>>42363410
I am in an emotional affair with my friend. I just realized it recently and have been spiraling over it ever since.
She is married. In my mind's eye, we were just being really good friends. Very close, all the time. Very supportive. Best friends, even. We can lean on and rely on each other in a way we cant trust most people with. We can pretty much see each other whenever, have pretty free access to each others' homes, time, personal space, thoughts, emotions. We've talked about some very sexual things but never done anything, which I think is why I remained ignorant. "Just close friends", or "part of my family", but if you read our texts or watch how close we are in person, youd think we were girlfriends or more...
I had a crush on her for a long time. That developed recently into romantic feelings. She has admitted to sharing some of the same feelings and yearning for a shared life. She knows its messed up and feels guilt over it. That's what made me start wondering if I was hurting her.
She's the most amazing person Ive ever known. She has been so so kind to me and helped me in ways that have frankly saved my life at least once. I owe her a deep debt of gratitude and love her - I want the best for her and dont want to hurt her. Her relationship has some problems that will destroy it in the long run if unaddressed, but it is not unsalvageable and she is so so vibrant and happy when around her spouse - I want them to fix what problems they have and I want them to work out. But I cant help aside from urging her to talk about her issues and needs more freely with her spouse. I dont want to pull away. The dark places her mind goes when she doesnt feel supported breaks my heart to pieces.
I wont lie, a part of me is also a little greedy. I wish on some level I could have her to myself. But that isnt a possibility, I think.
Ive been very numb the past few days since realizing the nature of what Ive gotten into. I just wanted to be closer to my friend...

>>42364177
Some of this isnt true. Some of it is just messed up perceptions of my mind. Maybe she doesnt see me the same way I see her. Idk. Maybe its much bigger in my mind. Idk tho. If I read some of the texts that have been sent off of an SO's phone, Id jump straight to "thats an affair" and thats whats fucking with me.

I've been getting stoned a lot recently. There are periods where I've done this a lot and then quit but I always come back to it. It's really the only thing that's made me feel good recently. Everything that was good in my life is gone. I used to stay sober because there were other things that I enjoy that I couldn't do when I was high all of the time. Well, now there aren't. I just feel shitty all of the time. Addiction runs in my family and I stayed away from drugs for the longest time because I knew it would happen to me --- and it did.

>>42363410
I always hated pets

You sound sexy

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>>42362186
>>42362204
Proverbs 5:3-20

For the lips of an adulteress drip honey
And smoother than oil is her speech;
But in the end she is bitter as wormwood,
Sharp as a two-edged sword.
Her feet go down to death,
Her steps take hold of Sheol.
read more.
She does not ponder the path of life;
Her ways are unstable, she does not know it.
Now then, my sons, listen to me
And do not depart from the words of my mouth.

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>>42362284
you are the real adulteress stop mentioning me on here in perverted ways and be normal with me and be my friend maybe even my bestie…

Bestie..

okay well i have to work and assume you will sleep… so pls pls pls pls pls pls pls be my friend lets be normal and care for each other and confide in each other and bond pls pls pls pls i love you bye for now

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>>42362538
Proverbs 29:3


A man who loves wisdom makes his father glad,
But he who keeps company with harlots wastes his wealth.

cute... i'm adding this to the list.

>>42364308
How old are you?

>>42363282
i mostly mean it in a sense like op said
>can't get along with the boys
>can't relate to cisgirls
>normies suck
>people always look at me weird
its all so alienating and isolating

>>42363233
Shi, i wish my momma is too good. I would feel too guilty.

>>42363442
momma is too good
but i'm fucked up

>>42363233
What is picrel please?

>>42362150
>>42362693
>you can only be happy if you can accept all of your shadow bro, if i say i'm halfway there i probably would be lying
i ain't no fake, i'm real as it gets

maybe the coolest person on here. strive to be like u one day

>>42359883
Wouldn't testosterone still be made and used by the body since a low dose won't shut down the HPG axis?

When did you guys start noticing changes?
2 months and nothing, starting to get concerned

>>42363908
Testosterone has antidepressive properties. You need estradiol. You have no sex hormone as we speak which is very dangerous.

>>42363920
If you are doing low dose monotherapy, that won't be enough to shut down hpg axis and will greatly hamper feminization.

If you're taking an anti androgen that nukes the axis and are taking little estradiol, that's dangerous.

If it's the former, you'll be running on adrenal testosterone production (DHEA) which is insufficient to prevent menopausal symptoms and all the other complications.

>>42364299
I was only on bicalutamide though and I don't think it shuts down production of testosterone, just blocks it. So I do have a sex hormone.

Is starting prog too soon really bad for you? I really want to try it

>>42364187
That wasnt me. I adhere to a strict code of honor (no pinkpilling). I will not be apopogizing to you as I have done nothing wrong and psychic damage isnt real.

>>42364236
So you are insinuating that any other dude who was called she/her in an argument would be able to just brush it off just fine?

>>42364304
on second thought your arguments are lame and beneath my level. go play golf or something.

