I am a 21 y/o trans girl living in the largest city in my state (on the east coast). I look like a monster. Every time a stranger refers to or addresses me with a gendered term I take note of it and log it in my phone (Only counting once per person, and obviously not counting situations where someone has access to information that would affect their decision, i.e. if I introduce myself with my name and they gender me correctly afterwards it doesn't count, it only counts when they're doing it based off how I look/sound/act, not based off things they've been told). I have been doing this for over a year.I'm currently, according to my records, gendered correctly 83% of the time, and I haven't been misgendered in 7 months. But the thing is, I absolutely do not pass. Like not even a little bit. I'm actually so ugly and masculine it's insane and it's unbelievable to me that I get ma'am'd anywhere near as much as I do. But I do.My question is, in cities, will most people refer to you based off your presentation regardless of if you pass or not? Are most people actually nice and respectful to trans people, and the internet is just disproportionately hostile to us? Or, am I just delusional about how clocky I am? I would love to hear the opinion of some fellow transgenders and normal-people experts. thankyou,,
>>40968569what about your files on every person you have ever encountered on the street? do they pass? how many are trans and how many aren't?if you don't have the files on every other person then you can understand why it's not that deepmost ppl never scrutinize or care that much tbqh
>>40968667I don't think it's all "that deep". I'm just wondering if people can tell if I'm trans or not. Either people notice I'm trans, but they don't care and they're just not transphobic, or, they just don't notice at all.
im thinking about starting pio, but i cant find much about itim two years hrt, been on and off prog for the past 6 months, 5'10'', 66kg/146lbs.i know the whole point is to gain weight while on it, so should i lose weight before starting? if so, what weight should i aim to be beforehand, and how much should i gain?i also remember reading somewhere that there is a less risky alternative with the same effects, is this true? is there anything else i should consider taking alongside it, or just in general?where can i source it in the uk? anything else i should know?thanks :3
>>40965905pio is fucking amazing if you do literally anything other than keep exactly the same weight. if you gain weight on it, you grow fat deposits. if you lose weight on it, you lose fat in places you dont want it and what you dont burn gets redistributed to areas you do want it. ive heard it works particularly well with retatrutide.>i also remember reading somewhere that there is a less risky alternative with the same effects, is this true? not really. there are similar drugs but none are as potent as pioglitazone. its the reference drug in all studies on fat cell growth and almost nothing else comes close. however...good things that have helpful effects that go even harder when combined with it include fish oil (adipogenic effects), arginine (mobilises fat deposits through GH related effects), retatrutide (dont combine with arginine), prog (boosts feminine fat deposit lipid uptake) (topical or injection preferred).do not eat a high sugar diet with this, stomach fat is more sensitive to insulin than other fat sites and youll ruin your results from it. go for high meat and fat content, thats your best bet to maximising results.
>>40966434I've been on pio for a month and didnt know about the high sugar diet thing, thanks for thisOverall seeing pretty good results so far
>>40966757yw fren. abdominal fat responds in an exaggerated manner to high sugar, esp high sugar and fat, so ye.
>>40966434this is rly helpful ty!!!
>>40965905it doesnt do anything
are there any transbians in virginia that want to be my friend? i live in the greater richmond area
Ya, I'll be your friend.
>>40966766I am actually so serious rn
>>40968238what is your discord? or do you want mine first
im afraid every day because i always feel like im wasting my life, but i have no idea how to get the things i actually want. so i just doomscroll this board. a decade spent in one room, nothing changes
>>40967845Where are you?
i am serving my sentence on terf island
>I want to use grindr but I've never used a dating/hookup app before?Any advice or experiences from grindr? Is it worth it?
>>40967362its not great for dating but for hookup yeah it can work
God I wish I were afab and had female privilege. God I wish I were afab and had female privilege. God I wish I were afab and had female privilege.
