ive slowly been coming to the realization that it doesn't get better. all i want in life is to be a housewife/homekeeper, i dont even care who its for, but i just want to be the most tradwife i could possibly be. instead i work a 9-5 with no support systems whatsoever, with crippling mental health issues, and disassociative episodes so bad ive gotten in multiple minor car accidents due to them. i go to my job, i come home, then everything else is a blur. i go in the shower, time skips, i get out. i have this fantasy in my head about what life could be, but everything around me is collapsing, no husband to love me, i feel like a shell of a person now. brain empty, nothing happening. no revolution will save me of my life, no hard work will get me out of this hole, and no prince charming will sweep me off my feet and take me to a better life. i see so many people living my fantasy online, but it feels like it is just impossible for me. i douse my mind with any chemicals i can find for any chance that i can finally escape it, or at least damage it enough to stop functioning. i am 19 years old and i already feel like its over, im cooked.
>>42292683>19 years oldtake a step back and breathe. you are just beginning and stepping foot into the world. i relate with a lot of what you said, and i have the same desire of finding a husband and becoming housewife as you do. except im 27 and it hasn't happened for me yet. not even a boyfriend for longer than a couple months. im only just now seeing a glimmer of hope that my dream might happen for me.you have to stay strong. its a marathon not a sprint. that man might not come and sweep you off your feet for a couple years. maybe half a decade. count your blessings. work on yourself and what's meant for you will come. substances won't help, trust me. try not to compare yourself to what you see online, it's not real. a genuine connection like the one you're searching for doesn't need to be shared on social media, its meant to be lived.
>>42292683>am 19 years oldBruh say this when you're 29You life has only just started
>>42292683how long have you been on e?>>42293615>"oh you dont have it as bad yet"you do know that this is the stupidest thing to say to a suicidal person?
>>42292683if you are cute then i can adopt you
>>42292683If you're 5/10, I'll adopt you sis.
What does the /lgbt/ board think of him?
>bruh everything is a spookSo? Doesn't mean they don't matter to us.
>>42293137https://voca.ro/14yptrXNzb0X
>>42293169That's perfectly in line with Stirner's philosophy. You might intellectually recognize that religion is a spook but still egoistically value the community and aesthetics of it. The point is to be introspective and honest about what you value instead of submitting your ego to society, religion, morality, the state, etc. I suggest reading Bernard Williams who's a natural compliment to Stirner.
>>42292822Not really worth listening to. Nietzsche is far more interesting and relevant
>>42292822He is a cornerstone of my philosophy and everyone who can afford to read a clunky translation of German should read the spook book. Everyone who talks about Stirner though outside of a proper philosophical discussion is a gigantic politicslarp faggot
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>>42293883Is it really him
>>42293519thanks grok
>>42292850looks like he’s mocking troye sivan sis
>>42293519>>42293988Are they mirror images?I can't tell.
I suffer somewhat as a tranny in Australia.QOTT: How are you surviving eternal hellfire anon?
>>42293964Chasoid
>>42293969Damn
>>42293976I am going to be the first to record myself crossing it. North to south.
>>42293997Well good luck, hope you don't get set on fire
>>42294021Thanks
The confused man looking at the food in the photo. Would you date him ? Why or why not and what part of the LGBT Umbrella do you fall in to ?
>>42293366I have no opinion on confused man looking salad burger picture overweight person hamburger looks to choose
>>42293366op it would have been so much easier to just post a selfie you didnt have to search stock photos for a guy that looks like you
>>42293748You must have some opinion, how can you have no opinion ? >>42293800 do people post selfies on 4chan ?
>>42293901more than they post stock photos of guys struggling to choose food yes
>>42293380Its the deadest boardon 4 chan now
>be me, mtf who is stealth in most aspects of my life>Starting out as an early career therapist >Care a lot about the mental health and well-being of my community> dedicate myself to mostly seeing other trans women>Bc of this I state on my marketing profiles that I'm trans>Have a nice set of clients that I see and pretty happy with the work im doing>Holidays are so over and as a result I get a flood of people wanting therapy>Like 1/3rd have been boomer sissies and when we have a consultation call they use it as a time to tell me all about their fetishes over the phone in a creepy way> Im completely professional/clinical and don't let on that im uncomfy>Not opposed to seeing this population for actual therapy bc I think everyone deserves it but they never actually follow up to get therapy >Getting calls from men basically telling me they're masturbating to my profileWhy do they have to ruin everything? It's seriously making me reconsider disclosing in my profile but there's almost no trans women who are therapists and I want trans girls to be able to find me. Also ask a tttt therapist anything I guess
>>42293463Probably 2 years HRT + FFS before I consistently passed. 3 years hrt now and “stealth” in certain domains of my life. Like I said it’s in my bio on therapy websites so anyone who searches my name would know.
