smart and that im really helpful. im creative, and i think i have good artistic taste. i think i have good intrapersonal skills, but i do get really really bad social anxiety. i get hit on a lot irl, not the types that i think i would pair well with though …i don’t want just a sex thing, i want connectionim so mentally ill, incompetent and codependent. is it over for me? i want a boyfriend so bad, im also so scared of men. im so pathetic
>>40969224It's okay to like promiscuous girls, they need love too. Do you have a discord?
>>40969431tempnnn2792
>>40969532Sent you a request
If a girl I loved fucked someone else I'd kms
>>40969576Gyarus and bimbos that have the look but don't have the fuck everything in sight tendencies are literally the best characters ever.I wouldn't kms, I'd be super upset and drop them immediately though
>one chance at life>afab
>>40968285>>40968290>>40968297this board is so annoying istg your maleness is showingt. mtf
>>40968374not a single sane human would care about what happens on an imageboardstop being catty or kill yourself
>>40968393oh noes i made you angry im sorry please dont hurt me mister >_<
>>40968415it's alrighty, i won't
>>40968075i wish i was in your place desu.but in the end its pain brother, pain.
There are hundreds, if not thousands of "femreppers" across the globe who are ovulating right now, this very minute they are BEGGING to have an egg attach to their uterus - but the men around them are not giving them what they deserve. Makes me weep at the very thought.
>>40956272>"femreppers">video of the most cis ciswomen to ever cis
>>40967781they think we look like that lmaoooo
>>40967781how do you know they are not inwardly struggling?
literally me
>>40964001There's a few positions I'm familiar with which might help out with that. HMU
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Does anyone have experience buying bulk E Powder for topical or oral use? I’m getting convinced DIY will not be an option in a few years, feeling like stocking up is smart
>>40968184Topical would be fairly simple. On plebbit there's r/estrogel. Orals are harder and to my knowledge they're worse due to the first pass effect. I'd go for topical if I get any E powder. I don't have any experience getting it doe.
First time I've done bloodwork at ~5 months HRT.Please someone tell me I haven't fucked it all up.12.5mg cypro and 48mg EUn (was on 8mg sublingual for first 3 months)
>>40969258Why're you doing Cypro and EUn? If the site's right I think that's a lotta E2 and too little T. You still want a little bit of T floating around because nuking it entirely can cause issues. My advice would be to probably pull back on the Cypro and figure out a dose of EUn that doesn't put your E2 levels so high.
How do I stop fearing the possible side-effects of feminizing HRT? Stroke, heart attack, blood clots, liver and/or kidney damage, brain tumours, gallbladder disease, etc. I've had the medications filled and sitting in front of me for almost a month, but fear is stopping me from taking any of it.
I am a 21 y/o trans girl living in the largest city in my state (on the east coast). I look like a monster. Every time a stranger refers to or addresses me with a gendered term I take note of it and log it in my phone (Only counting once per person, and obviously not counting situations where someone has access to information that would affect their decision, i.e. if I introduce myself with my name and they gender me correctly afterwards it doesn't count, it only counts when they're doing it based off how I look/sound/act, not based off things they've been told). I have been doing this for over a year.I'm currently, according to my records, gendered correctly 83% of the time, and I haven't been misgendered in 7 months. But the thing is, I absolutely do not pass. Like not even a little bit. I'm actually so ugly and masculine it's insane and it's unbelievable to me that I get ma'am'd anywhere near as much as I do. But I do.My question is, in cities, will most people refer to you based off your presentation regardless of if you pass or not? Are most people actually nice and respectful to trans people, and the internet is just disproportionately hostile to us? Or, am I just delusional about how clocky I am? I would love to hear the opinion of some fellow transgenders and normal-people experts. thankyou,,
>>40968867i will never know but i would like to know and i would like to hear people's thoughts
>>40968891well, that is my thoughts, it can make you lose your mind...I will say there is a noticeable difference between when I made some effort and was thinner, and when I made no effort and was heavierlike the difference between colleagues blushing, getting asked out, ppl trying to scout me off the street, asking to kiss my hand, asking if I'm single, bending the rules, bus driver letting me take a hot drink onto a bus with a no drinks sign and then waiting for me to cross the street infront of the bus and waving before driving onversus old men on two occasions saying I look nice in recent years while I take a break on a benchI know ppl try to say that being attractive and passing aren't the same thing, but they're still closely related like 'a girl that cute can't be mtf' or 'a guy that buff can't be ftm'
>>40969016>colleagues blushing, getting asked out, ppl trying to scout me off the street, asking to kiss my hand, asking if I'm single, bending the rules, bus driver letting me take a hot drink onto a bus with a no drinks sign and then waiting for me to cross the street infront of the bus and waving before driving onnone of these things have ever, ever happened to me
>>40969178yeh, but they have for me, but they will never happen for me now, so how does that work if it's unchangeable or precise? I don't know if those exact things will happen to you, but you could probably make that 83% got up to 99% at least imho
>>40968569most people dont give a fuck and juat want to move on with their lives but do notice. they just don't say anything
i have BPD and i switch what gender i want to be constantly in a constant search to crush the emptiness i feel inside, among other tacticsbut i've been on hrt since i was a teenager so i just have tits so i can't go back to looking like a male everjust throwing that out there
>>40968904>autist imposing rigid limitations on my languagethe worst kind
i do the exact same thing but i dont think im bpd. if anything im avpd
>>40968921the pop psychology definitions of these are very different from the clinical definitionsI have a mild personality disorder with a borderline pattern and a prominent tendency towards detachment according to the ICD 11
>>40968817why would BPD make you want to have tits.
it is over
/lesgen/ is the lesbian general for all cis women and trans women (MtF) to discuss lesbian relationships and topics.Bee kind to each other and report/ignore trolls who attempt to divide trans mtf lesbians and cis lesbians as a community.QOTT:>Are you still friends with your exes?>Have you ever gotten back with an ex?>What's the best programming language?tagmap: https://tagmap.io/tag/%2Flesgen%2Fdiscord: https://discord.gg/bAnVMAGPNRold thread: 40953043
>>40969021that sounds really sweet anon, like a true partnership, you're both very lucky imho>>40969037600 is a lot, my mom gave me a mini rosary a while ago, but it only has like 10 beads so I get thru it quickly
>>40969097thanks nona, I agree. I love my gf very much and I can't see a future without her by my side. We pretty much grew up together since we were in highschool, so there's that
>>40969106oh yeh, the anon that has been married for 20 years?never take it for granted, some of us just go round and round and it gets tiring tbqh
>>40969131Don't worry, I don't plan to ever taking it for granted. I'm genuinely thankful that she stood by my side through so much hardship (even through me trooning out, which is huge). So yeah, I'm just generally super grateful and blessed to still have her by my side.We're not married (yet) because we don't really see a point to it. But maybe one day we'll get married, who knows!
schizophrenic DiD hours
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>>40968407for most its temporary. why do you want to date a perma-boymoder anon?
>>40968407well that depends but for at least half of them i would say it's temporary
>>40968308well i exist (perma boymoder) but i dont really go outside enough to exist in social situations :p why?
>>40954545she looks like a human pomni.....
>>40969535That's samarie
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>>40969195male entitlement
>>40969132Cant tell if this passes
where is Maiq?
>>40969490tutoring choir boys
>>40969410don't sweat it. I'm sure I'll remember my place in this world and cave within a week.
>finally achieve sub-30" waist>makes my 32" underbust look like a barrel chestConclusion, it's not about your waist. Just get on pio then get fat.
