>>34012592
Your gf made you feel shame.
And then she threw you away. Making sure she was considered morally right by all. Including you.
Also this fucked up your life. And the worst part: you believe to deserve it.

>>34013003
t. OP is a retard and the problem lies deeper than just a simple 4chan post.

Also OP is a normie. Feels bar is opened. Get yourself a freebe. It's on OP.

>>34011772
Ask the people you care about i.e. those family and friends what you can do to make things right.

>>34042758
Didn't I deserve it though? Everyone thought so.
>>34042763
Eh, I'm not full normie but I fake it well enough.
>>34043861
I tried. They either said that it was unforgivable, or I'm blocked outright on anything that I could use to contact them. They made it very clear they want nothing to do with me ever again.

>>34011772
This is such a nothingburger, like what... people with a mental impairment can't experience eros morally? "She was only 22 you sick fuck."
It's not like you spent weeks and months grooming her and misled her into thinking you'd have Le Eternal Marriage or sth, it was a couple of days? She's been over it and you just have to reflect sincerely for 30 minutes a few times over and it's done.
If anything you're the intellectual retard for not seeing that sexting "on your level" is more fun because it can last longer, because it naturally stays wholesome longer.
You need to get over the guilt trips and particularly face down your shame, shame is your issue, but in terms of what you did it's nothing.
Just "face it", don't go into some shame trip, don't go into some guilt trip, learn more patience and equinamity and then gently remind yourself of it for a moment to see how reactive you still are, and work that down. That's the issue.
>t. sexually assaulted an autistic girl one time while sleep drunk and felt horrible about it for a long time

>>34035226
Depends on what sort of girl you want to marry in future, a nice trad girl would be very put off if you have a manslut history.

>>34041054
Dating apps have turned into escort services.

>>34043751
who cares?

>>34043772
I can still get laid though that's the thing

>>34044004
It won't be that easy I can tell you that anon, it definitely won't

>>34044421
You finally found someone who is just as dumb as you are.

>>34044421
it's the opposite for me, even when I win the arguments I still leave shaken and angry and ruins the rest of my day, I prefer when I don't argue with anyone
I've even blocked problematic people that AGREE with my points of view in twitter because when i see them constantly picking up fights it just feels bad.
It might have to do with my parents fighting a lot when i was a kid and me being (admittedly) very fragile.

>>34044421
reaffirms you're the main character anon...keep taking it to em

>>34044487
>Finally Anonymous, I've been searching all my life.

>>34044421
You have seriously misplaced priorities and a complete lack of understanding of what being man entails.

>>34044646
Femcels dont exist retard. They're hypergamous chadonly whores.

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>>34044532
4? years since we separated I think. I may as well be 5150'd at this point. I know just how mentally ill it comes across. We knew each other for 6? years, proposed to her and all.
It just comes in waves where I'm fine then when I'm in a dark place, for a moment, like a flash all I see, and feel, and smell was what it was like to be beside her.
I've had new girlfriends since her, but it's just never been the same, I just miss her smile, I miss her hair, I miss her face, I miss her body, I miss her tits, I miss her jokes, I miss her kiss, I miss her everything and no one has captured my heart again since.
I wonder why I can't let go, I don't know if it's because I can rationalise what happened, but not really process it, the grief, the... mess of it all.

In a way I find it incredible that women go away, they think, they process, they silently grieve and they move on nearly instantly. I believe she did that with me, pushed me away when I all I wanted was to be closer to her, she had me delete all her photos of her in front of her, she acted off, said she'd rather me look at porn than her, all of these things like daggers through my heart and... I left because I felt like if I stayed I'd only be hurt even more when every day it felt like she was ripping my heart out more and more.
When I left her I felt free from all the conflict we had, the misery, the distance she inflicted onto me and yet all I feel now is heart break.
I just keep thinking I should have seen the signs and fixed it, I know with hindsight I could have, breaking one too many promises on my end, acting like a dickhead at times, being mentally tunnel visioned on COVID and all the things that I couldn't control and not on what I could.