>>42287319Im recently coming to the realization im almost certainly schizotypal. It’s gotten to the point where people in my life have even asked me if I am lmao. And when I look at the symptoms they seem like they match what I experience pretty closely. Some symptoms are even the exact issues I’ve gone to therapy for in the past with little success. So if I were schizotypal and received treatment what does that entail? Would a successful treatment allow me more motivation in work and help my social skills? And what should I look for in a therapist if I want to explore this?thank you in advance if you had the time to respond.
What's the most common comorbity you see in trans patients - maybe aside from depression?What kind of reasons / patients do you not immediately write letters for (and how do you know in a short time)?Was there a therapeutically valuable talk about fetishes with a patient as well? (I feel like I need this given how my kinks eat at my self-worth)
>>42293807First of all I think it’s great that you’re considering therapy. People with that diagnosis usually do not trust doctors/therapists enough to ever seek help. I don’t have a super lot of experience with this as an early therapist, maybe the PsyD here could also respond. I think that your treatment would be probably be a lot of CBT, exploration of relationship patterns, social skills roleplay, ect. I think for that particular Diagnosis given the mistrust element I would look for therapists who are again relational and those who you feel like you can trust with your emotions, rather than who seems the most qualified. You feeing safe in sessions will keep you coming back, which is hard with that particular diagnosis>>42293841In terms of overall personality, and it’s not necessarily a diagnosis, but avoidance is a major one. It goes along with depression though. Also, I’ve seen a lot of cases of clients claiming DID and BPD.I dont write letters for those who are like homeless or imminently housing insecure. I work with them to find housing first. Also those with unmedicated schizophrenia + heavy substance use issues is another combo. I’ve only ever had to refuse one person a letter and it wasn’t really my decision but the decision of my supervisor at the time. I absolutely will talk about kinks with my clients and how they serve them as coping strategies. My post was more about people taking advantage/sexually harassing me through these consultation calls. I would absolutely never shame a client for any kink, unless it was directly harming someone else or involved the endangerment of a vulnerable individual
>>42293805When did you start HRT?
Ever since I got my orchiectomy, my boyfriend has been bullying me. He keeps spreading my thighs and resting his big huge cock and hairy balls on my soft pale sack where mine used to be and just rubbing it over my much smaller lip pp. then he just smirks at me and keeps telling me that I can "never go back," and that my bloodline is ended. He keeps bringing up the fact that i used to be a boy and tried and failed to get with girls and then "gave up" and accepted domination by a superior male because i was only 5'5 and 120 lbs. He's so stupid, that's not what happened at all! It's so frustrating because now any time I shave my legs, paint my nails, or bottom for him, i can't get this humiliation out of my head that I've shamed my ancestors by being castrated and feminized. It's especially bad when we do anal because it now feels so humiliating how the hole i poop from is being stretched out and used by him like a sex toy to get off, meanwhile I have to relax myself and arch my back and just focus everything on letting it happen and even then it makes me ache sometimes when he goes in deep and does it kind of rough.How do i make my boyfriend stop doing this and show some respect? I like him in every respect other than this humiliating degrading meme he's pushing that I'm a wimpy, castrated, failed male who "lost" against his superior cock.
>>42289739Idk : >
ngl, i put the vibrator on my clitty reading this.7/10. decent hornypost.
If any of this were real then you wouldn't be posting it here.
>>42290824Honestly why do you think that lol it's so unbelievable how deep the self hate is here it's not that unusual to have a boyfriend who does this stuff. I assure you as God is my witness it's real, that other hon declined my offer to face off but i have in the past. People claiming my completely run of the mill tranny life is a larp, or that i have to be unattractive or my life has to suck because I post here are honestly so aggravating. How fucked does your perspective on life have to be to think that THIS is unattainable
>>42293659i believe you nona i know the feeling. main difference is i was a lateshit so dont pass.
hello are any men here interested in killing or mutilating a non passing boymoder ?
