i know when my planet doesnt want me! i'm blowing my brains out first chance i get, as soon as im not needed anymore. being a tranny, being gay/asexual/straight/bi/i dont know nor have i ever known, being a faaaaaaaggotttttt i dont care anymore! i dont need to find "stable employment", i have enough income to save for a gun!
>>42391103I've tried it all short of a relationship. The only things that have changed are I'm unmedicated and free of a toxic friend group. It seems so pointless.
>>42391235It's a start, but have you met people you actually enjoy spending time with?
>>42391820A few. Most live in europe, one a day's drive away.
>>42392074That's a good start, do you talk to them about your issues? What is it that really makes your life miserable? Like OP the dogshit environment?
Crazy, I've never considered guns having a price, just never entered my mind before. How much is your average pistol?t. ukfag
Anybody here actually want to become androgynous? Did you achieve your goal? HRT or no?
>>42391225My realistic goal is androgynous dick girl but idk if I'll ever get there
that's me...ultimately i would like to be androgynous, but i don't know how to seriously pull it off so i pretty much just present as a woman. i have been getting "misgendered" every so often lately, or at least i think i have, but it's hard to tell because each of these times could have been me mishearing or not having full context to what was being said or if it was even about me...but i'm pretty sure i've been gendered male a few times in the last one or two months. a customer at work apologized for calling me "ma'am", i think, which i thought was funny but i still can't be sure about; i wish i had asked him why he apologized but i didn't think to in the moment.i haven't really changed anything about my presentation aside from stealing and wearing constantly one of my dad's cool-ass jackets (although i was not wearing it when the guy apologized to me for whatever it was), so it might just be that i need to dress differently to pull it off. i'm not sure though.
>>42391225I wanted to but unfortunately im the kind of androgynous thats kinda ugly so im still unhappy.
>>42391225i wanted to be negatively androgynous but then realized that i'm just a normal tranny and stopped enbycoping and ended up as a positively androgynous hon
>>42391225got what i wanted from hrt as an enby. i just look like a 16yo hidng tits under my hoodie. most social interactions revolve around cis people trying to figure out what’s in my pants but leave even more confused.
I swear I'm not gay, but I love the feeling of something in my throat especially when I'm gagging on it a little. It's a very erotic sensation for me, I'm not sure why.
>not gay>loves to gag on itBrother, do I have a type of woman made just for you
>>42392189But do trans women like this?
>>42392198yes, enough of them do. now go with god
>>42392202Holy shit
loud, constant, performative misandry does not make you socially female
>>42390097misandry is wrong but preforming it does literally help you pass tho
Okay but like imagine if we just took all the men and then we simply just tie them together in a nice long human centipede
>>42390097i don't do that though
>>42391730It very much is
>>42392064why do you assume it’s performative and that I don’t genuinely hate men?
Most 4chan posters like vidya, anime, manga, TV, film, music, comics, cartoons, weeb shit, etc. as interests and hobbies.Why not specify what kind or your favorites in your post? It says more about you and will likely net you better adds than just posting "I like /v/, /a/, /tv/, /mu/, /co/, /jp/, etc." in the bio.>ASL (biological sex, or gender)>letter(s)>primary interest>other interests and hobbies>looking for>not looking for>(free space)>tag
>>42387671borzoidd
>>42385833Where are you from? Timezones are important
>>42388894Post your discord, I'm not much for Warhammer but rpgmaker games are one of my favorite things, there's no guarantee I end up in western Illinois though, it entirely depends on whether I'm able to get this place
>>42390092Here's my alt, hope to speak soon! ^-^petrifexi
>ASL (biological sex, or gender)28/manmoder/Florida>letter(s)Bi, T>primary interestMusic (particularly metal but I like all genres. Favorites include Boris, Susumu Hirasawa, Gridlink, Joy Division)>other interests and hobbiesMartial Arts, comics, animation>looking forFriends people to talk with>not looking forChuds, overly pestering>(free space)>tagUkemiRandori
How can I tell if a tranny on a dating site (who discloses her trannyness after some back and forth) would keep quiet about being a tranny or if they would be loud about it? How do I ask this question without offending her? I have aspergers and I don't know how to do this.
>>42392111i guess in the interest of answering your question... you could ask her who she's out to in her life. but op, this seems pretty rude. would it be bad if a tranny was "loud about it"? why? are you ashamed to be dating a tranny? thats not very nice.