me too bro, me too
I love them… Guys or girls… I love them a lot, I love it when they don’t shut up about video game lore. I love it when they’re so passionate about it and they know so much, they probably watching analysis videos that go over stuff they already know but still watch it because they love that piece of media so much. Its too cute, it makes me wanna crack my head open. God I hate being a masc bottom.anons what is something nerdy that you love with a passion? you can gush if you want, I personally love japanese pro wrestling
Twice’s music, i love it and it makes me happy i could talk about their albums for hours, their performances :3 like every delusional fan i am convinced they feel different than other groups. its deeper than the music. they wouldnt be Twice with any of the members missing im thankful everyday for their success and how far they’ve come despite the challenges they face individually, collectively. i will die a once
I'm genuinely so insanely afraid of transitioning. Not because of anything that comes with it, but because of the smallest possibility that I might one day just completely change my mind, and realize that I actually prefer being a man. Or even worse, that I'll realize I'm just fine with being a man compared to being a tranny.This genuinely cripples me with horrid dread. I wish I had an innate sense of gender and wasn't completely depersonalized, so that worrying about this would be pointless
>>40968454I did my fourth shot today. Don't worry about that.This won't stop me from dooming, and getting reminded of all the ways in which I am actually just a mentally ill man who's ruining his own life. Doesn't help that hrt didn't have any mental health effects at all (I've been on it once already for 3 months), except of the intense anxiety that came from the small chance I might one day regret this.
>>40968399>>40968459Please, love yourselves. And don't kill yourselves. References matter, seek the best, they are in ancient times. Most of our lives are fantasies anyways, I'm not sure if saying this helps or not, but this is my view on the topic as well, just find the one that you are the happier with, allow yourself to be yourself and love yourself, so, don't do anything stupid with your body, please.
>>40968395The fact that there is a part of me that kind of enjoys having a dick is both a relief and something that makes me feel grotesque to my very core. Especially remembering all the ways in which I used to be a coomer before the tranny thoughts one day popped up in my head. The tranny thoughts at least completely killed my libido. Couldn't care less about what society thinks though.>makes me as uncomfortable as cannibalismI unironically don't see anything wrong with cannibalism and I would volunteer to try human flesh. I'm completely against basically all forms of acquiring meat of any kind though
>>40968399>There was never an inner femininity nothing at allJust me and delusionsexactly, since i was 14 years old the delusion grabbed me, even then it was fake, i never looked feminine. i just wanted it to be the case so i deluded myself and it took over my personality. i cant act feminine without feeling like a creepy man, ive always felt that way and it only got worse with age. so brutal.its crazy how you can just live your whole life as a stranger to yourself and then die and it just didnt matter. its not entirely our fault, people especially in the western world are encouraged to delude themselves and have hopeful fantasies about what life can be, thats individualism. but the reality is theres billions of people in poverty in the world and nobody cares and there is no solution for them. they will die as they were born, thats the sad truth about being a tranny. if you arent rich enough or genetically gifted. its over. no amount of wishful thinking will change it. some people are born in the USA and some people are born in a slum in delhi. Thats just how it is.
>>40968530I've never self harmed, nor plan on to, so don't worry about that. Doesn't make the desire go away, just acknowledging it's inane nature. >just find the one that you are the happier with, allow yourself to be yourself and love yourselfI wish it were that simple. I don't feel like a have a self to begin with, so simply thinking of what I might "desire" feels absurd.
Is it normal to fap 5-8 a times daily?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=soIdnMFl5vE&t=49s
>>40968368https://youtu.be/4SxWmN2GkAI?si=CEbHDLslZTdnKwMp
>>40968268There was no cobra in that video.
>>40968461Should I click it?
>>40968484https://archive.org/details/20250324_20250324_0702/%D0%97%D1%8D%D0%B4%D1%8B+-+%D8%B2+%D8%A8%D8%B3+%DA%AF%D9%84+%DA%A9%D9%87+%D8%AF%D8%B1+%D8%A8%D8%A7%D8%BA+%D9%85%D8%A3%D9%88%DB%8C+%DA%AF%D8%B1%D9%81%D8%AA+-+03+-+3.mp3
anyone else know for sure they're not a tranny but gonna keep going anyway? Ive intentionally has dysphoria for the last 8 or so years and i am 2y hrt now. ive had bad luck with breast growth and they only make me look more like a man on my huge frame. i want to tear them off. This is the coveted reverse dysphoria, i did it! autistic confusion got me here! i don't want to live anymore desu, but im about to start prog, and im gonna get ffs in the future, i hope i get more reverse dysphoria desu. I was never trans, just didn't feel like a person, still haven't successfully transitioned, still not a person. Yeah so now what i keep on thinking is, well this is fine, i will just make myself suffer more, i don't want to be a man
>>40968573>ive had bad luck with breast growth and they only make me look more like a man on my huge frame.That’s normal gender dysphoria, dummy. It’s not that you feel like your breasts make you look more fem and you want to look more masc, it’s that you’re worried that they make you look more masc. Drop the imposter syndrome and try to accept progress. I hope prog makes you feel better about your appearance
I am gay and I endorse trannies. All the faggots in this board that keep agroing trannies are probably inceloids that never sucked cock in their lives.Fuck off fake homos, you aren't "LGB" you are a STRAIGHT FOID from SHITTAIN
>>40967012it's a bit more subtle than that, but equally harmful!