>>42364336
I mean I don't wanna argue anymore I am tired of pretending I didn't like being called a woman

I am not operating at full mental capacity, I just can't stop thinking about the she/her thing

>>42364397
Fine I am pathetic, this is beyond lame and cringe and just plain shameful
Pretend I never said all that anon. I will go play golf and pretend I didn't say all that

>>42356192
man increasingly sure it happens soon though
nice part about living in the states is it's going to be easy to buy a gun, apparently shotgun to the head is the most effective method even though ppl on the forums typically discuss poisoning themselves
idk something funny imagining the sense of relief that people who finally decide to take hrt is ~approx how i'm feeling now

>>42358350
Height would be the hardest thing to get used to, but I'd be just over five feet, so that's short but not midget territory.
Androgynous features would be a plus. Vagina would be fine. I don't mind my penis but it's not a deal breaker.
I would definitely be growing my hair out, and I would not dress like I was a teenage boy meeting my friends at a bowling alley.

>>42362014
Stay fit, and finasteride/minoxidil. Maybe avoid smoking.

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>>42363069
yeah but like the thing is i have to either shave my entire face as often as possible to avoid getting a permanent shadow or i just shave enough to sport this mustache

I want to get a gun and shoot myself.

>>42360939
Congratulations on making a nice arrangement sound unpleasant. I don't consider a tranny gf fucking other girls to be cucking me.

>>42357488
Is it possible to find love with a hung bi trans girl that will goon with me to hentai and maybe occasionally we can spit roast a cis girl when we need to make white babies
I fear not

>>42357488
this thread makes me wanna be asexual, why do you let your "girlfriend" fuck other people, specially as a top (considering she doesn't like you touching it) and specially let her fuck theyfabs?? So glad I'm a faggot and don't have to deal with chasers or trans women jfc

>>42361604
Unironically if you would bottom for me that'd be really cute and I'd love for you to watch me fuck degenerate freak cis girls and other trannies. If you're really good maybe I'd let you fuck a tranny while I watch

>>42359489
grammar is confusing. i just like sex desu

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>>42360721
I like chinse cigarettes
>>42361318
Ya sure regular fat face
>>42362193
Ty
I suppose
I dunno i got told that alot that i look ftm
Tfw not white

>>42363941
>Ya sure regular fat face
regular cute face you dummy

The amount of agp in this thread

>>42363941
u look like u would play keys in a metalcore band

>>42363222
>i love you
Love you too strange person! :)

>>42327263
actually yes today was the first time i showered in a week

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Good morning anons, let’s do our best today!

A package of mine arrives today. I’m very excited!!!

hey yall, not australian but wanna move there, im american.

>>42364004
there has been a lot of you guys around lately and im going to assume its because of all the fascism going on over there

>>42364335
nah, i've been facinated with australia since i was around 10.

>>42363588
honestly valid i feel the exact same way but unfortunately there is no way to cope with it other than either hrt or delusion

>>42363588
the obvious answer is to use a male body to enjoy lust after

use your empathy to imagine it's yours

>>42360060
>draws a flat chested girl (boymoder)
>calls it a boy (ftm)
Why are artists like this?

>>42360060
My boyfriend keeps insisting he's a cis woman and isn't just saying it for brainworm reasons. But he literally takes testosterone and talks about having dysphoria. Should I take him seriously? It does seem to me like he's just brainwormed but I don't want to question his own selfid/preferences.

>2 years on testosterone next month
>haven't voice trained
>haven't gained any muscle
>haven't socially transitioned
>haven't become any more malebrained
>haven't done anything except become an alcoholic and gain 30 pounds
How do I cope with completely and utterly failing at transitioning

>>42358694
yes, on this board maybe, but the least discriminated against anywhere else because thats basically just a straight couple. are you gonna tell me straight people are discriminated against now?

>>42360581
2nd one makes more sense, its the person doing it that matters

>>42360258
based

>>42358694
Apparently nobody here is based. I would love to fuck the shit out of all the theyfabs. Like why does it matter gender and labels are made tf up, plow who u want. -trans girl

i enjoy theyfabs and date them but i also lowkey hate them too, i can do both

>>42358694
ew

>>42364343
That really sucks. I’m not even a tranny, but every place I’ve worked has had a weird sexist, toxic work culture that makes even me a bit uncomfortable. I wonder where you even find a job that isn’t fucked like that, if they even exist.

>>42364121
>Kms wish I was a cis woman lol
Don't we all
>isnt cold approaching weird af
Everyone has to introduce themselves at some point to get to know new people, you just can't be weird about it, which might be hard since you got anxiety or wtv u calling it. Just say hi and introduce yourself, ask about them. People love talking abt themselves.
>Nooooooo Id like a skinny retarded tranny
There's plenty of those out there too

>>42362995
I think we need some sort of ai matchmaker that takes our hobbies, interests, and data and finds someone who matches you perfectly.

>>42364216
>I think we need... ai
ERRR wrong. You need to get out there and stop being a pussy.

>>42364243
>You need to get out there
i think you forgot where youre posting this

>>42364243
But, Theres billions of people. theres no way I can find my perfect match in my lifetime even if I tried. But AI can quickly cross-reference my hobbies and likes and find it for me