>>42392111Ask her to take the quiz that compares your assimilation vs liberation values or whatever, if she's high assimilation then she will keep it a secret
>>42392143I have gone through the various paths here and essentially she can't be out (except for one path that I don't know how to deal with).In short, everyone I know of would heavily disapprove and I don't know her or love her enough to sacrifice everyone I already know for her. So logically she can't be out if we want this to work out.And thank you, your suggestion is really good. It seems to obvious now. Wow, you're good
Exercise Editionprevious: >>42162119Goal of the thread: Go out for a walk, or try to get any other form of small exercise (walking stairs for 5 mins for example)Daily goals can be repeated. Remember to keep score, it can only go up!>What is this thread for?Getting better is hard, and sucks. A lot. It does not get easier doing it alone.Share resources and experiences with combating depression, anxiety, personal issues, achieving or maintaining a healthy weight, etc.>Why is this thread /lgbt/?Struggles with mental and physical health are an indisputable part of /lgbt/ life, be it from dysphoria, social pressure, heartbreak, or just unfortunate lifestyle choices.>Notes to consider:Please be civil. Shame is your greatest enemy in fighting urges of self abuse (be it sh, drugs, or just self deprecation). Relapsing into bad and unhealthy habits is to be expected, the goal is to increase the average amount of time it takes between relapses. Any improvement is a victory no matter how small. Your worth and right to get better are non-negotiable. And most importantly:WE ARE NOT THERAPISTS, WE DON'T REPLACE MEDICATION>Note on adviceComment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>42388638your anger comes from a place of love.You're upset because you see people endangering themselves and feel powerless to stop it, don't you? I empathize..
hi frens, long time no seei feel lost and alone and i dont know what to do>NEET>havent seen sunlight since christmas>recently broke up with cisgf over the way she treated me (probably bipolar decision making but whatever)>severe social anxiety issueshow do i turn my life around? i dont want to be like this forever>also, when did they make this captcha such a bitch to do?
>>42391572What’s keeping you from seeing sunlight?
>>42391904myself, really.if theres nothing to do outside of my house i just wont do anything
>>42392079Well, the good news is that that should make getting some sunlight into your routine much easier. Just make a point of going on walks outside during the day. Sunlight is good for your mental health, and it can be a good way to get Vitamin D (as in the actual nutrient and not dick). So it’s worth going on walks just for its own sake. Like me, it’s probably not realistic, safe or physically possible to you to walk places you need to go, which is why you’re spending so much time indoors. Walking is also good for your mood and overall health. In the developed world, the average person is expected to sit more and move less than we actually should. And while I realize this is not the most important problem to solve, tackling this can have a snowball effect where other, more involved parts of your goals can feel easier or more achievable.
Did anybody else struggle to accept they were dysphoric prior to transition?I did everything I could to keep myself in denial for quite a while. Stuff like:>I don't hate my facial hair at all, I just prefer being shaved and feel disgusting when I'm not, and it definitely doesn't feel wrong>I don't hate my genitals, I'm just don't care about it and it's sometimes annoying, and it definitely doesn't feel wrong>I don't actually want to be a woman at all. I'm just aware of what can be nice about being a woman, because I'm an open minded man>I definitely don't mind having a body bigger than that of almost all women. I should be confident of it in fact, as other men would envy me
>>42389755I feel like that is what makes figuring it out whether one really experiences dysphoria or not so difficult. For some it is very obvious and clear, while others it just isn't
>>42389774You are still dysphoric because you know you don't want to masculinize any further, to the point you're describing it as losing your soul. So while you don't want to be a woman, you also definitely don't want to be a man, which still is textbook dysphoria
>>42390337nta, but for me it definitely isn't very obvious what I'm even feeling or whether I'm even dysphoric, but I know that being a man makes me miserable for whatever reason. I feel like I've lost my mind because I'm genuinely considering transitioning, but it's not like I really care about my life and the consequences it might have
I thought it was my weight so I lost almost 120 pounds. didn't workI thought it was my crooked ass nose so I got surgery. didn't work.I thought it's a hormonal imbalance, so I went to the doctor and everything was in norm.I thought it's depression so I went to a therapist. Therapist told me I'm a retard in denial about being trans and asked me to try "socially transitioning". It worked, so here I am taking E injections and Progesterone up the ass and I finally don't want to kill myself...
>>42392034What made your therapist come to the conclusion that you were a repper? We're you aware that you were repping?
>deliberately baited a tranny into assaulting me for having chuddy political views>feigned fear, feigned being threatened by her so she'd reactively escalate>went home and masturbated furiously to it replaying in my head>not even a real chud>also an experienced brawlerChaser life is the only life for me.
>>42386887what if she finds your views funny and leans into it for a joke?
>>42386887Unfathomably based
>>42387370Trantifa>>42387375Even better I could gf her.>>42390045:DDD
>>42386887Shut up bottom chaser
>>deliberately baited a tranny into assaulting meWorlds most fake and gay shitBored american kid with a day off wrote this entire thread
If there's any more of you on here, how are you feeling about being trans at this big age? I'm turning 29 this year and having thoughts about detransition. I'm definitely "supposed to be" trans - dysphoric and came out as a young teen and got on hrt at 20, pass etc. but I have this nagging thought that I should just grow up, repress, and make my career/relationships a lot easier by just being cis. The trans experience seems like a young persons game. But is that just like, reverse survivor bias? Would detransing just lead to being a John, 50 retranser?
>>42389181How did you find your husband? I am near your age and finding serious partner seems impossible.>>42390591Not all of us in this age range are of the gynephilic toxic positivity type.>>42388719Yes, it does seem like a young persons game. Painful to see have all those privileges I could not even dream of 20 years ago. All the fun always seems to belong to other people. I dont even have any friends or work even though everyone says I am pretty and friendly. Life is just mean and you learn to play the hand youve been dealt with.