>>40964982i'm gay and i kind empathize with trannies a lot and feel like we have the same struggles but now it's backfiring and i'm realizing i might be one also i kinda want tits also weirdly i started to fantasize about getting called a good girl its so over
>>40967874it's over
>>40967874im so sorry anon
>>40964987yes you will!t. agp who doesn't take no for an answer
Homosexual sex is only hot if I pretend I'm "the girl" for a masculine top or if the bottom is so feminine that's basically a girl with a dick.
>>40968456because you have shame over your homosexuality
>>40968473what if he just likes feeling feminized?
>>40968473i'm cis with AGP
>>40968482there is no JUST the reason he likes it is because society celebrates men having sex with women and hides or shames men who have sex with men
>>40968596unironically can we let people enjoy things?things like my dick in their ass? without trying to turn it into a diatribe about how we live in a society?
i'm not dysphoric but i have extreme orgasm and vagina envy and want to have sex or masturbate like a womanis it worth taking HRT despite being a disgusting male pervert that is chasing hedonism and then killing myself if i can't have good orgasms?
>thread full of people sharing their pragmatic experiences with HRT and what they like and don't like about it>>40968221>if you can't PERFECTLY become a woman don't even bother startingkek absolute repper logiccan't regret any choice you refused to make
>>40968158>I don’t remember ever saying that feminine, jobs were easy, just stressful in qualitatively different way than masculine -dominated jobs.this discussion was specifically about jobs that are so easy that one could sit around and exert "light effort" (which you still haven't defined) continuouslyto me a job that requires continuous attention that leaves you drained by the end of it isn't "light effort", that is just constantly living under stress>The distinction between masculine and and jobs (beyond “oil rig versus salon”) is actually not very big,this is a copout. we were just talking about how women gravitate towards certain jobs because it enables them to work in a certain way, and now you're pulling the "the difference in the jobs isn't that big" card>but it’s more about how the worker responds to stress.okay, so suppose a man and a women work the same exact job, what general trends do you see in the difference in their work style and response to this stress?>Yes nursing and med tech can be overly stressful and that’s why a lot of women end up looking extremely rough many years inand in what ways is the stress there different from the stress of a masculine job?Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>40968276>You mentioned earlier that you don't know any jobs that match the description of, "constant, steady paced, relaxed, long stretches of time".the only i can think of are extremely slow paced secretary or admin jobs that don't have a lot of work to be donebut those jobs are going away because companies are realizing if they have 5 secretaries they can fire 4 secretaries and make the remaining 1 do all the work>But if you look at Japan and how their corporate system is structured, you'll find the average salaryman gig to match that description pretty closely.don't they have high suicide rates? is a japanese salaryman job really less stressful than a western one?
>>40968383>the only i can think of are extremely slow paced secretary or admin jobs that don't have a lot of work to be doneIt's hard for sure. Like I said, our society is just naturally stressful to be in nowadays. Figuring out how you're going to deal with that is for you to solve.>don't they have high suicide rates?Yeah, because they force their employees to do ridiculous hours. Not all companies do it though.
>>40968444>Like I said, our society is just naturally stressful to be in nowadays. Figuring out how you're going to deal with that is for you to solve.being less stressed helps sex drive and leads to better orgasmsthere has to be techniques or methods to get into that headspace
don’t take t it just gives you the man bpd instead (i like this guy and need to kill myself about it. why can i just be unapologetically obsessed like before. guh.)picrel is me irl
>>40968169u joke but i already fantasized abt that b4 t,,.. i mostly want this guy to kill me tho for some reason
>>40968271nah i just went from sad emotional to violent emotional. not really mad. shrug
>>40968521who said i was joking ?
>>40968146hm idk. i just felt a change in the atmosphere of my brain yk
>>40968552waitt based
Prev: >>40876908QOTT: favorite fantasy creature?
guys i drew her :D say hi to her
>>40967647i don t think its something you can become you either have a need for sex or you dont. you can get raped and develop negative feelings towards sex to the point where you dont wanna have it but imo thats not actual asexuality.
>>40968524also you can force your psych to put you onto antipsychotics i guess. they usually kill sex drive. pretend to have an episode i dunno
>>40968478would
>>40968556no shes married to Me back off you freak