I wish I could have fixed it.
Thanks for reading my Tedx talk.

>>34044578
Retardation?

>>34044581
Just plain mental illness I think, kek.
It just seems to be a mental scar I can't seem to get over, even though I know it's not good for me.

I was drunk again last night, and woke up feeling that I'm tired of it. I know I'm bored, I know I'm lonely, and in a bad place. But dude, I'm just over it, waking up feeling like shit, headache, nausea, upset stomach. And its all for nothing, I feel like I did when I wanted to get sober and I do want to be sober again.

Plus, drinking alone is bad. If you're not in a social environment, or around friends having a couple you don't need to be drinking. Took me a while to get why society looks down on that. You don't have a couple when it's appropriate, you're a fucking drunk.

If I don’t kill myself before 33 something went way wrong

>>34040623
This. Stay away from the gay, meme, trad arts.

Bump

>>34021074
Get your son on a healthy dose of ultraviolence. I was the smallest weakest kid at school and started to get bullied by older kids but my dad made me watch westerns and play violent videogames until I got it and stabbed a bully's hand with my pencil

>>34044536
Lol I also stabbed someone with a pencil. So many blood. I should have done it more.

>>34021074
He needs intense socialization training by involving him in more activities with children his age outside of school so he learns that not every single person he meets is going to act the way he experiences at school. He has come under the assumption that being good and nice means never being assertive, and that banter is generally just bullying; if he could learn to give as well as he gets he will be better off and bullying will turn into friendly ribbing. Martial arts, scouting, Christian activities, get him into a band and get him a guitar or bass or drum kit and lessons. You will also need to talk to him plainly every once in a while about how he cannot know what other people think without being told by that person and that not everybody will be 100% about them but that’s okay because not everybody needs to be about you and to not let it take him out but to be discerning about the people he associates with. Also double check with his mom that she hasn’t done something retarded like tell him he’s getting given up for adoption as a tot out of anger, that kind of shit fosters major abandonment issues and a chronic fear of being tossed out of you’re not the perfect child.

Just tapping in here to check if anyone says red hair. Just trying to confirm a few things for myself.

>>34040237
If the only thing they value is externalities, no decent man will want someone who has such poor character.
Negative Score on Motherly Material.

>>34034188
Good communication skill
Good hygiene
Likes me
Not Indian

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He makes me laugh

>>34043964
Racist

>>34034088
Wish list or actual needs?
The wish list is basically
>Ginger hair
>Short
The need list I've found is
>A bit of wit
>Has the ability for a verbal back and forth
>seamless chemistry
That lack of tension and pull, that lack of mutual butterflies kills me, I like being in love like a drunk, where all the rhythms in life are in flow, being in a romance that is stone cold sober loses that magic to me, you can only ever see the flaws of the other no matter how nice or loving they are to you.

OP should have included age as minimum criteria, would've been very telling. So many replies from children who've never been in a relationship. Don't wait too long, idealists! Your eugenics program will fail you in the long run, but a good girl who lasts beyond the honeymoon phase and proves to be an asset is hard to come by.

Can't believe dumb bitch got knocked up by Elon

I want a hot alt girl but they’re life ruining. I should’ve learned my lesson twice, I’m too ugly and older now to attract any, but I still dream about them.

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>>34034088
>honest
>communicative
>wants kids
>health conscious
>has creative hobbies
>appreciates acts of service
>empathetic and kind but fair
>speaks English fluently
>has a job
>has friends
>wants to grow with me
>Christian
>loves me and respects me

you cooked bro... find her a bull and become a cuck or end the relationship

> live with she-chuds who will only make me worse
Have sex with them?? Or, if they're your relatives, give me their info so I can have sex with them and give you new little members of the chudson family?