The self hate > detransition meme is so toxic and boring I hate flavor of the month type posts like this. It's literally just buying into the conservative movement co opting detransition
Im 29 next month
>>42388719I'm glad I transitioned 1 month after I turned 29, enjoying the last year of my 20s doing this has helped me heal a lot. I still have 5 months until I'm 30.
I'm doing all right, wasted my 20s stressing over my looks boymodecoping and now I just don't care so much anymore. Like yeah I'm not as pretty as I was when I was younger but I still don't wanna be a man either, little point in detransitioning. Think I'll get SRS in the coming years and then probably catmaxxing or something.
Jason of /cum/ editionPrevious: >>42092689>QotTWhat other boards do you browse besides /lgbt/?Tagmap: https://tagmap.io/tag/%2Fbigen%2FFAQ:>Am I bi if I like women and femboys/traps?>Am I bi if there's this one member of the same-sex I'm desiring, but normally I like the opposite sex?>Am I bi if I sexually like both sexes, but only interested in romance with one of them?Yes, sexual attraction to both sexes is bisexuality.>What's the difference between bisexual and pansexual?Comment too long. Click here to view the full text.
>>42391892I'm open to trying to get fucked in the ass. I've fucked another guy before as a random hookup and it was whatever, probably would've been better if I had feelings for the guy. Having my dick sucked doesn't feel good. Having my face sat on or choking on dick while my head is crushed a dude's thighs are both peak sex. But I like women romantically and find on the whole they're more attractive than men on average. Plus I feel deeply deeply ashamed to have a man whenever I'm with family. I think I am bi but I'm retarded and ruined my brain with gay porn.
>>42391983>But I like women romantically and find on the whole they're more attractiveDo you have some sort of trauma involving women? What kind of physical touch would be ideal for you in a straight relationship?
>>42392002Not that I know of. Non-sexual related intimacy with a woman always feels incredible (hand holding, holding each other, kissing, etc) but as soon as she wants to fuck I can't do it.
>>42392027Do you think you’d be happy with something like that long-term? No sexual intimacy ever again? I think there are women who would be ok with that
>>42392067Probably not. Im not asexual at all but I would really hate for all my sex with my potential gf to be so self serving. And idk if I could get with an asexual girl. I'd probably end up looking at porn if I was with one and that's not something I ever want to look at if I'm in a relationship again. I just wish I had a normal brain that wanted to have straight, vanilla sex. None of this weird, gay shit.
she is transition goals
>>42392057bury pink is and will always be better than basedtan
Why did God make taking dick from trans women so much more enjoyable than most other activities found on earth?
>>42390088I refuse to believe you didn't already crossdress or have autogynephilic tendencies.
>>42390447The girls on the stage were all cis fems as far as I could tell. The trans girl was on the floor when she approached me. Idk if she even worked there or if they just didn't put her on the stage. >>42390389I'm still afraid of intimacy.
>>42390759>Idk if she even worked thereholy moly brazil is a wild place. trannies prowling the streets for foreign men to rape. who knew?
>>42390759>>42390992brb going to brazil
>>42390992I did throw a 20 on her while she was initially grinding on me consentually before it escalated.
I found a pornstar who looks exactly like my HSTS twinkhon crush and I've been gooning to her old BDSM videos. I pretend it's my post-srs crush and me (fully clothed dom) in the video, but I would do those things to her pre-srs too if she'd be willing, I just want to ravage and sexually humiliate her.This is the only way I can have her. There's no way she'll ever view me as a real man, I've already given up on trying to court her because I know it's hopeless, not that she's likely to be into this shit anyway. I know she subconciously views me as her safe lesbian friend, and it's why she feels comfortable joking to me about how much she resents her attraction to men. I laugh along and support her but inside I feel broken.St4t is a myth. She has 0 reason to settle for me, she's so beautiful that she could have anyone she wants, but I'm a dickless dwarf, dating pool fodder. But I accept this. If I just keep jacking off then maybe I could get it out of my system.
>>42388144>i found a pornstarbig surprise. go jerk your tiny dick
>>42388154yeah she mogs me tbqh
>>42388144any white boy can look like a woman istfg
this is healthy behaviour
>>42388144Just be a man and get her drunk and violate her personal space like she probably prefers anyway. Even if she's not that into you she'll probably roll with it.
any sports ball watchers here? could be football(na), football(eu), baseball just post your favorite team and letters I'll start >bi cism patriots
>>42391778i’m not even from boston, i’m from jersey. i just heard everyone talking about the nets sucking, so i chose the celtics because my mom loves st paddy’s day lol
>>42389997VIVA LOS DOYERS!!!!!>bi mtf manmoder
>>42391765I'm a huge Eagles fan and I love you
>>42391836>jerseyits never been this over
>>42388766GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE WITH THIS FASCIST CRAP, INCEL