>>42290575lol me too. i don't feel bad about it really, but i only want to do it to men, usually.
>>42290221what do you mean?
>>42290142hello would you maybe really be able to do it ?
bump
>>42289969if hypothetically you could book a bus ticket to a certain city and have no one to report you missingleast obvious fedpost
Just had the bleak realization that I’ve known i’m trans (ftm) for 10 years and actively repped. Mostly because of other people. If nobody else cared i would start hrt tomorrow, instead i can’t even speak the word transgender out loud without getting nervous. Anyone got advice other than rope
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>>42289167If that's your art I think I might have bought a commission from you circa 2021 lol
>>42290486The mbti thing was a joke lmao.
>>42290296>5'11POON OUT NOWt. 5'10 dood (there should be more of us, for optics)
>>42293349>>42290582How bad have short ftms been for optics my god
Reminder: This gen is for cis females with gender dysphoria. This is not a trans man gen. All posts that are considered off-topic should be directed to other generals, threads or boards.Keep the discussion exclusively about female repressing or fuck off.Prev: >>42183663
>>42284379it doesn't deserve a name
>>42282161Bunp
>>42282161I'm a boymoder and I like coming to this thread because I enjoy imagining a femrepper releasing all her pent up angst and hitting me and raping me.
>>42285703I've read both of those, I've also read Tokyo Ghoul re, Villain, OHSHC, Hana Kimi, Ghost Tower, Nisekoi, Fruits Basket, Prince Freya, How I Attended an All-Guy's Mixer, and others I can't think of rn. I don't mind if the "gender bender" character isn't the main focus I'm just in the mood to see more characters like that
>>42290753I think Jarb is kinda ita desu :3
> only want to have sex with men> only find women attractivei was so close why do i still have to be a fucking semirapebian. can somebody tell me how to find men attractive instead
>>42293780i thought i was this way until i started progesterone and men suddenly became much more attractive
So called "transgender people" when I pull out my 12 inch uncut dick and fuck them in the ass crazy style
>>4229100012 inches is not 3 metres, it's 0.3 metres0.3048 to be exact
>>42290478Only 12? Pfft
>>42290478crazy frog style
>>42290478Why is transgender people in scare quotes lol
>>42293915Because they're transcendentalling to a new realm
I wanted to join in on the last thread, but I was too late :(post yours, guess letters, interests, etc!https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/2812233
>>42293856>ftmmay i ask why?
>>42293903seen mtfs like this at uni
>>42293914Holy shit i mean ftm my dyslexic ass every time
>>42293902mtf girlmoder who hates herself
>>42293914i see. i just wear turtlenecks to hide my adams apple lol.
You have to spend 100 hours with 100 random anons from a board of your choice, 1 hour with each, in an empty room (they can bring stuff inside if they want).What board would you pick? /v/ and hope they bring their gamecube and that you don't catch any gamergaters? /r9k/ and hope they're all spineless incels? /fit/ and let them lift for 1 hour while you watch? The entire time you're praying not to get some weirdo
>>4229278450/50 you will be raped before being shot or just shot without the rape
/lgbt/, I don’t know the other boards well enough so I don’t want to take a gamble on them.
>>42289919/u/ obviously. I can flirt with the cis lesbians while the men would hate themselves for trying to get in between two women
/fit/
>>42291362>would rape you if left alone with you for an hourfirst time you experience classic projection 101?
i'm a white transbian girl who is racist and spends all my time browsing /pol/ tier content but struggles to be attracted to anyone whos not a black woman, wht do i do
>>42293450cold turkey all racist contentsnuff all racist thoughts as they come to youfind content like picrel on tumblr or somethingYou’ve got a chimp brain so all it’ll take to deprogram you is to look at different ideological slop. Afterwards you can become a respectable adult who doesn’t base their world view on what they see on social media. At this point you should be able to be around black people without being hopelessly cringe. The rest is straight game.No worries anon, if you put in the work you’ll be able to play out those weird plantation fantasies.
>>42293450stop spending all day looking at racist propaganda, probably
>>42293450Transition to rdrama.net and keep the slur and profanity filters on so you don't poison your vocabulary to the point that you can't get a black gf
>>42293450how tall are you
>>42293450find some other minority to get a hate boner about cause none of the people youre attracted to are gonna want to fuck you