>>34044535
NGMI

You know who else is a Chud? Pewdiepie. The difference is, his personal life is good. Millionaire, famous, good looks, has a loving family. His key to success was keeping the chud opinions to himself and playing harmless kiddie games until he made it. Same with Asmonbum.

>>34044573
Asmongoloid is a Thiel-banrolled nu-rightoid shill who nuthugs pajeets and kikes

>>34044535
What is a she-chud? Can I have one?

>>34042648
>It's just the Madonna whore complex for women
exactly, you get it
it's funny that Madonna whore is usually associated with men, when the average woman had it 10X worse

>>34040699
>Are girls in general just more scared of committing to a relationship now?
No. They're less scared of not committing.

>>34042654
>>34042293
So how come all my friends have girls? Is it really just a "modern" issue?
Also I really don't get "having your emotional needs fulfilled by simps" like, why would you care what some simp you presumably hate/resent thinks?

>>34040699
As a woman- as much as want a relationship- I do NOT trust myself to hold onto one because at some point I'm going to start self sabotaging and everything will fall apart and it'll be messy. I know damn well if I get into a relationship my lover will leave having some regrets.

>>34043601
You probably have BPD, its okay because 90% of women has that these days. there are pills for it.

>>34043617
The thing that would help people is treatments, which this might lead someone to doing, however it establishes an false attitude towards diagnosis and trauama.
Frankly the better version would just be getting someone to write down a life history as comprehensively as possible then ask an LLM to suggest treatments/practices from a variety of schools of thought/perspectives to improve it. Obviously might be hard to get normies to do that but it avoids the bad stuff in this. LLMs are very good at doing research to find treatments for various conditions and suggesting practices (if used properly, most people will just see what the first response is and take it as fact.) I also think the intentional restriction to "therapy" variations is just sort of you not understanding this subject. The majority of treatments are not therapy, the basic "self care" stuff like exercise, meditation, walking in the morning, fixing sleep, etc. has just as good if not better impact than most therapies or medications for many conditions. Therapy and it's variations is just another treatment approach which should be selected, people choosing which therapist or group therapy program they choose depend on LLM output is fair though.

Also on LLM you NEED to specify they need to do a deep research request, not just enter this into an LLM. I'd show a screenshot of the button to use on different llms. Normies will use the cheapest/stupidest llm, et some totally hallucinated output because they are using the free one and think it's real. I'm not sure which ones offer those for free now but that would be worth telling people about.

>>34043617
cont.
The fundamental issue with your suggestion is it essentially frames their life issues as coming from the listed conditions/traumas. If you frame it this way the LLM is likely to reinforce that. LLMs work simply based on text pattern recognition and if you frame things as being rotoed in some fundamental trauma's or "conditions" (mental health diagnosis ARE NOT conditions, they are invented categories/heuristics for doing research and treatment, no one "has" a mental illness. This is not a fringe opinion this is what they actually are, here is a talk by the head of psych at johns hopkins about it https://youtu.be/Af5RSk6Bx-Y this one is specifically on how the hyper specific causal framings can damage patients, relevant to you).

This form is basically set up for the LLM to teach someone their life has issues because of some magical "conditions" (that don't exist) and some weird hyper specific/negative framing of their life history and putting a huge emphasis on negative events. The issue is because how LLMs work with your framing it will in effect try to teach people that this IS the cause of their issues, and put a huge weight on the trait/"trauma". Most normies have 0 concept of what llms actually are and are likely to by into it and I see this as basically leading to people just buying into AI hallucinations and sort of deeply undermining the capacity for actually understanding their issues.
I've had people do something vaguely similar and the inane fucking bullshit people will read and think is "insightful" especially using psychological/llm language is insane, people are very susceptible to just buying into whatever it says even if it is baseless or fundamentally meaningless.

Using your form it will just teach them your frankly unresearched, unjustifiable and false foundation of "conditions" + "trauma" = your issues which will be bad for people, sine though the treatments might help you know 90% won't actually do them.

>>34044572
cont. again.
The only valuable way to have something like this would to have it be specifically a-causal, to not "force" specific causes onto the user like you are doing (since the LLM will just argue in defense of your shitty ideas) have it focused basically exclusively on any practical stuff they could do to improve their life/therapy programs/treatments they can find. Deep research modes can if they put in the city they live in find specific group therapy programs, or say if it's social issues places they could go to try talking to people. That stuff is valuable. LLMs should not be used at all to try to establish anything causal and it should be prompted specifically to say that, for the input just have some more open ended description from that person about their life and their issues, and ask it to suggest practical things they can do to improve it.
The focus on "conditions" and "trauma" is just like you hallucinating from talking to LLMs practically it doesn't actually give any insight or practical benefit. Someone just describing in brief a life history, their current issues, and how they'd like to improve their life and what is impeding them, then getting a deep research request for specific practices they can do to achieve that (which might include say specific therapies or other practices) would be easier and more effective than yours. As I said reading this w/ the emphasis on causes makes me feel like the LLM hallucinated causes at you and you just believed them, which is the risk with this stuff.

The main issue is because of the specific nature of the first part of the form, that is what LLMs will teach authoritatively as actually being the case, the cause of their life issues, which is just not true. The fact you didn't specify deep research, or WHICH llms to use (people will just use the cheapest free one and believe all the hallucinations) also suggests to me you have a very limited understanding of even how to use llms well.

>>34043617
My issues with therapists is that they never really care much, it's ridiculous. As it's part of a mentality that judges the severity of a trauma. Even though I have long lasting effects, it maybe would not be a big deal for someone else. Like imagine if you have been on bail for "only" 1 week instead, and tell them it affected you a lot. It's getting brushed off because "it was just one week, just let it go" and those therapists do more harm than help. Because you start to see the fault in you instead. And the advice is basically
>just force yourself to do the stuff you are afraid of
It's all so tiresome. It sounds great, but I'm too exhausted to try rn

>>34044582
also final in general:
I love how easy it is to see someone comes up with some harebrained scheme talking to an LLM and is totally convinced it makes sense and is rational because they got tricked by some middling llm model and probably weren't even using a good one.
This shit really obvious if you interact with LLM lots where it's just a bunch of loose not really related ideas chained together with nothing underlying them but presented with a like pseudo-objective character llms try to have.
i love ai psychosis it's fun to see but OP you are retarded

>>34039020
And?

Bump

^

>>34029153
Anime convention or something

>>34043790
Every time I’ve been, it’s been mostly white and hispanic weebs

>>34041886
Oh look... it the "I won't read yet another..." guy.

>>34044243
running is not a martial art. but you already knew that.

>>34043376
Wonder if this is bullshit like everything else. All I see is them shooting toddlers.

>>34043349
They tape their hands because they’re throwing punches so hard it can cause damage to the hand and wrist bones over time if not outright break them. The reason why boxers wear gloves isn’t to protect each other it’s to protect their hands from breaking while they mash faces
I don’t know where you heard that retardation from before

>>34044528
It's for when they run out of ammo

>>34041780
That's the thing. I don't know if she finds me attractive too or what. Or if finding out my supposed type made her pull back. Or if she's wondering why I flirt with her and stuff when she isn't supposedly my type.

>>34041840
I'm quite fond of her. I dunno, and the price is good. But then she adds silly jokes like wanting me to mow her lawn

Would you dudes ever pay a girl for sex? It could be a hot girl you know, or a hot escort or sex worker or whatever. Why or why not?

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Almost everybody in my life(men and women) are telling me to get on the dating apps.

This is even though they don't have a great opinion of the apps to begin with, and i don't think im going to have a good time either, im short(5'6)

Do they secretly hate me or do I go ahead and try?

>>34044358
I've never done it out of paranoia of getting fired from a job for it or something. Otherwise, I'd be down to rent some pussy.

>>34044358
I would pay to worship her feet but even that is illegal. :(